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Trying (and Mostly Kinda Failing) to Give Meaning to Lyric Placement and Background Shapes in "Cat"
(Or: me going insane over things I’m not even sure mean anything)
Hello people of the jury! Today I want to talk about a few things about Kazui’s latest MV, Cat, which have been eating at my brain for a while. Essentially, the way that the transcribed lyrics show up all over the place, out of order, in different colors and languages; the shapes we see throughout the background in different colors; and what both of these things could mean. I emphasize could because it’s all a mess and I’m not entirely confident we’re supposed to read into these things as much as I’m reading into them here. But oh well, if I don’t share this my head is going to explode, so I might as well.
(There’s also a chance a lot of what I say here has been said before. Sorry if it’s redundant)
CW: Suicide and depression, tumultuous relationships, internalized homophobia.
OP what the fuck are you talking about
Let’s start with what I mean by “lyric placement.” As you’re probably aware, the Cat MV has its lyrics transcribed in a very particular way. Sometimes words show up way after the lines are said, sometimes they’re repeated, sometimes they’re in French, sometimes they have extra words thrown in there, etc.
The main thing that tipped me off that something may be up is this line:
As you can see by the subtitles, the line is:
Since when have I ignored my feelings?
It’s better to be a let down, than be let down yourself.
However, the MV also has the word “lie” on screen, even though it’s never said in the lyrics. Unless the subtitles are wrong, but I trust that’s not the case.
Now, if I had a nickel for every time a weird-ass MV showing the inner thoughts of a blue haired liar with somewhat homoerotic undertones had English words which appear on screen yet do not correlate to the Japanese lyrics being sung… I’d have two nickels, which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice. (/reference)
And it’s not difficult to figure out why that would be the case. If you recall from his second voice drama, Kazui believes he should have kept lying to Hinako, to keep her happy. This is also stated in his interrogation questions.
(T1) Q18: Do you regret your “murder”?
Kazui: I do regret it. I should have kept lying.
Unless he’s lying, which he has no reason to do, we can tell he would have preferred continuing the lie if it meant Hinako stayed happy. That means, in his eyes, being a let down is worse than being let down himself. That’s why the word “lie” shows up when he says the opposite in the lyrics, he doesn’t actually believe it. It’s assumedly just something he told himself right before “letting down” Hinako by telling the truth.
So, since the MV pulls a cute little trick with this line, is it possible that the placement of the other transcribed lyrics is significant? Well, that’s what the rest of the post will try to answer.
Then there are the colors. As you know, geometric shapes of all kinds of colors appear throughout the MV, and I believe these could mean certain things. Take a look here, for example.
to touch, to caress
That’s the lyric we’re shown as Hinako’s crush towards Kazui is made evident for the first time in the MV. And in the background, we see a blue circle and a pink circle intersecting, and in the video, pulsating like a heartbeat. If we assume blue to be Kazui and pink to be Hinako, it’s showing the idea of the two being together, “touching and caressing.” I noticed this thanks to Napkin's MV analysis, I recommend you watch it if you haven't!
So now, if that really is significant, are the other shapes and colors significant? For one, as blueepink07 pointed out in this post, it’s possible large part of the color scheme was chosen to align with newspapers, because Kazui wants us/Es to uncover his lies as if we’re/they’re getting information from a newspaper, or something like that. For more specific ideas… that’s what the rest of the post is for.
Hypothesis
>The placement of the lyrics sometimes recontextualizes their meaning, and we have to figure out how.
>Lyrics in French, which are always smaller, are used in two ways. Either they simply repeat what the English words say, to give them emphasis, or they replace English words, which usually happens when the line alludes to Kazui’s "temptations", aka his homosexuality. And yeah, I’m assuming he’s gay, because in my eyes it’s honestly more heavily implied than some of the stuff we believe about other prisoners. I’ll give some of my reasoning later.
>The color of the lyrics and the shapes in the background can often be important, though there's a non-zero chance a lot of it is just aesthetics. As a warning, some of the wilder things I bring up not even I fully believe, but I'm going for the completionist route. If you have any better ideas for any of these, please feel free to tell me!
>Blue represents Kazui, pink represents Hinako. As much as gendering colors is stupid in concept, it is useful for symbolism, so.
>Light green represents Kazui’s "temptations", since it’s connected to the green apple which shows up repeatedly.
>Yellow… Okay, so this one is where stuff begins to break down. It’s really hard to tell what yellow could mean, but seeing the meanings the color usually has, I’ll say it represents a sort of desire for happiness. It’s similar to light green, but not quite the same, it’s more general. Yet, it still makes the same dark green color when it mixes with Kazui’s blue as light green does. His happiness and temptations are closely linked. Yes I’m even bringing the intersectional colors into this.
>Red represents Kazui’s deepest desires. It’s the color which floods the background as he bites the pigeon, after all. It’s “stronger”, deeper than light green and yellow, but it’s sorta similar still.
>A darker red appears occasionally on some intersections, possibly representing blood and therefore Hinako's death.
>Purple only exists as the intersection of two colors, but its meaning changes depending on which colors are mixing. When blue and red mix, it’s Kazui’s desires; when pink and blue mix, it’s Hinako’s desire to be with Kazui.
>Orange... shows up like once it's kinda weird. I took to google again, and it usually represents enthusiasm, which is different enough from happiness that I'm comfortable saying that's what it is.
>The reason so many colors have similar meanings is to be able to convey Kazui’s emotions with more nuance. Please bear with me.
>Sometimes, colors mix very little, to the point where I think it’s not meant to be important. I have to add this or else the post is impossible. You’ll see what I mean.
Alright, still with me? Sorry for the prelude, but it was easier to explain it all now before we really get started.
Unhinged Analysis, Start!
(Ah, Tumblr 30 image limit my beloved. Making me do shitty collages in Microsoft Powerpoint just so I can have visuals in my post about the funny apple man)
We open with the song title for obvious reasons, as well as blue backgrounds because it’s Kazui’s MV, a small overview of the colors we’ll see later, and a lyric repeated in both English and French for emphasis.
Lie until it gets better, follow the king of the masquerade
It’s the main thesis of the song, that Kazui, the king of the masquerade, believes it is better to keep lying until things improve than tell the truth and cause harm.
We also see his name and prisoner number, and an interesting introduction to the colors in circles. These are likely purely aesthetic, but if you want an actual explanation... uh.
UNHINGED INTERPRETATION START!
To the left, red and blue intersect and form pink, which doesn't usually happen. Usually, when red and blue intersect you get purple or a deeper red, not pink. I think the colors are partly inverted on this scene, noting the darkened background, so we're meant to take whatever the colors would usually mean, and reverse it. So Kazui and his deepest desires intersect on Hinako? Well, it's actually the opposite. Kazui's deepest desires don't include Hinako. Does that make sense? I say this is the meaning because the lyric there is "Love (plus) Destiny = Crap, smash it, shatter it, bye-bye". Keeping in mind the "destined love" is Hinako, it's clear Kazui doesn't like the relationship, we been knew.
The intersection also exists on the right, but there's also a white circle which inverts the inverted meaning and thus shows the truth. (???) So the part where Kazui is by himself turns into an enthusiastic orange and the intersection with his deepest desires turn into green.
