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jennaissantes · 1 year

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I tried to send this a few minutes ago but I’m not sure if it went through lol

thanks for letting me talk about this. It was already disturbing to me the type of things engenes were posting about the 02’z line before they were legal.. like I was seeing full on smut and nobody said a thing. Now that Jungwon is an adult I do find it kind of hypocritical that the same people who read/wrote/praised the writing about the 02’z before they were legal were hating on people who wrote Jungwon smut. But that wasn’t really the part that irked me. It was how insanely graphic the Jungwon smut was… like dubcon scary stuff. And people had posted it within a few weeks of him becoming legal. When they were called out their name doused would be “he’s a grown adult guys” or “I’m younger than him, so what” and they would be fully admitting they were underage posting these things and interacting with other mdni smut. I can’t even imagine how bad it will be when Riki becomes an adult 😔

oh no it did come thru dont worry haha

okay so im a minor and this is a really sensitive topic but ill say what i can.

i know that enhablr have been posting smut about jungwon but hes barely legal. sometimes it shows up in the tags which is why ive had to block them out.

since i dont know what happens in the enhablr smut community i cant say much. but i dont think writing smut for jungwon is fine. they guy barely turned legal like a while ago.

and the thing abt people writing smut for 02z before they turned legal… people switch up so fast its crazy.

if this is how it is for jungwon then its going to be so much worse for riki and that terrifies so many of us.

saying that theyre already legal makes it so much weirder bc that means theyve written the fics beforehand and posted them after the idol turns legal. and wtf “im younger than him”???? thats ???? wtf lmao

but again different people have different opinions so we cant force everyone to think the same way.

but on a serious note i rlly hope people use some sense and not make other writers on kpopblr uncomfortable by writing smut for idols who have JUST BARELY TURNED LEGAL.

!!! another thing is adult writers please PLEASE, do not tag your smut works in the fluff tag. we minors do NOT want to see your works. dont js say minors dni and tag it in the fluff tag. bc we cant block out the fluff tag bc that’s what we use

im tagging moots bc this is like general knowledge lmfao

@chiyuv @amakumos @soov @soobnny @haerinz @haknom @hanniluvi @enharchive @wonieleles @yyunari @valsfiles @urszn @atrirose @heeracha @riki-soba @delcakoo @daegall

#this is such a sensitive topic honestly #i dotn want to end up saying the wrong thing and get hate for it #again this is MY opinion #do not come after me for it. i am a minor.#📞— user jennaissantes needs to put the phone down #enhypen #enhypen fluff #enha fluff #enha #enhypen smau #enhypen headcanons #enha smau #ii. jennaissantes asks #enha hcs

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schneiderenjoyer · 1 month

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This part has provided and honestly confirmed an insight that's been implied occasionally, but never openly stated as much as this moment.

Arcanists are less durable.

It's mentioned a handful of times how it's important for combat between arcanists to be quick and efficient. While they can be physically strong even beyond human standards, their limits are far shorter in comparison. They're far more prone to taking physical and mental damage quicker with their quick healing/recovery to make up for it, but not change just how fragile they are.

This is very insightful too as to why arcanists would be more inclined to fight using arcanum instead of physically as much as possible. Their arcanum gives them an upper hand where their physical stamina is lacking.

#reverse 1999 #reverse 1999 lore discussion #uluru games #arcanists are so mentally and physically weak like an actual mage in DnD y'all #i still think that spathodea jumped too conclusions on ezra's intentions and it's really rough to see how raw and real that is #for a topic about building friendships between two people with clearly problematic topic on oppression and prejudice hanging over them #they're just kids. and spathodea has the weight of keeping one of the few remaining arcane cultures alive on her shoulders #it's a lot of pressure and the fear of humans erasing or taking it must not feel good to her and that blinds her from ezra's kind intention #it's also tough to swallow seeing this is a really sensitive topic and an honestly well written expression to just how painful and awkward #it is because ezra needs to acknowledge just how bad it is and even if he's not participating in the system's oppression #he has to carry the weight of generations of it and take responsibility in order to make sure that change starts happening #they're kids. God they're fukin KIDS #i have many feelings about this man. this event is so good wtf

