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everysongineverykey · 9 months

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the amazon social media people are genuinely such cowards for this. as if aziraphale thinking like this wasn't THE huge problem that acted as the catalyst for their awful messy separation and the big dramatic third season conflict. rip to them but i love crowley as he is💙

#good omens #this has been bothering me for days lol #the fall has changed crowley drastically! it made him into the person he is today!#i know the account isn't run by any of the writers #but surely even they would understand that wishing crowley had never fallen #misses the whole point of his character!#anyway. it's one tweet lol not really a big deal i'm just a passionate crowley enjoyer💙

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icewindandboringhorror · 10 days

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boy in silly sitting positions compilation

#cats #I especially like the last one where he just has one single paw poking out of that box for some reason lol #I still have costumes to post and like a billion other things.... grr... constantly failing at staying active on social media aughh #I think because currently my Main Focus is on trying to get my game done and stuff.. which basically just means sitting and writing all day #so there's not much to post about. Though I know the Good At Social Media thing to do would be to post about the #writing and share progress and talk about the game and characters or whatever to try to build interest or something but that is SOOO weird #to me.. I could maybe get it if it was like a tiny tiny discord groupchat of playtesters with like 5 people in #it.. But something about talking openly about things before they happen is weird to me?? Like presumptuous feeling or something #''oooo guess whats gonna happen LATER!!!'' like.. how do you know.. what if it doesnt. what if you dont finish it. what if its not the way #you think it's going to be. what if something changes. etc. Like I literally avoid movie trailers and game trailers for the same reason ghj #Even if it's not ME doing it it just feels... weird.. Maybe it has to do with my OCD and how I just don't like talking about ''future''#things in Certain Terms. Like if I was going to say ''Oh yeah sure. come over to my house in a few months''. I would have to follow it up #with like ''HOPEFULLY you can come over to my house in a few months'' or 'They'll come over in a few months MOST LIKELY''. Because just #stating that something will happen matter of factly takes for granted like.. what if somehting horrible happens and I DONT have a house #in a few months? or what if something bad happens to me. or to the person coming over? I can't ever DEFINITELY say with 100% certainty #that one could ACTUALLY come to my house in a few months. anything could change. So I have to allot for that in my phrasing. hbjjkn #There are a lot of situations where you're expected to just Assume Things but for some reason that bothers me. My brain literally does not #even Assume the most basic things.. like how do *I* know that just because it's someones birthday that they want to be wished a happy #birthday? what if they dont? everyone is different and has different preferences. I should check with them first. or wait until they public #ly announce that theyre accepting birthday wishes. I have to allot for all 5034859069 rare possibilities at any given time and never take #anything for certain. etc. ghjbjhbh.... ANYWAY.. I have been feeling a bit sick lately as usual.. but still slowly making progress on some #things. Moslty I need to edit costume photos. make sculptures. and work on the game. Going back reading some of the old writing from like #2018 and suprisingly I don't have to change that much of it? In fact I like it mostly. so that's good. I would be very interested if I were #playing the game myself. Though that doesnt mean much since my tastes are so niche lol..#Still really want to clear some of my million tumblr drafts as well... alas and aughh and ooughh and so on and so forth. Between all of my #evil appointments other such things...why cant I have one billion dollar to retire into relaxed hermit artist life of no stressors.. bleas

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puppyeared · 3 months

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adhd comix

#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired #like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability #and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors #i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working #isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol #if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you #need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid #im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher #to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll #go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms #AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis #theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were #comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run #and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make #a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!!#im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need #to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh #yapping #vent

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monitorkernelaccess · 13 days

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do you guys think that Falin is like. okay with her chimera form? does she accept it as just what her body is in that moment? does she think it’s cool, or would she in other circumstances? is she having fun like flapping her big wings and climbing up walls and swishing her tail and such?

#can you tell that chimera Falin has been really bothering me these past few days?#this is a Me problem I know I’m insane with media but still #original post #dungeon meshi #anyway this is like make or break for me on whether or not I can be comfortable with like seeing chimera Falin sexualized #i mean I guess I’m gonna have to be cause like she already has been in the anime and manga lol #but like. it makes me feel baaaaaad if I start thinking of chimera Falin as hot or whatever because #there’s. a Falin in there. who (probably) doesn’t want to be chimera #and had it forced upon her #it feels wrong to be like ‘ooo she’s so hot when she’s in pain being forced into a monstrous form that isn’t her own’#and I know like ‘she’s not real she can’t be hurt by it + you don’t need consent from a fictional character’#but it. personally makes me feel bad. that’s just how it is

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keeps-ache · 3 months

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hm. i do not remember the screenshot being this big hfvsh

#wip #i like this one the best and also.. it might be the best one Lmaofhvs #[points] its the He #this is also very nearly the final product hvfhs #i'm just gonna colour them a bit and then leave it at that :)#(i'm doing an expression sheet again :3 :D)#i'm drawing each of these individually unlike how i did with the bl.s ones cuz his funkin Hair likes to catch me out hbvfsh #//anyway i've been working on this thing for nearly a week ???#'keeps why' i have been. writing #i do So enjoy infodumping about this project hvfhs #plusss putting it in a little booky means people don't have to be bothered with me looping back and over myself lol :>#i just dunno where i wanna put it lol #wattpad makes the most sense.. but also mm i dunno hfhsh #i haven't really used it in forever...#oh i should update it though fr fr #/also Geeeeez what is happening to my writing HFH #like one day i can't stop overusing the world 'occasionally' and then next i sound sort of obnoxious overusing synonyms and stuff lol #though you know what it Has gotten easier to just get stuff down (even when my brain is pretty much dead !!) when i just ignore everything #i forget about hfvhs :D #cuz i forget like every 15th word and it screws w/ the flow but if i do [this] with a similar word for later it's so good :DD #/also why can i Never remember the word Conscience lmao #that's a little bit of a funny one to always be losing hvfsh #//anywho... woo.... :33 #i'm gonna go do my stuff now... and prolly sneak a soda.... and if i do i'll prolly be back ranting because that's what caffeine does to me #Loll #have a very empty brain recently. it Has been full of lovey doveyness tho so not bad not bad hfvhs :D #okay bbbye now toooodles ciaaaoo see ya .u./