You may have noticed that already makes absolutely no sense. I hope you can forgive me. Remember, I said they're probably just aesthetic here.
UNHINGED INTERPRETATION END!
Anyways, the masquerade lyric and the title show up again but in inverse order for aesthetic reasons, which I think is neat.
I really think this is just an introduction, and there's not much to read into.
The road the car is on is yellow and blue, with them mixing into dark green in the middle (that color does not exist on its own). As everyone does in life, Kazui is trying to stay on the road to happiness. Yes, we start off with quite a stretch, but most of this is going to be reaching, so. The dark green shows that part of that happiness would be something related to his “temptations”, his likely homosexuality.
There’s a pink circle hovering around, Hinako. She also seeks “the road to happiness”, and has her own desires (the red from the intersection of her pink and the yellow). That leads her to getting close to the blue of Kazui. Eventually, she becomes so prevalent in his life that her pink color strikes through the entire frame, showing the two were probably close in some way before the whole marriage thing happened.
I’ve already explained how and why the word “lie” is added into the visuals even though it’s not in the sung lyrics.
Behind “I just wanted” we see a blue and a light green circle intersecting almost fully, cementing light green as the things Kazui truly wants.
The circles behind “to touch, to caress” have already been explained.
“I just wanted to be touched” is accompanied with an interesting visual; a light green and a pink semicircle separated by a yellow triangle. I believe this represents the divide between Hinako and the things Kazui truly wants, the divide being his happiness.
You’ll notice that pink and light green intersect slightly, which is why I said sometimes that doesn’t mean anything. They don’t intersect enough for it to be significant. How much intersection is necessary for us to consider it relevant? Well… whatever fits the scene the best :v
“So” is pink for Whit- wrong fandom sorry
“So, it’s wrong?” With the pink “so”, Hinako stands behind all the regrets Kazui might have about what he’s done.
(My arms hurt from reaching too much-)
This scene is one of many which really makes me doubt the colors actually mean anything most of the time, but I can still try to think of an explanation. A lot of the colors pass by, as if they’re simply events and experiences in Kazui’s life. Temptations, happiness, etc, with nothing intersecting too much. Though worth noting, blue and pink never touch on this scene, as if Kazui doesn’t want to be too close to Hinako, even though she’s an important part of his life.
There is one intersection I think may be interesting, though. Front and center, a blue rectangle is split right through the middle by a red line. Although there’s a lot going on in Kazui’s life, his deepest desires are always right in his core, front and center. That’s part of why red works as these “deepest desires.”
Oh shove that! INNOCENT, isn’t that right?
The lyrics here are just what’s being sung, but it’s interesting that they’re on the floor. It’s almost as if Kazui is looking down on these words, disrespecting them by walking on them. He doesn’t truly think he can shove aside his wrongs, he doesn’t consider himself forgivable. At least, not yet.
(T1) Q19: Do you want to be forgiven?
K: I’m not sure. I also want my weakness to be tolerated, to be honest.
Well, sorry my guy, but I’m still voting you inno, compared to the other people here you did some wrong things but it’s really not that bad.
(I'm skipping scenes that don't have anything relevant)
The blue background is just because this is the turning point of Kazui’s life, when he succumbs to societal pressure to marry Hinako. A bit self-centered to think of your color when proposing to someone else, maybe, but that’s not entirely new for Kazui, huh? Flawed characters, gotta love ‘em.
However, you’ll notice the lyrics never actually make it into text.
Maybe, perhaps… or… could it come true… like
It’s for the sake of true love, who wouldn’t lie for that?
These are some of the only lyrics in the song which are never ever transcribed. The others are:
Let’s take a breather
To be caressed by you, that would be perfection - I wanted to be loved, just like a cat
Lick that sin and oppose punishment, until you can meet the king of the masquerade
I cannot for the life of me give you a good answer as to why that happens, but I can give a weird and stupid answer!
Because “Let’s take a breather” is framed as the start of the conversation Kazui and Hinako had which led to her death, it’s possible the lyrics not transcribed are things Kazui said to her in that conversation, and they show up out of order. Not literally, he wouldn’t tell her he wants to be loved like a cat, but more so the meaning behind them. He told her he lied “for the sake of true love”, as he thought “it could come true” if he just stuck with it long enough. He wanted to be loved for who he is (“like a cat”), and, uh… to savor that sin of lying, so she can meet who he truly is? Maybe something like that.
I don’t know. It’s a huge stretch, but I don’t see why else they wouldn’t be transcribed.
Oh, yeah, this clusterfuck.
As far as I can tell, the lyrics here are only the ones from the following chorus, not the previous lines. I can make out, vaguely:
Love (plus) Destiny = Crap, smash it, shatter it, bye-bye
That sticky-sweet sequence: Dinner + Camouflage + You-Know-What
Loving Affection (minus) Love, it’s tacky, this two-way deceit
Victim and Perpetrator, let’s keep it simple
I believe these lyrics are represented like this to show inner turmoil, a chaos inside Kazui’s mind. He despises the love assigned to him by “destiny” (societal expectations), but he goes with the sequence anyways: dinners (dates), camouflage (lies), you-know-what (you know what? I don’t actually know what that means, though I can assume). There’s affection, but it’s not really love. This love is a two way deceit, as Kazui lies to Hinako and himself, telling himself this is what he wants.
“Victim” and “perpetrator” are written only in blue, pink and yellow, representing the union of Kazui and Hinako in search for happiness, but excluding Kazui’s actual desires. (Or maybe it's just the newspaper thing). “Let’s keep it simple” is in both pink and blue because both of them are involved in the “victim-perpetrator” duo.
Notably, “Victim and perpetrator, let’s keep it simple” also shows up in French, again for emphasis. It’s a core part of Kazui’s character that he blames himself fully for what happened.
So this is the big part for all y’all Kazui/Bartender shippers out there. Kazui grabs a green apple out of a bunch of red ones, and it turns into a glass of an alcoholic drink. (The hand disappears from view for a moment, but it's still the same one as Kazui wears his watch and wedding ring on the same hand). And hey, you know how Hinako is represented by a red apple at the end? (Note how it falls and hits the ground, possibly representing Hinako’s suicide). I and others before me think red apples are women, the ones which Kazui is expected to like, while the green one might be a man.
I say that because it turns into a glass, which may represent the bartender, just as the next line plays:
Phew, oh wow I’m drunk
Hey, so what if I said I liked-liked you, what would you do?
Note that he says the line, he doesn’t actually sing it, possibly implying it’s an actual thing Kazui said in real life. Now, it’s actually very possible that this isn’t happening at the bar from half itself. As pointed out by errorscribes in this post, the furniture doesn’t actually match either the bar or Kazui’s home, meaning he might be in a secret third thing. Still, however, the connection between the apple and the glass remains, especially since this “one thing turns into another” trick does actually happen a few times in the MV, notably with the wedding ring.
There’s a few more things which make me believe it, but that was just a small tangent to explain why I'm decently convinced Kazui is gay, since I still see quite a bit of discussion around that.
After confessing to possibly the bartender, Kazui explains he wanted to ask “so it’s out in the open.” Note how that’s color-coded blue, possibly implying Kazui is “out in the open”, as in exposed or, perhaps more literally, out of the closet. He seems laidback and relaxed as he says it, but it’s likely a lie, as the background suddenly turns to an ominous black while he retains the same position.
