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you don’t love me the way you love her

hogwarts au

fluffy, a pinch of angst

draco x slytherin!reader

warnings: none that i could think of

word count: 7.1k (my longest ever lol)

you stare at the obnoxious faces your best friend makes at you as you stare at him across the dance hall. mcgonagall was teaching dance lessons prior to the yule ball and he was currently laughing at ronald weasley and the professor.

it was time to get partners and practice and you stare at draco from afar as he walks toward you. “hey y/n!” he speaks as he stands right in front of you. “care to dance?” draco lifts an eyebrow and you let out a small lighthearted gasp, “draco malfoy asking me, to dance?” you joke around as he wraps his arms around your waist. slightly embarrassed about the actions of your best friend, your ears and cheeks blush a light pink. you’d hate to admit it but, you were in love with your best friend.

later in the day at dinner, your eyes unconsciously drift over to draco, who was also unconsciously staring at a girl at the slytherin table, astoria greengrass. pansy lightly taps you on the shoulder to snap you out of your trance. “hey y/n, can i borrow your notes for potions? i skipped yesterday and now i’m a day behind.” you smile and nod at your friend before taking out your parchment of notes. “just give it back to in the dorm.” glancing at draco one more time, you turn to leave, walking to the lake to finish your book.

falling snowflakes land on your hair as you weave your way through the blankets of snow and under a tree. the crunch of footsteps quietly followed you as you feel a coat on top of your shoulders and turn around to see draco. he sits next to you, not too close but not too far, “can i ask you something?” you let out a hum of acknowledgement, “what do girls like?” taken a bit back, your eyes dart to his grinning face, “well,” you slightly laugh, “we appreciate even the smallest gestures, not too many gifts. for skinship, it honestly depends on the girl.” as you continue to talk, draco stares at you intentively nodding his head every once in a while. he stands up abruptly before extending his hand out to you. grabbing his hand, you stand up and give him a small smile. the both of you walk in silence to the castle until draco stops and stares at you, “y/n,” he pauses as a tiny grin appears on his face, “i think i’m gonna do it.” you lift your eyebrow at him and smile back at him, “do what?” he smiles to himself, “i’m going to confess.” your shoulders shrug down and his coat slips off, hitting the icy floor. his expression changes to a worried expression as he walks over to you, “are you alright?” he places his hand on your shoulder after picking up his coat, “yeah.” you barely whisper as you push his hand off your shoulder, “whoever she is, she’ll be lucky to have you. sorry, i’m a little out of it but i have rounds tonight so, i’ll see you later,” you speak before walking away.

the next day, you sit at breakfast with draco. he stares over at you while you try to teach pansy the lesson she missed the other day. “pansy, you have to grind up the occupy eggshell, not just crack it.” pansy whines at you, “y/n, please, no more,” you shake your head to your best friend, “then you shouldn’t have taken advanced potions,” you taunt. she quiets down and pulls you close to her, “how are you feeling?” your eyes look around the great hall before turning back to pansy, “i’m fine. honestly, plus, last night during my rounds, i caught the weasley twins out of bed after curfew and, they gave me a coupon for anything out of their box of mischief for their freedom.” pansy’s face twists up in disgust, “you’re too easily persuaded.”

you sit in potions, reading the instructions for your next potion to be made, a drought of peace. the classroom was quiet with only you and professor slughorn. “ah miss l/n,” he speaks up enthusiastically before quieting down, “what’s wrong?” you shake your head with a smile, “nothing.” your conversation quickly gets interrupted as draco and the rest of your friends enter the classroom, loudly. draco walks up to you instead of going to seat and drags his hands throughout your hair while standing behind you, “why’re you here so early?” you continue to read your book, “i’m getting ready for class.” he walks over to the front of your desk and stares you, “you’re upset.” you finally look up at him, “i’m not, i just like to be prepared for class.” draco rolls his eyes before leaning closely to your ear, “we’re not done with this conversation,” he trudges back to his seat annoyed.

the class starts with professor slughorn introducing the potion you read about earlier and pansy groans as he releases the class to grab their materials and begin their potion making. you tell pansy to grab the materials while you go grab the cauldron and potion glass. pansy sits in her seat while you stir the potion, “pansy did you bring the porcupine quills?” she shrugs, “well continue to stir while i go get it then,” she nods her head and grabs the rod from you as you go to the ingredients cabinet. unluckily, on the way there, you were a bit distracted so you bump into another student with their unfinished potion in their grasp that spills on your hand during the collision, burning it a little bit in the process. the glass ends up the floor broken and you bend down to pick up the pieces of the glass while the girl freaks out. you get pulled away from the glass by draco, “what’re you doing, y/n?” draco says as he begins to freak out a bit as well, “picking up the glass,” you answer dumbfound at everyone’s concern before looking down at your slightly burnt and bleeding hand. professor slughorn quietly cleans up the mess, “miss l/n, i think its best if you go madam pomfrey to have your hand checked out.” the girl walks up to you, “y/n, i’m so sorry.” she apologizes scared about how you were going to react, “its alright, don’t worry about it,” before walking off to the direction of the hospital wing.

as you arrive, madam pomfrey instructs you to wait on the bed while she gets bandages and medication for your hands. while you get treated, draco walks in the wing with your books and robes which you took off when you started your potion. madam pomfrey treats your arm and you finally leave with draco to dinner. on the walk to the hall, astoria pops out from behind a pillar, surprising you and draco. “draco, i have to tell you something,” she then turns toward you, “sorry about your arm, y/n. i heard what happened.” shaking your head, you reply, “don’t worry about it, it didn’t hurt that much,” before walking a good distance and turning around to give draco a reassuring smile about his confession. you start to walk down the long, lonely hallways, you’re not gonna lie to yourself, but you saw the way they looked at each other, specifically draco. you noticed the way he would smile to himself whenever she walked by at any meal time or the way he always unconsciously mentioned her in his stories when he had parties at his manor. making it to the great hall, you sit next to pansy, quietly. “where’s draco?” you let out a soft sigh, “he’s with astoria.” pansy leans closer to you, “are you okay?” you nod and reply, “yeah, my arm doesn’t hurt that much anymore.” she glances over at you sympathetically, “i don’t mean your arm, y/n.” you turn to face her with sad eyes, “i know.”

before you could continue with your conversation with the rest of your friend’s, you notice draco and astoria entering the hall, hands intertwined. you immediately turn your head back to look down at your palms on your lap before realizing tiny droplets of water were falling. bringing your head back up to look at the ceiling, you realize that the ceiling had been bewitched and turn your head towards the two most mischievous pranksters in the school, the weasley twins. george looks at you before giving you a noticeable wink and running out of the doors to pretend that he had no part in this prank. a smile lights itself up on your face as pansy drags you out of the hall with her, completely soaked. again, after exiting the hall, you match eyes with a weasley twin, this time being fred. he gives you the signal of zipping his lips up and throwing the key, in which you respond with a small smile and the nod of your head. draco and astoria both walk up to your friend group, “what the bloody hell? who would enchant the sky?” you stare at astoria’s wet state and shrug, “what a coincidence?” draco tries hard to look you in the eye, but avoids eye contact when you stare at him.

as you walk back to your dorm with pansy, she begins to complain about astoria, “ugh, she’s so annoying? do you understand what i’m saying?” you nod in confirmation for your friend, “just because she’s dating draco now, doesn’t give her the right to act all powerful and mighty because their families are probably the most powerful and influential in the whole wizarding world!” pansy’s rant goes in through one of your ears and out the other as you just continue to nod and pretend to acknowledge her annoyance. “uh, pansy. i’m have to get something from potions, i left my,” your eyes search the hallway for an item before landing on an owl, “my quill. draco forgot to bring it for me, so i’ll meet you in the room in thirty minutes.” she gives you an okay before continuing her rant with blaise.

your breath unveils itself in the frosty breeze as you walk back to the same tree as the night before. sitting yourself down, you let out a large sigh before getting interrupted by a clearing of a throat. “fred, george. pleasant evening?” they both give you their signature smirks, “indeed.” george sits down first with fred following next, “i suppose you want the coupon back? for the prank, i mean.” they both shake their heads in sync, “of course not,” fred replies, “that one was for free,” george adds on. you slightly chuckle at their response and they stare over at you, “well, we better get going,” george speaks up after several seconds of silence, “a specific blond is looking for you,” fred speaks after his brother as the both of them stand up and walk towards the castle. as they leave, the crunching of incoming footsteps disturb the silence, “y/n, didn’t i tell you to bring a jacket whenever you leave the castle?” a small smile makes its way to your face, “of course, your majesty,” you taunt as a pout appears on his face. “what were you talking about with the weasel twins,” you roll your eyes, “weasley twins,” you enunciate, “and we were just talking about the coincidental raining sky at dinner.” draco takes off one of many layers of coats and drapes it around your shoulders, “can’t have you catching a cold, miss beater.” with the recent events occurring in your life, you totally forgot about the quidditch match you had on saturday. “oh my god, i totally forgot.” draco gives you a deep chuckle, “well don’t forget that we have practice tomorrow, or else flint is going to murder you.” you nod at his caring yet sarcastic sentence, “alright, i’ll see you tomorrow morning, astoria is waiting for me in the hall, didn’t want her getting cold,” he speaks before using his knuckle to rummage up your hair. your head turns toward his receding figure and then back at his coat. you think to yourself, “if you turn around and wave like you always do, i won’t give you up, but if you don’t, i’ll back down.” draco continues on his way until he becomes a tiny figure in the distance and you begin to give up on hope until you hear, “see you tomorrow loser!” followed by a tiny wave from the faraway boy. a tiny smile makes it to your face, “i’m sorry astoria, but i can’t give up right now.”