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atsu-i · 7 months

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#this past few days....my thoughts are getting to me lol #and it's not fun #it gets me worried and scared #i try to brush it off really but at some point #in a day #i just feel like breaking down from whatever it is #i tend to become teary eyed but i dont cry #i just...have that feeling that i wanted to cry lol #and rn am at a salon and i just got this shitty feeling and i cant and wont cry lol #idk man....i cant even say what's bothering me just...will keep it as much as i can #coz i dont want to make anyone worry or anything lol #also...death has been getting on my mind a lot more recently #all this :/#its shitty ik #personal #trigger warning?

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coffeeandcalligraphy · 1 year

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#okay small rant in the tags LOL #I have noticed an increasing number of people critique my first drafts in my videos #without me asking #and it’s gotten me thinking about critique etiquette & also #why writers feel the need to critique every piece of writing they see #especially when establishing themselves #which is relatable because I used to do that ALL the time #I was such a little shit!!! like insufferable!#and while the critiques in these comments don’t bother me because … I don’t care #what does bother me is this ideology that we are allowed to critique an unpublished work just because #someone has been vulnerable enough to share it #I made the decision to share my first drafts on my channel in December #because I think more writers need to see that writers who’ve been #writing for a long time like me #(10 years)#also make all the mistakes they do too #and that if they just keep practicing #one day they’ll also be writing for 10 years #anyway it’s hard to be a creator online sometimes lmao #not trying to be all woe is me about it but #I asked my audience if they like seeing first drafts #and everyone said yes I believe #so it’s important to me that people continue to see those drafts #but I would like to throw a can of tomato soup in the air #every time someone critiques those drafts when I haven’t asked #like i make actual videos where I ask people to weigh in #I’m not adverse to critique LMAO I love it! it’s fun!#but I am very VERY against critique that wasn’t consented to #writing is a very intimate thing #& it’s a skill to know when it’s your place to critique it or not…… I have more thoughts but anyway

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agentemo · 2 years

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unpopular onion be nice but if that was a fuck you to the festival and people seeking nostalgia, it's a fuck you to me, an old ass mcr fan who was also unsettled by the noise and lack of interaction and who spent an ungodly amount of money going to this festival that was beautifully nostalgic after spending an ungodly amount of money going to this mcr tour which was beautifully nostalgic

can anyone be super chill and cool and explain to me how it's not a fuck you to me

I had an incredible time at the show but people going hard on this take is bumming me out, in no small part because it screams of fans running with assumptions they make like it's gospel

#like i get it but also this is the worst mcr show ive ever been to #i loved it! i dont think theyre in my top 5 bands of the day #delete later #i guess 😮‍💨#now that im alone in vegas i can share my most terriblest thoughts: i am not sucking their dick on this one #dicks* i mean maybe mcr has one collective dick #okay rockefeller was probably worse but it literally snowed on us lol #reasons not accepted include: wwwy tricked bands into joining and fans into coming - then why punish the fans #something cashgrab something - then why. lmao. play the show #WB has their lips sewn shut - do they??????#the only way what people are saying is accurate is if we accept it was poorly done #'you dont get it' because fuck that shit get WHAT who is it for why isnt it for the fucking fans #maybe that's what's bothering me. they didn't connect to the fans at all #p.s. my ocd really wants me to reread this 50 times before i can move on with my life so if you made it this far #mom had me on speaker when i called and apparently annette ran into the room when she heard me ;_;

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polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup · 3 months

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in my defense, i was like 90% sure u already knew what banana fish was and i thought u would call me out on my bs right away. i did have a moment of panic when it turned out that u didn’t so 🥺

Hahaha it’s totally fine. I’ve actually never heard of it before today but I did start watching it because of this because I was curious. I like it so far

#I don’t personally mind dark or serious content matter #it’s never really affected me. I dunno why. i refuse to fuck with the supernatural because Irish but anything real world doesn’t really #bother me all that much. I don’t have many triggers #granted I work in criminal law and my day to day involves a lot of like. face stabbings.#banana fish isn’t triggering for me #but yeah I’d never actually heard of it before today #it’s definitely interesting and I like it so far so solid rec #but it is so not slice of life comfy anime lol #but it deals in a lot of serious subject matter so people who will be triggered by it should definitely not try it it will not be comfy #no harm no foul with me I just want to make sure no one following me takes the rec and gets accidentally triggered #not gonna lie my friend has been telling me to watch an anime for ages that’s called ‘something something -fish’ that I know for a fact is #slice of life anime about an awkward girl who likes jellyfish and a boy son of a politician who crossdresses and I thought it was that #i googled that is princess jellyfish it is very much not banana fish #it’s supposedly very cute and comforting I’ve been meaning to watch it forever #I knew there was a fish somewhere in the title I knew that much

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im-still-watching-anime · 11 months

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reading my drafts like damn this is so good i should really finish it and post it as i am actively closing the window