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anightflower · 3 years

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Come and Find Me Chapter 5: The Game

Sorry this chapter is a bit short, I am in the midst of finals and final projects. Thank you for sticking by my side, despite the crazy schedule

Spencer Reid x Reader

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Warnings: Stalking, Swearing, Violence

Spencer made his way to the counter, a smiling Ava greeted him.

“Spencer! I’m surprised you’re not with (Y/N), not that I’m not happy to see you of course.”

Spencer returned her smile with a slightly nervous one, “She’s still in bed, I thought I would bring her some coffee before I head to the office. I also wanted to talk to you about something.”

“Oh Spencer, if you’re confessing your undying devotion to me now, I’m afraid it’s a bit too late, I have my own sexy superhero boyfriend now.” Ava said, doing her signature eyebrow waggle, causing Spencer to laugh.

“I do have a confession, but it involves (Y/N).” Spencer said, a smile spreading across his face.

Her expression became more serious. “Wait is (Y/N) pregnant?”

“I- no, that’s not what-” Spencer stuttered, Ava let out a giggle out Spencer’s flustered face.

“I want to ask her to move in with me.” Spencer said finally.

“Oh my gosh Spencer, that’s fantastic! And I’m honored that you’re asking me, as (Y/N) was mine first, so it’s only right you ask me permission.” Ava grinned, pressing a hand to her heart.

“Do you think she’ll say yes? I don’t want to rush her, I know we’ve been only dating for 8 months, but it just feels right. I love her so much and I want to wake up to her every morning and kiss her goodnight every night. Besides it will be so much easier because she basically lives at my apartment now and I just want to make it official, you know?” Spencer rambled.

Ava’s face radiated pure joy. “Oh Spence, she’ll definitely say yes! God (Y/N) will be over the moon are you kidding? You two are the cutest fucking thing, oh my god this is so exciting!” She squealed.

“I’m going to ask her when she gets back from Florida, I know her lease is almost up so that will make things a lot easier too. I’ve been looking at different apartments that are slightly bigger because I know she wants an at home office and I’m sure it will be nice to have her own space-”

“Spencer, I am so glad she has you. You make her so happy and treat her so well. I know she’ll be happy with whatever. But beware, her full interior designer will come out if you guys get your own place.” Ava warned teasingly.

“I’m looking forward to it.” Spencer grinned.

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His hand shook as he opened the door to his apartment. As he slammed the door shut, he met the worried face of his roommate, who was putting on his jacket to leave.

“You okay man?” His roommate Nick asked, eyes filled with concern.

“Don’t worry about it dude.” The Boy said with an angry shrug making his way to his room.

“Uh, okay dude, if you need anything shoot me a text. I’m meeting up with Ava, I’ll probably stay at her place for a couple days.”

“Cool bro, have fun.” The boy said flatly.

Nick looked like he was about to say something, but he shut his mouth and shrugged.

“Later.” Nick said quietly, grabbing his bag and fleeing out the door.

The Boy didn’t respond. He just stomped into his room, red filling his vision.

The Doctor was going to take you away from him permanently, he could feel it.

Moving in leads to marriage, then kids. How could he have let it get this far? The Boy should have intervened earlier, opened your eyes to the truth.

The Boy let out a scream and punched a whole in the wall. It felt good to let his anger out. He pictured the Doctor in place of the wall, the image brought of that man bloodied and pleading sent pleasurable shivers through him. The Boy made his way to his bed and pulled out a box from underneath it. It was an obvious spot to keep it underneath there, but Nick respected his space, so the boy had not been worried.

He pulled out his pictures of you. Each image lovingly taken of you, images of you getting ready for work, smiling with Ava, and then his favorites, the ones of you sleeping peacefully in your bed. He had to resist reaching out and caressing your face. He knew he couldn’t risk waking you up, it wasn’t time for you to see him yet, but now it was.

The boy had started to calm down, until an image of you kissing Spencer fell out of the pile. Red filled his vision once again. He had purposely taken this picture to remind himself of his goal; being in the Doctor’s place.

He ripped the image to shreds, and threw the box of goods causing your pictures, some of your old coffee cups and Drew’s home videos to fly all over his room. His rage filled him as he flipped his desk. He couldn’t stop himself as he ripped his rooms to shreds, breaking things and tossing various items at the wall in rage.

When his breathing finally returned to normal, the boy grabbed a bag and began packing. He threw in all of his essentials and grabbed the tapes and photos he could of you. He wasn’t coming back here after this. You and him were going to start a new life in Florida, he had already set everything up. He had his own secluded place and sent ahead some of the things he needed ahead.

He would leave tonight and be down in Florida a day before you. He had planned to arrive a day ahead of you so he could get your home ready. He had even made a little room for you to adjust to everything, knowing how this big of a change would affect you. But he knew you would do it once you realized that you two were meant to be.

Joy filled the boy as he looked around his mess of a room, he felt relief at the thought of never seeing this place or the Doctor again. Yet in his happy stupor, he failed to see the photos and tape he had missed to pick up.

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Present Day

Reid had reached speeds of nearly 110 as he raced back to the precinct with Emily. SHe had not chastised him for his speeds, too worried about the sorrow in Penelope’s voice and what that could mean.

They raced into the precinct and found Penelope, JJ, and Morgan in the meeting room.

“Hotch and Rossi are still talking to Curtis, but they should be back in 30.” Morgan explained.

“There is no time to wait.” Penelope growled. “I can show this to them once they get here.”

“Any luck at Special Delivery?” Emily asked JJ.

“It shut down 5 weeks ago apparently. So whoever we saw, still had access to a uniform. They probably did it to copy Curtis.” JJ explained, her face solemn.

“Shit.” Emily said, flopping down into a chair.”

“I received this ten minutes ago.” Penelope explained, drawing everyone’s attention to the screen at the front of the room. “Reid, you aren’t going to like this, I’m so sorry.”

Spencer’s blood ran cold as he prepared himself for the worst.

The screen was black for a few seconds and then an automated voice rang out from the speakers. “Ring! Ring!” the deep voice said. “Have you figured it out, Dr. Reid?”

Spencer’s heart stopped as images of you flooded the screen. Photos of you and Spencer flashed across the screen. None of which either of you had taken yourselves, each of these was taken from afar. He felt ill when he saw the ones from outside of your apartment. He nearly vomited when the screen switched to photos of you inside your apartment, peacefully sleeping, completely unaware that a completely crazed man was inches away from you.

“I’ve been to your lectures, Dr. Reid.” A voice narrated from the screen. “I know you’ve studied men like me. It’s very fascinating to hear someone talk about you like they’ve known you since birth, when the two of you haven’t even met once. You took one of my dearest friends away from me. But we adapted, your small victory didn’t stop him from guiding me to my love and taking her from you. Do you think with all your knowledge, all of your cases, all of your team, that you can find her in time?”

