#to ur fucking kids when they speak up about ur behavior
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uuuu. havent seen conscience of the king in a long time but i remember the episode being very good overall. but kirk hitting on a 19 year old is creepy as fuck right. like. thats not just me, right.
#TAKE IT WITH A GRAIN OF SALT BC I CANT TELL WHEN HES FLIRTING AND WHEN HE ISNT..??#i have autism unless hes straight up saying things like 'youre attractive' i couldnt tell#but the way he sits close to her and speaks in that soft voice. he should be about 33 when this takes place.....#babygirl thats not NORMAL#remember in the beginning of wrath of khan when he complained about having to work with children at the academy#and the children in question were u know like 20 year olds#at 34 (s2) i think theres a part where he refers to checkov as a kid or at least points out how young he is#lenore is NINETEEN YEARS OLD. he should NOT be HITTING on her!!!!!!!!! he KNOWS THAT!!!!!!!!#hope 2 god im reading this wrong.#this is why i hate the internet based idea that anyone over 18 is a fully grown adult#like no a 20 year old is not a responsible adult........#i know as a minor i dont have a lot to say in this but like. speak to anyone over 30 im begging you#ask them if they think a 22 year old is a fully grown realized adult. the answer is no#ur still in the fucking toddler years of adulthood u dont know wtf is going on...........#its like. obscenely young NO youre not a child and YES you ARE an adult#but like. ur not fully grown u cant be expected to see the world or reason the way a 40 year old would#this is why it saddens me to see like. 25 year olds worry about how theyre getting old#you arent old. youre REALLY YOUNG. also theres nothing WRONG with being old aging is a GIFT#anyway back 2 what i was talking about. just bc shes a legal adult doesnt mean kirk should be hitting on her. shes still just a kid#shes literally a teenager its in the name. nineteen....... plsss god let me be reading kirks behavior wrongggg PLEASE
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i love ur stories sm!!
could you do a jess mariano imagine where hes jealous but you two are only friends?
𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐋 𝐌𝐄 𝐖𝐄 𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍’𝐓
𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒 !
･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽
— pairings! jess mariano x gn! reader
— warnings! none
— word count! 1k
— authors note! i’ve had this request in my inbox for a hot minute SO IM SORRY!! if you keep up w my wp, you’d know that i haven’t been writing due to mental health reasons. but a little jess fluff genuinely is the best kinda medicine. so here’s jess getting jealous bc … JESS <3 if you can’t read luke’s parts in his voice then i don’t trust you :)
a seemingly perfect date, one filled with a drive to the next town over to a diner that wasn't luke's. according to your date he wanted to spice things up a bit. which seemed nice at first, until the date went south... and the ending became the positive note. your crush for the boy was lost somewhere between the disturbing topic of politics that he brought up at dinner — his facts were hardly anything near the definition, personal opinions clouding his judgment in the conversation — and the constant need for validation during the dinner.
if the man will scream if you don't call him cute every five minutes then he's probably not the one for you! on the drive home, however, he apologized for his behavior and seemingly changed for the better. you still couldn't get over his actions at the dinner date that made you wildly uncomfortable. which is why you asked him to walk you to luke's instead of your own home. you couldn't wait to tell jess, your best friend, all about the idiotic things the imbecile did.
so, ten til nine, you were walking the streets of stars hollow with the jock. he dropped his car at his house and promised to walk you to luke's. even though you could easily make the two block journey yourself.
a cooky grin on your face as you could hardly believe what he was saying. a one sided conversation full of thoughts that came off quite sociopathic made you nearly roll your eyes. he hadn't let you speak one word since about ten minutes outside of the hollow. starting on how good he did at the most recent football game... from the bench.
inside the blue painted walls done by the lorelai gilmore, jess mariano stood around tending to the late dinner crowd. his shift was nearly over considering his uncle ended his shifts at nine o'clock every evening now. since he was starting to fail literature, when it was quite literally his easiest and most passable subject. the dark haired boy coated a yawn before rubbing his eyes. his other hand held an empty plate that he handed to caesar.
his eyes began to wander in boredom, landing directly on something that had crossed his mind too many times tonight. you were stood with the absolute dumbass that was in your homeroom. a smile was presented on your face as he rambled on about something and glanced over at you. jess could feel a dark power coming over him, as if he was goddamn venom.
he didn't know why the thought of you smiling at another guy's words after spending the whole evening with him was so fucking irritating. but it truly was.
you were approaching his way, making your way slowly with the chad past the bookstore. jess's eyes were fixated enough to disassociate when luke slid the ketchup bottle to him, telling him to refill the one on the left table. it knocked into his hand making his eyes move away from you for a second to turn towards luke with a glare. "watch it!"
"just because you're a teenage boy doesn't mean you need to be all teenage boy on all of us. okay?" luke snapped making jess toss the dirty rag at his face, luke practically jumping at the kid in the process. it was lorelai gilmore that told him to stop while jess made his way over towards the empty table, filling the bottle with the red condiment.
it was safe to say his eyes trailed back to you. now stood outside the diner with the blonde haired boy. he could hardly get a good look before he felt something on his hand, looking down to see his own personal crime scene. a handful of ketchup, or blood. we shall never know.
"oh geez, jess. what the hell is wrong with you?" luke slapped his nephew's head as he made his way over towards the table, lorelai trailing like a puppy dog considering the man was carrying her coffee. "come aboard, we're expecting you, love-" the woman began to sing making jess give her a death defying look, opposing luke's confused one. "love boat!"
"what the hell are you-" luke stopped himself before turning towards his nephew who was still locked in his annoyed glare. "what the hell is she talking about?"
"luke, you dunce!" she slapped his arm before pointing him towards the window, where you and your loverboy stood. "sid wants his nancy."
"i repeat- what the hell is she talking about?" luke questioned the two as jess began to walk away from them only to be cornered by the couple. "beats me."
"jess is in love with y/n. hello." she sang all singy songy making the two cringe. "he's upset that his sweet girl is out with a pretty boy." lorelai's words finally began to click in luke's head as he felt a smirk appear on his lips before turning to look between you and jess. the look on jess's face practically gave it away as he once again tried to leave this very important discussion. only to get shoved back by the diner owner. "jessie's in love." luke smiled making lorelai clap her hands together with a smile.
"jesus christ," jess muttered under his breath as he glanced back at you, still stuck outside with the idiot. he grabbed a napkin and rubbed the sauce out of his palm. "poor jess is all jealous. you want me to make you some grilled cheese and tomato soup, get you some tissues, and you can watch harry met sally and cry?"
"okay-" jess pointed his now ketchup smelling finger in his uncle's chest. the beginning of his speech was quickly interrupted by a bouncing lorelai who was dancing her head around. "jessie has a crush." she sang quietly making him simply blink his eyes while his uncle joined in. "jessie has a crush-"
"aw jessie has a crush?" a all too familiar voice came from behind the two making the three turn their heads, being faced by the radiance of you. "oh jessie," you smiled making him awkwardly stand there. "nope, i'm surrounded by idiots."
"hey!" lorelai acted butthurt before luke guided her out of the way, offering you a small smile in the process. you were immediately directed toward your best friend who was looking anywhere but your face. "jess, do you have a crush?"
his silence stood around him before he grabbed your hand. "let's go upstairs. we're gonna go upstairs!"
"this conversation is not over!"
#gilmore girls#jess mariano x reader#teddypickerry#lorelai gilmore#jess mariano#rory gilmore#jess mariano x y/n#luke danes#jess mariano headcannons
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Haii hope all is well and you are healthy- I was wondering if you would like to do a headcanon on how gun or goo (or Jake n Samuel :3 which ever you prefer) would react to knowing/and/or finding out their s/o was abused? And maybe having to meet their abuser? If ur comfortable with that have a good day~
okay lowkey i was thinking all week about whether or not i wanted to to have this blog focus around strictly nsfw h0rny/simp/chaos vibes or be open to sfw/more emotionally heavy topics because i know a lot people are able to find comfort in it. and this is kind of helped make up my mind (not because it was a bad request or anything but simply because i have a hardest time being serious when it comes to these 2D men)
soooo we're gonna keep it sexy and lighthearted over here from now on.
HOWEVER, i will answer this since i never really stated what type of content i prefer to write. and just because you were really sweet uwu.
anywho, prologue over; i answer the ask is under the cut since this is a triggering topic.
[tw for lengthy discussion of abuse.]
first off, corporal punishment from parents and teachers was/is a normal thing in korea. it was only very recently that there was legislative ban on it. so with that in mind, depending on who your abuser was would have the most impact how each of these guys react.
all four of these guys have flaws that could easily be contributed to some sort emotional abuse in their formative years.
if i'm remembering correctly, samuel's childhood was tough mostly because other kids were picking on him for not having a dad but with the way his mom reacted to him asking about his dad, i feel like she would also contribute to the physical abuse (the short temper probably runs in the family) with that being said, i don't think he would be very sympathetic toward you because he's probably someone who's like "my shitty home life is what made me wanna go out and better myself and make money."
assuming that the two of you are in a romantic relationship when you mention that your ex was abusive to you, samuel would probably have hard time trying to comfort you or console you. he has a lot of issues and being in a situation like this is probably new and uncomfortable for him but he does listen to you talk about the issue. though he might not say much, i feel like he would make mental notes of what you say so he doesn't repeat those behaviors since those who have been abused in the past seem to be more prone to continuing the patterns of abuse when they aren't aware of or haven't processed how the abuse they experienced has affected them.
gun and goo would only be a smidge more sympathetic toward you if your parent was your abuser. both of them would share the attitude of "going through that made you stronger, right?" along with the fact they simply see physical abuse from parents as a cultural norm.
if your abuser was an ex...once again, i think gun and goo would be pretty like minded in this aspect. they would probably wanna kill your ex on sight... and it would be fun for them. listening to you speak about your abuse is where i think these two would differ. goo would find the serious conversation very unpleasant. he would listen to you because he cares but once you finish speaking, he would be quick to try and lighten the mood. on the other hand, gun would approach the topic with more logic and reasoning; maybe suggesting that you speak to a therapist rather than someone as fucked up as him.
