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fu-miruku · 2 years

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Hello, thanks so much for coming back with new fluffy updates! Hope life is going easy for you as well :)

I have a question and I'm sure I'm not the only one who have thought about this at least once, especially with the recent updates and the ones before, since Toshio started living with Shindou.

Do you think Shindou actually loves Toshio romantically the way Toshio feels for him? Bcs so far it seems very one-sided. I know that Shindou will always be a tsundere character and with Toshio being much younger (physically and even more mentally), the mangaka might try to mitigate the 'moral burden' coming off from that notion with depicting Toshio being the one constanctly seeking affection and physical intimacies, so that Shindou remains an upright gentleman. But can't help feeling like Shindou is just going with the flow or giving Toshio anything he wants bcs he feels bad about the boy's situation and takes it as his responsibility to make him happy. I wonder if Shindou's feelings towards Toshio will be more clarified on the next chapters? Would love to hear about your thoughts, sorry for the super long ask!

Hi there! Thanks for the kind words anon :D I like answering questions like this about the story, and talking about this series in general, so no worries <3

First of all, let's go back to Volume 2 Chapter 9 for a bit, when Shindou talks about what he feels towards Toshio in the early stages of them living together.

Shindou says that yes, he does like Toshio. Flabbergasted, Toshio can't believe it at first and questions if Shindou really means it. Shindou replies that there's no reason for him to lie about that. I think these panels might answer a few of your questions about Shindou's intentions.

Of course, the panels above simply show an insight on Shindou's initial thoughts when he first took Toshio in. After they spend more time together, in the start of the "Left" volume, the first chapter ends with Shindou still wondering about the nature of their relationship.

As the chapters go on, I’m sure that while more questions are raised, some will also be answered, whether it be regarding Shindou’s feelings, Toshio’s identity, or where their relationship stands among it all.

I think seeing how their relationship is explored further in the following volumes is essential, and you'll also appreciate how Shindou's thoughts changed from volume 2 to the end of the sequels :))

Honestly, I want to go more in-depth about Shindou's feelings, but that might be more appropriate when we're all on the same boat story-wise. Hopefully I can sum up my thoughts better and share a short write-up when I finish uploading everything.

Please bear with me until then </3 I might have ended up blabbering too long again, haha. I’m sorry that this is a non-answer, but I think it makes more sense when you read it for yourself! For now, I hope this satisfies your question anon.

#answered #Sabi no Yume

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trillgutterbug · 3 years

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Fic Writer Questions!

tagged by @palamedessextus 😊 thanks friend!

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

64! only five more to the magic number ayyyyy and then i’m legally obligated to never post another one.

2) What’s your total AO3 word count?

289,575 apparently??? which seems way way way higher than i ever would have guessed, wow. who knew!

3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

31 on ao3, although that’s lumping, eg, all marvel subfandoms together. but i have a ridiculous amount of wips in all kinds of other fandoms that i haven’t/won’t post, soooo.... more than that! and i don’t want to list them all bc that’d be a long boring read!

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

it serenely disdains to destroy us, a magnus archives fic that, i somewhat vainly note, has been orbiting in the top few top kudosed fics in the tag since i posted it womp womp.

concerning flight, because we all thirsty for thor/loki+gender and i for one support us.

untitled porny snippet (yes that’s actually what it’s called), because same as above. (i see u, kudos-to-comment ratio and i aint mad but.... i see u. all you dirty birds out there shamefully yet silently jerking it. kudos to YOU.)

an experiment in posthumous subsistence, a batman/joker zombie au i wrote fucking TEN YEARS AGO ALMOST. why???? why is this fic so popular?? i’m barely a good writer now and i sure as shit wasn’t one a decade ago! the terrible title alone should disqualify it from being read, but i guess the people want what they want. and what they want is batman and joker handcuffed together, trying to escape the zombie apocalypse ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

all good things, some stucky hydra trash party-adjacent smut regarding piercings. i stand by this one 100%, it deserves every kudo(s?) tbh.

5) Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

i do, depending on the comment! i don’t think comments like “loved this!” / “thanks for writing!” are written with the intent to receive a response (or at least, when i write them on other people’s fics, i certainly don’t expect one). they’re like an extra kudo(s?), and i appreciate them a lot, but they’re not really an invitation to Discuss. whereas if someone clearly has put a lot of thought into a comment, or asked a question, or made some observations that i jive with, or just seems like they want to engage, then hell yeah i jump in there. love that shit.

