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luveline · 1 year

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a request for kisses before dinner. maybe ave is at school and learns what a divorce is and starts panicking at home thinking steve and r are gonna get divorced and she’s going to have to move away and they have to assure her they’re v much in love and that won’t be happening. srry if that’s too specific. luv ur writing!

this is the loveliest idea! hope this is okay, thanks so much! mom!reader 1.1k

Avery's been a mouse since Steve picked her up from school.

"What's wrong with your sister?" he asks Bethie.

Bethie, sitting carefully on the counter with a picture book in her lap, glances up. "Which one?"

Steve nods toward Avery where she's sulking at the kitchen table.

"I don't know," Bethie says, frowning.

Steve washes the last plate in the sink and puts it with the rest of the dishes on the draining board. He wipes his hands dry and lifts Bethie off of the counter without a word. She squirms under his arm but doesn't complain, only clambers into the chair next to Avery and turns back to her book. He runs his hand over her hair lovingly.

You appear in the doorway with a freshly changed Dove in your arms. You're kissing her forehead in the same place over and over, and you both look ridiculously happy. He falls in love for the millionth time.

There's nothing to do until dinner is ready, so Steve sits himself down in the chair next to Avery's at their huge dinner table and holds out his hand.

She passes hers over reluctantly.

"Ave," he says, covering her small hand in both of his, hiding it away, "you okay, baby?"

She nods miserably.

You look up from your lovefest, mildly alarmed by his question. "What?"

Steve gets more worried than some parents would think is reasonable when the girls draw in on themselves, and the older Avery gets, the more complicated her emotions. It's like she's learning new knots and Steve's desperately trying to untangle them, neither of them with any instructions.

He doesn't ask, maybe he should, but after a while you get used to just picking your kids up. Steve slides his hands under Avery's armpits and pulls her cleanly into his lap, the soft cotton of her nightie pooling under her. It's too long. She's still so small.

Safely transported to his thigh, Steve wraps Avery in a proper dad hug, biceps sealing her in.

"There's no escaping me," he says quietly. He rubs her back. "Now tell me, what's going on with my Ave? You feeling okay?"

"I'm fine."

"I don't want you to be fine, baby, I want you to be good," he says gently. "Me and mom can't fix everything, but we can try."

She squints at him. Steve starts to think he might be laying it on thick for no reason, and that Avery's simply tired from a long week. He twists his neck and tilts his head to face her, her ear pressed to the place under his heart. She turns her nose into his t-shirt and sniffs. It takes Steve a moment to realise she's crying, her tiny shoulders shaking beneath his hand.

He's shocked. His gaze jumps to yours and you tuck Dove under your chin, pulling an impossibly agile mom-move to squat by his side.

"Avery?" you ask softly.

Steve is used to tantrums. Softer moments like this aren't as easy to manage. Avery isn't sobbing because she's overwhelmed, or because she isn't getting her way, she's crying with no source in sight. She's sad. Steve pulls her tight to his chest and starts to dot kisses into her hair, rubbing a useless line up and down the short length of her arm.

"What's the matter?" he asks, regrettably ruined by his daughter's emotions. "Tell daddy."

"You know Pauline's mommy got a dee-vorce?" she asks.

You nudge in. "What did she get, baby?"

"A dee-vorce."

"A divorce," you say thoughtfully. "And what do you think of that?"

She pulls her face from Steve's shirt, cheeks shining with tears, and struggles to talk. "I don't want you to get one too," she breathes out.

"Sweetheart, we're not," you say.

"Because Pauline said her dad's moving away," she continues, looking up at Steve with a startling, crushing desperation. "You have to stay here."

Steve's eyes widen, and he laughs though it's absolutely not what he means to do. He wants to be the serious and sincere father, the kind who reassures with a strong, unwavering passion. But he's shocked, and a little freaked. He doesn't like seeing his baby wound up.

"Avery, I'm not going anywhere. Never ever," he stresses.

"But I–"

"I love your mom so much I'd cry all the time if we weren't together, you know that? I can't live without mommy."

"Right," you rush to say, "me and daddy love each other more than anything."

"Paulie said that her mommy said that, that they still love each other but her daddy has to go. I don't–" Poor Avery starts breathing shallow, eyes locked onto Steve's face with more urgency than he knows how to handle. "I don't want you to go."

He has to fight tears.

