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fangirlika · 4 months
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happy belated new year from my side ahh I wish you all an amazing start into the new year!!
I hate new year’s resolutions but I do definitely want to write more again because I have so many ideas and requests still
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leverage-ot3 · 8 months
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hozier starting to sing take me to church and then unfurling a pride flag healed something in me actually
if you listen closely you can hear me yell ‘oh my god’ when he does it
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emotinalsupportturtle · 4 months
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you've heard of the Cary Grant and Katherine Hepburn as Benedick and Beatrice hc (or you should have)
Now, let me present to you David Tennant and Catherine Tate in the Philadelphia Story
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mikesbasementbeets · 1 year
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can't stop thinking about the alleged "time jump" now.... i'm trying to find the actual source of the widespread idea that there will be a several year time jump after the first two episodes... and from everything i can find it's like 99% fan speculation. there is ONE quote from ross duffer that is the only source every other article refers to as "confirming" the time jump in season 5 and it's this:
At least one aspect of Season 5 does sound like it’s written in stone. Given how quickly the show’s young leads are growing up, “I’m sure we will do a time jump,” says Ross. “Ideally, we’d have shot [Seasons 4 and 5] back to back, but there was just no feasible way to do that.
“So these are all discussions we’re going to have with our writers when we start the room up,” he continues. “Believe it or not, we’re still working on Season 4. We’re trying to finish the final two episodes, they’re so massive.”
... that's it. outside of that one incomplete and otherwise paraphrased quote, i can't find any other time or place they've mentioned it (please lmk and link if you find another direct quote on this anywhere else... istg i've watched a video of this interview but i can't find it anywhere).
what they have talked about in several places is the fact that they expect season 5 to be shorter than season 4, specifically because it won't require the same amount of build up that season 4 had (.............due in large part to the time jumps bwteen seasons......)
referring to season 5 in this the wrap interview:
Matt Duffer: They’re going from the beginning. There’s going to be less ramp up. And I think people will understand what I’m talking about when they see the end of this season. It’s like, we’re just going.
Ross Duffer: Yeah. Normally it’s like, oh, we get to revisit the characters in their normal lives and how they’re doing and what are their relationships like?
Matt Duffer: And they’re playing Dungeons & Dragons or whatever.
Ross Duffer: And then something happens, and then there’s an incident and it goes from there. There’s build up. There’s a lot of build-up and set-up [each season], and 5 is just going to be pedal to the metal from the opening scene. At least that’s what I remember from the outline.
and in the Happy Sad Confused podcast, they say this about season 5:
"We don't expect it to be super long, as long. And the only reason we don't expect it to be as long is because typically, or, this season, if you look at it, it's almost a two hour ramp up before our kids really get drawn into the supernatural mystery. And, you know, you get to know them, you get to see them in their lives, they're struggling with adapting to high school and so forth.... none of that obviously is going to be occurring in the first two episodes of this.... for the first time ever, we don't wrap things up at the end of four, and so... it's gonna be moving, I don't know if it's gonna be going a hundred miles an hour at the start of five, but it's gonna be going pretty fast. Characters are already gonna be in action, they're already going to have a goal and a drive, and I think that's gonna carve out at least a couple hours."
as far as i can tell (and as far as i can remember from when these came out back in july)... this is where the "two episodes" before the time jump association comes from. they never confirm when they would include a time jump, and outside of that one tvline quote from when they were still finishing season 4, they never actually "confirmed" anything. but everyone took that "i'm sure we'll do a time jump" and leapt with it
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ilonacho · 1 year
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the fucking audacity of watching the pixar short film “going home” while i’m home for my grandma’s funeral.
