i starve myself so i can feel something

i genuinely cant remember the last time i ate and i absolutely love it

i’ve missed this feeling of numbness, it’s comforting almost

i was doing so well

all i am is numb

broke my 182 day sober streak by relapsing like a fucking loser

just gone out to the shop and as i walked out i literally got called elephant girl and was laughed at, i’m never going out again

fuck i have missed getting validation from strangers online, man i love dating apps

broke up with my bf and he didn’t even fight for me oh ok

i said it would hurt when you left and goddamn it fucking hurts now you’ve left

would anyone like to be my ana friend 🥺👉🏻👈🏻

it’s always so satisfying to hear people tell me that i need to eat, it strives me even more towards reaching skinny

Jfc that anon must score high on the dark triad. Hey, fuckface, low self-esteem is one of the many risk factors for EDs. How can you live with yourself with such foul and rotten behavior where you can bring yourself to step on someone so far down? Gross! Don’t listen to that anon JESUS. I wish you the best. I know it ain’t easy ❤️

thank you but honestly that anon was right, i’m nothing but a loser, if i wasn’t a loser then how come i have no friends and everyone hates me?

i got high again which meant i ate for the first time in four days oops but it feels so fuckin good being high fuck the reality i’m not wanted in i wanna make my own reality

i wish someone would notice me

u are kind of a loser tho. but i hope that was solid advice.

i mean you’re not wrong tho, all i am to everyone is a loser

i don’t feel like a person anymore, i’m numb