i want to get so much worse.

laxatives and water all weekend <3333

i found this 7 day cleanse thing from walgreens that just guts me but if anyone else has any recommendations i’d love to hear them :3333

i’ve been plateauing at 90-93 and it’s driving me up the wall, i just want to be 80lbs again, does anyone want to check with each other and keep each other in check???

fuck recovery. im over it. coming back once again

can someone call me skinny before i die

time to not eat for a week ?

was/am i (ever) anorexic if eating is so easy ?

12/26/22-03/09/24

123lbs -88lbs

it wasn’t until i put these pants on again and remembered my first B C vid that i realized how much of a difference i’ve made and how much better i feel in my clothes

i don’t think a camera can capture how desperate my eyes really look in the mirror

what has been yr longest fast? n walk me thru how you’ve felt during it, i’m trying to get back into my honeymoon phase :3

my roommate is actually making me so sad we just don’t hang out anymore n she just kinda treats me like shit n i just miss my best friend man :,(

i fucking hit my ugw but can’t maintain at it. it’s like i eat over 1k cals a day n it instantly makes me gain, i gained 5lbs in like two weeks which i feel like is insane. i was trying to maintain at around 1200-1500 cals but it doesn’t work, and even that should technically be a deficit.

Please interact if you’re over 18 y/o with a ⭐️ving, 4na, ed not Sheeran blog - I wanna follow people who are more my age range x

BING BINGE BOINGEW IM DONE I CANT DO IT ANYMORE I don’t WVEN LIKE FOOD WTF ACTUALLY GET IT OUT OF ME

i’m getting bad at restricting again …

rlly wanting top surgery tbh, the more n more i think abt my body n having an ed in relation to transness n body dysmorphia/dysphoria is rlly odd. i feel like this isn’t talked about a lot, especially as someone who’s genderqueer where eds r so feminized ? idk if this is making sense,,,

hot take:

some of yr mealspos r fucking nasty n just lead to a binge later bc it’s not even satiating u n yr hunger cues. like obviously having safe foods is different but if every “meal” is veggies/fruits n a rice cake yr gonna fuck yr metabolism so yr just gonna drop a bit of weight n then plateau or binge n gain it all back.

i think im gonna start posting some of my favorite meals that r low cal but higher volume that actually helped me lose weight.