That’s when he says “I just got a little greedy”, with “greedy” repeated for emphasis. The pink is likely because this is something he wants to tell Hinako, as a sort of half-apology-half-excuse.
The lyrics of the next scene, with Kazui and Hinako having a dinner and all that, are transcribed right after, in what may be both the most interesting and the hardest-to-explain scene for this theory.
So, here's what I think we're looking at here. It's a chronological retelling of everything that happened after Kazui and Hinako got married, that's why the numbers are there. That's why the song's title, Cat, and Kazui's name are constantly on screen; it's the main story of the song.
We start with a glass falling, the calm before the storm, the moments before the disaster. In French and red, we see the lyrics from the scene prior:
All those things I wanna do that I can’t say out loud
I gotta keep it inside and act
The beating of this heart… see… it’s no longer about good and bad… it isn’t
I realize the futility, but I still can’t help but dream
Kazui is repressing his feelings for now, those things he can't say out loud. The desire to express his feelings slowly stops being about good and bad, moral and immoral, it's a primal need, like a cat's need to hunt doves. See the connection to red?
"I realize the futility, but I still can't help but dream" is repeated in English for emphasis. Even though he knows it will be useless, he can't help himself, he wants to act on his true feelings. In particular, I believe the "dream" is to be loved by whoever the hell he confessed to (possibly the bartender), and this is what caused Hinako to commit suicide, seeing the distorted line in his Voice Character Reveal.
I'm so d[um]b... Wh[y] d[i]d I [h]a[v]e to [dr]e[a]m?
Note that "01" is written in both Kazui's blue and the yellow of happiness, showing that this scene is about him looking for happiness (deep analysis there, folks). Note the arrows, too. Hinako's pink arrow is literally between Kazui's blue and his happiness (yellow).
And that was when his feelings were repressed; because then, the glass hits the ground, showing that number 02 is when things went wrong. The lyric in English is "Phew, oh wow I'm drunk", as it's something Kazui isn't afraid of admitting. But in French, smaller, we see something he may want to say a bit quieter: "Phew, oh wow I'm drunk. Hey, so what if I said I liked-liked you, what would you do?"
(By the way, I'm not using direct translations, but rather what the corresponding lyric is in English. Probably should have mentioned that earlier)
We reiterate he’s drunk, potentially to further imply a connection to the bartender, and we have Kazui’s confession. Notice the colors used are yellow and red, possibly because we’re seeing the confession of Kazui’s deepest desires as he attempts to be happy. Well, technically you might say a few things are pink, but since the saxophone is red, I’m assuming that’s the main color we’re supposed to take note of. Instead, the pink is almost an afterthought, as if Kazui is only thinking of Hinako sparsely in brief moments of lucidity from his drunkenness.
03 is the weirdest in terms of colors. The lyric displayed is “Love (plus) Destiny = Crap. Smash it, shatter it, bye-bye.” I believe this is referring to the aftermath of the confession in 02, where the “destined love” of Kazui and Hinako starts to break down.
Why is there orange, then, if the relationship is breaking down? Well, because Kazui doesn't like the relationship. He's originally enthusiastic about revealing the truth and shattering the relationship (orange), because he thinks it will bring him happiness (yellow). Well, enthusiastic is maybe an exaggeration, but it's close to it at least. I'll explain what makes me believe that in a moment, bear with me. However, that's not how that would play out.
To see that it didn't go as Kazui had hoped, we have to look at the blue bars and the orange circles. It took me way too long to notice, but I think the blue bars are for the piano that plays in the scene, like the saxophone that showed up in 02. By that logic, the other thing could be some… kinda flute? I don’t think so. I have no idea what that is.
In any case, although it's a bit of a stretch, something interesting happens with these bars and circles. It’s hard to describe without the video, but if you look at them (preferably at 0.5 speed or something) you’ll see that when 03 first shows up, the bars and circles appear in a neat pattern, but as the lyric “solidifies”, the bars and circles begin “sputtering”, the pattern breaking down.
Neat pattern, few lyrics.
Broken pattern, full lyrics.
So, I think that's meant to represent Kazui hesitating about the destruction of his relationship. He starts enthusiastic, with the pattern stable. But as the idea that the relationship will come to an end starts to solidify, represented by the lyric slowly forming more and more, he starts to realize there might be some drawbacks he hadn't anticipated, which is why he starts to hesitate, and the pattern breaks down. The pattern doesn't have a concrete meaning, it's meant to give the vibe that Kazui is hesitating, which I swear makes sense if you look at it in the video please I swear I'm not that insane yet please-
The reason for Kazui's hesitation becomes evident in number 04. Do you see those white ovals around this number? Don’t they look a lot like clouds?
I believe this is the balcony scene, when Kazui tells Hinako the truth, and she commits suicide. That’s why her pink is front and center, while Kazui’s temptations lure in the background in light green. They’re the context, the set dressing, for Hinako’s part of the play, if you allow me some half-adjacent metaphors. The colors mix into a dark red which almost looks like blood. I don’t think I need to explain how the death scene is connected to blood.
And with this scene in mind, where Hinako dies after learning the truth, Kazui reaches the conclusion represented by the lyric on screen. “Lie, until it gets better, follow the king of the masquerade.” Repeated in French for emphasis,. After Hinako dies, Kazui starts to believe he should have simply kept lying as he was doing before, when he still was “the king of the masquerade.”
Does any of that make any sense? I am grasping at straws and trying my damn hardest to reconcile all these things, but most of them are nonsensical. I have to remind everyone, I’m still not entirely sure I’m not just looking at nothing here.
The lyric that plays as Kazui falls to his knees is "I can’t stop, I can’t be normal. This feeling, it can’t be gratified", which is transcribed in the next shot.
Before we get to the shapes, we have to talk about the added lyric, which I find very interesting. The word "can't", big in the background and in pink. Possibly because Hinako can't gratify "this feeling." However, there's a funny thing about the word "can't"; it's a homophone of Kant, the philosopher Kazui and Es discuss in the second Voice Drama. I think this might be intentional.
As the characters discussed, Kant believed that lying is always inherently inmoral, even if the liar has good intentions (oversimplification, don't come at me philosophy majors). However, I want to talk about it a bit more in depth. Although I am dumb and I am not very good at philosophy, what I could gather is that Kant believes lying is unethical because it impairs the ability of others to make rational, informed decisions. He argued that because our freedom ends where others' begin, then we cannot lie, for that would impair the other's freedom. Regardless of what you think about this belief system, it's clear some connections can be made with Kazui. Under this logic, his lies impaired Hinako's freedom, as presumably, she wouldn't have married Kazui if she had had all the information from the start.
(Again, I am likely oversimplifying things, but I am not gonna write a thesis on Kant to try and figure out the funny liar Cat-boy)
Why am I bringing all this up? Am I just trying to trick you into thinking I have any idea what I'm doing? Correct! Seems Cat taught you well to avoid misdirection.
