Dinnerr! Apple rice cake with peanut butter + banana + choco chip to look like bear ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ Crab shaped apple V= (° °) =V Oatmeal with leftover half banana + apple + maple syrup ! Milk tea to drink . Total : 629 cals

I didnt even eat all of it lol too filling for me 😭😭 but its soo cute had to post this is also way more high cal than i prefer in a meal ugh but its literaly all i had today except tea so its okay-ish

i honestly do not know how. ive gotten away with an ed for going on 8 years? i think its because ive never hit a low weight. even tho ive gone through ed inpaitent treatment 3? 4? times?? but the main reason i was inpaitent was always suicidal stuff so idk. literaly been diagnosed bullemic yet she still dosnt rly catch on to anything 😭 scared my downfall will be soon though n they weigh me monthly bc my meds..

me omw to ask my mom for a walking pad , yoga mat , fit bit , n pink weights (she already questions my lack of eating and questions me)

I cleaned my room and im literally so excited bc it means I can actually work out in my room now yay

Stats !

HW : height - 5’5 | weight - 163 | bmi - 27.1

SW : height - 5’6 | weight - 146 | bmi - 23.6

CW : height - 5’6 | weight - 118 | bmi - 19.0

GW : height - 5’6 | weight - 120 - bmi 19.4 🎀

UGW : height - 5’6 | weight - 110 | bmi - 17.8

UGW 2 : height - 5’6 | weight - 96 | bmi - 15.5

i hate valentines i have absolutley no self control god 😭 bur also everyone keeps buying me this candy and i feel absolutley horrible if i dont eat it because they got it just for me and some of it is really expensive so if i dont eat it then they wasted their money and thats rude augh

for some reason normal th1nsp0 dosnt always make

me jellous or anything but as soon as its art or even writting of my fav charecter i loose it n start sobbing cause im not good enough like helpo why am i like this 😭😭

me after staring atvthe same picture of myself for the 100th time going im smaller than everyone else in the pic?? right? right?! i am right?! no im not i dont work hard enough im not! wait thisbis rude and mean they arnt fat is this mean to them? even tho they dont even know.. but i have to be the smallest or nothings okay but im soo much bigger than them. i should work harder right?

never drinking weight loss tea again 😭😭 MY TUMMYYYY !!!

if i didnt have the widest fucking ribcage on earth. maybe my life would be okay.

honestly if you are just laying there watching tv you could doing sit ups while your at it…

i’m literally horrificly sick rn n have covid but at least maybe the fever n fact i can barley eat will prob make me loose weight!! however i also cant work out 😭💔

normal people when they find out they have no gag reflex: YAY!

vs my bullemic ass crying about it on the bathroom floor after failing to make myself puke after trying countless times untill my jaw hurt so bad i couldnt swallow and was literaly drooling n had to grab a towel.😭

someones pls tell me how to make it work so i can puke please 😭💔 its never gone well even when i manage to make myself puke not much comes up n it takes like literaly forever

Ive half ass recovered but i put no effort into it and relapsed a few months later. I was kinda recovered (mostly) for a year but i never ate much. and if anyone made me i would still freak 😭 ive never tried to eat normally. Ive had eating issues as far as i can remeber like 6 almost 7 years now. Which is kinda sad realizing that ohmyngod lol 😭😭 my body is so fucked though please dont do this if you are knew i couldnt eat normally even if i wanted to which sounds fun yk but its really not when its all out of your control i have like 500 health issues and faint almost weekly. ive missed out on so much and will never get it back <|3 spending time with faimly , sports , having any good memories were all ruined bc all i could focus on was calories,, anyways rant over i need to stfu 😭

Counting sheep till you fall asleep? actully i have an eating disorder i do sit ups till i fall asleep 😭😭

I hate the holidays and being forced to eat but at least im vegiterian so i have an excuse to bring my own food and eat it ♡ so i know the calories and that its not too much 💗💗

Me after dancing for literaly at least 3 hours today and only eating a smoothie ♡ 😭 kinda happy tbh i wish i had a watch to track it though :( i need to go on more walks. Terrified of christmas dinner tmr tho and the fact im unable to weigh myself till after winter break <|3 ack