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angelmichelangelo · 3 years

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i’m about five years too late and nobody asked for this except me and i need to just get this out of my brain because it’s 2am so here’s a list of things i wish happened on glee that didn’t HERE WE GO:

- new directions being actual teenagers. just them hanging out. going to group sleepovers. giant study sessions (because school exists in this universe?) like remember in tpp when they were eating lunch together ? that’s what i wanted MORE of. just them being actual friends. a sleepover episode is all i wanted imagine all the abba songs we could have gained from that episode

- a halloween themed episode. the closest to this that we got was the ‘thriller/heads will roll’ mashup which YES was iconic but im greedy and it’s not enough. my idea for a halloween episode is that the gang gets trapped inside the school after staying behind to idk rehearse? or something? and then things get progressively worse as they start to go a little mad, thinking the school is haunted and they split up into pairs trying to find an escape and they think they’re seeing ghosts/someone lurking around the school and they’re getting real spooked but it turns out it’s just sue fucking with them lmao

- kurt and finn being brothers. THE POTENTIAL WAS THERE and sadly after furt we are left with crumbs. why ?? WHY?? little moments like finn saying that he’s driving back home with kurt or them saying they can’t do something because they have a family thing would have been good enough. more scenes of them hanging out in their home with their parents would have been *chefs kiss* but alas. it never happened because glee writers are bastards

- based off my last point: sam actually living at the hudson-hummel house because he actually did live there? but nothing is ever said like what’s the dynamic there why weren’t kurt and sam and finn close if they all lived together for what? like a year? was sam living in the mf shed? did he ever get close to carole and burt?? where tf did he live when everyone went off to college did he just stay in their house lol who knows not me LMAO

- blaine dealing with his trauma ? mental health was never dealt with very well on this show. emma’s ocd was just ignored after she got married or whatever and blaine mentioned his trauma once and then it was ignored until it was mentioned in passing a few seasons later and even he just brushed it off and it was never brought up again like wtf. i have no idea how they wrote a whole episode about hate crime in bash and they never once thought to have blaine and kurt have a single conversation together, let alone a conversation about how they’d both been victims of a hate crime. AND THE ONLY TIME BLAINE DOES MENTION IT IS IN TESTED WHERE ITS JUST USED AS A REASON FOR THEM TO FIGHT AAAAAAAA no wait im calm it’s okay. i just would have liked to have seen kurt and blaine have an emotional moment together in that episode that didn’t include blaine singing and kurt being knocked tf out. just sayin.

- kurt dealing with HIS trauma !! again, glee gets bad points for talking about mental health and it just is crazy that they had so much potential with kurt, ie: depression, anxiety, ocd (kinda?) his bullying, being literally assaulted (i see u ryan murphy taking that whole plot line so loosely mmhm) and then shoehorning in the fact that he was suicidal AT THE SECOND TO LAST EPISODE when they had a whole episode about suicide and they could have mentioned it at any time but ofc they didn’t because the writers just wanted to shove in as much as they could in the flashback episode AYE AYE AYE the potential!!!! oof.

- literally just more tina. jenna ushkowitz is a fantastic actor/singer/preformer and she was criminally underused. i like the episode props because of two reasons: one. everyone switching characters was amazing. and two. some actual tina scenes. even if she.. technically was rachel but also herself or something? either way. i digress

- this is just in general but MORE ABBA AND ALSO THE CARPENTERS and also some sound of music songs would have worked GREAT but they already had like a million songs and as the show progressed they veered away from old songs and more towards popular songs at the time to help chart numbers blah blah blah whatever it’s cool. but also how did they only do a few abba songs that is criminal

- a more fleshed out ending that wasn’t so rushed. like rachel won a tony and everyone else is just? there? why is sam at mr shue’s house ??? how did artie get up the stairs? did quinn graduate from yale? and where tf was kurt and blaine’s child during ‘i lived’ because burt and carole are vibing in the audience and rachel isn’t pregnant so like? is the baby just?? alone somewhere in the wings?! lmao where are u bby girl!! but once again i know they didn’t have the time to do it so idk it’s fine what they did it just sucks we didn’t get more! but again. fanfic exists so yah im all good

- more of blaine’s mum. or mom, in this case i guess. why cast gina gershon and then give her ONE line like ? ik there was a whole deleted script that explained why she was there but i love that up until that point blaine seemed like he genuinely murdered his parents, lived in their big house all alone and when people got suspicious he just told them that they were “out of town” :) either way pam is great i love her and i wish she had more to do in the one episode she was ever in. not even a moment with blaine?? wasted.