about two days later, you snuggle closer into your blanket, you get awoken by the abrupt flash of light in the room. your eyes barely open because of its sensitivity of the light. pansy stands by the door in her quidditch gear and stares at you, “you have ten minutes to get ready and be at the pitch, you know how flint is about being late.” after she exits the room, you sit up in bed and let out a yawn while walking over to get changed and refreshed.

by the time you reach the pitch, your teammates are already in the air taking laps while marcus flint stands at the entrance of the pitch. “why’re you late?” he asks with a stone cold expression, waiting for your answer. but before you could even open your mouth, he shouts at you, “ten laps around the pitch, running! go!” annoyed you start to jog. draco flies low to be right beside you, “how’s it going?” he teases with a grin, “buzz off malfoy.” draco brings one hand to chest, acting offended, “using last names now are we?” you give him a glare and start to jog faster, which he follows with flying a bit faster on his broom. you act annoyed but really, feel warm on the inside until a melodic voice interrupts. “draco! over here!” she shouts from a far. it was about six in the morning and all of the team quickly turns their head to the voice of astoria. you raise your eyebrow at draco, “your princess is waiting, go.” he gives you a small smirk and a nudge before flying over to her. as you finish up your final lap, you wipe the cold sweat off your forehead, mind you, its still winter and snowy. you get on your broom and fly up into the air, finally joining the practice.

you enter breakfast with the biggest yawn and frown about the excruciating practice. your thoughts get interrupted as you see your taken seat. the seat you sat in since first year, the seat you’ve eaten in for five years, the seat next to draco malfoy. pansy pats the seat next to her and as you begin to walk towards her, you get pulled towards the gryffindor table before being sat down next to hermione. your face slightly gives off panic before turning towards the people who sat you down, “morning hermione,” you say before turning to harry and ron, giving them a nod of your head, then turning back towards fred and george. “weasleys, did you need something?” you ask them, “am i even allowed to sit here? i obviously stand out.” the dark green of your uniform definitely sticking out in the sea of a vibrant red, “of course buddy-o.” most of the gryffindors at the table now staring at you before hermione rolls her eyes, “everyone mind your own business.” hermione gives you a small, polite smile to look over the fact that you were best friends with their own personal annoyance. “thank you hermione.” you whisper, giving her a small smile. harry glances down at your hand, “is it alright?” he asks as you look up from your plate of breakfast, “yeah, its been healing, minor burns,” you answer, thankful for his attempt to start up conversation.

while keeping a small conversation with the trio, your arm gets grabbed and pulled. “y/n, what are you doing associating with the enemy?” you scoff, “we’re just talking, draco,” he scoffs back at you before releasing your arm, “never thought you could betray your own house.” your eyes widen and narrow down to glare at him, “well maybe if you didn’t give my seat away, i would have room to sit at slytherin.” draco lets out huffs of annoyance, “there were plenty of seats, y/n. just look at anywhere on the table.” you also let out a sigh, “i would’ve had to sit by myself.” the whole hall stares at your confrontation with your best friend, “well y/n, here’s the truth, maybe nobody wants to sit next to you in the first place and-“ he gets cut off from the rest of the sentence by a slap to the face. his grimace softens as he realizes his words, “y/n, you know. i didn’t mean that.” your eyes fill up annoyance as you walk away. pansy stands up quickly and walks off to follow you, but before she fully leaves the hall, she turns towards draco, “you’re a love blinded idiot.”

instead of getting emotional, you just sit in silence, induced by your anger, next to the lake. pansy left you to grab your books from the hall, leaving you in the silence of nature. once again, the crunching of familiar footprints fill the air. “y/n. you know i didn’t mean any of that but i was just jealous, i guess. just seeing you with friends other than our little group made me jealous. just wanted to come and apologize. i am sorry, y/n l/n.” you stay silent for a few seconds before replying, “its fine. thank you for apologizing. i forgive you, i’m just a little embarrassed and hugely annoyed.” you let out a tiny chuckle, “you have to do something for me now, as compensation for your childish behavior,” he continues to stare at you, scared of what you could say, “you have to do my astronomy homework for a month.” you stretch your hand out, in which he responds to by shaking it. you stand up, “come on, we have history of magic to get to.” you finally look at his face, red by the slap mark you left on it, and try not to laugh, “sorry about the slap,” you say after suppressing your laughter, “its fine, i probably deserved it.” you nod your head in agreement, “i’d say so.”

during dinner, you sit next to pansy, giving draco a wink of access for astoria to sit in your seat. you listen to pansy while you platter on whatever was served at dinner on your plate and wait for dumblebore to finish speaking about the daily news. astoria gives draco a smile while using her fork to scatter around the food she didn’t want to eat. when she finishes eating, she glances over at your plate before finding a comment to say. “y/n,” you turn your attention away from pansy, along with draco and blaise, “are you really going to eat all of that?” you put a fake smile on your face and pretend to think, “hm, i think i am going to.” her smile turns into a snide look, “i just didn’t expect a girl of your stature to eat that much.” you widen your eyes at draco asking for help while laughs your encounter with the older girl, “i have a high metabolism?” she laughs softly, “i can see that judging by the fact that you’re not overweight after eating all of that food.” you give her a small smile before turning back to pansy. in all honesty, you couldn’t tell if the girl was being nice or extremely sarcastic.

the next day was saturday, meaning, game day. sitting at the slytherin table, you pick up an apple and bite into it, in replacement for the hefty meal yesterday night. the hall is mostly quiet besides the tiny murmurs of conversation amongst the few students there early, most probably sleeping in until the game. while you eat your apple, you spot the entrance of the weasley twins. george passes you a wink while fred gives you a slight smirk before they start stalking towards you, “morning,” you pass them a small smile, “morning weasleys,” the both of them give you a pat on the back, “this is for when gryffindor beats slytherin in todays match,” your eyes widen and you scoff at their bluntness, “i’ll make sure to return it when slytherin wins.” fred shakes his head while george speaks, “that won’t be necessary,” and before you could give one last remark, the both of them walk away to go eat breakfast. next, you saw astoria enter with her friends and not draco. you turn to pansy and whisper, “wheres draco?” she looks up to see astoria by herself, “maybe he’s sleeping in?” astoria sits down in her usual seat next to her friends and you walk over to her, “where’s draco?” she shrugs and continues her conversation with her friends. you walk back to pansy and grab your coat, “i’m going to go check on draco, maybe he did sleep in.” walking to the dungeons, you begin to worry about the boy.

entering his dark room, you squint your eyes to look for him on his bed, and to your prevail, you find him. you tiptoe into his room and quietly whisper, “draco,” he continues to stir in his sleep. you then slightly open the blinds, letting in a tiny bit of daylight to illuminate the boy’s face. you sit yourself on his bed and feel the warmth from his covered up body. he opens his eyes in alarm at the intruder, but relaxes when he realizes it was just you. you stare down at your best friend, “are you gonna come to breakfast?” he immaturely shakes his head no and buries it within his blanket. draco then grabs your hand and brings it to his forehead, “don’t tell me you’re sick.” he gives you an unamused look, “its all because of you.” your eyes widen and you let a tiny laugh, “me? you’re the one that came out last night when you were wet.” draco lets out a low groan, “fine, i’ll tell flint you can’t make it today and i’ll be back to bring you some food during the meal times. just go back to sleep,” you say and close the blinds, but before you leave, you whisper, “goodnight princess,” in which draco replies to with a low and annoyed, “y/n.”

before your quidditch match starts, you stretch your body after the trouble you got into for draco’s absence. as dean thomas announces the teams, you fly into the field and take a few laps before stopping in front of the twins. “get ready to lose y/n,” fred inserts, “you wish,” cormac mclaggen comes to taunt you further, “where’s your little boyfriend, l/n?” you roll your eyes, “he’s sick, have you got a problem?” he sniggers, “nope.” he replies popping the p. george shakes his head at his teammate, “just ignore him. that’s what we do.” he gives you a wink and goes back to pretend to listen to madam hooch.