#like….. yeah#2 weeks ago i did not know id be here rn#i did not know she would take a turn for the worse this fast#im very thankful things worked out to where i could be here#for my wife and her support and i guess my boss and coworkers for their understanding#i have been lucky to not have been here for the very tough times#im thankful to be here with my family now#theyre doing a lot of new housing in my town now#many buildings i walked by as a kid have been demolished and are being rebuilt#we emptied my grandmas room today. she had only lived there for about 3 weeks before passing#we drive by my mom olds house. the house i grew up in. the new owner still hasnt torn down my old curtains in my old room#the old curtains my grandma had sewn for me when i was a baby#my dad is thinking about moving too. too many new buildings too many new people too much noise#two of my cousins have kids now! and the third one is getting married soonish? her fiance seems nice. he seems like he cares about her#my nephew and niece are so big now. i still havent met my other niece#i wonder if any of my old classmates have had kids? if they moved too?#ill be leaving again on tuesday. itll be a looong day#my parents have more and more grey hairs every time i see them#i dont see my brother as much as id like. hes following his dreams and im proud of him. hes a good kid#anyway the guy who made said short film is literally just like me fr#from germany and had been in the us 5 years (at the time) and making this short film?#just like me fr#anyway. this became one of those diaries for me posts haha#it just really captured how it is really well
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cathalbravecog · 7 months
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omg i think ive said this before but i have a specific song i listen to anytime i do CEO battles (golf round specifically) and like now i cursed myself that anytime i listen to it i go "omg i wanna ceo now"
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vulpinesaint · 1 year
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look the idea that the same skincare advice is gonna work for everybody is such bullshit cause washing my face daily is the worst fucking thing i could do for my skin (besides doing a full skincare routine). it’s not your fault that your skin doesn’t look like your insane clean girl fave’s. they probably just don’t have skin that’s acne-prone the same way that yours is and also they’re trying to sell you things
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petitgalaxy · 1 year
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#btw this isn’t like a sad vent i just can’t sleep and figured i’d talk on here for a bit#so i have an ear infection (pain i wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy fr it is so bad)#and the pain for the first 3 days was AKSJQJWJSJJAJAJAJSJWJSJSJSJSHSJSJSHSH like i was writhing in a hot bath with my eyes shut#gripping the tub walls and shit couldn’t play music or anything to distract myself bc it hurt too bad#and i went to doc the day after it developed and got antibiotics and was taking a shit ton of ibuprofen and acetaminophen#and the pain reduced a lot after those first few days (thank fucking god. the only thing more painful that i’ve experienced was foot surgery#and that was on my bones). but my ear is completely clogged#can’t hear shit at all and for the past week it’s been draining tons of disgusting pus and other fluids#like fucking soaking and staining parts of my pillow from all the liquid 🤢#but i finished my course of antibiotics and was trying to go abt my life#messaged the doctor after a while like ‘hey i’m done with the antibiotics and the pain is better but i cant hear anything#and i’m literally leaking everywhere all the time’ and they were like ‘your symptoms will resolve w time’ and i said ‘how much time’#and they said ‘weeks idk’ and i was like fuck alright but i guess this isn’t that bad#and THEN the day before yesterday i was eating lunch and noticed that my bottom lip felt numb or something like weird#and i kept having to wipe drool and food off the corner of my mouth which is not normal for me and it was freaking me out#and by evening by eye is constantly watering and i can’t figure out why like there’s nothing in it to irritate it#and the next day i go to work and by the time I’m done with work I’m like this is not right and bc i’m a hypochondriac i’m like#‘am i having/did i have a stroke’ and so i go through the FAST stroke symptoms thing (face / arms / smile / time)#and i realize that i cant SMILE like the right side of my mouth will not do it and it’s all lopsided so i freak out and call my mom#she’s not sure that it’s a big deal at first but then she’s like okay make a dr appt bc something is up#so i call dr and luckily there’s an urgent care w our insurance that’s still open and she takes me there an hour later#turns out 1) the ear infection never went away and it’s still swollen and inflamed to all hell 2) i’ve developed swimmer’s ear on top of it#(which i’ve had many times before when i was an active swimmer so that’s not that bad)#and 3) and most importantly i’ve developed something called bell’s palsy which is partial facial paralysis#caused by the infection damaging my facial nerves#so the right side of my face (infection side) is partially paralyzed#most noticeably in my bottom lip and my eye#in that i am having trouble doing things like blowing air out of my mouth#sucking on a straw or eating food (soup was a nightmare) or smiling or drinking etc#and my eye can’t fully close bc the muscles don’t work so i’m constantly crying out of that eye and it’s getting more and more irritated
