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heartofwritiing · 2 months
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hi guys.
I know i haven’t said anything this week. i’ve been thinking over and over in my head trying to find the right words to express my emotions and the thoughts but I can’t. I am exhausted. mentally and emotionally.
I just wanted to come on real quick and say im taking a break. if that wasn’t obvious to me not being active. I don’t know for how long but, I am not in a good place mentally right now.
This whole situation has brought up a lot of trauma for me and Im not doing well. I hope everyone is doing okay. Thank you for all the support whenever you have read my stuff, it genuinely means a lot to me. See you soon.
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heartofwritiing · 2 months
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for anyone who needs to hear this:
YOU are not a bad person for feeling upset.
YOU are not a bad person for staying neutral.
YOU are not a bad person for waiting for confirmation.
YOU are not a bad person if you don’t immediately want to drop someone who you find comfort in.
YOU are not a bad person if you don’t want to get involved with the situation.
YOU are not a bad person if you need to take a break.
don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. eat, drink water, take a nap, and take your meds if needed <3
- Taylor
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heartofwritiing · 2 months
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i love flowrshop fics they’re too wholesome! love that you did this with dadbur it’s so sweet! 🥹
hallloooo :3 i saw your requests are open so i figured i'd send one in!!
(if you're alright with it) how about some fluff with reader meeting dad wilbur for the first time while he's out and about with his kiddo??
also can i be 🐀 anon?
Hi 🐀 anon! it’s been a while since i wrote some dadbur - let’s change that
daisy
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pairings: dad!bur x flowershopowner!reader
summary: a dad and his daughter enter your flower shop, and he ends up leaving with more than just flowers
contains: wilbur has a five year old named melody. this is set in early 2021. non gender specific. lower case intended ^^
a/n: i’m back??? and almost at 100 followers :D this is not proofread
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you sigh out in disappointment as you check your watch for the umpteenth time this afternoon, only for it to still be half past five.
only fifteen minutes until closing
you absolutely adored your job, you got to spend five days a week doing your favorite thing in the world - taking care of plants. since childhood you’ve had a hyper fixation with plants. from the tiniest little dandelions to big beautiful tulips you were obsessed. you could tell gardening facts all day to anyone thats willing to listen and still not be bored.
work was your haven, you got to hide behind plants and be in your own little world, secretly whispering words of encouragement to the little buds so they’d blossom into gorgeous flowers and dealing with the occasional scary customer. it was very rare that you looked forward to closing and leaving your flower babies.
well, today was one of those kinds of days. for starters, your go to cafe for pre-work coffee runs was closed for renovations and the next nearest cafe was 3 miles away (and there’s no way that you’d get there and back to the shop in time before you had to open) so that was out of the picture. another shop that you shared the building with next store had accidentally set off the fire alarm and everyone had to emergency evacuate, a very irritating interruption to your day. when you finally got the clear to go back inside, you had the pleasure of dealing with an angry karen who claimed that she had ordered four potted flowers online and they hadn’t been shipped yet, although her name wasn’t on any of the shipping records (you figured out later that she had gotten yours and another flower shop mixed up) and to make matters worse a 10 year old knocked over your favorite potted lilly and it shattered into a million pieces that you had to angrily sweep up.
so yeah, you were looking forward to getting home, taking a hot bath and getting the fuck to bed. although there were only fifteen minutes left until you could clock out, you still had some responsibilities left. you grabbed your pastel yellow watering can and walked over to pot of little white daffodil buds. “drink up, little ones.” you whisper to them as you slowly pour some fresh water into the dirt in which they were planted in. a sense of calm washes over you as you watch the water trickle out of the spout and pool into the earthy dirt. to you, plants had the power of healing. they helped you slow down when things got to be too much.
this moment of tranquility was interrupted by the chime of the bells that hang above the front door. you still had one more customer.
or rather, two.
a little girl with curly brown hair clutching a stuffed turtle comes running into the shop, and dragging behind her is a lanky 6’5 man with the exact same brown curly locks almost covering his eyes, and an arctic monkeys t-shirt. the girl makes a beeline towards a whole section of white daisies in pretty arrangements.
“papa! look how pretty!” the smiley girl exclaims to her dad, reaching out to touch one of the pearly white petals before her dad quickly stopped her. this scrunkly (yes it’s a word🙄) gentlemen looks wayy too young to be this girl’s father, but who were you to judge?
“careful melody.” the man gently grabs melody’s hand to keep her from touching the flowers. “they may be pretty but they are delicate, we don’t want to hurt the pretty flowers do we?” melody giggles and shakes her head, earning a smile from her father. he’s about to say something else but loses his train of thought when he sees you appear into his field of vision.
“welcome! looking for anything specific today?” you use your most cheery customer service voice, even though your mood was anything but cheery. your smile though, was genuine when you caught eyes with the little girl in front of you, who seemed enchanted by the abundant display of flowers that filled the shop. the man in front of you quickly took off the red beanie that was perched on his head and fixed his hair, shooting a quick smile at you that made your stomach flutter.
“uh, no actually. just looking around, she loves flowers so she deemed it necessary that we stop in here.” he says politely, gesturing to his little girl. you smile and nod, crouching down to her level.
“what’s your name?” you ask the young girl softly with a big smile. she looks up at her dad and he gives her a reassuring nod. “melody..” she says with a bashful smile and looks down at her sparkling pink shoes. “it’s a pleasure to meet you melody, i’m y/n.” you grin, extending your hand to shake the younger ones substantially tinier one.
you didn’t notice it, but the brown haired man pretending to be interested in some strawberry seed packets was already starstruck by you. maybe it was the way that you treated his daughter with kindness, or just that gorgeous smile of yours, but you intrigued him.
“do you have a favorite flower?” you question melody, in which she nods enthusiastically and her eyes light up with excitement. “daisies!” she chirped, pointing to the assortment of daises to your left. “what?! no way! daisies are my favorite too!” you exclaim, watching melody giggle.
you stand back up glance over at the girl’s father, who awkwardly shuffles back away from the seed packets and back to where you and melody were standing. “he was kind of cute…” you think to yourself, but quickly push the thought away. he surely had a wife, or girlfriend, or somebody that he was involved with if he had a child. you smiled at him and fumble with the mood ring on your finger. “if you don’t mind waiting, i might have something in the back that she might like..” you say with a subtle wink. he catches on and winks back, and just like that, you disappear into the back room.
all wilbur can think about is that he has to see you again after this.
you come back two minutes later holding a tiny pot with a baby daisy planted inside. melody squeals in delight and tugs on her dads pant leg. “it’s a baby daisy just for me, papa!” wilbur’s eyes light up when he watches you carefully hand the pot to the child. melody holds it like a baby, which makes the whole scene so much more endearing. “it’s so pretty, sweetheart.” he over dramatically smells the flowers when melody shoves them in his face to smell, earning a chuckle from you. when melody wasn’t looking, he mouthed a thank you which you smiled and nodded in return.
while melody sat on the floor and talked to her stuffed turtle about her new plant, you led the man, after some small talk about bugs and plants you learned was named wilbur, over to register so you could ring him up. “can i help you find anything else today? nothing for mom? sister?” wilbur’s eyebrows creased for a split second after you mentioned mom but quickly resumed his natural smile. “nope, we’re all set. it’s just me and melody, anyway.” he adds the last part just to get the point across that he’s single.
you hum in understanding and flash a quick smile at him as he hands you his card, and you quickly insert it into the system. you couldn’t help but notice that cute little beauty mark just underneath his eye. you smile to yourself at that observation and hand him back the card.
if he wanted to make a move, now was his chance. he tapped his foot anxiously, knowing that if he missed this opportunity he’d kick himself forever. “alright, well, the instructions are attached to the pot. my only tips are to place it by a su-“
“actually, there is one more thing you could help me with..” he cuts you off nervously. you smile and nod. “of course.”
here goes nothing…
“maybe giving me your number by chance?”
his palms are sweaty, and he’s praying to whoever’s listening that he didn’t just totally blow his chances and come across as a creep. you, being completely oblivious as always, take it the wrong way.
“oh of course, i keep my business cards right here.” you hand a card to wilbur, and he awkwardly accepts it, feeling so mortified. he smiles and laughs it off, feeling his cheeks go red.
“i’m sorry, i’m like..really, really bad at this..” he chuckles, looking down at his shoes and then back up at you. you were confused, to say the least.
he tries again. “i meant, like, your number..if that’s okay with you-“ he quickly adds the last part, not wanting to come across as demanding.
now you were the mortified one.
you felt the blood rush to your cheeks as you finally realized what he meant. you breathily chuckled. “ohh. i’m sorry i just-“ you were at a loss for words, smitten, even. you throw your hands up in the air jokingly. “i’m an idiot.” you continue to say, laughing off the whole situation.
this makes wilbur chuckle, relieved that you weren’t weirded out or something. “no, no, it’s my fault, i should’ve more clear..”
you giggle, grabbing a piece of scrap paper and writing your number down, along with a little heart and handing it to wilbur, who bashfully accepts. this man that you had known for maybe twenty minutes had you a blushing mess.
“uh, i’ll call you. maybe we can grab coffee, or if you don’t like coffee then we can maybe-“ you quickly cut off his rambling. “i’d love to.” you smile, tucking a strand of hair that managed to escape from your bun behind your ear. he blushes and smiles.
“alright, i’ll call you.” he repeats again, turning around and almost knocking over a vase of orchids. he curses under his breath and mouths sorry, but you chuckle at his zaniness. he truly was a bull in a china shop.
after a brief goodbye, you wave bye bye to melody as he tells her it’s time to go. “cmon squirt, we gotta make the train home.” he takes her hand and melody waves bye bye again to you, holding her new daisy in one arm and her stuffie in the other.
wilbur then attempts to pull on the push door, causing you to stifle a laugh. “you gotta push the d- there you go.” you give him a thumbs up when he finally gets it and he playfully rolls his eyes at you and just like that, he’s gone
maybe today wasn’t so bad after all.
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part two? send me requests!
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heartofwritiing · 2 months
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stoppp you guys are way to sweettt to me 🥹😭 im glad my writing can make you feel that way and so glad you liked it medlar!!
i loved your latest fic! could you do maybe contentcreator!reader and wilbur maybe going on their first date? or maybe helping her move into her new flat after permanently moving to Brighton as mentioned in your fic? tysm!
By the Sea
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paring: cc!wilbur x fem!cc!reader
summary: you move to brighton, and wilbur helps you move into your new apartment. a part two to this work :)
authors note: sorry this took me soo long to get out, i hope you like it anon! i have barely any motivation to write, this was kinda thrown together. i’m not sure what to do :/
happy valentine’s day lovely followers :) 💌
warnings: not much just fluff, reader is an overthinker, short, super unedited!
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Bringing up the last of the boxes up to your new apartment, you drop the box in your arms on top of another with an exasperated sigh. You were finally done climbing up three flights of stairs and could catch your breath.
You would have to remind yourself next time to find a place on the ground floor with availability, because this was insane.
You didn’t even want to imagine carrying groceries up every week now. Thank god for delivery apps…
Moving to Brighton was a plan months in the making. Countless visits to check out apartments in your price range, searching different parts of town you liked better than others took trial and error.
Eventually, you had found a perfect place not too far from your best friend Wilbur's place, who had been with you every step of the way through this whole process.
Wilbur was one of the reasons you were moving to another country in the first place. He had convinced you after your first visit last year to move in after you made a comment about wanting to move to the town by the sea after only visiting once.
Which was crazy, so you waited a year before making such a big decision. Speaking off;
You can hear grunting and panting coming from down the hall and you completely forget about your best friend who was helping you move in. Wilbur comes around the corner of the hall carrying the very last box in his lanky arms with a bead of sweat running down from his forehead.
His curls sticking to his skin showed he had worked up just as much of a sweat as you and you feel guilty making him carry some of your heavier things. He kicks your front door closed with his foot and places it on the kitchen counter with a thud.
As he makes his way to the couch, taking off his sweater you catch his shirt riding up to reveal skin before he fixes it. A blush rises to your cheeks and quickly spreads. Thankfully, he didn't notice you staring when he flops down next to you and sighs with his head thrown back against the couch cushions.
"Remind me to hire movers next time." you laugh, still out of breath.
Wilbur turns his head to you.
"You sure know how to make a guy break a sweat, darling," he hums.
A blush rises on your cheeks at the implication of his words. He laughs with a crinkle around his eyes with a mischievous grin.
You're looking forward to more moments like these with him. Butterflies flutter around your tummy knowing that you’ll have so many more.
You can't help the guilt creeping up for making him carry all these cardboard boxes with your life held inside. Thinking maybe he thought you were taking advantage of him.
"I'm sorry I dragged you into this, how can I make it up to you?"
Wilbur frowns, takes your hand resting by your side, and laces your fingers together with his. You had only been here a week, but over time you visited, Wilbur had gotten bolder with his touches.
Hand-holding wasn't new to you both, since that first night you'd met in person it had become second nature after admitting your feelings. You both had become accustomed to it quickly, opting to grab the other's hand in stressful situations or just as a comfort and reassurance.