A timer appeared on the screen, counting down from a minute.

“What?” Penelope cried out, “That wasn’t there before, how in the hell is it there?” She rushed to her computer and began messing around on the keyboard.

Spencer shot out of his chair and raced over to Penelope’s side. “Penelope, what does this countdown mean?” He asked, panicked.

“I don’t know, I don’t know! It didn’t appear before this. The email didn’t even mention a countdown! I tried to track the email, but it was a throwaway.” Penelope looked ready to cry.

“Spencer, it could mean anything.” Morgan said, trying to calm him down.

“Oh yeah Morgan?” Spencer spat. “Well considering it was showing images of my girlfriend before it, my hopes aren’t too high!”

“Spencer.” JJ snapped, “Yelling isn’t going to solve anything.”

“What if it was Will JJ? Would you be calm?” Spencer growled back at her.

The timer was quickly reaching its end.

“Penelope do something, please.” Spencer begged, his voice breaking.

“I’m trying, I don’t know what to do.” Penelope cried out, horrified at her helplessness.

Tears began to flow down Spencer’s face. The room watched in horrified silence as the timer reached zero.

It was silent for a moment and then Spencer’s phone rang.

He looked down at it to see it was an unknown number. His heart stopped as he realized “Ring! Ring!”

“(Y/N) promised to call me after her meeting, if she had been there, she would have called me now.” Spencer said quietly.

“Spencer, if you answer it, I can try and track the number and centralize the area it could be coming from.” Penelope explained urgently.

Spencer took a deep breath and answered the phone. They all jumped up in shock as a video feed came on at the same time he pressed answer.

His heart swelled with relief, you were alive, you seemed unharmed, but god you looked terrified.

“Penelope, scan the room, see if you can find any recognizable items.” Morgan mumbled quietly.

As Penelope’s keys began clacking a way, a voice that sounded eerily like the one in the video of you smugly said, “Hello Doctor, so nice to finally talk to you. Or have we talked before? You never know, let’s see if that big brain of yours remembers.”

“Who are you?” Spencer hissed into the phone.

“Someone who you’ve taken so much from. My mentor, the woman I love- but luckily this ends now.” The voice purred.

“What do you want?” Spencer tried to keep his voice calm.

“I want to play a game with you Doctor, let’s see if that genius brain of yours is as good as they say. You have 24 hours to find your girl. If you are so smart you’ll be able to find her. But when you don’t, and you won’t, it will prove that you don’t don’t deserve her. That you never deserved her. If you can’t find her in time, you will never see her again.”

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thenugdiaries · 4 years

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In The Beginning

Today is day 3 of finding out I'm pregnant. It's way to early for anything just yet, right now it's just a cluster of cells in there trying to figure out what's going on. It doesn't even have a heartbeat yet. But already I'm starting to have symptoms. I don't feel like I had symptoms earlier and I can't figure out if I'm having symptoms because I KNOW I'm pregnant or if they were going to start like this on their own even if I was unaware. This is the second morning that the Nug has woken me at exactly 4 40 in the morning. I have no idea why this time is significant but I can assure you now, I hate it. I am not a morning person, I have never been a morning person and if I wanted to be a morning person I could be because I am what? SICKENING. (Sorry I really will never be a morning person but it was flowing and I couldn't stop and didn't want to stop my inner Shangela) So now I lay here exhausted but unable to return to sleep and I wanted to document my pregnancy and thought would be a good way since none of my friends still come on Tumblr. My pregnancy ride has not been an easy one. My husband and I tried for over a year on our own and nothing was happening. My period was all over the place I tried talking to my NP and she kept assuring me everything was fine. Let me tell you out there, you know your own body, if you don't feel right, something is not right. I was on the pill for nine years. Turns out I didn't even need to be on it. In August I started seeing a doctor at the same practice as my NP where she diagnosed me with PCOS, polycycstic ovarian syndrome. Which means you have these fluid filled sacs that mess with hormones as can way down the ovary. You're supposed to have a cyst on your ovary when you ovulate. I just had multiple and they weren't allowing me to ovulate. Turns out I mostly likely had never ovulated in my entire life. I had way more eggs than a "normal" woman at my age. The other wall we ran into was my husband's sperm. We were turning out to be Chandler and Monica. We were told his sperm had terrible morphology. The looked super funky and when you have bad morphology it makes it increasing more difficult. The sperm wouldn't be able to penetrate the egg even if one deigned to leave my ovaries. All of these factors started putting me into a deep depression. My husband has wanted a kid for years and I wasn't ready, now I'm finally ready and we're being told it's virtually improbable. The only good thing is we finally had answers. If this were even 50 years ago we would never have been able to have children. The nice thing is that it's 2019 and we have medication that does all sorts of fun things. Our Doctor referred us to and IVF clinic. I personally did not want to do IVF because the hormones make you crazy and I'm already very sensitive to hormones. Being that a lot of women do IVF, it was going to be a while before we could get an appointment. My doctor told me about three months, which would be after Christmas. I fortunately got an appointment two days before Halloween. Seeing as it was supposed to be a long time before I want to the clinic my Doctor started me on a medication to force me to ovulate called Letrizole. (It's a great medication to help you ovulate not good when pregnant, the pharmacy asked me Everytime I picked it up if I was pregnant before giving it to me and I literally wanted to scream at them that if I was pregnant I wouldn't be taking it). I took 2.5 mg for 5 days and lo and behold and egg appeared in my ovary. Not my fallopian tube, just the ovary and it wasn't a good size just yet. It was 15.6 mm and an ideal egg to leave the ovary needs to be between 18 and 22mm. This was ok news, there was no indication it was going to leave the ovary but my doctor was optimistic for the both of us where as I just cried. The day came to go to the Clinic and we met our Fertility doctor. She was nice and educational. We learned a lot from her, including that where my husband's sperm was tested are very strict. All of his other sperm testing was perfect so she didn't believe there was anything actually wrong with his sperm. She wanted to do more labs on me and those came back stating the most beautiful phrase "you have ovulated" I did a dance. But I was not pregnant. I was put on a medication bro force my period and went back on Letrizole on day 3 of my cycle after some more labs. This is where things get strange. On November 10th I went in for an ultrasound and I watched it from where I was laying. I work in the medical field as an x-ray tech and I work in the OR where we do a lot of ultrasound. I don't claim to be an expert but I do know what I'm looking at when I compare my previous ultrasound to this one on the 10th. It was bleak. Not a single egg over 10 mm. I was devestated. My uterus even looked sad. What went wrong? They took some blood work and my estrogen was low. Nothing, zip, zilch. What was different from last month? I had an egg that grew, I actually ovulated. They sent more Letrizole, now 7.5 mg to the pharmacy and when I left the hospital, I spiraled. That night I turned my phone off and just drove around and cried and cried. When I finally came home I told my husband I just wanted to lay down and be alone. I got drunk of Saturday to forget everything and hang with my sister and one of my best friends. It was a bad weekend emotionally. Monday I didn't even want my husband to TOUCH me which is horrible. He needs a lot of physical contact and for me to tell him I didn't want to be touched was heartbreaking for both of us. Tuesday I bled, TERRIBLY. It was so scary. I felt wet but just thought it was normal discharge because I always have cramps with my period. No cramps but I bled through two pairs of pants. I texted my best friend freaking out and call the clinic. Best friend was also freaking out and the clinic told me "we don't know why you're bleeding but you should be fine, continue the last day of your letrizole and we'll see you Friday for your next ultrasound".......WE DON'T KNOW. Do you know how hard it was to keep my composure at work when I felt like I was dying and it felt like the clinic couldn't even be bothered. This is where it gets fun. My husband left Thursday to go to his cousins wedding. I woke up Friday and went and had my ultrasound. We put the probe in and staring back at me on that screen is the perfect example of what a pregnancy looks like. I bolted up on the bed and looked at the tech (who was the same tech that did my scan the previous Friday) and said "WHAT IS THAT" she calmed me and told me I was around 5 and a half weeks...