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deus-ex-mona · 2 years
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i think that about covers the ✨entire population✨
#this started off as a complaint about inconsiderate commuters and my strange coworkers… and somehow ended with my grandparents lmao#idk why but my coworkers seem to really like physical contact for some reason?? i’m not used to it at all man…#like there could be a ton of space behind me but this coworker would walk directly up behind me and pat my back or something? lady pls#or i could be looking at my results and my other coworker would just randomly hug me and i??? lady pls???? i’m so confused#and the thing is… i really really hate being touched by any other person (except my mother. she’s fine) so i’m just (ʘ‿ʘ) throughout it all#and speaking of physical contact… those commuters. man. ಠ‿ಠ#who brings their prams out at like 7.25am anyway? it’s early as balls and the kid’s still asleep 80% of the time anyway#pls take your kids out on a family trip later in the day… yk… when people aren’t trying to squeeze onto the train to get to work???#and they almost always choose to stand right smack in the middle of the train… right in front of the door to boot. at least move in????#and sometimes (the worst times) the kids are obviously old enough to walk around (and are in fact running around the train at that moment)…#…but the parent keeps the pram unfolded in all its oversized glory anyway. like whyyyyyyyyy#so now not only do commuters have to squeeze together because of a lack of space…#…they now have to shuffle around to avoid bumping into the kid. like ughhhhhhhhhhhh i hate trains sm#and also! those people who purposely stand on the side of the escalator that people walk up on and refuse to walk???? hate them too#i’ve missed so many trains because of them ಠ‿ಠ especially if they stop moving right at the end of the escalator (ʘ‿ʘ)#screw trains fr >:( buses are much better!! the air conditioning is better on buses too!!!!!!#life was much better in quarantine ngl. i could shut myself out from the outside world and just ✨thrive✨ in peace…#those overly-specific things in the dni list are all based on my family members and former acquaintances lmao#shoutout to my chopper-wielding border hopping grandpa and self-hammering grandma!!! i barely knew you guys!!!!#wait come to think of it… i have never really had a single conversation with any of my grandparents. whoops.#i don’t even know their names either… double whooooooops#and so that marks the end of my pointless rant for now. i could’ve just summed this up as ‘dni if you’re human’ tbh#i’ve even done like quite a few of these things on my own list do… dni: me??? (ʘ‿ʘ) if only that was possible aha…#…well i didn’t cry while watching dear layla. lol. that’s the one thing i can definitively say i didn’t and will never do—#inedible blubbering#sunday’s 🧂saltfest🧂
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cherrysnax · 1 year
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it’s probably just the depressions and the dissociative disorders but I often feel like I’m just possessing my own dead body
#i feel wrong. fake. gone. in a way that I can never explain#i few twisted like im watching someone just. wither away and I want to help them but it’s me#everything feels so heavy and so weird#and idk it’s like the small things#my lips seem to move different my eyes seems slightly too far apart#my reflection takes too long to change#just a second too long#am I losing my fucking mind#n of course this isn’t helped by the misfit toys#hm. that’s very specific wording that I personally don’t use#I’m not gonna dwell on it too much but I see u#either way#idk I just feel too long too short too unbaalanced#it may be the drink. I feel so much resentment for so many people rn it’s insane but but but the stuff I use to help w my bpd rlly works#just cause I feel like ass at one moment doesn’t my feelings r right n even if people constant treat me like SHIT it doesn’t actually mean#they treat me like shit I just perceive it#at least Chevys back home for another day. so many of those thoughts go away when they’re around#I just wish my brain knew it wasn’t like. always go time I want to be able to relax fr#esp since my ass does NOTHING IM JUST A SACK of shit or something idk#it’s 2am I have to be up at 8 lmaooo i fuckin hate it here. I’ve gathered that I’m just depressed and nothing is actually wrong#well I mean there is. I’m very mentally ill and am constantly surrounded by stressors so I’ll never really be able to heal until I leave#but besides that things r pretty okay :’) I will be okay#I thought abt my butch once and now I’m 60% less breakdowny I love lesbianism
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truly fitting re: billions to have the lose-lose that if winston is written out i get to be disappointed for obvious reasons and if winston isn't written out i get to be disappointed for being denied ever knowing peace