halfway through the game, you wipe the sweat off of your forehead and keep your eye on one of the bludgers. successfully knocking the bludger out of angelina johnsons’ arms, you follow closely to it, head to head with george. you block the second bludger from hitting graham montague, your chaser, as he holds one in his arms to score. unfortunately, the bludger gets caught by mclaggen as he montague a small smirk before throwing the ball towards you. not reacting fast enough, it hits you in the gut and you fall backwards off your broom. blinded by the pain in your gut, you don’t notice how far away you are from your broom. luckily, george catches you and slowly carries you to the ground. madam hooch runs up to you in the middle of field after giving cormac a time out, having a hard time breathing. taking in raspy breaths, your eyes water up. you lay on your back as a stretcher takes you to the hospital wing. to ease the pain, madam pomfrey gives you pain relief potion as she examines your abdomen, “nothing broken my dear, just severely bruised.” you nod solemnly at her, “just stay here for overnight and continue to talk this potion to heal.” pansy enters the wing and gives you a smile, “that was awesome.” the both of you break out in laughter until you groan, “the way george caught you in the air, i thought i was going to lose my best friend today.” your conversation with her goes on until you interrupt, “so, draco is sick and i promised to bring him a meal at every meal time but, i can’t now so as my best friend, will you do it for me?” her face turns stone as she stares at you before bursting out into laughter at you facial expression. “of course silly. anyways, back to my story…” she continues.

after leaving you at the hospital, pansy packs a plateful of food before unlocking the door to draco’s bedroom. “wake up dork,” he opens his eyes to see pansy instead of you, “where’s y/n?” draco asks annoyed, “she got injured at today’s quidditch game, mclaggen threw the bludger at her and she’s in the hospital wing but-“ before pansy could finish her sentence, draco runs through the hallways, clad in his pajamas. finally reaching the hospital wing, he bursts through the entrance and spots you, “y/n are you okay? i should’ve gone to the game today.” draco spews out words and you stare at him before cutting him off, “i’m alright draco,” you grab his hand, “thank you for worrying but you’re sick. you shouldn’t be out of bed,” he takes in deep breaths, wiping the sweat off his forehead, “i just needed to see if you were alright.” your thumb rubs against his palm, “i’m good, so go back to your dorm and rest. if you’re not better by tomorrow, i promise i’ll be there.” he nods and reluctantly lets go of the warmth your hand held. you let out a sigh as you watch him walk away until the curtain next to your bed rips open, unveiling two redheaded twins. you slightly jump, “well, well, well. just tell him you love him.” fred starts, “i mean, its sort of obvious.” you shake your head at the boys, “i can’t,” they both let out huffs of annoyance, “why not?” george questions, “he’s with astoria right now. and he seems happy for the first in a while. i don’t want to take that away,” you pause, “anyways, you should go to dinner. i’ll be eating whatever madam pomfrey serves me.” the twins laugh at you before fred leans in close to your ear, “we have tons of pranks up our sleeves so if you want anything to do to mclaggen, we’ll be happy to provide.” you push the boy away with a close lipped smile, “thank you for the offer, but i’m going to have to pass it up for now.” fred lets out an, “understood,” as he and his twin walk out of the wing.

the next day, madam pomfrey releases you to breakfast after giving you one last potion for your bruises. you enter the hallways and a breeze blows through your hair as you start to speed walk to the hall. entering the great hall, all of your friends stare at your incredibly quick recovery. pansy runs up to you and squeezes you tightly, “pansy, a little looser please.” you laugh along with her and greet your other friends before spotting a seated draco with astoria’s arm looped around his own. he gives you an apologetic look and you return a small smile with a shake of your head to reassure him that it was alright. pansy informs you about their incoming trip to hogsmede later and asks if you could go, “yeah, i can go, i have to buy some more ink for my essay.” blaise then turns to draco, “oi malfoy, you coming?” draco sits still before opening his mouth to complain, “its cold and i’m sick. do you really think i’m going to go?” a small smirk appears on blaise’s face, “i heard y/n agreed to come.” draco’s head turns towards you with super sonic speed, “really?” you give him a closed lipped smile and very slow head nod. “then i’ll be there,” draco says, “me too!” astoria adds on. pansy gives her a look of disgust, “uh astoria, this is just for our friend group. we made a rule that there are no plus ones.” astoria then pouts and turns to draco, “draco, i could come right?” pansy rolls her eyes and pretends to gag. draco turns towards you and looks to you for help, “astoria, if you’d like to come, you’re welcome to come,” you say, earning a whine from pansy. “great! we’ll meet you at the exit of hogwarts.” you nod and send an extremely small smile towards her.

while you get ready, pansy waits for you on your bed. “y/n, i have no idea why you invited her, she’s literally the bane of our existence.” you chuckle at your dramatic best friend, “she’s dating draco, so we have to include her or else who knows what draco would do?” browsing through your closet, you pick out a slytherin sweater and a vintage poofy jacket. “y/n, the only reason why draco decided to come was because blaise told him you were coming. doesn’t that scream something to you?” you continue to look at yourself in the mirror, “no, it doesn’t. we’re just best friends pansy, nothing more.” her face droops down and she rolls her eyes, “you, my best friend, are the smartest witch in all of hogwarts but you’re too blinded by draco’s happiness to find your own,” shaking your head, you turn away from the mirror and walk to the door but before you exit, you stop, “i’m happy for him so it’s fine,” you say, sounding more like you’re trying to convince yourself rather than pansy.

your group of friends all meet at the exit of hogwarts and while you wait for draco and astoria to show up, you see the weasley twins. you smile and wave at them until fred waves you over to their location behind the tree. you look over at your occupied friends and walk over to them, “what’s up, weasleys?” they both stand towered over you, “y/n, we might’ve done something we weren’t supposed to do and now we have to go clean it up,” george begins, “mcgonagall’s orders,” fred adds and george continues, “we’ve got the trio but it’s too big of a mess so we’re recruiting people to help us clean.” you let out a sigh but nod your head, “okay, give me a second to tell my friends. wait for me at the entrance of the castle.” they both give you a salute and march over to the entrance as you walk towards your group of friends, now including draco and astoria. “hey,” you say as you see draco, now turning towards all your friends, “i have to go help the weasley twins today so, no hogsmede for me today,” you slightly pout, “y/n, why do you have to help the weasel twins?” you lightly punch him on the arm, “i’ll be going now,” your friends wave to you as you walk away until you hear, “wait y/n!” and you turn around to see draco jogging towards you, “i’m not going to go either,” your eyes widen at the boy while he gives you a smirk, “what about astoria?” his smirk falters as he gives you a genuine smile, “always thinking about others before yourself, i really don’t think slytherin was the right house for you. maybe hufflepuff?” you roll your eyes as you start to walk and his arm lays on your shoulders. “if i was in any other house, i would’ve avoided you at first sight,” he chuckles, “ow, that hurt,” he replies sarcastically.

as you enter the entrance of the castle, you see fred waiting for you and his eyes shift to draco, “you here to help, malfoy?” draco rolls his eyes, “yes weasley.” you pat draco on the back, “good boy,” his ear slightly turn red but the action goes unnoticed as you start a conversation with fred, “what did you even do in the first place?” a mischievous glint grows on fred’s face as he opens the door to an explosion of soap bubbles in mcgonagall’s classroom, leaving your eyes wide along with draco’s. “freddie!” george yells from across the room which attracts the attention of the students helping clean. you turn to draco, looking up at him in equal surprise as him. george comes and hands you a wet rag along with a bucket to help dissolve the bubbles surrounding the room. for the whole time, draco stood next to you and cleaned about two percent of the hundred percent you cleaned. on your way to dump out the bucket in the lavatory, you bump into graham montague. “hey y/n. sorry about the bludger the other day. if i blocked it for you, you wouldn’t have gotten hurt,” you shake your head, setting down the bucket full of bubbles, “no, it wasn’t your fault. if i had paid attention i wouldn’t have gotten hurt. don’t blame yourself.” he tilts his head to look down at you, “what’s the bucket for?” your head then tilts down to look at the bucket, “helping fred and george clean up their most recent prank,” graham nods his head in understanding, “do you need help?’ a tiny chuckle leaves your lips, “if you could help, it would be much appreciated,” he nods and takes the bucket from your grasp as the both of you continue to walk to the lavatory.

upon your return to the classroom with graham, draco looks at you before turning towards graham. he struts up to you and stretches his arm over your shoulder, getting face to face with graham. you sigh at his childish behavior, “thank you for helping graham, we’ll see you at quidditch practice tomorrow.” draco continues to stare graham down, “yeah, see you tomorrow y/n.” you push away from draco’s grasp and go to continue cleaning.

