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Umda - Mighty Bend-A-Bots (Marty Toy / M-Toy)
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dokuntuler · 7 months
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30 umda ana oldum. İlk 29 yıl ne kadar özgürmüşüm ilk onu anladım.
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smyrna3 · 5 months
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Bazen adım adım bazen koşarak geçti 30 umda küçük çaplı kriz geçirsem de şimdi 33 sonuna gelirken bu yaşı çok sevdim daha kendimi bildim daha kabullendim daha duruldum daha çok coştum.24 ten tek beklentim gezmek çok mu mutluyum hayır ama huzurlumuyum evet.
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chandaurchahat · 8 months
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zindagi se mohabbat karna zindagi ne hi sikhaya, wo agar logon pe haal chord deti
toh tujhse yeh dillagi chord deti
jeene ka yeh aitbaar chord deti
iss ishq ki aas chord deti
main tera yeh umda haath chord deti
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arcane-ersana · 1 year
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Mere Maula Saath De
Mera Haath Thaam Le
Tera umda Mushkilon Mein Hai Ghira
Noor-e-azal Noor-e Khuda
Dono jahaano ki ziya
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ahlulbaytnetworks · 2 years
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Heartbreaking tears of prophet Adam (a) and the angel Gabriel for the sufferings of Imam Hussain (a)
It is narrated that prophet Adam (a) was very upset and sad after being expelled from Paradise. Out of remorse, he turned to God(Allah) and prayed until after a while God showed his mercy to him and through the angel Gabriel (a) taught him some words that by reciting them, Adam (a) had recourse to God and so his repentance was accepted.
“Adam was inspired by some words (of prayer) through which he received forgiveness from his Lord, for He is All-forgiving and All-merciful.” (1)
The Holy Prophet (s) was asked about the words, which Adam (a) was inspired by and made his repentance to be accepted. The Prophet (s) answered:
“Adam (a) prayed God by the right of those pure beings, so God accepted his repentance and forgave the sin he had committed.” (2) (3) (4) (5)
Also, in another narration in the book of Al-Durr al-Thamin, in the interpretation of the above verse, it is said that at that time, Adam (a) looked at the Foot of the Throne, in which the names of the Prophet (s) and the Imams (a) were written. Then the angel Gabriel was sent to him and dictated these words to him:
“O the Praised God, by the right of Muhammad (s), O Exalted, by the right of Ali (s), O Originator, by the right of Fatima (sa), O Beneficent, by the right of Hasan (s) and Hussain (s), from You is beneficence.”
So that through these words, prophet Adam (a) could be forgiven and his repentance be accepted.
When uttering these words, as soon as Adam (a) mentioned the name of Hussain (a), his heart broke and his eyes filled with tears and he said: “O my brother Gabriel! Why my heart breaks and my tears flow down when I mention the name of Hussain (a)?
The angel Gabriel said, Hussain (a) will be killed with thirsty lips while being leaved alone and helpless; if you see him that day, you will hear his call: “Alas for thirst! Alas for lack of helpers!”
Then, the angel Gabriel continued, “intensity of thirst makes the sky appear to him like smoke; no one answers him except by swords to kill him by cutting off his head like a sheep but from back of his neck, and they plunder everything he has from carpet and furniture and turn his head and his companions’ around the cities while the women of his house are passed by the heads…”
At this time, Gabriel (a) and Adam (a) cried like a woman whose son died for the sufferings of Hussain (a). (6)
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(1) The Qur’an, Surah Al-Baqarah, verse 37.
(2) Al-Saykh al-Saduq, Al-Amāli, p. 135.
(3) Al-Daylami, Hasan b. Abi al-Hasan, Irshad al-Qulub, vol. 2, p. 11, Qum: Sharif Razi Pub. 1412 AH.
(4) Al-Fattāl al-Nayshāburi, Muhammad b. Hasan, Rawdat al-Wa’idin, vol. 1, p. 157, Qum: Razi Pub. (Bita).
(5) Ibn Bitriq, Yahya b. Hasan al-Hilli, Al-‘Umda, p. 379, Qum: Jami’a al-Mudarrisin Pub. 1407 AH.
(6) Bihar al-Anwar, vol. 44, p. 245; al-Bahrani, Abdullah, Al-‘Awalim al-Imam al-Husayn (a), p. 104, Qum: Madrasa al-Imam al-Mahdi (ajl) Pub. 1st ed. 1407; Qummi, Shaykh Abbas, Nafas al-Mahmum, p. 70, translated by Muhammad Baqir Kamara’i (titled Dar Karbala Che Gozasht), Qum: Jamkaran Pub. 3rd ed. 1372 SH.