#winston billions#winston rotation is evidently not contingent on ''is there new & recent canon material''#taking it back to the original [showing up for season four] days like i got to be mad abt like what; having to wait until may & june???#having More to wait on at all???? like Win in theory absolutely. in practice like at least once a half yr i have to reckon w/mortality like#or even the [suppose i'm alive though] precarity of like ughhh if i can't Readily know Of new billions material?? gonna be so mad fr....#think winston's been treated as pretty disposable the whole time so if they just actually do kick him out ever it'd be perfectly in line...#annoying & disappointing too but that also applies re like. The Limits Re Approaching Your Autistic Character That You Could Easily Surpass#i Don't give billions a lot of benefit of the doubt regarding whether its writing sees winston so much more differently than characters do#however it does see him as a funny little guy who adds flair & flavor and will can so readily wrangle & crush even this material thrown out#talking to michael greif about it all again. an edit of him in that one deh video#just substitute in some ''taylor mason''s and ''scintillating dynamic'' and etc like yeah it all still applies so hard#Not Thrilled abt the plausibility they write him off early or sm shit but also just like sigh yeah they would. if i'd be upset abt it more#then i guess that's just something to find out if it happens lol. did some work on being deeply bothered out of the way back w/s5 even....#anyways i'm half sort of humorous abt all this half sort of serious all [humor isn't Unserious anyways. it's not not a framework that#allows for and is even all the more capacious for completely genuine matters] and the nuance & granularity betwixt them is a secret.#really what it is is simply I'm Having My Very Exact Experiences and the internal philosopher symposium has it all covered#like sighing & invariably facing disappointment from billions? regardless does not mean in general complaining abt billions lol#profound differences in complaining probably. got things covered like i'm Liking & [Smh]ing in my exact & thorough ways thank you#like the completely self contained [winston billions] times....#anyways it Will be more of a direct disappointment if he's banished in ep two or some shit of course.#just also as usual: it wouldn't be the middle of billions production / anticipating the next season if it didn't seem perfectly possible#at least by this point i'll upgrade expectations to ''yeah i don't think they'd simply write him off offscreen between seasons'' but eh.#that's still a ''Probably not'' scenario....but writing him out at all? giving it a generous 50/50
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magnoliamyrrh · 2 years
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#i really fucking hate how hard i was dissociating in class#and it happened before too when i wasnt on these meds yet#i wasn't even high.#i rly hate having to acknowledge that im like this. over and over again. that this is a reality#. and i hate having to acknowledge that im disabled in public#like im in pain in public. or occasionally limping. or needing to sit down. or looking half dead. or god worst of all being visibility#mentally ill that one makes me wanna dig myself into the dirt and never come out#i hate that im not all there. that i cant be no matter how hard i try. and then im in the middle of fucking class like#who am i?#im so used to it but its still so much to put up with all the goddd damn time and all the time having to pretend that im ok or sane or#remotely funcitoning and not lowkey having a flashback in the middle of fucking class for unknown reasons. while this brain works overtime#to mask it take it to the inner and shove someone else in the front#......... god this is why ive actually kinda enjoyed my self imposed period of solitude#and even so when my parents are sround i still have to do thst almost 24/7#like i just wanna be insane in peace fjkdd left in my own soup as we say in romanian.... it takes too much effort to mask with strangers#... idk it makes it hard too when i meet people in person sometimes? because the moment the conversation gets past casual its like...#i want to answer your questions. i do not want to lie. but i also dont particularly want to tell the truth... tho i am not fond of telling#half truths either#... this is why over the years ive prefered 2 places to meet people 1)tumblr 2)psych ward lmaoo but fr. its the same vibe#because in a ward people are at their realest. no bullshit. all vulnerability. some of the realest most genuine impactful connections ive#made w ppl have been in wards.... and. tumblr is the one place outside or wards lmao. or my own brain. where im..... where i dont mask#where i dont put an effort to mask#... so when ppl start talking to me on here (even tho im at times bad at replying sorry idk why its so hard for me i need to work on it)#its like. well. you already have likely known for months or years that im fucking insane so 🤷‍♀️#.......... i didnt used to be this anxious. and to be honest im not quite sure i seem anxious either because i have been told too often i#seem confident? charasmatic? self assured? bitch fucking where i feel like slippery cold noodles inside from anxiety#.... its partially that im not used to being around so many ppl anymore. its partially the more severe trust issues ive developed again as#of late... but at the same time probability my general fedupness thsts been brewing for 12 years with a lotta the culture here isnt helping#either... but... I also think ive just.... ive become incredibly incredibly frustrated with my mental and physical illnesses lately.. very#and their(my) limitations which i hate acknowledging. and all this fucking shame i got too over it. when i accepted it myself i did no care
