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apaperbaginthewind · 2 years

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That wasnt the nicest thing to say, actually it was kind of mean :-(

I have a class in uni about Aristotle’s poetics and I’ve failed it twice, which means Henry Winter would be so disappointed in me

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When I say he knows the human soul this is what i mean, in context you feel it for Ivan and for yourself and without context it also makes you feel.

“I am too young and I’ve loved you too much.”

— Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov (via wordsnquotes)

#fjodor dostojevski #dark acadamia quotes #literature #brothers karamazov #academia aesthetic #romanticize #books and literature #classic academia

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apaperbaginthewind · 2 years

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11:28 thoughts

A good friend is a paradox, ideally you do not notice their presence, just their absence and yet their presence is what you wish for.

#poetry #dark acadamia quotes #literature #dark academia #romanticize #aesthetic #books and literature #classic academia #writing #The class was not at lunch #And i realized I noticed they were absent at lunch today #more than I have ever noticed eating lunch with them #even through I was surounded by people i felt uterly alone #sorry judy #Right she wants me to tag her full name #judy poovey

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apaperbaginthewind · 2 years

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Early evening ponderings

Most of the time I am happy with the abilities and level of talent i posses...I may not be the smartest, the most elegant or the most beautiful, but still I am pleased with what I can do.

But then I will experience something or meet someone and suddenly I am not enough...In those moments I cannot help but feel my own inadequacy...I wish I could write like Fitzgerald, philosophise like Aristotle, paint like Millais or sculpture like Michelangelo. Because even in the moment as I feel something changing the course of my life forever I know...

I know that no matter how hard I try my words will never be enough to explain the experience I had so that people understand the profoundness. No matter the big words I use or the time I spend explaining I will just sound silly, not having the tools to convince them the rightness in my theories. No matter the adjectives I use the pictures i conjure up of flashing eyes and soft limbs and elegant fingers holding a cigarette, or the soft curl tucked behind an ear it will never be enough. Even now I cant stop myself from trying to make you understand, knowing fully well that I cant.

So in those moments all my feelings of contentment are washed away and I want nothing more than to be Baudelaire+Homer+Catullus+Botticelli+Bernini. Only then will I have the abilities to make the world understand the way a life can change with just a look or a touch.

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apaperbaginthewind · 2 years

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Interesting dream

Hello people on tumblr, Judy claims people on here know things about dream interpretation so maybe you could help me to understand what the dream I had last night meant...

The dream started with me walking around in a landscape filled with overgrown ruins, greek obviously (I think Henry could tell me where I was, but I dont want to bother him), and just feeling the wind on my face.

Then there was like a change in the air, i dont know how to explain it...like an electric current or as if i was truly seeing the world for the first time, again i dont know how to explain it, but everything around me sort of faded away.

All of nature seemed to focus in on one spot, birds stoped singing, the sun seemed to shine brighter and the wind stopped et cetera. As my gaze was directed towards that spot there was a man there. I assume he must have been teleported there or something...but in the dream it was almost like he had always been there, even through i know he wasnt.

The man was most beautiful man you could imagine, all golden curls and tan skin that almost seemed to shine in the sunlight. I usually dont notice male beauty, since im straight, but this guy was like a work of art, body like a marble statue and everything. And when he turned to look at me, i was reminded of those lines from sappho:

ἀλλ᾽ ἄκαν μὲν γλῶσσα †ἔαγε†, λέπτον δ᾽ αὔτικα χρῶι πῦρ ὐπαδεδρόμηκεν, ὀππάτεσσι δ᾽ οὐδ᾽ ἒν ὄρημμ᾽, ἐπιρρόμ- βεισι δ᾽ ἄκουαι,

†έκαδε μ᾽ ἴδρως ψῦχρος κακχέεται†, τρόμος δὲ παῖσαν ἄγρει, χλωροτέρα δὲ ποίας ἔμμι, τεθνάκ��ν δ᾽ ὀλίγω ᾽πιδεύης φαίνομ᾽ ἔμ᾽ αὔται·

Becuase even through I obviously wasn't in love with this man, again i am straight, he had an effect on me that can only be understood through poetry. And then he smiled at me, and it was the kind of smile Gatsby is described as having, and nine women danced out from behind him.

The women were as beautiful as him, and most of them had traits that reminded me of Camilla, the woman i love, a curl of hair hear, gray flashing eyes, her honey blonde hair or the way she moves her hand when she recites greek. Maybe that could help with the interpretations...

Anyways, the women all kissed my cheeks, eyelids and forehead, not in a romantic way, but more like a blessing... Again i dont know how to explain it, but as it happened I could feel my blood rushing, ready to commit the thought newly born to paper.

And then i woke up, so if you have any idea what this means, feel free to send me a message or ask :-)

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apaperbaginthewind · 2 years

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back after a day of classes, and can I just say that I think everyone should get the privilege to listen to Henry or Julian explain the classical world.

#henry winter #julian morrow #judy #Keeps clowning on me for this #But i am right #Also #camilla macaulay #looked very nice today #she wore charles clothes and #She looked so nice and boyish #dark academia #classic academia #light academia #greek mythology #the muses

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How to fit in with pretentious elitist rich people when you're poor? Asking for a friend.

#This is not about me #asking for a friend #Pls dont judge me #richard papen

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apaperbaginthewind · 2 years

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00:04 AM

What we create will soon be destroyed. Time will become non existing and our existence obliterated.

#dark academia #dark acadamia quotes #literature #books and literature #romanticize #light academism #academia aesthetic #classic academia #dark academism #true words #writing #thoughts of mine #sad thoughts #existential crisis #existence #late night thoughts #reflection

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"To perceive is to suffer" - Aristotle

#Feeling this right now #literature #books and literature #books and libraries #dark acadamia quotes #aristotle #philosophy #academia aesthetic #light academism #classic academia #litblr #romanticize #dark academism #Wonder what Henry thinks of aristotle #I assume he has read everything that man has written #and could quote it to me in greek

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apaperbaginthewind · 2 years

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Studying

Right now I'm studying the writings about Erato, who was one of the muses. She was the muse for erotic poetry which is pretty cool.

In my research I found this poem about her that I really like:

Ah, suffer that my song To thee alonebelong: No dearer happiness my heart would choose Than thus to cast, O sweet, Each measured scroll before thy perfect feet, Having no other muse.

O wistful love! how well All that my lips would tell, All that the lyre's revibrant strings attest, Was writ upon thy breast With kisses keen and slow . . . So long, so long ago.

What tears are confluent From springs and summers spent, Feeding the fount of this our Helicon; And wine forlornly poured, Or spilt for thee, O maenad most adored, In feasts of moon or sun.

Let now some interval Of lyricsilence fall; Like heavy garlands let thy hair be shed About by brow and head, While songs unsung and sweet Within our pulses beat.

-- Clark Ashton Smith

#dark acadamia quotes #dark academia #aesthetic #poetry #greek myth aesthetic #greek mythology #literature #studyblr #romanticize #Love #statues #museum #erato #Hampden #vermont #books and libraries

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apaperbaginthewind · 2 years

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If she said that I apologize, obviously Henry can do math. Judy knows nothing

My biggest comfort in life is that Henry Winter can't do math either

#bad friends #Henry winter #can do math

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apaperbaginthewind · 2 years

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Sounds like Henry would say, I will have to ask him what he thinks tomorrow.

Reading the ancient languages connect us to a time before our existence, to people we will never get to meet and who's realities are only fragments around us.

#He is so smart #I really need to stop #Writing about Henry on here #But he is very impresive #And have so many thoughts

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