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petersasteria · 7 years

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James McVey Imagine!

Requested? Nope.

Pairing: James x Reader

Warning: None

Plot: Finally letting go

Italicized = past/flashback.

Italicized and underlined = letter.

And apologies if your name is Amanda.

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Your P.O.V

"James, what's going on?" I asked my boyfriend of 5 years as he was packing his things. "Listen, (Y/N) we need to talk." He said as he sat down on our shared bed. "Okay. What's up?" I asked sitting down next to him. He held both of my hands and looked me in the eyes and said, "(Y/N), babe, I have to be honest with you. These past few months, I've started to not feel anything towards you. I've tried everything, but it seems to not work. I'm so sorry. I'm not gonna lie, these 5 years have been amazing! You've taught me a lot of things and we've shared so many memories together. I am so thankful that I got to meet you. But I just don't deserve you. You need someone else in your life who can love you just as much." James said. I was already in a pool of my own tears. "Okay. If that's what you want. I'm letting you go now." I whispered; not trusting my voice if I spoke louder.

-present time-

It's been like 3 years since James and I broke up. It's kind of pathetic that I still haven't moved on. I heard that he's going to get married to his current girlfriend this week. To be specific, they're getting married tomorrow. It's hard to accept the fact that the person you're still madly in love with is getting married and not to you. I started asking myself questions like, "Why didn't James ask me to marry him?" "Did James think of us having a future together when he was with me?" "Am I not wife material?" And the questions keep going on and on.

The lads and I still stay in touch. Especially Bradley. Bradley's my best friend in the band. He's the one who told me about James getting married. In fact, I met the girl he was going to marry. Amanda was her name. She was so beautiful. I would say bad things about her right now, but I can't because there's nothing bad to say. She's kind, caring, sweet, soft spoken, funny, smart, and the list goes on. The first time she met me, she was nervous. I asked her why she was nervous. She said it's because that I used to date James. She told me how she loves him so much, and that if I was planning to get James back she won't let that happen. I told her that it was all good and there's nothing to worry about.

A loud knock interrupted my thoughts. I got up from my messy bed and opened the front door. I didn't look up at the person who knocked. But I knew who it was when the person started to speak.

(a/n: if you watch YouTube and if you watch the sidemen, slide in my DMs XD)

"Hey (Y/N)! I figured you'd be upset today, because the big day's tomorrow. So, I'm here to cheer you up!" my older brother Ethan said happily.

"Hey Ethan. Please, come in." I said with no enthusiasm in my voice whatsoever.

Ethan noticed, but didn't ask. He closed the door after going inside my flat.

"I called for some pizza on the way here." Ethan said as he made himself at home and sat down one the couch.

"You know, you're not supposed to take calls whilst driving right?" I asked.

Ethan laughed his contagious laugh. "Just kidding. But I did call pizza place before knocking on your door." Ethan calmed down.

"Okay. So, what's up?" I sat down next to him.

"Nothing. How about I set you up on a date?" Ethan suggested.

"Ethan, what the fuck bro." I said with a straight face.

"C'mon, it'll be fun! I'll set you up with one of my best mates!" Ethan excitedly clapped his hands.

"Okay. First of all, you look like a seal when you do that." I said. "Do what?" Ethan knit his eyebrows in confusion. "When you clap your hands excitedly." I replied.

"Second, I thought you said you don't want me dating any of your mates?" I asked him.

"Well, now you have my permission! Plus, this date thing will help you move on. It's been 3 years, (Y/N). Give it a rest. Just move on." Ethan said seriously.

"I wish it was easy. It's easier said than done, you know." I leaned back on the couch.

"Moving on was in your hands years ago. You just chose to believe that he'll come back to you when you know that he won't ever come back. You chose to stay here and mope around all day when you could've met someone else. You chose to hide yourself from the real world and live in this fantasy that you'll have the future you've always wanted with James. Sis, wake up. That's not going to happen. Why? Breaking News: He's getting married tomorrow! But not to you. There are so many guys out there. Just pick one." Ethan finished his little speech and chuckled a bit at the end of it.

I chuckled too and said, "Fine. I'll move on now. For you."

Ethan smiled and shook his head. "Thanks, but don't do it for me. Do it for you."

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A few minutes later, the pizza arrived. Ethan and I started eating.

"I can't believe you ordered 6 boxes of pizza." I said in disbelief as I ate.

"I know that girls eat a lot when they're stressed. Plus, I haven't eaten lunch yet. And I want to spend time with my favorite sister and have lunch with her." Ethan said sweetly.

"Aww. That's so sweet, Eth." I said as I got another pizza, "But I'm your only sister." I added.

"I know! But you really are my favorite family member." Ethan admitted as he got another slice of pizza.

"Same here. Are we going to finish all of this?!" I asked.

"If we can. And I believe we can. We need to believe in ourselves." Ethan said as he took another bite.

We eventually finished 1 box of pizza. Ethan and I didn't move, because we were too full to move.

"Ethan?" I called.

"Yeah?" Ethan mumbled.

"I was thinking of going to James and Amanda's house today." I said.

Ethan looked at me like I was crazy and said, "Are you fucking kidding me? Did my little speech not get through your head?!"

"Of course it did. I'm just going there to talk to her and drop off some of James' things that are still here. But I'm keeping his sweaters. No way in hell am I giving his sweaters back." I said.

"Fine. Get ready then." Ethan stood up slowly and grabbed his car keys.

"Um, what are you doing?" I said with a baffled expression on my face.

"I'm driving you there." Ethan showed me his car keys. "And I'm making the most of this day." He added.

"Why is that?" I asked standing near the staircase.