6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

i guess arguably thine own self, which is some hydra husbands abo. laugh all you want, it’s one of my fave of all my fics lmao. probably specifically bc of the unpleasant/open ending.

7) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

probably moderation is a memory! since it, unlike 99% of all my other stuff, isn’t just total smut, and the whole point of writing it was to wallow as deep as possible in the sauce of giddy teenage infatuation, it got the opportunity to have an actual emotional arc (more or less). furthermore i could not possibly bring myself to break johnny lawrence’s tender little heart ever, that would hurt me far more than it would hurt him.

8) Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

i only realised while answering this question that apparently.... no i don’t write crossovers! which is not at all a deliberate choice, i guess a compelling enough one just hasn’t occurred to me yet!

9) Have you ever received hate on a fic?

shockingly no! by some accidental miracle i’ve managed to fly under the radar so far, despite some of the really buckwild stuff i’ve posted. however, considering some of the stuff i’m probably ABOUT to post.... that clean track record might soon come to an end lmao.

10) Do you write smut? If so what kind?

lmao. uhhhh. almost exclusively, and i guess??? all kinds? this is clearly a question composed by someone who does not write smut.

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of, and i wouldn’t really care if i did.

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

yeah i think a few....? a number of people have asked anyway and i always say yes, so probably there’s at least one floating around out there somewhere.

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

i have! just once, and we really made it count. it’s called a reptile dysfunction, which should tell you all you need to know.

14) What’s your all time favorite ship?

thorki, probably. i always have and always will come back to it, no matter what. it’s got such a ferociously timeless staying power and so much potential variation, i don’t think i could ever get bored of it, regardless of what level of marvel-exhaustion i might feel at a given time, or what tropes, kinks, or stage of literary pretension i’m at. truly the oh tee pee.

15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

ohhhhh all 836575927 of them, but. there’s this one thorki fic i started almost ten years ago as an experiment with a new-to-me style, which turned out over the intervening years to become my main style, and looking back on that fic, which for many years was a touchstone of writing-to-aspire to for me, it’s actually Not Very Good lol. but i still love the core concept, which is a canon divergence berserker thor au, but not only is it a somewhat inaccessible (admittedly less so since the deadpool movies came out, which was a hilarious pipe dream back when i started writing it) x-force comics crossover, but i wrote myself into a bunch of corners and have yet to dig up the energy to write myself back out of them! i go and reread it every year or so and think “hmm... maybe now...” but tbh it’s just not really good enough to bother! perhaps someday i’ll repurpose the best elements of it into something new.

16) What are your writing strengths?

man, it’s so hard to say. in much the same way that you can spend hours every day staring at yourself in a mirror, yet be utterly incapable of picking yourself out of a lineup, i spend a lot of time eyeballing my writing, but stepping back it seems like a chaotic mass of nonsense with few cohesive throughlines. i’m good at writing smut, i know that much! and in that vein, i think i am good at smut bc i am very good at committing to the bit, as it were. getting into the nitty gritty of experience and sensation (physical or emotional) and rendering largely abstract internal concepts in fairly comprehensible ways. i think my prose is quite decent on a sentence level too.

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

utterly incapable of finishing anything! or plotting anything! can’t mange a cohesive emotional arc! write myself into overly structured corners or out onto a vast plain with no structure in sight! all the macro elements of storytelling totally elude me, which is very frustrating when i have all this tasty fleshed out micro-level character stuff, but no narrative skeleton upon which to drape it.

18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? don’t! unless you are very sure you know what you’re doing, and the other language bits are a) very few, b) easily contextually understood, and c) actually adding something other than a weird flex that you know google translate exists.

19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?

11yo me wrote spock/kirk/janice rand and thought she invented the concept of a threesome. brand been stronk since day one 🤘. (the vulcan salute is right next to the devil horns in my emoji list, so....)