"You didn't drag me into anything, If I didn't wanna help you I wouldn't have," he promised. "You don't have to make anything up to me."
“but-“
“Nope, I won’t allow you to feel guilty over this.” Wilbur reaches his free hand up to boop your nose.
With a pout set over your lips, knowing you weren't in the mood to argue with him further. You scoot closer to him and lean your head on his shoulder to peer up at him and admire his side profile.
The shape of his nose was adorable from this angle, coming to a soft point that made you wanna kiss it.
Your gaze trailed down to the stubble around his jaw and before you even thought about it, you instinctively reached your free hand up to feel the slight scratch against your finger tips.
Wilbur didn’t swat your hand away, only turned his head so you had better access to move your nails to scratch lightly.
"But I wanna make it up to you," you say under your breath. Not sure if he heard you, your eyes met his again in question.
There’s a look in his eyes that tells you he wants to tell you what he wants. You would do anything for him. Without hesitance. Which sounded insane in your head.
Wilbur scoots down so he’s level with your face, and your suddenly so aware how close he is. Your knees touching and your hands still tangled together.
“tell you what? how about you let me take you out on a date?” he asks smoothly. “Then we’ll call it even, darling.”
You don’t know what to say. You weren’t expecting him to offer to take you on a date. A real date with your best friend. A night out together where you wouldn’t be surrounded by your other friends.
You swear you catch his eyes flicker down to your lips for a second. It would be bold of you to lean forward and kiss him right now, so you hesitate leaning forward.
Oh how you’ve wanted to since you first saw him last year, but you couldn’t. It would’ve ruined everything. If only you knew how much he wanted it too.
A date with him sounded wonderful but, you were too tired to even think about getting yourself all dressed up to go out tonight.
“how bout we order pizza, stay in and watch youtube videos for tonight.” you suggested.
“I’d say you got yourself a deal.”
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heartofwritiing · 2 months
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thank you so so much! you’re too sweetttt
and yeeee i love that line: “you sure know how to make a guy break a sweat, darling,” thought it’d be cheeky :) sometimes im like ‘wow, my mind is amazing like that sometimes’ 🤪
i loved your latest fic! could you do maybe contentcreator!reader and wilbur maybe going on their first date? or maybe helping her move into her new flat after permanently moving to Brighton as mentioned in your fic? tysm!
By the Sea
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paring: cc!wilbur x fem!cc!reader
summary: you move to brighton, and wilbur helps you move into your new apartment. a part two to this work :)
authors note: sorry this took me soo long to get out, i hope you like it anon! i have barely any motivation to write, this was kinda thrown together. i’m not sure what to do :/
happy valentine’s day lovely followers :) 💌
warnings: not much just fluff, reader is an overthinker, short, super unedited!
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Bringing up the last of the boxes up to your new apartment, you drop the box in your arms on top of another with an exasperated sigh. You were finally done climbing up three flights of stairs and could catch your breath.
You would have to remind yourself next time to find a place on the ground floor with availability, because this was insane.
You didn’t even want to imagine carrying groceries up every week now. Thank god for delivery apps…
Moving to Brighton was a plan months in the making. Countless visits to check out apartments in your price range, searching different parts of town you liked better than others took trial and error.
Eventually, you had found a perfect place not too far from your best friend Wilbur's place, who had been with you every step of the way through this whole process.
Wilbur was one of the reasons you were moving to another country in the first place. He had convinced you after your first visit last year to move in after you made a comment about wanting to move to the town by the sea after only visiting once.
Which was crazy, so you waited a year before making such a big decision. Speaking off;
You can hear grunting and panting coming from down the hall and you completely forget about your best friend who was helping you move in. Wilbur comes around the corner of the hall carrying the very last box in his lanky arms with a bead of sweat running down from his forehead.
His curls sticking to his skin showed he had worked up just as much of a sweat as you and you feel guilty making him carry some of your heavier things. He kicks your front door closed with his foot and places it on the kitchen counter with a thud.
As he makes his way to the couch, taking off his sweater you catch his shirt riding up to reveal skin before he fixes it. A blush rises to your cheeks and quickly spreads. Thankfully, he didn't notice you staring when he flops down next to you and sighs with his head thrown back against the couch cushions.
"Remind me to hire movers next time." you laugh, still out of breath.
Wilbur turns his head to you.
"You sure know how to make a guy break a sweat, darling," he hums.
A blush rises on your cheeks at the implication of his words. He laughs with a crinkle around his eyes with a mischievous grin.
You're looking forward to more moments like these with him. Butterflies flutter around your tummy knowing that you’ll have so many more.
You can't help the guilt creeping up for making him carry all these cardboard boxes with your life held inside. Thinking maybe he thought you were taking advantage of him.
"I'm sorry I dragged you into this, how can I make it up to you?"
Wilbur frowns, takes your hand resting by your side, and laces your fingers together with his. You had only been here a week, but over time you visited, Wilbur had gotten bolder with his touches.
Hand-holding wasn't new to you both, since that first night you'd met in person it had become second nature after admitting your feelings. You both had become accustomed to it quickly, opting to grab the other's hand in stressful situations or just as a comfort and reassurance.
"You didn't drag me into anything, If I didn't wanna help you I wouldn't have," he promised. "You don't have to make anything up to me."
“but-“
“Nope, I won’t allow you to feel guilty over this.” Wilbur reaches his free hand up to boop your nose.
With a pout set over your lips, knowing you weren't in the mood to argue with him further. You scoot closer to him and lean your head on his shoulder to peer up at him and admire his side profile.
The shape of his nose was adorable from this angle, coming to a soft point that made you wanna kiss it.
Your gaze trailed down to the stubble around his jaw and before you even thought about it, you instinctively reached your free hand up to feel the slight scratch against your finger tips.
Wilbur didn’t swat your hand away, only turned his head so you had better access to move your nails to scratch lightly.
"But I wanna make it up to you," you say under your breath. Not sure if he heard you, your eyes met his again in question.
There’s a look in his eyes that tells you he wants to tell you what he wants. You would do anything for him. Without hesitance. Which sounded insane in your head.
Wilbur scoots down so he’s level with your face, and your suddenly so aware how close he is. Your knees touching and your hands still tangled together.
“tell you what? how about you let me take you out on a date?” he asks smoothly. “Then we’ll call it even, darling.”
You don’t know what to say. You weren’t expecting him to offer to take you on a date. A real date with your best friend. A night out together where you wouldn’t be surrounded by your other friends.
You swear you catch his eyes flicker down to your lips for a second. It would be bold of you to lean forward and kiss him right now, so you hesitate leaning forward.
Oh how you’ve wanted to since you first saw him last year, but you couldn’t. It would’ve ruined everything. If only you knew how much he wanted it too.
A date with him sounded wonderful but, you were too tired to even think about getting yourself all dressed up to go out tonight.
“how bout we order pizza, stay in and watch youtube videos for tonight.” you suggested.
“I’d say you got yourself a deal.”
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@loonalvjy @toastyliltoasts41
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heartofwritiing · 2 months
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ngl i first wanted to call it that as a joke! 😆
that song slaps tho, i had a phase where i listened to it for a month straight once.
i loved your latest fic! could you do maybe contentcreator!reader and wilbur maybe going on their first date? or maybe helping her move into her new flat after permanently moving to Brighton as mentioned in your fic? tysm!
By the Sea
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paring: cc!wilbur x fem!cc!reader
summary: you move to brighton, and wilbur helps you move into your new apartment. a part two to this work :)
authors note: sorry this took me soo long to get out, i hope you like it anon! i have barely any motivation to write, this was kinda thrown together. i’m not sure what to do :/
happy valentine’s day lovely followers :) 💌
warnings: not much just fluff, reader is an overthinker, short, super unedited!
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Bringing up the last of the boxes up to your new apartment, you drop the box in your arms on top of another with an exasperated sigh. You were finally done climbing up three flights of stairs and could catch your breath.
You would have to remind yourself next time to find a place on the ground floor with availability, because this was insane.
You didn’t even want to imagine carrying groceries up every week now. Thank god for delivery apps…
Moving to Brighton was a plan months in the making. Countless visits to check out apartments in your price range, searching different parts of town you liked better than others took trial and error.
Eventually, you had found a perfect place not too far from your best friend Wilbur's place, who had been with you every step of the way through this whole process.
Wilbur was one of the reasons you were moving to another country in the first place. He had convinced you after your first visit last year to move in after you made a comment about wanting to move to the town by the sea after only visiting once.
Which was crazy, so you waited a year before making such a big decision. Speaking off;
You can hear grunting and panting coming from down the hall and you completely forget about your best friend who was helping you move in. Wilbur comes around the corner of the hall carrying the very last box in his lanky arms with a bead of sweat running down from his forehead.
His curls sticking to his skin showed he had worked up just as much of a sweat as you and you feel guilty making him carry some of your heavier things. He kicks your front door closed with his foot and places it on the kitchen counter with a thud.
As he makes his way to the couch, taking off his sweater you catch his shirt riding up to reveal skin before he fixes it. A blush rises to your cheeks and quickly spreads. Thankfully, he didn't notice you staring when he flops down next to you and sighs with his head thrown back against the couch cushions.
"Remind me to hire movers next time." you laugh, still out of breath.
Wilbur turns his head to you.
"You sure know how to make a guy break a sweat, darling," he hums.
A blush rises on your cheeks at the implication of his words. He laughs with a crinkle around his eyes with a mischievous grin.
You're looking forward to more moments like these with him. Butterflies flutter around your tummy knowing that you’ll have so many more.
You can't help the guilt creeping up for making him carry all these cardboard boxes with your life held inside. Thinking maybe he thought you were taking advantage of him.
"I'm sorry I dragged you into this, how can I make it up to you?"
Wilbur frowns, takes your hand resting by your side, and laces your fingers together with his. You had only been here a week, but over time you visited, Wilbur had gotten bolder with his touches.
Hand-holding wasn't new to you both, since that first night you'd met in person it had become second nature after admitting your feelings. You both had become accustomed to it quickly, opting to grab the other's hand in stressful situations or just as a comfort and reassurance.
"You didn't drag me into anything, If I didn't wanna help you I wouldn't have," he promised. "You don't have to make anything up to me."
“but-“
“Nope, I won’t allow you to feel guilty over this.” Wilbur reaches his free hand up to boop your nose.
With a pout set over your lips, knowing you weren't in the mood to argue with him further. You scoot closer to him and lean your head on his shoulder to peer up at him and admire his side profile.
The shape of his nose was adorable from this angle, coming to a soft point that made you wanna kiss it.
Your gaze trailed down to the stubble around his jaw and before you even thought about it, you instinctively reached your free hand up to feel the slight scratch against your finger tips.
Wilbur didn’t swat your hand away, only turned his head so you had better access to move your nails to scratch lightly.
"But I wanna make it up to you," you say under your breath. Not sure if he heard you, your eyes met his again in question.
There’s a look in his eyes that tells you he wants to tell you what he wants. You would do anything for him. Without hesitance. Which sounded insane in your head.
Wilbur scoots down so he’s level with your face, and your suddenly so aware how close he is. Your knees touching and your hands still tangled together.
“tell you what? how about you let me take you out on a date?” he asks smoothly. “Then we’ll call it even, darling.”
You don’t know what to say. You weren’t expecting him to offer to take you on a date. A real date with your best friend. A night out together where you wouldn’t be surrounded by your other friends.
You swear you catch his eyes flicker down to your lips for a second. It would be bold of you to lean forward and kiss him right now, so you hesitate leaning forward.
Oh how you’ve wanted to since you first saw him last year, but you couldn’t. It would’ve ruined everything. If only you knew how much he wanted it too.
A date with him sounded wonderful but, you were too tired to even think about getting yourself all dressed up to go out tonight.
“how bout we order pizza, stay in and watch youtube videos for tonight.” you suggested.
“I’d say you got yourself a deal.”
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taglist: @trashcanduck @ax-y10 @mysticalsoot @idontreallyexistyet
@loonalvjy @toastyliltoasts41
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heartofwritiing · 2 months
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wilbur asks his kid to be his valentine every year.
look, he knows it’s a commercial holiday-but he is also unfortunately a sucker for love, loves love, and so this holiday is up his alley.
the bouquet of flowers is comically small in his hands.
grocery shopping for them with him boarded on not being fun-
minutes spent spilled over the flowers, picking them out of the used water, checking the bottoms of stems, running his calloused hands along the petals to make sure they’re right; no browning, none broken-
“wil,” you finally huff, “i don’t think any of them are going to be perfect.”
he hums, finding the bouquet he’s picked up no less than five times, ruled the thorns on the side were “too pokey” (and no, you aren’t sure what that means) only to pick it up again, turn it over in his hands.
“what do you think of this one?”
getting to this stage, where he even asks you what you think, is a big deal. finally, the exit is on the horizon for you.
“they’re perfect, wil.” you say gently, “just like the last four were.”
he sighs, his fingers are graceful over the leaves in a way you’ve never seen before
“it has to be right,” he finally says, licking his lip: “asking an important question.”
by the time his daughter gets home, just a tinier version of him, all curls on top of her hair that he can never get down, glasses pushed up on her face, the sun has already set.
wilbur spent the time waiting for her to get home pacing. from the fridge, to the couch in the front room, back again. finally, you had to give him a small task to do, just because it was making you so anxious.
