Not to be all Touch Starved™ on main, but I really just want to get hugged by someone who cares about me. And not just any hug, I mean the kind where the world as you know it could literally be collapsing around you, but fuck it because at least you're here in the arms of someone who gives a shit about you.

Hiya! Would you be willing to share more of your thoughts about the lawsuit arc? I am rewatching it now and I'm having all sorts of new feelings about it!

hi there! i can definitely share them! i will say that a lot of my thoughts (especially on my first rewatch) were colored by my experience in the fandom at the time, which is a lot of why i left the fandom in the first place (but i'm back and better than ever!)

disclaimer: these are my thoughts, and i don't think that many of the people i interacted with/read posts from back then were doing or saying things maliciously, but taken together, it left a bad taste in my mouth. (also it got long sorry anon u did not ask for an essay lol!)

a lot of it stems from a gross mischaracterization of buck. if someone grossly mischaracterizes buck, then it follows that they will, in response to that, likely mischaracterize eddie and bobby, especially surrounding the episodes 3x04, 3x05, and 3x06.

hindsight is 20/20, and i think, now knowing what we do about the buckley parents, eddie, bobby, etc, there's a better grasp on the situation, but it's become this fodder for a fight because there's an inability to distinguish nuance from "right and wrong." and tbqh, maybe this is a hot take, but their actions aren't ooc to me. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

to start: bobby keeping buck from work without an explanation? that's kind of brutal. i think we can say that. bobby and athena inviting buck over for dinner and buck finding out that it was bobby who kept him out? also brutal! we can say that bobby's motivations were good while knowing that maybe the way he went about it was not so good. that doesn't make bobby a bad person! it makes him human, prone to overthinking. that's his trauma rearing its ugly head.

buck seeing lena's name taped over his? when we know (now?) how much he fears being left? another sting! that, coupled with finding out about bobby's "betrayal" in his mind, leads him to make an impulsive (and very bad) decision to sue bobby. like... in his right mind? i think he wouldn't have done that. but he wasn't in his right mind. so neither of them are right, but neither of them are wrong. and sometimes that can be hard, but nuance exists for a reason. he's not a bad person, just impulsive, didn't think it through! again, human. that's buck's trauma rearing its ugly head.

eddie finding out that buck is suing the department, therefore going no contact with eddie (and christopher) and has shared personal information with his (awful) lawyer? i think eddie has every right to be mad about that. eddie calling buck exhausting? NOT great. we know that. we know that! but you know what else we know? that eddie was grieving, and eddie was hurting, and he was missing someone he'd come to rely heavily on since his wife's death. so again. he's not right, but he's not wrong. this is, you guessed it: eddie's trauma rearing its ugly head.

the lawsuit arc is excellent writing, because it's an amalgam of good people in shitty situations making poor choices because they're scared and letting their traumas affect their reactions (a very human thing to do, imo). bobby's scared he's going to lose buck permanently (i.e. in 3x18 "i'm tired of being on the wrong side of those hospital doors"). buck's scared he's going to lose his whole family (see: his entire life pre-joining the 118). eddie's scared that someone is leaving him again, just after he'd reaffirmed his trust in them (see: him proposing to shannon again and her telling him she wants a divorce and then also dying.)

the lawsuit arc also makes my skin crawl because of how people just...refused to see any nuance in it, and instead painted the entire 118 as villains, and "rewrote" canon to have buck being angry and calling it "fix-it fic." i say often that we tend to re-litigate (no pun intended lmao) the lawsuit arc every few months because there's a misunderstanding somewhere with "ugh why would bobby be so mean to buck! why would eddie call buck exhausting buck doesn't deserve this!" there's no need to keep rehashing old arguments. we can all interpret art the way we so choose, but there is a difference between interpretation and foregoing canon entirely, and it's made that arc a difficult one for me to appreciate.

tl;dr: the lawsuit arc is great and NOT ooc but people don't understand nuance and have therefore made it difficult for me to watch.