20) What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

i love the (ongoing) better with you series very much, not least because i’m still absolutely flabbergasted that i wrote something that long. i think it’s actually pretty good all things considered and it’s very dear to me on many many levels. but the fic that i just viscerally adore, that i love the style of, and that i had such a transcendent, invigorating, organic Experience writing, is temper its strength, adding honey until quite cold, which is a terror fic with the inexplicable pairing of edward little/hartnell, featuring crossdressing and gender stuff. it just burst out of me fully formed one day and i don’t think i’ve managed to top it yet!

lowkey tagging @lingua-mortua @pitcherplant @kaasknot @froggy-babyy @deputychairman @nomercyonlytears @clockheartedcrocodile

#writing meme #whoops it's 3:30am #excellent life choices courtesy of: yours truly

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valeriec80 · 3 years

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Don’t get attached to this.

My kid went to school for the first time with a full school day where I’m not spending an hour of my shuttling him back and forth, so I have this extra time, and I have decided that I need to put it back into my writing business in some way besides writing moar books (cause, you know, between my pen names I already write between 16-18 novels a year, and that’s probably, um, good). So, I remembered that before I had a child I used to enjoy blogging, so here we go. Weekly blogs. If you write them, people will come.

Will this continue?

Uh... I mean, I don’t know. But come back next Friday and see, I guess?

I thought I’d write about two books that I’ve read recently that I really effing liked, and that I think you should go and read RIGHT NOW. They are both in KU, and both indie, as far as I know. I’m really excited about that because, being an indie author, I want to like indie authors, but I tend to get into trad books more easily.

I think it’s the comparitis factor. It’s harder to sink into indie books, because it’s all, “Should I write something like this?” or “I wrote something like this, I wonder why mine didn’t take off like this” or whatever. I hate it, and it’s got to be a really special book to turn the voice off.

So, without further ado, the first book is A Lady of Rooksgrave Manor, (https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08S7JMPDN/) the Victorian monster erotica RH I didn’t know I wanted. I was utterly flabbergasted to see this in the Top 100 of the Amazon store, because... What is this amazing thing? There are enough other weird women like me who want this?

Later, I found out it was on tiktok or something. I am not on tiktok, as you can ascertain from that sentence. If you’re another indie author, you also get that weird guilty stomach flutter whenever someone says tiktok, because you know it’s that new social media thing you’re supposed to be doing and the fact you’re not is the reason for everything wrong with your career. I’m like, “Oh, tiktok is a thing? I’m going to start a tumblr, because it’s 2010, yes?” Shrug. Hi tumblr!

So, Rooksgrave is the best thing ever. There’s kind of a plot. I wish there wasn’t, to be real. I just skimmed it and went from monster sex scene to monster sex scene. She gets to f*** Mr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde (well, a monster like that, anyway), a vampire, a sphinx with a hooked penis, a man made entirely of marble, an invisible man, and... that might be it. There were other monsters mentioned, and there’s apparently a sequel about another girl, and I’m here for it! I also was meh-ish on the love story where they all end up happily together, but this is because I have so much time suspending my disbelief for that. It’s the entire reason I can’t get into RH.

What I really want, and maybe someone knows about this, is a book that’s RH but where it’s like five guys fighting to the death to f*** you? They all hate each other and they’re very sexily punching each other all the time. Lots of sweaty glistening muscles and bloody noses ... like Fight Club? I keep thinking about writing it, but I’m pretty sure it won’t sell. I also don’t know how I would end it?

Moving on. Book two is To Bleed a Crystal Bloom (https://www.amazon.com/dp/B092CDLZMF/). Holy strawberries, Batman, this book is all the things. So, I saw the cover a couple times and then I clicked to the blurb, and I think all it took was the word ‘toxic’ plus confirming it was actually epic fantasy and not some paranormal, contemporary thing (GAH! Hate that. Over that. No more of those! But don’t listen to me, bc I’m reading dystopian right now, which I’m also over, so I’m a liar, liar, pants-on-fire.)

So, basically it says it’s Rapunzel, but it is NOT. The only thing in common is that she lives in a tower, but she’s there because she wants to be, because she has deep fears about the outside world. And the guy there has been raising her since she was like a girl, which is just the right amount of disturbing, and he also drinks her blood every night, and we never find out why. (It’s the first book in the series)

Also, at one point she goes into heat (!!) like it’s werewolf porn, which I was also very much here for. Bring on the coital tie! And I think it might be RH, too, because it seemed like all the guys kinda wanted to do her, but there was some territorial stuff going on, so it did not hit my disbelief suspendy triggers too much. (I also... OMG... territorial... take my money, book!)