at the end of the weasley’s cleaning fiasco, you walk to dinner with draco in silence. not an awkward silence but a comfortable silence, “so how’s it going with astoria?” you ask out of the blue, “it’s alright but it’s a good thing she’s not as annoying as her younger version, daphne.” he retorts “daphne’s kind.” you retort back, “oh y/n. only seeing the positives in people.” draco stops to fix his dress robe while you continue to walk without him until stopping to turn around and check on him only to notice astoria clinging onto to his arm. draco tries to find you over astoria’s shoulder only to find that you had disappeared. you walk out to the same spot next to the lake. the wind blew through your hair as you stood by the edge of the lake, glancing at the icy water. you hear the noise of rowdy boys behind you before feeling a push in the back, towards the lake. landing with a splash, you hold your breath and try to swim back up to the surface but the weight of your wet clothing dragged you back down, along with the unhealed bruises around your abdomen. floating down peacefully, the cold water engulfs you whole and you let out a final breath of air.

in the meantime, draco stands next to astoria as she smothers him. he firms himself up as he prepares himself to break up with her. “astoria, i think we need to take a-“ but he soon gets cut off as he sees you in the arms of cedric diggory, unconscious. “what the hell did you do to her, diggory?!” he shouts, worried about his best friend. “i saved her from the lake when mclaggen pushed her in, now move out of the way so i can take her to the hospital wing.” in that instant moment, draco realizes that it wasn’t the thought of being with astoria that mad him happy, but the fact that you would be there for him no matter what decision he makes. rage fills draco’s whole body as he moves out of cedric’s way and to find cormac.

when you wake up, you find yourself surrounded by your friends and a bloodied up cormac mclaggen. pansy notices you and mouths a quiet, “are you okay?” to not wake the other boys up and you reply with a nod, unfortunately, actually waking the boys up. draco releases his hold on your hand and goes to hug you. he chuckles in your ear, “you have no idea how relieved i am that you are okay.” you chuckle back at his words, “what, you didn’t think i could swim?” he releases from his hug and then looks at you with a serious face, “i’m sorry i wasn’t there for you. i just got caught up with astoria, but i have something to say,” he pauses as he looks at your reaction, “guys, i hope you still know that we’re all here.” pansy interrupts.

draco turns around to mouth a get out before turning back to you, “y/n, over the past weeks, i realize that i spent less time around and to be honest, it was killing me. it killed me to see you around the weasel twins more,” you interrupt him, “weasley twins, can’t you get it right once-“ he cuts you off by putting his hand over your mouth to silence you, “y/n, i’m trying to be serious. i want to spend more time with you, my best friend. i hope you know that i love you even though i don’t express it everyday.” he jokes while your expression changes from joking to a straight face. “draco, i know you love me because we’re best friends and we have been since we were little but,” you give him a sad smile, “you don’t love me the way you love her. because all i’ll ever be is your best friend but she could be your wife. so maybe save the i love you’s for her.” draco’s face falls at your words, “yeah you’re right, i don’t love you the way i love her because i love you more. hell, i get nervous every time i’m around you alone or when you let me play with your hair when you study or when you come to take care of me when i’m sick. y/n, i love you so much and i want to be more than just best friends.” your eyes widen and tear up slightly, “but we can’t if you think that way.” you let out a big sigh but a large smile erupts on your face. “draco, i’ve loved you since our first year when hermione told me the story of you in the dark forest. but you can’t do to this to astoria,” his face turns a bit guilty, “i forgot to mention that i broke up with her while you were being treated. supposedly she asked mclaggen to push you in. she didn’t take it very well so i would sleep in my room for the time being,” you chuckle at his confession, “will do,” draco quickly shuts you up by pressing his lips against yours. the both of you hear a “finally!” from outside and you feel a smile form on draco’s face. he pulls away and smiles at you, “come on y/n, lets go.” draco says as he grabs your hand but you make no attempt to leave your bed, “oh i actually have to stay here for one more night because i need to more potions, but i’ll see you tomorrow at breakfast.” he lets out a noise of disappointment and kisses you on the forehead before leaving the room.

the next morning, you wake up from your bed in the hospital wing and walk to breakfast by yourself until you meet cedric. “oh cedric, thank you for saving me.” he gives you a relieving smile, “it’s no problem but i almost got killed by malfoy for carrying you while you were unconscious,” he chuckles at you surprised reaction, “i am so sorry about that,” cedric shakes his head, “it’s alright, it’s good to see he cares.”

after waving goodbye to cedric, you walk out to the snowy lake once again, only to see draco already there waiting for you. “draco? why are you here?” his face lights up as he spots you, “i was tired of waiting for you at breakfast and i knew you normally come here so i just decided to wait for you here.” draco opens up his coat as you walk towards him and he wraps his arms around you, engulfing you in his coat’s wings. he leans in closely to whisper in your ear, “i can’t wait till i marry you and we start our own family,” you give him a small laugh at his cheesy words, “calm down mr. malfoy, we only started dating yesterday.” he pulls away from you and stares at your face, “but i feel like we’ve been dating for seven years,” draco leans closely to you and kisses you gently as both of your rosy cheeks illuminate off of each other.

pansy and blaise watch the both of their best friends from a far. “could they be any grosser? like calm down, it’s only eight am on a monday morning.” pansy rolls her eyes, “let them have this moment, i honestly was getting tired of listening to both of them complain about their ‘unrequited’ love for each other.” blaise nods his head in acknowledgment.

draco and you watch as pansy and blaise stuff each other’s face into the fluffy snow, “i love you draco,“ you say as he has your face cupped in his hands, “i love you more y/n. now lets go to breakfast, can’t have you hungry today.” you give a large close lipped smile as draco grabs your hand and stuffs into his pocket while the both of you walk into the castle. as the both of you near the castle, you ask, “did you beat up cormac?” draco continues on his path in silence before answering, “of course. he hurt my girl, and we can’t let him get away with it.” you roll your eyes, “thank you, i guess?” he laughs at you and kisses you on the forehead as the both of you continue your walk to the breakfast hall.

a/n: hi! this is probably one of my longest fics and it took legit 4 business days to write this lol. also, this may be the last fic i post in oct, but please enjoy it along with my other stories!

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the boy who learned how to love

part two to “the boy who was conceited”

hogwarts au

kinda angst, kinda fluff?

draco x slytherin!reader

warning: depressed reader, vague description about self harm, fight against parent

word count: 2.2k

you spent weeks isolated away from the slytherin table and stayed with cedric, after apologizing for disappearing during the ball, despite the black mark on your arm. luckily, since it was winter time, it was easier to hide the mark under a sweater or long sleeved shirt. most days, you would hide in the room of requirements, crying, about the stinging sensation present on your arm or stay dazed and out of it until someone snaps you out.

“y/n,” you hum as you look up at cedric, “what’s up?” he grabs your hand, thankfully not the arm with the mark, and caresses it. “if you’re not okay, just tell me so i can help you.” you put your other hand on top of large one, “thank you, but i’m fine. honestly, just a little overwhelmed with school work.” cedric smiles at you lovingly and then kisses your forehead. you wrap your arms around his waist, “i’m sorry i’m being so selfish. i just had to make everything about me when you’re the one in the triwizard tournament.” his fingers twirl around in your hair as you both continue to embrace, “it’s alright love, you matter more.”

during your classes, all of which you shared with draco malfoy, you sat next to daphne while pansy sat next to draco. you stare down at your paper, not having anything written on your notes. daphne glances over at you in pity and hands you her notes at the end of class, “finish your notes y/n. just return them to me later.” you flash a small smile to her before walking out of the class. cedric waits for you to exit your class and when he sees you, he grabs your bag. the both of you walk down to the courtyard.

a month passes, which included christmas and the new years, finally reaching january. “ced, do you know what your next task is?” he brushes his fingers through your hair, “i believe it has something to do with the black lake.” you look up to think, “what can it be?” your eyes meet his and a smile arises on both of your faces. “my god, you’re adorable.” he says as he cups your face. “enough, it’s absolutely putrid to see you all lovey dovey.” you sit up to see draco, his face contorts into a snide look, “hey diggory, how’s the bet going?” you stare at draco, “what are you talking about?” he scoffs, “oh you didn’t know? diggory here made a bet with his friends that he could get a slytherin to fall for him.”