"Avery," he says. He takes her face into both hands. "Avery, listen to me. I'm not going anywhere."

Dove starts fussing and the tension of Avery's breakdown abates enough for Steve to remember Bethie at the table, staring at the hubbub in quiet unhappiness. You put Dove down and she wanders off, your freed hands reaching for Avery's bare legs. You press your thumbs into her knees, sighing. "Sweetheart, sometimes parents move away, and it's very sad. Pauline must be really scared right now, and you have to be extra nice to her because she needs it but," —you shake her little legs— "me and dad are forever, okay? Please don't worry about it. I promise daddy isn't going anywhere, I can't imagine it."

Steve can't imagine it either, a life different than this. He takes care of his girls every single day. They cry and they smile and they laugh, it's the most precious thing on earth. There isn't a reality where he willingly leaves. He can't imagine a life without your hair tickling his cheeks in the morning when he wakes, without Avery's shrieking laughter under his squeezing hands, without Bethie's too smart smiles as he reads to her, or without the sleeping weight of Dove against his chest at nap time. Everyday like clockwork, he wants this life.

"You're staying here?" Avery asks him, looking up.

He glances between her and Beth and you, catches sight of the back of Dove's head where she's talking nonsense to the teddy in her lap across the kitchen.

"I'm staying here. I'm not going anywhere," he says. It's an easy promise.

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zombie-ghost · 26 days

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Doing a aphmau pdh/ MyStreet rewrite!

(Tw for mentions of og Ein, depression, bullying)

If u like the og mystreet then that's fine! I'm very nostalgic for the series, I just think it would be fun to rewrite it! BTW LOTS OF THIS MAY NOT BE CANON TO THE REWRITE LATER ALSO THis is just what I jotted down, also I haven't rewatched the series yet and I'm waiting for my school to have another long break (srry for over explaining lmao)

Aph

☆biromantic

☆Ace

☆trans girl

☆ autism+adhd

☆ *didn't meet Aaron online (kind of?? I'll explain later, it's not complicated dw)

☆ she/her

☆ likes video games (dating sims, rpg, combat)

☆ very physically affectionate w/ her friends and family

☆ freshman in s1 15 year old, sophomore in s2 16 year old, graduation days 18, 18 in falcon claw universality 20 at the end, 22 in the big move, 22 in my street s1 23 at the end, my street s2 23, my street s3 24, my street s4 25, starlight/when angels fall 28

☆kind of oblivious (not dumb)

☆stubborn

☆ competitive

☆ *First ment Aaron in some combat video game voice chat like 2 years before pdh starts (they are both very competitive, as u can imagine it didn't turn out well, nether of them remember this.)

☆ slow typer bad grammer

☆ *her and Aaron will have a rivals to playful rivals, to friends (pdh), to lovers (llp) arc. Wowza slow burn*

☆ In band (pdh)

☆basically kind to everyone

☆quite and awkward when u first meet her but once you get to know her she's a chatterbox (seriously she will not stop talking)

☆her parents separated when she was 6

☆ her dad was always chasing greater opportunities, always bussy with work

☆ aphmau moves in 5th grade leaving all of her childhood friends behind in the process

☆ aphmau was bullied in middle school bc she was "weird" and "annoying"

☆mental health got bad

☆ by the time she was in 7th grade she didn't have energy to eat or get out of bed, or just take care of herself in general

☆ aphmaus mom thinks it would be beneficial if she was homeschooled (aphmau agrees)

☆aphmau is homeschooled for 1 year and doesn't go out

☆ aphmau *somehow* misses irl school and begs her mom to transfer her

☆ aphmau has struggled w/ depression snd anxiety since she was a kid (yayyy genetics :3)

☆ more confident online then irl

☆ likes to draw and paint

☆ has a very stylelized art style (does that make sense??)

☆ LOVES THE HOLIDAYS!!! Specifically Christmas and Halloween!

☆ A bit squeamish when it comes to horror

☆ unhealthy obsessed w/ purple

☆ likes to cosplay in free time

☆ had a crush on Garroth for a few months when she first came to pdh, she confessed and he rejected her, they are still friends

☆ may drop out of falcon claw university when shes a junior (this may change later)

Ein:

☆ Ein is aphmau half brother (NO ROMANCE!!!)