Oh, but there’s no sex, not really. A couple explicit scenes but nothing actually happens, and I also currently ship her with the guy who comes to take her from the tower who is not her toxic-daddy-figure-vampire-emotionally-unavailable-love-interest who I am pretty sure is endgame.

Anyway, it was everything.

I ADORE it.

It’s everything I ever wanted from a dark fantasy romance and more. Where is book two, woman? Hurry up!

Okay, well, that was a lot. I’m done writing now, I think. Maybe see you next Friday? We’ll see, eh?

#writing #to bleed a crystal bloom #a lady of rooksgrave manor #reviews #babbling #val saintcrowe

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valeriemperez · 6 years

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As an objective reviewer, what did you really think of 5x6? I can't tell if I'm letting my disdain for Danielle cloud my judgment or if I should try to rewatch it. I have seen all of the bad reviews and even saw a youtuber who is firmly anti-Iris say its the worst episode of the series but sometimes those things can be the result of group think. Lol sorry for rambling, I'm just so flabbergasted and confused about this episode especially when the last five were so good :(

Personally, I was bored. I rewatched the episode in order to write my review, and objectively (as objective as I can be) I think the problem is that they:

A) Focused too much on the “science” side of the experiments and why Caitlin and Thomas’ alter egos might be different.B) Placed the emotional emphasis on a relationship we’ve never seen before - Caitlin and Thomas - and that we had never even heard about before two episodes ago. It would have been stronger to have Carla there, and for her and Caitlin to make up after Caitlin realizes her mother was protecting her from Icicle, etc.

Are you going to update the women’s screentime for episode 6?

Just did!

Honestly GG doesn’t seem that close to any of the cast save TC. He mostly keeps to himself while they film and doesn’t seem to hang out with anyone unless it’s something TC arranged for GG to go to. I think left to his own devices GG would stay in his condo and do his own thing. I think that’s what throws people off cause as the lead you’d think GG would be the center of the cast social life like SA. For whatever reason that’s just not who GG is but I get it frustrates people.

Yeah, I definitely think Tom C. is his favorite person in the cast, but he’s generally not a social butterfly like you said.

I just knew the GG apologists were going to be in your inbox. I don’t doubt they are friends, but after watching that video CP tweeted today, he and the other white actors around her are apart of the problem. I will always be grateful to him for advocating WA, but why all of the silence now? Why all of the public weirdness? She is the only one he treats like that. He didn’t even show support for the rag doll actor, who btw, sang his praises more than once. Ellen Pompeo is the ally CP deserves.

I don’t think they’re being particularly weird in public, given that we haven’t really seen them out in public. They seemed fine in the one video we saw on them at the party, for example. But he has been quiet about the show for the most part, I just don’t think it’s specifically directed at or about Candice.

Agree about Ellen, though! Candice could have used way more supportive costars, but thankfully she’s out here succeeding anyway.

Tati, I’m a butthead so I’m on anon 😝 I wonder who that one cast mate could be? The wannabe female lead perhaps…? The fake feminist that has been trying to erase CP’s presence on the show since S1. The been in the game forever chick that still can’t act. I could go on, but I think we all know who the one person is.

LMAO, who ever could you mean????

People are upset because Grant isn’t as openly supportive of Candice as they feel he should be. Honestly, of late he hasn’t seemed to be supportive of much. The show, his friends/family, etc. I think something is going on with him (personally). However, as long as he make it do what it do when he’s on screen with my girl CP making those 😍🥰 and rubbing her unnecessarily so WA continues to be a healthy interracial RL I don’t care if her supports her on sm or not. That’s what we as fans do. #IWDS

This is my thought too. He hasn’t been supporting much other than his skateboards lol. I wish he was more openly supportive of her and that the cast as a whole made their interactions more available for public consumption, but it’s also not something I’m hung up on. They are the way they are, and I wouldn’t trade (almost) any of them.

To me it wasn’t obvious that CP wanted to stand on that side of the cake since she kept looking over to the other side, which was already crammed. I agree that sometimes people project their own feelings into a situation (I’ve read some pretty wild theories about GG snobbing CP bc she’s not in a RL and he dislikes single people) but what we’ve seen of GG and CP outside of SM is positive. We got ONE video from the party and it was good. He’s horrendous on SM though. Don’t care if CP agrees or not

You are 100% right that we’re all projecting, lol. We don’t know them and we only see a tiny sliver of their lives, which they have chosen to show us.