“y/n it’s not true, don’t believe them.”

it felt as if everything was going in slow motion. like you were falling off the astronomy tower and no one was there to catch you. your eyes appeared hurt but it was like you knew it would happen. you back away from the boys until you bump into a tall red head, “oi, you alright l/n?” not wanting to look at him, you shake your head, “no.” the yellow scarf on your neck stayed vibrant as you ripped it off and dropped it on the floor.

it was lunch time and you never left your shared room with pansy and daphne. the both of them stayed by your side, occasionally leaving to eat and bring you back food. you didn’t feel the need to cry so you just laid on your bed, feeling betrayed.

pansy and daphne finally convince you to get out of bed as you go to your last class of the day. watching the floor as you walk, you ignore the faces around you. you bump into a tall figure, not watching where you go. “y/n, it did start as a bet but i actually fell for you. i love you, don’t believe anything that weasel says.” he starts to say your name when you interrupt him, “but do you? or do you like the idea of having someone? because i really, i really needed someone.” you walk around him and let your feet lead you wherever, not caring about your final class.

walking up the stairs to the astronomy tower, the wind gusts blow strongly. you reach the top and stand by the railing. your eyes stay closed and arms open wide as the wind blows through your hair. you roll up your sleeves to see your dark mark, bulging and red, throbbing. you scratch at it until it starts to bleed with long strokes. draco walks up the stairs and notices you staring off lifelessly with a bloodied arm. going in and out of consciousness from blood loss, you fall over, luckily into draco’s arms. his eyes widen at your scratched up mark. he lifts you up bridal style and takes you to professor snape’s office.

you wake up and sit up in bed. you feel his presence in his room as you lay in his bed. “i appreciate your help,” you speak hoarsely, “but next time, just leave me there to die.” your arm had appeared to be bandaged up but you could still feel the throbbing from the mark. you grab your robe and shoes before walking out the door, leaving the platinum haired boy speechless.

people stared at you as you walked through the halls with your head down and bandaged arm. cedric sees you and jogs up to you. “y/n, what happened?” you let out a deep sigh, “cedric. i think we should breakup, it’s for the better.”

“y/n, no. our relationship started as a bet but i really love you.” cedric says almost desperately. “i do too. that’s why i have to let you go. the first boy to ever love me, my first kiss, my happiness.” you let out as a whisper. you peck his cheek softly and walk away to conceal your tears.

you spend the next couple of weeks in bed, only moving to go to the bathroom or eat food pansy or daphne brings for you. staring out the underwater window, you clear your mind of thoughts. with your mind fogged up with random thoughts, you don’t notice the two poeple sitting on the common room couch. raising your head, you notice them. “y/n! why haven’t you been attending your classes!” your father yells. you just reply with a simple, “i’m done.”

“what do you mean, ‘i’m done.’” he replies sarcastically. “it means i’m done with this bullshit-“ you barely finish your sentence before getting slapped right across your face, the slap echoing through the room, turning the heads of other students. your cheek bleeds from the cut your father gave you from his ring and you turn your head back to glare at your father. he pulls his wand out and corners you to a wall while sticking his wand on your neck. “kill me. kill me coward.” you let out as angry huffs of air erupts from your nose. you don’t let your stare leave your fathers until a figure steps in front of you. “mr. l/n, i’m going to have to ask you to leave.” your father scoffs, “got the malfoy boy on your side now? at least you’ve done one thing right.” your hand clutches you wand, shaking ever so softly. your mother apparates away with your father as you finally let out a shaky breath.

the cut on your cheek drips blood ever so slowly but you stare at the place your parents once stood. draco turns around to examine your cheek, he cups your cheeks in his hands. snapping out of your daze, you pull back and let out a soft thanks as you walk back to your room, planning on never leaving again. but before you could reach your door, draco pulls you into another awkward hug, mouth close to your ear. you squirm in his grip, “draco please, let-“

“run away with me.” you stop squirming at his offer. “we can run away to paris and live our lives out there.”

you gasp quietly. “what about school.” you whisper back.

“screw school. you can go to beaubaxtons. so let’s run away and never look back.” he continues to hug you and not let you reject his proposal, “we leave on saturday. so collect your things and say your goodbyes.”

the next couple of days, you pack and tell your friends about your leave. first you start with cedric, thanking him for loving you even though it started as a bet. next was pansy and daphne, for taking care of you when you were at your lowest. last was the golden trio, for not seeing the bad in you.

it was saturday night, after dinner, when you and draco gathered all your things and snuck through the castle. but before leaving, you told draco to wait for you while you visit professor dumbledore once more. you climb the staircase and see him jotting notes. “ah miss l/n, to what do i owe the visit?” you give him a secure smile, “i’ll be leaving hogwarts, professor. and i’ll be taking draco with me. i just wanted to thank you for being the best professor. i wish you the best with harry.” he flashes you a closed lipped smile as well, “as do i, miss l/n.”

you turn the corner to find draco frantically running. he spots you and runs up to you. “what’s wrong?” he pulls you into his chest, “i thought you left me.” draco pulls away from you and you grab his hand, “let’s go.”

draco buys two tickets for the midnight train as you walk around hogwarts station. by eleven thirty, the both of you board the train and sit in one compartment. draco puts your things into the storage as you stare out at the life you were leaving behind. for most of the ride, you stare out of the window while draco reads the daily prophet, both sitting side by side. you quietly lean your head against draco’s shoulder and grab his hand, gently, rubbing your thumb across it as you fall asleep.

the next time you wake up, you’re already arriving at kings cross station with draco now leaning against you and sleeping. he continues to hold your hand in his sleep until you wake him up. “draco,” you whisper, “we’re here.”

before you know it, you and draco has already traveled from london to paris, and arrive at his summer home. “we’ll stay here until we can move to somewhere else.” you nod and settle in his guest bedroom as he goes to his room.

that night after dinner, you lay on your bed and read a book. that’s until you hear screaming from the other room, which made you grab your wand and follow the noise. you end up at draco’s room and see him thrashing around in his bed. walking up to him, you sit on the bed and brush your fingers through his hair. “draco. draco, wake up.” you barely whisper. he lets out a gasp as he wakes up with tears sliding down his face and embraces you. “they were hurting you, and you were screaming, so loudly.” draco gasps in between each word. “i’m fine draco, i’m here, aren’t i?” he nods while sniffling, “so lay down, it’s alright.” he shifts and lays down. “i’m alright draco, so go to sleep.” you say as you stand up to leave his room. but before you could leave, he grabs your hand. “don’t leave me, don’t leave me y/n.” you nod and lay down next him. “everything will be better now, draco. believe me.” he hums a melody as you hold him close to your chest.

a couple years later, you wake up to a rustling noise next to you. he looks over at you, “oh y/n, did i wake you?” you shake your head, “it’s alright. where are you going?”

“i was gonna go make a breakfast in bed for you. but looks like you’re already awake.” you chuckle. “come back to bed.” you reply, “no, i’m going to make breakfast.” you pout at his reply, “i’ll let you be little spoon.” you speak again. his expression turns from a small smile to an larger one as he undresses again to lay in bed.

with your arms wide open, he lays down with his back facing you, curled up into a ball. your hand drags itself through his hair as your legs intertwine with his. he turns around to look at you and then snuggles himself into your neck. “y/n?” you hum, acknowledging his question, “i love you,” your eyes widen, “i love you so much. i couldn’t have done anything without you.” for the first time since you’ve met draco, he finally said i love you. small sniffles erupt from you as tears fall down your cheeks. not tears of sadness but of joyous happiness. your sniffles echo through the quiet room as he sits up to look at you surprised.

with tearful eyes, you grab his hand and rub your thumb across it before embracing him tightly. he leaves small kisses on your neck as you think of what to say to his first confession. you let go of him and imprint a smile on your face as he stares at you.

“thank you for saving me draco, i love you too.”

a/n: hi lol. no matter how many times i proofread this, it sucks in all honesty. sorry this post is so spontaneous, i had a ton of school work lol. anyways, thanks for reading my stories.

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theshiningg · 4 years

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fix you

hogwarts au

fluff and a pinch of angst if u squint

draco x gryffindor!reader

warnings: insecure draco, really cringy fluff

word count: 3.5k (i honestly could’ve done better)

the wind blows through your hair as you sit by the black lake with the golden trio. they talk about something that you, honestly couldn’t care less about. “y/n.” hermione calls out. ron leans over and whispers into harry’s ear, “she’s out of it again.” you hum at hermione as you acknowledge her. “come on, we have advanced potions today.” you smile as you pick your bag up off the floor and walk inside the halls with them. you lightheartedly laugh at whatever ron says until your smile disappears when see draco malfoy standing tall and proud, blocking your pathway to potions. craning your head to look at him, he makes a sarcastic remark to harry. giving him a small smile, you ask softly, “could you please excuse us? we have potions next, well, we all have potions next.” he glances at you and the glare on his face disappears. he turns his head back to harry, “you’re lucky that i have better things to do.” he glances back at you quickly before he leaves to potions, just walking a whole ten feet away.

the next time you encounter draco was a week later at the gryffindor x slytherin game. the two teams fly out onto the field as dean announces them. hermione reads her book while you wave at ron and harry. draco does a lap around the field and matches eyes with you. you give him a smile and a thumbs up. he almost collides with another player but a smirk made its way to his face.

that night at dinner, you sit next to ron as fred and george tell stories about the mischief they caused. george explains, “and so then we put unicorn horn into his potion and bam, explosion.” your eyes widen, “really?” you ask enthusiastically. he nods excitedly and continues his story when pansy calls out your name. “hey l/n!” the hall suddenly goes quiet as you turn around to meet her sitting at the slytherin table. draco lifts his head up after copying down someone’s notes. “open your hand!” everyone within twenty feet of you all turn their heads towards you when you open up your hand with your palm facing up and see a paper crane, flying over to you, landing on your palm. carefully unwrapping the paper, you hear a chorus of ‘oohs’ around the room. looking at the words on the paper, your smile slightly fades. “y/n, what’s on it?” george asks, “yeah y/n, what’s on it?” fred adds on. you fold the paper back up, put it in your pocket and put a smile back on your face, “it’s nothing. carry on with your story, george.”

for the rest of the night, you stayed quiet, receiving confused glances from your friends. you walk with fred and george behind the golden trio on the way to your dorms. you count the tiles on the floor on your way when you get pulled back from your friends with a hand covering your mouth. you hear a whisper on your ear, “hush l/n, it’ll make me sound like i’m kidnapping you.” your friends go a safe distance before he releases you. you turn around to meet his face and match eyes with him for all of ten seconds before looking down.