Leading her to the couch, setting her up-wilbur disappears into the bedroom, shoving his hands deep in his pockets, can feel the electric of anxiety shoot up and down them.
by the time he’s walking to the couch, kneeling in front of it, trying to make himself smaller so he doesn’t tower over her:
“darling,” he says, his daughter just thrilled to see him, finally, “will you be Papa’s Valentine?”
he produces the small bouquet from behind his back; double checked before grabbing them there were no casualties. no willing leaves, no brown spots, no holes-
she gasps.
the sight of wilbur, so nervous to even ask this question to a tiny version of him that just adores his existence, the anxiety and weight of it that had him nervous for days-
only for him to engulf her in a hug. she giggles, “Papa’s my valentine!” just in time for wilbur to grab you, gently drag you into the group hug.
“you’re mine too,” wilbur’s lips are against your ears before you can realize it, “you’re my valentine, too.”
and he seals it with a kiss.
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heartofwritiing · 2 months
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i loved your latest fic! could you do maybe contentcreator!reader and wilbur maybe going on their first date? or maybe helping her move into her new flat after permanently moving to Brighton as mentioned in your fic? tysm!
By the Sea
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paring: cc!wilbur x fem!cc!reader
summary: you move to brighton, and wilbur helps you move into your new apartment. a part two to this work :)
authors note: sorry this took me soo long to get out, i hope you like it anon! i have barely any motivation to write, this was kinda thrown together. i’m not sure what to do :/
happy valentine’s day lovely followers :) 💌
warnings: not much just fluff, reader is an overthinker, short, super unedited!
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Bringing up the last of the boxes up to your new apartment, you drop the box in your arms on top of another with an exasperated sigh. You were finally done climbing up three flights of stairs and could catch your breath.
You would have to remind yourself next time to find a place on the ground floor with availability, because this was insane.
You didn’t even want to imagine carrying groceries up every week now. Thank god for delivery apps…
Moving to Brighton was a plan months in the making. Countless visits to check out apartments in your price range, searching different parts of town you liked better than others took trial and error.
Eventually, you had found a perfect place not too far from your best friend Wilbur's place, who had been with you every step of the way through this whole process.
Wilbur was one of the reasons you were moving to another country in the first place. He had convinced you after your first visit last year to move in after you made a comment about wanting to move to the town by the sea after only visiting once.
Which was crazy, so you waited a year before making such a big decision. Speaking off;
You can hear grunting and panting coming from down the hall and you completely forget about your best friend who was helping you move in. Wilbur comes around the corner of the hall carrying the very last box in his lanky arms with a bead of sweat running down from his forehead.
His curls sticking to his skin showed he had worked up just as much of a sweat as you and you feel guilty making him carry some of your heavier things. He kicks your front door closed with his foot and places it on the kitchen counter with a thud.
As he makes his way to the couch, taking off his sweater you catch his shirt riding up to reveal skin before he fixes it. A blush rises to your cheeks and quickly spreads. Thankfully, he didn't notice you staring when he flops down next to you and sighs with his head thrown back against the couch cushions.
"Remind me to hire movers next time." you laugh, still out of breath.
Wilbur turns his head to you.
"You sure know how to make a guy break a sweat, darling," he hums.
A blush rises on your cheeks at the implication of his words. He laughs with a crinkle around his eyes with a mischievous grin.
You're looking forward to more moments like these with him. Butterflies flutter around your tummy knowing that you’ll have so many more.
You can't help the guilt creeping up for making him carry all these cardboard boxes with your life held inside. Thinking maybe he thought you were taking advantage of him.
"I'm sorry I dragged you into this, how can I make it up to you?"
Wilbur frowns, takes your hand resting by your side, and laces your fingers together with his. You had only been here a week, but over time you visited, Wilbur had gotten bolder with his touches.
Hand-holding wasn't new to you both, since that first night you'd met in person it had become second nature after admitting your feelings. You both had become accustomed to it quickly, opting to grab the other's hand in stressful situations or just as a comfort and reassurance.
"You didn't drag me into anything, If I didn't wanna help you I wouldn't have," he promised. "You don't have to make anything up to me."
“but-“
“Nope, I won’t allow you to feel guilty over this.” Wilbur reaches his free hand up to boop your nose.
With a pout set over your lips, knowing you weren't in the mood to argue with him further. You scoot closer to him and lean your head on his shoulder to peer up at him and admire his side profile.
The shape of his nose was adorable from this angle, coming to a soft point that made you wanna kiss it.
Your gaze trailed down to the stubble around his jaw and before you even thought about it, you instinctively reached your free hand up to feel the slight scratch against your finger tips.
Wilbur didn’t swat your hand away, only turned his head so you had better access to move your nails to scratch lightly.
"But I wanna make it up to you," you say under your breath. Not sure if he heard you, your eyes met his again in question.
There’s a look in his eyes that tells you he wants to tell you what he wants. You would do anything for him. Without hesitance. Which sounded insane in your head.
Wilbur scoots down so he’s level with your face, and your suddenly so aware how close he is. Your knees touching and your hands still tangled together.
“tell you what? how about you let me take you out on a date?” he asks smoothly. “Then we’ll call it even, darling.”
You don’t know what to say. You weren’t expecting him to offer to take you on a date. A real date with your best friend. A night out together where you wouldn’t be surrounded by your other friends.
You swear you catch his eyes flicker down to your lips for a second. It would be bold of you to lean forward and kiss him right now, so you hesitate leaning forward.
Oh how you’ve wanted to since you first saw him last year, but you couldn’t. It would’ve ruined everything. If only you knew how much he wanted it too.
A date with him sounded wonderful but, you were too tired to even think about getting yourself all dressed up to go out tonight.
“how bout we order pizza, stay in and watch youtube videos for tonight.” you suggested.
“I’d say you got yourself a deal.”
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heartofwritiing · 3 months
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OKAY LIKE HOW DO YOU WRITE THIS AMAZING?! 😍😭
PHASES
romance.moonbur x sun.reader
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WARNINGS : fluff at the beginning, then it goes to angst, romance, pet names, kissing, guilt, crying, and partings.
SUMMARY : parting is such sweet sorrow, they say, but why does yours have to indulge such bitter rays as the love of your life moves on like every phase?
WORD COUNT : 1.2k
NOTE : boohoo, i'm in an angsty little mood so i'm providing some more moonbur!!
ʚɞ╰┈➤ 𝐩𝐡𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐬 ⭑
        Some things are to last forever. 
        Some things are not.
        It was simply just a straightforward fact that many would, or would never, come to terms with. The word forever is something you've heard many whisper around the universe.
        Oddly enough, the stars adore the word forever. Including yourself.
        The most alluring star of all.
        Why did this word charm you so much? You had no clue despite being around for billions of years. It was a thought you assumed to be dull with responses, for it was just a silly thing you would view everyone once in a while, or maybe it was because you spent more time inquiring what forever was rather than why you adored it.
        What was forever?
        To some, it means as long as the sun shines every morning.
        To some, it means how long they would love another.
        To some, it means how long they wished they could have loved eachother.
        To some, it was a word meant for just memories.
        You always found the last bit to be rather absurd, for there wasn't much creativity—only sorrowful commentary—induldged into the sentence. Why would forever only be meant for memories? Some memories can't last forever; the human mind can only remember so many things. 
        But, possibly, what if the term wasn't meant for just people? Maybe planets could be added to the mix as well.
        You did recall quite a few things, after all. You could go as far as remembering when you were the only thing sitting in this dark abyss, a sneeze that escaped your lips leading to the stars as your gleam flickered everywhere. The other planets were just things that randomly appeared one day.
        Those days were ones you loved with all of your soul.
        Especially when he appeared.
        He didn't classify as a planet, but to you, he was more consequential than a mere planet. He was all of the stars that made up the constellations people—including yourself—peered at for hours. He was the universe beyond what anyone had ever viewed.
        For the first time, you didn't feel like you were the only one granting light, even if your beam is what made him shine.
        Maybe that's why he approached you.
        Maybe that's why your dear moon, in all of his taunting rays, had spent all of his breaks with you. Even when he didn't need to be lit up, he still stuck by your side.
        It caused you to finally wield some serenity for once in your life.
        The only thing ruining that being moments like this.
        "Sunshine..." The nickname snapped you out of your mind as the sensation of your tears recollected back to thought, a hand wiping them away while your chest was tighter than a knot. The hand that had touched your cheek immediately flinched back, making your eyes widen before more tears collected in your eyes.
        "I'm so sorry—" you choked. Your voice had strained as you let go of your cold lover, hastily flicking off any tears. 
        A few landed onto the abyss, causing a small fire before it shrunk back into darkness.
        "Do not apologize," his words were softer than his touch. "You can't control this, can you?"
        "Why do you always have to go, Wilbur?" Your words were partly mumbled as a sob left your lips, the sight of Wilbur staring at you with an immense amount of sympathy only making the sobs louder. You had seen that expression more times than you wish you had.
        His hand goes back to cup your chin, his eye wincing as he leaned in to place his lips against yours. 
        How you loathed but treasured his kisses. 
        They were always so sweet, enlisting a sense of assurance into your thoughts as you moved a hand to the back of his head. The curls you were oh-so-familiar with tangling into your fingers felt so different now. They weren't the usual chill texture, tangled bits being moved back as you ran your hand through them.
        But they weren't tangled anymore. Your hand went through Wilburs' locks smoothly as your separate hand cupped his cheek, his hands leaving your face while he placed them on your waist.
        You were pulled in, the kiss parting while he warmly smiled at you. "Don't smile at me like that....please...."
        "Sunshine, I'm smiling at you like how I always do. You just believe it's different because you're telling yourself you won't see it for a while..." He gazed into your eyes before letting his smile falter, "It's only a few weeks."
        "But what if you forget me in those few weeks?"
        "But what if I think about you every millisecond of those weeks?"
        While the void you called space fell silent, so did the thoughts in your head telling you that he wouldn't return. As he said, it was only a few weeks.
        A few weeks that you would be left alone to deal with.
        "You know, when I'm not with you, I tell Tommy about you..." The melodic whispers arising from Wilbur caused you to perk up, your head tilting in a way that made him chuckle. "Sometimes, he lets me tell the people about you, too! They love you so much, sunshine..."
        As his feet stepped back away from you, the feeling in your chest only slamming harshly against you as you grasped onto his hand. "Wilbur...?"
        "I'll see you soon." Wilbur lifted your hand to his lips, the chill sensation of him placing a few pecks on your burning skin had made you fall still. You couldn't do anything to make him stay.
        And that's what pained you the most.
        You watched as he soon vanished from your sight, the color of his dull eyes being something you already yearned to see once again while you sat down.
        The stars had started to talk about the word forever again, including you.
        The loneliest star of its kind. 
        You always granted Wilbur to be lucky. He had his phases, of course, with Philza, Kristen, and Techno, but what about you? Nothing was settled for you but the harsh distance away from the other people you could converse with.
        Even if you did, it wouldn't be the same as talking with Wilbur.
        So, you listened to the mumbles about forever as you waited again.
        You waited a day.
        You waited a week.
        You waited a year.
        You waited until your light had slowly fallen dull, and for the first time, you felt cold. 
        For the first time, you—the sun, for universal sake—were chilled to the core.
        Why hadn't he returned yet? Surely, a few weeks couldn't have been that long. Maybe he was busy.
        Maybe he was still bound to be your forever.
        Or maybe forever was just a word made for memories.
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heartofwritiing · 3 months
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Put Me Back In (I Would Do It Again)
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or; re-visiting old ghosts
more wcbah here (not mandatory to read other parts. doesn’t necessarily follow the timeline either so)
TW: cursing, mention of past abuse, flashbacks, mention of PTSD, bad coping skills, panic attacks
For a long time, the street was forbidden.
like some kind of imaginary barrier forbid you from crossing that section of the street, some physical force putting a hand against your chest and forcing you to stop, to reevaluate, to think this through
usually it comes in the form of wilbur.
for awhile, a mystery problem would come up; the pain that radiates down his leg that only seems to come up when close to this block would flare up, the sky would turn darker and wilbur would insist it was time to come home, promising a warm mug of tea.
wilbur could tell the hesitation.
his hand tangled in yours, he’s whistling as his head is up, looking high into the trees, the reds and greens and purples that only a midwest fall can promise you.
they get to the stop sign. you wait for wilbur to open his mouth, to come up with an excuse, to fake an injury.
instead, he squeezes your hand: “i think the Marshall’s put their boat up last week, finally. I was working on their pier-“
your breathing is as timed as the beating in your chest. wilbur is obviously making small talk, trying to make this less frightening-as if you hadn’t tossed and turned and lost sleep over this house and the monsters that roamed the too small four walls.
wilbur’s grip on your hand tightens as the old house comes into view. you aren’t sure if it’s for your benefit or his. his voice never wavers, and he’s talking nonsense, just talking to be able to talk, but it’s comforting.