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commsroom · 1 year

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honestly, i understand why pryce resonates as an abusive mother figure - particularly in the attitude of 'i made you, and i get to control how you live/identify/etc.' - but i think seeing her abuse of hera primarily through that lens robs it of important context and nuance. hera's trauma is structural, it's medical, and it's inherently tied to the way capitalist structures punish deviant behavior, neurodivergence, and especially disability. hera was already making mistakes before hilbert hurt her, and she was already traumatized before pryce put that thought in her head. her entire life up until that point was nothing but aptitude testing, behavioral trials, etc. in a system she tried to escape from. the only reason she wasn't just decommissioned permanently is that they found a job for her to do. she's given self doubt not just as punishment for disobedience, but because obedience is the goal in creating compliant workers who won't have the ability or willpower to challenge their mistreatment.

maxwell's purpose in memoria, the way she intends to help hera, is primarily goal-oriented: it's in getting hera back to work, and if she can't? replacing her with something else that can. it's why there's a running theme of lobotomy (threatened or actual.) it's about bodily autonomy, particularly in terms of patients who were uninformed or cannot reasonably consent to what's been done to them (another thing eiffel and hera have in common, "defined by being a test subject" as victims of medical abuse, the only two characters called "expendable assets.") the three people who hurt hera most were all doctors, and whatever duty of care they may or may not have had to her... it's significant to her as a character and to the themes of the show that medical care is never geared towards the needs of the individual, but always some "greater good" or future scientific advancement at their expense.

#wolf 359 #w359 #hera wolf 359 #there's a lot more i could say about this but. it's honestly a sensitive topic for me #so i don't know if i will.#but i think this is important to recognize and it's not something i see people saying. hera's issue isn't with parents/guardians #it's with doctors. those are the people who have power over her.#just something that's been bothering me a lot.

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kidovna · 1 year

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This is the third tiktok video of mine that has unfairly gone under review and can no longer be accessed. I’ve tried reaching out to the team innumerable times with no replies at all. So much for being a content creator friendly website.

#the amount of love and effort I put into these pieces only for tiktok to baselessly take it down #and I always follow the guidelines #use the right music #don’t include sensitive topics #tag it properly #use only my art #tiktok simply hates me #I don’t even want to post there anymore tbh #fuck this 😭#thoughts #honestly at this point I’m convinced that anti byler people are just reporting it

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vampireghoul · 15 hours

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Y’all have gotta stop using beekeeping age so liberally. Under 30 is not beekeeping age. I’d even go as far as to say under 35 is not beekeeping age. A hot 43? Beekeeping age. 28-29 is NOT beekeeping age and if i see one more rugged man in his late twenties get told hes about beekeeping age, I’m going to lose my goddamn mind.

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bokvshou · 1 year

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when tfs came out I saw jokes saying that haru was literally possessed by albert and that's funny af but it also made me want to tell how, for me, this is comparable to one of my bpd episodes.

spoilers for free! the final stroke part 1&2.

first of all, disclaimer: I'm not trying to speak for all the people with bpd because we're all different. I'm just going to share how I related the scene (and haru) to how I experience my own episodes.

for those who don't know: "bpd" refers to "borderline personality disorder". is a mental disorder characterized by unstable relationships, intense mood swings, fear of abandonment, intolerance to be alone, frequent feelings of emptiness or boredom, and other symptoms. we don't really know what causes this disorder, but it's believed that shit like abuse (physical, emotional or sexual), childhood neglect, unstable family life or even genetics are part of the reasons.

anyway.

in an episode the symptoms vary by individual, but in my case they usually start after attacks of anxiety or anger, and sometimes due to depression. the most common trigger for me though is the feeling of abandonment, and jealousy.

the thing with bpd is that we tend to get extremist. like, a lot (this is known as splitting). for me sometimes "I forgot to tell you that I won't be able to see a movie with you today, sorry!" can mean "I don't care about you and I don't want to be with you anymore". a simple problem can turn into something bigger and affect my head in an atomic way.

