hi i haven’t been on tumblr in months and i probably won’t be on again for a while but it was my birthday a few days ago so here’s some pictures ✨

Isn’t it great that my mom just ~doesn’t~ respect my boundaries and tries to force me to talk about things just to satiate her desire to know what’s going on even though we’ve never had a close relationship to begin with

October really said: You wanna be scared? Here’s all your demons to haunt you at once. Everything you’ve ever dealt with coming out to play.

october mood

Aquarius Deep Side

Frog.

The thing no one tells you about having a history of using alcohol to cope is that it’s really fucking hard not to when your entire world is upside down and turning to shit.

I really want a drink tonight and I’m trying to resist but it’s really hard when you have a fridge full of beer.

*hits rock bottom once a week* 

Itd be funny as fuck if the world operated like how people with social anxiety think it does. Like what if you got on a bus and everyone was like wow look at that piece of shit loser. Get off the bus you ugly bastard

Things the signs will never tell you

resenting yourself for where you aren’t won’t change where you are.

you can’t hate yourself into healing.

“Please tell me I meant something to you”

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🌼 [source: motherthemountain on instagram]

The Maria Laach monastery library

you’re allowed to get up one day and just decide to change who you are. dress differently, speak up more, laugh out loud even though you’ve never liked your laugh, say what you want to, say hey to people you wouldn’t normally, get that confidence going. we don’t have to stay the way people see us out of the fear that they won’t like the us we want to be.

find u a lover who loves lovin u