"Well, it's been a long time since we've hung out and it's been a long time since we've seen each other. It's different when we Skype." Ethan shrugged.

"Okay then." I smiled and went upstairs to change and gather some of James' shirts and pants.

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On the way to James and Amanda's house, Ethan calmed me down by telling jokes.

"You know it's time like this I wish I had listened to what mum has always told me." Ethan said.

"What did she say?" I asked out of curiosity.

"I don't know. I wasn't listening." Ethan laughed.

"Fuck you." I laughed with him.

We arrived at the house. And I felt really nervous. I silently prayed that only Amanda was home.

Ethan and I got out of his car. Ethan knew I was nervous af.

"Hey, (Y/N). If anything goes wrong, I'll be out here." Ethan smiled and gave me a hug.

Ethan can be annoying at times, we always have our ups and downs, and he's always busy. Despite all those things, he never fails to be there for me. I'm so grateful to have a brother like him.

I gave Ethan a small smile and walked up to the door and rang the doorbell. I heard a faint voice saying "coming!" Before I knew it, Amanda opened the door.

"(Y/N)! What a surprise! Please, come in!" Amanda greeted. I thanked her and looked back at Ethan who gave me a smile and a thumbs up before I went inside.

Amanda closed the door and told me to have a seat. I sat on the couch as she sat across from me.

"James isn't here at the moment. It's tradition, you know. The groom and the bride aren't allowed to see each other before the big day." Amanda smiled at the thought of the wedding.

"Oh. That's okay. I'm actually here for you." I said slowly.

"For me?! Really? Okay um. What's up?" Amanda gasped.

"I don't know where to start." I mumbled.

"It's okay sweetie. Take your time." Amanda smiled sweetly.

"I guess I'll start by returning these," I said as I gave her the medium sized box full of James' clothes, "they're all James' clothes. He never got them back, so I thought of bringing it back here." I added.

"Okay. Thank you." Amanda took the box and put it next to the coffee table. "I'll put it in the room later. I was folding clothes before you arrived." She chuckled.

I smiled. Amanda cleared her throat and asked, "I don't mean to be rude, but is there something else you need to say?"

"Oh yeah. I'm just going to tell you a few things if that's alright." I said.

"Oh sure. I don't mind at all. Say anything that comes to mind." Amanda smiled and waited patiently.

I took a deep breath and sighed.

"Amanda, you're such a sweet girl. You're so amazing. It hurts me to say this, but you and James are perfect for each other. I can tell that he's very happy with you. I mean, that's why he proposed in the first place, right? I'm telling you this, because I don't want to hide anything anymore. Now, I'm going to be honest with you. Ever since James and I broke up, I still had these feelings for him. I honestly thought he would come back. So I waited, and waited, and waited. Unfortunately, he didn't come back. He didn't come back, because he met you." At this point, tears were streaming down my face.

Amanda saw this and frowned, "(Y/N)...I am so sorry."

I wiped my tears thinking they would stop but they didn't so I just continued with my little speech.

"I was so sad and angry when I found out that you two were going out. I found out from Bradley. Then one night, Tristan thought it was a good idea to invite me to a party he hosted. Bradley and I went together, because he's the protective type of best friend. That's when I saw you and James together. Then James saw me. I guess he thought that I was over him, so he introduced you to me. And I'm not gonna lie, I wanted to say bad things about you. I wanted to say something mean to you, but I couldn't 'cause you make him happy. And I promised myself that I would never ever ruin anything that makes him happy...even if it means me getting hurt. Then it hit me. My feelings don't matter anymore, because I'm just his ex-girlfriend. I silently prayed that he would break up with you so he could be with me. It sounds so selfish, and I got so angry at myself. I promised myself that I wouldn't be selfish like that, but I did become selfish like every other ex-girlfriend he had. But now, with the help of my brother Ethan, I'm letting- I'm letting him go. I'm letting him go, because I want to stop crying and crying over someone who's never coming back to me. I want to move on, and find someone who can love me as much as he did. If I'm lucky, maybe the guy who I'm going to meet will love me more than James did. Just do me this little favor. Please take care of him and love him and don't hurt him. Just remember these things I'm going to tell you. Every Sunday, he likes to eat pancakes for breakfast. He likes jogging every morning, and when he comes back make sure his food is ready. If he's sick, just give him his medicine and cuddle with him. When he's in the studio and he's on his break, make sure to Skype him and ask how his day went...make sure Mickey's with you too. He loves Mickey so much. Sometimes, James records videos for his YouTube channel. So, when he's recording make sure you get out of the shot, because it's his time with the fans and his topics are really serious. When he's stressed, give him a back massage...that always makes him feel stress-free. He loves you so much. I can tell just by the way he looks at you. Meeting him and loving him was the best experience ever. And you're so lucky that you'll get to love each other for the rest of your life. So, I'm letting him go." Tears were uncontrollably streaming down my face. I stood up and wiped away my tears.

Amanda stood up as well and gave me a hug. We have for a while and pulled away.

"I'll never forget all the things you said. Of course I'll take care of him for you. Are you and Ethan coming to the wedding tomorrow?" Amanda asked.

I smiled sadly with tears in my eyes and shook my head, "Only Ethan is coming."

"I'd love for you to come. I'm sure James would love to see you there. You and James could talk. In case you change your mind, there'll be a seat reserved for you right next to Ethan's." Amanda smiled sadly.

I gave her a small smile and thanked her. I wiped my tears and left.

Ethan was sitting on the front porch, waiting.

"Ethan" I called.

"(Y/N). How'd it go?" Ethan asked before turning around and looking at me. Ethan gasped and immediately gave me a hug. I hugged him back and bawled my eyes out.

"It's going to be okay. I'm here. I won't leave." Ethan whispered.

We pulled away from the hug and he wiped my tears with his thumb.

"Let's go home, yeah? I've got some people waiting for you there." Ethan smiled.

"Okay" I whispered.

* * * *

We arrived at my place and saw 2 cars parked outside.

Ethan and I got out of the car as soon as it was parked. We saw people waiting outside.

"Where are they? It's like 4pm already." One guy exclaimed.

"There they are!" Another guy said.

The guys all greeted Ethan in chorus.

"Hey Ethan!"

"Sup Ethan!"

"Yo!"

"Hi Ethan!"

"What's going on bro?"

"Sup?"

"Wuz gud?"

Ethan greeted them all. I just stood there like an awkward potato.

"Guys, this is my little sister (Y/N). (Y/N) these are the lads." Ethan smiled.

I gave them a curt nod and unlocked the door so that all of us could sit down and talk.

We all piled up inside and I sat on the couch next to a very attractive guy with blonde hair.

"(Y/N) that's Simon. The guy I was telling you about." Ethan whispered in my ear.

"Ethan, he's very attractive. I'm just not ready at the moment. Give me a few days." I smiled a bit.