“what’s wrong?” he asks, too embarrassed to stare directly into your eyes. “nothing.” you reply and shake your head. “it can’t be nothing, if you look so dejected, l/n.” he prys on, crossing his arms and rolling his eyes in annoyance. “what did that blasted git even send you?” he asks and when you don’t answer, digs his hands into your pocket, pulling out the note. he opens the note and written in his neat handwriting was his reply to pansy’s question, “do you like l/n?” his eyes scan over his reply over and over again, “no, she’s as insignificant as can be to me.” draco looks down at you as you bite your bottom lip.

“i have feelings, draco. and i know you do too but, that was so heartless.” you sigh, “i thought we were getting somewhere, over this past month. looks like i was in over my head.” your heels click against the floor as you walk away, leaving the blonde haired boy to his thoughts.

about two weeks later with no contact with draco, you live life as it was before. wind quickly blows though your hair as you turn the corner quickly and walk until you stop. before you know it, you’ve walked to the room of requirements. you look throughout the room until you stumble across a mirror. “mirror of erised.” you voice out. the dust flies everywhere as you pull the sheet off of it. looking into the mirror, you see draco with his arm around your shoulder. turning around quickly, you see no one in the room with you. looking back to the mirror, you then see draco again. but this time, he’s not draping his arm around your shoulder, he’s hugging you. feeling a bit shocked, you put the sheet back on and leave the room. you walk back down the quiet halls to go to the library and read about the mirror.

entering the library silently, you find a book called, “mirror of erised: and its history.” you skip over the introduction and find its purpose. “the mirror of erised is a mirror that shows the user his or her heart's deepest desire.” you stand puzzled at why draco was there. what did you want with draco? walking back to the gryffindor dorms was long but you’re glad it was because you had time to think to yourself. myrtle comes flying the through the wall you were passing by and stops as she sees you, “are you y/n?” you nod at her, confused about her sudden shift in attitude. she flies a bit further than you before turning around, “well hurry up.” she demands. you jog up to her and she leads you to the girls lavatory. you look up at her flying and sobs erupt loudly from one of the stalls. she flies down towards your ear and whispers, “he’s sensitive, people bully him too, and he feels lonely and hasn’t got anybody to talk to, and he’s not afraid to show his feelings and cry!” she empathizes on her last word.

slowly, you walk towards the stall where the crying boy was. you push the creaky stall door open and see draco on the floor. he doesn’t notice you until you place your hand on his back. as he looks up at you, you notice how bloodshot his eyes were and how distraught his facial features were. you pull him close to you and embrace him as he plants his face on your neck and continues to sob. “y/n,” he barely lets out, “the note means nothing. im sorry, i was scared that you would reject my feelings because i’m draco malfoy. the boy everybody hates and would avoid at all costs. but every time i see you, my heart flutters as if it’s going to fly out of my chest or i can’t speak.” he continues to sob, you chuckle softly. “it’s alright, draco. because i like you too. and i realized when i saw you in my reflection in the mirror of erised. i saw the draco malfoy. so don’t be scared.” you comfort him.

for what felt like hours and what probably was, draco pulls away from your warm embrace. he doesn’t look at you, embarrassed for his actions in the last hour. you wipe the remaining tears off of his face, softly with your thumb, as if you’re trying not to crack him even more. you both stand up off the lavatory floor and he looks down at you again. you hold out an open palm to him, signifying him to hold your hand. draco hesitantly grabs your hand and firmly clasps it in his. you drag him until meeting the exit of the lavatory where he stops you.

“y/n.” you turn around and hum at him to continue, “why would you ever want to love someone like me.” you walk closer to him and cup his cheek, “because, even though you have flaws, you can overcome them. i will try,” you pause, “to fix you.”

the following days, draco seemed happier than usual and that scared most people at hogwarts. some nights, he would sneak you into his prefect dorm and cuddle until morning or have you keep him company while he’s doing homework.

you lay in his bed before the slytherin x gryffindor game as draco lays next to you. leaning your head over to check the time, brings out the groan in draco as his head rest had moved. he pulls you back down and nuzzles his head into your neck, “give me five more minutes.” he groans. “draco, i have to go early today, i’m meeting the trio before the boys get ready for the game.” he opens his eyes and gives you a frown, giving you the opportunity to get out of his grip. you pick up your robe and leave as you put it on. “i’ll see you at the game!” you yell from the common room.

walking down the hall, millions of eyes stare at you. you see the trio in the hall as ron and harry stuff their faces for their game. hermione’s usual frown turns into a grin as she stares at you walking down the hall. ron spits out the chicken leg he had been eating and points at you with his free hand. you look at your friends, “what? is there something on my face?” harry chuckles as ron answers, “more like on your body.” you look down at your robe and your eyes widen. when did you put on draco’s robe? and why didn’t you notice? it’s like two times the size of your body.

for the rest of the day until the game, you wore the green robe because one, you couldn’t get into the slytherin common room and two, even if you did get into the common room, you can’t get into draco’s locked room. repping the forest green merch all day was literal torture. not because of hate but because of the begging of wanting to know whose robe it was.

finally it was time for the game. the wind was crisp but snowy as the white specks littered the field. you wrap the robe around your frame, feeling a bit embarrassed as you stood out in the sea of red, wearing the green robe. the players fly out on to the field draco scans the crowd in the crowd until noticing a speck of green. you flash him a close lipped smile and he smirks before yelling out, “looking good in green, l/n.” you give him an unamused smile as harry and ron fly towards you and hermione turns to you, then the rest of gryffindor. “y/n.” you slowly turn your head towards hermione, “yes?” she keeps a straight face, “why do you have malfoy’s robe?” you open your mouth to speak but madame hooch calls the boys over to start the game. draco laughs at you as you point at him and pretend to cut your throat, mouthing, “you’re dead.”

the game goes on while you sit and talk with hermione about your potions homework. while she tells you how to make a sleeping draught, she gets interrupted by dean thomas. “and draco malfoy has caught the snitch! slytherin wins!” a smile arises on your face as you watch draco celebrate. and to your surprise he flies over to the mic and grabs it. “hey everyone!” he shouts, hermione and you turn your head to look at him, “i’m draco malfoy and i’m love y/n l/n!” he says as points at you, amused with your surprised look. everybody starts to crowd around you and ask you questions. getting annoyed about the crowd, you finally yell out, “yes! i am in love with draco malfoy!” before running out of the stands to anywhere far away.

you wait for draco as his teammates walk out of the locker room, leaving you with unnecessary comments like, “wow, malfoy really pulled in a good one,” or “hey, if malfoy doesn’t work out, i’m always available.” in which you responded with a middle finger and the roll of your eyes. he finally comes out and you cross your arms at him. he laughs at your unamused face and comes to pull you into his embrace. you mumble profanities into his chest. “what’d you say love?” he says, amused at your reaction. “i said-“ before you can speak your thoughts, he pulls you back into his chest to shut you up.

as the both of you walk back to the castle, in the cold might i add, he holds your left hand while your right wears his glove and his left hand wears the other side. your intertwined hands stay connected as he puts them into his jacket pocket.

you lay on his bed as he showers before the two of you head to dinner. draco walks back into the room and sees you asleep, hair laid out around you and snuggled into his blanket. a smile arises on his face as he watches you groan in your sleep, feeling cold. draco gets into his bed and wraps his arm around your waist, snuggling his face into your hair. you wake up from his action, “what time is it?” you ask him, eyes still closed. “ten before dinner.” he mumbles, also feeling sleepy after his game. you turn around to face him, one eye closed and the other open, you yawn. you nuzzle against his chest and he pulls you closer to him.

you later wake up by theodore nott opening draco’s door and whispers. you tell him to shush by putting a finger to your lip and he gives you a grin and a thumbs up before going out to the common room and yelling, “malfoy actually got a girl!” you smile at his words and lay back down.

