so itās basically canon that Billy has anxiety, right? (according to Dacre, anyway, and Iād take his word over the duffer bros any day).
and while I was watching clips of Tinaās party for fic reference purposes, I paused right here and noticed something:
first of all, look how pretty he is!
second of all, look at his cigarette.
that boy is sucking the life out of that cig. as someone who smokes, I know for a fact that the sharp little tip is from taking too many drags too fast. Billy probably takes longer drags when he gets nervous, thinking itāll help him cope with the way his mind races.
like, imagine how nervous he mustāve been before the party. hyping himself up in the mirror, telling himself that his costume was hot as fuck and not stupid, that he was going to storm into that party and everyone was going to go crazy for him and not look at him weird.
and after he beat Steveās record on the keg stand, imagine how his anxiety mustāve manifested in excited-nervous energy, his heart racing and stomach twisting so tight that he had to release it by spitting beer everywhere and yelling. he took that cigarette right from Tommy and took a drag and didnāt stop until he was right in front of Steve.
heās so anxious that he canāt exhale, his lungs burn from that deep drag but he doesnāt care because he just beat this pretty boyās record, and yet still doesnāt say shit to him.
maybe iām just a romantic but i like to think it was because his racing mind was finally quieted once he looked into those big brown doe eyes.
i need to know what is going on inside michael wheelerās head in s5, i want him to feel like his relationships should be back to normal (heās said i love u to el, heās apologised to will) so things should feel right now, shouldnāt they?? but they donāt and he doesnāt understand why, and talking to will is so much harder than it used to be for some reason and maybe itās partially him, but ever since the summer he screwed up and will left for cali, he always feels like will is hiding something from him and its driving him crazy trying to think what it could be.Ā