☆ Ein is one year younger then aphmau

☆ Ein transfered schools because of the forever potion revival project (fprp) because they (the fprp) found out that kids of the ppl who advertised the forever potion

☆ the plan was to get the people who advertised the forever potion and/ or the kids of the people who advertised the forever potion (who were experimented on), Ein being one of them, to join the project

☆ Ein wanted to get close to aph (FRIENDSHIP) to get her to join the project also because he wanted to see how much better her life was (he thought his dad left him for his other family *aph, savanna* he did not)

☆ he isn't close w/ his mom

☆ He became jealous of aph

☆what I'm not gonna do is Ein being weird towards aph, making up rumors of them dating, and him basically making her his sl @ v 3 because what the actual fuck, he does other fucked up shit though (stealing aphs stuff, making some of her peers and even some of her friends hate her for a short period of time due to spreading rumors abt her, brainwashing her to hate Aaron and her friends and want to kill them)

Aaron

☆freshman in s1 15 year old, sophomore in s2 16 year old, graduation days 18, 18 in falcon claw universality 20 at the end, 22 in the big move/my street s1 23 at the end, my street s2 23, my street s3 24, my street s4 25, starlight/when angels fall 28

☆ demi-romantic

☆trans guy

☆ he/him

☆ likes rpgs and combat video games (or any game with an interesting story and/or visual)

☆ fast typer rlly good grammer

☆ in Band (pdh)

☆ on the track team

☆ anger issues

☆is in therapy for it

☆ stronger then he realizes

☆ got into a fight while trying to stand up for someone, he won but got expelled as a result and transfered to Phoenix drop high

☆ he's trying to manage his anger in a more effective way that doesn't involve coping in self destructive ways or yelling at others (his solution for this is Journaling and working out)

☆ really neat hand writing

☆ Super anxious when it comes to socializing due to his parent sheltering him and being super strict

☆ can't tell when people are being sarcastic/ joking

☆ the internet was his safe space, to escape the stresses of school, life, family, etc (same for aphmau)

☆ he pushes away any who shows interest in being his friend fearing that his parents would prevent him from seeing them (this changes throughout the series)

☆ he was forced to Socialize w/ her when he was seated next to her in both werewolf history and English, in English they had a project and they were assigned as partners

☆ he started dating aph at the end of love love paradise

☆ loves trashy horror movies

☆ likes Halloween bc he likes watching cheesy slasher horror movies

☆ competitive

☆ can play the guitar

Katelyn

☆ sophomore in s1 16 year old, junior in s2 17 year old, graduation days 19, 19 in falcon claw universality 21 at the end, 23 in the big move/my street s1 24 at the end, my street s2 24, my street s3 25, my street s4 26, starlight/when angels fall 29

☆ very athletic

☆ out spoken

☆ bisexual

☆ she/her

☆ Captain of the volleyball team (pdh)

☆ VERY COMPETITIVE

☆ had braces in s1

☆ clumsy

☆ anger issues

☆ bruises like a peach

☆ like Aaron, she's trying to manage her anger in a more affective way (sports is her way of doing that)

☆ extroverted

☆ very loyal

☆ protective of the people she loves

☆ she's very "act first face the consequences later" or however that saying goes (she gets better dw)

☆ gets good grades

☆ LOVES classic literature AND she is ASHAMED (UNRIGHTFULLY)

☆ Theater kid in disguise

☆ really likes singing and songwriting but would rather die then preform infront of anyone because she has stage fright

☆ LOVES BOY BANDS AND POP (Very ashamed of this)

☆ as you can tell she's ashamed of her interest she doesn't want to be bullied again

☆ used to be a pick me girl from 4th to 6th but then she ment an even worse pick me girl and that scared her out of being a pick me

☆ she is rightfully very ashamed of this phase in here life

☆ likes watching cartoons

☆ likes pop, boy band and rock music

☆ has a secret love for fandom and cosplay

☆ desperately needs to learn the saying "to be cringe is to be free"

☆ has a lot of siblings

☆ and no she will NOT hit Travis or anyone!!! I'm not even sure her and Travis will be in a relationship in my rewrite

*note: the forever potion can be used for anything, not just mind control*

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zuffer-weird-girl · 1 year

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hihi may i ask for dabi and shigaraki reaction to a perfumer (ss skin, whatever that means-)-like fem s/o from identity v? here's a little link so u can see the character i'm talking about, specifically.