out of the four, jake would be the most understanding and best at dealing with the issue but he's not perfect. plus the bar was basically on the ground with the other three tbh. jake is probably going to be the one who is the most comfortable talking about these matters and letting you cry on his shoulder if you need to since he can't offer any solid advice. talking about abuse from a parent with him would be at least a little comforting because he seems like he's matured enough to get a grasp of how his upbringing has impacted him. even though he's more sympathetic than the other three, when it comes to talking about abuse from parents he seems like his attitude toward it would be something like "yeah, it sucks that we had to be raised like that, huh?"
jake would have a harder time keeping his cool if he found out that your ex was your abuser though. seeing his mom not being treated the best probably affected him a lot and the idea of very intentionally harming someone you love is abhorrent to him.
anywhooo dear anon thank you for this thought provoking ask !!! 💓💓💓
to any of my dear followers reading this, if you're going through any type of issues, know that you don't have to go through it alone. im not a therapist or anything (yet?) but i am willing to listen to you vent if you need to. however i am best suited to just be someone to help cheer you up 💖
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i would love to know more about ur jjba ocs :D
‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ AN EXCUSE TO YAP . GODSPEED BELOVED CITIZEN. FOR SPACING I MAY HAVE TO DO A MULTI PART BUT I THINK ILL START WITH THE OGS. Honestly I wouldn’t mind an input about which one to clarify about,,,,, also Godspeed because you did this anon off which I could never be brave enough to do (positive) OKAY OKAY SO.
The Primary setting is Diamond Is Unbreakable. Featuring my favorite four gay college aged losers.
JOUJIROU HANABUSA is, quite obviously, yet another illegitimate child of a certain old man. 20 years old and studying to become essentially a professional bug researcher? She was actually made separate from the entire groups theming. She’s kindhearted and struggles to stand up for herself or take things serious, as she feels great remorse for who she was previous to college. She used to be a big hothead boy (‼️TRANSFEM BTW) who was the classic archetype of kid having a rough time at home (or at this case, lack thereof as she was in the foster system at a very small age) and took it out on other people. She struggles with feeling like she’s constantly left out or behind, which emphasizes itself when shit kicks into high gear in the story. (AU pictured briefly here where Joseph finds her at 11 and takes her to be apart of the family)
This kind of reputation proceeds her in the small town, and as such she’s become much more withdrawn and introverted. She left for a period of time as to help her adoptive father on business trips. After which, she came across her little half brother after he accidentally bumped into her while she was frozen looking at a millipede on a streetlight. They didn’t like eachother at first! But brother, once the moms found out it was OVER.
Her stand is The Seven Plagues of Egypt, a very odd place for a stand such as this! But that’s sort of her whole point, she’s sort of an echo of someone she never knew and the issues resulting sort of warping her life and behavior forever unintentionally. (Fun fact: she was 11 when the SDC arc happened!) her stand itself is disturbing and odd, manifesting itself not just out of the material it controls (locusts, fire, blood, etc etc) but also her own internal issues.
The stand itself is crazy, but it’s in the hands of a person who never wants to hurt anyone. Her favorite bugs are of course locusts, having certain earrings and a ponytail holder resembling the insect. It’s range is rather questionable, as Seven Plagues did fuck up— Y’know— Egypt. Or at least a wide range. I don’t have an exact number, as it’s very hard to pin down! She sees through the eyes of the locusts, and can pretty much go anywhere with it even though she can’t use her abilities through the bug outside of a certain radius.
Speaking of, as to how she takes damage— a lot of her stand is multiple organisms in hordes, and she often uses these creatures passively. Whether it be one or 30 all hidden around the room to listen and watch. They appear as small cuts on her body whenever they die, which is HIGHLY annoying for her. (and, newsflash: she DOES get headaches from being rattled around in a jar)
(AU pictured briefly here where Joseph finds her at 11 and takes her to be apart of the family part 2) I’ve tried drawing it only a handful of times once before, but I do struggle to capture it in a way I like. I have far better sketches I know I’ve deleted but can find! But I’d rather not accidentally delete all of this as I’m on mobile.
Her SCARRING is something very important, as it actually doesn’t come from her hurting herself! It’s a close call with Yoshikage Kira, and brother she FELL for that damsel in distress act he put up and he GOT her ass. Luckily he was on the run so she didn’t have to worry about any extra shit, but needless to say her persistent belief in the goodwill of others gets her in trouble. (I am totally certain this won’t happen a second time with a pink haired man who has some weird shit goin on)
This is the most RECENT but UNFINISHED mapping of her scars, body and shape. As you can tell I made the center of the blast sort of blister into a star mark. She gets more later, but as of right now we’re focused on part 4 Jouji. This obviously fucked her up big time, destroyed any feel in that side of her body and definitely needed several surgeries, medications and a cane. Her eye technically survived but it’s very piss poor vision on her other side.
She functions poorly in serious social situations, often opting to do bits or try to lighten up the mood. Though she can hold her own close range as well as a regular buff ass 6’6 woman can, she doesn’t often resort to that unless it’s protective. She at least knows how to try her best in situations where people need support or feel isolated, as she knows those kinds of feelings well and tries to befriend people through food and gifts. This is actually why all of her friends came not from college, but from the cafe Norman works at!
LASTLY, she warms up to her new dad rather quickly! She’s an adult, and she tries to reassure him he couldn’t have known she or her brother were born. (“Though, did you HAVE to cheat on your wife? I mean, thanks for the life and all…… but jeez, dude— TWICE? at your age? Damnn….”) she can’t help but wonder if somewhere in the back of his mind, he knows what her mom is like. who she is. She was left alone in Morioh at like 5, and doesn’t remember her twin brother. (And never learns of him until far, far, FAR later.) She just wants to know why she was left behind, and the only one to be. (It was the destructiveness of her stand, and for a assumedly standless mother— it was far too much to handle. So she took the other less exhausting son.)
Though…….. if she were smaller it would NOT be the case.
#oodles talks#oodles rambles#oc rambles#oc art#jojo oc#not tagging Diavolo here as I’d hate to clog up the tag and this ain’t about him#Yoshikage Kira too even though he’s more heavily mentioned.#jjba part 4 oc#jjba#oc#art#TO BE CONTINUED!!!!!!#sorry I put images in between blocks of text to break it up. it makes it easier to digest to me.#Jouji Hanabusa#also HOLLY I LOVE YOU HOLLY#I’ve drawn her like twice but girl I love you#that turquoise eye gene is PREVELENT#NEXT UP IS THE MOST NORMAL MAN EVER NORMAN LETS GO NORMAN#Joseph Joestar#<< yeah fuck it I’ll tag him
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Sevika x reader with BPD hc’s???? if ur comfortable,,.😭 I CANT FIND ANYTHING ANYYWHEREE I loved your hcs with autistic reader hdbjhfghg,, HOPE YOU R DOING WELL!!?🫶🏻
Thank you! I really needed this too
Warnings: This is not to romanticize BPD, toxic behavior, derealization, dissociation, etc. all of these are mentioned and talked about along with coping mechanisms. I tried to focus more on Sevika’s comfort because thats what I need rn
You and Sevika clicked instantly and it was perfect. She was perfect and could do no wrong. You’re immediately attached and idolizing her, wanting to spend every moment with her. There would be so much sex and your hands would always be on one another whenever you’re together, which is often.
Then one day you see her talking to someone else. It could be someone she works with or needs to give orders to, but insecurity floods your mind and you start thinking she’s replacing you. If she just so happened to be late to your date or the agreed upon meeting, you blow up at her. Accuse her of not caring about you, that she’s cruel and selfish and suddenly you can’t remember why you ever liked her in the first place. She’s hot headed and your arguments would always be disastrous.
Breaking up with Sevika when she doesn’t respond to you right away. You have a habit of cutting people off for small things because you’ve been hurt in the past and you can’t go through it again. Creating problems in your head after not speaking with her for a few hours and then convincing yourself to believe the narrative you came up with, which is that she’s mad at you, she’s with someone else, she wants to break up, etc.
When you’re upset and can’t think straight you say hurtful things. Overreacting over little incidents, but forgiving her quickly once you calm down.
Sevika would be angry. You tell her you’re done after she comes home late for the second time when she promised to be home early for your date. After enough of these fake breakups, she wouldn’t take you seriously. She’ll wait for you to calm down and then have a discussion with you.
The discussion would include how concerned she is for you, how she wants to make this work but she doesn’t like feeling toyed with and there needs to be a change. She knows how you work yourself up and come to her crying about something you’ve blown way out of proportion. It’s obvious that you’re hurting and once she realizes that your emotions come from a place of pain and trauma, she’ll have a more gentle approach.
She’d handle your fear of abandonment by being your own protector. When you want her to walk you some place or do something with you, she’d do everything in her power to make time or get a day off. Sevika would be wary of whoever you talk to or hang out with. You’ve already been hurt enough and she’d make sure they have no ill intent towards you or see you as someone who can just be disregarded. She will often get into verbal or physical disputes with people to keep you safe and make sure they know not to fuck you over.
Communication. She’s not great at it, but when you go back to her crying, she’ll try to be more understanding. It’s hard because she gets defensive. You constantly throw in her face how she doesn’t care about you which can be hurtful to her when she tries to do everything she can to show you love. It may not be conventional because of how she is, but to her it’s a big deal.
Derealization/dissociation. You zone out, feel detached from the world especially during fights or when you’re stressed. It would happen easily at the last drop. Sevika ingrains into your head that you’re to come to her when you’re feeling this way. If she’s asleep, wake her up. She’ll tell you about her childhood and the pranks she’d play on the enforcers, the kids she bullied, her favorite hobbies and games, and how she learned how to swindle grown men at cards. That’s if you need a distraction, but she has no problem with reassuring you that you’re okay, everything will be fine, it won’t last forever, and you don’t have to leave her arms until you feel better.