-time skip to the wedding ceremony brought to you by The Sidemen Book-

"I now pronounce you husband and wife." The priest said.

Everyone cheered as I silently cried. Ethan saw this and rubbed my back. We went to the reception and sat down on the table reserved for us.

Not even an hour in there, I wanted to leave. Ethan was laughing at something that happened when I tapped his shoulder. Ethan wiped his eyes from tears of joy and said, "What's up?"

"Ethan, I want to go home." I frowned.

"Okay." Ethan replied as he stood up from his seat.

"Ethan, can you please give this letter to James when you give them our present?" I asked as I handed him a letter.

"Of course. I'll be right back." Ethan smiled.

Ethan's P.O.V (bc why not)

I walked up to Amanda and James' table as (Y/N) left to go to the car.

"Hey Ethan!" James greeted me. James and I were really close. We built this friendship that we didn't expect to happen. After their break up, we stayed in touch. But not as much as before, because let's not forget that he broke my sister's heart as well.

"Hey James!" I greeted back.

Amanda turned to look at me and smiled. I awkwardly smile back. It's my first time to meet Amanda and probably my last.

"So, congrats on the wedding! (Y/N) and I are leaving now, but here's your present." I said with a smile and giving them their present. I hope I didn't sound like a person who's very urgent to leave.

"Cheers, mate." James smiled as he took the present and put it down next to him.

"Oh and (Y/N) wanted me to give this to you. It's just for you. It's personal. At least I think it is. I saw her writing that in her room before we left this morning." I whispered to James.

James' mouth formed an 'o' shape and said, "Okay. I'll read it later. Thank you!"

"Thanks for inviting us as well. I honestly thought you wouldn't. I would've gate crashed your wedding if I wasn't invited." I joked. I hope he would catch on.

Thankfully, James laughed and said, "Of course I'd invite you! We're best mates!"

"Okay. Thank you for everything! I had fun. I guess I should get going now. (Y/N) might freak out if I spend 1 more minute here." I laughed.

"Thank you for coming and thank you for the present! I'll talk to you soon, yeah?" James said as we shook hands.

"Yeah. Bye!" I waved goodbye.

"Have a safe trip!" I heard James shout before I left.

I got out of the reception which was held at this fancy hotel's function/convention room.

When I went to the parking lot, I saw (Y/N) talking on the phone, smiling.

Before she hung up, I heard her say, "Ethan's here. I'll talk to you later!"

"Who were you talking to (Y/N)?" I smirked as I opened the car door and got inside.

"N-No one." (Y/N) stuttered as she got in the car.

"Really? We're not leaving until you tell me." I said as I put the car keys in my pocket.

"Ethan, we're not 10 years old." (Y/N) playfully rolled her eyes.

"Tell me!" I whined.

"Fine!" (Y/N) tried to hide her smile, but failed. I have a gut feeling that she spoke to a guy. But who is it?

"It was-"(Y/N) looked at me before she said the rest of her sentence. "Don't look at me like that!" she laughed. Hey, at least she's laughing a genuine laugh.

"Just tell me!" I demanded.

"It was Simon." (Y/N) hid her face in her hands and sunk into her seat whilst I looked at her with wide eyes.

"Simon?!"

"Yeah"

"As in Simon, my best mate Simon?!"

"Yes!" (Y/N) laughed.

"What's up?" I asked. You see, Simon has liked (Y/N) for about a year now ever since he caught me Skyping (Y/N) at 3am.

"He asked me out." (Y/N) stated.

"That's great! What'd you say?" I asked as I put the keys in the ignition and started the car.

"I said yes. Might as well start dating again. Plus, I didn't want to wait for a few days when an attractive guy is asking ME out right now. Who am I to say no?" (Y/N) smiled as she looked out the window.

I smiled to myself. Mental thank you note to Simon. He's a blessing.

* * * *

James P.O.V

As soon as Ethan left, I read the letter. It was (Y/N)'s neat handwriting. I smiled sadly after I read the letter. Since this letter is the last thing I have that's (Y/N)'s, I decided to keep it.

Dear James,

By the time you're reading this, you're already married. Writing this was one of the hardest things I've ever done. But it's okay.

First of all, congratulations! You're finally a married man! We've talked about getting married and having a family before, but you went ahead of me. That's okay. Fulfill the dream you've always wanted. Remember when you told me that you want to have a son who you can play football with? Go ahead and make that happen. Bottom line is: you'll fulfill your dreams and I'll fulfill mine.

Second, I've never been completely honest with you. The night you introduced me to Amanda, I was still madly in love with you. Don't worry. I'm not going to bother you and stuff. As long as you're happy, then I'm happy.

Lastly, this is the part where I'm going to tell you that I'm letting you go. I know this won't make any sense to you seeing as you let go of me years ago, but I'm finally ready to find someone new and move on from you. Thank you for everything. I really appreciate the things you've done for me. Hopefully you appreciated the things I've done for you as well. I know this isn't the most proper closure ever, but at least I tried. I'm not saying goodbye, because goodbye means that I'll never see you again. So, um...see you later I guess?

Sincerely,

(Y/N) (Y/L/N)

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Lmao reblog if you liked it.

#the vamps band #the vamps #james mcvey #jamesdanielmcvey #jadley #trames #jonnor

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troystruths-blog · 6 years

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Alright bros. I'm gonna share some wisdom with you. This is some science shit that took me years & years to learn so consider yourself lucky. Buckle up.

Guys, we don't like to admit it hardly ever, but we are dumb as shit sometimes, particularly when it comes to females. And mostly, especially when we're young, I'm talking like under 30, it's not entirely our fault. We mature much later in life than they do, & we have a hard time understanding their emotions and shit. That's just facts, we're just made very different & we will never entirely understand them (at least I won't). But that's where we go wrong when we young, we think that because they don't make sense, they crazy. Or we are right and they are wrong. Bro, you will never understand how much some shit you do can affect her. Imma tell you some things you need to understand, some shit I sincerely wish someone told me before I fucked up. The goal here is to help at least one dude not make the same mistake.

My girl & I had been dating for bout 3 years. We started off amazing and, as I didn't realize always happens, we went through some really shitty times. The last year was full of miscommunication, arguing, and frustration. But neither of us wanted to leave the other. My guys, this is the first sign. If no matter how annoying, frustrating, and sassy your girl is, you still love her enough to not be able to leave her, that's your sign that you shouldn't. If she wasn't worth it, you wouldn't still be here putting up with her attitude. Which brings me to the next thing.

No girl is perfect. And certainly no dude is. And dudes and chicks are already so different. This is literally a recipe for disaster. Thanks, Mother Nature. She's gonna make mistakes too, but the thing is, her mistakes are usually genuine mistakes, or attitude problem when she mad, or maybe she can get real crabby. Your mistakes? Doing shit behind her back. Lying. Ignoring her, making her feel bad about herself. Not listening, not trying. Those are classic young dude mistakes. I loved my girl but man could she push my bottons. Instead of working on them, I turned to other things. Partying, hanging with my dudes. Friends are important, and you need em. You need dudes to have dude talk. But if you think for a second that dude friends you make, particularly after being with her for so long, is the stronger bond? You wrong. And imma show you why.

