Hello! I hope I won't sour your mood with this ask but I have been thinking a lot about your gay dogs this month especially.

I'll just try to keep the context short but in general I'm someone that has accepted being romantically undesireable. It was hard but in the end I have built my life just around me, my humble family and at this point in time I don't even think I have the time for a partner. And considering that it's the love month and a lot of people are preparing to celebrate it with their SOs I assumed that, actually, this is a thing that I sort of have in common with Machete.

From the miscellaneous lore on your profile I see Machete as someone that also has kind of rejected love. That also has built his life around his job, possibly hobbies, his family or mentors (depending if we're talking about canon or modern au). Who kind of forgot that relationships are a thing and that people bond with others in that way. Well, at least he did until meeting Vasco.

I just love thinking about their awkward beginnings. Machete being 100% sure that Vasco is just joking, maybe even sometimes teasing him (in a friendly banter type way) or just explaining to himself that all that kindness and interest is just him being a very considerate friend. And then we have Vasco that just tries to be subtle, as if he was trying to pass a fawn without it noticing and running away, but also with time gains confidence and tries more risque moves. Vasco being all smug and Machete being flustered when their hands or shoulders or tails brush in passing. And then when both are sure of their feelings we have Machete who has to choose between God and his love. Who, at first, unwillingly accepts that divine wrath will be worth their brief love.

I just love your boys. I swear they are all the love supply one might possibly need

Thank you for such a long and thoughtful message! I don't know why you thought you might accidentally sour my mood, I'm utterly delighted whenever I hear that someone has been pondering my little guys (rotating them in their head, as they say), and when they go through the trouble of sharing their findings and conclusions I'm so happy I could crawl up a wall.

I think you deciphered Machete's inner workings very well, especially those of the original canon version. The concept of love is of course prominent in Christianity, so even as a kid being raised in a religious environment that discouraged overt displays of affection and close personal bonds, Machete wasn't completely alienated from it. But it has always been a nebulous, unperceivable and unattainable thing for him. When he was old enough to lock down his career choice he readily accepted he'd never have romantic relationships, spouse or a family, and I think he must've been too young and socially inexperienced to think of it as a significant loss. Either he consciously blocked out the need for companionship by studying and working like his life depended on it, or he didn't really consider that being genuinely befriended, appreciated and loved as a person instead of a respectable and competent authority figure was even an option for him, at least not until Vasco came along.

Pig Pen

{I wrote this ages ago, probably two years ago, I can’t even remember anymore, haha. I privated it and now I’m putting it back on for those who wanted it since I can’t find the private post -.-)

Summary: An encounter with a pig pen couldn’t possibly lead to anything sexual...could it?

Pairing: Yoongi x Reader

Genre: PWP. Don’t count on this being a regular thing, haha, this story just happened. 

Word Count: 3221

**

“Honestly, this is not at all what I was expecting.”

“I also was not expecting to land waist deep in the Vasco’s pig pen, so this is a fun surprise.” Yoongi replied sarcastically.

“This was your idea, Yoongs.” You griped, pulling yourself to the edge of the muddy pen and heaving to a stand at the fence with a loud huff.

“Um, excuse me, sneaking into the party that I distinctly remember not being invited to, was definitely your idea.” Yoongi hissed, climbing his way up beside you and frowning down at his mud covered clothing. “These are my brand new shoes!”

“Yes, but sneaking through the neighbors back yard to get there was your idea. How did you not plan for this sort of a thing?”

“I’m sorry, I wasn’t aware that they had a pig pen in the backyard of their suburban, white picket fence house. This has got to be against some kind of code.”

“Talk louder, I definitely want Mr. Vasco to find me out here covered in mud and whatever the hell else was swimming around in there.” You scowled.

“Why are you the worst person ever?” Yoongi seethed.

“You say that so often and yet you keep hanging out with me. Come on, let’s get out of here.”

Peering around the edge of the house, you booked it for the front gate, pushing your way through with mud slicked hands and into a, thankfully, deserted cul de sac that housed mostly old people and Yoongi’s family at the very corner.

The two of you had been sneaking through the back yards and across roofs and fences to get to the party being held at Jackson’s place, but now there was no way you were going to show up like this. You were most definitely covered in mud and pig crap.

“Come on,” Yoongi sighed, “let’s go to my place and we’ll get cleaned up."

**

After stepping into the garage of Yoongi’s house he ordered you to wait while he went to go get towels. You stood in the garage pouting so that when he came back he would know just how unhappy you were with him making you wait like a dog while he was allowed to go in. He returned a few minutes later in just his boxers with a towel in hand.

"I’m gonna go inside and wash off. You strip down here and put your stuff in the sink. We’ll put our clothes through the wash once we’re both clean. You know where the guest bathroom is.”

The hot water was a welcome relief as you washed the mud from your legs and arms, careful to keep your face and hair out of the spray. You’d been lucky to only land in waist deep so clean up was relatively easy. After toweling down and wrapping yourself up warm you walked back towards Yoongi’s room, pausing outside the door to knock before stepping inside.

“Don’t you knock?” Yoongi growled, pulling his boxers up and over his hips quickly and you sighed, rolling your eyes.

“It’s not like I haven’t seen you naked before. Besides, I did knock.”

“You haven’t seen me naked since we were 5; things don’t exactly look the same. Also, I don’t know how they do things on your planet, but here it’s common practice to wait until told to enter. In an effort to avoid awkward situations, much like this one."

"Is this considered awkward?” You asked, clucking your tongue in annoyance.

Yoongi glared at you before noticing you were still only wearing a towel and rubbing his eyes. “Where are your clothes, Y/N?”

“Well you see, Yoongles, when we fell into the pile of mud and pig slop I was unfortunately only wearing one set of clothing. Next time I’ll think ahead. Let me borrow something.”