Having a bad memory because of it and losing gaps of time. Sevika carries around a notepad and pen with her for you to write down where you are, what you’re doing, or doodle an object in the room of her choice. Little things to get you thinking about where you are and what’s physically around you.
“Draw my strap.”
The notepad slaps against your thighs in exasperation as you look at her incredulously.
“You’re… joking? Right? Sev, it’s supposed to be an object in this room-“
Sevika’s widening smirk fills the gaps in your mind, her palm falling to her zipper and answering your already-solved question.
“Maybe it is in the room.”
“We’re in public, Sev.”
“And?” She looks at the drawn curtain pointedly from her lounging position on the couch. “C’mon. Draw me.”
Sevika would become well versed in grounding techniques that work for you. She’d carry gum or candy to give you, like a grandma. Whenever you start staring off into space or don’t respond quickly enough, she subtly goes through exercises to help you get your focus back. She’s still Sevika, so her methods may not be entirely doctor-approved. She places the cold metal of her hand into yours, gives you a strong sip of alcohol until you cough and sputter, blows smoke on you, maybe starts a bar fight to give you a distraction, especially when she tasks you with cleaning the blood from the crevices of her arm.
“Sevika, I hate those.” Your nose scrunches at the red and white candy dangerously close to your lips, her unyielding chest against your back preventing you from escaping.
All your girlfriend does is raise an eyebrow and inch the mint closer.
“Good girl.” She gives you a slap on the shoulder that rattles you, seemingly harsh to any passerby but she follows it with a deep massage that lessens the haze clouding your vision. “What do you feel?”
“The hard mint between my teeth. Your thigh between my legs- shut up, you asked. Your strong ass fingers digging a hole in my back.” A breath of smokey air rushes against your cheek as Sevika laughs and abandons her massage to pull you closer to her, your head under her chin.
“Good, baby. What do you taste?”
Sevika takes you to therapy appointments in Piltover that she pays top dollar for. To your surprise, she requests to sit in on some of them so she can learn more about ways to help you. Picture Sevika with reading glasses writing down techniques like the 5-senses one mentioned above. Telling you to shut up when you giggle at her, slapping your wandering foot away from her pen, poking your side when you zone out, making sure to write down any suggestions by the therapist and make you try them…
Always taking your side if you have a spat with someone. Even if it’s your fault. She knows you’ll come to your senses later, but you’re hers and she’ll defend you even if you committed mass murder in front of her
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Plz I love ur head canons and especially your Arthur and Caroline HC; he ain't the best dad (there is so much to unpack in how he failed her) but he would be a girl dad! In his head like Why yes my daughter is better than all of your children combined. He pretends otherwise but he's her number 1 enabler fr. Things definitely tank after the revolution but deep down part of him can't help but be proud even after he's been burned. Do you have any hot takes on them in the modern day?? I can't quite make out how things would work between them when they are on better terms in the present day
There is SO much to unpack in how he failed her, and there's also a whole added level of shit that wasn't actually even directly his fault. but yes, Arthur is absolutely a girl dad, so to speak, and he's been that way long before he even had his own children. (Side note, the best and kindest thing Arthur ever did for Caroline was not name her Æthelflæd because he definitely considered it.)
Arthur is absolutely Caroline's biggest enabler and he only gets worse over time tbh. prior to independence, Arthur was a big enabler in the sense that he indulged Caroline even far beyond what society would typically allow and he was pretty damn doting, but he was still also a bit of a disciplinarian; ie he really fostered Caroline's sense of ambition WAY too much and spoiled her to an extent, but he was also very good at enforcing limits when he wanted to. he spoiled and enabled her at home (ie the colonies and the British isles, not just their physical home) but the moment foreign politics or diplomacy entered the picture he became very, very strict. it's fine for her to be bossy and loud at Boston, but the moment they visit Paris, she better be on her best behavior- for which he has very high standards exactly because he's so proud of her.
as for the modern-day, this is actually where things get interesting because Arthur is a 'girl dad' with two daughters who are the oldest and youngest respectively and who have had completely polar opposite upbringings. Caroline and Eliza do not fucking like each other and it's very largely due to how Arthur raised them. while Arthur was the worst father to Caroline out of all his kids, he was the best father to Eliza; while Caroline was raised during an extremely tumultuous point in English history, Eliza was raised when Britain was the biggest empire on the planet; while Arthur is extremely cautious to not accidentally step on Caroline's toes (because he knows he was a shitty father), he can be somewhat overbearing to Eliza; Arthur raised Caroline as an only child, whereas Eliza was the youngest of three.
it's actually that last bit that ends up being the wildest part of the whole Kirkland dynamic because whether it's in international affairs or as members of the Kirkland family, Matthew, Jack, Eliza, and Arthur all do view each other as family first and foremost. they try to compartmentalize it when it comes to politics, but they're not really good at it >_> Caroline, on the other hand, only very rarely views any of them except Arthur as family members, and she's very good at putting those dynamics on the shelf when she wants, regardless of context, because she's been independent for so long. so you get a situation where you'd expect that Arthur, as the father of all the siblings and the former head of empire, would be the best to mediate both political and personal conflicts between Caroline and the others because, well, he's dad. but instead, he's actually the WORST positioned to mediate. because while Jack and Eliza (less often Matthew) are grumbling about Caroline being the favorite again, Arthur is trying to remind Caroline that her siblings view her as family and that the reason he is telling her that is to explain their behavior, not to guilt her. this only annoys the hell out of Caroline, since she can't understand why they can't just get over it and act like professionals.
anyway, combine two polar opposite daughters of a 'girl dad' Arthur and the fact that Caroline and Eliza aren't even on the same page regarding how they view each other, and the result you get is Arthur attempting to calm things down during the ANZUS nuclear spat and he just makes it 10x worse and also ends up with an ulcer.
#been awhile since I headcanoned and it's been even longer since you sent this ask#>_> sorry#kirkland brood#hetalia hcs#hetalia hc#myrdd's hcs#I'll try to remember to add tags later#I cut a lot of this answer out and it's still long lol#ask
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🎶💯💤🎄😖🎮 for any of ur little shits :3
they are little shits………my little shits 🫶
TW: obsessive behavior, a lil suggestive, and implications of trauma.
🎶 - what type of music does your oc like? do they listen to music very often?
Sam: weezer/the front bottoms….like. mentally ill homosexuality shit. yes he listens to this shit 24/7….(he j like me fr.)
Evelyn: Beethoven? i mean what else do British people listen to? IM PLAYING-uhh probably shit like the cardigans/cults. and yes, she listens to music when cleaning :)
Thomas: Nirvana/Radiohead. yeah. it’s sickening. no, he doesn’t listen to music often unless it’s on in a party……
Lucian: he listens to literally anything. he doesn’t care. i mean like he doesnt really wanna listen to WAP or something but-yeah no he listens to whatever’s on the radio (he’s fucking weird.) and he doesn’t go out of his way to listen to music.
💯 - share three random facts about your oc that others may not know.
Sam:
1. ALWAYS wants to be riley’s type. so whenever she was dating jordan, HE WOULD DRESS LIKE JORDAN. if he saw riley spare a glance over at some girl, HE WOULD DRESS LIKE THAT GIRL THE VERY NEXT DAY. in other words he has no sense of style himself.
2. he didn’t ALWAYS have his stutter. it developed by the time he was six. also it’s genetic, not any sort of brain trauma or anything - his dad had a stutter when he was young too, but went to speech therapy and eventually fixed it.
3. speaking of which HE DOES HAVE A DAD YALL!!! HE’S ALWAYS OVERSEAS FOR WORK!! VEGA DADDY FOR THE WIN!! and no he’s not abusive or anything either lmao he’s just a busy man.
Evelyn:
1. yes she lived in the UK up until she was fourteen. she’s sixteen now. so she’s only been in the USA for about two years and she regrets coming.
2. she lives with her uncle alfie after the passing of her parents. he’s very distant and barely associates himself with her, but makes sure she’s well taken care of before she turns eighteen and gains all the money her parents left behind. so yeah he’s aight ig
3. she’s very good at horseback riding. (she took lessons from the time she was a kid.) however, she never puts any of that talent to use considering she HATES TOUCHING ANIMALS so yeah that ended quick.
Thomas:
1. had a prosthetic arm (left side) since the time he was nine. how did he lose the first arm? that’s a good question you should ask him!! sometimes it’s because of self harm and losing all circulation after trying to commit, other times it’s because he was kidnapped and the joker himself sawed it off. (he will never tell anyone)
2. he has his own band and plays at parties sometimes. the cooler thing is that david nixon is the drum player even though he despises thomas <3 but a deal’s a deal right? also it works out in the end for both of them bc thomas gets all the chics after singing and david gets all the dudes after playing.
3. a bit of common knowledge but - he has three siblings. an older brother, a younger sister, and a little brother. he hates them all equally. however, they aren’t actually full siblings. they’re all half. Adrian (their father) had babies with FOUR DIFFERENT WOMEN!! role model, am i right? also thomas hates every member of his family lmao.
Lucian:
1. LUCIAN WILLIAMS HAS A TYPE!!! fluffy hair, freckles, a grunge/gothic style, and FUCKED UP TEETH!!!!! GAAAAH!!! both his exes had fucked up teeth (aka sophia had braces and david was missing a lot of his), and now his current boyfriend does. (bitch is a shark.) like shit. he loves those fucked up teeth. <3
2. he has tons of scars. like. tons. and you might be thinking TRAUMA!!!!! bc yes. trauma. however, a lot of them are from him being a dumbass as a kid. he would climb the top of a tree and fall off it. he would swing on his neighbor’s tire swing and fall into a pile of hoarded trash with glass in it. he would try to pull a root out of the concrete stairs and slice his shins after he fell. he is clumsy.
