book blurb #2

another blurb from the book –– you like it??

ellie + max ( best friends / idiots to lovers )

“Wait,” I hear myself say and he stops but doesn’t turn around. “Your mom said she texted you last night.” Why was I telling him this? I should’ve just dropped the cakes off and left. “Yeah? What else’d she say?” Max asks no one, back still turned to me, and I take a step forward. My fingers drop to worry at the hem of my t-shirt, my brain telling me to shut up, but it should know by now that I never listen. “She said you didn’t know I was in town,” came out more timid than I’d wanted it to, “but that you’d love to see me.” I watch as he slowly turns back around, towel in hand, brows pinched together and frown lines appearing in place of his dimples. “Well that first part’s accurate,” he scowls and it makes my stomach flip over. I feel like I’ve been caught, like I’m in trouble and about to get grounded. “And the second part?” I ask, teeth grazing over my bottom lip, ignoring the way my heart is fluttering in my chest like a bird caught in a cage. “What d’you want me to say, Ellie? Wow, so good of you to stop by! How have the last four years been?”  I can tell he’s holding back, trying not to get caught up in the same feelings that have me in a chokehold. My cheeks are burning and I want so badly to run away from the conversation, but the flicker of heat in my chest makes me stay. “Maybe,” I challenge, breath held and chin tilted up ever so slightly in defense and it makes me realize I haven’t had to talk to anyone like this in a long time. I don't have to push anyone for anything, don't have to work for it with Remy because he caves every time, and as I stand there looking at Max I find myself asking why. Max jams his tongue into his cheek and I hear him huff a breath through his nose. “Maybe? Okay. Well, you’ll have to forgive me for not asking, princess. I’m working,” he says dismissively and walks back behind the bar.

A mirthless laugh leaves my lips and even if I wanted to I know I can’t stop now. I follow after him, hitting the row of bar stools just as he stoops down behind the counter. I push back up onto my toes so that he can’t avoid me. “It’s been four years, Max. Can you just say thanks for the cake?” “No, no thank you for the cake,” he wrenches open the dishwasher and starts unloading glasses onto the bar top. A growl of frustration rumbles in my throat. “They’re not even from me, they’re from Sam!” I glare at the back of his head, willing him to turn around, but he doesn’t. Grumbling a string of curses under my breath, I drop my gaze down to the counter and see a cup of freshly cut limes. “Don’t ignore me, Hayes,” my fingers grab a lime wedge and I throw it at him. It hits with a wet slap on the back of his arm. “Are you five?” he wheels around and I grin at my victory. “Feels like it,” I admit, quirking my brows at him and his frown deepens into a look I haven't seen in a long time. The one where he's fed up with me, but not enough to tell me off. Progress.

cakecakecakecakecake! manifesting chase sui's hand as yours + those damn loafers and a lil bulge ;) HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE!! @palmtreesx3 xoxooxox

It's my birthday today. Please send cake. 🍰

And by cake I exclusively mean this dump truck right here.

in preparation for joe's birthday coming up, here's a little blurb about tauruses that just makes me want to cry and melt and snuggle with him forever 😩

Tauruses are the human equivalent of moss. A handmade wooden chair. They are normally satisfied with the way things are. They embody stability. Sitting in a patch of grass admiring the breeze. When everything else seems to be falling apart, Tauruses are a rock of dependability in an oasis of calm. Practical knowledge and experience is their modus operandi.

THIS IS A CONAN GRAY STAN ACCOUNT NOW. OKAY BYE.

I MEAN LOOK AT THIS, ARE YOU KIDDING??

DON'T WALK, RUN AND LISTEN TO THIS SHIT, OH MY FUCKING GOD.

looks like eddie, but sounds like steve would listen to it on repeat. i'm obsesssssedddd.

DON'T WALK, RUN AND LISTEN TO THIS SHIT, OH MY FUCKING GOD.

looks like eddie, but sounds like steve would listen to it on repeat. i'm obsesssssedddd.