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strawbebyjam · 5 months
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i wanna grow from it n be better n all that but like. the guilt <3
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screamingay · 8 months
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god that was an awful shift i hate how corporate let us hire more people and then as soon as we put them on the schedule they decided having one more minimum wage server per day (for first shift only!!!) was too much for The Budget. i had to bargain to get someone else to come in today and help me out and it was STILL hell.. rant incoming in the tags
#we're back to 2 ppl on first shift but the new guy cant actually handle floor or dishes on his own so it's basically 1 person#plus someone following behind them to help a bit#apparently they used to have disabled workers as 'interns' just gettimg unpaid experience which is awful but at least#it meant they could actually schedule 2 other people. but i guess they got shit for not paying disabled workers#which i get. but since this new guy makes minimum wage too it means they wont let us schedule another person for first shift#which we desperately need when it's just like. me and him. in an ideal world he would be paid and getting work experience and there would#still be enough people to do the job fully#also all morning i was so scared the safety inspector would pop in bc i was told he would be. so i double checked all the possible hazards#before we opened and he literally stepped into the dining room. took a picture of it on a digital camera. then left#he didnt even come in the kitchen!! christ#but i was still stressed after that and all through lunch bc now residents' families can come in and eat like they used to before covid#and we had 2 of them today and if we fuck it up for them they can complain to corporate and im not used to running a real restaurant!!#we have to act like it's a real restaurant even tho we arent given the same resources or allowances and it's so frustrating#tbh today wouldve been 10 times easier with any other cook bc we had the fucking worst one here today. she gets frustrated when anyone asks#her for anything and she goes on rants about how bad all the other cooks are and she puts WAY too much strain on the dishwasher#using unnecessary dishes and making them wash things she could just rinse herself in the back. AND she's always telling me how to do by job#my job#and what i should do differently! it's distracting!! and makes everything harder bc she will fr just make up rules and treat u like shit if#u ignore her and do it the easier or better way#her home life sucks and she takes it out on all of us all the time. get a divorce and move to the city like you really want#it'll make everyone so much happier#(including you)#i need a new job so bad i get paid nothing to do like 4 jobs at once and im always on a time crunch and it's been absolutely killing my bac#and shoulders and feet#and joie de vivre lmao#if i get a new reliable car soon i could probably make more driving for fucking grubhub#i didnt even eat at work today. almost 8 hours straight of running my ass around the kitchen in my Shoes For Crews black sneakers#and i ate literally One piece of french toast at the very beginning#plus i came in already sick of everything bc the stupid parking garage app i have to use now malfunctioned and wouldnt let me out#bc it didnt have my entrance to the garage last night logged for some reason
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swagging-back-to · 1 year
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also i have like two buckets full of stuff to put out next weekend for a yardsale. any profits I get will go towards buying weed <3
#and i bagged up some clothes too#i should really get rid of more clothes but i still struggle with the idea of "but what if xyz and then i have to beg for new clothes' from#when i was a kid even tho I'm able to go out and buy clothes whenever i want without asking anyone#and it's hard to have a minimal closet rn because the washingmachine (brand new) is already broken and not working right anymore#it never does a full load always leaving them soggy without spinning. right now it wont even fill the basin#literally wont even wet the clothes and then it's like 'lol I'm done'#makes me lose my fucking mind#the only possible way to bypass it is by putting in no more than FOUR CLOTHES at a time and putting it on the bedding setting#im soooo glad i dont pay the water bill#literally fucking ridiculous. and then you have to put those same four clothes in for 4 rounds of the washing machine cause they still have#stuff on em#like.#:))))))#this post was derailed hardcore#but no fr i finally got rid of so much shit that was just laying around taking up space. anything that i cant sell I'm just gonna throw awa#cause i need to downsize to move out#i even managed to downsize the number of boxes i already have filled with stuff. takes up easily half of what it used to.#im also gonna be getting rid of my mattresses soon and replacing them with a futon cause i like them better and it would take up less space#they technically arent even my mattresses in the first place & they suck. like sleeping on the floor. I'm buying a futon on Friday <3#is this what having your shit together feels like???
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