Yoongi muttered something angrily before grabbing a baggy t-shirt and throwing it to you. You quickly dropped the towel, watching as Yoongi’s eyes bugged before pulling the shirt over your head and letting it drop to the middle of your thighs. “You act like you’ve never seen a naked woman before.” You chuckled at Yoongi’s pink tinted cheeks.

“I have! I’ve just never seen your naked body before.” He growled, pulling on a pair of grey sweats.

“Pretty rocking, right?” You gloated.

Yoongi rolled his eyes, cheeks burning. “Why do you always have to make things weird?”

“Why does finding my body attractive have to be weird?” You pouted, “You’re a guy, I’m a girl. It’s only natural.”

“You’re not a girl,” Yoongi insisted, “You’re my best friend. You’re automatically disqualified from the girl category.”

You scoffed, sitting on the edge of his bed and folding one leg over the other. “That’s stupid, I’m not any less of a woman just because you’re not man enough to acknowledge it. I’m a woman and have needs like everyone else.”

“What the hell is happening?” Yoongi frowned, looking at you in confusion.

"I’m just saying.“ You shrugged. "Also, that pre game may or may not be loosening my tongue a little.”

"Not once in your life has your tongue been anything less than loose so I don’t know what kind of bull you’re spewing right now.“ Yoongi scoffed and you mimicked him childishly before sprawling backwards on his bed.

Yoongi groaned, turning his face away from you and shoving his hands in the pockets of his baggy sweat pants. "Why are you laying like that? You’re not wearing any underwear so I can see everything. It’s like you're trying to tempt me or something!”

"Is it working?“ You smirked, lifting your head to look at him.

Yoongi glared at you, cheeks still a lovely hue of pink contrasting against his beautiful, lightly tanned skin. "You’re an ass, you know that?”

Despite his words he came and sat beside you, knocking your leg out of his way with his knuckles and stared at the bedroom door in question. “So, I suppose we’re not going to the party?”

You shook your head, pulling softly at the ends of your hair and chewing on your bottom lip. “I’m not wearing any pants or underwear, Yoongs,” you whispered, “I’m not exactly fit for a party.”

“I would say you’re wearing exactly what you should be wearing for a college kegger, actually.” He murmured, looking down at you, his t-shirt riding further up your legs as you huffed.

You looked at him in curiosity as his vision traveled slowly up your legs, over your torso, pausing at your breasts before landing carefully on your face. You smirked, raising an eyebrow. “Finally noticing I’m a girl?”

“Whatever.” He scoffed, looking away from you and you watched as his Adam’s apple bobbed in his throat.

“Are you nervous?” You asked, sitting up in surprise.

Yoongi looked at you, frown etched into his brow. “Why would I be nervous?”

“I don’t know,” you shrugged, “you just seem strange.”

“Well, you are just sitting on my bed in nothing but my t-shirt. You’re probably getting your butt crust all over my duvet.”

“Ew, I do not have butt crust!” You complained, smacking his shoulder, “Way to ruin a moment.”

“A moment?” He asked, looking at you.

“Sure. Kind of feels like we’re having a moment…or something.”

“Or something.” He mumbled. You hadn’t noticed how close you’d drifted to him until you could suddenly feel his breath on your cheeks. You tried not to shiver. “What’s happening right now?”

“Blame it on the alcohol.” You murmured.

“There are some bridges people shouldn’t cross.” He whispered as your face hovered right in front of his.

“Since when did you follow rules?”

Yoongi smirked before you finally took ownership of his mouth. You were probably going to regret this in the morning. While you were sure there’d always been a mutual attraction, you’d always maintained a “just friends” mantra that had been working for the two of you.

All through childhood, middle school, and high school you’d been friends. The kind that your mother called weird because 90% of the time your friendship was just the two of you insulting one another. It was a strange dynamic but it worked. You were both equally sarcastic and where Yoongi was sometimes scathing you were sassy and it just flowed.

This was a part of your relationship you’d never broached. You’d always wondered if it would happen, after all, bickering is just another level of sexual tension so you knew it could be possible to make this decision, but you certainly didn’t see it happening like this. You were definitely going to regret this tomorrow, but what the hell.

The ebb and flow of his mouth on yours, pulling you further into him like a moth to a flame. This was dangerous territory but you couldn’t stop yourself. Couldn’t stop trembling fingers from finding their way to the ends of his hair, threading through his still damp locks and tugging slightly.

You exhaled sharply as you felt a tug of his hands around your waist, pulling you into his lap, the heat of your bodies joining and causing a moan from Yoongi’s mouth to fall against your tongue. You could feel the heat traveling from the seat of his pants and into your center.

Yoongi’s fingers traced patterns on your thighs as you kissed, breath turning shallow as you smoothed your hands down his chest, resting against the strings of his sweats. His fingers dug into the flesh of your upper thighs, just below your ass and you gasped, rolling your hips into his.

Yoongi groaned, pulling away from your mouth and you quickly suctioned your lips to his neck, “What has gotten into you?” He mumbled, pulling your pelvis flush against his. You could feel the outline of his dick through his pants and you rocked against him once more.

“I think I’m ovulating.” You murmured.

“Gross.” He scoffed and you rolled our eyes, tilting his face towards yours and sucking his bottom lip into your mouth, nipping it hard.

“It’s perfectly natural, Yoongi,” you replied as he hissed, “my body is programmed this way. And right now, it’s telling me to let you fill me up.”

“You can’t say things like that.” Yoongi rasped.

“Why not?” You asked, sucking a bruise into the juncture of his neck and shoulder. He shuddered beneath you.

