self promo with a reminder for any old rp partners who may check my blog and see this that I’m still the same person who is pro-team making up therefore this isn’t an attempt to hate on your characters, it’s just me angsting.

back at it again with two - two dark versions of Jemma: -one that snaps in season 2 and start giving up on herself and the team until the resentment is too strong and she leaves. The music box is broken, and her angrier, violent self is out. -one who after living everything that happened in aos up to season 6 (but the box started breaking eventually, and led her to step away from her marriage as well) ended up in a parallel reality, in what seems to be an exact replica of her planet but a few years in the past, and even if it won’t change what happened in her world she starts doing anything she needs to do to prevent the next tragedies. Anything. 

two verses, two different kind of angst to play with.  Please read the bio and the guidelines to understand why she became a different person (and how this is not a blog written to hate on the team but to explore what ifs).  Sideblog, very open to crossovers, to aus, and to ships!

My au Jemma manips from last year

Liz’s new pic

was she trying to help me somehow 

I am so grateful

for @siinfvl 

or: Christian keeps trying to shut down Phoenix, the anti-hydra base, and when Jemma goes to get dirt on him she finds out that he’s gotten himself involved with some evil higher-ups (it’s campaign season!) and gets captured and recognized as a SHIELD agent by Ivanov. Ivanov is more than happy to ditch Christian for what he wants, Christian is more than happy to try to blame everything on Ivanov so he can survive - and has gotten a taste for violence in adulthood too so his anger gets the best of him with Jemma - and Jemma, well, Jemma is not there to play damsel in distress and wait to be rescued, or to be used to hurt other people and gets their defenses down so she can be found and fight in the meanwhile. While Daisy takes the Superior down, biospec team up against Christian who gets shot AND stabbed. And there is a very needed talk at the end: Jemma realizes that she’s enough, he realizes he’s that important to her.

and then they move into one of his safehouses to heal -gasps- they were roommates! because he’s director and he does what he wants and she just killed his evil brother

starter call for after season 4 in which they never ended up in the future, and Jemma took a leave (again, she never got together with Fitz, but it can be plotted differently with Fitzes or things between them can happen later) because the LMD and the Doctor broke her, especially the LMD, and NOW she’s back because... she had to be

starter call for during/after s5, in which obviously fear!Fitz and fear!Doctor took the inhibitor from Daisy and Fitz didn’t die, and Jemma kinda needs a break. And she’s been single up until now unless plotted otherwise too, though that can totally change, and that includes canon divergent Fitz&Simmons happening or other ships (and if you are a Fitz or a Daisy rper you can request something different since this would change their storylines too, just remember I won’t write psychic splits and deaths so it will be au/canon divergent A LOT)

I’m going to make

-a starter call for during/after s5, in which obviously fear!Fitz took the inhibitor from Daisy and Fitz didn’t die and Jemma kinda needs a break to begin with. And she’s been single up until now unless plotted otherwise too though that can totally change, and that includes canon divergent Fitz&Simmons happening or other ships (and if you are a Fitz or a Daisy rper you can request something different since this would change their storylines too, just remember I won’t write psychic splits and deaths so it will be au/canon divergent) 

-a starter call for after season 4 in which they never ended up in the future, and Jemma took a leave (again, single up until then, but it can be plotted differently with Fitzes or things can happen later) because the LMD and the Doctor broke her, especially the LMD, and NOW she’s back

I changed her about pages and the rules to explain what doesn’t happen and oh my god, it felt so freeing?

I can’t wait to have the strength to come back here and rp because honestly, not having to risk writing things that actually upset me, in real life (and for what? a game??) is all I need to write this woman. all possible plots are open because either she’s single all over and ready for things to happen, or she’s with Fitz but not in a way that stresses me out, happier than in canon for sure 

I changed her about pages and the rules to explain what doesn't happen and oh my god, it felt so freeing?

I can’t wait to have the strength to come back here and rp because honestly, not having to risk writing things that actually upset me, in real life (and for what? a game??) is all I need to write this woman. all possible plots are open because either she’s single all over and ready for things to happen, or she’s with Fitz but not in a way that stresses me out, happier than in canon for sure 

okay, so, I've reached the conclusion that there is NO WAY in hell that I'm going to ever enjoy writing Jemma in threads that follow canon in any way, it has too many (subjective) real life's bad connotations for me

SO. I'm going to change my canon in season 5b. Obviously, because it will affect Daisy and Fitz rpers the most, it will only be automatically canon for other rpers. For Daisy and Fitz rpers we can plot whatever plot makes them more comfortable, including writing aus or canon divergences that start from much earlier instead

but keeping in mind that I only write Fitz and Jemma as a romantic couple with Fitz rpers unless plotted otherwise:

-I will not write Fitz having the psychic split, especially not if they are a couple. Maybe if I'm writing aus in which she's not really part of shield anymore ? -I will not write real Fitz operating on Daisy, just Fear!Fitz and Fear!Doctor -therefore everything that happens afterwards will depend on our plotting, unless you follow the backstory I'll write in her page -Jemma is very sympathetic with Daisy -Fitz doesn't die at the end  

This because otherwise all threads from now until forever would have to be about this, due to her own personality and my way to write her, and that's just not fun for me as a Jemma rper. It also reminds me of bad things from my life so no, thank you.  I want to be free to write Jemma leaving if that's the thread, and having her life outside of SHIELD, or staying and dealing with her own traumas or having her adventures and growing and changing (and if I write her with Fitz as a ship, making each other happy, communicating, mutually supporting each other) I am NOT abandoning this blog just because I hate what AoS did, and now that I'm finally done with the studying part I can work on my backstory again - if people I write with are still around lol

HELLO, IT IS I, YOUR LOCAL DR. DUMBASS, NOW DR. DR.DUMBASS

thesis is ready!

I’m done with the writing/fixing! 

then after the 13 I’m going to have to go back to do the powerpoint for the presentation, but all there is left is really just studying! whaaat 

@siinfvl body is from sara lance but like - the uniform thing, and the inhuman Jemma ‘Supernova’ with a mask in the framework because lol 

-Fortesa Lafisi 

Jemma Simmons and some of the cool villain shoots they chose for her

season 2 / season 3 tba

x

you didn’t tell me she was so feral

@siinfvl