im just saying that if i had been in charge of s6 of doctor who, i would have fully leaned into the horror of amy's pregnancy, the loss of her own agency in it, the way she was used as a vessel to create a child she would never hold again, amy pond who never indicated once that she even wanted a child and was made to have one anyway against her will, and once they were done using her, they even took away any choice she might make about it in the future.

and i would have had this be a factor in amy and river's relationship going forward. how do you interact with a child you never knew, never got to decide if you wanted to have, and she's also already your friend, you love her as this miraculous, insane woman who has saved your life more than once. she's always known more about you than you could about her, but now you know exactly how much she was keeping from you. it's not like she could have told you, could have stopped it, but all this time, she was your friend and she was your daughter, and how do you learn to live with her?

Reckless

Dialogue Prompts for reckless self-sacrifice:

"Did it just not cross your mind that some of us care about whether you live to see next week or not?"

"...Hey, no - don't try it. Just, just stop, I know what you're thinking, but please don't--"

"You're walking a thin line between casual self-endangerment and reckless self-destruction."

in this world where so many members of our species, with supposed moral agency, are killing small things for nothing but the crime of existing, and so many are blind to the value of any species which does not benefit them in a way they can personally measure... do you ever feel so so panicked and suffocated?

there's an alternate reality where this vegas:

and this pete:

most definitely fuck.

re my last post about Zoro's labor: I actually think he noticed the night before he was experiencing contractions, but they were faint enough that he could be in denial about them. When he wakes up the next morning he's like "oh fuck this is really happening now, isn't it?"

So much of Zoro's fear and anxiety comes from being weak or being seen as weak, so I do think he'd be incredibly freaked out by the idea of giving birth. With how much hovering Sanji and the others are doing in his last month, it gets under his skin and he feels like he needs to prove he's still strong and self-sufficient. He wanted to prove a point to Sanji by making him go on his trip with Zeff, that he'd be fine without Sanji's mother-henning for a few days. But predictably it backfires and he's digging himself into an even deeper hole by not altering his friends to what's happening and admitting he was wrong and maybe he can't do everything on his own. And that he feels like a total tool for possibly making Sanji miss the birth of their kid.

Since Sanji is out of town, the gang decides to all crash at Nami's so they could collectively keep an eye on Zoro (Zoro of course thinks this is stupid and unnecessary and he's a grown man who can look after himself thank you very much) and Zoro knows he's in labor for hours before telling them. He finally breaks when his water does (haha) and he has no more time left to stall and deny. I think he gets upset and has a borderline panic attack when he does admit to it, but he has good friends and Nami is able to talk him down.

becoming largely chill about most things. but i give myself permission to be mad about car infrastructure, car dependence, and cars flagrantly ignoring pedestrian right-of-way and generally endangering beings of flesh. because this is one of the few truly moral axis of this world

i was listening to mafumafu's cover of jailbreak and realized the mv has a trope i love very much!!!! with childhood friends trope, i also love it when two characters grew up having much the same motive (in the case of kuina and kawasemi, the song's characters, wanting to escape the caged city they're confined to). but then the characters mature and end up walking down separate paths, whether purposely or not or because life just happened and that was the cards they were handed, and now they can't stand on the same side because life/duty/etc compels them to remain set in their ways.

it hurts in the best way to see kuina chasing after kawasemi to apprehend him and stop him from flying the plane. and then he has no choice but to helplessly watch what ultimately becomes of his friend when the plane engine overheats and explodes... AAAAAAAAAA it hurts, but it hurts so good. T_T i can't even begin to ramble about the symbolism and the fact that they're named after birds... neru's brain is too big... orz

in short, i just really like the trope of two childhood friends with the same goal/dream, something happens that causes one of them to deviate from or abandon that goal/dream, and then they later reunite as changed individuals, with one still clinging to the goal/dream and the other having lost hope in it entirely. bonus points if one of them is hunting the other down for whatever reason hehe. <3

i’m ready for the californication analysis like i’m ready for presents on christmas day

i actually cannot w y'all sdjkfsk

the inability of the fandom to find a balance between diminishing the role of the human willpower and diminishing the capabilities of extradimensional gods strikes again

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The bad feeling has not worn off from yesterday

Astarion really taking a page out of Mary Shelley's book by initiating romantic happenings over his grave.

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also worth saying that this is driving me to writing thg fanfic bc I'm genuinely pissed off, but my favourite way of engaging with thg isn't even with canon characters at this point. it's through thinking about two ocs I've had for years that I mentally refer to as "toxic fishermen yuri", and I'm incapable of writing extensively abt anything related to thg that doesn't involve them lol

wouldn't it be nice. if people made sure they knew what the fuck they're talking about before talking about it