Couldn’t it just be that Candice was standing on the right side of the room to begin with so she just went to the right side of the cake where Danielle N and JPK went too. I don’t think she’s so bothered by DP that she wouldn’t stand next to Grant, Carlos, or Tom because DP was there. I mean we have to remember that Candice is in the same room with DP everyday at work. It’s not like they explode if they get close.

It totally could be that, lol.

#the flash #anonymous #tatiana's thoughts #more asks under the cut #long post for ts #gossip

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decembercamiecherries · 7 years

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Crowded Cafés and Empty Streets

Have some stress relief killugon that I wrote earlier today and just finished editing now bc I’m slowly dying on the inside after taking a three hour test.

Killugon Miraculous Ladybug AU! Featuring a blushy Gon, a very confused Killua, a teasing Palm, a nervous Ladybug and a comforting Chat Noir- yes, they really are all in this.

Word Count: 2145

Links:

BEAUTIFUL fanart by emthimofnight that sparked this whole au

Miraculous x Hunter tag with other drabbles, asks, etc & the ao3 series page

“Okay, so, how about this one for kiss, marry or kill: Ladybug, Chat Noir, or Professor Wing?”

There was a strangled squawking sound. Gon looked left just in time to see his best friend’s mouth fall open, pale cheeks blooming red.

“Are you okay, Killua?” he asked with a hesitant smile.

“I’m-” Killua’s face was growing darker by the second, the way it always did when he whenever he got really embarrassed or anxious, “-um. I’m f-fine.”

“What’s with that expression, hmm?” Palm’s eyes glittered as she leaned forward on their tiny cafe table. “Don’t tell you’re so sensitive that you get embarrassed over a silly little game like this?”

Killua glowered. “Shut up, as if! I’m not that bad.”

“Then why are you blushing so much?”

“Maybe…” Gon pondered and Killua’s head snapped around to glare at him. Gon continued on anyway, totally unfazed by the murderous aura radiating of the silver haired teen, “Maybe you actually like like Ladybug or Chat Noir, Killua? That’s the only reason I can think of why you’d be acting like this.”

One of Killua’s blue eyes twitched. “You have got to be joking.”

“No, I agree with Gon,” Palm said and Gon giggled at Killua’s drawn out groan.

“You two are horrible,” Killua muttered. “Why the hell would I like Ladybug or Chat Noir?! Ladybug’s got a cool power but the guy has so much energy that he’s practically bouncing off skyscrapers half the time-”

Gon frowned, unable to hold the flicker of annoyance off his face. He did not do that! Well, maybe sometimes he did. But definitely not most of the time!!! Chat always made sure to bring him back if he ever got too distracted, so it was fine, right?

“- not to mention he carried me bridal style that one time even though I totally didn’t need his help!”

“You did need his help,” Gon said lowly.

“Did not! You weren’t even there, what do you know?!” Killua hissed at him and Gon just barely held back a bark of laughter at the irony of Killua saying that to him. “And Chat, on the other hand, is just…”

“Just what?” Palm prodded, nudging Killua’s shoulder.

Killua shoved her away with a scowl. “He’s just some random dude in a cat suit! I don’t know why anyone would find that attractive- especially that stupid bell. Ugh. Talk about dumb costumes.”

“You’re wrong,” Gon said before he could stop himself.

Killua blinked, clearly taken aback. “Huh?”

Whoops, I shouldn’t have said that, Gon thought with alarm. Killua didn’t know he was Ladybug, much less the fact that Ladybug happened to have a massive, mind-blowing crush on the ‘dude in a cat suit’, as Killua had put it.

But he had to say something now that Killua and Palm were staring at him.

“Uh, I-I mean,” Gon stammered. His face was on fire right now. “Chat’s really cool, you know? He’s always so graceful in akuma fights with his jumps and spins and everything. A-And its really amazing how he knows to use is ability to his advantage even though its supposed to bring bad luck. And, I think he’s…”

Gon trailed off as he remembered racing Chat across rooftops just last night, out of breath and high on adrenaline. He remembered Chat’s sharp-teeth grins and how Gon’s stomach twisted into knots whenever those glowing blue eyes glanced in his direction. He remembered the way his heart stuttered and soared every time he saw Chat’s lithe figure effortlessly leap and twist in the air.