“Because I’ll end up busting a nut before I even get inside you.” You moaned at the thought, rolling your hips against his once more. “You know what?” Yoongi replied, his voice husky and deep, “forget this.”

Before you could ask what he meant he’d flipped you onto your back and crawled possessively over your body as he took control of your mouth, sliding his tongue against yours and grinding his hips deep into your own. You moaned, the t-shirt he’d lent you was doing nothing to restrict the sensation of his groin rubbing against your clit and you ached for more.

The feeling of his hands against your waist made you shiver and you practically yelped as he ground himself deep into you. “Get this off.” He choked, pawing at the t-shirt now hiked to the center of your abdomen and you let him tug it up and over your head before throwing it off somewhere in the distance. “Your tits are amazing.” He murmured and before you could reply he was taking your left nipple into his mouth and sucking a moan from your lungs.

“Not fair,” your complained, “why am I the only one naked?”

“Just let me enjoy this for a second, will you? Here.” He tugged his shirt off and threw it on the floor before returning to your breast and sucking blooming hues of pink and purple.

You ran your nails across his back and he hissed, growling up at you. “I hate when girls do that.”

“What the hell kind of man are you?” You moaned as he turned his attention to the next breast, pinching the nipple before running his teeth across it.

“The kind that doesn’t like to look like he got mauled by a bear.”

“You’re so annoying.” You gasped as he gave an extra hard suck to your nipple before kissing his way down your stomach.

“Says the bear.” He murmured and you shivered, his breath hitting a part of your body you never once thought your pain in the ass best friend would ever have his face right beside. Then again, this whole evening was turning out to be something completely unexpected. You blamed all the extra alcohol you’d consumed but really, you were just horny as hell and he was hot. You were way passed the point of no return so you might as well just enjoy the ride.

“What are you doing?” You asked as he positioned his face at your entrance and he scowled up at you.

“Are you seriously asking that?”

“I just didn’t peg you as such a giving lover.” You shrugged.

“We’ll see who’s being pegged.” He replied nonchalantly.

“Oh geez, did you seriously just say that?” You blinked in embarrassment and he smirked before leaning forward and licking a broad strip up your center.

“Yoongi.” You breathed, pulse picking up and you thread your fingers through his hair as he began a steady pace, pulling your clit into his mouth and sucking. You were sure he was going to make fun of the sounds you were making tomorrow morning but right now you couldn’t help it.

He set a punishing pace, to the point you thought you might cry from ecstasy when suddenly he was pulling back and you frowned down at him. “What the hell, Yoongi?”

“I can’t wait any longer.” He mumbled, hastily pushing his pants and boxers down his legs. “You got a condom?”

“What if I said I didn’t?” You asked, biting your bottom lip and Yoongi stilled, staring at you in agony.

“Please tell me you’re joking because I don’t have any.” He replied, gripping himself as he stood at the end of the bed.

“Just checking.” You smirked, leaning across the bed to grab for a condom in your earlier discarded purse.

“You’re such an ass,” Yoongi hissed, taking the condom from you and rolling it down his length. “You’re gonna pay for that.”

“Mmm, make me pay, baby.” You hummed.

He may have been a little on the gangly side, but watching his figure loom over you as he made his way up your body and kissed you deeply was incredibly exhilarating. His fingers thread through your hair, teasing your tongue with his own before pulling back and grabbing his length to guide to your entrance.

“Ready?” He asked breathily and you nodded, shivering as you felt the head slide along your entrance before he began pushing in slowly.

It had honestly been a while since you’d last had sex so the stretch burned a little. His breathing was heavy, chest making contact with your own as he continued to push slowly into you until your hips met and he stilled, looking up at you.

“Holy shit,” he breathed, “what’s happening right now?”

The two of you looked at each other and laughed. “I don’t know, but it feels good.” You said, wrapping your legs around his waist and he sunk deeper inside you with a groan.

“You feel incredible.” He panted, pulling slowly out of you before thrusting back inside and you gasped, grabbing a handful of his ass to help push him further.

“So do you.” You admitted. His hands left your hips to grip the bars of his bed frame above you and he began a steady pace; in and out, in and out, cock sliding along your walls and making you hiss. “Wow, you’re actually really good at this.”

“Why do you sound so surprised?” Yoongi frowned, thrusting in harder and you felt yourself slip up the bed, hands reaching out to hold yourself away from the bedframe.

“You’re just so small and angry, never imagined you being so aware of where the g-spot is, you know?”

“You’re honestly killing the mood right now. I can feel myself going flaccid.” He grumbled.

“Sorry, sorry.” You murmured. Yoongi resumed his pace, breathes quickening and you inhaled sharply as he prodded your favorite spot repeatedly. You had the feeling it was an accident, he didn’t seem all that aware of what he was hitting with the tip of his penis, eyes squeezed shut and chest heaving with exertion.

“You should kiss me or something, it’s weird not saying anything.”

“You’re so needy.” He complained, blinking down at you but kissing you deeply anyway. “Are you close?” He panted.

“Kind of?” You moaned as he ground against your clit in a downward motion, “If you keep doing that it won’t be long.”

“Good, because I won’t last much longer.” He moaned, picking up his pace, making sure to repeat the grinding action that had you seeing stars. You could feel the edge closing in and you continued your encouragements, breathes of his name leaving your mouth in rapid succession and suddenly you were exploding, body shivering, hips bucking as your orgasm washed over you and you felt Yoongi pick up his pace only to feel him shudder as he released inside of you and flopped heavily across your body as his orgasm overcame him.

Your fingers and toes were still tingling when you began to feel uncomfortable with Yoongi’s weight still resting on top of you. “Can you get off? You’re kind of sweaty.”