- more of cooper anderson, matt boomer is so fucking funny everytime i think of the emotion tornado i bust a lung laughing like it’s so fucking stupid but oh my good i love it. (and if you haven’t watched the special feature of cooper’s transformers audition tape please please watch it because it’s just so funny.) ik he was just a special guest but i wish they got him back for at least the wedding ep but guess my mans was just busy. boo ;(

- going back a couple of points, i wish they’d done a whole episode like props. every actor here just shines when they’re impersonating each other. finn and puck as kurt and blaine is beautiful and quinn and sugar is incredible. also idk why they refused kevin the right to wear the cheerios skirt; they could have put a little more effort into some characters but that’s glee for ya lmao but yeah. a whole episode like that would have been so much fun

- they should have let chris colfer write more episodes. purely for the fact that he wrote with his own bare hands the whole scene where lea michelle’s character gets dragged down a road by dogs. this guy. it’s a shame he only got to write one since he actually did a really good job! i would have loved to have seen what other episode ideas he had :)

- glee in the summer! obviously it only was centred around the school year but after season 3 who honestly gave a shit about the glee club and mckinley lmao i wanna see them in SHORT SHORTS and POOL PARTIES but nope we just got september - june so like rip all my hopes and dreams

- WHAT HAPPENED TO DALTON? bitch just burst into flames ?? and for WHAT?? oh yeah plot convenience smh this is so sad i wish they’d either written something better than “we need the warblers to team up with new directions so uhhh the school burnt down” like. it’s a private school. if the school is gone and they’re just staying at mckinley what are the parents paying for? they’re just cool with sending their kids off to public school now? every adult in this universe has been murdered by these kids, haven’t they? they’re just doing whatever they want jfc

- a wedding was a good episode. ish. and yknow, huge kudos to them because gay marriage wasn’t legal in the us at the time so im less harsh on the fact that they definitely threw up the rainbow flags and made it less about the characters getting married and more so “we have gay characters and look they’re getting married what a concept” but i do wish we could have gotten some more married!klaine since they don’t really have much to do after this understandably but a little moment alone together after the wedding would have been nice :) IT WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE IM TELLING YOU

- get rid of the hummelberry friendship and send mercedes to new york instead. i have nothing else to add to this other than the fact that i mourn the fact that kurt and mercedes went from bffs to just. school mates. this is tragic this is traaaaagic !! and all for more of the rachel berry show smh

- every day i wonder what was going through carmen tibideaux mind when she watched the kurt hummel preform not the boy next door and was like :) and then watched rachel berry have a breakdown on stage and then proceeded to give rachel the spot at nyada and kurt gets payed literal dust. and THEN she had the nerve to tell him it was because his performance had no heart. AND HOW DID ADAM GET IN THIS BABY GOT BACK MOTHERFUCKER?! nyada is a circus school oh my god !!!!! kurt deserved better im telling yall he deserved so much better

there’s so much more i could rant about but im going insane im so tired and i need psychological help after watching glee so im gonna leave it here and say peace out homies it’s been fun but i need to sleep so bad

#this is insanity #how did this happen #glee #tw hate crime mention #tw suicide mention #tw mental health mention #this was from my drafts lmao

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nobodys-pearls · 7 years

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Pineapples

Adrinath August Day 3: Social Media

Summary: Chat Noir and Nathanael start a twitter war

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chatnoir Just found out that Ladybug is pro pineapple pizza. In other news I’m looking for a new partner #betrayalhurts #downwithpineapple

vangoghs_ear @chatnoir I thought I’d share a drawing I made of Paris’ two heroes! Image shared from mobile #pineapplerules #ladybugandpineapplepizza #defendersofparis

chatnoir @vangoghs_ear RUDE. That’s a very good drawing but RUDE. #whyis #anear #hecklingme

vangoghs_ear @chatnoir You know LB doesn’t have a twitter. I’m just doing my civic duty by defending her.