(*) Gham-nameh-ye Karbala, p. 14, Translated from: Al-Luhuf alā qatlā al-tufuf, Author: Sayyid b. Tawus, Translator: Muhammad Muhammadi Ishtihardi.
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babyawacs · 3 months
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#uminterpretierte #aeh #patina #stueckchen #so #ist #das #aber #nicht #wenn #die #gift #mischen @ausc hwitzmuseum .@israel .@auschwitzmuseum ihr macht das mit der #banalitaetdesboesen falsch schonseit wannsee vermutlich umdas abgrundtief monstroese mit dem sich damit arrang ierenzukontrastieren aber‎ das ‎ ‎ist nicht  was euch vernichtete‎ alles ist zutiefst monstroes gleichgeschaltet fies ziel orientiert ellenbogen leistungs abgerichtet funktional
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siddiqbabukhan · 5 months
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Qyamat k Din Bahut se Chahere Chamak Rahe Honge.Apne Nek Kaamo ki Wajhe se Khush Khush Honge.
Jannat me Aaram se Rahenge.Jannat me Koi Be Huda Baat Sunenge ko nahi milegi.
Jannat me Nahere Bahe Rahi Hongi.Onche Onche Takhato Par Baithe Honge.
Peene k Piyale Ek Tareqhe se Jame Honge.
Gaawo Takiyo ki Saff Hogi.
Umda Qhalin Biche Honge.
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Qyamat k Din Bahut se Chahere Chamak Rahe Honge.Apne Nek Kaamo ki Wajhe se Khush Khush Honge.
Jannat me Aaram se Rahenge.Jannat me Koi Be Huda Baat Sunenge ko nahi milegi.
Jannat me Nahere Bahe Rahi Hongi.Onche Onche Takhato Par Baithe Honge.
Peene k Piyale Ek Tareqhe se Jame Honge.
Gaawo Takiyo ki Saff Hogi.
Umda Qhalin Biche Honge.
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🍃🕊🍃 Traditions indicating 'good deeds' to mean Wilayat
🍃 Traditions that indicate ‘good deeds’ to mean the Wilayat of Ahlulbayt (pbbuta) and ‘evil’ indicates enmity towards them
First Verse:
مَنْ جَاءَ بِالْحَسَنَةِ فَلَهُ خَيْرٌ مِنْهَا وَهُمْ مِنْ فَزَعٍ يَوْمَئِذٍ آمِنُونَ وَمَنْ جَاءَ بِالسَّيِّئَةِ فَكُبَّتْ وُجُوهُهُمْ فِي النَّارِ هَلْ تُجْزَوْنَ إِلَّا مَا كُنتُمْ تَعْمَلُونَ.
“Whoever brings good, he shall have better than it; and they shall be secure from terror on the day. And whoever brings evil, these shall be thrown down on their faces into the fire; shall you be rewarded (for) aught except what you did?
Surah Naml
(89-90)
And said in another place:
مَنْ جَاءَ بِالْحَسَنَةِ فَلَهُ خَيْرٌ مِنْهَا وَمَنْ جَاءَ بِالسَّيِّئَةِ فَلَا يُجْزَى الَّذِينَ عَمِلُوا السَّيِّئَاتِ إِلَّا مَا كَانُوا يَعْمَلُونَ.
“Whoever brings good, he shall have better than it, and whoever brings evil, those who do evil shall not be rewarded (for) aught except what they did.”
Surah Qasas
(27:84)
The context of this verse is near to that of the earlier verse and Ibne Mahyar and Ibne Shahr Aashob have stated in Umda and Mustadrak from the Tafsir of Thalabi and from Hilya of Hafiz Abu Nuaim from Abdullah Jadni that Amirul Momineen (a.s.) said to him: Do you want that I should tell you what is that ‘Hasana’ (goodness) that a person will come with it on the day of Judgement, and will be safe from the difficulties and fear of that day and what is that evil with which when a person comes will directly go to Hell? He said: Yes, please tell us O Amirul Momineen (a.s.).
Ibne Mahyar has narrated another from Ammar Saabti through reliable chain of narrators. He said that Ibne Abi Yafoor asked Imam Sadiq (a.s.) the explanation of this verse. Imam replied that in this verse ‘hasana’ (good) is to recognize the Imam and his obedience is the obedience of Allah and in another tradition said that ‘hasana’ is the Wilayat of Imam Ali (a.s.).
It is also related from Imam Baqir (a.s.) through another reliable chain that ‘hasana’ is the Wilayat of Imam Ali (a.s.) and evil is the hatred and enmity towards Ali (a.s.).