you wake up the next morning as draco brushes his hands through your hair with the addition of twisting and twirling it. he grins as you look up at him. “good morning, love.” he speaks. you give him a light, “good morning.” as the both of you rub your legs together. after ten minutes, you get out of bed, ignoring draco’s whines, and go to his bathroom. while you brush your teeth, he comes into the bathroom and slides his arms around your waist with his chest pressed to your back. you spit and leave the bathroom to get dressed. you sit on his bed, waiting for him, so you could go to breakfast.

you sit at breakfast with a serious face as you think about what to get the boy, who basically has everything. “you okay, y/n?” harry asks, a little confused about your daydreaming. “yeah.” you answer with a small smile. “so hogsmeade later today right?” you ask your friends. hermione nods at you with a happy smile.

you later walk to hogsmeade with your three friends, snow covering the whole landscape with draco’s scarf on your neck because he thought that you would be cold and was worrying about you. harry stops in his tracks and looks at you, “when were you ever gonna tell us that you were dating malfoy?” your eyes shift to the side, “we only started recently. like a month ago, i thought we were gonna wait a little longer, but i guess the dopamine got to him. i’m sorry that i didn’t tell you, but i’m not gonna stop loving him because of your relationship with him.” harry’s eyes widen along with ron’s. “no, y/n, we’re not telling you that we disapprove, we just wanted to know why?” you give them a close lipped smile, “because everyone deserves a second chance, no matter how horrible they were.” you continue walking, “come on, let’s go.”

you walk around the shops with hermione after splitting up from the boys. walking through the narrow alleyways, your eyes land something shiny. getting closer to the shop, you see a beautiful snake encrusted, black titanium ring. you grab the door handle before realizing hermione was still with you. “oh, hermione, i’ll meet you at schrivenshaft’s after i’m done.” she rolls her eyes, “okay.” entering the shop, an elderly man greets you. “hello, my dear. what can i help you with today?” he asks, standing up to walk to you. “i would love to see the ring in the window stand, please.”

“ah, excellent choice, my dear.” he says as he picks the ring up off the stand, “a black titanium ring, representing power, strength and certainty. with the addition of a snake, representing rebirth, transformation, immortality and healing.”

“yes sir, i believe he was always a wonderful person, just never had the chance to show it. though we started roughly, i believe he changed. and whatever hurt him back then, could be shed off like a snake.”

the old man smiles at you widely, “that is wonderful, my dear. would you like your initials engraved into it?” you smile back, “i would love to.”

you leave the store after he engraved your initials and walk to meet hermione.

the evening of christmas eve, you sit outside with draco, next to the lake. his head rests on your thigh as your fingers brush through his hair smoothly. his eyes are closed while yours stay open as you stare out into the peaceful lake. “y/n?” draco speaks, still with his eyes closed. you answer with a hum. “are you bored of me yet?” you gasp and look down at him, his eyes wide open now. “of course not, why would you ever think of that?” he sits up to meet your eyes, “other people think i don’t deserve you.” you grab his hand and rub your thumb across the back of his hand.

“don’t be daft draco. if anything, i don’t deserve you. you are the most intelligent and kind boy i’ve ever met. you’re just misunderstood. you’ve treated me better than anyone in my life has and i can’t ever stop loving you for that. so don’t let those fools get to you. i love you so much and if it takes saying that everyday, i will. so don’t forget it.” his eyes water at the end of your sentence. you lean close to him and wrap your arms around his neck, “i love you.” you whisper. you kiss his forehead as he releases from your hold before standing up and reaching a hand out to him, “let’s go to dinner, darling.”

that night after dinner, you go back to draco’s dorm. you lounge around on his bed while he finishes up his dada homework. flipping the page of the book you were reading, you shift your eyes towards draco as he writes his neat notes. he groans, shuts his book and gets into bed with you. you then shut your book and hug draco. he stares at you while you shut your eyes and then playfully open them. “are you tired?” you ask him. he nods, sleepily. “then sleep, i’ll be here when you wake up. i promise.” you whisper back. he closes his eyes as you brush your fingers through his hair.

you wake up the next morning with a smile on your face. draco stirs around in his sleep as you exit his bed and walk to his bathroom. after cleaning up, you walk out of his room and into the common room as you see eager first years opening gifts under the tree. draco comes out sleepily and wraps his arms around your waist, back hugging you. “good morning darling.” you say as you turn around to hug him. “i have something for you.” pulling out the ring box, you hand it over to him. you smile as he opens the box and takes the ring out. “y/n, that’s beautiful. when did you?”

“i went out with the trio remember? i engraved my initials in it so it would be memorable.” he pulls you in for a hug, “thank you. well i also have something for you, love.” you see a small box coming out of his pocket. he hands you the box to open and when you do, a surprised look appears on your face. you pull out a diamond ring with the initials, “d.m” written on them. your eyes tear up at the gift and he pulls you into his embrace. “thank you darling. this is so thoughtful.” the both of you stay in an embrace until theo speaks. “you know you’re both under a mistletoe right? that means, smoochy smooch time.” he grins.

draco cups one side of your face while your hands make their way to the back of his neck. he leans closer and finally, his lips touch yours. his lips felt soft and smooth as yours danced against his. the kiss ends with the both of you staring at each other lovingly.

“i love you y/n.”

“i love you more draco.”

“no way.”

you smile at him softly,

“looks like you didn’t need to be fixed.”

a/n: hi, just wanted to post this before starting school this week, so for conceited, i might post that a little later because i have tons of test this week, sorry but please enjoy this story while you wait heh

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the boy who was conceited

part one to “the boy who learned how to love”

hogwarts au

angsty ooh

draco x slytherin!reader

warnings: depressed reader, tiny bit of pain, too much crying lol

word count: 2.7k

it was a cold and snowy winter. finishing up your finals before winter break starts was extremely difficult, with the added on stress from your parents and their feud with the malfoys. to clear your mind, you decide to go to the astronomy tower. you trudge up the stairs leading to the astronomy tower, heaving out cold breaths of air. your parents had sent you a howler at dinner, releasing their wrath about your on the edge outstanding. you quickly ripped up the howler, not wanting to hear the rest. your thoughts get interrupted as you see a silhouette of a boy. he glances over at you, face transforming from sadness into a grimace.

“what are you doing here, l/n.” he spits out, angry about your interruption. “well the tower is the schools, public. or did daddy buy it for you?” you spit out back. he scoffs and speaks again. “shut up.”

the both of you lean up against the railing of the tower, basking in the peace and silence. draco breaks the quiet, “pretty funny howler you got at dinner tonight, l/n.” you close your eyes and barely let out, “yeah, i guess.” he glances over at your stone expression. you let out a sigh, “i get one everyday. they tell me how big of a disappointment i am. sometimes i just want to walk into the lake and never come out.” his eyes open wide as he stares at you, “l/n-“ before he could speak, you interrupt him with a straight face. “it’s fine. just a joke. don’t worry about it.” you walk towards the stairs, “thanks for letting me stay here, malfoy.” he opens his mouth to speak but you were already halfway down the stairs.

the next morning, draco stared at you as you walked into breakfast, ten minutes before it ended. even as you sat down, you took one piece of toast, ate it and then left to god knows where. when it came to classes, you were the last one to arrive but the first to leave. to be honest, most of the time, you stayed at hagrid’s hut or walked the halls talking to random paintings.

one night, you walked around endlessly, disregarding the time and the curfew you had. as you turn the corner of the empty hall, you bump into someone’s chest. and that someone to be exact was cedric diggory.

“l/n? don’t you have rounds tomorrow?” he asks while looking down at you. you shake out of your daze, “i do. i accidentally stayed after curfew.” he softly laughs at you. “come on, i’ll walk you back.” you nod, softly smiling. the both you walk the cold halls, leaving you shivering in just your robe. cedric takes off his scarf and raps it around your neck. you open your mouth to reject it but he grabs your hand and the both of you walk to the dungeons in silence. reaching the dungeons, you get met by the smirking face of draco malfoy, “eager to get places, diggory and,” he leans over to look behind cedric, “l/n?”

“calm down malfoy,” cedric begins, “she just went to madam pomfrey.” draco’s eyes turn to look you up and down, “you’re not hurt. are you l/n?” you shake your head, “i’m fine.” turning to cedric, you thank him before walking into the common room, leaving the two boys.

after camping out in the common room for thirty minutes, you decide to sneak out again. exiting the room, you look around the corner to see if cedric or draco still lingered around. luckily, there was no sight of them.

you sneak up into the astronomy tower with nothing but your dress shirt and skirt on. you breath unveils itself in the chilled air. you stare out into the lake before finally breaking down. your cries become more desperate as you long for someone to tell you it’s okay and they echo off the hollow walls.

little did you know, draco was listening to everything. he hid behind the stair wall and listened to your distressed wails. your cries subsided after a good hour. wiping your tears, you walk down the stairs and back to your dorm, not noticing the blonde boy staring at you sympathetically from afar.

you walk into the great hall for breakfast looking like you haven’t slept in days. draco turns his attention towards you as you sit down and stare at the food emptily. your friends put food on your plate but you just give them a small smile and walk out. draco gets pissed off by your depressed behavior and runs after you. he grabs your wrist and pulls you back harshly, bumping into his chest.