(marinettedupain_cheng retweeted)

chatnoir @vangoghs_ear But fruit doesn’t belong on pizza! It’s unnatural! #downwithpineapple #pickpepperoniinstead

vangoghs_ear @chatnoir Technically tomatoes are a fruit #justsaying

chatnoir @vangoghs_ear YOU’RE A TOMATO #oooburn

vangoghs_ear @chatnoir Just the kind of immaturity I’d expect from your kind smh #sad

nino_neofmybusiness @chatnoir @vangoghs_ear I don’t usually get involved in twitter wars but I have to agree with Chat Noir. Pineapples in general are weird they eat you back #allIhavetosay #dropsmic #letsallbebros

chatnoir @nino_neofmybusiness That’s why you’re my bro #bestfriends

(tweet deleted 1 second later)

chatnoir @nino-neofmybusiness Thank you random citizen. It is good to know that someone in Paris is sensible. #youseemcool #eventhoughIdontknowyou #weshouldbefriends

vangoghs_ear @nino_neofmybusiness Ok it’s true that pineapples are acidic and can eat you back or whatever but it’s worth it. Perfect mix of salty and sweet. #meanttobe

chatnoir @vangoghs_ear THEY CAN DO THAT

chatnoir @vangoghs_ear WHAT

vangoghs_ear @chatnoir If you are going to argue about pineapples you better square up with some facts #winningteam #pineapplesonpizzaforever

chatnoir @vangoghs_ear *GASP* HOW DARE

chatnoir @vangoghs_ear Ok let’s settle this

(chatnoir posted a poll: “Pineapple on Pizza: Yay or Nay?”)

vangoghs_ear @chatnoir Oh look who’s winning #inthelead #teamladybug #teampineapple

(marinettedupain_cheng retweeted)

chatnoir Come on Paris don’t let me down! #chatnoirlovesyou #please

chatnoir @vangoghs_ear It’s tied now! I can taste victory, and it definitely doesn’t taste like pineapple.

vangoghs_ear @chatnoir I think that akuma smacked you a little too hard with that pizza box today. Cuz I know that I’m going to win. #lovealltoppings #dontdiscriminate

chatnoir @vangoghs_ear If you’re so sure then let’s make a bet

alyadybug @chatnoir @vangoghs_ear Oh this is so going on the blog #thingsareheatingup #whoelseiswatchingthis

vangoghs_ear @chatnoir Name it alley cat

chatnoir @vangoghs_ear Loser has to buy the winner a pizza of their choice

vangoghs_ear @chatnoir You better bring your wallet. Will you deliver it yourself?

chatnoir @vangoghs_ear I would check the poll before you keep talking, tomato boy #pullingahead

chatnoir @vangoghs_ear I should probably tell you that I’ll be at the top of the Eiffel Tower, my pizza better not be late ;)

vangoghs_ear I still have time. I believe in you Paris. Ladybug believes in you. #doitforher #votepineapple #getmeapizza

adrien_agreste I know which way I’m voting #downwithpineapple #teamchatnoir #sorryladybug

“Hey that’s not fair!” Nathanael said, kicking Adrien with his foot as he began to furiously type on his phone. Adrien cackled and spun around in his boyfriend’s chair.

“There was no rule against it.” Adrien countered.

Nathanael huffed and sat up on his bed. “I’m going up against one of Paris’ superheroes and a famous model, how am I supposed to win now?”

“I wasn’t kidding about being on the Eiffel Tower, I expect that pizza in under 15.” Adrien said with a wink.

Nathanael stuck out his tongue. “I still have ten minutes before it closes.” He said, looking at his phone. “I can do this.” He furrowed his brow in concentration.

Then Adrien had a mischievous look in his eye. “It’d be a shame if someone were to distract you.” He said, standing up from the chair and making his way over to Nathanael.

“No, Don’t you dare.” Nathanael said, clutching his phone in one hand and trying to push Adrien back with the other, but it was no use.

Adrien pinned Nathanael down on the bed and grinned. “Just admit that pineapple pizza is gross.”

“Never.” Nathanael said, hardening his gaze. He wasn’t going to let him win.

Then Adrien moved to graze his lips against his boyfriend’s jaw. Nathanael had to hold back his sigh. “Please?”

“I’m not doing it.” Nathanael said, but he could hear the waver in his voice.

