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Seeing as we are all giving our gratitude to you, I'd like to add my own thanks. When I found your Tumblr I found my own way of being comfortable, I found a definition of how I sometimes act and feel and your blog made me realize that said things are ok. Love your writing and I wish you the best with whatever you do, be it leave this blog, keep writing, never write again, whatever it is. I hope you do well and I wish you the best on your next adventure, be it big or small
(Apologies is anything is worded weird or spelled wrong, I'm a native English speaker/writer, why should I know how to talk)
knowing that my blog was one of the first ones brining you into the regression community is crazy! i'm so glad you were able to understand yourself and who you are a little more, and i'm so honored to be apart of that journey.
much love and good vibes to you <3 and thank you for that last part, i hope to write again, but knowing that there are people out there rooting for me regardless is something i hold close to my heart.
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I have been here from the beginning and have talked to you one on one many times. I don’t think you understand just how helpful you have been to the community of regressors that you have reached. You don’t just post fan fictions. You have also explained aspects of regression to so many people in approachable ways. You have these answers linked so they are easy to find which is something that helps a lot. When people ask me what regression is and when they have questions on regression I send them to your blog because I know you have the answer or will respond with a answer. Your writing is also something I don’t think you value as much as we all do. When you were asked you began to write readers with they/them pronouns and you don’t write the reader as a character but as a blank slate we can all cast ourselves onto. That’s not something that’s common. You have created a safe space in so many different ways and I don’t think you understand that. You are the kindest person on here. You are one of the safest people on here. I need you to start understanding that.
i don't even know how to respond to this, it's too kind. when i began this blog it was for fun, a little spot for me to escape the world and write to help myself cope. i never thought that it would be a safe space for other people, nor did i think i would have this kind of impact on people.
knowing that my answers to questions about regression help other people is crazy to me. i'm happy that my silly goofy answers do a good enough job for you to send people to me for answers. i had hoped that they allowed people to understand regression more, i guess i just didn't think that would actually happen.
i also didn't realise that me writing non descript characters is something that's impacted people but i'm glad to know that i've done a good job in doing so.
i really appreciate this message and i apologize if my answer isn't good enough, i'm still not truly sure how to respond to this other than saying how genuinely thankful i am for your kind words, and how much your support means to me.
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In response to the message thanking you for your writing and talking about rereading your work, I think it important that you know your Bucky and Bub are my go to comfort after I wake in the middle of the night to a nightmare. They bring me a sense of comfort. Depending on how scared I feel, I'll start with Bucky and Steve with their Littles at the cafe. And then make my way into the Stranger Things babysitter series. It's about then that I feel better enough to fall asleep or get up for the day not scared out of my mind.
I know you mentioned deleting everything but I ask (beg) of you not to. Not only for selfish reasons as I've listed above but maybe some time later on in your life you'll return to this blog and see how much of an impact you've had on people. Even if you never write anything for us again, the amount of people you've touched and comforted with your words is amazing. And I don't want you to lose that.
i’m so happy that they bring you comfort, that my writing does that for you! i’m so thankful to have been able to write things that people find comfort in, and something that people seek out specifically when in need of comfort. it warms my heart knowing i’ve been able to give you something like that.
i don’t plan on ever removing everything forever, if i ever do delete this blog, which is not something i’m planning on doing, but if i do, i would post all my work on either another tumblr account, or send it all to AO3, and would also give a large amount of time for people to find it somewhere else as well as enough time for people to get used to the change.
so never worry that your comfort will disappear overnight, i will make sure there is access the things i’ve written no matter how much i may want ti wipe the world of it. i’ve been in the receiving end of a writing going dark, and i wouldn’t want to do that to y’all!
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Hi sweetie. I hope you are having a good day. I understand things may be tough right now. But take it day by day. You mentioned school awhile ago. How has that been going? I hope well. I know for me, I'm really struggling with motivation to do any of it so I'm really behind. Are you liking your course? Proud of yourself for what you've done?
I just wanted to check in with you. Remind you that you are loved and cared for. You have a great and beautiful mind and loving heart. ♡
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hii!!! school has been good, im currently doing a big project that’s due in two days, im almost done it actually! it’s been fun learning all new things and i’m excited to continue the course over the next two or three weeks!
are you still behind on your school work? it can be sooo hard to get back on track after getting behind a bit, i hope things are going well!!!
i hope you’re having a good day, night, morning, and i hope things are well and you’re doing okay! i’m always sending you good vibes!!! <333
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the only thing that would fix my current depressive episode is if my computer was able to download steam and if i actually had $20 to buy stardew valley
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buckys-little-belle · 10 days
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i have now watched two and a half seasons of 9-1-1 in the past 24 hours … oops? more like i do love it here
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buckys-little-belle · 13 days
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to those saying “your lack of wanting to write doesn’t mean you should abandon this blog” i understand the sentiment i really do but it’s not just me not wanting to write.
i have so many fics ready to be published because i cant stop writing, i love writing. the main problem is actually posting the fics.
if anyone pays close attention to this blog, you’ll see that i don’t post random text posts, not fic related, near as often as i used to, and i often delete them after a few minutes to hours of posting them.
i have severe anxiety as we all know, so publishing fics has always been harder for me to do, it’s nerve wracking and scary to do without feeling anxious for days on end. now i’m starting to struggle with OCD even more.
i used to just need everything even on both sides years ago, but now things have gotten to an insane point that’s new and scary and hard to really comprehend. suddenly i need to delete things or else “xyz” will happen, suddenly i cant post things with specific words or “xyz” will happen.
it doesn’t make sense, and it’s dreadful and the problem is most OCD “therapy/methods of working through compulsions” interferes with my tourettes, and now if i want to start a new therapy type i have to leave the house and get over this resurgence of severe agoraphobia.
i do write, i want to post my fics so bad, and i want to stay on this blog. but, i am one compulsion away from feeling like i have to give it all up, and it is terrifying.
this was my safe space, the one place my brain felt at peace and now i’m tearing it away from myself (albeit involuntarily) and at the moment there’s no way to stop this downward spiral immediately.
while i understand you all being sad about me abandoning ship or never posting another fic again, pleas know i am 10x sadder, and far more distraught than i could even explain.
