Life Is Not A Self Improvement Project

I am forced inside I am forced to the depths I am closing my eyes I am deep quiet under a noisy mind I am remembering how dangerous it is to only look out I am an ant on a tree, on a section of a tree, walking my walk I am a vital part of something I am Whole Grounded Calm Conscious Presence.

Dream:

You think you’re really ready to integrate it all, but then you dream about them so intensely you wake up heavy breathing and in a panic.

You got two tattoos - one big and ugly one on the underside of your hand and palm, in blue ink... One so big and ugly that when you wake up, you actually look at your palm! You didn’t. Thank God.

If it makes me sad, it’s because it’s sad. But I see it now. I see it like I’ve never seen it. I see it. I can and I will stop performing for Love. I will be. I’ll be a kinder more loving human and artist in the world. I am able to be more me. A happier me. A happier and more me me, and everyone wins.

She said, “I know I can fly. I mean, my body can’t, but I know I can, I know it.”

I found this funny because we were on a plane, but she didn’t seem to realize or even get the irony. She was flying, but, she meant “flying… between worlds and planets;” her words, not mine.

She was young. Super young, I’m not old, but 10 years younger is young. She was hungry. I know that hunger. She thought her job was to save us all. I know that job. She was a veracious reader and had a lot of thoughts and wanted to get it all right. I know that longing. She refused to drink water because she didn’t want a plastic cup. That’s commitment I thought, because planes are mad dehydrating. I know this human, I was this human, and now I’m in an aisle seat and on the edge of becoming grumpy and giving up; I liked her. She made me a spell, she liked magic, she had fierce hands.  

This was all in the first 45min. We had 5 hours to go.

It’s the dreams of pulling them out from behind your eyelids.

It’s the little things.

It’s the chargers that only work when inserted in one very specific way and the spices left behind.

It’s wondering when was/ is too soon.

Too soon too tell.

Time takes time I’m told. Marathon not a sprint she says.

How long can we remember? & how long until we forget?

Have y’all met Sebastian... he’s... unique! . Couch Potato Chronicles Season 2 . @lainniefelan @elenurcia @alejandropatino12

All I am is a retweeter. I can’t make up anything that’s hasn’t already been said. I’m just a filter for it. . Knowing that: May we all be happy. May we all be peaceful. . Joy captured via @danagourrier (at Getty Villa)

“Where are you from? No, where are you REALLY from?” . Animation by @cristina_schulman . #nyc #ethnicallyambiguous #whereyoufrom (at New York, New York)

Disney Land or Silverlake??? . . #fannypack #fannypacksareback according to @svalencia23 (at California)

There is a lot of joy. . There is #divinetiming . It is working out. #payattention #focus #reset (at Mount Hood, Oregon)

We are here We are alive We are here to light up the world with our light.

It is a choice What we do with it To move forward To not be weighed down by what came before.

Divine timing Karma Prosperity Whatever you call it

I give thanks That the truth is setting us free That everything is happening for our good That there is a worm hole of infinite possibility that looks identical to you and I.

Since day 1! Here’s to community, love and knowing you got a great family! The fellas!! A great weekend and celebration away. Congrats @jking43 (at Timberline Lodge & Ski Area)

Sometimes, giving is knowing how to receive. Sometimes, offering is not giving. . Put yourself in a position to #give more and watch how much more you will receive. . #givemore #howcanihelpyou #service (at Mount Hood, Oregon)

The game wasn’t built for me But I’m gonna be a part of it and build my own way into it. . . All We Are Ever Doing Is #Creating Or #Destroying. . . What are we creating, what needs destroying? . . The Real James Bond Was... Dominican 📷 @zohracha #dominican #latinx #jamesbond #ethnicallyambiguous (at The NoMad Hotel, Los Angeles)

Just be simple and easy about things . . Find you a dance partner and a fur coat... #disco @svalencia23 @teenymontalto (at LA Opera)