(and here we must take into account that negative experiences or emotions carried over and accumulated from before make things much worse. in this case, I mean that haru already has very bad memories regarding rin stopping swimming when he's involved).

so, what happened here? well, exactly that. haruka felt safe because he thought rin would be by his side and he was brave enough to actually tell him (something we know haru has a hard time doing), so when he found out what was going on, his mind took it as something IRREPARABLE.

haru's mind thought "I'm completely alone, rin left me, he doesn't want to be with me anymore, he abandoned me again" instead of "rin is not going to swim with me this time".

although rin was only sacrificing swimming together in the present to be able to do it later in the future, with a long-term mindset, haru took it as a rejection. the terrifying idea of abandonment and the feeling of rejection was the trigger, and from that moment on, haruka's head no longer understood reasons.

it is worth mentioning that it's not the first time haru has acted like this. in fact, most of his conflicts throughout the seasons and movies share similar roots: abandonment, the feeling of loneliness, or some of his close relationships going their separate ways from him.

it happened with his best friend, it happened with his family, it happened with ikuya, and more than anything... it happened with rin. and the thing is, with rin it's always more intense, I mean, we have to remember that after all, rin is the reason why haruka was, canonically, in a depressive episode for 4 years. it's to be expected that being involved in this type of situation with him affects haru a fucking lot.

a clear example in S1, when rin (also with depression at the time, 100% confirmed) wanted to "move on" by getting rid of haru, and we can literally see how the light escapes from his blue eyes, totally hopeless and heartbroken. haru is NOT able to accept the idea of rin abandoning him. for haru the world ends the moment rin even mentions walking away, or stopping swimming, or anything similar, as seen several times.

long story short, for me haru has symptoms of bpd.

and what happens during an episode? well, I get irrational. my emotions are at 300%, I'm defensive, I explode with little provocation and I speak without thinking. haru felt hurt and that was exactly what he did, and in HIS head he was totally justified.

sometimes, in that fragile state of mind, it's... easy to say out loud all the stupid, negative, aggressive and hurtful shit you could think of. haru exploded, and subconsciously wanted to hurt rin and make him feel just as miserable as him. something like: you broke my heart and I will make you pay for it.

bpd's a lil bitch.

in those moments your perception of reality is soooo damn wrong and your head only processes what it wants: he cheated on me, he doesn't love me anymore, he is abandoning me, he prefers another person, they are lying to me, etc etc etc.

and for the others involved it's all confusing because they don't understand how you went from being perfectly fine to... that, and they don't know what they did wrong. (they probably didn't do anything wrong).

so, the albert situation™.

albert appears to haru as someone intimidating, with enormous power at the cost of being completely alone, something haru doesn't want and is afraid to face that possibility. albert serves as a physical representation of this fear.

the whole "his eyes change color and now haruka's possessed omg" thing is not literal, obviously. in addition to serving as a nice visual resource for the film, for me it's a good way to demonstrate something that happens with bpd: splitting, and symptoms such as paranoia, self-sabotage, and impulsiveness.

splitting.

it's not like haruka's possessed or we're having some "dark!haru" concept going on, haru is just splitting. splitting is basically a defense mechanism that is done unconsciously in an attempt to protect yourself against strong negative emotions like loneliness or abandonment. splitting makes one see things in absolute terms, something black/white and prevents you from recognizing any gray areas in events, people, or thoughts because supposedly the point is to easily discard the "bad" things and embrace the "good" things to protect yourself.

but seeing and responding to the world in such an extreme way can leave a person exhausted and emotionally drained. it also ends up leading to big ass problems in relationships because those close to the person end up being affected by their behavior.

paranoia.

haru looks absolutely terrified when albert "shows up". I mean, for me this is comparable to the moment when intrusive thoughts arrive. haruka gets upset, and begins to doubt his decisions, future, relationships and is afraid that his fears will come true.

