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Having a shitty day. Hope you're having a better day.

I am completely done with everything. I'm so tired of dealing with bullshit and lies. Now I'm on so many pills that I can't even think straight. I don't even know who I am anymore. My life is falling apart. I am falling apart. I just want to be alone and be done with it. I hate myself more than I'd like to admit. My brain is collapsing. I can barely concentrate at work. I just want to leave this life so badly. I don't know what to do anymore.

I feel so bad that the person you fell in love with isn't who I really am. You fell in love with someone you thought was charismatic and determined to achieve her goals. It's easy to pretend that you're always happy, even though you always brought that happiness out of me. But I can't hide who I am, and who I am is insecure, doubtful of my own abilities, and gives up before I even start. I wish that I could go back, and be my true self cause I feel like a fucking liar. But, then again, you may never have fallen in love with me in the first place. I do have big goals, I just have no faith in myself that I'll get there. I'm sorry I'm not who you think I am. I try so hard to be better, I try to take every opportunity available to me, I even take medications to try to stop my mind from being my own worst enemy. But, I just can't. I hope I don't scare you off.