Adrien heard it too and grinned even wider. “It’d be so easy to just agree with me. Then we can…focus on other things.” He said, his voice low as he looked down at Nathanael. He kissed his neck this time.

Nathanael rolled his eyes, but he could feel the blush heating up his cheeks. “And sacrifice my honor? No way. You know who you’re talking to.”

Adrien sighed and pressed a chaste kiss on Nathanael’s nose before moving to sit next to him on the bed. “I know, but it was worth a shot.”

“I appreciate the effort.” Nathanael said with a smirk. Then he saw his phone light up. “Time’s up.”

Adrien had a smug grin on his face as he sat up straighter on the bed. “I’d like a medium pepperoni pizza with –”

Nathanael held up a finger and smiled. “So close, and yet so far, banana boy.”

Adrien hurried over to the desk to grab his phone. “You beat me by three votes?!”

“What can I say? My people are persistent and dependable. Never bet against us.” Nathanael replied, leaning back on his hands.

Adrien groaned and moved to sit next to Nathanael once more. “It’s only three votes, that’s hardly fair.”

“There was no rule saying otherwise.”

Adrien looked at him with narrowed eyes. “Touché.” Then he sighed and unlocked his phone. “Do I even have to ask what kind of pizza you want?”

Nathanael grinned and put a finger to his chin, pretending to think. “I’d like a medium pizza, half with pineapple –”

Adrien groaned and flopped back on the bed.

“– and the other half with pepperoni.”

Adrien looked at him in surprise. Then he smiled and pulled Nathanael down for a kiss. It was warm and sweet and safe. The kiss lingered for a few moments before Adrien finally pulled away. “I guess we’ve come to a compromise then?”

Nathanael brushed the hair out of his boyfriend’s eyes. “Yeah.” Then he moved to kiss Adrien once more.

alyadybug @chatnoir @vangoghs_ear So it’s been an hour, I think we all want to know if Chat Noir honored the bet.

chatnoir @alyadybug I am a cat of my word! Image shared from mobile #topoftheeiffeltower #maybepineapplepizzaisnttheworst

vangoghs_ear Today is a bright day for pineapple pizza lovers everywhere #teamchatnoir #teamladybug #teamparis

(adrien_agreste retweeted)

(marinettedupain_cheng retweeted)

#adrinathaugust2017 #adrinathaugust #adrinath #adrien agreste #nathaniel kurtzberg #nathanael kurtzberg #chat noir #ladybug #marinette dupain-cheng #alya cesaire #nino lahiffe #miraculous ladybug

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lubdubsworld · 7 years

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Under my Skin. ( Namjoon/Oc) (Yoongi/OC)

Author’s note : i would like to apologize for the completely unoriginal titles. i clearly suck at naming my fics, smh.

Chapter 3

“this is weird.” I say softly, propped up against the headboard of the bed, the thin white sheets covering me up, shoulders bare and stinging a bit from the cold air. Yoongi is lying on the opposite end of the bed, leaning back on huge pillows, my camera grasped firmly between long ivory white fingers as he snaps away a few pictures. He’s shirtless, chest bare and starkly white against the sheets, bed cover hanging lazily off his sharp hip bones. He’s all smooth skin and lean muscle, skin faintly flushed and sweaty.

After a nice dinner, we had spent the night walking across the skywalk, while i snapped off some truly spectacular photos of the Seoul skyline. I realized during the course that Yoongi was a lot like me, laidback, casual and an easy going guy.

“You have some amazing post-coital glow thing going on, seems a shame not to record it.” He says, going back to check the pictures. I’m pretty certain at least a few of those pics have nipple-slips. I make a mental note to delete them before my roommate accidentally saw them.

“For posterity?” I grin.

“For posterity.” His gummy smile is blinding, displaying sparkling white teeth and the whole thing is just unfairly adorable.

i shake my head and fumble for the bra that’s hanging off the lamp shade and his hand shoots out, gripping my wrist.

“Don’t. You’re pretty this way.” He protests and I tug my hand away.

“I’m cold.” I mutter in protest and he sits up, the camera placed to the side, forgotten already. I smile as he crawls over, drawing me in till I was cradled against him.

“I’ll warm you up.” His lips pressed briwfly against my ears and I sigh.

“What am i even doing here? “

“Having bomb sex and playful banter? Why’re you complaining?”