3. it’s time fess up….he’s not a total skinny legend no mo. he works out and is actually PRETTY BUILT. he ain’t got no six pack or nothing but he has nice ass triceps tbh……..and that’s on having an axe as a go-to weapon <3
💤 - is your oc a light sleeper or a heavy sleeper? how are their sleeping habits?
Sam: pretty light sleeper. he’ll wake up whenever he hears footsteps, or when his curtains blow in the wind, or when the fridge turns on. he usually peeks under his eyelashes and then just goes back to sleep.
Evelyn: light sleeper. any little noise makes her sit up and check her surroundings, even if it’s just her furnace turning on. she’s still half asleep when this happens though, so she goes back to sleep pretty easily too.
Thomas: DEEP FUCKING SLEEPER LMAO. you think he cares if there’s a nuclear war outside his window? bro as long as it don’t make one side of his pillow hot…
Lucian: deep sleeper when it comes to noise, light sleeper when it comes to any movement in the room. if anyone touches him, he’s up. if anyone applies pressure to the mattress, he’s up. if any footsteps are in the room, he’s up. you get the point. he will jerk awake if he feels someone else is there with him. (trauma) it’s not so easy for him to lay back down either. depending on what happened, he usually stays up for the rest of night. (this improves if kai’s sleeping with him bc he feels safe.)
🎄 - what’s your oc’s favorite holiday?
Sam: HALLOWEEN! 🎃
Evelyn: EASTER! 🐣
Thomas: HALLOWEEN! 👻
Lucian: CHRISTMAS! 🎄
😖 - is your oc an introvert, an extrovert, or an ambivert? do they let people in easily, or are they more reserved?
Sam: not even a question lmao. INTROVERT. and he does NOT let people in easily. only if it’s a pretty young woman named riley morg-
Evelyn: honestly i’d say she’s an ambivert solely because she doesn’t care about being out in public. (she cares about the GERMS.) she doesn’t avoid talking to anyone but she doesn’t go out of her WAY to do it either.
Thomas: EXTROVERT? HELLO? HE’S THE LIFE OF THE PARTY. Thomas knows everyone and their mamas atp. he’s so extroverted that he would commit a crime in the middle of the street and no one would give a fuck because he’s Thomas Hall. and if someone has a problem with him, they’ll just be gone in like 2.0 seconds lmao.
Lucian: this might be a shocker but…introvert. yes lucian is definitely an introvert. he avoids crowds, he doesn’t like talking in front of people, and he definitely doesn’t like people acknowledging him. when he doesn’t know someone, he’s not all bubbles and flowers like he is usually - he’s on high alert. Lucian only shows his true colors around his friends!!
🎮 - what are your oc’s favorite hobbies?
Sam: Reading, mostly. His favorite genre is romance and horror so he can take notes lmao……….
Evelyn: idk what British people do to pass the time…..JK!!! Evelyn loves crocheting and sewing, and designs clothes for her gf a lot <3
Thomas: this man is so talented and yet his favorite hobby is having sex 💀-no but seriously. he can play piano, guitar, and drums. he can sing. he can draw photo realism. he can skateboard. etc. etc. etc. and yet he spends all his free time partying………
Lucian: everyone knows he loves gardening, but he also likes skating and coloring too. :33
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jake “hangman” seresin + 12, 21, 22?
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omg nonnie hello !!! <3<3 i so so love my boy jake tysm for the ask !!! <3 TW for mentions of child abuse so pls skip if ur not down for that! also this might get long im so sorry 😭 i just have a lot of Thoughts ok 😭
12. what's a headcanon you have for this character?
i know this is like, decently universal, but there are different versions of it, so i would like to spit out my version with the precursor that i have read a lot of versions of jake's shitty childhood and they are ALL valid and i love them all in their own way so i don't mean this to sound like im tryinna say my headcanon is the only correct way or anything lol.
i do in fact think jake had a really shitty childhood (no surprises im sure). i think for me, it falls somewhere in the realm of overly-critical, under-affectionate, duty-based, act-perfect-for-the-public sort of behavior. the kind of parents who married and had kids out of obligation, bc Thats Just What You Do, but didn't really WANT kids, per se. i think jake has older sisters, and he is absolutely the youngest. he has youngest child syndrome So Bad. he was surprisingly straight-laced, and serious, because he had to be. it's what dear old mom and dad expected. straight As, no fucking around. better not get in trouble, and pay for it if you do.
i think the household might have been just a little bit ~physically abusive~. jake probably got the brunt of it- i think that seresin sr. probably grew bolder with time, and had more frustrations and expectations to push onto a son than onto his daughters. jake would've stood up, too, and lept in front of anything for his sisters, regardless of their age difference or the fact that they probably tried to do the same for him. it was CERTAINLY verbally abusive. nothing's ever good enough, why do you say things like that? don't speak to your father that way. i don't know what you want *me* to do about, if you treated your father with respect he would do the same for you. i think jake's mother sided with her husband often, which is complex, because seresin sr. is an emotionally abusive, uptight asshole, and she's under his thumb too, but she was probably complicit in plenty of it. it's easy to learn to perpetuate something you've known for most of your adult life. she probably married young, and she doesn't know relationships to look any different. it doesn't excuse her behavior, but it does explain.
he learned to do a lot for himself, to be competent in areas that children his age usually aren't. to cook for himself (and his sisters) because no one else was going to do it, some nights, and he was sick of living off of cereal. his sisters teach him how to cover a bruise with makeup one fateful night-before-picture-day, and they regret it later when it becomes an excuse, and jake is able to step in front of them despite their begging him not to, because it's ok, i can fix it before school (so not what they meant jake but ok).
jake probably knew javy in high school, and javy managed to pry jake out of his hardass asshole exterior, just a little. jake is an asshole, because he's learned it's the only way to get attention from his parents (and so what if it's negative attention? he doesn't know the difference). javy is the first person to give jake positive attention and jake doesn't know what to do with it or how to accept it. sometimes when the fighting is very bad at home, jake runs to javy's for a while, but he always goes back home to take his punishment sooner than javy or javy's parents would like, because he is afraid of leaving his sisters alone at home for too long with his parents.
eventually, tho, they are old enough to escape, and that means that jake is right on their heels. they check in as often as they can and things are the worst they've ever been for the years between his next oldest sister's departure and the day he turns 18. but when he does, he and javy enlist together. jake tells his parents, against his wishes. somehow it is another thing for his father to be angry about. his mother cries and cries, as if she's ever cared for his well-being before. for the first time, jake hits his father back. all the way to annapolis, he sports a black eye covered by makeup, and prays to the God of the church he was forced to attend in a suit acting presentable each sunday but does not believe in, that seresin sr. is not somewhere in texas right now talking to the police, ruining jake's chance at true freedom before it's even begun.
he must not be, because nothing ever comes of it. jake does not speak to his parents again.
if like all of this ends up in a fic in like idk 6 months or something. dont @ me. akdhfdjfghfjf it probably will even tho i have a wip list a mile long help aaaaaa
21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?
i have only (publicly) written for jake once, in the first half of chapter twenty-one of time takes no prisoners (you'll see), so that is my ticket to answering this lol. just know that i plan to write plenty for jake in the future, i am just swamped with mav dad and brad brad wips atm lol
i think my favorite thing about writing for jake is walking that exact line between being an absolute asshole and being a normal person, and the way that jake is somehow both entirely self aware of it, and entirely oblivious to it at the same time. the contrast between the things he thinks in his pov, and the things he says aloud, are also everything. his pov is one of my favorites in this fandom (tho ofc i have loved every pov i have written so far !!!) bc he's just so.... him. so much sharp and so much snark but so much heart too, if you can get to it. so much unresolved and unacknowledged childhood trauma manifesting all over the place. rip to jake but it's everything for me as the author lol.
one thing that sucks about this as the author tho is needing to BE these things on some level to write them. like im supposed to be witty and charming in this google doc rn ??????? say sike 😭 i spend a lot of time staring at an empty page when i get to jake's dialogue bc i can internal monologue all day long but when he has to be witty out loud its OVER for me lol
22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to ths character? Something you don't like?
I GUESS THIS SHOULD COME AS NO SURPRISE. but i love the mav-accidentally-adopting-jake-kind-of trope. it is like. my FAVORITE genre of jake fic. its so multi layered too, because mav has had this fractured relationship with bradley for so long and is still struggling to fix it with him, and now here's jake, and why is jake gravitating to mav so much???? mav just does whatever comes natural in the moment, and i think it's like. kind of part of it, in a way. not a big one, but i think mav gets to interact in this way with jake and gets to A. remember how to do it, and B. remind himself that he is capable. and C. i think jake reminds mav of himself at that age and he has some inherent instinct trying to stop the crash that he sees coming. the idea of jake never having been shown like, just regular kindness or understanding from a parental-coded individual and respecting mav a lot in his career, and then after the mission its awkward bc its like oh shit. this is roosters dad basically???? thats fucking weird. and the next thing you know you are hanging out with roosters dad on the weekends when rooster is deployed and you are not ?????? what is going ON. WHY does he speak nicely to me. why does he praise certain things that i do. why does he listen attentively to things that i say. why does he keep trying to hug me when i am leaving. what is this strange interaction.
that being said, i think we all agree jake has some kind of unresolved childhood trauma, and i LOVE to see him have to face it, but sometimes it can just... go too far. i think something i don't like seeing happen to jake in fic is if he kind of.... gets his sharp edges rounded down??? or like, his claws filed away??? jake is a fully grown adult man, who HAS parents out there somewhere in some worlds, or HAD them in others, and he is bold and brash and sharp and quick-tongued. it's easy to reduce him to kind of an extreme position emotionally, and don't get me wrong. i love to put my blorbos in extreme emotional situations. but idk. i think with jake especially its hard to imagine him in a soft situation, and we have a tenancy to warp his character, or make him too teary, too honest, too direct, too sad. for me i feel like the sweet spot is right in the middle, trying to make sure he stays a little depressed and a little angry with himself all the time and a lot disillusioned, while still staying flippant and charming and evasive. it's easy to bend the character to fit the situation instead of the situation to fit the character, but it's important, i feel, to try and do the latter and not the former, with any character, but especially jake, in this fandom.