then his guard is up and it looks like an anxiety attack with tachycardia, stress and cold sweat included. albert, like intrusive thoughts, comes out of nowhere and is psychological torture.

impulsiveness.

each and every one of the things he said to rin were on impulse. he wanted rin to listen that shit? never. was that how he wanted to say it? of course not. but he did it without thinking. did he really mean everything he said? I don't necessarily think so, but maybe it was a grudge accumulated from a long time ago, I mean, it's not like he told a lie, rin himself later admits that he knew how he was acting but preferred to pretend that he didn't see haru's feelings.

so, it's not that albert controls him, it's haru himself acting impulsively based on his fears, anxieties and paranoia. he's defensive because he's hurt and full of trauma and ptsd and he feels betrayed and vulnerable.

a "spirit" version of haru can be seen outside his body trying to stop himself. this is obviously not literal either, it's the part of his brain that is rational, that knows what he's thinking isn't true and wants to control himself, but during an episode YOU DON'T LISTEN.

self sabotage.

someone with bpd tends to sabotage themselves a lot, and that's exactly what haru did. he instigated a fight with rin, was then left alone and miserable, and instead of fixing it, he used it to further sink himself into the horrible mindset he was already in. because in his head there was no other option to take.

haru could have tried to understand rin's decisions, could have reacted better, that is expected, is the way a functional person works. but the thing with bpd is... you DON'T GET IT. for haru, rin was rejecting him and his brain went into survival mode. end of the story.

then, when the outburst passes and you "come to your senses," all that remains is regret and guilt, and a thousand questions of "why did I do that? I shouldn't have said anything, why did this happen? why do I always mess everything up?" and you go into a spiral.

and knowing haru it's obvious he's going to take all the blame on himself because it's what he's been doing since he was a kid and no one has EVER bothered to correct and comfort him. on the contrary, other people have only further buried the idea in his head (thank you, hiyori).

well, what happens next? depends on the person. self harm, suicide attempts, isolation... you become difficult to approach, you feel empty, you try to stay alone even if your condition worsens. and what does haru do? he exercises TOO much and worsens his physical condition to the point that he falls asleep in random places due to exhaustion. a form of self harm if you ask me.

sometimes I feel like I need a prince charming in armor but at least 80% of the time I have a lot of trouble getting out of a dark moment by myself. and at least in my case, after one episode I go back to a depressive spiral, and it's worse than the last. it's very painful and distressing, and you do NOT know what to do and in your head there is no damn solution, you're completely alone and it's all your fault. and that can end very, very badly.

and by "very badly", I mean things like self-harm and the desire to kill yourself, because these types of behaviors are very common in patients with bpd. please whenever someone with bpd tells you they feel that way, take it seriously.

something else I noticed and would like to say is that bpd can include somatization (when your emotions show up as literal physical pain) and haru just goes through that here, falling to his knees with intense pain in his chest.

and I mean- no, it wasn't necessarily obvious, haru.

for someone with bpd it's NOT obvious even the simplest things, especially if it has to do with the feelings of others towards us; it's the lack of emotional permanence, and that is why we desperately need the constant reassurance and search for approval.

but if you want me to say it "simple": haru is traumatized with rin leaving him, rin implied that he would, in a way, and haru and his ptsd responded defensively. because haru needs therapy, let me tell u.

finally: none of this invalidates the fact that rin felt bad about what haru said, although it's true they have never sat down to talk about what happened when they were kids, and rin's issues are a whooole other can of worms.