“Because, you’re an idol . This is stupid. whatever this is, it’s reckless and dangerous. ” I shake my head.

“It’s too soon to think that far , come on. It’s just... you’re really pretty and you’re intelligent. And I love Photography and honeslty it’s like all my favorite things in a girl and I feel like letting you get away would be like, the worst mistake of my life.”

“That’s oddly creepy but very sweet.” I laugh, burrowing closer to the warmth of his body.

“Tell me more about you. Where’s home?” He says curiously and i hesitate.

“Busan...” I say softly.

“When did you come to Seoul?” he asks.

“When I was fifteen. I got a scholarship to the School of Performing Arts. And then after High School, another Scholarship to the Seoul university. i got into the photography department three years ago. I’m in my final year. Working on my thesis and hopefully I’ll land a nice job by the time i get out...”

“Parents?” He lightly stroked back my hair.

“Dead.” I say shortly.

He doesn’t reply, just hums.

“SO how did this happen? How does a photographer suddenly start taking fancams.”

“Beats having to work in a supermarket. “ I say drily. “ Mostly because it pays and i get some experience too. i mean, i know I can’t actively build a portfolio on what I do, it’s all copyrighted stuff after all but, I’ve learned a lot. Lightings, angles how to make the subject look good. It’s a learning process.I don’t see it as anything different from one of the classes I take in college and i work just as hard. ”

“Am I too?” He says curiously.

“Are you what?”

“A course you’re taking and working hard at? ” He grins.

“Something like that....You’re just... an interesting elective that i’ve taken up for fun.”

He laughs at that. i hesitate a bit before turning over.

“What about you?”

“I came here when I was eighteen. No scholarship though. Came on my own bucks. Ended up sleeping on the pavement some nights but.. yeah, was worth it at the end I guess.”

I swallow.

“you should be pretty fucking proud of what you got done.” i say firmly.

He shrugs

“It’s just luck, most of it. The right people at the right time. Mostly it’s about grabbing on to opportunities when they come around. “

“And the right people.” He adds. “ I’m nothing without my bandmates. I’d die for them. Especially Joon ah and Hoseok... ”

I swallow.

Didn’t yoongi hyung pay you yet? You know you aren’t special right?

“ Do you do this with a lot of girls?” i hate myself the moment the words were out.

“Take them to bed? Sometimes. Take them to an expensive hotel ? I’ve done it once or twice before.... Tell them about my life story and take naked pictures of... no. You’re the first. ”

I feel worse.

“Then why-”

“You’re honest. True to yourself. You know there’s a distinct lack of genuine people in the world. I like people who act the same with everyone. And i feel like you’re one of those people. “

I didn’t reply and he pulls me closer.

“Besides, I think you’re good at what you do. I spoke to my PDnim ... you can give me your portfolio and maybe the next photoshoot you can sit in. If they like your work they’ll hire you as an assistant. At least it’ll be experience you can put on your resume. Don’t waste your time chasing idols. That’s not something a girl with your talent should be doing... ” He says seriously and i go still.

“what?” i stiffen , pulling away.

“ It’s just an opprtunity. i’m giving you an opprtunity. Don’t overthink it. “ His voice is awkward and a little annoyed and i try to still my pounding heart.

In the end, it’s not really an option. i’m not an idiot. An opportunity like that is invaluable. I promise to send him my portfolio and he agrees to call me once he talks to his boss.

“I’m busy the next few months. Our Comeback is next month. October 12... I’ll get you free passes for the stage, if you promise to come without your camera.”

I laugh.

“i get passes anyway. and sorry , i don’t go anywhere without my camera”

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“ I need just 100 dollars! What fucking use is a scholarship if you can’t give your old man , 100 dollars?” My father is gripping the edge of the couch with blue veined fingers, the inside of his wrist and elbows littered with needle marks and he has that feverish look in his face that i’ve come to associate with hurled abuses, broken glasses and bruises that couldn’t be hidden with make-up.

“i didn’t get paid yet. I still don’t have a job, you know that.” I grit out impatiently. My landlord hates me. She’s in her early thirties and she once tried to make me sneak her into the backstage of a BTS concert because she ‘ wanted to find Jung kook. Aside from the fact that Jung kook is a baby( barely legal) my neighbour was beyond creepy. I’d yelled at her to stop being a pervert and to find someone her own age.