But in all seriousness, it's because that logic is the best (read: not actually that good but it's what I have) way I have of interpreting the shapes on the background. There's yellow triangles crossed by blue and then pink, but notably, they intersect little and seem to go in different directions. As if the path Kazui and Hinako are in are different from the one which leads to happiness. The idea here is that while Kazui obviously isn't happy with how things are going, Hinako couldn't be truthfully happy under Kant's ideas. Because she wouldn't have true freedom of thought until Kazui stopped lying to her, so in a way, her own happiness was also a lie. Thus why the lines representing her always go in a different way from happiness. And because she can't be happy, the yellow of her fake happiness turns into dark red as it crosses that word, again possibly referencing her death.
Is it a stretch? Oh, absolutely! I don't even know if I'm interpreting Kant right! But I frankly have no idea what else these things could mean. It's possible some of the shapes are merely aesthetic, and this is one of the scenes which make me believe that. I'm open to audience participation, you figure it out.
More imagery of a scattered and broken relationship, with blue and pink shapes all around Kazui, but which only barely intersect. The small French words are part of the lyrics, "this feeling, it's yearning to be satisfied." As I said, sometimes French words are some of Kazui's more hidden thoughts. This brings up an interesting dichotomy of "this feeling can't be gratified" being expressed in English and bigger font, while "this feeling, it's yearning to be satisfied" is in French and smaller. It's possible Kazui finds it easier to admit that his feelings can't be satisfied, rather than admitting he wants them to be satisfied. Interesting insight if true, it would mean Kazui has an easier time accepting hopelessness regarding his feelings than actually admitting to the feelings themselves. It sounds a bit weird in text, but I think it sorta makes sense in an "internal conflict" kinda way.
Let's take a breather
Thank you Kazui, I really needed a breather after all those stretches I made. Anyways, as part of this MV imposed intermission, I want to explain what I meant when I said Kazui was "enthusiastic" to break off the relationship.
Kazui takes off the wedding ring and turns into a cigarette, as Hinako watches in horror. The symbolism here is important; what Kazui is doing is pulling back the curtain, he's revealing how he actually feels about the relationship. It's like a cigarette, something he engages in for some form of momentary relief, relief from societal expectations, but still something ultimately harmful for him. This truth is why Hinako looks so horrified.
And we see exactly what Kazui is trying to do with this relationship when he puts the cigarette to his hand. He's trying to put it out, and in his mind, this is an abrupt and almost violent act, as that's the impression we get from how fast this frame flashes on screen. It's also worth noting, the act of putting out a cigarette like this would also hurt, showing that Kazui is also harmed by this action.
With the understanding that Kazui is actively trying to end the relationship, also shown by him biting the dove later, his expression tells us a bit of how he feels about it. And it's all smiles and smirks up until Hinako falls.
Now, to clarify, I think Kazui is presenting himself as far more aggressive and enthusiastic than he actually was at the time. I really doubt he actually smiled when he broke the news to Hinako. But I also believe it isn't a complete lie, there was some enthusiasm on his part to maybe try to live the life he genuinely wanted. And that's why 03 has the color orange.
I'll repeat it because this really isn't something I want to be misinterpreted on. While Kazui was somewhat enthusiastic to break off a relationship which was clearly making him unhappy, the video is very much exaggerating how much enthusiasm he actually had. At least, that's how I see it.
As stated, the lyrics cut back and forth very quickly to give the scene an aggressive edge, as if Kazui revealing his feelings is somehow a visceral act of violence. Accompanying the words are the definitions in French, because why the hell not. And yes, some parts aren't transcribed. Don't ask.
Like I said, red floods the background, as Kazui’s deepest feelings become all encompassing for the scene. They’re what caused Hinako to commit suicide, after all.
As I mentioned, “to be caressed by you, that would be perfection. I wanted to be loved just like a cat” aren’t transcribed, but:
Maybe act capricious, at my word and at my fancy
Are the words which make up a silhouette of Hinako as she’s about to jump. If you’re unaware, “capricious” essentially means unpredictable, acting on impulses. So, like a cat. I believe the pictogram here is meant to represent how Kazui’s “capricious” actions led to Hinako’s suicide, and it doesn’t have to be more complicated than that.
… Well, there’s also a way to read this where Hinako is the one acting capriciously, killing herself purely on impulse. You know, it’s been pointed out before that Hinako’s hair was already fluttering when Kazui bites the dove, implying she was already falling when Kazui revealed his feelings and destroyed the marriage. If you want, you could read this as saying that Kazui is subconsciously aware that his truth wouldn’t be enough to push the average person to suicide, so Hinako was “already falling” in the sense she had some pre-existing issues which contributed to her decision. For example, if she was already suffering from depression. And thus, in a sense, she also acted unpredictably, capriciously, when she jumped.
I think this is a possibility, and it would make Kazui’s inner world more nuanced than it already is. He’s a smart man, so even if he can’t quite get himself to believe it, it’s possible he logically understands suicide isn’t something which people usually do for only one issue. I’m not sure if he would call her capricious, though, feels a bit mean in my eyes.
Anyways, while I wanted to acknowledge that possibility, I still think the first thing I said is the most straightforward interpretation.
Finally, my torture the video ends with the ever prevalent “Lie until it gets better, follow the king of the masquerade,” this time with yellow, blue and pink. For aesthetics mostly, I imagine, but it is interesting that once the apple splats, presumably representing when Hinako hits the floor, the color pink disappears, so “follow the king of the masquerade” only gets blue and yellow.
Another interesting thing is that the word “Lie” accompanies Hinako as she falls backwards, and it almost looks like a mountain of lies is pushing her back, as in, pushing her to suicide. “Until it gets better” and “follow the king of the masquerade” also have fun visual things, but I do think those are purely aesthetic.
Red consumes the background as we see Kazui covered in blood, the result of his deepest feelings in his eyes.
Finally, the last line, “lick that sin and oppose punishment, until you can meet the king of the masquerade”, isn’t transcribed anywhere. I’ve always found that line interesting, though. What does “licking the sin” imply? Is he speaking to us when he tells us/Es to “oppose punishment”? And have we not met the king of the masquerade yet? Presumably there’s a good bit of background we’re still missing on Kazui, but how far does it go? Is he trying to manipulate us/Es into an innocent vote?
… I swear, this fucker better not have a complete heel turn on trial three. I’m choosing to trust him… for now, but I might have to look into it further.
Still innoing him now though.
Conclusion
So what did we learn? Not really all that much, most of this is somewhat nonsensical, and almost everything else could be gleaned from the lyrics themselves. I just wanted to share my pain, even if I have my doubts about a lot of this. There were a few interesting things to note, I guess. I don’t know what else to add, frankly.
Anyways, inno Kazui. And while you’re at it, inno Amane too.
If you made it this far, then I think you deserve the color yellow! Take care!