“fuck.”
the for sale sign creeks as it flips in the wind.
the house is just as you left it; the peeling paint, the mailbox on the ground. it’s like you and wilbur never existed, never made it out, never did anything, ghosts dancing on the lawn between the houses.
you only realize wilbur let go of your hand when you feel the empty space.
“wil.”
your voice is harsher than it needs to be, and your whispering, which is unnecessary as everyone is gone, ghosts don’t haunt this part of town anymore.
“cmon, darling. just want to see.”
leaves crumble under his boots and he kicks some away as if for confirmation, seeing his and yours initials in the old pavement by the mailbox, as if the nightmares aren’t enough to confirm this is the place.
“Wil!”
your practically yelling but he can’t hear you as he walks towards the door, his fingers linger behind as he traces over the peeling paint of the house, how some chips and gets stuck under his nails, how he’ll carry that with him
“do you think the lock is still broken?”
his hand rests on the door.
“shouldn’t we let the dead rest?”
it’s heavy in the air, because no one’s actually dead-you both just wish, most of the time. this house has seen it all, you’ve both seen it all, and it would only make sense.
his hand rests on the door handle before a gust of wind makes something in the front fall over.
you and wilbur race back home, feet flying you to your sanctuary breathless as wilbur yells, “go, go, go.”
wilbur waits a few days to bring it up.
dark bags are under his eyes. he’s back to not sleeping-most nights you find his place in the bed cold, grabbing an old shirt of his off the floor as you walk downstairs in search of him.
“i was thinking.” he says carefully a few days later. he’s talking to his plate, his head ducked and he’s the nervous boy you grew up with again, always saying the wrong thing, always in the way.
“hm?”
it’s a half committed response, flipping through a newspaper you borrowed from the neighbor. they’re gone for the fall, but can afford to leave the subscription going, the least of their problems, so it continues.
“your old house,” he says, making your head whip up, “we could buy it.”
your hand grips the nightgown you’re wearing.
“wilbur.”
“make it a home,” he says, using his knuckle to push his glasses up his face. they’re still broken, lean towards the left, “i already called. we can set up a meeting.”
“make it a home.” you repeat, “wilbur, we got scared by the wind-“
“i won’t be scared,” he shakes his head, “not with you there. go with me?”
his voice drops and it almost sounds like begging, on the verge of tears.
“please.”
the days to the visit crawl and run at the same time. you find yourself busy with projects that aren’t necessary: raking the same leaves, watering half dead flowers-wilbur takes the time off from the small projects he makes himself busy with around town, doesn’t leave your side.
it feels like a death march.
guilt and dread gnaws at your stomach, rips through you-but wilbur is humming, smiling, as he walks hand in hand to a place you both memorized.
“and this here is the kitchen-“
it’s weird, having a stranger show you a house you grew up in. can see the marks on the wall by the stairs where wilbur would mark how tall he was in comparison to you, the creaking stairs with the railing that falls if you grip it too hard-the sink that still leaks-
how the realtor would constantly be trying to get you two back on this tour, finding something to try and make this house appetizing
the stairs creak and groan as you follow upstairs, bow you hesitate until wilbur steps in front, puts one foot in front of the other and offers his hand:
“i got us.”
the twin sized bed in the bedroom right off the stairs, that wilbur never truly fit into, the nights he’d practically roll off the bed. the windows that
the first night is spent in the too small room. wilbur insisted he could throw the twin sized mattress in the trash, buy a new mattress in a few weeks, that the pillows and blankets on the floor would be like a sleepover when you both were kids and the shadows scared you still, chased you to his front door.
you sit on the edge of the mattress as wilbur walks around the room, his fingers trialing behind everything.
kelly, the realtor, has long given up. said to meet her downstairs when you’re both done, to give you space, explore the “rich history of the house.” you and wilbur both hold in the laughs.
hands are shaken and papers are signed that day.
the move doesn’t take long; you both don’t own much and wilbur keeps falling this a fresh start, trying to throw away anything that feels wrong. insists this time will be different, that he’ll make this right.
during the day, the house doesn’t seem to nefarious. you’re able to wash dishes at the sink, wilbur hammers at the stair case, a cracking radio in the back-it feels like the house on the hill, for most of the day.
until night falls. shadows creep and bolt as you make your way around the house, hand in hand with wilbur, even for the restroom. anxiety rips at your throat. but every time you look at wilbur, he’s smiling. it’s all teeth, a genuine smile you haven’t seen in awhile, and his voice is low, borders on a hum as he talks:
“we’ll get it right, this time.”
wilbur wakes you up from the floor. the front room doesn’t have much; spent most of the day dreaming up where things could go-a television, eventually, a small couch-wilbur had a hand full of your paintings he insisted you brought with, spent the day with an arm full of them-holding them against the walls, tilting his head, trying to get it right-a nail between his teeth until he found the perfect place-marks the spot.
you were hoping to get away with it, sleeping in the front room. it was like before, when exhaustion finally took over and you two passed out wherever you could, only until the other woke you up, marched upstairs.
instead, you crawl into the twin sized mattress, back against the wall. it’s scary for only a moment-suddenly you’re a kid holding your breath waiting for your father to come home again-
until-
until
wilbur slides into the mattress. it creeks and dips wit him but your hand is tangled in his against his chest and you can feel the steady beat from his chest to talk you off the ledge.
“tell me a story.”
wilbur laughs from behind you. it gets captured in the too small room, makes itself louder. you imagine it chases away the ghosts that hide and peak and linger behind the doors
“i think i’m all out of stories, darling.”
“one more,” you’re all but begging, “for old times sake.”
this time, he isn’t drowning out noises. not the refrigerator slamming shut and the sound of a bottle cap hitting aluminum floor. the yelling, the “i’ll find you. you know i will.” wilbur’s lips don’t need to be pressed against your ear to be the only sound you hear now. you’re a kid and you believe in princess’ and far away lands and happy endings again-
“once upon a time,” wilbur drawls, “in a place far, far away-“
when you wake up, the sun is shining through the windows and you can hear the waves being chased to the shore, crash, build themselves up again
the spot where wilbur laid is cold. you can smell coffee in the air, and the radio cracks downstairs.
he’s smiling, as you walk downstairs. a handful of nails again, but the sink isn’t leaking anymore, can’t hear the drip drip drip that you swore would drive you insane.
“morning, darling.” wilbur smiles in the home he made, “made you coffee. figured we could get started outside today-“
and as you curl up next to him, the cup of coffee burning your hand, you’re home.
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heartofwritiing · 3 months
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ahh i missed your writing soo much!!
tonight we lie awake (stories take us back)
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wilbur summer camp au where wil is the camp nurse and you can't seem to stay out of his office
TW/ cursing, mention of injury (not graphic), bad attempts at flirting. reader is they/them except one instance of "miss", brief mention of wilbur having a tattoo(i don’t make the rules)
Your eyes are on the bench in front of you, a pile of various skateboard decorate the bench, all donated, some in better shape than others. some other consuler at camp complained about spending too much time in one center, sick of being in the lake all day, having pruny hands and telling kids to stop splashing each other, threatened to quit mid summer if they weren't moved.
which is how you found yourself outside of the comfort of the shack you were use to, tucked away in the heart of the camp ground, a wooden porch wrapped around and a screen door that creeks when it opens. it was small, bordered on being a closet, one where you couldn't keep everything in, but it was home and the kids would run to you with the biggest smile on their faces, showing off macaroni art with smiles so big it had to border on being uncomfortable. so it was home the last few summers, and you were fine with that.
this was outside your comfort zone, and you told your boss as much, but with a sly grin he slid your resume back, questioned how you put: up for anything, relaxed, likes a challenge on there if it wasn't true.
you told wil as much, months later, when he stayed late cleaning up the mess hall, always surprised by what a mess a group of kids could make. a bonfire was happening at the same time, and you were promised a s'mores by a group of small children who routinely chanted "beads! beads!" while your head disappeared into a creaking cabinet for more. friendship bracelets were practically currency here, you learned quickly, a small stack of bracelets from kids that made it impossible to sneak around the camp yard, always pulling them up
you knew of wilbur, of course.
everyone had-it was a matter of who said it, who thought differently of him.
Candace, who rolled her eyes when you mention him: "of fucking course i know that asshole. if you see him, he owes me $5 bucks-" you open your mouth to challenge it but she shakes her head:
"he knows what he did."
Sam, who flinched when you mentioned it.
"Stay away from him," she says, her voice is practically a hum as she speaks, low and something you have to strain to hear, "he's bad news. I mean it."
she doesn't elaborate, and you don't have the courage to ask her as much.
fate would bring you two together.
wilbur would argue stupidity, but you'd argue they don't pay him for his opinions, and instead to just hand over the damn bandaids, instead of him carefully unsealing them, sticking them to you with the kind of concentration that a child calls for
"Mr.Wilbur!"
Look, you didn't ask for the dramatics. but the accident happened so quickly, wasn't even able to put on the brave face before Annie was pulling you (more like yanking you) to the office, barely giving you enough time to yell over your shoulder for your co teacher, Bailey, to keep a watchful eye on them
"i'm fine, Annie. look-"
you're trying to insist but it's to no luck.
"Mr.Wilbur will take care of you.” Annie insists, practically rolling her eyes at you, leaving it at that.
Wilbur appears almost immediately, half hidden in a cabinet where he's re stocking his ever disappearing stockpile of bandaids and gauze, the latest accident at the makeshift skatepark partially ran him out of business.
"Annie!" he smiles widely, "my favorite patient!"
"wilbur," she shakes her head, "it's miss. they hurt themselves during craft-"
wilbur, who has his hair pushed back from his forehead in the messiest ponytail you'd ever seen, wears shorts and a obviously handmade tie dye shirt, the walkie talkie clipped to the top of his shirt that pulls it down so a tattoo peaks over the top that you can't quite make out-
"and here i was thinking you were just coming to visit me," he pouts before ruffling annie's hair,
"thank you for bringing them in. i'll take it from here."
she looks at his shirt until he leans down, still towers over her as she cups her hand to his ear and whispers into it, the way his eyes narrow as they scan over to you, the smirk that pulls at his lips.
"ah," he nods, "i got it from here."
if you weren't so afraid it was a symptom of a concussion you could swear there was a hint of an accent in there.
annie nods, holds her hand out in front of you in a way that seems very similar to someone telling a dog to stay, before darting out of the small cabin.
"if you give her like, two minutes to get back to camp i can sneak through the back door and get out of your hair."
he laughs. the bastard laughs.
"and risk my medical degree? i don't think so." he's back to the cabin, riffling through it before he appears with a small clear tub at his hip. groaning, thinking you'd get out of this easier as he drops to his knees in front of you-
"what medical degree, exactly?"
he laughs, the gauze inches from your face:
"are you questioning my medical degree when you're quite literally bleeding?"
"you not answering makes it more suspicious, just so you know."
he laughs, dips the gauze in some dark liquid before it comes in contact with your face:
"noted," he says gently. he doesn't say anything, but hums gently as he blots at your face.
"it's wilbur, by the way." and when you don't answer back immediately, don't indulge him with your name like he's use to, "for later googling. when you're looking up my credentials, no doubt."
"depends on how good a job you do." you grumble back, still mad your missing your favorite project of the year.
he laughs: "i see. my google review depends on it."
his thumb rests under your chin as he tilts your head, his eyes narrowed as he checks you out, ignoring the growing red on your face:
"¡ think you'll be okay," he sighs, "hold this." he hands over one of the ice packs for you to hold and with an eye-roll you obey, holding it onto your face, feeling like you're in middle school again.
he makes his way to his desk, comes back with a small mason jar with brightly colored sweets at the bottom.
“what’s this?”
"all the patients get a bandaid and a sweet?" it's a question, not a statement, suddenly unsure of himself, not the confident harry you'll later know.
"it helps, yknow?"
"pass," you say again, "look, can i go? it's just a scratch-"
he shakes the jar at you once more and you know you aren't leaving without one. making sure to make a big show of it, you roll your eyes, finally accepting the treat.
"most kids at least say thank you."
he says gently, his voice is low and quiet, unsure of itself.
"thank you."
you try to sound genuine, because your face isn't bleeding anymore and that alone is a reason to be nice, but you're unsure what to say of him, all the warnings you got before are running through your head-
"i owe you one."
it comes out before you can stop yourself, and you're about to open your mouth, take it back, but finally he’s laughing "yeah," he says, "alright, ill hold you to that."
"right," not going to let him have the last word,
"sure."
"sure," he agrees, "i'll see you tonight. the dining hall."
you shrug, acting like it won't be nice to finally have someone to sit next to.
"sure."
your feet guide you to the door and you beg for them not to betray you, not to fall-
"it's a date."
he calls back and that's enough for you to race out before he can see how permanent red he makes your face, or how steady your heartbeat in your ears are.
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heartofwritiing · 3 months
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this is… pure poetry. good soup. girl dinner. amazing. beautiful. soft. adorable. i will never recover from this.
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romance.moonbur x sun.reader
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WARNINGS : fluff, pet names, tired reader, and kissing.