In return, anytime my father came around to visit, the stupid woman let him into my apartment.

“You’re shitting me. Gimme that stupid camera then, if you’re not making money off it. I’ll at least sell that piece of crap and buy myself some stash.”

I clench my fists. This was tiring. I had classes in an hour. i grab my purse and get the money i got for my last assignment. i count it out carefully, keeping just twenty dollars for the food this week. There was a GOT7 comeback and an ASTRO stage as well. They would pay less but maybe if i took on a couple more ( but you have two papers to turn it, fuck..) I’d be able to make rent this month.

“ i have forty dollars. That’s all i have. Take it and leave.” I snap, grabbing the cash and thrusting it in his face.

My father stares at me with a seedy look in his eyes.

“I’ll be back for the rest , later this week.” He says, snatching the money out of my hands and stalking out.

I watch him leave and sigh, dropping my head into my hands.

There went six hours of shivering in the cold and making Min Yoongi look good.

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The next three weeks were a frantic mess of shows and concerts, lots of bruises from being jostled in crowds , finishing two papers and finally finding a muse from the fashion department to pose for my piece on Extravagance. Now all i had was my final paper to turn in and i would be done for this semester. The last semester would be my finalk thesis presentation and ?I would be done with college.

And honestly, it was the thought of getting it over with, that kept me going. i was busy all day and Min Yoongi almost completely slipped out of my mind ( except when i occasionally felt too stressed out and took that snow globe out of the closet and stared at it . i couldn’t help it, because that trip to Florence had been one of the best times in my life. )

As October came around with rainfall and winds, my boss told me that i would have to go for the BTS comeback stage at M! Countdown. He’d managed to get a special press pass for me and I was beyond flattered that he’d actually given me and actual journalitsic work. This wasn’t just recording. i could get pictures backstage for the offical article. This was actually something i could put on my resume.

I quickly, nod, grinning ear to ear when he drops the bombshell.

“ You’ll be focusing on Namjoon, this time.”

i freeze in place.

“what?”

“Kim Namjoon. He’s the leader. He’s the one our journalist will be interviewing backstage. JJ will ask the questions and you’ll just have to take a few snaps. it’s easy work. “

“The fancam..”

“That too. Because you’ll be busy backstage, i’ve asked other kids to cover the fancams. You can just watch the concert. No need to film. “

I nod wordlessly.

I was screwed.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Kim Namjoon still hates me.

That much is obvious, as i stand to a corner of the stage, clutching my camera while JJ took notes next to me. The screaming is unbelievable and as the rest of them do their soundcheck, I try to ignore the way Namjoon keeps tossing glances at me. Yoongi gives me one subtle wink and a small pouty kiss that send the fans into a frenzy and ignores me completely afterwards. Or So I assume. i’m too busy trying not to spontaneously combust from the heat of Namjoon’s gaze.

In the seductive lighting , with his perfect make up and insanely well fit clothes he looks like something straight out of a Grimm’s brother’s fairytale. A wayward prince . I can’t believe how utterly sinful their attire is, expensive jackets and in Namjoon’s case, a poet shirt with a firm black waist band and ruffled lace in the front. His hair is off his forehead and his legs look like they’re a few miles long at least. His pants are skin tight and tailored to perfectly fit his thighs and his calf muscles and honestly, there’s nothing more disconcerting than the way his dimples keep peeking out at sudden intervals.

I’ve never been happier about not filming. My brain is turning to mush.

But as the first strains of the music start, i can’t help turning my camera on, simply because i felt naked without it. It’s easier, safer to look at him from behind the lens of my trusty friend. I grip it harder and it’s better , through the lens he’s just another subject. Someone to record.

focus. Lighting. Angles. Posture. Learning Process.

Except the only thing i could learn was that his legs were too long, his waist so mouth-wateringly lean and everytime his palm moved over his waist and caressed his crotch, I felt like dying.

But really, why were they grabbing their crotch?!

the worst part was, Namjoon kept glancing at me, and each time he did , i felt my throat constrict. He moved sharply and i realized that he wasn’t even a bad dancer. He was just too tall and too.. manly . Namjoon would look so much better in a suit in a board room , gripping a glass of scotch and playing God.