OMG I'M WRITING AIM CHATS INTO MY BOOK AND LOOK WHAT I JUST FOUND. THESE SOUNDS ARE MAKING ME CRYYYYY, I WANT IT BACK 😩

You got this girl!!!

wahhhhhh ♥️ thank you lovelyyyy for the words!! helps a ton.

it's so fuckin' hard, but i am refusing to go back to corporate bullshit, so writing in my cave for the next month is IT.

all y'all moots are gonna get a shoutout in my dedication section when this thing is published cos i luh youuuu 😩 xoxo.

status update

things i've done since getting laid off AGAIN two weeks ago: • continued writing my book • snagged a spot on a NYT best-seller's dev edit schedule ( SO FUCKING CRAZY, SO LUCKY ) • read meet me at the lake by carley fortune ( OMG SO GOOD ) • started reading book people by emily henry • cried at least four times • kept my sanity ( hanging by a thread )

things i WANT to be doing since getting laid off AGAIN two weeks ago: • write stevie • I JUST WANNA WRITE STEVIE • JUST LET ME DO IT UGHDJFKSLHDJK • but i need to focus on this stupid deadline 😩

okay. imma go cry now. the only thing keeping me going is @upsidedownwithsteve and this fucking magnificent lifeguard!steve fic omg ( thank you for this sweet emmy ).

i need 59,280 words before may 9th. pray for me.

OKAY, I'M STILL FULLY IN BOOK LAND ( SORRY FOR BEING MIA ) BUT WTF IS JOE DOING GOING AROUND TO SO MANY INTERVIEWS??? DOES THIS STEVE DIED??? LIKE ISN'T HE SUPPOSED TO BE ON SET????

S'CUSE ME WHILST I SPIRAL 😵‍💫

hey, babes! good news / bad news.

good news? i'm writing my book!! :O holy shit, i feel insane writing that, but it's happeningggg. bad news? my hours just got cut to 0 at my job and i'm pretty sure i'm about to get let go 🥴

i'm the main breadwinner for my fam and it is stresssssful, SO i could use your help! i'm gonna try floating us with freelance work and i could use your help sharing that i do tarot readings!!

TAROT READINGS ( pay what you can! suggested min ~$20 )

the whole process is linked here! but it's super easy. send me a DM that you'd like a reading, submit payment ( kofi! ) along with a general idea of what you're wondering about, and then choose a deck from the ones listed below!

-> uusi’s pagan otherworlds deck -> ussi's supra oracle -> alba balesta gonzalez’s white numen tarot -> the stranger things tarot -> kim krans’ wild unknown tarot

i'll complete your reading in the format attached below and send back to you via DM or email or however you like within 48-72 hours! ♥️ i really, truly love doing this and would so happy to do it for you :]

thank you for sharing and spreading the word, means the world to me while i'm trying to support my fam. love you!! xoxo

help, i need a beta reader!

MOOTS AND FRIENDS – i have lost my fucking marbles and am going to try and submit a manuscript for publishing next week 😵‍💫 which means i have to tear through writing the rest of my book before the end of this week ( screaming crying throwing up )

do i have anyone who'd be down to help read thru and poke holes in the plot / characters / etc?? beta read vibes??? i'll even give you a dedication at the front cos i just love y'all so damn much <333

also, i know this is a HUGE ask, so i'm 1000% not offended if you say no. I LOVE YOU XOXO.

might have done a thing cos life has been so mean lately 👀🫶🏼 hit me up for a reading babies, this deck is gorgeous and communicates like a dream 😩 it feels so rooted in hope despite the odds with potential at the center and wahhh 🖤 ( oh, and our boy stevie is in here at least three times 😭 )

SCREAMINGGGG ( from duffer bros on-set )

uhm i'm sorry, this looks SICK. AS. FUCK. i just know our sweet eddie would be freaking out about this with me, squealing and screaming and kicking his feet with me while everyone else rolls their eyes 😂

okay, well i guess i'm on ao3 now? god help me, making a post on this is 😵‍💫 COME SUBSCRIBE SO THIS FEELS WORTH IT ( no pressure ♥️ )

shut the fuuuuuck up, i just got tickets to see my fucking sad girlie hero lizzy mcalpine in may for my birthday and i'm already crying 😩😩😩😩

Thought it'd be over by now Thought you would leave Thought I would come to my senses Wish I was stronger somehow Wish it was easy Somewhere I lost all my senses I wish I knew what the end is