so like the s/o is bound to a sanctuary (imagine watatsumi island from genshin or whatevah idk)

and like her quirk is like being able to manipulate water, and make the water into a solid material or furniture or somethingg

and they like butterflies and there's a fuck ton on her hair, markings/tattoos on her thigh and left part of her forehead and shit and she can walk on water like jesus or sumn'

SUMN' LIKE THAT-

you're probably reading everything in a confused state— damn i should really know how to word things at this age 😰

also i say like too often 🧍🏻srry ab that-

anyway look at how pretty she is 🙄 like-

🧍🏻... 🧎🏻.. oh no what's- happening.. 🦋

I HAVE NO SHAME ON NOT BEING ON ANON 🤬😍😘💀

Got to say I'm sorry for taking so long and that video was awesome to watch thank you

Dude you guys are total opposites and this little shit lives for that.

The first time he saw your quirk on action he was like "eh, suits you."

When in reality he is so fucking proud like- that's my s/o motherfucker

When his body overheats due to his quirk you usually tend to go over him and help him literally cool off and he is so grateful for you

Not gonna lie, he finds pretty weird the amount of butterflies on your hair... one time when he was about to kiss you he almost gagged when one almost got in his mouth.

But still finds cute how much you are obsessed with them.

Although now he is one careful when near you... just in case he doesn't accidentally eats a butterfly

Always gets headaches after he sees you walking on water like is normal. Why? Because his eyes go so wide his staples pop out of his skin sometimes.

He is... not used to it. And doesn't show it, but he is hella concerned because what if you fall?

Your tattoo are the ones who is obsessed with. Is just so fucking cool and he can't help but everything Brush his fingers on the drawings of your forehead or thighs with a skirt on his face.

Thinks your hella beautiful with them them whoever dares to say otherwise is going to get burned alive like witches were in the middle aged era

His words, not mine.

Thinks your quirk is pretty much like a rpg character power

Is so useful for his plan so he allows you to go on missions, but definitely not with dabi.

Fire and water don't mix. And he won't stand a chance of you going near that zombie walking asshole.

But still is confused cause... how tf can you transform liquid on a fucking gamer chair?!

He is still grateful and is his favorite present given of you to him.

Cringes at the mere thought of you getting your tattoos

He thinks they're cool and all... but something about getting hurt continuously on your forehead and thighs just to form those drawings gives him itches...

Waves the butterflies out of your hair most of the times and threatens to kill them.... pls is nothing personal but the sign of them irritates him for some reason.

Stole gave you a butterfly plushie once but almost got into a panick attack when he accident decayed it and was repeating the word sorry for... a long time.

Joked about you being Jesus more times than the numbers of your fingers and toes.

#dabi x reader #touya todoroki x reader #shigaraki tomura x reader #shimura tenko x reader #bnha villains x reader #zuffer writings #bnha villains hcs

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crunkcommie · 1 year

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hey so I'm not jewish, but I grew up in a very religious school which had some v negative impacts, so if you don't mind me asking was/is there anything like that in judaism? Or really just other religions in general but in this case I'm asking specifically on like ur experience.

Bc i grew up with ppl constantly blaming stuff on 'oh its for God' and 'Oh dont do/talk about that its sinful' and 'you have to be faithful' and like I was wondering if this is common in other religions, or if this just some extreme fanaticism i had to grow up with

also srry if I use any wrong terminology or anything, like I said I'm not jewish so pls correct me if I said anything wrong

Ty!!!!

P.S. ur rlly cool, i love seeing ur reblogz n stuff :)

HELLLLOOOO this has been sittin in my ask box 4 quite sum time so imma answer it now !!!

first of all id like to say that this is actually a very common question that i get from non-jewish friends.

and i would have to say, it all depends on interpretation and sect of judaism !!!

when i was super young, i was raised without a religion. i knew my mother was jewish and therefore i was, and i was very curious about judaism !! i started going to a jewish camp at around age 7.

my mother, as i previously stated, is a jewish atheist (but participates in jewish traditions) and is relatively socially progressive. my father was raised catholic and is (in his words) "socially progressive and fiscally conservative".

but anyways, as i have explored judaism and my place in the jewish world, i feel most aligned with reform judaism. me and my mother are trying to become more involved in jewish traditions. i am still on my religious journey and i always enjoy talking to other jews about their experiences with religion and on being a jew in a mostly christian society.

reform judaism is also known as "progressive judaism" or "liberal judaism". it's based around the idea that as jews we should adapt our traditions and beliefs to our modern day environment.

so due to this, i didn't grow up around extreme religion-based homophobia, transphobia, and the like.

however, i have quite a few friends who are growing up in orthodox/conservative jewish households and their experiences sound much like yours.

but as we know, not all jews or sects of judaism are the same :)

i really enjoyed answering this ask !!!!