The choreo was brutal , and by the time they were done with all three songs, the boys ( men really ) wwere sweaty and tired. Me on the other hand, I was completely zoned out. My breath came in stark pants and it felt like there was cotton wool in my lungs and I felt disgusted, my shirt sticking to my skin and the hair at my nape dripping with sweat.

i feel saturated with feelings of inadequacy, like i’m doing something wrong and it feels a bit like I’m going to overflow, like all these miserable feelings are going to spill out of me and make a mess on the dirty floor . I choke on air as I grip JJ’s sleeve, letting her lead me to the backstage door.

“Hello. Nice to meet you, Rapmon ssi..” JJ shakes hands and bows and I just stand there, too stunned to react.

But he does it for me.

“Hello, Ae Rin.” He says, voice low and polite and so respectful, not at all the rough angry tone I’d heard the last time. He sounds amazing. Whisky smooth and attractive.

My name. How did he know my name?

“ So about this comeback..”Jj began her questions and I pulled the camera up, trying to get the right angle. The first two clicks are easy. And then he glances at me and my mind comes undone like a ball of wool in the hands of a kitten. I stare stupidly , wondering how his stare was all it took to unravel me. What the hell’s happening?

i drop my gaze to the camera and review the pictures, frowning when I notice the smudged lipstick in the pics. I look back up and it’s there , on the corner of his lips.

“You’ve got...” I stop, picking at my own lips to try and tell him that his gloss was smudged, except all the gesture did was draw his gaze to my lips and the way he stares at my mouth... it’s not good.

“Fix it..!! Come Here!” Jj hisses and pushes me in his direction and I stumble forward, stunned. Did I really have to ..

I slowly get down on my knees in front of him and my throat is parched.

He stretches out, offering his face to my touch and I feel cross eyed, staring at him as my thumb presses against the plush softness of his lips. I swallow, audibly, loudly and his gaze slips to my throat, and I wipe at the smudge, once and then twice. When I do it again, in a trance, his tongue sneaks out, without any warning, tip brushing against my finger and I yank my hand back in shock. It’s enough to almost send me sprawling and his hand shoots out , fast, gripping my wrist firmly. He pulls me back up and I topple over, my palm landing on his thigh and my fingers curling on the lean muscle of his leg without conscious thought.

“I’m sorry about the last time. i was out of line.” His words catch me off guard and i feel like I’m sinking and the sensation is so foreign and unexpected. His thigh feels firm beneath my fingers and his grip on my wrist is hot and firm and oddly grounding. I wonder what it would be like to have those long , firm fingers on other parts of me and a whimper bubbles out before i can smother it.

Namjoon looks even better upclose and there’s something unreadable in the way he looks at me. His gaze is heavy and fond, affectionate and curious and almost sad. I feel like i’m drowning and I have to tamp down the urge to press my palms against his face and slot my lips over his. To climb on his lap and just kiss him senseless.

But he’s sitting with JJ and I’m kneeling on the floor in front of him, the camera forgotten, my hands on his thighs and this is not how this is supposed to go at all.

“I.. it’s.. fine. I’ll just go.” I stumble back and stand up.

My legs feel weak, my heart feels battered and my mind is still on stand by. I go through the rest of the interview like a zombie, my brain complete mush. When he finally leaves, JJ gives me a look that is part disbelief, part annoyance.

“God, why didn’t you tell him you had a crush on him?! i mean could you be more obvious...”

I shut her out, my mind running in circles.

I didn’t have a crush on him. I was sleeping 9 or had slept 0 with his best friend.

I didn’t.

I couldn’t.

AUTHOR’S NOTE : Oh wow, this just took me back to college when i had this super huge crush on an older guy.i would literally start tapdancing when i saw him, hahaha... Thank fully he never knew... kekekeke...

What do you guys think?

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Grimes is opening up about her pregnancy.

Weeks after sparking pregnancy speculations with a baby bump photo, the singer, 31, confirmed she is expecting in a candid post shared on Instagram Friday.

Asking her followers how they “cope with working and having a baby,” she wrote in the caption of a selfie, “I’m sorry I haven’t been promoting my album properly or on social media more. This whole thing has been a bit of an ordeal.”