I did my best friend of 5 years wrong 1 time. We always had the best of times, when my gf and I were having lots of fights. So I started to blow her off for him. My girl has forgiven me for mistake after mistake, she has loved me even when I did stuff she didn't need to forgive, and shit most girls woulda walked away from. Long story short I went behind my friends back one day. He flipped out, and he had every right to be mad, and we never made up. Pretty sure he hasn't forgiven me. That was like, a year ago. My girl? She forgave my young, dumb ass on the weekly. The stronger bond is the one that has been tested. The people who have never done you wrong and never argued with, that's great and all. But when shit does go wrong, you gonna find that no one has your back like the person who you've been struggling with, not the ones you've been goofing with. That's not to say she's more important, not what I'm trying to say. I'm saying that arguing don't mean weakness. Now obviously if you argue from the beginning and you can't remember the last time you two laughed, then that's diff. Might be time to let go. But for every long term couple I know, who had essentially "made it", they have had serious trials. Some time after the hunny moon phase, they had to figure out what works and what doesn't, and that is never easy. If you don't love her enough for this, let her go. Let her find a mature enough dude willing to do the work, while you grow up some. And I don't mean that negatively really, sometimes you just ain't ready for that great girl, but I can promise you, you gonna regret it when you are ready. This I know.

I met this girl through my buddies while I was dating the girlfriend I mentioned. She was funny and cute, and we got along. I thought, man, this is way easier than trying to understand my current girlfriend. I eneded up leaving my girl for this new one. Note, I don't mean cheat. I was dumb but not that dumb. I broke it off and then started dating this new girl. We never fought and I thought that meant it was better.

Of course, til I found she had been lying and cheating on me. See, she never harassed me. She never fretted about where I was or what I was doing, she never nagged me. I thought that was bliss. Come to realize, that's exactly the sign that means she don't care, cause she out doing shit she don't want you to know about. And let me tell you, that shit hurts. Even when I realized that, I never really loved her the way I had loved the one I left, but still, the lies and broken trust and the feeling of not being enough.

Well some time afterwards, my old girl and I starting talking again. I never asked for forgiveness, only apologized many times. She said she had healed and that it was old news. She said she was ok with talking and catching up and staying connected. I never in a million years thought she could come back to me.

But she did. It took a long time of course, but we got back together. She had trust issues and wanted me to call her when I was out a lot or come with sometimes when I was with friends. If you lie to your girl, this just what happens. Dude, you fucking hurt her bad (I would know, I been lied to in the worst way remember) but here she is trying to rebuild that trust. I never woulda forgave that girl for breaking my trust. Impossible. Trust is earned, I suggest you don't break it. After a while, she trusted me. As long as I make plenty of time for her, she don't care when I see my guys, she don't care how long I'm out, she don't harass me about it or make me call her like she used to. Know why? Cause I did my time for my crime, and now I prove to her, every day, that I love her and she don't have to worry, and if you want your girl to stop getting on your case, ask yourself, why is she doing it? If you are loving and affectionate and show her all the time how much you love her, she will not worry and your life & relationship will be so much easier.

Another thing about her & my friends. Whenever we would fight, they would be like "man that sucks here's this hot girls number though" or take me to a bar or smoke or whatever. They never had any insight, and they usually encouraged me to just leave her. They disrespected her, and she knew about it. When I would be having troubles with my friends or they would do something I didn't appreciate, or when they would bash her, she never said to leave them. She said she wanted to be respected and she wanted to be around them and a part of that part of my life, which dudes, makes sense but you ain't realize it til you grow up. She would give advice and she would try to help. They just tried to have fun. See the difference? Now I have better, more mature friends, and as long as they stay that way, I wouldn't trade them for the world. Some of your best friends come later in life, or maybe your current ones just need to do some growing up. Never let go of good friends, but make sure the friendship isn't disrespectful of her or her needs.

Last thing. Common thing ya'll young guys do. Is think that your girl is nagging or unsupportive. Listen your girl should in fact support your goals/dreams. But if she really care about you, she will really think things through and worry about possible things that could be bad for you. If you tell your girl "I'm trynna be a meth dealer", the response you should hope for is "why the fuck, you could do and be better and if you do that you could get in real trouble" if she says "go for it" she don't give a damn. Lemme show you the difference in language.

This the stuff that means she's wrong for you, when you tell her what you wanna do with your life and these are her responses:

I don't care, that's stupid, you're stupid, that's lame, the only thing you should do is what I want, etc.

Now, that, is very different than this:

Well what if this bad thing happens, maybe that's not a good idea because, I'm afraid this will happen, you could accomplish more, I'm worried that you'll get yourself in a bad place, etc.

If she says those things, don't you dare yell at her or tell her she ain't being supportive or she's being controlling. She is looking out for you, dumbass. Even if she isn't right or is worrying about stuff that's unlikely; she is still just worrying and loving you, and why the fuck are you complaining about that? Trust me, I been there. And then I had a girl who let me do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted, and it was the worst thing ever because she didn't really care.

If you got a girl who don't lie, wanna see you all the time, wanna love you, forgive you until you treat her right, you shouldn't let her go. She down for you like nobody else, and she's willing to grow with you. That's rare shit because there are certainly girls that either don't care or have worse flaws than worrying, like actually being controlling where she don't want you to have friends or have fun or nothing, but you gotta see the difference between that kinda girl, and one that just wants to be respected and loved, and wants you to act right. If she says "let's go out with yo friends" instead of "screw your friends you don't need them", she a good one, and she's just trying to be a part of your life, without taking any part away.

I got lucky. Mine came back, and I didn't deserve it. You might want to ask yourself, do you really love her? Is she crazy, or just crazy about you and wants what's best for you both??

#love #guys #girlfriend #boyfriend #trust #cheating

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michaelmitchikolopez-blog · 7 years

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Autobiography

Am I A Hero?

I am a Philippine flag. Every part of my life has a story, and it took time in order for everything to be formed. Every thread represents my success in defeating the monsters that tried to eat me alive. I will never be who I am today without these experiences. I may not be special, but I also went through a lot, just like the history of the country. Throughout the 17 years of existence, I have learned a lot – and not once did I regret doing the things I did.