“Speak for yourself.” He replied, raising on wobbly arms and slipping out of you with a small hiss. He stood quickly, making his way to the bathroom to clean up before returning to the bed and you ran to the bathroom to pee. There was no way you were gonna get a UTI just because you let your best friend stick his dick inside you on a whim. Today might have been bad decision day, but not that bad.

After finishing your business you walked back into the bedroom to find Yoongi laying on his bed checking the messages on his phone and you began to search for his shirt. “What are you doing?” He asked, just as you’d slipped his shirt back over your head.

“I thought you’d want me to go?” You supplied. Yoongi scoffed, sitting up and grabbing your hand, pulling you down onto the mattress beside him.

“I like to cuddle after sex.” He murmured, burying his nose in the back of your hair and grabbing your boob beneath his shirt. It wasn’t even sexual either, it was like he just wanted something to hold.

“Are we gonna talk about what just happened?” You questioned as his breathing began to even out.

“What’s to talk about?” He murmured softly, “we had sex, it was good; we should do it again sometime. Let’s just figure out details tomorrow. I’m honestly exhausted so unless you’re up for round 2, which you’ll have to wait for because I’ve got a refraction time of 40 minutes, then let’s just sleep and deal with the implications tomorrow.”

“Fine by me.” You said, pulling the blankets up to your chin and dozing off. You didn’t really want to talk about it right now, anyway.

Small little drabble before I get stuck in on the requests sitting in my inbox. This is for the prompt ‘do you hate me?’ from this prompt list.

Now posted over here on AO3.

Vasco tries not to freeze as the very person he’s been avoiding sits beside him. He continues staring ahead at the expanse of trees before them, stubbornly doing his best to ignore the visitor, both hoping and dreading that they’ll eventually decide to leave him alone.

He does well in pretending that their presence has gone unnoticed to him. That is until the softly spoken question reaches his ears.

“Do you hate me?”

Vasco can't stop how he sneers to himself; how he lets out a quick huff of breath whilst giving a small shake of his head in disbelief. Because by all rights he should hate Caleb. All the reasons are swimming at the forefront of his thoughts, telling him that he should hate how Caleb's decision ended up breaking the world, hate that he didn’t choose him in the end — or rather, that he didn't choose what they had together. He should hate him for all the years Vasco spent mourning him, believing him to be gone; taken far, far, away to a place he could never follow.

Deep in his heart however, Vasco knows it's impossible for him to feel any such thing.

He can be mad at him. He can wish he'd never found out the truth, that he'd continued to live in the ignorance Caleb's supposed death brought in its wake.

But Vasco can never truly hate Caleb. 

After all this time and after everything that's happened, he still loves him far too much.

“It would be easier if I did,” Vasco finally settles to respond, his eyes narrowing as he speaks. Beside him Caleb nods his head gracefully, waiting a stretch of a moment before breaking the silence between them once more.

“I doubt it would make much difference to you now. But on the chance that it does mean anything ... know that I am truly sorry.” 

Although his voice hasn’t changed by much over the stretch of years Vasco doesn't fail to notice how Calebs tone is somewhat ... calmer than he remembers. He supposes that it is another subtle change Godhood has brought about him, just as it had changed aspects of Caleb's own appearance. 

“Although it was never my intention, I deceived you. My choices have brought you much pain, and I wish -“

“Wishes are meaningless,” Vasco interrupts, not wanting to hear what direction Caleb's words are going. “Even you with all your godly powers can’t change the past.”

Another long silence settles between them, the tension brought with it taut. Vasco's mind wanders, trekking down the dangerous path of memories; dreams he'd once carried for them both. Briefly he torments himself with the thought of a life they could have shared together, a possibility which had once dangled so temptingly before him before fates cruel hands hastened to snatch it away.

"Vasco - I want ... no. I need you to know. It was never a choice of whom I loved more."

Vasco turns his gaze slightly towards him, noticing how Caleb seems almost ... nervous. He remains silent, inviting Caleb to carry on. To explain.

"I thought I could do it. That I could stop Constantin. Yet when I was faced against him ..." 

Caleb clenches his eyes tightly. Vasco watches as he shakes his head, eyes opening as a frown deepens across his brow.

"I’ve since realised that when it comes to the people that I love I am selfish, Vasco. I would have done the same if it were you standing where he stood that day. While my Cousin's death may have saved the world for others, it would have crushed mine into dust."

“That's where you're wrong," answers Vasco, words spoken like a growl. "Godhood doesn’t suit you, Caleb. Or at least - it doesn’t suit the Caleb I fell in love with. Then again, you as good as killed that man the same day you damned the rest of us.” 

Vasco notices Caleb’s face flicker, before hardening behind a carefully constructed mask. The truth is a hurtful thing, but then Vasco doesn’t feel Caleb should remain ignorant to it. A little bit of pain is nothing compared to what he's caused others to feel.

“You were never selfish. Once you used to care. You used to care about everything. A peaceful world - that’s what you wished for. What you wanted to build alongside your Cousin. An idealistic fantasy perhaps, but it was a dream worth aspiring too, and one I was damn well proud to help you work towards.”

He still remembers the nights on the journey to Tir Fradi, back when the two of them were still hesitant about one another. A time when their friendship was tentative yet growing. He remembers how he and Kurt would sit and listen while Caleb and Constantin went over their expectations for their new adventure, the things they wanted to do as soon as they reached land. Often Kurt would laugh and joke with the two cousins, sharing with Vasco how the two of them had been preparing for the journey for weeks. 

Vasco remembers how even then he had begun to see that the two of them were different, that they were unlike any of the other nobles he'd had the unfortunate experience to work with in the past. Their goals seemed admirable - Constantin wanting to govern over New Sérène in a fair and kind way, while Caleb wanted nothing more but to find a cure for the Malichor. He recalls how he came to learn that the two of them had grown tired of constantly being chewed up and spat back out by the political scrambling of the old lands, how they wanted to put such experiences behind them and instead push forward in creating a better world of their own.