“Had some complications early on, a decent second trimester but starting to hurt everywhere at 25 wksz,” she continued. “I feel like I was woefully ill prepared cuz I dunno if pregnancy is as visible or discussed as it should be. I just didn’t rly understand what I was getting into.”

However, the Canadian artist elaborated that things have “been good too, but it makes working a lot harder.”

View this post on Instagram Fake or real? Haha. Wow I’m starting to feel bad haha… how do y’all cope with working and having a baby?? I’m sorry I haven’t been promoting my album properly or on social media more. This whole thing has been a bit of an ordeal. Had some complications early on, a decent second trimester but starting to hurt everywhere at 25 wksz. What were yalls experience w this stuff like? I feel like I was woefully ill prepared cuz I dunno if pregnancy is as visible or discussed as it should be. I just didn’t rly understand what I was getting into. It’s been good too, but it makes working a lot harder. Good at writing and having lots of wild ideas tho, but anything physical is hard. Im also way more emo and less capable of bravery in the face of haters online and stuff haha. But my albums out in a sec so I prob need to get back on here. Don’t mind my emo energy, but curious what other ppls experience was like

I didn’t even google it, I was just like sure y not hahaha smh

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“Good at writing and having lots of wild ideas tho, but anything physical is hard,” she explained. “Im also way more emo and less capable of bravery in the face of haters online and stuff haha.”

Though Grimes has not said anything about her baby’s father, fans believe Elon Musk — who she has been romantically linked to since 2019 — confirmed he is the dad when he cryptically commented under baby bump photos posted on Twitter, writing, “x is y.”

“Toss a coin to ur Witcher,” Grimes said in a reply to the 48-year-old Tesla founder, quoting the song from Netflix’s The Witcher series.

Grimes — who is expected to release her next studio album, Miss Anthropocene, next month — added on Friday that she “prob need to get back on” social media.

RELATED: Grimes Shares Photo of Bare Bump After Announcing She’s ‘Knocked Up’

“Don’t mind my emo energy, but curious what other ppls experience was like,” she wrote, asking fans for their advice. “I didn’t even google it, I was just like sure y not hahaha smh.”

Earlier this month, Grimes opened up about being in a “war-like state of being” after sharing a topless photo of herself on Instagram with an apparent baby bump.

The picture, which has since been deleted and replaced with a more censored version, had an image of a baby superimposed on the musician’s stomach — sparking fan discussion on whether she’s pregnant with her first child or was posing for an artwork.

Addressing the speculation on Friday, the musician wrote “Fake or real? Haha. Wow I’m starting to feel bad haha…”

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People had questions at the time as the heavily edited photograph was posted without an accompanying caption, though Grimes was vocal in the comment section.

When a fan remarked how “great” Grimes looked and applauded her for not censoring her nipples in the original image, the performer responded, “I thought about censoring them for a hot minute haha (this may get taken down anyway) but the photo is much less feral without the nipples.”

“Plus being knocked up is a very feral & war-like state of being. Might as well be what it is,” she continued at the time. “Plus most of my friends told me not to post them so then I was afflicted w reverse psychology. Interrogated my shame on it and decided it was sum weird internalized self hatred to feel uncomfortable abt my body. Hope ur having a nice day!”

RELATED: Grimes Says She Had Part of Her Eyeball Removed in an ‘Experimental Surgery’ to ‘Cure Seasonal Depression’

Grimes shared a video on her Instagram Story of Musk dancing to music in a studio on Thursday night. The expectant mom captioned the clip with a white heart emoji.

Last March, Grimes got candid about her romance with Musk — whom she called a “super-interesting goddamn person” — and the public attention the relationship brought in an interview with WSJ. Magazine.

RELATED: Grimes Shares Photo of Bare Bump After Announcing She’s ‘Knocked Up’

“I was simply unprepared,” she told the outlet for its April Style & Design Issue. “I’ve just been wallowing in indie music for, like, a decade … I just thought I could keep going along in my funny little way, and then you casually respond to someone in a tweet and it’s on Fox News, and you’re like, ‘Ugh,’ you know? That was a very disturbing moment.”

Despite the unwanted attention, Grimes said she still loved the tech mogul.

“And look, I love him… he’s great. There’s got to be some reason. I just think …” she told the outlet, trailing off. “I wish … Yeah. It doesn’t matter.”

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