bpd culture is your partner/fp treating you a little too much like just a friend and breaking down and crying wondering if you're unattractive to them or boring or too talkative or too volatile or too much of everything

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Why am I so fucking alone…

It’s so sad when your favourite blade doesn’t cut like it used to.

(My life rn)

I listen because i know how it feels to be unheard and ignored

It’s so hard to live with bpd

I’m in so much pain but when I think about getting better I know I can’t this life just seems so useless. Why do I have to deal with this, why does anyone.

It’s so unfair

I have no energy to fight anymore, I feel so number and weak right now like I’m sinking deeper into my bed and it will consume me. I don’t know what to do I don’t have the energy to get up and $H but I want to do bad I just want to be ok

What’s the point in cutting when I don’t bleed as much as I want too :/

I’m in the bath and I need to finish up and get out but I can’t I don’t have the energy, I want to ask my bf to help me but I don’t wanna annoy him or be weak

Realising more and more I have no one apart from my bf but even then I don’t get why he’s still with me

I hate crying but I hate not being able to cry

I want to hug my boyfriend so tightly we merge together like so much I rip his skin so he doesn’t leave

But I hate being that girl the one who’s always crying always low always wanting to be close to you

I just hate myself so much atm

I just wanna disappear…

I want to run away from everything to just get a break…

I want this to end.

having bpd and being self aware is actually crazy like it feels like i'm watching a train wreck unfold and i can't do anything to stop it

My bl00d is not bl00ding right now…

How am I meant to get my emotions out now…

Please help

I don’t know what to do anymore

Can I just leave now, leave you all in peace? I can’t keep trying anymore.

I don’t want to leave him he doesn’t deserve this. Would it even affect him if I just vanished. I don’t know anymore…

I desperately need someone to vent to.

I don’t have any friends anymore I can’t talk to anyone

i wish my darling sjowed that he cared for me, pries me on my feelings and my words since i cant speak unless im asked. i wish hed go out of his way to comfort me like i do him, tell me he loves me more than anything in the world when i need reassurance. i wish he was more emotionally present with me, i know i should be happy that hes here but its starting to really really make me fully close off from him and shut down completely, we dont wanna love him anymore because hes just not here like i wish he was

I’ve ruined my boyfriends birthday, and now I’m sat in the toilet crying…