THANK U SO MUCH FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO RAMBLE NONNIE......i hope u enjoyed and i didnt bore u too much akdhdjdhfjf. i love jake and i love u. that is all. 💕
#star unasks#Anonymous#top gun#i feel so bad tagging asks in the tag but im an idiot who made my only blog organizational tag the literal movie name#so theres rly no going back lol so sorry everyone in the tag welcome to my wall of text#THANK U SO MUCH ANON FOR THE ASK#I LOVE IT I HAD A LOT OF FUN GETTING TO ANSWER AND I LOVE TALKIN ABT JAKE SM OMG#i wanna write for himmmmmmmmm aaaaaaaaaaa#mine#if u see a fic with this exact premise of jakes childhood happen on ao3 assume its me lol skjdhjfhfjg#stars scribbles
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gordon: 1, 10, 14. tommy: 20, 48. benrey: 36
this is so so so fucking LONG IM SORRY i just got excited to talk so now i wont shut up. it will be readmore'd to save ur dash
gordon:
1) What does their bedroom look like? Like a shithole, mostly. All his life, its always been too cluttered with junk in a haphazard stack of piles. If he lives in one place too long, eventually every inch of wall space gets coatings of posters and papers and sticky notes. Its overwhelming visual stimulus.
Take his tendency for all those behaviors, and mix them with post-canon agoraphobia and depression, and the stacks of magazines and games get stacks of garbage on top. Door dashed takeout containers pile up, endless empty bottles of beer and bottom shelf vodka, bags get stacked in towers by the door for when he get brave enough to leave his apartment to sprint to the dumpsters (not nearly often enough).
The apartment he's currently is was only supposed to be short term, off site housing set up by Black Mesa before the new compound dorm/apartments were finished and he could move there. He at least started with a pretty clean apartment fresh from that move, so most of the current mess is honestly just nesting in depression trash now that his next move has been obliterated off the face of the earth. The only thing different about his bedroom vs the rest of the house is that's the room with the bed in it, a box spring and mattress directly on the floor, the frame leaning against a wall behind unpacked boxes, never assembled. Pull yourself together, man. (This will happen eventually at least)
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10) Neuroses? Do they recognize them as such? CHRIST hes got brain problems. He has had ADHD all of his life of course. Hes also has anxiety & depression, look at him. Hes aware of those at least. The one hes not aware of, at least preResCas, is bipolar disorder. ADHD was an easy diagnosis as a kid, visible from the outside. The anxiety & depression troughs are what made him seek out meds in college. But it can be hard to see the bipolar cycles from the inside, especially with the neat and easy depression diagnosis right there obscuring half of it. He just thinks every time he hits his unstoppable stride that hes 100% over his shit and hes gonna get better and hes fucking unkillable untouchable unstoppable.
And then he falls off a fucking cliff and he can look back and beat himself to shit that he should have known better, this happens every time and this time the hell is just gonna last forever as punishment. Repeat for a good decade of his life.
Post canon, add that agoraphobia mentioned before here, as well as a good dose of PTSD. Between being tracked by the military, every time hes seen the fucking sky for the duration of canon he will shortly have bullets or missiles raining down on him, and general paranoia that he is still a wanted man, 'going outside' is just too much. (He even states in canon that he has ptsd from the grenades and even soda cans look too similar and freak him out lol) I feel like he would also be very anxious about the dark after Black Mesa. He had been sleeping in random rooms still brightly lit, and the dark was always bad news with the most heavily damaged sections of the compound + he got his hand literally cut off in the dark. He has to go pussy mode and sleep with lights on or nightlights at least and he will beat himself up about being a child for it endlessly. Speaking of that incident again, grabbing or restraining his right arm will also send him into a meltdown. This is a fun fact that he will learn about only in the most embarrassing bedroom meltdown over toy handcuffs.
14) Physical abnormalities? (Both visible and not, including injuries/disabilities, long-term illnesses, food-intolerances, etc.) And on the non-mental end, theres the hand. Although reattached to his body, its still not perfect. Most days its not too bad, a bit slower and less sensitive. But sometimes it acts up, pins and needles, weird aches, grip strength weakness, a kind of lag in input that leaves him dropping things or breaking them. Particularly at night, it tends to hurt. Touching the skin around and on the reattachment scar really skeeves him out for a long while, the location of physical touch doesn't quite map with where his brain thinks it should be, like his nerve map is slightly to the left of where it all should be.
tommy:
20) Childhood illnesses? Any interesting stories behind them? Not an illness persay but it did take quite a while for him to get the autism diagnosis. A lot of the symptoms that stand out at weird in boychilds get glossed over in girlchild, not speaking is just 'being shy', the tiptoe walk is just 'high heels walking', etc. Especially as a girlchild in the foster care system. It wasn't until like, late middle school that was figured out when the social aspects and meltdowns made paying attention to the symptoms inevitable, looking back it was Very Obvious.
48) How do they express love? Certainly not verbally, lol. If we are going by the typical love language categories, its more on the 'quality time' side. He's the type to like parallel play type activities. There's also gifts, but its food gifts 90% of the time. Very good at memorizing people's preferred orders at any given restaurant or coffee place and will pick you up your favorite treat. :)
benrey:
36) What makes them feel guilty? Not gonna lie, he's very hard to make feel guilty on account that he doesn't view most of what he does as either wrong or at least not his fault. I think it takes up until the boss battle for him to even get he did something wrong and feel bad about it. Because it was unintended, there really wasn't any guilt for him. I think to make him feel guilt, whatever he does would have to have a very visible and understandable detriment to someone he cares about, and if you want him to feel guilty without telling him why he SHOULD be, his involvement better be obvious.
It seems funny, but i think he would have a lot more genuine guilt over something simple and cause/effect like knocking over and breaking a glass or eating someone else's food in the communal fridge as opposed to something more abstract, like someone getting hurt as a consequence of something else that he did but genuinely thought was harmless.
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i think the problem w society is that it's still seen like having kids is just what you do and the ultimate goal and purpose in life and you just do your best and thats it and when kids are a bit older they just have to have empathy and understand that parents are humans too and bla fucking bla this is all fine and dandy with parents that are generally fine but some parents are physically or emotionally abusive and can just fuck a person's life up so tremendously and definitively that they just shouldn't be awarded forgiveness like there's just absolutely no reason to!!!! and yes i can understand ur upbringing and why ur this fucked up that you did those things to me but you should have simply not had children!!! it's just that easy!!!!! it is absolutely not my fucking problem to forgive you you just fucked up and you could have just not done that and i simply refuse to show these people any empathy, like i will simply just not have children bc i know what i'm like and i couldn't imagine justifying my behavior to a human being that has to face a messed up existence just bc i wanted them to????? FOR WHAT OH MY GODDDDD
soooo real. u said it. i want to eat this ask and store it in my brain forever. like my dad has literally told me the only reason he and my mam had kids was because "that's what you were supposed to do after marriage." absolutely no forethought or consideration for the human person they were going to produce at the end of it - me and my siblings were a footnote on THEIR lives, nothing more. and he says this very matter-of-factly, as if it shouldn't upset me because they tried their best and did what they could.
i think parents collectively need to realize that by and large - their best is not good enough at all LOL. their best would've been making the conscious choice not to take on responsibility they were not equipped to handle! i genuinely don't think they cognitively realize that they they are not entitled to understanding, gratitude and forgiveness for raising (i.e damaging) a kid just because it was hard for them; when they fkn committed to that level of difficulty the moment they decided to get pregnant.
i'm sympathetic to my parents and their upbringing, i understand why they are the way they are and why they think the way they think (to an extent) but like u put it - it's also not my problem. and it doesn't change how fucked my life is because they made shitty decisions. you know? you definitely don't owe ur parents forgiveness or empathy or even the time of the day after a certain point either, if they really put you through some shit. i totally get it. also exactly! like it always baffles me to think about how EASY it is to not have kids (not for everyone, i know this is a tenuous conversation w a lot of moving variables, just generally speaking in the context of my own life.)
how EASY it is to not ruin somebody's existence just by choosing not to engage with the idea in the first place if ur current circumstances don't support the reality of parenthood. there's so much power in that, in having the self awareness to know you need to do the right thing and ppl just seem to bypass it completely bc they want a cute baby. that thing you said about having to justify ur harmful behaviour to a messed up child, who is only going through that pain because you wanted them here (yet can't provide them what they need!) really struck a chord with me.
that really is the bones of it huh. that's what most ppl have to live with during childhood, through no fault of their own too, and so the world is the way it is. run by the end result of that - emotionally stunted adults, at best. it's sad. anyway it feels like solace knowing other ppl feel this way too and im glad ur out there making smart choices and actually thinking things through lol. wishing you healing and peace x
#anon#sorry this got long. i had a lot 2 say as always. gemini girl#thingz...#long post#tw child abuse#tw abuse
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i'm so sorry you went through all of that i cant even imagine how traumatic this must be. i really hope that those 'nymphette' girls will finally realise how much harm they do by romanticising lolita, a story about abuse and pedophilia. i saw an underage girl complaining that she gets creepy old men in her imbox which is terrible obviously but her blog was full of sugar daddy posts, photos and gifs from lolita and that really weird soft porn of women dressed like kids and wearing pigtails if you know what i'm talking about, it's very repulsive. the older 'coquette nymphette' women are literally grooming girls to find those things desirable and romantic and its so gross. and obviously pedophiles are the most disgusting and terrible type people and i actually think that they deserve the death penalty but maybe don't post things that explicitly cather to them. our entire culture is based around pedophilic beauty standards, hence the shaving debate from earlier, it's so scary
again, i'm so sorry you went through all of that and even if it sounds like a cliche, you're so strong for recovering and continuing to live your life the girls and the gays love you <3
thank u babe ur so sweet <3 and yes ur so right its sick and sad. glamourising and romanticising that shit for young teenage girls to be seduced by is so sick bc it makes predatory men flock to them and puts them in a very uncomfortable position. the young girls think they will get a dreamy sophisticated young jeremy irons writing poems about them but as we adults know, thats not the case at all and thats just not reality, very very far from it. if these girls learned what these men are like in reality outside of their teenage fantasy they would get grossed out and creeped out immidiately and not want to seek it out. it fucks with a teenage girls brain to be fetishised purely bc of her age/being a teen like her self image will be very bad and she will put all her worth as a woman into her youth and it will cause her so much self esteem issues and anxiety. at least teens nowadays seem to be a bit more aware about this type of thing then our generation was and i see alot of them taking a stance against it and discourage it which im very happy about. say what u will about todays teenagers but they are very much more aware of predatory behavior now and are not as scared to speak up when they notice it which is so amazing and gives me hope
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Some day, we're going to have to talk about the toxic positivity in the swiftie fandom tbh. 2016 was 7 years ago, please grow up and realize treating taylor with kid gloves and glowing about her like she's perfect is so unhealthy for her and yall.