Shaykh Tusi quotes Ammar Sabati in book Majalis from Imam Sadiq (a.s.) that he said: Allah does not accept the good deeds of a person who has acted by believing in a false and unjust Imam who is not appointed by Allah. Ibne Abi Yafoor said that Allah says:
Whoever brings good, he shall have better than it… (Surah Naml 27:89)
So how the good deeds will benefit him who has accepted the Wilayat of an unjust and false Imam? Imam replied: Do you know the ‘hasana’ which Allah has mentioned in this verse is the recognition (Ma’refat) and obeying of the Imam and the evil is to deny the Imam appointed by Allah. After that the Imam said: One who comes on the day of Judgement with the Wilayat of an unjust Imam, not appointed by Allah and denies the right of we, Ahlul Bayt (a.s.), Allah would send him directly to Hell.
Second Verse:
وَمَنْ يَقْتَرِفْ حَسَنَةً نَزِدْ لَهُ فِيهَا حُسْنًا.
...And whoever earns good, We give him more of good therein… (Surah Shuraa 42:23)
Thalabi and other commentators from the Shia and Ahle Sunnat have narrated from Imam Hasan and Ibne Abbas that ‘good’ refers to the love and Wilayat of Ahlul Bayt (a.s.). Shia and Sunni scholars have narrated that Imam Hasan (a.s.) signed a peace treaty with Muawiyah and recited a sermon in which he said: We are the Ahlul Bayt whose love is incumbent upon every Muslim. As Allah said:
قُلْ لَا أَسْأَلُكُمْ عَلَيْهِ أَجْرًا إِلَّا الْمَوَدَّةَ فِي الْقُرْبَى.
Say: I do not ask of you any reward for it but love for my near relatives… (Surah Shuraa 42:23)
And said:
…and whoever earns good, We give him more of good therein… (Surah Shuraa 42:23)
The ‘good’ is the love of us, Ahlul Bayt (a.s.).
Third Verse:
وَلَا تَسْتَوِي الْحَسَنَةُ وَلَا السَّيِّئَةُ.
And not alike are the good and the evil. (Surah Fussilat 41:34)
It is narrated from Imam Kazim (a.s.) that: We are the ‘good’ and Bani Umayyah are the ‘evil’, because Ahlul Bayt (a.s.) are the source of all goodness and Bani Umayyah are the source of all evils which never ends and which always continues.
It is mentioned in other traditions that ‘good’ means dissimulation (Taqaiyyah) and ‘evil’ means exposing the secrets of the Holy Imams (a.s.).
Fourth Verse:
فَأَمَّا مَنْ أَعْطَى وَاتَّقَى. وَصَدَّقَ بِالْحُسْنَى. فَسَنُيَسِّرُهُ لِلْيُسْرَى.
Then as for him who gives away and guards (against evil), and accepts the best. We will facilitate for him the easy end. (Surah Layl 92:5-7)
Commentators say that those who spend the wealth given by Allah in the way of Allah and keep away from disobeying Allah and verify the ‘good’, very soon We will arrange the means for him that give ease and peace so that they can enter the Paradise and those who are niggardly in the wealth given by Allah and instead of the bounties of Paradise is involved in worldly matters (desires) and falsifies the ‘good’ and it is finished, so for them will be created means of difficulties for them. It means that he would be put in Hell. It has come in many traditions that ‘good’ in both the places means the Wilayat of Ahlul Bayt (a.s.).
In the Tafsir of Ali Ibne Ibrahim, Basairud Darajat and Tawilul Aayaat there is a tradition from Imam Sadiq (a.s.) that he said in the explanation of this verse:
Then as for him who gives away…
That it means that the Khums (1/5) given to Aale Muhammad (a.s.) and: ‘and guards (against evil),’ that is to keep away from the Satans, the false and unjust Caliphs and from their love and friendship and ‘And accepts the best,’ that is the Wilayat and Imamate of the true Imams.
Thus: ‘We will facilitate for him the easy end’. So that such a person when intends to do a good deed would get it by the grace of Allah. And whosoever is niggardly and does not spend in the way of Allah and due to that he becomes needless from the friends of Allah, the true Imams, and does not refer to them for the acquisition of knowledge and ‘And rejects the best, 92:9’ and one who falsifies the true Imams; when such a person whenever he will intend to commit an evil bad deed, he will act on it very fast. And that person who is more pious will be soon taken away from Hell fire. The Imam said that pious denotes the Holy Prophet (S) and those who follows him absolutely in words and deeds.