“Gon?” Killua’s voice dragged him back to the present. Both Palm and Killua were looking at him with worry-clouded eyes and furrowed brows.

Gon took a deep breath. Then he admitted quietly, cheeks aflame, “I think Chat’s kind of beautiful, actually.”

“W-What?!”

Killua’s expression was nothing short of flabbergasted but Gon nodded stubbornly despite the nervous roll of his stomach. He refused to take back what he knew to be the truth. Chat was an enigma wrapped in black leather. He shone in the moonlight on even the darkest of nights. And Gon wanted nothing more than to pull back that dark mask and find out the identity of his most trusted ally and long-time crush.

“So-” Palm said with a suggestive smile, “- I’m taking that to mean you’d choose to make out with or marry Chat Noir? You’d have to kill Ladybug or Professor Wing, though.”

“Yes!” Gon said immediately, ignoring Killua’s surprised sputtering in the background. “Well, actually, I’d marry Chat because then I could make out with him whenever I wanted.”

“I can’t believe this,” Killua said weakly.

“Why?” Gon asked, confused. He didn’t get why Killua was acting so weird! It wasn’t like the topic was taboo. They’d talked about Ladybug and Chat before.

“Because! It’s just. It’s kind of, uh.”

“Kind of what?”

Killua scrunched his nose. “It’s just really weird to hear you talk about anyone like that! You’ve never shown interest in kissing or even dating anyone for real. And, no, I don’t count your idiotic platonic dates as actual dates!”

Palm’s eyebrows shot up. “Excuse me? What was that about platonic dates?”

“Gon goes on platonic dates with girls that ask him out.” Killua crossed his arms over his chest with a sour expression on his face. “It’s ridiculous. It’s like he can’t outwardly reject anyone.”

“I can!”

“No,” Killua said flatly. “You can’t. You’re too nice, that’s why they all like you.”

Gon stuck his tongue out and Killua flicked him in the forehead.

“Ow!!! Killua, that hurt!”

“Good, that mean’s you’ll stop acting like a little kid all the time, then.”

“I was not-”

“Alright, that’s enough you two!” Palm interrupted, but her voice shook with repressed laughter. “No more fighting! I’m dying to hear about these platonic dates. Do you kiss them on the cheek afterwards like a proper gentleman, too, Gon?”

“Paaaalm,” Gon whined as Killua snickered. “It’s not like that! I’d only kiss someone I’d really like!”

“Someone like Chat Noir, then?”

Gon’s pulse skyrocketed and for a second he forgot to breathe. His skin tingled like he’d been struck by lightning as he imagined what it might feel like to have those pale, thin lips pressed against his own.

What should he say? He hadn’t told anyone about his intense feelings for his superhero partner, not even Killua-

“I’m tired of this game,” Killua announced suddenly and his chair made a loud screeching sound as he pushed away from the table. “I’m going to get more hot chocolate. You’d better not still be talking about this when I get back.”

“You’re such a kill-joy!” Palm yelled at Killua’s retreating back. Killua stuck up his middle finger without turning around and Palm let out a laugh that sounded like a witch’s cackle. It was so loud other people turned to stare at them.

Gon fidgeted in his plastic chair. He was glad that Killua had changed the topic, but…

But why was it, though, that he could see the back of Killua’s ears burning bright red as he walked away?

“Hey, Palm?” he asked.

“Hm?”

“Do you think Killua is acting weird?”

Palm gave him a funny look. “No? He’s being his usual grumpy and sassy self. You know how he is better than anyone, Gon- you two practically live together! He’ll be in a better mood once he gets his chocolate, you’ll see.”

Gon bit his bottom lip. Maybe he was just being paranoid?

Or maybe Killua was hiding something from Gon.

“What’s wrong?” Chat Noir asked and Gon jumped.

“I- uh, what?”

Chat rolled his shinning, azure eyes. Gon couldn’t help but notice how beautiful Chat’s hair looked in the glowing moonlight; it shifted and brightened like melted silver as the pair walked side-by-side down an empty street.

Chat repeated, “I said, what’s wrong? You keep making that face.”

Gon frowned. “What face?”

“Y’know, the one where you do the thing-” Chat made a vague gesture with one of his clawed hands, “- the thing when you bite your bottom lip, gaze off into the distance and sigh a lot? That one?”