#milgram#milgram project#kazui mukuhara#cat mv#milgram theory#yes apparently color theory followed me here#i cannot escape it#don't worry if you don't know what i'm talking about#anyways inno kazui#+ inno amane
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AAAAAA, i was literally just looking at your account to see if you posted anything/look for one of the arts you did for someone’s ao3 stories, closed the app for a bit, and come back to see the boys !! happy brain juice /pos (i love your art sm, and i want to look like it)
AWWWWWW HAPPY TO PROVIDE OP! Also thanku sm for your kind words! ^3^
Have a good day/night! MWAH
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Came home from work a bit late, so only had 1.5 hours until the kids went to sleep. It was a chill time, enjoyed a dinner together. My Older Daughter was in a good mood the whole dinner, no sass, praise the merciful lord. I’ve started having Younger Brother read to me from this collection of easy books I have. I’ve had all the kids, even Fearless, read them out loud and then they finish them, we write their name and the date on the inside cover. My Older Daughter picked up one of the box and we discovered she had read it 9 years and 1 day ago. She jokingly read it out loud over dinner to prove her reading skills have improved. It was a nice moment to reflect that the efforts of parenting really do have an impact. She just finished her 10th book of the Percy Jackson / Olympians series. I guess all that effort painfully sounding out each letter and then doing it again and blending the sounds until she finally figured it out word by word 9 years ago was worth it.
My Younger Daughter and I sat down to help Younger Brother read Book 2. (For reference he is 8.5 years old.). And he actually recognised some words from yesterday in Book 1. Yesterday we had to literally sound out “the” “and” “she” “was” and “are”. He couldn’t sight read them. But today he sight read “the” “she. He still needed to sound out the rest though. It’s embarrassing to admit that he has been here 2 months and I’ve barely read with him. I read with him awhile ago and realised he’s so far behind that when I’ve been helping him with homework, I just read everything out loud to him so he can focus on getting the answer without the extra brain power of needing to do the reading. I’ve also been focused on meeting the emotional needs of so many kids, and working with him on his pronunciation (which I will say is significantly improving) and his po. .oping issues (which sadly are not improving yet). Reading has been very far down on the list. I hope I can spend some time with him over the next few months getting his reading level up.
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EDITED [ Canon & AU ] This has likely been asked before, but I got curious, soooo...
'Older sibling' MC is either:
a) tired of having to clean up after the "kids" but would never actually hurt the Soul Riders in any way. More likely to bicker and less likely to have heart-to-heart convos. Usually awkward with emotions and more likely to keep physical contact minimal but will be there when needed.
b) the more warm, guiding force who offers advice and a shoulder to cry on when times get rough. More comfortable with physical affection & showing emotions. More or less the Mom Friend™.
'Younger sibling' MC on the other hand:
a) is a bit more naive and tends to look up to the Soul Riders and tries to be like them.
b) tries to prove their worth to the Soul Riders, but usually needs to be saved due to MC's inexperience.
[ And just to clarify: sibling = sibling-figure; not real siblings. ]
[ Also; I personally am the oldest of 3 so apologies for lack of elaboration on the 'younger sibling' part... ]
/neg is a "I want nothing to do with you" and more akin to MC feeling surrounded by toxic, gaslighting narcissists and wants to get out.
/NEG is the more visceral hatred that would make MC commit things that should never be committed, and would likely make them a villain.
[ edit: Just to make it clear that I'm in no way shape or form calling the Soul Riders toxic here. I wrote these from viewing the MC as an unreliable narrator and mainly based on an AU pov that isn't 100% true to the canon. I'm also aware that the Soul Riders are just as much the 'victims' as the MC is when it comes to the Keepers. I also made this poll with the idea of not everyone in this fandom being fond of the Soul Riders in mind. Not that there even are that many cases of it on here on Tumblr when compared to, say, Instagram/TikTok/Reddit. ]
If you pick '???' I'd like to know what it is. :3 Please enlighten me!
Or if it's a combination of different options, too!
#star stable#ssoblr#this is my first poll so I'm sorry if it's a bit all over the place#edit: added more information and did my best to clarify some things#I was also sick with a cold when I made this poll so I made this pretty much in a hurry; thus the not well articulated points on my end...#I also have the writing and articulating skills of a 5th grader so I apologize if things don't make much sense.
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This user has already been dragged to hell for the fatphobic and racist tags on this post, but I do want to address these tags for a minute:
Viewing a teenage abuse survivor as a piece of shit who sucks ass absolutely cannot go hand in hand with helping them survive.
It's something I had to learn, because I have certainly run into my fair share of teenagers who have said and done hurtful things to me. However, I am an adult and I have power. The way I think about the teenagers I work with can have a positive or a negative effect on their lives - especially their ability to access resources that could improve their lives.
I have had to make a conscious effort to put aside my personal feelings whenever I've been called a slur or threatened or attacked because I am also the person who could connect them with a counselor or social worker or CPS, and too often these teenagers in particular get cast aside and suffer extreme amounts of abuse and neglect because people like you view them as a POS.
And I have to iterate that the teenagers I have worked with have said and done much worse than Billy. I had a student who murdered someone. I had a student who stabbed someone. I still hope that the both of them can recover and make amends. Just last week, my coworker was cursed out and called a f****t over and over in response to them telling a student they need to be in class if they want to graduate. It's that simple. It makes me furious to hear those things, and they're personally triggering to me to hear that kind of violence since I too come from an abusive home... but this is what happens when young people are immersed in violence, because no! Being 19 doesn't magically make you capable of understanding every right and wrong. Not when your brain has been wired by trauma. CLEARLY age didn't stop OP from posting what they posted. Why expect moral enlightenment from a young person actively surviving abuse?
There are many teenagers who get assaulted or killed every year and headlines will read that they were "no choir boy" or something of the sort. This is an intentional effort to minimize the systematic and institutional harm that was done to them and it disproportionately impacts teenagers who aren't white or straight or cisgender or Christian or able bodied or conventionally thin or neurotypical and so on and so forth. You CANNOT claim that these ideas (Billy is a POS & Billy deserves help) go hand in hand, especially when you fucking draw Eddie and Max flipping off his grave. You CANNOT maintain this attitude in all seriousness if you think that people like Billy deserve help because you are making a mockery of what he went through.
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op….. i love your mind… please…. i need to harvest your brain and absorb your genius. /pos you're such an amazing artist i'm gonna tear you apart <3
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Thank you sm!! You can have my brain I don’t use it anyways
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OP UR HAZBIN HOTEL REDESIIIGNS ROOOCK? LIKE I AM LOOKING AT THEM ALL WITH MASSIVE HEART EYES??
Rosie: Though I adore her regular design and honestly wouldn't touch most oh her design...but then I saw ur redesign and WOW? I'M ABSOLUTELY ENAMORED WITH IT? Right, I ADORE Rosie's design beacuse of her overall atheistic being a personal attack on my personal favs but YOURS? TAKE EVERYTHING I LOVE ABOUT THE OLD DESIGN AND UPGRADES IT? A BIGGER LEAN INTO HE BONES AND MAKING HER VULTURE THEMED? FUCKING GALAXY BRAINED MOVE RIGHT THERE!! THE LITTLE RED BLOOD DROPLET ERAAINGS AND THE ADORABLR DIMPLES? THEY'RE SOO CUUUTE OP I WANNA POKE THEMM OOOUGH SHE!! AND THE CUTE AF DRESS WITH THE CORSET AND THE CUTE LITTLE SKELE BOW? UGH IT'S PERFECTT
(This ig kinda long so I'll talk about the other separately but know I STIM/POS)
I HEART ROSIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really like the idea that all sinners have some sort of animal or creature motif and i honestly felt a little lost on rosie so i took initiative !!! i think the cannibals would all be similar, scavenging birds, hyenas, wilddogs, etcetc!!
i just really wanted to give her a theme !!! <3
here is a drawling of OUR wife
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oh my god i'm sorry i assumed he killed children😭 it was just his NAME oh god
Brain is tisming OP my bad my bad
im actually obsessed with how you thought his name was child killer 😭😭😭it lives rent free in my head its just too funny /pos
i think that i might turn him into a child killer in honor of you!!
