i packed up about a quarter of my basement guest room and i'm already a wreck 👍

MISS CONGENIALITY (2000) dir. Donald Petrie

Stan Fields: Describe your perfect date.

well i'm pleased to announce that yes a bad day can get worse because i possibly fractured my golly gosh darn pinky toe and can't walk on it 😭

i think ohh i have no time in my day but like. if i just didn't scroll on instagram..... i would gain 2 hours. i could literally travel west and time zone change my own life

we need more women who are just fucking losers

gay sex wasn't legal in kansas until 2 years before supernatural started airing. just btw

my therapist often says things that hit me square in the chest but she said something yesterday that made me especially go hooo boy

because i’m in the process of moving houses right now and i’m really, really fucking sad to be leaving my current one even though the one we’re moving into will be bigger, quieter, better schools - it just makes sense for where we’re at right now with our family etc etc. and i was telling my therapist that i’m still unsure of my decision just because this has been my home for 8 years and she was like “tell me why you thought to move in the first place” and i told her the reasons and then she quietly said “it sounds like this house has been forcing you to make yourself smaller as your family got bigger” and OKAY. like - she’s right. but shit. i really thought about that today when i cleaned up all the bath toys and bath mat just to take a bath. i thought about that when i lugged all my workout stuff out of the closet and into the living room after cleaning up all my toddler’s toys just to have room. i thought about that when i cleared off my husband’s work stuff so i could write at a desk. i have no place in this house - a room of one’s own, if you will - and it just really hit home (ha) how this house just doesn’t fit anymore. it used to fit. which is why i think i’m mourning that. but in this new house i’ll have a garage to set up my workout stuff. i’ll have an office, with DOORS to close and shelves for my books and a desk with big beautiful windows to write at. i won’t be small anymore. and it’s good. but holy shit is it hard to leave a house you’ve made into a home, especially when you had a really unstable childhood and this has been the first place to call yours. anyway. lots of feelings. if anyone has experience with this and wants to shoot me some advice, please do, because i have so many mixed feelings about it

July 1st is my deadline to myself to start posting this apocalypse fic. I'll have (mostly) moved into my new house, more than likely hit 50k+ by then, and be able to stick to a schedule. i usually post serial fics in the fall but this feels like a summer fic?? i can't explain it. so anyway someone hold me to that deadline thx

ok what’s your florence + the machine song. mine is rabbit heart (raise it up)<3

spent way too long making this for my destiel apocalypse au today. as you can see... i am not going the usual route for endverse shenanigans. but. trust me. it... might be fun

just curious as they're always things i've never questioned just doing but people in my life are often surprised that i don't mind doing them alone

🔁 pls reblog for sample size

some music is just night music. i can't explain it just some music is meant for the DARK

between last week and now i blacked out and somehow wrote 12k of this destiel apocalypse fic. it's happening folks!! it's getting written!!

now that bedlund has basically confirmed that the writers (well at the very least him but it’s likely more) perceived destiel and wrote with destiel in mind, i am soooooo curious to know when this started??? how early did they realize there was possibly more complex feelings between deancas???? at the very least for bedlund it sounds like it was s5 but i bet there were hints of it as early as 4x07. hell maybe even right after 4x01?????

i need bedlund (hungry freak cas understander, much to say about destiel) and robbie thompson (queer nerd dean understander, wrote first destiel confession with dean saying "i love you" FIRST) to put their heads and pens together and work on s16. like pls. i need it