#jay.asks #jay.jewish

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agedre-kitty · 2 months

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info about requests:

i take requests for moodboards and stimboards for any fandoms, except the ones on my blacklist! please make sure to include a theme and mention if you want any gender inclinations (gender neutral and any genders are obviously valid options! just let me know), as well as anything you dont want me to include in your request!

i also take requests for moodboards, stimboards, outfit boards and activities/caregiver content for general themes (ej: "activities for a puppy regressor who likes to be outside")

i dont take hc requests rn, sorry!

feel free to be as vague or as specific as you'd like in your request 💜

whitelist: (bolds are favs)

brawl stars

my little pony: friendship is magic

paw patrol

atla

undertale

general themes (i love cats, purple, puppies, shiny things, etc)

pride flags

feel free to ask abt any other sources!

blacklist:

disclaimer: some of the things in this list are there because i'm personally uncomfortable with them (a lot of times it has to do with my ocd), but i might not necessarily think they're problematic. i just won't do requests with them.

jelly stims (i can include a few if u want, but i'll avoid making stimboards with just jelly gifs)

minecraft (srry about this one lol)

specifically pink bunnies

real people

bn/ha

e/dsworld

m/elanie m/artinez

v/ocaloid

c/avetown

raw meat

coraline (too horror-ish for me when i feel little, sorry!)

hospitals or similar themes (plasters r fine!)

anything not child safe (such horror, discourse, etc)

feel free to ask about anything else if you're unsure!

also, i tag most common triggers, but please let me know if you'd like me to use tws for anything specific, i don't mind. same for anyone who needs tonetags, just let me know.

Dni: lgbt+ exclusionists, r/adfems, ns/fw, e/d, s/h or discourse blogs, pr0ship, anti-agere/petre/sfw cglre or if you call people cringe because of their interests.

#agedre #agere aesthetic #agere moodboard #agere stimboard #agere requests #moodboard requests #stimboard requests #petre blog #petre aesthetic #petre moodboard #petre stimboard #age dreaming #💜 info // about me 💜

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jenology-archive · 6 years

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hiatus!! or maybe semi-hiatus... smth like that! 😙😙 this hellsite is too much

#i might come by to rb stuff i'm tagged in like i have today #srry i can't get to any ims i'm not really in the right state to interact esp if we're not the closest of friends #and i don't want to give any half assed replies nor do i want to reblog anything with half assed tags (specifically things @ me ! :o)#and i don't want to half ass any asks either sorry :(#hmm yeah and don't forget to report @imaginethesedorks !!! long story short they're a predator 💀 refer to @imaginethesedorksinfo #but be careful because there's lots of minor smut n stuff its v uncomfy #so it's important they get taken care of asap #thats all! take care of yourselves #☆彡

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thebrainrotof1987 · 2 years

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SB SPOILERS //

ok I know the game has been out for a bit but spoiler warnings anyway. I'm here to talk about my current theory + how it relates to my partner (karma)'s theory abt our boy Gregster.

ALSO LONG POST WARNING SRRY

Overall theory is: I very firmly believe that Gregory could actually be the crying child from FNAF 4, and that the crying child didn't *actually* die. I think that William/the animatronics as extensions of William were able to save Gregory's life after he flatlined via putting his soul/remains of his body into a new animatronic body. Karma thinks that Gregory is a robot, and I have reason to believe there's a connection here.

1) literally the first interaction we have between Gregory + Glamrock Fred is Gregory *knowing* about the child-sized compartments in the animatronics, which would make sense considering what happened to his sister, Elizabeth.

2) Shortly after we learn to pilot Freddy and start rummaging around the tunnels under the main Pizzaplex for an exit, Freddy diverts our path by saying something v much along the lines of "I sense you are broken," and then he takes us to the medkit dispensary. This is VERY out of Freddy's usual speech pattern and specifically resembles the ending quote from FNAF 4: "You're broken, I will put you back together."

3) I'm not the one who originally noticed this (I'll edit + tag them if I can find the post that showed this!) but when we actually see Gregory in the game we can see he has the iconic striped shirt of the crying child from FNAF 4!