The memory feels somewhat tainted now. That better world they wanted had come true - but the price had been high. Too high. 

What good was a dream of peace when such peace only benefitted the few?

“Know this Caleb,” Vasco says, trying to temper the emotion he can feel building up within himself at the growing frustration his tainted memories bring with them. “I never would have posed you with such a choice. What we were all building together wasn’t perfect, but it was good. It was working. People were learning to be better, were beginning to accept and work alongside one another more rather than to just take without thought. With time the alliances we worked on creating would have only grown stronger. But it’s because of you that all of that is gone and so many are still left to suffer. All because you decided you couldn’t let your cousin go.”

He stands, his frustration peaking with all the thoughts rushing to his mind. Vasco shakes his head, sighs.

“I knew coming back to this island was a mistake. I should have just gone on believing you were dead. That pain hurt a lot less.”

Vasco walks away, refusing to look back. 

He doesn't see how Caleb remains sitting, nor comes to know how he stays there for what feels like an age. 

He misses the shattered expression that rises upon Caleb's face.

lookism rant #1

so... it’s spring break. and i’ve spent the entire break doing what any smart ap student would do: ignoring my five looming ap tests and draining my phone battery by looking at webtoons and instagram. since most of my favorite webtoons are on hiatus, i have resolved to rereading my favorites, and one that i’ve reread the most so far is lookism. as spring break comes to a finish in two days, i decided to get my life back on track and instead of simply rereading the comic, i will rant about my most and least favorite characters starting with the fandom’s all-time favorite character (yes, if you check the wiki for lookism there is a poll and it is fact that he is the majority’s favorite), jay hong/hong jae yeol. (also, note that these are my opinions so if you disagree with them don’t be offended but i would be happy to hear other people’s opinions on the webtoon! please comment who would be on your list because i need to talk to more people who read lookism!)

top favorite characters~

1. jay hong/hong jae yeol:

let’s just list off reasons why everyone loves him: he is well-dressed (even plans out other people’s outfits), generous (gives daniel literally everything he wants), selfless (he fricking took in enu’s pups even though he is scared of dogs), RICH (main reason for kouji’s admiration), strong (manz uses his systema well), and CAN RIDE A MOTORCYCLE (yes, i love a man who can ride a bike). he may not be the most dynamic character, but his static puppy status makes it impossible for me to put him lower on this list. we honestly don’t know that much about his backstory and i am super curious about why his family relationships are so strained (except with his sister, joy). for now, he remains a mystery, but like an attractive mystery. overall, me -> ( ･_･)♡

2. zach lee/lee jin sung:

honestly hated this boi in the beginning because he was a big bully to daniel, but  he has been through some SERIOUS character development. mira was a big part in this but i feel like overall his morals have changed so much even when mira isn’t around. he does still fight often, but now it’s not meaningless violence as he uses his boxing skills to defend his friends (ex: defending johan during the god dogs arc).

i also hated his eyebrows and hair in the beginning of the comic but like that’s personal preference. however, in the last few episodes, his hair looks SO GOOD (reference image above).

he is second on my list of favorite characters because i feel that his development throughout the story has been the most dynamic. he not only changed mentally as he overlooks lookism more (ex: he is not only friends with big daniel but also little daniel) but also physically as he doesn’t simply depend on his inherent talent for boxing but actually goes back and trains again in order to get better (to defend mira >.<)

in the future, i hope to see more development with his relationship with mira and his friends because i hold a lot of high hopes for this boi! ♥‿♥

3. vasco/lee eun tae/tabasco:

BIG CUTIE ENERGY ♥╣[-_-]╠♥! first off, he may not have as much long-term development over the course of the story like zach, but we do see a lot of his development with his own arc and bullying story. he was always a pure boi and his inherent innocence creates a discrepancy with his appearance which makes him more endearing in my opinion. the idea of lookism is very apparent in his character because most people look at him and see him as a gangster or someone very intimidating, but in reality his personality and mindset are very innocent (showing another way that you shouldn’t judge a book by its cover). i honestly LOVED the scene in the god dogs arc in which he defended zach and daniel joins in because that friendship is GOLDEN. i love how he always strives to be stronger and more powerful to defeat the evil in the world because it shows that he truly cares about the weaker people and those impacted by lookism. in my opinion, i think that vasco and zach will end up being the most powerful in the story (but that’s my opinion)

4. mira kim/kim mi jin:

pure! cute! sweet! moral! (✿ ♥‿♥)! mira is just an all-around great gal that makes it impossible for me to find flaws with. although she isn’t super major in terms of daniel’s story, she does impact zach significantly and makes him a better person. like she is the sole reason that zach has become a character that i truly admire and like. (although she did think that daniel was the r-word when he tried hitting on her in the beginning of the story. but throughout the story we see that she isn’t really a person to judge people on looks and stuff as we see that she gives jasmine the benefit of the doubt even after the vasco fiasco)

5. yena/eli jang’s (jang hyun’s) daughter:

honestly too cute for words. like the episodes where zach and mira find her are my favorites so i just wanted to include her in my favorite character list. also, she seems to be a character that really impacts other characters (zach and eli really changed for her ಥ_ಥ)

least favorite characters~

park ji ho:

always doing dumb things and making it harder for the people around him. he tries too hard to be a part of the popular group and as zach said, he doesn’t really think of them as friends because he just thinks about what the benefits are for hanging out with daniel and co. i think we all went from being tolerant of jiho in the beginning and then hating him at the end. i especially hated how he kept blaming other people and yet not accepting when people were being friendly. especially during the fake bank account arc, he just brushed off daniel when he asked jiho if he wanted to go to the convenience store then jiho goes running back to daniel and his friends when he realizes his mistake. overall, -123912830/10.