الَّذِي يُؤْتِي مَالَهُ يَتَزَكَّى.
Who gives away his wealth, purifying himself… (Surah Layl 92:18)
It means the one who gives Zakat from his wealth or spends to purify his soul and not for showing-off or to make people aware of it. The Imam said that it refers Ali (a.s.) who gave Zakat while bowing down (Rukoo).
وَمَا لِأَحَدٍ عِنْدَهُ مِنْ نِعْمَةٍ تُجْزَى.
And no one has with him any boon for which he should be rewarded…(Surah Layl 92:19)
The Imam said that it denotes the Prophet (S) who has no obligation upon him whose recompense has to be given, but in fact his obligation is on the whole creation, which is forever.
Furat Ibne Ibrahim has narrated from Imam Sadiq (a.s.) on the verse:
وَكَذَّبَ بِالْحُسْنَى
And rejects the best… (Surah Layl 92:9)
That those who falsify and do not accept the Wilayat of Imam Ali (a.s.) ‘We will facilitate for him the difficult end.’ That is for them is the fire of Hell.
وَمَا لِأَحَدٍ عِنْدَهُ مِنْ نِعْمَةٍ تُجْزَى.
And his wealth will not avail him when he perishes. (Surah Layl 92:19)
Imam (a.s.) said that after death no deeds of his would benefit him.
إِنَّ عَلَيْنَا لَلْهُدَى.
Surely Ours is it to show the way…(Surah Layl 92:12)
The Imam said the recitation of Ahlul Bayt is in this way:
Surely Ali is to show the way…
It means Ali and His Mastership is guidance.
فَأَنْذَرْتُكُمْ نَارًا تَلَظَّى.
Therefore I warn you of the fire that flames… (Surah Layl 92:14)
The Imam said that it is means the fire of Qaem Aale Muhammad (a.s.) when he will reappear with a sword and kill 1999 people.
لَا يَصْلَاهَا إِلَّا الْأَشْقَى. الَّذِي كَذَّبَ وَتَوَلَّى.
None shall enter it but the unhappiest. Who gives the lie (to the truth) and turns (his) back. (Surah Layl 92:15-16)
Imam said that only those would be put in the fire of Qaem Aale Muhammad who are the most unjust, who deny the truth and turn away.
وَسَيُجَنَّبُهَا الْأَتْقَى. الَّذِي يُؤْتِي مَالَهُ يَتَزَكَّى.
And away from it shall be kept the one who guards most (against evil). Who gives away his wealth, purifying himself… (Surah Layl:17-18)
Imam (a.s.) said that a true believer who imparts knowledge to those deserving it would be kept away from that fire. It means that those pious believers would be safe who are bestowed with the knowledge of Qaem Aale Muhammad.
وَمَا لِأَحَدٍ عِنْدَهُ مِنْ نِعْمَةٍ تُجْزَى.
And no one has with him any boon for which he should be rewarded… (Surah Layl 92:19)
It means that whatever he does is for the pleasure of Allah.
وَلَسَوْفَ يَرْضَى.
And he shall soon be well-pleased. (Surah Layl 92:21)
Imam said that he will get so much rewards from Allah that he would be satisfied.
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dylanhitarucomix · 1 year
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aquí publicare algunos cómics de UMDA (Un Mundo De Animales) y de DJS (Dylan, Juan, Sebas)
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gunesmavimioldu · 1 year
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Hala haber bekliyorum senden..
Bu şarkılar şifa dualarım.. Bu şekilde başlıyor şarkımız.
Kırmızı boyalı duvarları olan büyük bir oda. Ve yaz akşamlarında gün batımları. Cama vuran kocaman meyvesiz bir ağaç dalı, tıkırtı sesleri çıkarıyor. Odanın kapısı kapalı. Sigara dumanı doldurmuş bütün odayı. Saçlarım sarı ve kıvırcık.
Nasıl canım çekiyorsa o anları tekrar yaşamayı kurtulamıyorum bir türlü odanın aurasından. Akşam evdeyiz ve kocaman bir sofrada hep birlikte güzel bir akşam yemeği. Sonrasında anne eli değmiş bir türk kahvesi, üçgen balkonda gün batımı izlemeli saatler. Elinde sallamaktan keyif aldığın tespihin. Diğer elinde sigaran. Bir şarkı gibi yükselen televizyon sesi. Betimlemem gerek ki unutmayayım. Hava o kadar sıcak ki - ben daha önce öyle sıcak görmedim. Üzerimde sarı - galiba - winnie baskılı t-shirt'üm.