On June 12, 2000, I was born with parents, Christmas Lopez and Michael Lopez at the Our Lady of Perpetual Succor hospital. Despite some problems encountered by my mother while she was pregnant, we both still survived. As a kid, I was Gregorio Del Pillar; a boy who just wants to have fun and play all day. I’m an only child, and that made me very thirsty for playmates. However, I got to live with it for I, later on, enjoyed the company of my parents. They became my best friends. Usually, at night, our bonding time would be watching the news and even some of my favorite television programs. Aside from them, my grandparents, titos and titas, and cousins played a huge part in making my childhood fun too. They were those that I went to when for example, my mom or dad and I weren’t in good terms.

In 2009, more characters joined my story. My half-siblings came here to the country (when in fact they are based from the US). So you see, I already knew about it when I was 5, and I never took it as something bad. I was like “yay! I have siblings. At least, I’m not alone.” I still remember the first time I saw them. I was sitting on my big luggage bag that I brought to school every day until suddenly, my father called me. As I walked near him, I saw a boy and a girl wearing white shirts behind his back. “Hey, do you know them?” my father asked me. I answered with a stutter, “My bro and sister.”

My siblings created a huge impact in my life. For the first time, I was able to talk with someone close to my age as and had a deep connection with. It helped that our personalities complemented each other. During this time, I was able to bring out the best and worst version of myself.

Being the good kids that they were, I couldn’t help but envy them sometimes – especially my brother who was only 3 weeks older than me. People always liked him because he was the chubby and likable type, while I was the ugly duckling with a bad temper. This led to fights with them, and I was always the one who starts it. My young self could not accept defeat, and that was the main reason why I became a weird monster.

Nevertheless, I spent a really good time with them. I have always been the quiet type and they made me get out of my shell. I got to do things I could not imagine to do if it weren’t for them. They immediately became my squad, and I still miss those days when we had all the time in the world to play Nintendo DS, watch movies, and dance. I miss those good old days when things were still simple and problems were shallow.

I could say that this stage of mine ended when my siblings left the Philippines in 2011. It was sad because by then, I have come to realize that I really love them. We will forever be engraved in each other’s hearts. Just like Goyong (Gregorio Del Pillar), my childhood was short-lived – but memorable. If given the chance, I would want to live that part of my life again. In fact, when I watched a particular Korean drama, a specific line reminded me of it. “The reason why childhood is such a great period is that it’s like a star which shines for a moment but dies after a while. I guess not being to stay in it forever is what makes it special. We all miss our youth not because we were young during those days, but because the people we love were like that too. We will forever miss our parents who used to be like big mountains in our eyes or our friends who were as small as a booger,” it said.

The beginning of Junior High School was when I turned into Apolinario Mabini. Due to pass the Ateneo High School Entrance Examination and the Philippine Science High School test, I had to go to my plan C which was to stay in Angelicum. I must say that it was a good choice though. It became a stepping stone for me to know what I really want in life.

“Alam mo ang epal mo nung YS-8. Ayoko sa’yo nun eh haha,” this was the confession of my bestfriend to me when I asked her about how I was a few years ago. First year high school was difficult. Just like our “dakilang lumpo,” I also felt that it was very difficult to adjust and move around. I had to deal with new people, and I’m no social butterfly. I didn’t know what to say and not to say. It was social awkwardness at its finest. However, I will be thankful that as time passed by, I got to know others deeper and became friends with them. Most of them were women, and that was why an issue appeared around this time of life. I was labeled as effeminate. I never gave a crap about them though. Being friends with someone does not require a specific gender or race. It only requires connection and love. All in all, it was still remarkable for me because this began my journey as an adolescent.

Second year high school was all about discovery of oneself. This was when I was able to find out how far I can go as a person. I learned how to dream, what I want to achieve, and what I can do. It was the first time where I had to report academic works in front of an audience and it trained me to be a better speaker. YS-9 made me realize that filmmaking was a passion too. One short film project there made me really go crazy because of excitement.

Third year high school was a learning experience. Cramming was part of me. As an Angelican for several years, I have always leaned into doing things the night before the deadline or even a minute before the test. That was how irresponsible I was. That all changed though when I met my Math teacher. He didn’t settle for anything less, and my academic performance in his subject led me to failure. I always thought “Ahhh kaya naman yan, January ang start ng school year sa Angelicum,” but man I was wrong. I guess it did not help that I found solid friends that year. I gave most of their time chatting with them or playing games with them. Unfortunately, balance really is key.

Fourth year high school was a year replete with regrets. Because of what happened the previous year, my ego got really hurt. I wanted to prove myself again as a responsible student. This made me fully focus on my studies. Again, anything excessive can be bad, and that was what happened. I regret up to this moment not spending a lot of time with my YS-11 classmates. When most of them asked me to join them in rides or hanging out, I declined and studied instead. That even went as far as considering bringing modules to our promenade – insane.

My adolescence was more of a collection of my memories as a student. I basically gave my life to school during this time. Despite my disability (in my case, it was my ignorance of the real world). Most of my experiences as a person came from school or the people in it. Like what I said, I was never the guy who preferred going out. I am an extremely introverted person, yes?

I am now Jose Rizal – and this is the ultimate truth. Being a Senior High School student was and is still stressful for me. I had to take time to adjust, and when I did, I realized how great yet horrifying it is. Sleeping turned into a luxury, and studying is what I do most of the time. On the flip side though, I really matured a lot in terms of perspective. This experience gives me confidence that I can at least, handle college if not achieve a lot there.

I envision my future as the guy in red. I want to be compared to nobody anymore. Hopefully, just like the color mentioned above, I can be passionate about my career – and even my love life. I want to be the best version of Mitchiko to come out when I finish college. I can only hope right now, but I hope that happens. It would be great if I turn into a successful filmmaker too.

In conclusion, I am just a guy who aims to prove his worth to others. I may not be impeccable, but I’m doing all that I can in order to be great. I want to make a mark in this world so that before I leave, I may tell the higher being that “Lord, I have loved many people. Thank you for giving me the chance to.”

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1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?

I’m confused as to why this is double spaced. i don’t want it to be double spaced, yet its double spaced. why? fuck off.

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?

occassionally but not on a regular basis which is tragic

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?

no. thats fun.

4: Do you find it easy to trust others?

i trust too easily but i shouldn’t and it bothers me but like, when it matters i don’t trust that easily. i don’t think.

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?

sitting in bed thinking i should sleep and then not sleeping for a couple hours bc I’m annoying as fuuuuuUUuuuuUuuck

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?

molly and lex definitely lol

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?

probably cry forever and die

8: Are you close with your dad?

not really but its fine

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?

i didn't

10: What are you listening to?

jennifer talk like always when I’m doing these questions

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?

probably just water so then i can add flavoring #hacks

12: Do you like hickeys?

yes they’re nice

13: What time do you go to bed?

whenever the fuck i want I’m an adult, but usually not before midnight ever

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?

nacho boy. this bitch. like u bought me nachos. then told me u wish u were buying me nachos. and then u tell me u wanna not talk bc ur talking to another girl. how many times can u fuckin say we’ll hang out then cancel on me then tell me i look hot then tell me ur busy for the rest of ur life then tell me u want me then ignore me and let our snap streak die. fuck YOU.