2. james gong:

don’t even know where to start with this punk. very violent for very little reason! i know i stated before that i hate jiho but i still felt kinda bad for him when he realized that james had sold the bank account he made for him. just overall a very intimidating character that hurt zach (ﾉಥ益ಥ）ﾉ ┻━┻

3. jasmine huh:

needs to get her shit(ake) together. first off, she almost got vasco expelled from the school because of her lies. like big! red! flag! it seems that she really doesn’t care about other people (except james) and is willing to put so many other people at risk to save her own behind. also, i hate how she uses other people. like how she uses mira to make money when mira didn’t do anything wrong ヾ(ﾟдﾟ)ﾉ. i hope she one day realizes that her lies are gonna hurt so many other people and then herself.

4. heemin kim/zeus/creepy dude from the boot camp arc:

sexual assault is a big no in this household. i hate how he thinks that being handsome can defend him of his crimes! also, he broke zach’s arms which made me FLIP OUT. LIKE HOW DO YOU DARE TO HARM MY BOXER BOI. he also attacked mira, an actual angel ლ(ﾟдﾟლ). words can’t describe how much i hate this man but numbers can -> 0/10

5. logan lee/lee tae sung:

big bully energy. he needs to lay his hands off of everyone (especially zoe!). blackmail? big no go in this household. he also dumped his plate of food on mira? BIG NO GO! he needs to get his life together and realize that people don’t hate him because he’s “ugly,” it’s because he has THE WORST PERSONALITY!

6. strong contenders for least favorite: stalker girl, animal cruelty cat mom/hoarder, zoe’s stalker

characters that i need more information about to form stronger opinions about~

vin jin/jin ho bin:

dislike him because he abused enu but also want to know more about him. big bully energy but i feel like he has a deep backstory behind him so i want to know more. why did he quite judo? why does he wear sunglasses? hope he gets over his superiority complex and changes because i feel like he has a lot of potential.

2. eli jang/jang hyun:

so far, very cute and strong is all i have to say about him. also, he is a good dad like that scene where he put out that god dog’s cigarette? MAJOR PROPS TO YOU ELI. i’m very curious about his backstory as well because it seems that he was a contender for gun’s successor but he changed drastically to take care of yena. i also just love a man with good hair sooo…

3. jong gun + joon goo:

i want to know more about these two! like what’s their backstory? why did gun create the 4 big crews? why was goo sent to the juvenile detention center before? (look at vasco’s bullying arc for reference) why did gun leave goo alone with the money collection? overall very mysterious and i want to learn more.

random characters that just deserve appreciation~

crystal choi/choi soo jung:

we stan a strong female character. however, i don’t like how she is immediately prejudiced against handsome men in the beginning of her appearance. i think over time she’ll realize that her prejudice isn’t right and her experience as someone who has to deal with lookism doesn’t justify her immediate judgements. however, we need more female fighters in this story so she is a big yes.

2. duke pyeon:

WE STAN A MAN WHO FOLLOWS HIS DREAMS DESPITE BEING BULLIED AND JUDGED. yes, we stan.

3. daniel park/park hyung suk:

honestly, he’s a great character and all, but i don’t know if he could ever reach favorite character status. i just have a mindset that makes me unable to pick the protagonist as a favorite character because i feel like they are sometimes created specifically to just bring the story together. don’t get me wrong, he’s a great person, defends his friends, and doesn’t fight for no reason, but i feel like there isn’t anything super special about his personality (other than the fact that he has two bodies but like so does crystal). he also looks like kim seokjin in his new body which is a big plus.

4. inu/enu + inu/enu’s pups:

i love dogs

5. mary kim/idk her korean name someone help me:

strong female character? i think yes. honestly such a fav. she doesn’t take sh*t from vin jin and i honestly want to know more about her character and background. *spoiler alert* i read ahead in the korean version and saw that she can beat people up too so like… she’s a bada**.

6. kouji:

as a person interested in computer science, I STAN. i also love a man with good hair. his cocky personality is sometimes off-putting but honestly his confidence is endearing at times. also we both love money!

7. jace park/park bum jae:

during vasco’s bullying story, i was so sad when he left vasco, but i love how he realized that he should’ve been a better friend and has stuck with vasco after all of this time. also love how he listens to vasco and tries to make him happy even when he knows that vasco does some silly things (like planting durian seeds in korea)

8. zoe park/park ha neul:

i love her development! she still fights with herself over whether she should like big daniel or small daniel, which displays her internal conflict with lookism. over time she has stopped judging people solely on their appearance and she is even able to distinguish between daniel and his cousin! (in my opinion, if daniel doesn’t end up with jay he better end up with zoe instead)

9. daniel’s (hyung suk’s) mother:

ICON! WE NEED TO APPRECIATE OUR PARENTS MORE! I AM A BIG STAN! SHE WORKS HARD FOR DANIEL AND IT BREAKS MY HEART WHEN DANIEL DOESN’T REALIZE!

10. song johan:

deserved better. he was just trying to help his mom which makes him so pure! but i feel like he should realize that he has friends (zach and mira) that could help him get through his problems! overall, want to see more of him and i hope he develops even more.

(ʃƪ ˘ ³˘) ichi n vasco or avery n mizu?? the others havent interacted yet and that is a crIME

SEND ME A “(Ʃƪ ˘ ³˘)” AND MY MUSE WILL RESPOND WITH A KISS THAT RESEMBLES THEIR FEELING(S) OR RELATIONSHIP TOWARDS YOURS. ||Accepting||Verse: Default!au@heromanvasco and @friendlyoceangiant​

Vasco stared at the list and then over at Ichimatsu who wasstill very unaware of what was going on. He was going to end up giving hisfriend a heart attack with this, wasn’t he? Turning around to look at a tintedglass window, he started mouthing: ‘can’t I just say it?’. Over the microphonethe words: ‘nope, just do it. Be brave’ could be heard, effectively shockingthe two guys in the room. Why were they there? Who knows? For an almighty beingsamusement, most likely.