Hi Anna! How is running this blog taking your time? Just curious because all your posts are images. You don't write, draw, or translate, correct me if I'm wrong? Not hating, just curios. Your blog is one of my favorites ^_^

heya! umm, it’s mostly keeping myself updated about everything happening in all the games across every version available. there’s also me remembering everything so i’d be able to answer anything. asks and requests also take time especially if it requires me to read and screenie stuff. if i don’t know something, i go out of my way to read/look through jp blogs and sites to check stuff. or i ask jp friends. translations? my posts show enough of that haha. oh and my posts aren’t just images tho. i provide information and compilations of useful stuff about the games. ♪

extensive game knowledge is kind of an effort. i have a taxing job, so coming home to complete every event and route for every game, checking updates and reading jp routes is something really extra for me. organizing scenes and stuff for my game screenie posts also take time. i don’t post from my phone; i send it all to my computer and do it from there. there’s also how neat and nicely formatted i make all my posts. then the whole art sourcing thing. i don’t just post the art here, i also have to go back to the artist to show them etc. ☆

another thing that adds to my “workload” would be the times i have to pm people about reposts, random rules stuff, and general concerns i receive. i also help people with game stuff if they pm me. i mean, i don’t really mind but yeah, i’m just explaining the whole ‘what do i do that takes time’ thing. ♡

some of the asks i get require a lot of effort and most people don’t realize it. when people make me list stuff that requires me to read through random stories from the jp version etc. it just eats away at my time, and i’m usually very tired and not in the mood to read. (°▽°)

iono, what i do might seem like nothing, but it really does take me a lot of time. i like making my images clear, and my posts pretty. i check all my tags if they’re uniform. i go back to re-tag old posts to make them easier for people to find. i edit posts that seem ugly to me even if they’re old– i’m a stubborn perfectionist haha. i may not write/draw or ’provide translations’ (?) for everyone, but i guess making things easier for people by having information is still energy-consuming and tiring for me. i hope this helps answer your question! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

all these + balancing my relationships irl (family, dogs, bf, friends) + wanting to do other things. i don’t think i have enough hours in a week haha. don’t get me wrong tho, i love doing this. i like looking at my blog because it’s so organized lmao ( °ω° )

ps: sometimes, when i’ve had an extra long day, and i get certain repetitive asks, it also takes me time to take a deep calming breath, and patiently answer haha

Daydreaming about quitting without notice has been what’s gotten me through this week at work. That and the fact there’s a three day weekend and the entire bottom shelf of my fridge is wine.

man I'm scared for pur fandom. we've been doing nothing but fight latelly and all because people don't know how to answer others or because they think being called out first gives free pass to offend whoever thinks it's something offensive and i'm so tired. there are people already leaving the fandom, some just are too affected by everything, went out and haven't come back since and i'm so scared for this fandom because i love it so damn much

hey sis!!! don’t stress, the fam is ok! 🌸💖 sometimes this stuff is necessary and it’s a Good Thing that these issues are being addressed. honestly some of the people who have left have been…… Uglies™ lol so it’s for the best! i know we also lost a few good fighters but if it’s their choice and it’s best for them then there’s not much we can do but support them.

i promise tho u got me always,, i’ve been through the fandom ringer before and let me tell u this shit is tame lmao!!!! also i don’t actually give a shit what people say about me online like uhhh u don’t know me?? so. i mean my ass has a job and a social life and i could care less about tumblr drama i just block people ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

moral of the story is we will be fine, we are learning and growing and just getting better ✨ hit me up if u need any Uglies™ taken down tho

I literally just wanna die lmao I'm so ugly and tired all the time like literally jumping off a building would be fucking awesome right now. Sometimes I'm like "psych ward?" but I know it'll just fuck me up worse so instead I'll just keep spiraling until I break or get the guts to fukin pull the trigger piglet ¯\_(ツ)_/¯