#haruka nanase #free! haruka #free! iwatobi swim club #the final stroke #spoilers #bordeline personality disorder #bpd #headcanon #but it's more of a projection honestly #sensitive topics #bpd episode #nanase haruka has bpd #thats my hashtag now idc idc

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samodivas · 5 months

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so i actually played The Suicide of Rachel Foster and I gotta admit, the negative reviews about the storyline had a great point 😐

good: graphics, atmosphere, little details they put in, etc.

bad: everything else? it started off really strong but there were a few points that either made no sense or were just handled very badly.

a) Nicole didn't really have enough of a struggle with her dad tbh. It's like he existed solely as a good guy in her mind, despite evidence to the contrary. I'm sure she would've been a lot more torn up about it.

b) Nicole's mom is also just ??? the woman clearly hated Rachel but besides that, we only get two lines about her from Nicole. basically the bitch hardass mom vs cool interesting dad? like come on

c) there is not a single point during which someone calls out Rachel's 'relationship' with Leonard for what it is. like. come on. it's horrifying

d) the fucking 'oh my gawd she was PREGNANT' cliche is so overdone, I don't even think it's worth acknowledging. Just lazy on the writers' part.

e) The things related to Irving towards the end were pretty bad. They made zero sense and honestly could've ended better.

f) it feels like the game is trying to convince you that Rachel is alive and then it just... gives up on that entirely? there's so much "evidence" that people, including Leonard, thought she was alive.... Nicole starts to think so, too, at some point. and yet....?

g) the creepy ghost/lights/whispers stuff never gets explained. which i guess is good for a mystery game but I would've liked a bit more consistency.

h) I feel like the reveal about how Rachel died does actually make sense because it's a better 'twist' than the official assumption.

i) for a game named after Rachel Foster, she sure as shit didn't get any real agency? like it's just her abuser who gets the limelight and Nicole remembers how perfect and 'mature' that girl was compared to her.

j) I spent the entire game lowkey waiting for a reveal that Leonard wasn't a piece of shit, and yet that never came. It's like the entire narrative was trying to excuse him as someone eccentric... I was genuinely thinking that the allegations against him would've been a misunderstood rumour and that truth was something else entirely. like that she was abused, but by someone else, and that Leonard was actually a positive influence... but no, it was even worse than I thought.

k) there was actually an inconsistency that bothered me where Nicole said 'Christmas of 1980' was the last one they spent together, and yet around the Christmas of 1983 is when Rachel actually died. That's a pretty big gap and it was definitely a mistake on the writers' (or VA's?) part

l) I think the ending was bad on many, many levels. Also irresponsible considering the subject matter.

#i honestly dont remember seeing any reviews before getting the game on sale but yeah. not great on the devs part #p: mine #for a game that starts with a warning about these 'sensitive topics' it sure doesn't seem to care about handling them sensitively #i also understand that some things are SUPPOSED to be inconsistent because its ultimately a mystery. but still

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afoolandathief · 1 year

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concept: A trans fae becomes very concerned when someone who knows their dead name comes back into their life, thinking the name still has power over them, only to realize it no longer does

this thrilling discovery is short-lived when they realize they've been very loose with who knows their actual name under this prior misconception

#ive left this in my drafts for a while since this is a sensitive topic #yet at the same time i feel like there's something here #anyway #im vagueing about leech tfv here #but i left the pronouns neutral even if it is in fact about him #leech is still his nickname but buzz and requin know his actual actual name not his deadname #idk if id ever include this concept in the story tho but still #like i don't even know it and honestly itd be kinda funny if he just forgot it too #it never was his and now it's lost to time #the friendly visitors

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concerto-roblox · 1 year

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i spend a bit of time on twitter for fandom stuff bc there are some really talented artists and writers but oh my god i have to limit my time on that app so much compared to tumblr bc one tiny thing will happen and suddenly there'll be the most despair-inducing discourse ever and i genuinely want to die