I'm seeing a lot of swifties have to manage their negative emotions that taylor makes them feel to "fit in" with the fandom and this is so fucking toxic to people just in general. Yall are doing to each other what yall did to taylor, which is demand she be happy all the time for you guys and willing to be around you all the time.
Idk yall, I'm seeing many swifties ask people not to attack them for critiquing taylor, I've seen people try and mitigate the harassment from other swifties they're gunna get for openly talking about how Taylor's capitalistic ways hurt them.
The eras tour marketing is not the first time that she has disappointed fans, the "unique" midnights recordings just happened a few months ago, why are yall paying for vip packages if yall aren't meeting taylor (to stand around in MERCH LINES earlier??? Are yall okay, seriously, ask yourself how much money you're spending on her and what ur getting out of it), working with a child rapist director (that convo got shut down because all her friends were doing it too! Which is not a defense but I digress), her working with Zoe Kravitz and Lena Dunham and Lana del ray gets swept under the rug, her working on a racist murderers film adaptation was ignored and celebrated, there is so much more that she's been doing recently since she turned 30 that are really just gross things to be doing and she deserves to see her fans angry at her, even yelling at her online, because that's the only way she will bother to café about this issues.
Like yall were laughing about her behavior at the grammys like it wasn't the most OUT OF TOUCH THING I've ever seen. Rolling your eyes at a BLACK MAN who is more culturally aware of the financial burden of his own fanbase than you???????????
And you get swifties who just lick her asshole all day long and call you entitled and rude because you're fucking angry at being used FOR MONEY when that has never been Taylor's branding. You act like the people who critique her branding and her actions not aligning are the ones in the wrong when product honesty is like the #1 that consumers look for in a product.
We buy into taylor the artist ourselves precisely because we are so aware of the way she markets herself being unique but we are very aware of the way we support other artists that are purely financial (beyonce, ed sheeran, louis are all artists that I'm well aware they're not in it for the fans, they're in it for either money, fame, or music is their life but taylor is STILL pushing this narrative on tour that she's alllll about the fans.... is she?)
Like, the eras tour is a money grab because tour is always a money grab but the marketing of this particular money grab is that ALL albums would be fairly represented. Did you forget all the setlists taylor Nation posted that included debut ???? And people were actually picking several songs for debut like cold as you was featured ???????? They put out album shirts, highlighting all albums, she talks about it being a journey through "17" years of music and each era, one at a time.
These are conflicting narratives when you don't put debut or speak now in the setlist.
It's just disrespectful. She asks us to be okay with a lot of stuff that she just ignores and doesn't apologize for because she doesn't care about our feelings, she cares only about the money.
And I wish she would just fucking SAY THAT instead pretending like she cares when she doesn't.
And I wish yall would stop attacking other swifties who are gunna expect things to be a certain way when the marketing is telling you that is the way it's gunna be.
For fucks sake, I wish yall got angrier at taylor more often.
#the only thing she understands is money#threatening to not support her music is the only way well be able to get her to acknowledge things#even the way she talks about ticketmaster like she didnt OPT INTO DYNAMIC PRICING HERSELF#makes me infuriated#taylor swift#swifties#the eras tour
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ok so. in my college au, theres no supernatural elements, yes? so ive been thinking abt ava n how in the shadow her being paralysed, alone, an orphan with poor caregivers is an integral part of her character. and i dont know how to incorporate smth similar in this au.
i’ve read abt conversion disorder. you can google it n have a better understanding but basically “Conversion disorder is a mental condition in which a person has blindness, paralysis, or other nervous system (neurologic) symptoms that cannot be explained by medical evaluation.”
“conversion disorder happens as a way for your brain to deal with emotional stress. It’s almost always triggered by upsetting situations and other mental disorders.” and “It also happens more often to people who have a history of emotional stress or who have a hard time talking about their feelings.”
the most common symptom is “the loss of one or more bodily functions. Examples include: Weakness or paralysis. Loss of balance or difficulty walking.” also: movements that you can’t control, tunnel vision or blindness, loss of smell or speech, numbness.
(this got long but this is useful for me n shit so yeah)
common signs: a debilitating symptom that begins suddenly, history of a psychological problem that gets better after the symptom appears, lack of concern that usually occurs with a severe symptom, they affect your movement or senses, and you can’t control them, hey can’t be explained by any other condition, medication, or behavior, they aren’t caused by another mental health problem, they cause stress in social and work settings.
“The physical symptoms are thought to be an attempt to resolve the conflict the person feels inside.”
here’s some examples (which i need a lot of cuz its kinda hard to understand all those medical terms n shit, from all the sites i’ve read on it): “For example, a woman who believes it is not acceptable to have violent feelings may suddenly feel numbness in her arms after becoming so angry that she wanted to hit someone. Instead of allowing herself to have violent thoughts about hitting someone, she experiences the physical symptom of numbness in her arms.” “For example, imagine taking a hard fall off your bike and then not being able to move your arm. But your arm isn’t injured. Neither is any other part of your body.Your body converted the emotional and psychological stress of your fall into the physical response of a paralyzed arm.” “Physical symptoms can sometimes help with an internal conflict. For example, if you’re struggling with the desire to hurt someone, conversion disorder may cause you to become paralyzed, making it impossible to act on that desire.”
now back to ava. it started to happen after the car accident that took her mom. because of how stressful it was, for weeks, ava was paralysed n doctors were confused cuz every test didnt show how the fuck that can happen. some episodes last days but sometimes its weeks, n they might be gone just as soon as they appeared.
lil 7 year old ava was terrified n it just kept being amplified everytime she thought it was getting better. her mom was dead. the doctors told her her dad wasn’t coming to pick her up which shocked her cuz she thought he was dead (very awkward for the doctors). both parents only children so no help there, grandparents either dead or in care homes.
then she gets send to the orphanage, all alone and confused since they were in Spain on vacation n now she doesnt understand anything. most workers n kids dont even speaking spanish since the orphanage specializes in misplaced children, so now shes learning english, n spanish, and she thinks shes still paralysed for weeks, months UNTIL. she makes a friend, a kid in another room who found out abt her n befriended her.
and ava only starts feeling better when this friend, diego, who’s such a sweet boy, but so sick he’s not gonna live that much longer, and he knows it, says “jsut because you cant move doesnt mean ur not fun!! i think ur cool, ava silva.” n ava moves. its a miracle, diego is an angel, ava is saved n all the kids are ecstatic, ava is crying in pure relief but also confusion because what???
doctors label it as a freak accident n dont want to think much of it since what does it matter, ava is just a girl. but the childcare workers now label ava as the attention seeker n never trust her abt anything. some older kids do it too, but most of them are agaisnt the ladies there out of principle n spite. still, it sucked, n now ava cant trust any adult to save her life n cant even trust her own body to work how its supposed to.
as she gets older she both gets better and worse? she definitely knows when and how to calm down, n the episodes go away if the main source of stress gets resolved, except for any stress caused by ptsd, which ava definitely has from yknow the fucking accident n her moms death. she also, however, has a very yolo mentality, n will get in trouble n in stressful situations most of the time. she’s a menace to herself, n it normally results in one or more limbs to go numb or paralyzed.
she was homeschooled tho, since it two maybe 2 years of her being bullied, picked on, critiqued, n having the overall stressful n horrible experience that is being a new kid in a new school after ur mom died, for the teachers to beg the childcare workers to keep her at home and safe so she stops showing all these upsetting symptoms. its freaking everyone out and it disrupts the class. so yh, ava was struggling.
when she turns 18 n ages out of the orphanage, she scrambles to find a job n a home n shit. father vincent, a local priest, helps her and shelters her. she shows her the beauty of religion n its practices n the glory of god, but ava is more fascinated by the art there. like sure shes seen movies n read things, but shes never stepped foot in a museum. in fact she didnt go out much just out of precaution n also cuz the ladies most of the time forbade her (if she got hurt they could come under fire n they didnt want that with her symptoms n their unpredictability)
vincent tries to teach ava all abt religion, meanwhile she’s studying the architecture, the paintings, the sculptures. vincent wanted a student, but he didnt have that in ava. so he decided to embrace that n help ava with this calling. its also vincent who tells ava to go to therapy n research abt her symptoms n possible disorder. ava does it more out of the fear vincent would get fed up with her not following his rules n getting kicked out for it. it actually helped tho, and she wont admit it to no one ever.
i rly like this hc for this au, since it stays true to the character while remaining realistic to our universe n world n shit. HOWEVER. if anyone who has this disorder wants to criticize anything ive written, pls dm me, ask me, whatever. im open for constructive criticism always!!
also this got long apologies
#warrior nun#warrior nun au#warrior nun college au#ava silva#oh hey im writing#i think its nice to have one of the main characters if not THE main character have a disorder like this#it impacts her life n her body but shes still positive n keeps on living. its also not the main focus of the story#but it is there n it is relevant to this version of this character so. yeah.