4) And this is the most damning piece of evidence imoho; Gregory doesn't ever seem afraid. Surprised for sure, pissed off at his situation (reasonably so tbh), but never *AFRAID* like we'd expect from a young kid. One of the most noticable aspects of frontal lobe loss/alteration is severe personality changes AND a major reduction or complete loss of traditional fear responses (this is actually true look it up there's some rlly neat studies). This all would make sense if he was suffering from severe brain trauma after the bite of 1983, had to enter surgery while in recovery, and after a close-call with a flatline he was then put into a specific animatronic mimicking his original appearance for another chance at life.

4) tying in w the previous note, him being in a robots body explains a LOT of weird stuff throughout the game, mainly post eye-upgrade on Freddy. For example, Vanessa speaks to Gregory in a v similar way to Freddy instead of like an actually lost kid, Freddy notes that Gregory looks *different* once he has Roxy's eyes, AND the fact that a young child has enough strength and endurance to not need sleep, food, or rest when killing animatronics almost 3 times his size. SHITS WEIRD LMAO

anyway I'll add onto this more later if I forgot any theory points and also: I'm no MatPat, I'm not claiming I *know* Scott/Steel Wool's plan w the series or Gregory, this is all just in good fun ^^!

#fnaf #five nights at freddy's #security breach #security breach gregory #security breach freddy #glamrock freddy #fnaf theory #SORRY THIS GOT SO LONG SOBS #so many thoughts tho dksbkwbd

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sufletamna · 2 years

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First: this one

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Welp this is the first post i do in tumblr, and also first page of the short comic i'll be doing for the event Nightmarch from someone else i don't remember the name ;v; (srry plz don't kil me), ok i'm noob at this but this comic will be for the day 3 with the topic "crown", probably i'm not gonna end up doing all the others days topics just for this thing, but well, the thing is to have fun after all :)

Also i was already forgetting the spaguetti translation:

Murder: But how do you want me to explain it to him?

Ghost Papyrus(?:I don't know maybe saying "sorry i broke the puppet you were doing of Blue accidentally just because i was curious and took it to examine it for a while"

Murder: That sounds dumb

Ghost Papyrus: So what do you plan to do?

Murder: Idk

Ghost Papyrus: I'm gonna have to always think for you?

Murder:....Well, Error with Nightmare and Horror will be back still in a while until they get to completely destroy the AU they're in right now, so i think i have the enough time to go borrow some chocolate from UnderFell

Ghost Papyrus: Ok it seems like a good idea...also bring Horror his snack

Murder:Nah, those were limited edition and get into some specific AU is so much troubling

Ghost Papyrus: ....There comes Killer

Also the tag for this comic is gonna be #D3C (Day3Comic) 'cause i'm out of creativity already

#Nightmarch2022 #D3C

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delta-magnetic · 3 years

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aight SO a little bit ago i asked if anybody wanted to see my longass ranking/ramble of dm albums

so here it is (with only part of it above the cut)! i should probably go back over the ones i didnt say much on but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i wrote this like a week ago?

original template had from God Tier - Shit Tier but i couldnt bring myself to call any of these shit (or even give an F to)

(note: the order within the ranks is purely chronological)

S tier

Music for the Masses (1987)- obligatory "my favorite song of all time is on this album". the other songs on here are also incredible (notably Strangelove, Behind the Wheel, and Nothing). arguably my favorite bonus tracks of any of the albums. this album has the essential dark tones/vibes but probably in the most beautiful way of any of the albums. 9/10 (not 10 purely because i do not like I Want You Now. the breathing makes me v uncomfy jdknfbs)

Violator (1990)- the depeche mode album. there were "hits" on other albums, but literally every single one of their BIGGEST hits was on this album (Personal Jesus, Enjoy the Silence, and Policy of Truth). and those hits do a good job of showing you what depeche mode is about, and what violator is about, but listening to the whole thing is another experience. 10/10 whether you only passively care about dm or you're a huge fan you should absolutely give this one a listen

Songs of Faith and Devotion (1993)- notice how i didn't say the best album on violator? thats because this one is. hands fucking down. dave's best vocal performances are on this album, which even he himself has said (on Condemnation). following up violator was tough but i say this did so very well. it went in another, slightly bluesy direction, but was still undeniably dm. 11/10 holy fuck

