HSG Update

HSG is done!! First it was not painful, I was nervous as hell thinking it was going to hurt, and honestly I didn’t feel anything. The worst part was him trying to get my cervix in the right spot and keeping my feet in the stirrup cause the thing kept moving. Now I wasn’t expecting him to tell me anything but he did which I’m glad for. My right tube was great, but my left tube was blocked. So I assume I will be needing surgery to open it up but I’m not 100% on that. I have a follow up with my regular OB in a couple of weeks and she will fill me in on next steps. I am absolutely relieved that they found something and it’s fixable. I was a little emotional about it but in a good way.

I got the baby it’s first thing today!!

I also talked with my stepmom last night and had her look at the baby photos of my possible donors and got her input on them. She told me to get them IQ tested cause that’s more important than looks lol.

I rescheduled with the fertility doctor too and will be seeing them May 16th! Very excited to get the ball rolling.

Well, the test was positive. Maybe the third time will be the charm?

“Difficult roads lead to beautiful destinations.” I see this picture in the bathroom of my fertility clinic and find it both odd and painfully cruel. You see, I don’t agree with it. I don’t think I needed to suffer in order to grow my family I don’t think there “was a reason” I had to have a miscarriage. Why did I need to go through a pain so unimaginably hard and isolating.

I hate when people call me strong because I am not. I don’t want to be strong and I hate that I just need to keep pushing; pushing through heartache year after year. The road to growing my family has hardened me and there are some days I wish I could go back. Go back to the innocence and overall joy that came with thinking of what my family would look like one day.

How I wish I could go back and remember what it felt like to not have to go in for weekly appointments, bloodwork, all for a chance at having a family. This summer was suppose to be different but instead I will spent my third summer seeking fertility treatment. Life has been incredibly cruel to me lately and today I am struggling to find the glass half full.

Hello Friends 💙

I'm Shay and I'm 20 ❤️

I made this blog to help me talk about my struggles whilst trying to conceive my second child with PCOS.

I was diagnosed when I was 16 and was warned I would have trouble conceiving children in the future, this devistated me because all I have ever wanted to be in with world is a mother.

When I was 19, I met my soulmate. And 2 months into our relationship we found out I was pregnant.

It was a complete accident but we were still over the moon and so excited to be parents. I loved being pregnant and I was very prepared to be a mum.

At 20 weeks, my waters broke. We were assured there was still a chance we could make it to viability but unfortunately 3 days later my sons cord fell through my cervix, which sealed our fate.

Our son, Aspyn, was born 3 days later at 21 weeks. He passed during birth.

TTC after losing a child is hard, but its a hell of a lot harder with PCOS. It's been 6 months since my son passed and I have only had 1 period in that time.

I'm here to lose some weight, impliment more positive changes for my body and kick PCOS's ass so my partner and I can finally give birth to a child who can cry when they're born.

Everything I do is with my son in my heart, he can never be replaced or forgotten 💙

I will do an amazing Fertility Conception Baby Reading Giving TTC Tips and Timeframes

i hate you birth control i hate you irregular periods i hate you insulin resistance i hate you pcos i hate you multiple miscarriage i hate you infertility i hate you pcos i hate you weight fluctuation i hate you metformin i hate you trying to conceive i hate you

Baby dust to everyone!

Who's in the tww with me? Let's pray this is our month 🌈

My Ectopic Pregnancy Story

Tw: pregnancy loss, trauma Today, August 1, is Ectopic Pregnancy Awareness Day. I haven’t told my story, but I know many of you who read my posts in October 2021, were astute enough to figure out something wasn’t right, or had your own miscarriages, or knew those who had and were able to guess at what I meant. I know many of you have secretly experienced pregnancy losses and haven’t known how to…

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CD1

I’m officially on CD1, I called and scheduled my HSG for next Friday. Let the nerves begin 😓

i suppose one should introduce themselves on a new blog.

so, my name is amélie and i’m trying to have a baby/to conceive in late 2023/early 2024.

the journey to getting where i’m currently at has been sprinkled with a lot of obstacles and self doubt but i’m glad to finally be here and start this journey.

i’ll be seeking to conceive through sperm donor IUI since i am a single lgbtq+ person who has a hard time with being in romantic relationships. but i so much still wish to have a family of my own and i’m tired of waiting (: technically this would be my second baby due to being pregnant once before when i was 19, but due to personal issues at the time was not able to carry to term.

i have my first appointment with my fertility clinic come march 1st and i couldn’t be anymore excited.

My period is 2 days late. I should have tested this morning but I'm too scared. I'm afraid it will be negative. I'm also afraid it will be positive. Both come with a lot of feelings and fears and anxiety. So instead I'm dragging my feet and convincing myself in my head I'm pregnant without any confirmation either way. Sounds about right. Ffs why do I do this to myself.

CD22 - 5DPO

No other god has taken as many Ls as the twins have in the entirety of the Riordanverse

TWW

OPK was positive this morning. My husband and I BD last night and plan to tonight and tomorrow as well. Hoping this is the cycle we get our rainbow. I'm cautiously optimistic that this will be our cycle.

Other thoughts on my mind are mostly around how stressful ttc is, not sure if this is the same for other couples, but it feels like my husband is just so laid back, not worried about anything, he's just so relaxed while I'm over here peeing in cups for ovulation tests, tracking BTT, buying special lubes and vitamins, and tracking my cycle.

How is this fair? lol the husband should have to do some of this, I know obviously they can't, but heck man, it would be nice if we could alternate taking OPK lol like why am I the one that has to pee on my fingers all the time. I tell you what by the time this is over, I'm going to have impeccable aim when it comes to peeing in a cup.