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Hey I was just wondering if you'd be up for giving us more of your opinion on what billy does to the dead cat in runaway max - I know you already briefly spoke about it on your post but I can't get it out of my head ngl, I know it's not canon but I just thought hearing a different response on it might help me process it (and I also know Ur oc is a little bit of an arsonist so I thought u might have smth interesting to say about it!)
oh man......... the Cat Thing™
yeah when it comes to the canonical nature of runaway max i’m torn because of the varying schools on how to engage with media. some will say it’s not in the primary text and thus any information in it doesn’t matter when analyzing the primary text. if it has things like more scenes of the hargrove-mayfield home life which is beneficial then that just speaks to a failure of the primary text that it need this secondary text most won’t even read to fill its holes. others will say that it’s a text put out by/with the approval of the same creative team as the primary text and thus should be treated as 100% canon as well. others will say that it’s more murky and you can be selective about its contents and how they mesh with the primary text, especially given how these tie ins aren’t always super good at lining up their events/timelines with the primary text. in the case of runaway max i can’t really decide were i stand and that struggle is in part because of the Cat Thing™.
for one thing i think it’s a move on the author to help with the vilification of billy so he really does feel like villain in max’s life. which i get and understand why she’d make that move, if billy does fucked up shit like this yeah, max is gonna be like “uhhhhhh NAH this guy SUCKS”. but i also think it feeds into some of my grievances with runaway max. mainly that it’s a book from max’s pov and she’s very actively trying to not think too deeply about billy’s abuse as it is and thus ignoring a lot of the “why”s of his behavior to begin with. which like.... idk it’s weird to both include it at times graphically, never really talk about it and then lean HARD into max talking about him as a monster and making him do some hardcore “wtf dude” shit like the Cat Thing™ and breaking nate’s arm. it’s like saying there’s a dog in the room and that the dog is important, then mentioning it like 3 times in the whole story and never in much depth.
and that’s not just bad because of billy centric reasons. it’s bad for developing max as well. neil is her step-dad. he’s married to her mom. the utter absence of neil and seeing/talking about how his actions and behavior effects max, her mom and the dynamics in family is insane. there’s SO LITTLE in the book of max just being like “man fuck neil”. it makes you think her and billy are the only people in their household.... until ofc the 1-3 scenes with neil or her mom come in. i think the lack of talking about the neil problem just in general in this book is a big issue. it’s something like a middle grade level book and you’re gonna????? bring up child abuse??????? but not try and do something there for the kiddies to either help them Get how at the end of the day, the Bad Dad is the problem? this book is actually in the category of books (read: children to teen books) where i actually do feel you have to teach messages and shit. especially around things like abuse. so the general handling of the hargrove-mayfield kids just doesn’t work for me. max isn’t getting beat sure-- but you can’t tell me she’s not also dealing with some kind of abuse from neil. even if it’s just how controlling he is, that’s still abuse bruh.
the thing about the Cat Thing™ is that there are links between arson/fire starting and abuse. children who experience abuse are more likely to use arson/fire starting as an outlet for their feelings, a cry for help, as something they can control or because of difficulty with impulse control. so that aspect of it really doesn’t shock me.
Even without abuse factoring in teens-- especially teen boys-- are just more prone to do shit that makes you go “what the fuck”. Largely because they’re lacking in impulse control and critical thinking-- those parts of the brain are developing as we speak. Billy’s 17 when he does that. Taking it with everything else going on in his life it’s still a real “what the fuck dude” but also kinda tracks. he’s trapped in a small area around his house bc he lost car rights, he’s dealing with this whole unwanted new family thing, his dad is abusive on the reg and max frequently stands up to him which just eggs him on honestly. like i don’t think she should just cow tow to him but like kdljgsdfgdon’t be shocked when he then goes up to 11 just to “win” because he KNOWS she won’t challenge him on that level.
the Cat Thing™ is written to be disturbing but not go into full blown animal abuse/“serial killer warning signs” territory which is both why it’s effective but also frustrating. animal abuse in children/adolescents is a well known sign of psychopathy. implying it or whatever like she does here puts that vibe/stigma on the character but keeps it more pg. but billy’s not a psychopath, he’s not a serial killer. he’s not even really that much a sadist when you look at him next to the real actual sadists out there. we canonically see his reaction to hurting and killing people in s3-- it leaves him a sobbing mess begging for help. he was not into that shit he was being made to do at all.
abuse, especially abuse like the shit neil does that also encourages a very aggressive, violent mentality can turn your natural impulses and reactions up to 11 in all the worst ways. He’s 17, he’s already impulsive and reckless and likely to do something messed up with a dead animal just to mess with his friend and little sister. but how he’s been raised and his current house arrest are aggravating that impulse. then add in the commentary and requests to not do it from max and sid (and let’s also remember sid who REALLY doesn’t want him to do it got an A on a paper about viking funeral that billy got a D on and was thus beaten for) just tips him over the edge. because like he told steve, no one tells him what to do. which is ironic since he’s only there bc neil told him to go look for max. but he can’t stand up to neil, but he can stand up to steve/sid/max/etc so you KNOW he’s gonna go HARD when he gets the chance to assert any control back over his own life.
but that’s how it works. it’s a cocktail of poor impulse control, a propensity for aggression, bitterness, an increased likelihood for arson and wanting to “win” for once. that’s why he did it and that’s why he’s satisfied when it was done. he did it, no one stopped him, he got some catharsis out of the act of setting a fire and he got to be vindicated/get the last word over sid and max-- two of the only people he theoretically can have “dominance” over in his life. thus he has reasserted control over some aspect of his life via the methods he’s been taught (fear and violence) and released some pent up emotional distress. it’s not pretty and i’ve still got a LOT of mixed feelings over it but dfkljs that’s the work i’ve done to try and deal with it myself.
#answered#do i put this in the tags or fdklghkfdjlsghjdss#animal abuse tw#i mean the cat's dead but ksdfjghfjklsd STILL#for the sake of others
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normalize not blaming ccs for everything their fanbase does esp if their fanbase is batshit crazy
#sorry this is a slight indirect#i saw something and was inspired to rant about it#if u are that acc then pls know this is no shade to you im just expressing my opinions about the matter her in the tags#i understand that ccs have sway over their audience but that doesn’t mean they need to be responsible for everything their fanbase does#case in point: dream and sapnap making gnf gf jokes#sure both may know the obsessive nature of their fanbase and they could have done more to control the situation#but seriously who the fuck hears ‘gnf has a gf lol’ and then decides to track her down and find out everything about her#that’s unhealthy weird behavior that should be called out#if someone decides to stalk someone just bc dream and sapnap mentioned her on stream how is that their fault and not the person’s#idc if their minors everyone fucking knows hate and stalking is bad#if they don’t then take away their fucking internet they don’t deserve it#dream and sapnap should speak up true but the fans are still 90% to blame#i’ve just never gotten the mentality of blaming streamers for their audience’s actions that haven’t been the result of like a direct call#to action#it’s so stupid#you have control over ur own actions why are you shifting the blame on to someone else#i remember when similar discourse arose with sapnap and streaming late hours which was like bad for kids or smth 😭#like u dumb fuck sapnap didn’t hold u gunpoint and force u to watch his streams lol
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Dancing Days - Edward Cullen x Reader Smut
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19&24 on edward smut? love ur writing!
A/N: Thank you so much :) also I’m so happy everyone is h*rny for Eddy. I decided I want to explore more period times with Edward, changing his persona in a certain decade, but still ultimately being in the same universe as cannon. This will play into the readers character a tad bit.
WARNINGS: 18+ CONTENT, SWEARING, S*X, VAMPIRES, ORAL SEX (MALE RECIEVING), VIRGIN! EDWARD, NON VIRGIN READER, GENDER NEUTURAL READER, MENTIONS OF WAR AND DEATH.
19: “Fuck me like you want people to know”.
24. “Thing is, I’m a virgin”.
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I brushed my hair into its usual part, making sure I looked flawless. The year was 1976, I was a senior in Highschool. It was a wonderful time to be a teenager, no longer afraid that my friends would die in Vietnam. Even in my dinky little Washington town, the culture was becoming our own.
The Led Zeppelin record playing on my record player stopped suddenly, alerting me that I was no longer alone in my room. I turned, my expression soft as I saw my boyfriend, Edward.
“Whats up with you and this album? Everytime I come in, its always House of Th Holy on repeat.” I rolled my eyes, lifted the record in question off of the tray, and put it back snuggly in its case.
“I can’t help it, Ed. Robert just speaks to me. I’m sure you’re like that with Louis Armstrong.” I waved my hand, walking back to my mirror to finish getting ready.
“Maybe, but the music you listen to it’s...” Edward paused for a moment, sitting on my bed. “It’s suggestive, Y/N.” I turned to him, my eyebrow raised.
“Suggestive? What’s that supposed to mean?” I placed my hands on my hips, and waited for him to explain.
“Well, for one that one song says ‘Sipping booze’, I quite think that is blatant alcohol reference.” I looked at him, dumbfounded. Then, I started to laugh, and I walked over to him. Instinctually, he pushed his head into my chest, enjoying the comfort it brought him.
“I love you, but god are we from two different Mars.” He chuckled, sending a rumble through my chest.
At school, I was an average kid. Fair grades, many friends, many ex friends. When Edward was paired up with me in math, I got through his cold, stone skin. At first, he was annoyed when I would fuck off, leaving him to do the work himself. Understandable, and once I realized how rude I was, I stopped. I talked to him, prodded him truthfully. I would ask him once we started dating if he had noticed me previously, because I had never noticed him.