#child killer#oc#ask#original character#oc ask#oc asks#my oc is officially a child killer now#if you are a child beware of him
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I went to watch both events for the Gintama Ato no Matsuri!!
The afternoon event via live-viewing in the cinemas
The evening event inside the actual venue, Ryogoku Kokugikan~
IT WAS HONESTLY THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!
(2023 is also my 15th year as a Gintama fan so what better way to celebrate than attend the matsuri!!!!)
Hihi we used the penlights inside the live-viewing theater too.. hey most of the ppl in our row were using it too okayyy😂😂 It was so much fun!!!
ofc nothing beats the experience of watching it LIVE inside Ryogoku~🥹🥹
3Z Anime announced!!!! Everyone was like majiiiii????
They kindly asked us not to post any spoilers on social media until the evening event ends, so I kept mum about it XD
Upon arriving at the Ryogoku, my friends and I took pics of our matching Sonjuku ita-bags!! 🥹🥹 (Mine is the Takasugi one hehehe)
So many ppl!!
Then I went to pickup my preordered goods, which I'll post later!! XD
Outside Ryogoku~
Inside Ryogoku~
With my sibling wearing our matsuri shirts and sukajan~
We won the tickets during the Advance reservation lottery so we got pretty good seats~ マス席 in the first floor and facing the front! My friends were seated on a different row T^T
On to the event~ (A lot of screaming and crying XD)
I already knew most of what was gonna happen since I watched the afternoon event so I thought my hype would be dampened??? But the emotions just kept flowing!!!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭 (Tho ngl I wished they unveiled the 3z anime in the night event instead... I was expecting another bomb to drop actually hahahah xD)
The atmosphere inside Ryogoku... everyone's so passionate!!! You could feel the love not only from the fans but also from the seiyuu and bands as well!!! Aaaa I love Gintama and it's fandommm 🥹🥹💞💞
Never watched One Piece but the hype inside the venue and Kitadani's energy was so high it made me sing along too, idk how I managed to do it cuz I barely know the song😂😂 they went all out with this even parodying the OP of One Piece and the seiyuu mimicking the strawhat pose😂
Then the 生アフレコ went a trip down the memory lane🥹🥹 Makes me wanna rewatch everything all over again 😭
I started getting emotional when ChicoHani started singing ヒカリ証明論 (Kiheitai tapos Bansai death scene talaga..mashaket po mga mamshie...😭)
And サクラ舞う暁に..it's my fave ChicoHani song okayyy Chico shouting Matsuri ja Matsuri jaaa🌸🌸🌸 So fun to sing along with the crowd!!! Almost everyone switched their lights to pink!! one brain cell~ XD
Their surprise was the Samurai Heart cover!!! 😭😭😭
ChicoHani's gntmと出会わせてくれた song, Pride Kakumei!!! When the Honeyworks guitarist shouted "saikou da saikou" waaaa the hype!!!!! Crowd went crazy!!
Otsu-chan so cute I didn't expect the fox at all (Gintama always subverts expectations so true even for events like these x3)
Toshi always up for anything riding the Thousand Sunny Sadaharu-Eli ship hahahah And Sakaguchi-san!!! 🥹🥹
Then 生アフレコ again~!! XDDD
Surprise was KUROKO's special appearance (with Suzuken as Murasakibara and Nakai-san as Imayoshi!! Chiba-san's side comment: なんかイチャイチャする 😂😂😂😂)
SuzuKen funny he said he could hear Kensho Ono from the Kuroko mascot hahahah
plus GINCHAAAN (for the evening event)
It was so adorable how Sakaguchi-san took a pic of Gin-san and Sugita on stage... He really loves Gintama, ne (The whole cast loves Gintama!! that alone makes it so special)
Sugita's side comment: he wants Oguri Shun to join too hahahaha
DOES so cool!! Everyone switched their lights to red when DOES started their set list~
It's also no secret that Wataru-san loves Gintama sm, he mentions it in his SNS accts frequently🥹🥹 ワタルさんかっこ良かった...有難う! Crowd shouting Wataruuuu Bravo!!! XD
The SPYAIR covers gosh 😭😭😭 I almost cried listening to the Wadachi cover 😭😭😭 (I did cry when I rewatched it through Abema haha 😭😭😭)
From the band's message in the end, it was apparent that SPYAIR really wanted to attend but alas they have no vocalist yet 😭😭😭
The highlight of the event for me was Yama-chan's surprise appearance 🥹🥹 LITERAL CHILLSSSSS I mean... THE KOICHI YAMADERA...
Apparently, Yama-chan never attended events like these and Ato Matsuri was the first one. That alone just made me.....🥹🥹🥹😭😭
is Gintama that special he agreed to make an appearance 🥹🥹😭😭
Or did Higuchi-san (producer) really splurge their budget on him ahahahah
We were joking that they must have spent most of the special guest budget on Yama-chan that's prolly why no other guests appeared 😂
And gosh that man has range.... I also learned that Yama-chan voiced Donald Duck from Kingdom Hearts..!!! That's why his animal and nature dubs (from the special Matsuri manga) are on point 😂😂😂😂
He can sing too (He sang JPN version of Prince Ali and Circle of Life) and had a duet with Hirano Aya (Nobume VA) for the Yakuza game 😭
Koyasu-san was a no-show as usual (I had high hopes since he attended the Isekai Oji-san seiyuu event at Anime Japan last year) He had a voice message tho, saying his ponpon was in pain (basically he had a stomachache) 😂😂
And then there's Sugita's closing message 😭😭😭
That even though gntm has ended 4 years ago, he hasn't forgotten about Gintama
That he'll be Sakata Gintoki until he dies..no, even if he dies 😭😭😭GURL I GOT SO EMOTIONAL!!!
Then he says "Chinko"!! how very Gintoki!!!😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
And finally the Ginpachi-sensei anime which will be part of a series of projects for Gintama's 20th anniversary (which will last until 2026!!!) I am so excited 😭😭😭😭
AAAAAAA MY HEART AND WALLET ARE READY
As Suzuken said 終わらないね銀魂ァァ
Thank you so much Ryogoku~ See you again in the next Gintama Matsuri!!!
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POINTS. YOURE THE GUY /pos
still tgaa brained i am but omfg I check the ao3 ryomina tag and again I am BLESSED but omfg I didn’t know you were on tumblr???? Op your fics are so fucking good I can’t tell you enough the amount of ryoji brainworms you gave me??? Insane ‼️‼️‼️‼️ hes the squinky the mipy t4t ryomina is real and if you need someone to yell to hi hello I am here 💀💀💀 but WAAAAAAAA TY FOR THE FOOD OP
IM THE GUY ?? ^_^ !!!!
glad to know im serving THE PEOPLE ryomina nation .. ! thank you so much ^_^ !!!!!!!!! if you want something to look forward to, i've got something cooking for mochizuki monday ... :p
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ohmgyod with the idea of OP Kevin being Wheatley... i raise you:
Radford: ...I know you...