“I don’t do that,” Gon said immediately.

“Yes,” Chat insisted. “You do.”

“No, I-”

“Ladybug.”

Gon shut up at Chat’s tone. But the soft expression on what little Gon could make out of Chat’s face made his legs go weak.

“I can tell when something’s up with you,” Chat said, more gently this time. “Okay? We’ve been friends for years now.”

Heat slowly crept onto Gon’s cheeks behind his spotted red and black mask. Years? Had it really been that long? It felt like he had known Chat forever.

“You’re spacing out again.”

“Ah!” Gon flushed harder. “I’m sorry! I was just…”

“Thinking,” Chat said as he tucked his hands behind his head. “I know. What were you thinking about? Is it the same thing you’ve been thinking about all night?”

Should Gon tell him? It wasn’t like Gon had a problem telling Chat his identity, far from it. He had wanted to tell Chat the truth about who he was for ages now. Chat was the one who didn’t want to know.

Better go the safe route, then. He didn’t want Chat to get mad with him.

“It’s my friend,” Gon said finally. When Chat flicked his tail to show he was listening, Gon continued hesitantly, “It’s my best friend, actually. He said something today when we were playing a game, and I couldn’t help wondering…”

“Wondering what?”

Gon whirled around to face Chat and blurted out, “Am I too energetic?!”

Chat blinked. “Uh. What?”

“Do I have too much energy?” Gon said again. He sounded desperate to even his own ears, but he couldn’t help it! He nervously fiddled his thumbs as he asked, “Am I- do I annoy you, because of it? I know I get distracted really easily and sometimes I go too far, but I really don’t mean to do it and I need you to tell me if I ever get too bad because I-”

Chat abruptly flicked Gon’s forehead.

“Ow!” Gon cried out, slapping his hand over the stinging skin. It had been the exact spot Killua had flicked him earlier that day. “What was that fo-”

“For blabbing,” Chat said as he shook his head. “Jeez. If I didn’t do that you’d be yapping on until morning.”

Gon pouted and rubbed his forehead. “Does that mean you really do find me annoying?”

Chat snorted. “You’re annoying, sure. But I don’t mind.”

Gon froze. What?

“What?” he said out loud and Chat huffed.

“I don’t mind your energy,” Chat said sincerely, looking directly at Gon’s so the other teen could see the truth shinning in his eyes. “I don’t mind that you talk a lot, or that you get easily distracted. Is it a pain in the ass sometimes? Sure, ‘course it is. Especially when we need to focus on something important. But-”

And it was here that Chat reached out to grasp Gon’s upper arms. Gon’s heart jumped up into his throat and he was suddenly hyper-aware Chat’s fingers digging slightly into Gon’s muscles, how his claws lightly scratched against Gon’s Ladybug suit.

Chat squeezed Gon’s arms reassuringly as he said, “But that’s all part of who you are, Ladybug. You’re crazy and kind of wild, but you’re my partner. And one of my closest friends. Being energetic isn’t a bad thing; who else could keep up with me, or make me run in circles if you weren’t like that? I would be so bored all the time if you weren’t so energetic.”

Gon laughed breathlessly. His whole body was hot, now. There was a tingling warmth growing in his chest and making his toes curl. He felt like he could fly.

“You really mean it?” he asked helplessly.

“Yes. Now stop with the sighing, alright? I’m sure your boyfriend didn’t mean to upset you by saying that.”

Gon’s mouth fell open. “I-! No, you’ve got it all wrong! My friend isn’t- he’s not my boyfriend-”

“Mhm, sure,” Chat said with a smirk, arms falling back to his sides, and Gon momentarily mourned the loss of Chat’s hands on him. “Whatever you say, Ladybug.”

“I’m not lying!” Gon protested.

“Oooookay.”

“Chat!”

But his partner just laughed freely. He suddenly leaped upwards into the air without warning, leaving Gon to gape after him.

Gon shut his mouth a second later and smiled to himself. He could still feel the strange giddy warmth bubbling up inside him; it was like his heart was doing back flips and somersaults in his chest.

If Chat didn’t mind his energy, that was enough for Gon. They could still be Chat Noir and Ladybug- partners, friends...and maybe one day, something more.

Chat had been the one Gon would’ve chosen to marry, after all.

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