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?

not as quickly but i can still do it

16: Do you always answer your texts?

usually always yes. unless I’m ignoring u. but even then ill answer eventually.

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?

ummMmmMm idk who i fell hardest for tbh. but chances are yes bc i hate everyone

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?

im one of those ppl who constantly has to talk to her friends so like…5 seconds ago lol

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?

JOEY!!!! THE LOML!!!! he picked me up last time i saw him despite him being literally half my weight. i love him. he could never make me sad. he’s one of my safe spots. always happy in his arms.

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

ummmmm i was waiting for a boy to message me back so probably about him tbh

21: Is anyone else in the room with you?

there is not………that i can see

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?

justin timberlake would say yes so i say yes

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?

no. i am 75634728930% happier now than i was four months ago. i love college. but I’m still not happy. just happier. ya KNOW

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?

ye i don’t know if things are necessarily broken but they def need fixing but also I’m not gonna try if they’re not gonna try YA FEEL

25: In the past week, have you cried?

yes. i cried over a dog.

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?

white.

27: Do people ever call you by your last name?

my teachers used to but not really anymore

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?

umm the love of my life on tinder is potentially ignoring me or is maybe just really busy i don’t know but i love him and want him to message me back. also, nacho boy like always but iM OVER IT.

29: Do you have a best friend?

id say i have many

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?

no. lol

31: Who was your last call/text message from?

mary was my last text and my mother my last call

32: Are you mad at anyone?

everyone tbh. i hate people. I’m mad at everyone forever.

33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

yes like…..4 hours ago

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?

35: How many more days until your birthday?

ONE MONTH EXACTLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

36: Do you have any summer plans yet?

lmao tf no i don’t even have plans for tomorrow

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?

yes joseph and peter r cool

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?

i do not really think so, but who tf knows

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?

i do not really think so?

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?

not that i recall. i mean like now looking back, yes, obviously. but at the time no.

41: Do you think age matters in relationships?

to an extent yes but also to an extent no

42: Are you available?

not emotionally but physically

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?

like………i don’t even know if my feelings are real. don’t fucking ask me this. bye.

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?

nips

45: Do you believe exes can be friends?

i think so, if its the right kind of exes ya but shits never gonna work if there r still feelings

46: Do you regret anything?

yes, being born

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?

how fuckin TIRED I AM I WANNA DIE

48: Did you ever lose a best friend?

indeed i have, my dude

49: Was your last kiss a mistake?

i wouldn’t say so

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?

bc hes involved w Satan (the girl not the devil) and i cant deal w that right now

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?

no he has not

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?

ummmm we haven’t talked since he dropped me off but he may text me tomorrow but I’m not about to text him first

53: What was the last thing you ate?

restaurant style tortilla chips made w 7 seeds and grains

54: Did you get any compliments today?

i think so. if the boy i had sex w didn’t compliment me i shouldn’t have had sex w him. I’m sure he said something

55: Where are you going on your next vacation?

i don’t even know if I’m going on a next vacation

56: Do you own anything from other countries?

i do not think so, which is tragic

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?

girls currently

58: Where have you lived most of your life?

illinois all my life which is LAME

59: When was the last time you took a long drive?

friday when my mom picked me up from school and drove me home 3 hours

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?

yes in like 7th grade lol but not since i do not believe

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?

i don’t think so?

62: Who do you text the most?

ummm this is a great question. maybe mary or ola.

63: What was the last movie you saw?

i watched zootopia yesterday. i think it was yesterday. idk but i think that was the last movie i saw. unless I’m going crazy. wait jk i watched the beginning of mr. woodcock tonight but didn’t finish it

64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?

i don’t have a current boyfriend/girlfriend

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?

zero

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?

no he is not U ALREADY ASKED THIS

67: Do you curse around your parents?

nope they’d kill me i think

68: Are you happy with where you live?

i suppose. it could be better but it could also be much worse

69: Picture of yourself?

imagine a pile of shit inside a trash can filled w trash….thats me

70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?

i like monogamy if its w a good person ya know.

71: Have you ever been dumped?

i do not believe so because i don’t recall ever being in a relationship

72: What do you most like about making out?

when they stop making out w u and kiss ur neck

73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?

yes, thats what all my make out sessions r like. I’ve never seriously been involved w anyone ever

74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?

1000% other person bc I’m a PUSSY

75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?

smile but also like…abs. fuck me up

76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?

either alex or sam

77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?

that has indeed happened lmao.

78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?

that has thankfully not happened.

79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?

when boys call me baby :))))))) and flirts w me :))))))))) i love attention and boys being nice to me

80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?

ummm. depends what ‘involved with’ means. fuck? yes. date? no.

81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?

no bc nobody has ever had a crush on me lol

82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?

i tell my friends and i have a decent amount of friends.

83: Do you miss your last sweetie?

my last sweetie does not exist, sweetie. jeez get off my fuckin case bro.

84: Last time you slow danced with someone?

probs never. i don’t ever recall slow dancing w anyone

85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?

that was never a thing that happened.

86: How can I win your heart?

PUPPIES and soft blankets and FOOOOD

87: What is your astrological sign?

sagittarius

88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?

nothing much different from what i was doing at 11pm last night

89: Do you cook?

i do not :(

90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?

no bc i have no old flame

91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?

kinda, ya. :(

92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?

ummm. i don’t wanna fall into a relationship too quick but also if i like someone i wanna date them ya know

93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?

nice hair, nice smile, nice body

94: Name four things that you wish you had!

1. a smoothie

2. a boy to cuddle me to sleep rn

3. medicine to cure my brain

4. money

95: Are you a player?

i wouldn’t consider myself to be

96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?

according to the definition of a day being 24 hours i believe yes but according to my definition of a day being from when you wake up to when you go to sleep no.

97: Are you a tease?

I’ve been called a tease but i don’t think i permanently am. i just looked hot and had to get attention from a boy

98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?

i don’t think so???

99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?

yes. justin timberlake

100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?

probs

101: Hugs or Kisses?

hugs

102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?

yes 100%

103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

smile

104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?

YES

105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?

um id probs talk to them about it but tell them i wouldn’t if they were still in a relationship regardless ya know

106: Do you flirt a lot?

i try but i fail a lot

107: Your last kiss?

like 4 hours ago w a boy named colin

108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?

yes

109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?

yes

110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?

justin timberlake or brandon saad

111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?

i have a solid idea

112: Does someone like you currently?

i think so yes. possibly multiple guys yike

113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?

i do and it HURTS

114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

id like to be in a relationship but everyone i want to be in a relationship w makes it impossible to do so

115: Ever made out with just a friend?

yes. i have, thank u v much

116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?

ive never been in. a relationship so i don’t have anything to compare it to.

#questions

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