I think now might be a good time to update my blog finally. My name is Rachel, I am currently 22 years old, I'm cis and go by she/her pronouns, and I am fandom loving trash so approach with caution because I can't control my weebness. This blog has no...
I'm so hyped that production for the first season of Hazbin Hotel apparently wrapped and its on the way but I have no friends who really care about how excited I am so now it's the problem of the empty void I scream in!
I only ever really post here anymore to just bitch into a void where no one I know irl will most likely see, and I apologize for it, but I'm gonna do it anyway.
Life is just really kicking me in the teeth. Nothing feels genuine. All of my friends don't care or don't have time, even though I drop everything in a heartbeat for them. Is this really all there is? When things out of your control go wrong, you bank into the people you love being there and being there willingly, but that just doesn't happen. There's always something more pressing, more important, more fun. What do you bank into when everyone in your life just constantly and consistently lets you down and leaves you behind? Every day I day dream about just running away and starting somewhere where somebody will treat me the way I want and really listen to me.
"Your mental illness is causing you to lash out and act irrationally towards people" and "You are responsible for addressing and correcting your harmful and toxic behavior" are both things that can coexist and are true. Having a mental illness is not a get out of jail free card for hurting people around you or neglecting the responsibilities that you have.
here’s an idea: notice toxic trends in your behavior and, idk, change them
he's a cult leader, he's a fashion icon, he's a war veteran, he's immortal, he dies all the time, he's haunted, he's high and he's sober, he's agnostic, god hates him personally. i didn't say his name but he popped into your head, didn't he?
It has come to my attention that not everybody knows about the wangxian ice dance performance so in honor of it being figure skating season and the Olympics being held in Beijing, here y’all go💖
Watched it on Netflix and thought it was very nice!
Do love some pretty men who are gently in love~
I’ll have it made in a regular version and also a foil version where the butterflies are silver foil :D
Update: I've texted no one first in three days just to see if anyone bothered. Two people texted me, and both times, it was because they wanted something from me. I'm taking friend applications starting immediately.
I've come once again to rant about the lack of attention I receive from literally anyone who has claimed to want me in their life.
Like here is the issue I tend to have; I am a grown adult and as an adult I know that life gets busy and sometimes that's how it goes. I'm logical and reasonable enough to know that I can't hog the attention of people all of the time, even if they do have free time, it doesn't mean it should be given to me just because I want it.
On the other hand; I run my stupid ass into the dirt to be there for everyone when they need it but I have to ring a bell and set off a fire alarm for a text back, let alone someone maybe actually coming to start a conversation with me. It feels like even the slightest amount of effort given on my behalf would kill them. I'm tired. I want new friends who actually want to do things that I enjoy doing.
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