listening to the bolter

first several listens : this is so me

like 10th listen: this is quite literary about celaena sardothien

PLS NO TOG SPOILERS (still reading heir of fire as i am struggling to find time during the semester)

top 3 songs for swifties who live in their head

i hate it here

foolish one

guilty as sin?

@roach-works // Melissa Broder, "Problem Area" // Mary Oliver, "The Return" // @annavonsyfert // Koyoharu Gotouge, Demon Slayer // Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance // David Levithan, How They Met and Other Stories // Tennessee Williams, Notebooks

THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT: THE ANTHOLOGY

merch concept - a patch/magnet for every track (click for full quality)

WHO AM I PERFORMING FOR WHO AM I PERFORMING FOR WHO AM I PERFORMING FOR WHO AM I PERFORMING FOR WHO AM I PERFORMING FOR WHO AM I PERFORMING FOR WHO AM I PERFORMING FOR WHO AM I PERFORMING FOR WHO AM I PERFORMING FOR WHO AM I PERFORMING FOR

I hate it here....

this is what i've been SAYINGG

Folkmore girlies we really won with the Anthology songs didn't we

jess mason

am i gentle or am i scared?

i draw hearts next to intense items on to do lists. is it in kindness to and in support of myself? or because even in my own writing i am afraid to come off demanding or anything less than sweet?

Only when your girlish glow, flickers just so, do they let you know: It's hell on earth to be heavenly. Them's the breaks, they don't come gently. Clara Bow - The Tortured Poets Department (2024)

As for “Who’s Afraid of Little Old Me,” Swift revealed that she wrote the tune “alone, sitting at the piano in one of those moments when I felt bitter about just all the things we do to our artists as a society and as a culture.” “There’s a lot about this particular concept on ‘The Tortured Poets Department,'” she added. “What do we do to our writers, and our artists, and our creatives? We put them through hell. We watch what they create, then we judge it. We love to watch artists in pain, often to the point where I think sometimes as a society we provoke that pain and we just watch what happens.”

Taylor on “Who’s Afraid of Little Old Me” and TTPD (Variety)

I CANNOT KEEP WRITING THIS LESSON PLAN

part of being an educator is realizing that ur teachers probably also had to write 20 page plans for a 30 minute lesson in college.

anyways i just find it strange that i haven't mentioned teaching on here bc it is such a big part of my life (my purpose or whatever).

anyways if anyone has any questions abt literacy im ur girl

never beating the eldest daughter accusations

i am the youngest of 4 im just unconditionally a people pleaser and secretly very scared all the time

if there is such a thing as youngest daughter syndrome pls lmk

high functioning depressed bitches rise!

✅ responsible for emotional state of entire family from a young age

✅ generally bubbly personality despite internal fear and despair

✅ will be in the absolute depths of misery and mental illness but work and academic performance will never once falter

sometimes i try to talk to my friends about being upset and i get so so uncomfortable bc my whole life i was taught not to burden other people with my sadness so i end up either apologizing or comforting them every time!

youth as luminous light

and and other Red vs TTPD comparisons on aging and being replaced

TAYLOR SWIFT The Tortured Poets Department

who's afraid of little old me?

mad woman

I have been unable to stop finding parallels / making connections between this album, taylor's past work, and any sort of poetry/prose/lyrics I can think of <3