Did a self portrait because I need more practice. Also designing a Halloween shirt.

And yeah it’s true I’m usually covered in paint 🎨

It’s ok if you take two steps back, just trying another step even if you don’t move it’s still something.

I haven’t had friends in a while but now I actually have some and I feel like a terrible friend because of this stupid depression and all my issues, I don’t want to weigh anyone down or pull away because I can’t in good conscience share fully how bad I’m doing. I want to be a good happy person most of the time for them to be friends with. I want to be genuine and honest but don’t burden or sadden them. I’m terrified I won’t get “better enough” soon enough before they all decide I’m not worth it and leave.

If you are one of my friends and see this. please know I appreciate you so much even if this is such a new and recent friendship.

I’m overthinking a lot mainly because it’s so fresh and I’ve finally found friends that I genuinely connect with and have fun chatting with. I’m just a little distracted and working on myself improvement a lot. Thank you for your patience.

I hate being self-aware with no self-control.

Mushroom and cheese crêpe

I wonder who is the favorite? I might add some more details later maybe energy drinks will soon follow, I could definitely use the energy

I love doing these when I have the time and canvases 😂

😂 I really needed to hear this. Fighting my perfectionism is so difficult and I’m so afraid of doing everything.

you've probably heard it before, but half-assed is better than no-assed. don't let perfect stand in the way of done. a 0 on your report card is worse than a 50. do it scared. do it wrong. do it ugly, just do it. do not wait for the perfect day to have your little treat. make a day better with the treat. life is for the living. make outsider art

Found this old gouache painting I did.

This helps but sometimes it’s never enough

Is it soda? pop? soda pop?

Thank you to everyone who got me to 50 likes!

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tomatoes used to be thought of as poisonous because they were served on lead plates and would soak it up. Or so I’ve heard, too tired to fact check 😂 😴

Not sure if I posted this already, but I’m too tired to check