Ultra (1997)- now i know i gave sofad an 11, but i still consider this one to be my favorite dm album. imo it combines the aspects of the previous two wonderfully, a similar groove to sofad but wouldn't be out of place on violator. being the first album after alan left, there is the slightest hint of "things are going to evolve once again", and that's completely okay. 10/10 ily ultra

A tier

Construction Time Again (1983)- i'd say this is the album where they finally hit their groove. very synthy, but it's not just bright and poppy now. this is also when they first really started sampling sounds, and they did well with it. a while ago richard spencer, known far-right bitch, called dm the "band of the alt-right" and dave famously told him to fuck off, and "has he even heard our music??". he cited some songs from music for the masses i think, but i'd say really this album is probably what dave was talking about with that statement. there is literally a song on here called The Landscape is Changing. anyways 10/10 there are sounds on this one that also make me a little uncomfy (namely the whispering in Told You So) but this album is just so good

Sounds of the Universe (2009)- so i said cta was when they hit their groove, i'd say sotu is when they hit it again after alan left (ultra was kinda like when you let go of a kid on a bike, and they're doing pretty good at first). dave actually contributes some songs on this album, and specifically Miles Away/The Truth Is is pretty great. has both the most hopeful dm song (Peace) and arguably the most up-frontly depressed dm song (Wrong). 9/10 it's a bit longer than the typical album but still a fantastic listen

Delta Machine (2013)- they went bluesy on sofad, and they REALLY did here. where sofad was more of a slow boil, this one goes in this direction with a bit more force. uhh tbh don't have much else on this one except i have yet to listen to Happens All The Time (a bonus song) w/o crying lol. 9/10 sound can get a teensy bit muddied at times but still very solid album

Spirit (2017)- most recent album! and oh boy if you thought they were disgruntled at the world during cta, they are pissed here. first album where theres swearing. some ppl think this was written in response to richard spencer but this existed before that, just happened to release pretty soon after which is still amazing. sound is beautiful here, dave's voice is still very strong (and even carried over some of that soul from delta machine), and i'd even say it's one of martins best performances. 10/10 this is modern dm and i love it

B tier

Black Celebration (1985)- this album is pure concentrated dm vibes. dark tones, industrial influence, synths. a bit too hyped up imo, but still very deserving of some hype. the best transitions of any dm album. dave and martins voices are great here, but especially when they're singing together (a really good example being Here is The House), some of the best harmonies between them on this album. 9/10 an essential dm album. literally if you somehow made it this far but stop reading here the one thing i ask of you is to listen to Stripped

Exciter (2001)- so that bike analogy about ultra? this is where the kid eventually falls over. definitely a different sound. like sofad and delta machine went in different directions than previous albums, but something about exciter's vibes were REALLY different without necessarily feeling like it was heading towards a different genre. BUT! this is still a super underrated album. this is a very good "i want some quieter dm vibes to listen to" album (ofc save for Dead of Night which is very loud lol). 8/10 not super up there for me but i do find myself listening to this album quite a bit

Playing the Angel (2005)- ok i didnt have much to say on delta machine but i like, really dont immediately here. first album in which dave contributes songs! and all of the ones he wrote (Suffer Well, I Want it All, Nothing's Impossible) are pretty solid. Macro is also an incredible song like holy shit. 8/10 sound (balance especially) is a little worse than delta machine's but oh MAN are there some good songs on here.

C tier

Speak and Spell (1981)- alright now we're lower down the list. i know i cant/shouldnt be too mean to the very first album, so i won't. but man is this as poppy as synthpop gets (which i know can be mostly attributed to vince, who then left after this album). i have not listened this album very much because of that, but i do listen to a good number of the songs off of it on the regular. 7/10 vocals are kinda drowned out at times, but cant hate baby dave and the lads too much. it's very sugary sweet, but in a fun way

Some Great Reward (1984)- i really don't listen to this one as much as i should tbh. this album i actually like almost all the songs off if it even! but i just don't listen to the whole thing together often. i'd put more eloquent thoughts and feelings on this one but i'm writing this shortly after having taken a zquil sO my brain has kinda run out of steam now lol sorry. In Your Memory and Set Me Free (Remotivate Me) are very good tho omg. 8/10 if there was a letter between C and D i'd have put this in that spot

aaaand finally, D tier

A Broken Frame (1982)- i did these as S-D and not S-F because i couldnt be that mean ndjkfsb but im srry something had to be at the bottom still. actually had this and Speak and Spell switched at first but then i realized I liked more songs off of the sas. (again would put more but zquil REALLY tryna take me down now, think i'll actually attempt sleep now). 6/10 just not one i super vibe with. the sound here is REALLY off balance a lot but hey this was mart kinda on his own and he gave it his bestest shot