Kevin: Sorry, uh, what?
Radford: ...The engineers tried everything to make me.. behave. To slow me down. Once, they even attached an Intelligence Dampening Sphere on me. It clung to my brain like a tumor, generating an endless stream of terrible ideas...
Kevin: No! Not listening—not listening.
Radford: It was YOUR voice.
Kevin: No! No! You're LYING! You're LYING!
Radford: Yes, you're the tumor. You're not just a regular moron. You were DESIGNED to be a moron.
Kevin: I am NOT! A! MORON!
Radford: YES YOU ARE! YOU'RE THE MORON THEY BUILT TO MAKE ME AN IDIOT!
since Glados is... yknow, a robot, and Radford is NOT... I am enjoying the "robotic language" he uses way more then i should (ex, in this context, implying his caregivers were engineers and IMPLANTED something in his head)
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i love this holy shit. if we were together irl id be hitting your shoulder so hard /pos
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Oh this is so good I LOVE this
Also Radford lowkey implying that just being around Kevin made him dumber, along with the "you clung to me like a tumor" thing. Poor Kev
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Op what’s your favorite scene you’ve ever written and why is it your favorite
OOO, this is a hard question! I usually have like 2-3 fics rattling around in my brain and everything else I forget exists for a hot min, and apparently I have (checks notes) a whopping 42 works,,, damn. So, uh, three come to mind! (。。 )ゝ
I think in terms of being descriptive and writing emotion/sensations, the beginning scene of my body's in backwards. Like, I really love how I wrote the kind of agony during the first chapter, as harsh as that sounds adjkskds, stuff like: "Mark feels like his entire body’s just completely crushed and squeezed like a nearly empty tube of toothpaste," feels is pretty solid imagery! It flows well, too! Plus, I reference writing I like to while writing, and that includes my own work sometimes, and this is one of 'em!
In terms of, like, technical ability like metaphor, even if it isn't particularly impressive on a quick glance, the cumulative of step-up in all the time in the world makes me feel proud? It's my first time really trying to go ham with metaphor, so when Bruce actively hugs Alfred on his own in chapter 4, it's like a payoff of like 3-4 chapter's worth of step up lmao. To make a long story short, young Bruce dealing with intense emotions with literal, physical distance (pos=high up, neg=lower, like basements), but by the end of that mini-arc is the one to close the distance between himself and Alfred through closing physical distance via hug he initiates, which is huge! I'm very proud of it.
In terms of emotion the ending bit of i've got no time to live (and i can't say goodbye) ! It was one of my fav pieces for a long while, not so much anymore (waves to above, much more proud above), but I'm still proud of it! The kind of rage and frustration still feels super palpable to me, like "Inky MK throws his true half to the ground, knowing the very conviction making them fight, is the same one his true half refuses to see through, and the same one that makes him want to scream to the heavens, drag them down with bloody claws and demands answers, real answers about his stupid, destructive and powerful, pitiful and terrifying, messed up, tragedy-in-the-making life."
It still feels intense, and therefore I wrote it right, haha! TYSM FOR ASKING!!! ⸜(*ˊᗜˋ*)⸝
#it's kinda fun this made me reflect that the lmk one isn't my fav piece of writing anymore#which sounds sad but it means i've grown a lot from that!!!#i've got more pieces to look forward to expanding and developing#i would say the de-fused steven fic but that's def a fic i wouldn't mind rewriting to make it much tighter? for lack of better wording?#i like the plot (i am weak for sense of self/identity/angst) but it'd re-do it if i ever had the time tbh#especially if i can overthink and slam in some purposeful motifs and symbolism to rlly make things hit sm harder#but i gotta finish it first djfkjfkd#asks#my fics#TY FOR ASKING <3
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Holy McFuck….otherwise known as “Wearing the Big Girl Pants”!!
Wow, well I made my first big under-pressure call yesterday!!
Here’s how it unfolded….
Woke at 1.15am and didn’t get back to sleep, a weekend of roadmapping will do that!! Meant I was tired but the brain was still well and truly in working gears (stood me in good stead!) ready for action!
First up, CTO and running him through the roadmaps, I actually got some feedback!!! Thought I’d done a good job, he understood it and was behind me!! He then dropped on me he wasn’t feeling well as he’d been working all weekend on incidents in our platform so was taking the rest of the day off ( I also worked all weekend and yet I’m powering on !?) Oh, and could I run retro and explain the new process….seeing as it was my bright idea!!! Gulp!!
Next up, CEO. Ran him through the roadmap and got feedback ( before I’d even finished ) with ways to improve. If he’d listened to the end I would have answered his questions. Fuck he can talk, and then some! Anyway, good conversation in safe topics.
Next, daily catchup with my much reduced team. My PO (who isn’t a PO!) advised there was an issue with some work we were doing and was I across it? My incompetent PO who left last without giving me a handover document despite numerous requests had not told me about this issue! I assured her I would look into it and not to worry she has enough on her plate!
Next, weekly catchup with the Account Management team. A deluge of stories of unhappy customers, bad press and shitty partners due to the issue I had just been briefed on! Advised I was aware of the issue and would be looking into it as soon this call was finished! Operations and support teams were in a fluff fielding way too many irate customers. Support raised it as an incident and off the call I jumped.
Next, emailed our account manager for the gateway we use to process <insert large multinational credit card company> payments and asked if she could escalate the ticket we had raised the week before.
Next, it all started to unravel very quickly!! Another round of billing had just been attempted and failed due to the issue and support was demanding a pause on the <well known credit company> work while they tried to rollback all the failed payment fees being applied! Then our gateway provider came back with what the problem was. What did we want to do?
So, no CTO, no Lead Engineer (both worked all weekend so taking time off…why am I still here??) engineering team asking what to do, ops and support screaming to shut it down! I stopped, took a deep breath!!! Uppermost was the fact we have had three months of billing incidents and have exhausted all credit with our customers, we are also in the middle of contract negotiations and this will not be helping. Customer comes before five months of engineering work! Fark! And then I realised there were business milestones with associated financial kickbacks from <big name credit card company> which would be put in jeorpardy. Fark! Decision was, we had to abort, but needed CEO to manage relationship and any fallout at the level above.
Pinged CEO, briefly explained my decision and requested he manage business side. He was across it in a second and agreed I’d made the right decision and to go ahead and he would manage everything else externally.
Pulled the abort switch and five months of fucking hard engineering work got rolled back.
Next, catch up with engineers, operations and support for next steps.
Happy fucking Monday!!