SUMMARY : it never occured to you how tiring gifting your light to others was, so when one of the smallest bits to your solar system questions you with such concern, you couldn't help but gift him the honest truth as he grants you a reaction you didn't suspect.
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NOTE : i couldn't help myself but try to write more of moonbur! it's a short little oneshot, but i'm still in love with it. i hope you enjoy!
ʚɞ╰┈➤ 𝐬𝐨𝐥𝐚𝐫 𝐞𝐜𝐥𝐢𝐩𝐬𝐞 ⭑
        "do you ever get tired?"
        the inquiry was sharply spoken, your eyebrows raising in amusement as you peered your view over to face your dull lover.
        his eyes were partially covered by the silver and mousy strings that hung low from his hair, appearing like frost in the autumn soil while a light chuckle escaped your lips. the sound only appeared to make him smile warmly despite his head tilting in puzzlement.
        "do i ever get tired of what, love?" the gesture he made—his arms being stuck out while he motioned to everything around you—had granted you enough of an answer. it was something he asked you quite often, wasn't it? you understood what he meant.
        did you ever get tired of resting here? providing your warmth and care towards the ones below you?
        if you were being frank, you would state yes. you truly did find joy in gifting your protection to those who weren't as fortunate to wield their own light, but that meant you would have to use your energy. so, you did get tired, exhausted, even.
        "i suppose sometimes i do, but it's rather alright! i find ecstasy in what i do!"
        "that's fairly obvious—when do you take breaks?" the question threw you off for a moment, you not being able to gift him an answer right away. when did you take breaks? you didn't even believe you were able to do such a thing, for that meant the potential of some planets freezing over could occur.
        you didn't wish to risk that, so that was your lead answer as to why you never had a break.
        "i don't really, actually!" your tone made it seem as if it wasn't a massive deal, but to your lover—wilbur—he furrowed his eyebrows in concern. "you don't take breaks?"
        before you could even comprehend an answer, the soft actions of wilbur were replaced by him standing up; confusion pondering in your mind. he held his hand out in perseverance as he grew intolerant, grasping your hand while gifting you an embrace.
        the way his arms bounded around your waist only assured your intellect that everything was alright. a warmer sentiment crowded your chest like the stars surrounded the dark tarp you anointed space, the feeling allowing you to close your eyes in a fit of appreciation until you opened them to graze wilburs' stare.
        his eyes were similar to saturns haze, rings of apprehension and love causing him to hover his lips over yours as the moons would float above their planet. 
        "what if earth gets irritated with me? he truly needs all the light..."
        "tommy will be fine for a bit, i'm positive his little friends would adore the sight of the moon covering the sun for a bit...but if it makes you feel better...."
        wilbur moved his head down to dig into your neck, "he can't get an attitude if i'm not even covering you all the way..."
        his hand had crawled up to the back of your head as you leaned down a bit, smiling at him while laughing. "if he gripes about this, i'm blaming you."
        "fine by me as long as you get a break..." with that being said, he carefully pushed your face closer to his until your lips met. 
        it was a bit hesitant at first, the action wielding nothing but caution until wilbur stood up straight, humming while he tilted his head in a different angle. the kiss was only granted with more tenderness at the action.
        wilburs' lips moved with yours, the hand holding the back of your head skimmed down to your neck as you shuddered at the chill touch. this only led to him deepening the kiss, the sensation of his lips barely parting to leave out a low sigh making your knees buckle before the line of his smile could be felt. 
        your fingers traced up his chest, resting on his collarbone as you softly smacked him so you could breathe—only for him to nip your bottom lip before pulling back. an adoring glint beamed in his eyes while you gazed at him in shock.
        "i would ask if that kiss had you seeing stars if it weren't for us being surrounded by them..." his words were rather low, his voice indulging in a rasp as he dug his head into your shoulder.
        you couldn't help but let out a laugh, your arms wrapping around his cold figure while he traced constellations against your back. 
        "you shouldn't be covering the others' light, love, it's rather ignorant..."
        "excuse me? it's your light, not theirs. you need a break, sunshine." the nickname made you fall into a fit of silence as his hair taunted your skin, his breaths coming out warmer than usual while they ached your neck.
        your legs gradually turned, wilbur whining as he swiftly followed while your back turned to face the planets. a groan filled your ears until a hefty force weighed onto you—one that was more potent than gravity.
        the cold air of space envied around your body as wilbur hovered over you, a grin resting on his expression before he rested his forehead on yours. "i don't think that was long enough of a break. just a few more minutes, please?"
        "as much as i would love that, i need to get back to work. why don't you stargaze or something while i do so?"
        the gleaming smile on his face had already educated you on his response, the feeling of his body leaning on yours making you sigh as he peppered your face in kisses before placing a final one on your lips.
        once he pulled back, all you could note was the loving view he granted you. 
        maybe you would have to take breaks a bit more often if it meant you got to see this joyed of a man....
        "why look at the stars around when i can view the whole solar system in your eyes, sunshine?"
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heartofwritiing · 3 months
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this is so amazingly written! you all need to read this right now!!!
— 𝙁𝙄𝙉𝘿 𝙈𝙀 𝙒𝙃𝙀𝙍𝙀 𝙃𝙀𝘼𝙑𝙀𝙉 𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝙃𝙀𝙇𝙇 𝙈𝙀𝙀𝙏.
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— 🌿. PAIRING. survivebur x f!reader
— 🌿. GENRE. fluff. angst. tlou!au.
— 🌿. TW. cursing. blood and injury. death. gore. violence. animal death. use of guns and knives. HEAVY tlou spoilers along with inaccuracies of the game. a rushed ending.
— 🌿. NOTES. still in my tlou phase with survivebur. enjoy :)
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— BURNING. HER skin felt like it was burning, like raging embers latched onto her veins and lit her limbs alight. she could feel the pain scorch her insides and added kerosene to the anger that shook her bones. her gun weighed down in her grasp, fingers itching to pull the trigger at whoever stood between her and the aquarium abby was last seen at.
the rain fell down her trembling digits and dampened her scarred palms, making her grip the weapon tighter as she stared out at the violent waters. god, they were wasting time. each second passing is another second the bitch was still alive and breathing. another second where joel wasn't.
y/n sucked in a breath, hoping the cool air could help the ashes twisting in her lungs. it didn't.
"we need to do this smart." she heard phil speak to the rest of the group behind her. "we don't know who's there and we don't know how many people they have. we can't barge in there ready for bloodshed." she could feel several eyes on her back, everyone knowing those words were directed specifically to her. "that'll only get us killed."
"as of right now, our top priority is to find miller. not only are we after abby, but he is as well. we have a better chance of finding her with him by our side." charlie chimed in, earning a sharp glance from over y/n's shoulder. she turned back and remained silent, gnawing harshly on the skin of her cheek. as much as she despised the thought of not going directly for the blonde woman, she knew the two were right. this needs to be done carefully. she wouldn't be able to find abby with a bullet in her head.
"the easiest and safest way to the aquarium is by the highway. we're above ground and not many use it as a way of travel due to the roadblocks. if we take the 90, we can get there and back by sundown at the earliest." phil continued, pointing towards the road map of seattle to the rest of the boys.
"why not go by boat?" the five peered up, noting how y/n remained just as still as earlier.
"what?" she heard ranboo question.
"boat." she clarified, finally deciding to turn to meet the eyes of her friends. "the aquarium's on the pier. take a boat and we'll be in the back entrance in no time. with the highway, that puts us out in the open, a major disadvantage on our part especially if we're trying to be sneaky. the water's your best bet. they won't expect us to come from behind."
she noticed how phil looked out towards the aggressive waves, the darkness of them swaying like hills against the grey sky. he shook his head. "i'm sorry, y/n. it's too risky. besides, ranboo can't swim. with how harsh the water is, we could easily get thrown over and we'd be fucked then."
y/n shook her head, taking a few steps toward the car hood they were using as a stable surface for the map. "then i can go. it'd be safer than risking all our lives. you guys stay back. i can handle this. i have before." she tried to reason. instantly, she saw everyone jump to disagree.
"not a chance." tommy insisted. "look at what happened yesterday. you were gone so long that we thought you died. and when you got back, you were covered in blood and could barely talk." he recalled.
y/n scoffed, arms coming to cross over her chest in a defensive manner. "i made it back though, didn't i? and i got the information we needed." she met each of their eyes for a brief moment, stopping when she got to her boyfriend. "come on, wilbur, i'm right, aren't i?"
she noticed the heavy breath he took before swallowing thickly. "i'm sorry, love, but tom's right on this." he shook his head, damp curls stuck to his forehead. he reached out to grasp her hand gently, the pad of his thumb running along the dips and grooves of her bruised knuckles. "it wouldn't be safe."
a humorless chuckle slipped past her chapped lips as she ripped away from wilbur's soft touch. "are you guys fucking serious? you hear yourselves?" in an instant, her sarcastic smirk dropped to a snarl, brows furrowed in utter disbelief. "don't be stupid." she hissed.
"listen, y/n, we understand you want to go after abby. we all do, trust me, but-" charlie was quickly cut off.
"no, just shut the fuck up!" she barked. "how could you possibly understand something like that? you weren't there! you didn't see the shit she did to joel and his brother, what they ALL did." she growled, chest heaving and tightening like someone was using her lungs like a stress toy. "she killed him! she beat and tortured joel for god knows how long until i got there! you didn't see the way he looked! the way his face was swollen and covered in blood and bruises! or-or the way his knee was fucking missing! or the way he was too injured to fight back or move or to even fucking SPEAK!" she felt her face grow hot with each word that slipped like venom between her gritted teeth. "and you weren't there to watch him die. you weren't held down. you didn't beg. you didn't plead or threaten or break when that golf club broke through his fucking skull and killed him. so don't any of you ever say you understand because you don't."
silence fell like concrete over the group, the crashing of salty waves being the only echo of a sound. everyone stood and stared at y/n and her flushed cheeks, waiting for a move. "i'm going after abby." she croaked. "whether you come along or not, that's your choice. but don't you forbade me of choosing mine." she took a step back, gun still in hand and she clutched it tighter, feeling the grooves of the handle imprint her skin. "i'm going to find a boat." those were her final words to them as she turned away, walking towards the exit of the parking garage they were briefly held up in.
it didn't take her too long to meet the droplets of rainfall with her quick steps, too focused on the thought of finding something to help her across the water. that was until she felt a gentle hand grasp her bicep. wilbur turned her around, heartache swimming in his pretty hues. "please, y/n." his voice wavered, making her clench her jaw. "don't do this."
she felt the heat in her veins slowly melt away the longer he stared at her with plead. she once again shook her head. "i have to." she said, the edge she had moments ago lost in her voice. "i can't live knowing she's still alive, wil. i'll do whatever it takes to find her and you know this. even if it's the last thing i'll ever do."
"y/n, love, please. you're being reckless." he begs, hands falling to grip her's once again. "i-i wouldn't know what to do with myself if something happened, if i were to lose you. please just come back and we'll try to figure out something better, something to get us there faster." he spoke softly, pulling her forward to rest his head against hers.
"you aren't going to lose me, okay?" she reassured. "that promise you made me last night, remember? how you said not even the universe had the strength to pull you away from me?" he nodded against her. "that goes both ways, yeah? i'm here and i'm with you and that's not going to change." she pulled back to meet his gaze and placed a soft peck to his lips, ones just as raw as her own. "but this is something i have to do."
"i know." he exhaled through his nose. "i know it is, my love." he squeezed her hand. "at least let me come with you." he pleaded, cupping her cheek and thumb running over her skin. in an instant, she shook her head.
"no. no, wil, it's too risky." she declined. "i-if you get hurt because of me, i-" her words to cut short.
"now you know exactly how i feel. please, y/n, if you must go, let me come with you. to be separated from you, knowing the dangers you're walking into, it would kill me." he practically begged. y/n felt her heart clench, especially after seeing the desperation in wilbur's shaking pupils. she understood his concerns as she would feel the exact same if their roles were flipped. the way she would beg and fight to be by his side every step of the way.
but, this.
this was something she knew that could very well turn south and to hold the burden if anything happened to him on top of the trauma of joel's death, she wouldn't be able to function. she'd hang that over her head for the rest of her days and let it rot into her soul, knowing she couldn't protect the two most important people in the world to her. it would be safer for him here with the rest of the group and their plan that didn't reek of death.