#wpbosting #i am too many thoughts head full atm #and i wanted to post something dumb #would just post some drafts again but i dont have many #and none that are like. hot takes or even that funny #ANYWAYS enjoy i guess?#kinda wrote this for the perspective of people who either dont know anything about dm #or only know a little

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Any thoughts on neo griffith/beast of darkness or guts/femto fucking? (Srry i watched venom today so i'm in a mosterfucking mode)

hell yeah

especially beast of darkness/neogriffith tbh, i am super into this concept. or even a role reversal au where guts was the one who became a godhand member or mb apostle.

and femto/guts also has its appeal. or femto/beast of darkness, monster4monster.

guess i’ll put this under a cut in respect to ppl who follow me more for meta than long posts about monsterfucking lol

side note to kick this off: i once had a shockingly coherent berserk dream where femto turned out to be a periodic temporary transformation, kinda like a werewolf, and he’d turn back into post-torture griffith after wreaking some evil havok, and griffith wouldn’t remember anything. and this led to guts having sex with griffith-as-femto (who was less hilarious petty ex a la black swordsman arc and more like, the kind of atmospheric scary horror movie monster who motionlessly watches you from across the street and appears in the bathroom mirror after you look away briefly lol) in order to distract him from like, leaving to go murder people. and guts framed this to himself as like penance for abandoning griffith but at the same time he was also into it because despite being terrifying femto was still a version of griffith who he loves and has been pining for for 4 years. it was a high quality dream tbh.

but anyway, like the way their relationship is depicted as so obsessive and singular i feel like there’s something v compelling in either of them becoming the extra evil embodiment of the worst aspects of themselves and the other still wanting him bc even that darkness is an aspect of the person he loves? like that’s p canon actually

(not to mention how suggestive the beast of darkness gets)

like either of them, canon guts or au griffith where guts became a monster, hating the other for destroying everything and ruining his life but still high key “longing” for him.

relatedly, the canon mutual pining thing during the golden age but then the first time they act on their repressed sexual feelings is after one becomes a monster and consequently has lost that repression and has nothing stopping him from acting on his lust? and the other is like, oh no you’re a monster and i hate you now but also i’ve been lying to myself about not wanting this for 8 years and i’ll take what i can get.

doesn’t quite fit with actual canon (one can argue femto is even more repressed lol) but whatever, actual canon sux.

or both of them having succumbed to their inner darknesses but still finding that spark of light and their own humanity in each other is srsly good stuff.

like lbr neogriffith letting beast of darkness guts fuck him instead of fight him and predictably feeling all those not actually frozen feelings even tho it’s just like, a vague twisted echo of what their relationship could’ve been once… also good. maybe focusing on the physical to distract himself from/ignore his feelings to the point where he doesn’t notice he’s got tear tracks running down from the corners of his eyes afterwards. i mean what better time to get that payoff on ‘the crystalization of your last tear shed’ right?

also there’s a devilman spinoff/missing scene manga where akira lost his consciousness to the demon he melded with and ryo brought him back by kissing him. and i’m js

the sex version would work v well in berserk. imagine guts waking up from a prolonged stretch of time as the beast of darkness while balls deep in neogriffith and just clinging to him like an anchor, at least until he comes and eventually regains the presence of mind to assess the situation lol.

what other angles are there? idk i feel like there’s a lot of room for playing around with the monster versions of these characters.

i mean i get why ppl often don’t want to even ship post-eclipse griffguts let alone their evil monster versions bc miura poisoned that well, but honestly idgaf personally, i’m not gonna let that stop me. ngriff/femto/beast of darkness all have so much potential here.

also sorry i focused more on feelings than physical specifics but that’s bc a) i’m better at talking about feelings and b) femto and the beast of darkness are anatomically pretty boring lbr lol. i mean femto especially is barely a monster physically, that’s like, all feelings lol.

#Anonymous #ask #headcanons #but i'm not opposed to talking about physical specifics if you want to throw another ask at me w/ suggestions #or if anyone else wants to jump in with thoughts on either feelings or physical logistics or both #b

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