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buckys-little-belle · 13 days
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It is iconic! Are you making me want to go watch all the Twilight movies again?
it’s a lot and it’s kind of cringey but watching with my cousin has been a whirlwind of hilarious commentary, i highly recommend rewatching the movies again!!! like yes they have their flaws but i also love them so much
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buckys-little-belle · 13 days
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making my cousin watch twilight (she’s fifteen) and omg are the youth so boring these days. like yes he did say “hold on spider monkey” and yes, that is weird but still … that’s like the whole point, it’s cringe, it hurts, but it’s iconic
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buckys-little-belle · 15 days
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I just want to thank you for putting your writing on here. You are so good at it and it's brought me a lot of comfort since I found your blog. I always find myself rereading things I've already read a million times because of how much I enjoy it. I know you're taking a break right now and I'm happy you are taking time for yourself, i just wanted to let you know how your blog has helped me and i am for sure I am not the only person who feels the way i do. Enjoy your break And I'm excited for when you return 🩷🩷
Knowing y'all still reread all of my old fics, seeing those notes and messages like these, is what has kept this blog alive for this long. I keep debating if I should delete everything, because I'm just not in it like I used to be and I feel bad, and I also just don't know if I'm really needed here anymore. But, it warms my heart knowing my fics are something you can still enjoy, and I really appreciate your support, it's done more than I can even explain.
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buckys-little-belle · 1 month
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i’m now realizing that healing has allowed me to thing “maybe a caregiver wouldn’t be so bad” after being hurt in the past.
healing has given me the confidence and comfortability to maybe let someone in again/for the first time
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buckys-little-belle · 1 month
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Oooh... what coloring book did you get? :) ♡
Your recovery is up to you. If you felt up to going out, that is perfectly fine! Each person deals with the recovery differently. Just take it at your own speed ♡♡♡
I have been okay. Having a silly little treat for today (Valentine's day) with a yummy drink ♡ I hope you have a tasty little treat today and a reminder to love yourself so so so much ♡ Because you are worth so much love and care ♡
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i got an animal colouring book! it’s got lots of cute animal pictures to colour and it’s nice and easy!!! my teeth are pretty much fully healed! i had to go back and get the left bottom one checked out because he hurt for a while, but it’s all good now luckily! i hope your valentine’s day treat was good! i bought myself some new bookmarks on valentine’s day which was my treat to myself! i hope things stay okay with you, or maybe even get better! i hope you had a good weekend too!!! <3
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buckys-little-belle · 2 months
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Hope you're healing well sweetie ♡ Catching up on some sleep or reading or whatever ♡ Just taking time to feel better and relax ♡
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so far i’m healing pretty well! i went out yesterday to get a new colouring book and markers! and then today i’ve been out and about even though i probably should have stayed home … oops! but i’ve been on top of my meds, eating mushy foods, and drinking lots of water! im really just anxious about not doing the right thing and something bad happening, but im staying as diligent as possible!
i hope you’re doing good lovie! how have you been???
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buckys-little-belle · 2 months
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so so so proud of u u were so brave and everythin!
i got a blue gatorade as a little prize from my mom for being so brave!!! so worth it!!!
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buckys-little-belle · 2 months
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i’m now realizing that healing has allowed me to thing “maybe a caregiver wouldn’t be so bad” after being hurt in the past.
healing has given me the confidence and comfortability to maybe let someone in again/for the first time
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buckys-little-belle · 2 months
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I am so proud of you for getting it done ♡ Not sure if you saw my message about tips but remember to keep taking your meds on schedule to ease the pain. ♡ Ice your cheeks.♡ And rest ♡ It'll take a few days to recover but you've got it. I'm glad you're already eating some soft solid foods. ♡
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hiiii lovie!!! i have, sadly, learned my lesson in not timing out the pain meds! i’m not comfy taking the super strong ones they gave me so i have to be careful when it comes to making sure i take the normal ones on time! i’ve got so many ice packs i feel like an ice queen a bit!!! its funny having an ice pack on my cheeks and a heated blanket everywhere else but i’m getting it done! i have all your tips in my notes apps, along with some others, everyone’s been so nice and given me really good advice! while i’m scared my tourettes might intervene with the healing, so far everything’s good!
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buckys-little-belle · 2 months
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i’m okay!!! my bottom jaw hurts the most, but it’s got stitches so i’m just saying that’s why. i’m just not able to feel my bottom lip, i was worried there for a second. eating is difficult but i’m getting through it, ive had ice cream, popsicles, and mac and cheese today, might even have some tomato soup, we’ll see!!!
all i remember from being put ‘under’ is me saying “oh, dang, it’s got a little kick to it” lol, and kick it did, it was fine!
looking forward to feeling normal again, but i’m excited to not have the painful teeth anymore!!!
i get my wisdom teeth out tomorrow and i’ve gone through all of the stages of grief, im now just accepting the fact that it’s happening. though i do expect to be crying before and after it happens :,( no matter how rational i try to make the situation my anxiety says no … so yeah … anyways good vibes are very much appreciated <3
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