Nervous, and feeling a bit guilty about doing this to hisfriend who had no idea what was going on, he gave a very brief ‘sorry’ beforehe started to place his kisses. The first he placed on the back of Ichimatsu’shand (Respect/love), and onthe fingertip(Praise/Admiration) ofthe index finger on his right hand.

Wasn’t this enough torture? Of course not He’d be made tokeep going of course. Don’t pull any punches. You’re known for being veryhonest and to the point about things, right? Don’t hold back now. He placed thenext few on Ichimatsu’s forehead (blessing/friendship)after brushing his bangs away, and on the cheek (Dear/Kindness/Satisfaction).

He truly wanted to stop there but looking over the list oncemore he knew there were at least two more that fit the bill. Groaning inwardly,he moved in for the last two. Poor Ichimatsu was probably utterly confused andshocked out of his mind by this point. Vasco put one kiss on the bridge ofIchimatsu’s nose (Treasuring) andthe last one… on his nape (deep attachment).“Sorry that was weird… this is what they all meant.” Vasco is a simple boy whodoes as he is told by his elders.

Mizumachi ddn’t really get it but he shrugged anyways. Itwasn’t going to hurt anything and he’s not one to know shame. He’s a guy thatcould wear a cheerleading outfit for fun, or you’ll find him stripping down inthe middle of the room. He doesn’t know what shame is. He didn’t know muchabout the guy so a lot of the list didn’t really apply. To start off, he gaveAvery a kiss on the cheek (Dear/kindness/satisfaction),and then he also put one on the forehead (Blessing/friendship).Mizumachi was that kind of guy who could be pretty dense, but he was also a guywho liked to make friends. He had a lot of friends everywhere, don’t you know?You don’t have to talk to him for very long for him to consider you a friend.

“Ahhhh there was another one… OH!” Mizumachi grinned and heplaced one on the ear (????). “Nhaa~There wasn’t one that said ‘I want to know more about you’ so I made one up! Wehaven’t known each other for long but we can change that, buddy, haha!” He hadthis massive grin on his face. Do hit him.

De Sardet Questionnaire

Original questionnaire can be found here, put together by @visceralcoma​!

This got a little long (as is usual with me) but here’s the questionnaire for my De Sardet, Caleb!

1. What is De Sardet’s given name? Caleb De Sardet. 2. What is the name Arelwin would have given De Sardet (assuming Petrus told them and its different than their given name)? Arelwin would have named him Tawa, which means sun. 3. What was their relationship with Constantin like when they were teens? Caleb and Constantin always had a near inseparable connection to one another. Where one was you'd usually find the other, and that didn't change as they grew older. Caleb was the one to always make sure Constantin wasn't doing anything too stupid or questionable, and Constantin was the one who helped to gently pull Caleb out of the shy shell he cocooned himself in throughout his childhood, making sure Caleb found a comfort with himself. Together the both of them built a unique level of trust and comfort, as well as a safe space where they could just be themselves without any of the judgements and expectations of the outside world. 4. What is a special heartwarming memory of your De Sardet and Constantin? As children, both Caleb and Constantin were obsessed with adventure. They'd play make believe games where they were explorers or heroes, and such games usually involved the two of them running around the house brandishing wooden swords. On one day in particular, the two of them were playing in the gardens. As was usual a young Constantin was trying to play a noble hero, brandishing his sword and speaking some over the top soliloquy. Something that was said started Caleb laughing, and Constantin's shocked reactions to his humour only set Caleb off further. Constantin didn't really mind however (even if he did act offended - his growing grin and eventual own laughter was a big give away to his lack of true annoyance), he was just happy to hear his cousin laughing so freely. 