Ben 19'umda bir an önce 30 olmak istedim. Şimdi 30'a 3 var. Hatta 2,5 sayılır. ve şu an hiç hiç istemiyorum. Sanıyordum ki hayatımın sonuna kadar o sofrada kalacağız. Ve ben hep orada duracağım. Hep o kadar sıcak olacak ki balkondan evlere giremeyeceğiz. Olmadı. Artık hep çok çok soğuk. Balkonda oturmaya ne hacet! Gerçi buz kessem de bazı geceler kendi evimin balkonunda oturup o günleri yad ediyorum. Tek başıma. Yuvarlak masasız. Ve gün batımı olmadan. Düşünmek bile bana huzur veriyor biliyor musun? Sanki o ana yeniden dönüyor gibiyim. Aklım hiç başka bir şey düşünmek istemiyor. Ya da kabul etmiyor. Aptallaştım iyi mi?
Olmayan yel değirmenlerine bakıyorum. Olmayan değil de aslında, bir zamanlar olan ve artık yerinde yeller esen. Bu durumun zorluğunu sana aktarmam mümkün değil. Ya da bir ba��kasına.
Şarkıda diyor ki " bir kaç gün içinde dön ne olur " keşke dönsen. Keşke gittiğin yerden dönülse.
Biliyor musun ? Bilmiyorsun. Mezar taşını yaptırıyoruz. Üzerine ne yazsak bilemedim. Babiş. Dünyanın en iyi kahramanı... Dünyanın en kültürlü adamı... Kızının babişi.. Ya böyle şeyler yazılmıyor değil mi mezar taşlarına. Oysa ne bileyim özgür olmalıyız bu konuda. Kalbimizden geçenleri kim ne der diye düşünmeden yazmalıyız. Belki küçücük sağ alt tarafa bir imza gibi babiş yazdırırım belli mi olur ? Bir kaç gün içinde dön ne olur..
Seni çok özledim ve aptal kafam bazen saliselik olaylarda senin olmayışını unutuyor. Telefona sarılıyorum. Sonra aklıma geliyor.
Mesela geçen gün öyle oldu. Haberleri izliyor musun gördün mü? diye aramak için telefonu elime aldım ki ben seni pek sık aramazdım ama içimden geldi. Sonra telefonu elime aldığımda aklıma geldi. 2 gün sonra 15 ay olacak ve ben hala sana bir şeyler anlatmak için seni arıyorum. Daha doğrusu aramaya çalışıyorum. Yalnızlık değil de başka bir şey bu. Seni kimseye anlatmak istemiyorum aslında. Yani böyle acıyorum şöyle kanıyorum böyle kötüyüm'den ziyade. " insan alışıyor bir hayli zaman geçti " diyerek sözü sonlandırıyorum. Ama geçmiyor ve insan alışmıyor. Belki çok çok seneler sonra alışacağım ama şu an kesinlikle değil. Ben hala alışamadım. Aslında kimse alışamadı da. Herkes alışmış gibi yapıyor galiba. Ama bir görsen beni. O kadar profesyonel bir şekilde hiçbir şeyim yokmuş gibicilik yapıyorum ki. Gerçekten hiçbir şeyim yokmuş gibi. Ama ne kaldı ki geriye? Ben kocaman bir sonsuz sevgi kaybettim. Sevgi giderse ne kalır ki geriye? Evet hepimizin sevdiği başka insanlar da var bu ayrı bir konu. Ama kimse kimsenin yerine geçemez ki. Yani kimse babiş olamaz ki. Sadece hareketler anımsatır bizlere. Aklımız oyunlar oynar. Zihin oyunları - ki bunlar yeri gelir çok tehlikeli olurlar. -
Ama seni çok seviyorum.
Yanımdayken de söyledim. Hala söylüyorum. Seni çok seviyorum. Bir de özlemek olmasa. Dünya daha yaşanabilir olur belki.. Şimdi gitmem gerek. Balkondan kalktım ve gideceğim. Merak etme gecenin bu yarısı tek başıma eve gitmeye korkmam çünkü arabayla geldim. ( hep bunu söylerdin her kalkışımda " korkmayacak mısın bu saatte eve yalnız gitmeye x-man gelseydi keşke. Gidince hemen anneni ara ) Hiç korkmadım sokaklarda gece yarısı araba kullanmaya. Gerçi yürüsem ondan da korkmazdım ya. Evet gidişim. Ahşap kapıya yönelip önümüzdeki hafta yine gelirim ile vedalaşmak..
Orda olsan da ben yine haftaya görüşürüz yine, haber ederim eve gidince desem.
Seni özledim babiş.
17/03/2023 17:47
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