"fine," she swallowed the bitter taste on the tip of her tongue. "go tell the others you're with me and get your stuff. i'll wait here." she ordered softly, shivering slightly from the water droplets falling down her nose and cheeks.
the smile wilbur sent her made her stomach churn. the bright grin now believing he'd be there to protect her stretched across his flushed skin and eyes crinkling at the sides. he nodded and leaned down to press a whisper of a kiss to her forehead, lips barely touching her hairline. he pulled away and began to jog back to the rest of the group. "i'll be five minutes, love. five minutes tops." he called back to her before disappearing into the concrete building.
once y/n lost sight of her boyfriend, she took off. she sprinted, legs carrying her as fast as she can with the weight of her backpack bouncing with each step. she could hear the extra bullets and medkits rustling together as she made her way down the street and towards the murky shoreline, hoping and praying there would be some type of boat she could use, whether she takes it by force or not.
the only thing she's thankful for, however, was the fact she'd be long gone by the time wilbur and the rest made it to the coast. and by the time they make it to the aquarium, hopefully she'd have abby killed or have some information on her whereabouts.
either way, as long as it kept her friends safe, she'd be fine going into a deathtrap blind and alone.
her pace slowed down to a walk after some time with heaving breaths shifting into white favor from the cold weather. she pulled her rainjacket hood up, hoping to shield herself from the rain and to hide her face in case she came across anyone. she looked around at the overgrown skyscrapers towering overhead and saw how the invasive ivy danced in the passing wind, only to watch it be illuminated by the streak of lightning shot through the clouds. a big city demolished to ruins and taken back by nature and in a twist of irony of how ugly the world became, it was just as beautiful.
she followed along the main roads until she was able to find the coast. a rush of relief hit her like a train when she spotted it: a lone row boat with a small motor swaying with the tide. she could see it was tied to the dock it sat next to and that sent off alarm bells in her mind. it was being used.
yet, just before she could come up with a plan, the sound of three muffled voices was made known. she ducked down in an instant behind a nearby unkept bush, the plant left to grow a million times bigger since the outbreak, but big enough to hide y/n's frame perfectly.
the voices grew closer, each one deep and gruff, leading y/n to conclude they were all men. that made a curse slip silently from her lips. three against one was never easy. she'd have to play this out carefully.
she leaned over, peeking out behind the leaves to spot the males making their way in her direction. they were all built and tall, surely holding strength that could kill her in a heartbeat. two had dark hair, one taller than the other, and another blonde with locks pulled back in a low pony. they all had matching jackets, a dark bomber with a small patch on the upper sleeve. from where she was hiding, y/n couldn't make out what it said, but assumed it was the community they're with, perhaps out on a job.
"next time issac sends me on another job that involves me getting on a boat, imma tell him to shove it up his ass." one of the brunettes complained. "i hate the fucking water."
"we know. you've been whining about it the entire fucking time, dipshit. i'm starting to get a headache from it." the blonde shot back. "so shut the fuck up."
y/n watched as they started towards the boat, making her breath hitch with anxiety. she can't let them leave. she needs that boat.
"will you both stop playing with each other's dick and get started on untying this thing?" the other said, making his way down the dock.
all three of their backs were turned, leaving them vulnerable to strike. y/n quickly reached for her thigh holster, pulling out her gun, and switching the safety off. they were occupied by now, grumbling to each other as they ready the boat to leave. this gave y/n enough time to sneak up to the closest one, the taller brunette.
with silent steps, y/n was able to kick out the back of his knee from behind, sending him down with a yelp that caught the attention of his friends. y/n pulled the man below her up, pressing the barrel of her gun to his temple as the other two pulled out their own weapons.
"the hell you think you're doing, kid?" the blonde hissed, revolver aimed in her direction.
"the boat. i want the boat." she held the same poison in her voice, eyes darkened with the thought of possible slaughter. "give it to me and you'll make it out of here." she warned, her grip on the man's shirt tightening as she dug her nails into his skin. he hissed in pain.
"don't be stupid." the words made her snarl.
"i'm not fucking asking. give me the goddamn boat." she ordered once again. "i'm not telling you a third time."
"and if we don't? what're you gonna do then? kill us?" the shorter brunette scoffed. "a little bitch like you doesn't have the balls to-"
BANG!
like that, he fell back and hit the water, a bullet hole lodged in his left eye and an exit wound the size of a baseball. blood and brain matter splattered across everyone's faces, skin growing sticky and warm and dirty.
after that, the next few minutes felt like slow motion. the man she had by the shirt managed to swing a sudden elbow back that connected with y/n's nose. the loud crack and pain made her fall back as crimson started to fall from her nostrils and seeping between her teeth. the metal flooded her tastebuds, but didn't have time to dwell on the sting.
just as the blonde shot his own gun, y/n was able roll, dodging the two bullets now lodged in the mix of sand and dirt not even a foot away from her. she then felt a hand on her ankle before a force pulled her forward. the air left her lungs briefly when her back hit the wood of the dock. "fuck," she wheezed just as the same rough hands pulled her to her feet and into a headlock.
"stupid fuckin' bitch." the man behind her cursed as he squeezed, making y/n gasp as the oxygen left her system. "imma fuckin' gut you."
at this, y/n began to panic, looking around for a way to help herself. however, just as black spots and stars cloud her vision, the sight of the man's hand came into view. without a second thought, y/n bit down, teeth sinking into the hill of his thumb and pulled. a cry of agonizing pain ripped from his throat as y/n spit out the chunk of skin, red now dribbling down her chin and soaking into the fabric of her jacket.
now she was free and breathing, her next moves were quick. she sprinted at the blonde in front of her, the male surprised at the sight of his friend losing his thumb in such a gnarly way. she took his shock and used it to her advantage, sprinting and slamming him to the ground with her body. the force knocked the revolver from his hands and left him defenseless as y/n pulled her switchblade and slammed the point down, ripping through his skin and piercing right through his jugular. she pulled her knife back out, more speckles of red painting her skin while doing so as she watched him begin to choke. she didn't waste anymore time, however, as she reached for the revolver that was tossed aside.
she turned, reaching up to point it at the only other one left standing. he was crouched down, damaged hand in his jacket as he tried to stop the bloodshed and groaned in agony. the sight of the coat made her pause. on the patch stitched into the sleeve read wlf, a picture of a biting wolf right under the letters.
"you're one of them." y/n stated with a pant.
"what?" the man hissed out.
"wlf. you're a fucking wlf." she repeated, teeth gritting as she spit it out. "abby anderson." she spoke. "where the hell is she?"
the man shook his head. "i-i don't know." he whimpered from a wave of pain. this wasn't the answer she was looking for.
y/n took quick steps over to him and pulled out her knife once more, driving it into the meat of his thigh. he let out a wail, the sound blending like an odd mix of a sob and gasp. "where the fuck is she?!" y/n snapped.
"i don't know!" he cried. "i-i don't know. she-she's been gone for days. only a few know where she went." he huffed.
"like who?" she pressured, but was met with silence once again. she twisted the blade, making the man scream out. "like who?"
"i-i don't know. owen moore m-maybe. manny a-alvarez, too." he responded.
"what about them? where are they?" she questioned even further.
"i-i don't know. i was out on a job when it all happened. i-i don't even work with that section of wlfs half the time." he explained, panting from his rushing adrenaline. y/n nodded at his words before yanking her knife out, making the man whimper. not a second later did she pull the trigger, not even giving him time to process her movements, and left the evidence of his death across the ground.
"fucking cunts." she sneered, walking over to pick up her gun she dropped and securing it back in her holster. she put the revolver in her backpack, knowing there’s no such thing as too many weapons.
with that, she untied the boat and climbed in, pulling the cord to make the motor sputter weakly before coming to life. a soft smile made it's way to her bloodied face, sighing in relief as the next stop was the aquarium. she was one step closer to finding abby and that's all she cared for.
and off she went.
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she hates to admit it, but the journey over took a lot longer than she anticipated. between the shit motor of the boat, the raging waters, and her desperation to find the one who destroyed her life in a matter of minutes, the trip was a total fucking nightmare. what made it even worse was the fact phil was partially right, his prediction of being thrown over by an angry wave coming true. the way the saltwater burned her nose and eyes made her skin crawl, her hatred for seattle growing more and more each day.
however, she was correct about one thing: it was a lot faster than the highway. now here she stood, inside the aquarium lobby, drenched to the bone with a broken nose and blood stains.
the silence surprised her. it was eerily quiet with no one in sight. no abby, soldiers, not even the wind. that unsettled her. noise was an alarm. noise kept her alive just as much as silence did and right now, she wished there was just a whisper of something.
no matter. she was here for one thing and one thing only.
she walked deeper into the building, eyeing the blue walls decorated with cartoons of sharks, seals, and jellyfish. the tanks she strolled by remained empty with stained glass showing how long ago it was abandoned. vines clung to the ceiling beams and railing and flyer advertisements littered the wet floor.
she envied the older generation, the ones born before the world fell to ruins. seeing the skeleton of what a fraction of how life previously was ached her as she knew she'd never had the luxury of experiencing something so mundane, yet so exciting as seeing exotic sealife or buying overpriced t-shirts and stuffed animals from a gift shop.
she bit her lip and sighed, shaking the thoughts from her brain. she continued to explore, eyes and ears sharp for any sudden movements or sounds as she made her way upstairs. she noted how massive the building actually was and was praying she was headed in the right direction.
she walked carefully through doors, hearing heightened for any sort of threat when she heard clicking. in an instant, her mind jumped to a clicker, preparing to take down the blind, yet dangerous infected. however, this was different to the call she'd grown so used to. it was strange, almost like claws against linoleum.
she didn't have time to analyze what the noise actually was before she felt a force slam into her and sent her to the floor. she coughed out, her bag breaking her fall thankfully when the sight of gnashing canines where headed straight for her face.
a large german shepherd stood over her, clawing against her skin and teeth scarily close to ripping through skin. it was growling and barking, sending a shock of fear down y/n's spine as she tried to fight the dog off. she noted how it was trained, the vest strapped to it's back meant it wasn't some rabid stray.
"fuck!" y/n cried out, using her forearms to hold the animal back from eating her whole. she was able to hold it back just enough to pry her sneaker in between them and kick the dog back. a yelp echoed off the glass walls, but it wasn't no time until it was back on its feet.
just as it was about to pounce once more, y/n was able to pull out her blade and stabbed the canine through the side of its head as it jumped. it fell to the ground limply, leaving y/n sat next to it breathless. a sense of guilt flooded her chest at the fresh corpse, but pushed that feeling away. it was all about survival anymore anyway.
she pulled herself to her feet when the sound of distant voices caught her attention. it was faint, hidden down the corridor and muffled through metal doors. the closer she got, the clearer it sounded: and man and woman arguing.
she snuck in, happy to note the two were too preocupied with the conversation at hand to see her hidden behind storage containers and barrels.
"people don't come back from that island!" the woman cried, making y/n peer around to watch the two. the lady had short hair, cut into a pixie with her back facing y/n's direction. she was wearing a large, puffy jacket and held desperation in her voice. the man stood across from her. dark blonde hair messy from running fingers. he sported a grey shirt and pants. nothing on them to show the two were wlfs.
"how many times has abby risked her life for you?" the man hissed, making the breath hitch in y/n's throat. the name rang in her ears and echoed in her brain.
abby. they know abby. they know where she is.
"she chose this. i'm not fucking going there." the woman spat back.
"then don't!" the male snapped, voice sharp and bouncing off the sparse walls. y/n's jaw clenched. "go back."
a moment of pause took over, the duo relishing in the heavy atmosphere before she spoke up. "fuck you, owen."
alarm bells were sent off in y/n's mind. owen. the wlf she killed to get here, he mentioned an owen. this must be him. she was definitely on the right track.
just as the unknown lady turned to leave, y/n decided now was the time to make herself known. she moved from her hiding spot with her handgun raised. "hands up." she ordered.
the strangers paused in shock and nervousness, eyeing the girl across from them warily. she could see the recognition in their eyes. they remembered her. they knew who she was.
they followed suit, raising their hands in surrender. "abby, where is she?" y/n questioned, weapon bouncing between them.
"you're the girl from jackson." owen spoke up, making y/n peer over to him.
"tell me where she went."
"how do we know you won't kill us?" the woman asked, fear evident in her voice.
"give her what she wants and we're dead." owen spoke.
y/n shook her head. "you can survive this. she's the only one i'm after." she clarified. "i just need her."
"bullshit." owen called out. y/n felt her brows furrow deeper and teeth grit as she used one of her hands to pull a map from her pocket, the same one she used to figure out abby was at the aquarium. she flipped it open.
"you." she pointed the gun towards the girl. "come here."
she remained in place.
"fucking get over here!" y/n shouted, blood beginning to boil in her veins. she cooperated, taking slow steps closer to y/n's frustrated frame. "point to where she is and then you." she glanced towards owen. "it better fucking match up."
"okay." the woman breathed out. her words caused the man to snarl.
"what the hell are you doing?"
"she's probably dead now anyway." she barked back.
owen shook his head, walking to the two females. "listen it's not worth it-" y/n pointed the barrel his way.
"stop."
"we can talk about this-"
"back the fuck up!" y/n shouted, finger threatening to pull the trigger. owen listened, taking a few steps back.
y/n turned around. "point to where she is." she ordered once again. the woman stood still, causing rage to burn through y/n's form. "i said fucking point!"
like that, owen leaped, knocking y/n slightly in an attempt to steal her gun. y/n's hands were like iron, grasp much too tight for owen to fight against. y/n pulled back, throwing a fist to his face that finally released her from the struggle before shooting. he gasped, bullet running through his stomach as he hit the floor in choked coughs.
