31/8/19 2:40 we will talk soon my friend. i promise you. 7 hour train ride tomorrow. praying it rains

15/6/19 00:14

oh. hey. idk if you missed me or whatever, but hey im back/ i missed having a place i could go incognito. its been a CRAZY ride since those last posts. C was a terrible mistake. but also taught me some good stuff. dont trust a 20 yr old who lives with his family & stans bts. whatever. people have been pissing me off beyond belief. also! i applied at couple jobs! so i might possibly have a job! its just retail at a local clothing store. it’s like rich white mum clothing. but my current love life is spooky rn and im scared bwhaha

11/10/18

hi. its me, again. im single but i think im okay. i’ve gotten lead on for a total of 4 times, i feel like im drowing. i just want someone to come beat the absolute shit of myself, im so done with boys. i feel like all my relationships have really bad on me. can i just date one person who doesnt make me feel like complete fucking garbage? can my love life please be somewhat okay? or am i fucking insane for wanting to love one person and give them all i have to offer. today was fucking shit. i found out this girl i was really close with like two/three years ago was using me the entire fucking time and i wish we were never friends. i cant believe that fucking cunt. i asked my friend sid “hey do you wanna go to twitchcon w me? everyones busy,” and she was like “i gotta talk to my fam” like okay yeah totally and she whispers “its an entire trip to california or free. even if you dont like her you still get to meet jenna & julien.” my whole day is so fucking bad i cant wait to stop breathing and i cant wait for death

24-9-18 15:53

I’m so sorry its been so long. I’ve been extremely busy with school and shit. everything is just kinda weird right now. i’m trying to get my service dog and a snake, my relationship plus all my delicious mental problems! This kid i used to like has a new girlfriend and dam that shit kinda hurted ngl, I’ve been listening to too much brockhampton and tyler the creator. have i ever mentioned how much ocd and anxiety sucks? its like riding a bus on the worlds bumpiest rode and then trying to balance books on your head. I kinda figured myself out, i need a beach day & a glass of grape juice mate. I’ve got my sensory overload to disappear a little though so thats kinda cool. i might try to go see arctic monkeys in concert though! i love arctic monkeys! they’re probably one of my top 5 favorites. well ill see you soon <3 buh bye <3

19/8/18 1:07

i got off the phone with C a bit ago, and gosh he makes me so happy. today i found out a boy i go to school with likes me, its kinda weird. i used to like him, like awhile ago. i dunno, its so weird. i love con though, tonight was rlly good. currenting listening to R.E.M by ariana grandes new album sweetener. C makes me so happy and im so excited to meet him. i want to kiss him so bad i like him so much, im such a softie ugh yuck gay gross. i have school so soon and im so scared ughh

19-8-18 00:08

hey, so i started this blog to talk about my life. its kinda shitty but whatevs. writing is really important to me. im 16 about to be 17. its my first time going to public highschool. ive been homeschooled for about 4 years.i have one friend here, remy, they’re really kind and i love them so much. my ex is currently staying with me cause we were supposed to hang all summer... then we broke up. hes really shitty to me and i hate it. i have a really kind person in my life i love him so much. lets call him.. C, hes so kind and supportive, i genuinely dont know what id do without him.  my life is just insane. i have ptsd, anxiety, and depression. i have too many physical issues with my body to even start. im obsessed with music, cute skater boys & anything pink or black. i know how to not be focused and turn any good situation into a bad one. things im good at: making a scene, being over dramatic, loving toxic boys & petting cats/dogs.