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"I Don't Want Your Cruel Melody"

Valentino x Reader

TW: The premise revolves around unrequited love within a toxic relationship that is only based on material needs and exploitation of the reader. It focuses on mental abuse, toxic relationships, self-worth, insecurities, and manipulation. Yet, tragically explores what can happen when one falls in love with their abuser (Valentino in this case-). It also explores the consequences of falling in love with someone you know is horrible for you and how painful it can be both mentally and physically. Moreover, it depicts the feeling of being unable to let go of Valentino despite his constant exploitation, which in turn, keeps the reader chained within the relationship.(+There are a few "feminine" slurs and the term "conejita", but other than that it is all GN. )

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When?

How?

Why?

What made you so woefully pathetic?

So hopelessly devoted to a sinner so cruel?

How could you love a man so vile, the one who sullied you?

You did not know

Feelings that should've never seeped through your heart,

coming out as if admitting you'd lost,

Lost your senses and logic,

Your vision clouded by what you wish were merely smoke,

The puffs of pretty pink smoke

His cruel words drove you into a frenzy,

a sort of self-hatred taking over you as you sought his validation,

His looks of disdain seemingly smug towards you,

Yet the humiliation you felt was less,

Far less compared to the heart-wrenching pain,

Unrequited love

Yet,

How could one be so painstakingly desperate for him?

So pathetically lonely when his looming presence wasn't near,

How could one feel such pure puppy-love for someone like him?

For someone who could only exploit

Why did you love him so deeply?

Why did you worship a man who could only sin?

Why did you place him on a pedestal so high,

Why?

When all he did was ruin you

For a man who belonged to no one,

For a man who belonged to everyone,

For a man who could only take,

For a man who could never give

Why, just why did it have to be him?

Maybe it was the puffs of smoke escaping his lips,

Maybe it was the way he spoke with sugar-coated disdain,

Maybe it was the flair within him

Maybe it was the need to be sought after,

One, only he could quench,

Albeit temporarily

Whatever it was,

You didn't care,

For what was done was done

But one thing was clear despite how fickle he was,

He would not let you go,

He was getting even more out of you,

You were stuck in his cruel melody

"Let me go, let me go Valentino You're not getting anymore out of me I don't want your cruel melody..."

Yet he won't,

No, he would never let you go,

He'll only learn to take more,

out of you,

you're just a note within his melody

He'll only break, ruin, and forsake you,

Something that even you knew,

But pitifully,

You fell in love with his cruel melody

Footsteps, his dreaded footsteps