"owen!" the lady called before pulling out her own blade. y/n turned, catching her arm right before she could plunge it into her face. she felt the pistol rip from her palm and fall to the floor. she didn't have time to reach it as she was twisted around, upper back pinned the the side of a nearby table with a blade itching to kill her. their grunts filled the silence, the two fighting for their lives through pants and shouts.
luck was on y/n's side this time as she was able to grasp the woman's hand and twist it away, sending them back from the table. from the force they were knocked with, it ended with them falling to the ground, giving y/n enough leverage to pull the knife from her opponent's fingers before slamming it deep into the side of her neck, watching as she fell still.
y/n got to her feet quickly, fearful the woman would strike again as she found her tossed gun. she aimed it at the body, eyeing it closely before the sounds of owen's sputtering caught her attention. she turned and took swift strides over to his bleeding out figure.
he was murmuring, failing to speak as crimson coated his tongue. "s-she..."
"where's abby?" y/n asked again. his breathing became ragged.
"she..."
y/n kneeled down, jamming the end of her gun against his throat and making him cough out. "where the fuck is she?!"
a single word slipped past owen's lips, making the fury lighting y/n's bones aflame extinguish instantly. dread filled her chest, heart and lungs falling heavy and dropped to her gut.
she stood with a paling face before making her way towards the woman's body. "no," she begged. "no, no, no..." she flipped her over before gripping the buttons of her stained jacket to reveal a baby bump, another person killed by her hand.
"oh, fuck." she forced out, feeling her lungs begin to tighten. "oh, fuck." she repeated, battered hands coming up to claw at the neckline of her shirt, hoping to at least get some air that was slowly leaving her system. "oh my god."
her breathing turned violent and was replaced by gasps, feeling her knees give out under her. pain filled her wholly, lightning traveling down her limbs and to her fingertips, numbing her body completely. her ears rang. it was high-pitched and muffled the sounds of her panic and prayed the feeling of her nails clawing against her skin would bring her back down to where she was now.
that was until she felt a soft hand on her back. fear struck her and jumped up, weapon cocked and ready to blow brains out if needed. the sight of her friends, however, was something she didn't expect.
wilbur stood across from her, hands out to show he wasn't a threat and eyes swimming with concern. "hey, hey! it's okay, it's only us." he reassured, words leading to y/n dropping her aim.
the others came in closer, wilbur reaching out to grab her hand. she flinched at the touch, but continued to let him pull her near, eyeing the corpse next to her. she noticed his staring and shook her head, feeling everyone's silent words etch into her skin. "i-i didn't know..." she whispered. "i'm sorry. i'm sorry."
wilbur shook his head and pulled his gaze away. "it's okay, love." he attempted to reassure. his fingers trailed up, arm moving to wrap around her shoulders. "come on, we need to go." he ushered, leading y/n back through where she came. it was a struggle though as she kept stopping to look back at the pregnant woman who was now dead by her actions. "it's okay. it's alright." wilbur would comfort, pulling her from the sight of the scene. charlie and ranboo stuck to the back, shielding y/n's eyes from trying to see her destruction anymore.
yet, despite their efforts, it's the only thing she can see.
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the dressing room was exactly where she was once again, the bright lights making her head throb more than she liked. her nose was stinging, her adrenaline now dissipated and making her aware of the pain in her body. one glance at her face and phil deemed it broken. it was easy to come to that conclusion, especially since her bridge was bloody and bruised.
her shoulders felt heavy. they were rolled in, trying to hide away from the world and today's events. she screwed her eyes shut, bringing her palms up to rub at them until colors were the only thing she could see. a flash happened, a snippet of the woman lying dead with her unborn baby.
y/n swallowed thickly, bile sizzling on her tongue. she breathed out, hues opening to blink back the burn of tears. her thoughts were luckily cut short by the curtain opening, revealing her boyfriend carrying a spare medkit. she sat up and shot him a fake smile, one he saw right through.
"hey," she croaked out just as he kneeled down in front of her. he was silent, opening the box without a word and pulled out some gauze, medical tape, a rag, and alcohol. y/n bit down on her lip.
the trip back to the theatre was uncomfortable to say the least. wilbur didn't speak much after pulling y/n away from who she killed, nor did anyone else. they were all stuck in their minds and cycled through the bodies they found that led them right to the aquarium. they knew their friend was desperate for revenge, but seeing the aftermath of her rage felt surreal.
she watched as wilbur doused the cloth in the alcohol before bringing it up to her face. "this is gonna hurt like a bitch." he warned. y/n nodded, but wince harshly at the ache that came deep from her wound.
"fuck!" she cursed, eyes twisting shut as wilbur attempted to make quick work. despite his gentle hands, she couldn't help her gritting teeth. her hand shot out to grab his arm, gripping it in an attempt to aid the pain.
"i know it hurts. i'm almost done." he soothed. a second later, he pulled back a red-stained fabric and tossed it aside.
y/n let out a huff. "god, that fucking sucked." she spoke.
he nodded quietly, reaching for the wrap and tape. his slim fingers worked delicately as he folded the gauze over to form a thick bandage. he then placed it over her nose, securing it with a couple of strips.
he sat back, resting on his knees and sighed. a frown played on his lips, pulling downwards in a mix of emotions y/n had a hard time deciphering. what she could catch was the swirl of disappointment.
"you want to say something so just say it." y/n said, biting her cheek. "you're mad. i can see it."
he shook his head. "i'm not mad, love."
her brows furrowed. "you should be."
he nodded. "yeah, i should be." he agreed. "but i'm not."
"why?"
he shrugged, peering down at his torn cuticles. he'd picked them amid an anxiety attack when he came back to find his girlfriend gone after she agreed to let him come with. "i can't be mad at you. it's impossible for me to do so. i'm more hurt than anything."
"i'm sorry, wil." y/n spoke meekly, knowing those words do little to suffice the ache he's probably feeling.
"i know you are." he responded, giving her a small smile. "i just can't wrap my head around what you were thinking." he reached over and grasped her hands, lacing their fingers together. "when i came back out from getting my things, you were gone. i had no idea which way you went. i felt like i was running in circles trying to find you before tom found me. we knew you had a plan so we went for the shore first. all we saw were bodies and i nearly broke thinking one of them was you."
"they turned out to be wlfs, wil. the same group where abby's from." y/n informed, giving his palm a small squeeze. "they had a boat. i did what was needed."
"i know that, too." he pressed a kiss to her knuckles. "but for you to lie to me like that and to take off, i've never felt such fear before. and that fear kept growing and growing with the more blood and bodies we found trying to find you."
that seed of guilt from before blossomed again, making y/n frown and pull her gaze from his heartbroken hues.
"y/n,” he muttered, crawling over closer and forcing her to meet his gaze. "i love you so goddamn much, you know? my heart bleeds for you every second of every day. but what you did was careless. i know finding abby is something you feel you need to do and i'll do anything to help you with that. we all will." he swallowed. "but you're not alone in this. you need to stop acting as if you are because that can and will get you killed and i can't have that. not now, not ever, you hear?"
y/n nodded. "i hear." she gave him a weak grin, cheeks flushing pink at his words. "and i'm sorry. i'm sorry for running off and scaring you and the guys and just everything i've done leading up to now. i know it's not easy for you, or any of us really, but i appreciate you being here to help me. i don't think i would've made it this far if it wasn't for everyone, especially you. and i'll try to do better with the way i go about things."
wilbur's eyes gleamed with stars as he took in her voice, a smile stretching out across his beautiful face. "of course, my love. where you go, i go and that's the way it'll always be."
a sigh fell from y/n's lungs, sniffling slightly from the sting of salty drops threatening to fall from her eyes. "god, i love you so fucking much, wil." she stated tearfully.
with her words, wilbur leaned in, connecting their lips in a sweet kiss, but still wary of her busted nose. it was soft and delicate, nearly fragile in the way his mouth moved against hers. it spoke what no words could comprehend, the sheer amount of pain and adoration he held for the girl across from him. it blended with her, soaking into her skin to seep between the bone of her ribs and nestled deep in the valley of her heartstrings.
they were reluctant to pull away, but the need for air became too powerful. they separated with small, swollen smiles.
they relished in this moment of peace, the stillness before another storm hits and puts everything they loved and cared for on the line. it's just sad how soon the hurricane comes, leaping like a lion on prey before it had time to notice, blissfully ignorant to it's surroundings.
with the sound of distant gunshots yanking the couple back to reality, y/n knew one thing:
the storm was here.
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heartofwritiing · 3 months
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"you're my light, darling..." his chilled hands grasped yours, the mixture of your warmth blending in with his cold fabricating a sensation of serenity in your gaze while his fingers tangled with yours like vines.
"even when i do not shine as bright, you do not dare taunt me with your gleam, but instead gift it." the way his dull view peered into yours certainly wielded a bit of charm, a tone of devotion leaking onto your expression as you warmly smiled at him.
"you flatter me," your words rang out in the empty space. "yet, i can't help but ponder what you are doing away from your orbit, my dear."
his locks of white and auburn shifted through your fingers, your free hand scavenging the strings in a gentle manner before he slightly leaned in to your touch—towards you.
"i have diverse phases every once and a while, for another has taken my place."
"and you're spending your break of revolving with me?"
a hot breath caressed your skin as the man tilted his head, a grin sprawling onto his face before he gently kissed your forehead.
"love, i'm fairly sure we've been together for more than four billion years. i'm starting to assume you're not only sparking my heart, but rather my memory if what i say is a fib..." ]
you could only let out a laugh as he hovers his lips over yours, the figure of his smile being foreshadowed onto yours as he wraps an arm around your waist.
a swift movement was all it took for the beam in your eyes to shine a bit more, though you hastily closed them once the feeling of his lips on yours made you hum. your back had slightly been arched as he partially dipped you, the stars acting as spotlights while a few flickered at the scene.
once he pulled away, the cheeky grin on his face only allowed you to snicker. "you're a peculiar one, wilbur...."
"and you love it..." wilburs' smile had grown when you nodded at him, pulling him down for another kiss.
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moon.wilbur and sun.reader, anyone?
it's short, but i absolutely adore it! :]
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Here’s my proposal, reader being completely new to relationships and the like- and being super touch-starved, who literally cannot handle something as simple as holding hands without becoming a complete mess; and Wilbur, who’s been in like multiple relationships, whose love language is also physical affection-
(Also could I be 🦋 anon plz)
Wilbur With A Touch-Starved Partner
Wilbur Soot x Gender Neutral Reader
Warnings: Fluff so adorable I kept kicking my feet and squealing.
Hello new anon!!! Or should I say, hello 🦋 anon :) As a touch starved person who’s love language is physical affection (when I want to be touched, that is) this is brilliant! Very fun to write! I hope you enjoy!
Headcannons below cut!
~He’d first pick up on you being touch starved when he held your hand for the first time and you immediately turned bright red, nestling closer into his side.
~You two got onto the topic of love languages shortly after that, and you mentioned that you loved physical touch.
~”Is that why you got so flustered when I held your hand earlier?” Wilbur would tease, and you’d sheepishly nod. “I love physical touch, too.”
~After a pause, you’d shyly admit that this was your first time in a relationship and you were a little touch starved.
~”Well, I’m happy to take things slow with you, love. But… do you want a hug?”
~It was a little embarrassing how fast you nodded, the feeling of being wrapped in his arms was otherworldly.
~After you admitted your love for physical touch, Wilbur would make sure you got as much of it as you wanted.
~Every time he held your hand, wrapped an arm around your waist, or pulled you onto his lap, you got so happy it made him grin.
~But when he kissed you for the first time?
~You were a blushing, shaking mess.
~The night of your first kiss together, you were sitting watching a movie on his couch, wrapped in Wilbur’s arms, his hand slowly rubbing circles into the small of your back.
~”Can I kiss you?” He’d murmured softly, leaning in while giving you plenty of time to pull away.
~But you don’t, leaning into the kiss instead, laughing a little as you accidentally collide with his nose.
~For your first kiss, it could’ve been worse.
~The rest of the movie was ignored, spent cuddling and planting soft kisses all over each other’s faces.
~Wilbur fell in love with you more every time you got flustered from him touching you, even just by brushing your hand.
~Takes every opportunity to touch you.
~Let’s just say you’re no longer touch starved after awhile.
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heartofwritiing · 3 months
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could you write wilbur soot confessing his love to a crush? 👉👈
something about how he's been pinning after this crush for so long, but the crush seems a bit avoidant or something
but that's because the crush also has a crush on him and is very very shy qpwimsmanssjslslek sorry im not good with requests
You and me need never be, lonely again.
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Paring: cc!wilbur soot x fem!cc!reader
authors note: Thank you so much for requesting! I hope you don't mind the reader being a content creator and i’m sorry she’s not super shy because im not really sure how to write shy lol but i hope you like the request! I just thought it would add to the idea and I've wanted to do something similar to this for a while! This is a request back from august. I am so sorry this took me so long to get out. I've been going through some shit irl but I'm finally starting to come back to writing because I genuinely love it and posting on here since it is my safe space!
line from this prompt list
warnings: friends-lovers, reader lives in the US, brief description of anxiety, the reader sends mixed signals, swearing, kinda angsty, happy end, super unedited!
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"No! That was such bullshit!"
