self aware npd culture is thinking about how great you are, realising it’s all a disorder, and then causing yourself to crash. help me. i hate myself and want to cry. lmao.
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I feel invisible and worthless unless I am regularly praised and validated by the people around me.
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"NPD shouldn't even count as a disability" Because there's nothing disabling about feeling like I'll never be enough.
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This place is like somebody’s memory of a town, and the memory is fading. It’s like there was never anything here but jungle.
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Baby limbed
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I hate that I can’t comprehend the world as real. I’m looking at the sun on the fences and the trees, I can hear birds and my family members inside the house. I can feel the wind but I still can’t wrap my mind around any of this being real.
I can’t process it as real. And I hate that my brain can’t grasp it, I always feel like I’m living in a memory instead of the present or that everything is a dream or a mirage. How can a world I’m living in somehow be untouchable and so far away at the same time. How can a body I live in feel so loose from my actual consciousness.
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Mentally ill core is having to clean your glasses every other hour because tears keep getting on them ❤️🫶
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i hate having npd i fucking hate it so much
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to add onto this, i am always convinced people are in love with me too. even when on a surface level I acknowledge that is probably not the case, deep down i refuse to accept that. it hurts. and then when they do reject me i devalue them, but i don’t want to, so i fight it. really sucks. a mix of “they need to love me too, how dare they, i’m the best they’ll ever get” and “i’m such a horrible person, I shouldn’t be so forceful, i need to consider them too”
my little npd brain does NOT like getting rejected, holy shit.
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my little npd brain does NOT like getting rejected, holy shit.
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sorry for being absent. life has been spiralling out of control. i’ve been discovering things about my system and it’s been making me question everything.
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I hate my stepmother i HATE my stepmother i HATE HER
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Someone tell me it’s a bad idea to test my partner to check if they even text me if i don’t do it first
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