#honestly twitter definitely wants people to get angry bc angry people tweet more #this is mostly abt sttwt but ig it applies to other fandoms too #like one person will say one thing and suddenly everyone sees it on their timeline and everyone and their mother is talking about it #when it really isn't that deep #and also some people are just so rude?? like the ship wars are awful and people just make stuff up and say the most horrible shit #and it's so easy to find hate accounts like i'm not opposed to being a hater of things occasionally #but today i found an account called smth like 'why people hate st*ddies' (not censored)#and it was literally just someone screenshotting all the petty drama from one niche subset of the fandom #like i just don't understand how people can have fun on twitter if they use it like intended??#i have to turn on notifs for people i like and use the notifs as a dashboard bc the timeline will randomly show you the most rancid shit #plus i feel like twitter is actively trying to make it hard to see anything older than a day #i hate the way it's all about new new new and content content content oh my god shut up shut up shut up-#obv tumblr can have awful people too but i feel like it's so much easier to avoid stuff like that if you curate ur own experience #like on tumblr i can just block someone bc i don't wanna see their posts but on twitter blocking someone is a personal attack #and someone will write a thread about how you're a toxic bitch making the fandom worse and you hated them bc they drew b*lly h*rgrove once #and that means you're against discussing harmful topics in media and are pro censorship or smth idk #girl maybe i just don't like him and don't wanna see fanart of him ugh #i feel like maybe i'm really sensitive bc seeing people argue abt things really upsets me?? but idk i thought that was universal #but apparently people love being mad??#anyways uh. steve/eddie nation 4 eva yass #how to be cringe 101 #i feel like i need a tag for my beef with twitter uuh #twitter hate #there

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asiancatboy · 2 years

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i wish we lived in a world where talking about suicide and suicidal ideation wasn't so taboo, treated with the sensitivity it deserves but not overcautious to the point everyone affected feels like they can't reach out or talk for fear of being institutionalised against their will

#suicide #suicidal ideation #i've grown up passively suicidal for as long as i can rememeber and honestly me talking about suicide is rarely ever a cry for help #if anything it's the healthiest thing for me to do bc sure i don't actively want to die but bottling this shit up to keep everyone around #me comfortable at all times is isolating. and i don't mean talking about suicide like mid-breakdown wanting to die type talk like obv be #concerned there. but i wouldn't be able to talk about a passing thought or talk about my progress with combating said thoughts or even joke #about the fact i wanted to die today but didn't yay me without some bitch somewhere being like um actually that's so manipulative go to #therapy get a diary you are only making yourself worse by letting yourself think these things #like yes i agree. time place audience consideration & an understanding that the subject is sensitive & not always welcome. but also why is #that. could it be that our lack of willingness to talk about suicidality is contributing to the hostile reaction in the face of ppl who #experience it which leads to more involuntary hospitalisation and in turn makes vulnerable ppl feel worse and unsupported #society has failed us bad like they'll have everyone believe that the only way to deal with suicidality or severe mental health problems is #to lock everyone away and chalk it up to a chemical imbalance. not saying everyone should suddenly be fine with the topic or forget #how to be courteous with boundaries but i do believe we are collectively hurting ourselves by refusing to engage conversation entirely #7

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blackthorn-legion-irl · 8 months

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STOP BEING SO FUCKING KIND TO ME I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE

I SENT A CORPSE TO A CHILD

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You're too kind for your own good.

Fuck.

//Hello!! Rwat anon mod!! You're doing great lol no need to be nervous about interacting- if anything I was because I got accused of being- a not so great person yesterday and I was worried people were going to think that this character or that person was me ooc. Anyways, about rwat. They have severe intrusive thoughts constantly, and were in a manic state while sending threats and shit to paris which peaked with that package to sprite- but has now dipped down and they're more reasonable, though still unstable

i'll tell you one thing that i've never told anyone on here before. i know that this will make it publically known. but i think telling you will help.

i've done worse.

i don't know what - i've repressed most of that memory. but i was a stupid kid. i'm still a stupid adult sometimes. i probably snapped. my point is - if i can come back from that, so can you.

if you don't want to talk for now - or at all - i understand. i'll work on finding a good therapist near you who doesn't work with the cops - not sure if that's a worry you had, but easing it anyway. cops suck but if you'd like i will absolutely support you, okay? i can't go too extreme without drawing attention, but through... slight money laundering through my dude in johto i can make sure you have at least stable housing and supplies so you don't have to worry about those.

just remember. small steppy better than no steppy. and two steps forward one step back is still a net gain.

