05/28/19 ; those days were snapchat baby filter doesn't exist yet 😂

05/26/19 ; I thought we're going to walk? 😂

Thank you for making me feel like I'm a princess. Thank you for not giving up on me despite of the circumstances. Thank you for your understanding and for the love even if I'm hard to loved and to be understood. Thank you for wiping my tears when we're fighting even tho I know it's my fault. Thank you for not letting me be in my own circle again. Thank you for making me happy when things got rough. Thank you for not leaving my side. Thank you for being my best pal. Thank you for all the treats and gifts. Thank you for working so hard to provide our needs and for our future. Thank you for giving all your support to something that I love to. But a simple thank you cannot take back all your sacrifices, your pain, your hardwork, your patience and your sleepless night every time we argued to get this far,,, with me. I know I'm complicated to be with, I know I'm not doing anything to strengthen our relationship, it's always you who suffered. I don't know what's my use. I don't know what am I to you because you're just so fucking good to be mine. You deserve the universe and I am just a one tiny object who do nothing but making you cry to something that I did. When I'm at this point, you always tell me to stay by your side no matter what, NO MATTER WHAT. I don't know if staying by your side makes you fall in love with me more. But I wish, I wish I was better and this time, I want to win you again.

I don't know who am i anymore, after those heart breaks that I gained, those endless pain in the past that keeps on haunting me, those nights that i can't stop crying in silence hoping no one would hear me, those stuffy eyes every morning every time i woke up, those endless nights still thinking what is your purpose... i can't bare myself watching me this hurt anymore, i'm traumatized by the pain ive felt years ago, how alone i am in the dark whispering for help. Pain that changes me because this time i want to protect myself, i want to give myself a better life, but everytime i do that it feels so wrong, im being selfish, im hurting people back when i'm trying to protect my feelings, i don't know... i just don't know what to do. I'm so lost and I don't think i want to be fixed because i'm still in pieces, and i'm always be in pieces.

Relationship is not like any fairy tale kind of stories, it's not like you two always going along, it's not like sparks fly or butterflies you feel but relationship has its own progress all the way, you learned from mistakes, you help building each other, help them grow and such. It may be a roller coaster but when love really came on time, it'll be all worth it.

- (pic not mine,,, crdts to the owner)

; I don't know why i keep on blaming myself for some mistakes im involve with, like i always feel like im a burden, a mistake or such. I do really hate myself that much huh ,,, life sux (pic not mine,,, crdts to the owner)

it's easy to escape problems when you're doing the thing you love the most ✨