“Yes, I noticed that you were the only one who didn’t acknowledge me. Ironic I guess.”
A year into our relationship, I would never let him go unnoticed. We walked the halls, hand in hand. Our outlooks were so different when it came to life. He was modest, I was free spirited. Edward was different from my boyfriends previously, I didn’t want to fuck things up, and I refused to even risk it.
School went slowly that day, possibly because my head was focused on what I would ask Edward, my boyfriend of one year, about sex. About us and sex.
I hadn’t told him that I wasn’t a virgin, I was worried he would only want a virgin girl, after all they can never look at you disappointed and say “I’ve had better.” A definite plus. Many a nights I tried to imagine him, moaning completely under my control. I wanted him, but I didn’t know if he wanted me. Surely in 50 years he had found a good fuck. I worried that he would be into someone else, forever tied to a vampiress.
The end of the school day couldn’t have come sooner, my anxiety rising as I got into Edwards car, starting a long silent car ride. I tried to keep my mind off of it, an attempt to avoid the conversation until we were at my house. I kept my mind busy with the lush scenery outside of the passenger side window.
“So... I know you want to ask me, and I know the answers to what I would ask you.” He said blatantly, putting the car in park outside my front lawn.
“I don’t wanna talk out here Ed, lets go inside.” I swung my bag onto my shoulder. Thats the thing with Edward, I never have to say anything, just as long as I think it.
My house was empty, making it easy for Edward to follow me upstairs to my room. I shut my door behind us, then turned to him. Unsure of what to say, I breathed in deeply.
“How long have you known that I wasn’t...you know?” He smiled, sitting on my plush navy sheets.
“Y/N, I knew before I met you what I was getting into. Your ex had a lot of thoughts about that one night where you guys-”
“Oh my god okay ew.” A blush rose upon my face, and I saw Edward laugh as he watched my body fill with embarassment. “Well why didn’t you say something?” I asked.
“I figured if it needed to be brought up, it would be. You and I aren’t exactly a physical couple so I didn’t worry too much.” I walked over to my bed, taking a seat next to him.
“I see...I mean it wouldn’t be a big deal for me so if you want to...” I bit my lip at him, his gaze turned to the other direction.
“Thing is, I’m a virgin.” My expression went from a seductive look, to a puzzled one. I wondered if I had heard him correctly. “I’m old school, Y/N. It wasn’t like how it is now when I was human. People didn’t just have sex in highschool, unless they were married because the man was off to war. So, it hasn’t been on the menu for me. You’re the first girl I’ve dated in fifty years, you know. And no, there was no vampiress or anything.” I smiled.
“Well, I don’t wanna scare you or push it or anything. It’s just you know-”
“You want to touch me, to be touched by me.” his eyes trailed back to mine, looking deep into my soul.
“Yes, I want you, Edward.” I pressed my lips to his, pulling away jut as it got intense. I could feel his disappointment. “I want to...but I can’t let you down. Tomorrow night. I’ll call you and we can talk about everything we want out of it, I’ll give you a fucking fairytale, my love” I chuckled.
I called him that night as I had said I would. We talked about my first time, and everything I liked, followed by what he had seen on video, what he wanted to try, and his fears.
“I don’t want to kill you, darling.” He said.
“Then don’t. I won’t let you.” He laughed at me, enjoying my lack of seriousness.
The next night rolled along with a quick pace. I looked at the clock and saw that it was time for me to start getting ready.
I made myself look simple, a small bit of makeup and hair product, but otherwise just a tank top and jeans. Sometimes, dating an old fashioned guy was a pain in the ass. Always complaining about suggestive behavior. But other times, my shoulders counted as being half nude.
“You look stunning, as per usual.” Edward said, stepping into my room. He was tense and barely moved. “I don’t know what to do..what usually happens with it if I’m not the one doing everything.”
If he had any blood flow, he would have been blushing right about then.
“We don’t have to do anything you know. We can just lay down and watch a movie if you want to, I just want to make you happy, Edward.” I walked over to him and put a strand of his messy auburn hair behind his ear. Without hesitation, he pressed his forehead to mine.
“I want to, thats the part that’s been eating me away ever since I met you. I want to make you feel good, I just don’t know if I’ll lose it and-“ I cut him off with a kiss.
“Even if you break my pelvis into pieces, I’ll still be happy. I’m always happy when I’m with you.” we both smiled, and suddenly the thick tension that once filled the room vanished. “I’ll take care of you tonight, just as long as you’re doing it for you. I just need to know you’re doing this for you, and you need to be sure you wont roll over afterwards and hate me.” I said, my hand clasped in his marble one.
“I want you, Y/N. I have no doubts that I’ll want you afterwards, too.”
I pushed his head down, level to my own. Our kiss was deep, filled with a years worth of hunger. My hands tugged on his hair, making him whimper. Suddenly, I felt my feet lift off the ground as Edward carried me to my bed. With a soft thump, the plush sheets surrounded my body. It was a contrast of warmth on my back, and Edwards cool body on my top.
His hands were balled into fists, clutching my duvet as if his life depended on it. I pulled away, panting for air.
“Sorry, I forget you need air.” He smirked. I rolled my eyes in response.
“Well, its a shame you don’t. Because I intend on taking your breath away.” we both made small laughs at my remark.
“What now?” He looked at me for guidance.
“Get on your back.” I said.
We switched positions, he was now on the bottom. My legs straddled his torso, I sight he visably enjoyed. I slithered my hands up to his head, cupping his face as I kissed him again. My left hand left its post, reaching down to the buttons on his shirt.
I paused, looking up at him once I got to the last button.
“Does it...work like normal or...” He threw his head back and laughed.
“It doesn’t have spikes, I can assure you its just like a humans. But Emmet did tell me to pull out so...I’m kind of worried about the implications of that but-“ I leaned down to shut him up with a kiss.
His hands were still at his side, resting on the bed. I picked up his wrists, and placed them on the side of my thighs. He squeezed them lightly.
My hands roamed over his bare chest, cool to the touch. I lached my lips onto his neck, causing his back to arch below me. I could feel his excitement beneath me, it gave me a big self esteem boost. His hand reached along my waist, tugging at my shirt. His eyes lit up at the sight of my bare chest. He reached for me but I pulled away to slide down onto my knees.
He looked confused, like I had left him high and dry.
“Sit on the edge.” I said softly, my knees burning slightly due to the rough carpet underneath them.
He rid himself of the unbottoned shirt, slidding over to me once finished. My hands slowly stroked his thighs, he was desperate for some type of touch.
I smiled, tugging on his belt until it came undone. He stayed silent, looking at me like I was the only thing in the world. I unbottoned the trousers, tugging on them. He kicked them off and was left in his breifs.
“Is it okay if I..” I looked up at him and he nodded frantically. I palmed him over his underwear, feeling how hard he had gotten from kissing. My fingers latched onto the waist band, pulling them down to reveal a pale yet pink cock. It wasn’t too big, but deffinitley satisfactory. I ran my finger over the tip, earning a small groan from the vampire. My eyes trailed up to him, so I could see him when I took him in my mouth.
He let out a breathy moan, eyes focused on my mouth. His lips were parted ever so slightly. I bobbed my head, and grotesquely sexual sounds arose from my throat. I felt Edward move a strant of hair out of my face, he looked at me like I was a god.
“Fuck..Y/N if you keep doing that there wont be anything for you, dear” He said in a breathy moan. I pulled back, my mouth feeling sore and tired. “Do you still want to?” He asked, grasping his hands on my waist.
“Yes, I fucking need you.” I threw off my jeans, I would worry about finding them later, I needed him. He layed back down, propping his head up on my pillows. Our lips collided in another kiss as I leveled myself with him.
“Are you sure?” I ask him, stroking his hard member.
“I’m sure.” He pecked my lips again as I got ontop of his lean figure. I spat in my hand, lubing up my needy hole.
“How do you want me to do this? I mean like slow? What do-“ He said with genuine worry.
“Fuck me like you want people to know” I whispered, “ Fuck me like you want the entire neighborhood to know that I’m yours and yours only.”
“I can make that happen, love.” He flipped me over, now being back to where we first started. He lined up his cock with my hole, running it around the tight area. I put my fingers in his hair, making a slight tug as he pushed into my body.
Pleasure filled my body as he filled me up, his cock stretched my insides in the right ways. Without pausing, he started to push his hips into mine, making sure not to hurt me.
He reached down to suck on my neck, adding to the pornagraphic moans in the room. My hands travled to his back, scratching my nails down the cold stone like skin. His moans echoed in my ear.
“Y/N, I can’t be on top I’m going to crush you” I laughed at him, tapping his side so he fell onto the bed. I swung my legs over him, sitting on his perfect cock.
“Perfect, fucking amazing.” He said as I steady myself onto him. His face was in a euphoric expression, the most relaxed I had ever seen him.
I began to rock my hips, sliding him in and out of me. His hands grabbed onto my hips, guiding me. Everything was a euphoric experience. My gut filled with that wonderful sensation.
“Edward I’m gonna cum, oh my god” I moaned out, picking up my pace.
Suddenly, the world went still. My eyes went black and I saw stars as my orgasm washed over me. My moans echoed in the room as my body twitched. A few thrusts up into my body and Edward pulled out of me, rubbing his cum out onto his hand.
I layed there panting while he sped to the bathroom, and came back with a clean cloth, wiping down my body. He put the cloth down, pulling up his underwear and handing me mine. I slipped the fabric on, slipping under the covers.
“Get in here, I wanna kiss you”
He laughed, obeying and slipping beside me. Our lips reunited in a soft clash.
“I love you so much, dear.”
#edward cullen#edward cullen x reader smut#edward cullen x reader#edward cullen smut#robert pattinson smut#robert pattinson#twilight shitpost#twilight headcanon#headcannons twilight#twilight fanfic#jasper hale x reader#jasper hale fanfic#carslile cullen#esme cullen
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