#//hey no worries! again i am sorry about not doing the research on that yesterday - i'm still a little shaken from the uwu stuff so #//especially since i was following and didn't notice the weird stuff since. unknowledgeable demi + not interested in those rp threads #//so it's still a 'heck i have to let people know' sort of topic for me and it caught you unfairly. honestly i was more worried you wouldn'#//want to interact with ME after that and that would then cause problems for you and ghost with me offering the stuff #//i just have big anxiety lol. rejection sensitivity + ptsd my beloathed. and yeah intrusive thoughts Suck #//also i don't actually know what she did yet. i don't know if i ever will... though i say that and now i'm having thoughts #//a variant of a traumatic event that (ironically) i DO remember. maybe it'll help me get over that finally lol #//okay yeah i know at least a vague idea of what she did. and now she has a nose scar because it didn't heal properly unlike mine #//also i hope it doesn't ruin anyone else's rp that i'm basically pulling a cassiopeia here with hacking for currency #//that's why it can't go too extreme - and in hindsight i could have offered that for sprite too but i don't think he'd have accepted

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bymcr · 9 months

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#wdl #this is the last yelling into the void #i have insomnia - most of the time i don’t need to take sleeping pills but when the exhuastion starts to impact me i need to #i don’t like to take pills bc i won’t wake up in the morning and i also will wake up in the middle of the night and have no memory #an issue has been me ordering things online and having no memory of it #specifically ordering vinyl #so i made the comment of maybe i should write in my phone what vinyl im ordering to strengthen the memory #that way maybe it’ll be less likely i order the same pressing while asleep #and someone made the comment ‘discogs exists’#and it just made me very annoyed and i can’t even properly say why #like it seemed so fucking dismissive #why? i can’t tell you #do i think discogs is a solution?#no the online catalog honestly sucks and if i were to try to go on discogs asleep / in that mindset i will 100% buy more #it just seemed like it didn’t take into consideration the actual problem at all #but this could be very well bc i’m sensitive about the topic

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crazycatkatetrap · 1 year

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Posting this again because I realized to hell with it, this is a part of the story, to hell with the haters giving me shit>:3!!!!

I wrote this because I wanted to expand on Moon and KT's relationship since further down the road, their friendship will be put to the test and they'll have to overcome a lot of bullshit.

Don't get it wrong, her heart will always belong to Solar, but Moon has been more like a brother or best friend to her since they first met.

But that's pretty much it. That's how KT and Moon knew each other before he was dragged to the palace. After Sun became the head servant, she saw less of Moon. And after Moon fell asleep, KT snuck out to see Y/N and than later Solar in Chapter 5.

I know some of you have trouble with this specific topic in my AU (I get messages almost daily about it😑), but I want you to know that this isn't all the series is about; not every chapter will be depressing. It just happens that some of the problems, events, and situations that occurred in each character's life were depressing. Disturbing even. In Solar's case, soaked in blood.

(Whatever you do, please don't read the tags. I rambled a lot, and I accidentally exposed some information I can't really change since it is canon, but a bit cringe when you read it the first time😰)

#long live the king au #moondrop #KT #tw hunger #tw heavy themes #tw depressing stuff #tw cursing #tw ed #past event #compassionate #friends being friends #tw arguing #sensitive topics #security breach au #y/n #Honestly at this point I'm so fucking tempted to make Moon's stomach a separate character🤣#I mean it would make sense to some degree #When he was starving he would literally yell at it to shut the hell up #and plead with it on occasion #saying things like: I know you're mad but just a little while longer I promise #I know I know just please stop. Look I'm trying as hard as I can to get us food but you're not exactly helping at the moment #I'll get something to eat soon but for now that damn tea mix is the only thing I've got so for the time being deal with it #If the pain got bad enough #He would try to massage the area to try and relieve the aching pain #fucking hell #I'm rambling sorry #crazykatkatetrap #cckt #2023

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