“what the hell, malfoy!” you yell, surprised. “what do you mean, l/n! i know you haven’t slept and eaten is days!” he yells back.

“why do you care all of a sudden? you never did before but what made you change your mind?” you ask, desperately wanting an answer. he stutters, “i-i don’t know. i just feel worried about you.” you push his wrist away from yours and take a few steps away before turning around to look at the boy, “you don’t have to feel worried, i’m fine.” you begin to walk away once more when he pulls you back again, “y/n, what’s wrong?”

“i don’t know. i just cry and feel sad.” he looks at you sympathetically. you then whisper your next sentence, “my parents are pressuring me to become one of them. and honestly, it looks like i have no choice.” he pulls you into his chest and wraps his arms around you. hesitantly, you wrap your arms around his waist and breathe in his musk. “i’m scared.” you push away from his chest, fix yourself up and give him a sad smile before finally walking away.

the next week was the week of the yule ball and for most of the week, you stayed isolated with occasional small talk. you would also avoid draco at all costs besides the fact that you would see him at malfoy manner for meetings. sitting by the lake, covered in all your winter gear, you read a book before getting interrupted by a cough. you look up to see cedric, giving him a small smile, you turn back to your book.

“uh, y/n.” he pauses as you look back up, “will you be my date to the yule ball?” you push your hair behind your ears and open your mouth to speak, “uhm, okay.” you answer, feeling bad if you reject the school’s golden boy. a little smile spreads across your face, not because cedric diggory asked you but that someone did. he kisses you on the cheek, “great, see you friday night.” after he leaves, the small smile on your face increases from a grin into a wide smile.

“what’s with the grin, l/n?” draco asks while smirking. your face transforms back into a small smile, you slowly speak to him as you look into his eyes. “cedric asked me to the ball.” his smirk falters and turns into a grimace. “really?” he questions, a little too angrily to be comfortable. “is something wrong?” you ask him. “no, it’s nothing.” he says before walking away in stomps.

for the remainder of the week, you hadn’t seen draco anywhere. it was thursday at dinner and you got sent a anonymous package. you look around the dinner table to find any pair of eyes staring at you, but you find none. not wanting to open the package just yet, you waited for dinner to end. as dinner progressed, your patience was running thin and you just left, running to your room. you enter your room, quickly lock the door and put the package on your bed. cautiously, you begin to open the packaging. to your surprise, you pulled out a black silk dress with a leg slit along with black heels. you find a note hidden away in the bottom of the box,

“y/n,

as difficult as life may be right now, you should enjoy the ball with cedric.

-your anonymous friend”

you think ‘who could’ve sent me this?’ shaking your head, you go to the library to finish up homework. on your way to the library, you see draco standing next to blaise and theodore. the both of you meet eyes but he gives you a not so friendly smile which makes you turn away and continue to the library.

finally, it was christmas eve and you had no classes for the day. awaking from your bed, you stare out through the dungeon window that showed little to no sunshine. it was a snowy day as the white snow appeared crisp but fluffy at the same time. exiting your room after getting ready, you feel a slight shiver but continue on your way. as the door to your common room closes, you see cedric waiting for you.

“hey.” he says as you look at him surprised, “did you wait long? i’m sorry, i woke up late today.” you worry. “it’s alright love, i barely just got here. come on, let’s go to breakfast. today, you’re gonna sit with me.” he replies, “but c-cedric, i don’t think i can.” you release a soft smile. “it’s alright, just here,” he pauses and takes his robe off, “put my robe on.” you comply and he helps you slide it on top of yours. the sleeves reached way past your hands and the robe down lower than your knees. you look up at him and he smiles while looking at you, “that’s actually adorable.”

you enter the great hall standing next to cedric but just as you’re about to sit next to him, draco pulls you out of the hall. “l/n! are you stupid? what would your parents think about you falling in love with a pathetic hufflepuff.” you scoff and pull your hand out of his, “they wouldn’t care because i’m not telling them.” you sternly reply, “looks like i’ll be the one telling them then.” he says as he runs away to the dungeons with you in pursuit. “draco! please! stop!” you yell desperately, trying to catch up to him. he runs his dorm room, locks the door and starts to write his note. “draco! draco! please!” you yell as you bang your fists on the door, “please.” tears cascade down your cheeks and in about five minutes, he comes back out after sending the letter with a smirk on his face. his smirk on his face decreases as he notices your red eyes and hurt expression. you walk down the stairs, defeatedly to give cedric his robe back and going to your dorm.

that night, your parents apparated to school. “y/n! what a disgrace.” your mother spit out, “and to think you were a l/n? you are to stay in your room this whole break only to come out at meal times. no library or hogsmeade which also means, no ball. especially with that blood traitor, diggory. i can’t believe we raised such a insolent child.” your father says as he and your mother disapparate away.

before going back to your dorm, you wait for cedric to show up. he finds you and has a worried expression on his face. “y/n, what’s wrong?” he asks. “i-i can’t go to the ball with you. please don’t ask why, just accept it for me. please.” you say as he responds, “i understand, y/n. whenever you’re ready, i’ll wait for you.”

finally walking back to the dorms, you enter your room. your eyes tear up as you look at the dress on your bed. you walk down the stairs to the common room to put daphne and pansy’s gifts under the tree when you get met by draco malfoy. you barely spare him a glance but before entering your room again, you speak, “tomorrow was the day i could finally let go of everything. the night i could just forget. but you had to take that away from me because of what,” tears fall once again, “cedric may be a blood traitor, but i would rather love him than someone who makes others miserable.”

the next day, you spent all day moping. pansy and daphne opened their gifts from you while you looked out through the window in your dorm. hugging your knees, you think to yourself before throwing on your shoes and running out of the common room and to the hufflepuff basement. you see a hufflepuff boy walk out from the common room and ask him if he could get cedric for you. he complies and cedric comes out. you take a deep breath, “wait for me tonight. by the stairs.” he widely smiles at you, “of course.” you smile back as he walks you back to your dorm room.

“why’d you change your mind all of a sudden?” he asks. “because i don’t care what my parents say, they can’t control my life.” you answer as you stand in front of the dorm. “so wait for me cedric.” he smiles, “i will.”

by the time it was the yule ball, pansy and daphne had already left for it so it was time for you to get ready. you did your hair nicely and out on some makeup before zipping up your dress, with a spell of course.

it was ten minutes before the ball began and you were rushing to get down to the hall. finally, you reached the stairs. other guys waited for their dates but turned their attention towards you as you took steps down the staircase, but the only person you were looking at was cedric. he looks up at you in awe and walks up the steps to accompany you down the stairs. you pay no attention to draco malfoy standing at the side and continue in arm to arm with cedric.

as the night progressed, you excused yourself from cedric to go to the bathroom. you walk down the empty hall before getting met by your parents again. you open your mouth in shock, “mum, dad.” they ignore you and speak, “didn’t we say no ball, y/n?” you shake your head, “how?” they interrupt you and grab your wrist, “doesn’t matter, but you’ll be coming with us tonight.”

you get apparated into malfoy manner. you look around the manor to see the faces of narcissa, lucius malfoy and bellatrix lestrange. “what am i doing here?” bellatrix smiles at you, “you’ll be getting your mark, dear.” you shake your no, quickly. “no. no, i can’t.” your father holds your arm down as bellatrix grabs her wand. “mum, please!” you yell out with tears blinding you. you let out a bloodcurdling scream as she begins to give you the mark.

laying on the floor of the manor, slow tears make their way down your face as you made no attempt to get up. the dark mark visible on your skin, your mother helps you stand up and apparates back to hogwarts with you. as you arrive back, you shake your arm out from her grip and run to the bathroom.

barely able to keep it in, you throw up into the toilet. you let out heavy breaths when you feel someone’s hand rubbing your back. you turn around and get met by the pale face of draco malfoy. you show him your arm, letting out small whimpers. he pulls you into his chest and whispers, “i know, i know,” as you mumble incoherent things into the vast air.

the both of you pull away from each other and you stare ahead as if you had no soul left in you. he wraps his coat around your body, letting his sleeves cover your ugly mark. he opens his mouth to speak but closes it in hesitation before opening it again, “y/n, i’m sorry. i was just,” he pauses, “jealous.” you slowly shift your eyes towards him, “i bought you the dress because i knew you needed one but, i thought you would leave cedric for me as soon as i confessed because i’m way better.” you squint your eyes at him and slightly open your lips to speak, “i hate you draco malfoy.” his eyes open in surprise. you stand up from the floor and walk through the door.

a/n: hi lol, my first harry potter post on this blog. thanks for enjoying it but also, i’m going to make this story into a two part series because i wanted to see if the first part was good. lol anyways, thanks.

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