bitches be like “i know damn well this book/show is going to fuck me up emotionally to the point where no amount of therapy or counseling will undo the pure psychic damage i have brought upon myself but lol it’s fine”

it’s me. i’m bitches

rrrrh…

skulls on the covers…

SKULLS ON THE COVERSSSSRRRRHH

the title literally says that one of them will die at the end, and yet I'm still *surprised pikachu face* shocked when one of them actually dies.

what the fuck.

suffice to say that this book has destroyed me.

also, those rufus and mateo cameos were devastating. so, thanks for that adam. lol

IT'S OFFICIAL, A SAPPHIC DEATH-CAST NOVEL IS COMING

SAPPHICS REJOICE WE FUCKING WON

me when he actually dies at the end

VALENTINORION

Y'know i appreciate how horny a lot of queer literature can be. It feels validating.

No matter how many fandoms I enter, no matter how many books I read, I'll never love a character more than I love Rufus and Mateo

guess who’s gonna start reading tftdate today MUAHAHAHA 💥💥💥(borrowed this copy from my local library bc books r fucking expensive)

can’t wait to destroy my mental health again !!!

also i found more adam silvera books i was so happy lol

i could read a hundred books set in the death cast universe, all ending the same or totally different. kill everyone, kill one person, kill no one. i would devour every single one.

it’s just such a great concept for stories and i love the way adam tells them, with the outsider POVs that don’t seem to matter but all end up connecting in some way at the end.

and don’t even get me started on the tragedy of the romances. knowing your time together is finite. but loving so fast and so hard anyway, knowing there’s no way you won’t get burned, maybe literally, and still hoping for a happy ending together, however that may come. im a puddle on the floor.

okay yall but can we talk about Orion and Valentinos doctor being Rufus’ FUCKING MOM

HELP I JUST READ THE FIRST TO DIE AT THE END SOBBING DYING LAUGHING ROLLING ON THE FLOOR MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME

I recently read The First to Die at the End by Adam Silvera

Wow.

Just, wow.

(Please don’t read if you don’t want spoilers, I’m not going to hold back on my rant so read at your own risk).

I’ve read a lot of peoples reviews for this one because honestly it was hard to make up my mind about it as a whole. At the end of the day, I think my only problem with the book was the point of view from the creator of Death Cast. While it was really interesting to see and learn about his life, it didn’t reveal any relevant information we didn’t already know or any new information we needed. With that being said, it’s probably one of my favorite books now.

Adam just loves to intertwine the lives of his characters. And he does it so seamlessly. Nothing feels forced or awkward. And if it feels too coincidental, isn’t life that way too??

The fact that he wrote about little Rufus and Mateo was a genius way to give us more from those characters without disturbing the events from the first book. If anything, it’s helped us understand even more why they were the way they were and appreciate how much they managed to live with all of it on their backs.

The whole story reads like a romantic tragedy written in the stars. And the fact that one of the characters is named Orion and the other Valentino is absolutely wonderful. Their story isn’t perfect because if it was they would’ve grown old together and they would get to keep loving each other for far longer than they got. That being said.. it is a beautiful story. Adam was able to, once again, raise the questions about mortality and how people live their life, but this time with new perspectives than last time. Reading about Orion's pain of constantly HAVING to think about death and the very real consequences a simple fun outing with his sister could have was eye opening to me. In the first book, I couldn't understand how anyone could wish for a service like Death Cast, but after truly listening to Orion it made sense to me. I truly felt his fears, and worried for him along with his sister. It was also refreshing to see Valentino struggle with religious trauma while still having love or maybe just curiosity about God in a manner that seemed relatable to me. How his parents reacted to him coming out is a huge fear of mine. Reading about it happening to him was truly heartbreaking for me, and his questions and struggles resonated with me deeply.

I would also like to say that Adam surprised me a little when he was able to point out how grief can be a little selfish and how caring about someone so much can create distance between two people like it did with Orion and his sister (I’m so so glad that the characters were able to work through that so quickly because they both needed each other at the end of this story). The way he swirls coincidences and consequences is truly a whirlwind most admirable when you’re right smack in the middle of it all.

(Talking about the ending next, so this is your second warning.)

Honestly speaking, I still don’t know how to feel about the ending. And the feeling of uncertainty towards my feelings is exactly how I would want someone to feel at the end of my own story. I don’t know that I would be okay with someone being happy about how my life ended. I don’t know that I would want them to hate it either. So having the constant debate and conversation feels more comforting than anything else.

(Last Spoilers warning frfr bc the ending was AN EXPERIENCE I do not wish to take from anyone).

Having Valentino give Orion his heart felt like a declaration that love will always live within the stars. And I absolutely love it. Adam, I thank you for this story and these characters.

EVERYONE EVER SHOULD READ THEY BOTH DIE AT THE END AND THE FIRST TO DIE AT THE END THEYRE SUCH GOOD BOOKS THEYRE SO GAY AND SO SAD SOBBING CRYING

i can't stop thinking about “do you think you'll write about me?” “there won't be enough words, but you're giving me the time to try to find them” like. the implications. the fact that orion said that because valentino was going to give up his literal heart to allow orion to live a full life. and only by living a full life can orion hope to find the words to talk about the boy who gave him his heart, literally and metaphorically. i am eating glass i can't

Why does Adam Silvera have to write the most devastating books