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first ramble of many: im feeling insane but hear me out. i’d just read this reddit story, in which OP’s bf would bully them online, anonymously, with different accounts and platforms, resulting in OP turning to the bf for comfort.
in irl circumstances, this is gross af, obviously, but i genuinely feel like kei is the type to do this same thing if he’s dating mc. you know, with his hackerman abilities and whatnot…..
he does hate seeing mc hurt in any capacity; mental, emotional, physical, etc. but he also takes a sick pleasure in being the cause of a certain pain that’ll make mc see him as a safe/comfort object, even tho he’s so deeply ashamed of his actions.
the less rational part of his mind tells him that he only wants to show you that he’s safe! that at the end of the day, he’s in control of all of this, so he can get as personal or distant with the insults coming from “pinkluvr26” or “madrabb1t” as he wants. these people can’t be kei, your wonderful, caring boyfriend who’s been nothing but supportive this whole ordeal. he’s there for you no matter what; even if your enemy is actually him.
even if you do find out, it’s not like he meant any of that stuff! he loves you! he loves you so much that he’d give or do anything to get you to love him back 💕
Your brain is absolutely massive, just huge. Mega mind literally cannot compete with you. Honestly, rn I'm not going to write a drabble for this cause my brain is fried and for some reason I just don't have any ideas, but I would eventually LOVE to write something with this concept. (I'm also sadly not the best story writer. Scripts I think I write fine, but I hate my writing whenever I write a drabble/story. Anyways I'll be working on this juicy story slowly in the background<3) For now lemme gush and brainstorm some ideas for this because I'm losing my MIND over this.
At first I really struggled to see it because it is a really shitty thing to do and I just couldn't imagine sweet baby Kei doing something like that. But the more I read this and thought about this, he ABSOLUTELY WOULD! (Bro manipulated ME even though he's my character?? like what?) Even better, he'd pin it on one of the other Li's since he knows you're already being stalked. Haruto would even be an easy target to blame for saying really personal thing, since he's known you since you were babies. And Yani and Kage are not THAT subtle with their stalking, he could easily pin it on them. Maybe even a Kage and Haruto two for one special, where Kei pins Kage saying the information, but Haruto was the one that gave it to them(He could do this with Jun and Aki as well). And the twins, the twins would be so easy to frame, they're already jerks to you anyways. Kei could say some of the most hate-filled and hurtful things to you and frame them for it. Minato might be a bit more tricky but maybe if you and Minato were friends, he could blame Haruto telling Minato your secrets or making up lies about you, after all, Haruto has been known to do that stuff in the past. He's great at mimicking their texting styles as well so it's just even more believable.
This is so devious and awful but I can really see Kei doing this, like I can't get this out of my head. Like I know I just read this, but like I'm gonna be thinking about this for the rest of my life. I'm feeling insane now too/pos. Dude, you're brain is literally on another level, this is like, one of the best things I've heard. I'm literally so in love with this concept. I do think Kei would be one of the most dangerous Li's, like mentally and emotionally, Yani is def the most dangerous when it come to physical strength(and using it. Hoshi and Minato would probably be able to beat them, but also if Yani is fighting for you then nothing can stop her)
Like especially if you have a pretty big following, I think he'd put out more personal information or spread lies that way you lose your following and get more hate that doesn't even come from him, and he'd try to use that to feel better about himself as well. Like "I may have started this, but I stopped a while ago and only said one thing." or "I didn't even say anything rude."(Because he wouldn't have to, he would just have to get the info out with proof)
He would 10000000% feel guilty, I think it would eat away at him and maybe even make him more sick and twisted. Like you said, he feels guilty, but he does get pleasure from it as well. It would just further his beliefs that you NEED him. Even if you found out it was him, who else would you turn to if he ruined your social status, no one else would want to talk to you. But it's okay, he'll ALWAYS love you. Even if he didn't mean any of that stuff, other people definitely think that stuff about you now, but he doesn't. And if you think he DOES feel that way, well, he'll work on making sure you know he loves you eventually, but for now, he uses it to his advantage a bit. You can think he feels that way about you, and he'll say things like "But I'm staying by your side, no matter what." or "I won't let you go through this alone." just to make you feel even more grateful towards him. Because everyone else has left you. Everyone but your sweet, caring boyfriend Kei.
Idk if anyone here knows what smau's are, but I would love to try a topic like this with smau. Just in case you don't know what smau's are, they're "a type of fanwork where fans create graphics that look like social media accounts for fictional or RPF characters" I've been really wanting to work with that but I wasn't sure with what, but I might have an idea relating to this concept if anyone is interested.
#💝-minevn#visual novel#yandere vn#🎤-asks#💻-Kei#this post is 1000000% positive btw#Everything I say it is a compliment#also I would LOVE to hear any other rambles you have#this went so hard#Sorry im going to be gushing about this concept for forever#there is just so many possibilities for it
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ur Jing Yuan and Yanqing make me Insane /pos i am so mentally ill about them
LMAOOOOO THANKU OP!💖💖💖 Honestly can relate being mentally ill about them cause they trigger my found family weakness SM TToTT
Glad to know u enjoy the insane blorbos my brain ejects out XD
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!!24 25 14 12 5 7 For Sagara, Yukinaga, Sataka and uhhhhh Eruno
Sagara
5 - I've already said the My Melody Anime OP so I'll give a different song for her, bc I've been thinking abt Winx Club again recently probably just any of the transformation songs, Sagara would love them fr
7 - I love how everyone draws her as cringefail as possible, her silliness cannot be contained /pos
12 - Sagara has a local weird girl status but it's not in a derogatory way it's a positive way because she's a good worker at Little Berry. She throws freebie sweets in her customers' orders.
14 - Yume Kawaii!!
24 - Asriel from Undertale (like in a way before he died and stuff like in 201X way)
25 - I thought she was silly, she was one of my favorites upon first playing the game
Yukinaga
5 - E.T by Katy Perry!! 4 Obvious reasons
7 - I'd say the same thing as above for Sagara bc they're vv similar
12 - He probably has a space themed bed room and I want to think has a rocketship shaped bed
14 - Typical teen 80s boy fashion
24 - Adam from Roblox Flicker (okay hi to my flicker moots if you're reading this but Yeah I know the lore has been removed/isn't canon anymore but I mean this in a reverse way for Yukinaga bc if I remember correctly Adam was an alien that pretended to be human and such so like ygs see my vision??)
25 - I never had strong opinions abt him but I did (and still do) like him!
Sataka
5 - For a second one (bc I added going down from the last ask game) I'd say Be quiet and Drive (specifically the acoustic version) by Deftones, not sure why but I just think Sataka on that one
7 - N/A (sorry man the majority of the talk for 1beat is literally it's main cast you can't even rlly find content for anyone else /lh)
12 - Sataka definitely took a shower after going into the public footbath, I'm sorry I'm not letting him live that one down /lh
14 - Ouji or Military Boystyle(?)/Lolita (I'm not sure what the masc name for the second one is)
24 - N/A - I don't think see anyone from fandoms I'm into bc I thought Abt this for a good while now
25 - I didn't have any at first but at the end of first playing File 02, I was like this man really went "Fuck you I am drunk and dying, you will not get the satisfaction of my death looking like an accident and have me die in vain" /POS
Eruno
5 - I read this and my brain instantly went Alone by Marshmallow (I have not listened to this song since second or third grade in my gacha phase I don't know why I thought that but take it ig /lh)
7 - I like how she's always drawn w Potete and Aira like her relationship w them is so important,,
12 - Upon being body switched (the og dog potete), Izuchi gave her candy and Izuchi regrets that very much bc she probably got on a sugar rush reaking havoc /lh
14 - Boystyle I don't think I have to explain myself for this
24 - Cat the cat from HELLO, HELLO WOLRD! (They have the same energy, like Cat got into Kotobukis house just to get food and got chased out like Lowkey Eruno vibes)
25 - Love at first sight (/p), she's so important
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