I feel dead inside

(via trying-to-forget-the-world)

Atleast you are feeling something....

Things people don’t get to choose:

Sexual Orientation

Gender Identity

Height

Weight

Appearance

Disabilities

Mental Illnesses

Race

Things people do get to choose

To be an ignorant bitch-faced asshole to people because of things they have no control over

A little hope on humanity.

1. How old were you when you started self-harming? [] Younger than 4 [] 4-5 [] 6-7 [] 8-9 [] 10-11 [x]12-13 []14-15 [] 15-16 [] 16-17 [] 18-19 [] 20-21 [] Older than 21 2. How often do you self-harm? [] More than once a day [] Once a day []Several times a week [x] Once a week [x]Five or more times a month [] Once a month [] Several times in a year [] Once a year [] I have stopped [x] I am trying to stop 3. What method of self-harm do/did you primarily use? [x] Cutting [] Burning [] Hair-pulling [] Scratching [x] Interference with the healing of wounds [x]Hitting or bruising [] Bone breaking [] Cutting and scratching [] Cutting and burning [ ] Hitting head against walls [] Binging []Purging [] Starving [x] Biting 4. What sexual orientation are you? []Straight male [x] Straight female [] Bi-sexual male [] Bi-sexual female [] A-sexual female [] A-sexual male [] Homosexual male [] Homosexual female [] Transgender [] Questioning [] Pan-sexual [] Prefer not to answer 5. Which of these, if any, are something you struggle with along with self-harm? []Anorexia [] Bulimia [] EDNOS [x]suicidal [x] Various psychiatric disorders (i.e. bi-polar, borderline personality, OCD, panic, anxiety, PTSD, dissociative, impulse control, etc.) [x] Learning disabilities [] None of the above 6. Do you think that you (as an individual) need professional help to stop self-harming? [x] Yes, the only way I could stop is with professional help [] No, I have stopped on my own [] No, I have stopped on my own though [] I still struggle often and sometimes mess up [] I have no desire to stop and therefore don’t need professional help [] Yes, I have stopped with professional help but relapsed [] I don’t think I could ever stop without professional help [] Prefer not to answer 7. Are you trying to stop self-harming? [] No, and I don’t want to stop [] No, but I would like to be able to stop [] Yes, but I am not doing very well [x] I have stopped but I still mess up every once in a while [] I am completely self-harm free 8. Does anyone know about your self-harm? []Tumblr [] Some people may have a vague idea of something []Yes, but only my closest friends [] Yes, but only some of my family member, but they think I stopped [x] Yes, some friend(s) and family member(s) know [] Yes, all (or most of) my friends know [] Yes, all (or most of) my family know [x] Yes, people that see my scars []Just a couple of people I trust 9. How many years have you been self-harming? [] 1 or less years [x] 2 years [] 3 years [] 4 years [] 5 years [] 6 years [] 7 years [] 8 years [] 9 years []10 or more years 10. Were you abused or neglected (either as a child or later in life)? [] No [X] Yes, I was emotionally abused [] Yes, I was physically abused [] Yes, I was sexually abused [x] Yes, I was emotionally and physically abused [] Yes, I was physically and sexually abused [] Yes, I was sexually and emotionally abused [] Yes, I was emotionally, physically and sexually abused [] Yes, I was neglected []Yes, I was neglected as well as being abused 11. Would you label yourself as emo? [] Yes [X] no [] I guess 12. Do others label you as emo? []Yes [x] No [] Some people [] I don’t know 13. What would you or others label you as? [] Prep [x] Goth [] emo [] Scene [] Nerd [] Punk [x] Hipster [] Poser [] Skater []Druggie [] Normal [] I don’t know [x]Weird 14. What is your reaction when you see other people’s self-harm scars/cuts/marks? [] I want to get to know them [x] I wonder what they went through to feel that was a way out [] I want to get as far as possible from them so no one will find out about my own self-harm [x] I will acknowledge them as someone who shares something in common with me [] I would never even acknowledge them [x] I want to help them 14. What happened for you to start cutting? [x] Fear [] Interest [x] Sadness [] Happiness [] I don’t really care [] No reaction [] SurpriseRelief [] Jealous []Numb Inside [x] Anger at myself

Do you ever understand how cold humans actually are, i feel alone, i have people all around me, but i just feel alone, and i actually try to not be such a depressed girl, but when im actually about to feel a bit happy something else comes and fucks up my life.

Here is a fact: Nobody actually cares.

"BANG" Im dead.

Fallen angels.

We are born alone, we die alone, the other shit its just an illusion.

Nobody dies a virgin, life fucks us all.

Life is all about ups and downs.

This is my head 24/7.

No, but lets play anyways.

Feelings are not real anyways.