The voice of Tommyinnit ran through the speakers of your computer causing you to let out a chuckle that you were the reason for his outburst.
You were playing Gang Beasts on stream with some of your closest friends, and you had grabbed Tommy's character and thrown him off the map by picking him up.
Laughter rang out amongst the group as the screen card popped up saying your username won. You cheered as everyone groaned but dispersed into 'ggs' then that's when everyone started to bid goodnight. You hadn't realized it had been four hours of streaming and playing games, showing the good time you were having with friends.
"Alright chat, that's gonna be it for me today! Please remember to click the follow button if you're new to stream that way you'll know when I go live! byeee!" You did your outro, quickly closed your stream down, and logged out of Twitch.
It was an uneventful stream session, thank god. You’ve noticed more and more how your chat gets when you even mention wilburs name.
“you logging off completely y/n/n?” Ranboos voices asks through your earbuds.
“No, I’ll play a few more rounds if you guys are down,” you respond.
“HELL YEAH!” Tommy boasted. “IM GONNA KICK YOUR ASS THIS TIME Y/N/N!”
“Oh, it’s on gremlin child!” you replied.
Wilbur listened to this conversation on his end, letting out a chuckle. He honestly doesn’t know why you make him laugh so easily. Anytime you threw a genius comment toward Tommy that was deemed insulting, or calling him a name Wilbur fell for you more and more. If only he had the guts to tell you.
You as well wouldn’t admit it but every time Wilbur laughed all you could feel was butterflies punching your stomach and a smile that made your cheeks hurt. You were also falling hard for him.
After about another fifteen minutes, Tommy and Ranboo had bid their goodbyes for the night and ended their calls. You were left in call with Wilbur, the silence could be cut with a knife.
Knowing him for two years was hard. Wilbur was everything to you. He was funny, smart, charming, and overall made you feel comfortable. Something you thought you’d never have with anyone. Having to only talk on call and video made things easier for you. On call you could hide your blushes and smiles from him, but not from your chat who caught every interaction between you and Wilbur when you streamed. The constant ’Wilbur x name confirmed?’ tweets and comments in your twitch chat were recently repetitive and you wondered when you became such a beacon of attention. It gave you such anxiety to have all eyes on you when you wanted to spend time with your best friend.
It was getting obnoxious to the point where you debated making a tweet to get the fans to stop shipping you both, even if you were dating it was no one’s business. Still you never dared to say anything out of fear of stans coming at you in anyway. You didn’t need to draw more unwanted attention to yourself.
“You logging off? it’s getting pretty late for you,” you spoke up.
“Yeah, we both should, by the way what times your flight tomorrow?”
Right, you were flying less than eight hours from now to finally meet your friends inperson. You all had planned this for months, booking hotels and flights, making a whole deal about it. Then you really wouldn’t be able to hide from him for a whole week.
“Around seven-thirty,” you reply.
He hums.
“I’ll let you get some rest, see you tomorrow night darling,” his voice purposely going lower on the ‘darling’ part that you almost didn’t catch it, making your knees go weak.
“N-night Will,” you stutter, end call and slump back into your desk chair trying to calm your racing heart. Meanwhile Wilbur all the way across the ocean in Brighton has a smile plastered across his lips.
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About a plane ride, a train ride and car ride later, you are stood in the hotel lobby in Brighton waiting for a late Tommy and Wilbur to arrive. You were super nervous to meet them. Having only been friends for what was a short time, it felt like you knew them for years, so why was this so scary?
You debated in your mind about texting them to see if they were close by, but you didn’t want to come off as annoying and impatient. You wanted to make a good first impression, but again these were your friends. Why were you shaking with nerves?
You fiddled with your thumb’s absentmindedly until you felt a pair of hands on your shoulders, causing you to jump out of your skin. You spin around to be met with a cackling Tommy who is clucking his stomach from laughing so hard at your reaction.
“Fucking gremlin child,” you huffed under your breath, not realizing the evident blood rushing to your cheeks from being startled so easily.
“It’s nice to hear you say that in person,” a deep voice said from behind Tommy. You shifted your eyes to see a very tall Wilbur, who was wearing his round glasses pushed up his nose and curly hair fluffed to the side.
His dark sweater selves rolled up to revel his arms tucked into his side as he gazed at you with a soft smile. Finally after two years of being separated by seas, your best friend was standing right in front of you. It was surreal to say the least.
You laugh and jump forward to embrace him. The number of times you’d tease him over-call about his height made you regret your words. He towers over you as he bends down to your level to give you a long awaited hug. His arms are soft, yet firm as they wrap around your back and cage you into his embrace.
You both pull away, both grinning from ear to ear. He looks down at you with a hint of something behind his eyes, he seems to be genuinely happy to finally meet you in person. which makes you blush at the thought of him looking forward to this moment since you told him you wanted to come here. You're quickly brought out of your moment when Tommy speaks up behind you.
"So he gets a hug and I don't?!" his tone slightly offended.
"Yup, cause you're annoying," you bring a hand up to flick his forehead, causing him to let out a irritated noise. you had only just met him in person but something compelled you to do that. Maybe it was just a reason for you to break the ice and it was working because you all broke out into giggles.
“Im just kidding Tom,” you motion him into a hug.
Wilbur just stood observing the entire interaction between his two best friends. He was thrilled to finally have you here, he couldn't wait to show you all his favorite places, hang out, and get to know better in person. Finally.
The two boys had managed to drag you to the beach, and even though it was freezing Tommy insisted on going to the arcade to try and win another 'vlog gun'. After suffering through loosing a few games, Wilbur managed to win you a little stuffed cat that you promptly named Mr Whiskers.
It was endearing to watch him struggle at most of the games so he could get enough tickets. It was all worth it in his eyes to embarrass himself by losing ski-ball to you, twice, he saw the evident blush on your cheeks and the look you gave him. As if he hung the stars in the sky just for you. It made his chest hurt in a good way.
The rest of the night went smoothly for the most part. More and more, Wilbur had been getting more touchy with you. Though you didn’t mind it at all, maybe he didn’t realize how much he was putting his hand on you as you walked side by side as he led you through crowds. How he held doors open for you. It was sweet.
Maybe he was doing it just to be nice. That small voice in the back of your head telling you thats all it was. Because thats what friends do.
Eventually, the three of you met up with Ranboo and Charlie. They were just how they were online, which made meeting them a whole lot better. Walking around Brighton, making inside jokes and teasing each other. You hadn't been this happy in a while. You can remember the last time you genuinely enjoyed yourself, your friends were the product of that. You were fortunate to have found them when you did. Quarantine was hard on you, much like the rest of the world. So when you were invited to join a group game call, you couldn't pass up the opportunity. That night, something had clicked between you and Wilburt specifically. Then you started to join more calls with the gang and the rest was history.
Sometime in the night, you found yourself walking behind with Wilbur by your side chatting about nothing in particular. Until the comfortable silence filled the air between you, you took a moment to take in the nightlife of Brighton. The street lamps guide your way through the beachside and the pubs on the corner were starting to fill up. As if the city was somehow more alive at night.
"I'm really glad you came," Wilbur speaks, sincerely.
You stop your wide-eyed gaze to look at him and smile softly at him.
"I am too," You gush. "I'm honestly considering moving here,” Now he’s smiling.
Wilbur's brain starts to go a million miles a second. His heart leaped at the thought of you living closer to him. Seeing you in person everyday seemed like a dream come true. He begins to slow his step and a frown replaces your smile. Your own thoughts running rampant now, assuming you might've freaked him out by voicing that you wanted to move here so soon after meeting him in person. Maybe it made him uncomfortable. it was too soon to say something that bold. You had only just met him in person today.
"Listen, Y/N..."
You stopped and your brain got the best of you with his tone. You shouldn't have said anything like that to him. It was too soon.
“I don’t want to sound cheesy, but I need you to know how I feel.”
Oh... OH.
You knew what this was leading to. Realizing why he was acting the way he was all day.
"I like you, more than like you. You're funny, beautiful, smart, and everything I could've hoped for in a best friend. But I can't keep pretending I don't think of you when we aren't talking, or how when I look at you my chest hurts."
Wilbur liked you. Really liked you. You would jump for joy and shout to the rooftops about how much you reciprocate his feelings but something in the back of your mind told you not to. The doubt in your mind from yourself, both your fans online judging. It made you slowly start to panic. You felt as though you weren’t good enough for him.
You saw the aftermath of when his fans shipped him and Niki together. It almost ruined their friendship. You didn’t want that.
"Please say something?" he stops his rant to notice you are staring up at him with blank eyes.
"I-uh," you stutter. "can we maybe not do this now?"
His face falls and it instantly crushes you with regret. His disappointment shows as he gives you a forced smile and nods.
"Y-yeah, let's catch up with everyone, Tommy wants to do this big stream at his place." he gestures for you to move along with him, all while you feel horrible for doing this.
You wish you could take back what you said. You know you've hurt him, It's painfully obvious when he doesn't talk to you for the rest of the walk. You glance at him a few times but he keeps his eyes forward and stoic.
If only you didn’t let your anxiety get the best of you. You had to talk to him at some point, but for now you pushed it aside. The rest of the group didn’t seem to notice the sudden tension between the two of you, if they did nothing was remarked about it.
As you continued the journey to Tommys flat, you and Wilbur still walked silently side by side. With what little courage you had, you reached out your hand and held his in a moment of truce. Giving it a gentle squeeze with your fingers to seal the deal that you would talk later. You heard his soft inhale at the contact and he squeezes back. Your shoulders drop from the weight of tension being lifted off. Maybe, just maybe this ment this conversation wasn’t over.
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Back at Tommy’s, the monitor in his cramped bedroom with everyone packed together like sardines; shows the twitch chat flashing by with viewers comments.
“WELCOME BACK TO THE STREAM EVERYONE!” Tommy shouted causing you to hold your ear in slight pain.
“God Tommy, could you be anymore loud?” you wince.
“Look who’s here chat!” he gestured to you with his hands, ignoring your complaints. You waved at the webcam as chat went crazy. He introduced everyone else as they all broke out into a chorus of conversation.
Wilbur was mostly quiet on your left, an occasional sarcastic comment made here and there. You could practically feel his eyes buring into the side of your head. Hopping chat wasn’t noticing how he was looking at you, your eyes shifting to your lap to fidget with your fingers.
Out of view, Wilbur reached over and took your hand picking at the skin around your nails. You had stopped your nervous tick and opted for squeezing his hand. Nobody seemed to notice the sudden shift in both your behavior.
Suddenly you felt tense, the feeling of having everyone’s eyes on you made your mind start to spiral.
Letting go of Wilburs hand, you quickly had excused yourself and walked out of Tommys room and into the kitchen.
Everyone had a mix of concerned and worried expressions as they watched you leave the room but didn’t say anything about it. Wilbur had followed you in pursuit. He found you in the kitchen hyperventilating Your panic had taken over and now your lungs were paying the price for the burning sensation from not breathing.
“it's okay,” he took your face into his hands and held you. “just follow my breaths.
he took a breath in, and you followed.
When you came to your senses, Wilbur had asked you what was wrong and you just began to cry. Everything came rushing down on you.
“Im sorry. I-Im sorry I shot you down earlier, Im sorry for h-hurting you. I-i,” you stuttered over yourself. Wilbur shakes his head at you. He probably thinks you’re such a mess.
“I don’t understand, I know you like me too, so I don’t understand why you rejected me after I poured my heart out to you. Then you go and hold my hand while we're walking.'
Wilbur was right. Playing with his feelings was selfish and cruel. He was completely in the right to question you. You were practically flirting with one another all day, and then you shut down his advances of trying to open your relationship.
“I do wanna be with you.” you sniff. “I'm just really scared.”
"Why darling? It's just me, your silly old Wil." he pokes at your sides causing you to let out a giggle. Your best friend, who looked at you with the prettiest chocolate eyes, who stayed on call with you all night when you couldn't sleep. The only person you told your deepest fears and dreams to.
You take a shaky inhale as you begin to explain. "I don't wanna ruin our friendship, we have something I've never experienced with anyone else in my life. I care about you too much to let me be a distraction in your life, and I am scared that the fans will-"
Wilbur interrupts you with a hand on your arm.
"The fans? darling who cares about that, I care way too much about you to even care about what strangers think. It's no one's business who I, or you for that matter have a relationship with." he clarified. "I love you and nothing or no one will ever change that."
Those three words made your heart leap in your throat.
"Y-you l-love me?" you stutter in disbelief.
"Yes, of course I do."
Tears roll down the apples of your cheeks as you lean forward to engulf Wilbur into another hug. His arms wrapped around your back reciprocating your embrace. your face buried in his neck as you inhale his cologne and your tears dampen his skin.
"I love you too Wil," you whisper.
He squeezes you closer to him in return and this time you don't hold yourself back...
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heartofwritiing · 3 months
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Im begging you on my knees, please add me to the taglist (if ur okay with it, obv).. Im fucking obsessed with your stories, so much so Im bawling my eyes out T-T
OF COURSE THANK YOU SO MUCH!
I’m really happy people enjoy my writing even tho it’s not great :)
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