5. Did your De Sardet and Constantin ever have a fight? If so, about what?Nothing really serious that would have caused any strain or lasting effect on their relationship, but there were of course some disagreements. Caleb would point out when Constantin was being particularly reckless to the point he would be putting himself in danger - but mostly Caleb's annoyances would be born out of concern over Constantin's well being. Constantin might occasionally push Caleb too much when it came to moments where Caleb wanted to be left alone, and that could often spark some bickering between them. They always apologised and made up not much later though. They didn't much like being angry or upset with the other for too long. 6. What was the relationship like with Princess Livie (their adoptive mother)? Caleb and her were very close. She always had a caring hand to offer him, and Livie was very much a source of comfort for Caleb. Livie would always tell Caleb how proud she was of him, and as he grew older how much she admired the man he grew up to become. Some of Caleb's kindness and compassion comes from that which Livie showed towards him growing up, and Caleb more or less adored her. 7. Did De Sardet ever have a pet growing up? What happened to it? Nope, Caleb never had any pets. 8. What was De Sardet’s relationship with their uncle (Constantin’s father)?Uncomfortable. There was always something about his uncle that unnerved Caleb, but as a child he could never really put his finger on what the underlying problem he had of him was. He assumed it was simply because he didn't understand nor like how he treated Constantin, but that didn't stop the squirming discomfort Caleb would feel when it came to his uncle's behaviour towards himself. Caleb always felt he was under some kind of scrutiny or trail. It's not until Caleb learns the truth later that he realised that the reason he never felt comfortable in the presence of his uncle was because his uncle never saw either Constantin or he as people, but rather as pawns in his own political game. Caleb was very much seen as an asset, and Constantin was just 'the child he resented had lived while his oldest son had died'. 9. Did De Sardet ever get into trouble with their mother and uncle? Were they a frequent troublemaker? There were ... instances where Caleb would end up being told off by his uncle. Those occasions usually involved Constantin, and his uncle would always manage to say something like 'I suspected it of you, son, but not of my dear nephew'. It was always words used to wound Constantin, and there were many times where afterwards Caleb would end up hugging him as his cousin cried, wanting to know why his father detested him so much. Caleb's mother on the other hand was more lenient with the boys. She wasn't blind to how her brother treated his son, and could see no harm in Constantin and Caleb playing and acting like the children their age should be. Of course there were times where she would remind one or both of them that they were of noble standing and had to be a little more respectable, but otherwise she left them to it. 10. Did De Sardet have many other friends? He didn't have any other friends. Only Constantin. 11. How did they handle growing up with their mark? Did people mention it? Talk about? Treat them differently? How did De Sardet respond to them? Badly. The mark was always something that unsettled people. Children would whisper, laugh or outright avoid him, and even adults would occasionally comment on how strange and unusual it was. It frustrated and upset Caleb, so much so that both his mother and Constantin would find him crying over it. Constantin would often defend him from the other children, feeling a protective streak over his cousin. Livie would rub his back as he cried into his pillow or his sheets, telling him things like how beautiful a boy he was both inside and out in an attempt to make him feel better. When he got older, Caleb grew his facial hair out in an attempt to try and cover most of the mark up. It ... helped stop some of the staring, enough that Caleb learnt not to care about what other people thought. 12. What are De Sardet’s favourite: food, colour, music (genre/instrument), weather, season, and animal? Food: Crab. Wine. Colour: Blue & Red Music: Piano. Weather: Sunny. Season: Autumn. Caleb likes the different colours of the leaves that fall. Animal: Horses. 13. What was their first thought of Vasco, Siora, Aphra, and Petrus when they met them? Vasco: I don't think we're going to get along, he seemed quite upset that I called his ship a boat. Siora: I have only been in this city for five minutes, but I will already try my best to help you in whatever way I can. Aphra: ... Still not convinced she wasn't going to shoot me if her gun hadn't fallen in the water. Petrus: Not quite sure what to make of you, but for now I'll leave my suspicions be. After all, diplomacy amongst our allies is imperative right now. 14. If they had one, who was De Sardet’s first kiss and/or love? You know, I don't think Caleb's had any real love or romance before heading to the island. I always imagine that Constantin is the one that's had many lovers, and then comes back and ends up telling Caleb about the newest person he's 'in love with' (it never lasts. A few days later and Constantin's found something else to fascinate him). Caleb listens to Constantin because he doesn't have much choice likes to see Constantin happy, even if he there a lot of moments that end up like: Constantin: Cousin! I'm in love with them! Caleb: ((shrugs)) okay fine you're in love with them - you've been with them a day. Do you even really know them?? Then one day after a 'breakup' (that's not really a breakup but rather Constantin getting bored of his most recent lover), Constantin's complaining to Caleb about them, and it comes up that they weren't even a good kisser. And Constantin is like 'you know when you find someone and you kiss them and it's like ... magic?', and Caleb's like 'I don't, actually'. At first Constantin is sad for his cousin because he thinks Caleb means he's never had a lover or someone whose kissed him that way, but then he realises that no, Caleb means he's never been kissed full stop. Constantin is shocked, but then considers how Caleb never talks about his love interests and realises it's because he hasn't had any, and suddenly Constantin is determined because 'this won't do. You can't never experience a first kiss, cousin." Constantin ends up being his first kiss, and Caleb still doesn't really understand how. ... Caleb also never acknowledges how he felt in that moment and shoves his feelings away into a box and locks it away to the back of his mind because that is Constantin and he certainly shouldn't be having confusing thoughts over him. Caleb's first love is Vasco. He ends up falling pretty deep into that love.   15. Did De Sardet have any childhood/teen crushes on anyone? Describe how they realized it and how they behaved. Hmmmm not really? I reckon there were some visitors that Caleb ended up thinking 'oh wow' about, but not in any real attraction or 'oh no I like them' way. He wasn't really interested when he was younger, and tended to avoid a lot of people until his mid teens. 16. What subjects were their favourite to learn while being taught by Sir De Courcillion? History and magical studies. 17. What was their relationship with Kurt initially like when he became their bodyguard and/or when he became their Master of Arms? At first Kurt intimidated him, but that quickly dissipated once he got to know him. Caleb really respected Kurt's talents and training - even if he did push him to the limits a lot of the time. He could tell Kurt was passionate about his swordsmanship, and although he couldn't really see why a bodyguard had been assigned to him, Caleb eventually learnt to appreciate it. The two of them got along well and developed a friendship. I imagine Kurt was one of the first to discover Caleb's interest in pistols, and ended up gifting him his very first one. It was very much a 'you're better with it than you are with a sword, Greenblood'. Caleb later adapted his fighting ability to include it alongside his magic ring. 18. What was Kurt’s initial assessment of De Sardet when he began teaching them to fight? That Caleb was absolutely useless with a real sword. It was very much that 'hands on hips and long suffering sigh as he mutters 'we have a long way ahead of us'' type of feeling for Kurt, knowing he had a lot of work cut out for him in order for Caleb to be able to defend himself in a way that was actually half decent. 19. What did De Sardet specialize into first and why? Magic ring, mostly because it was a big interest of his. There was ... a lot of trail and error. Courcillion still has a burn mark on his desk from a rather significant failure of a magic lesson. 20. What did they feel when they learned they were adopted and the circumstances behind it? Oh, Caleb was absolutely crushed and so lost. He didn't really know where he belonged for a while knowing that the family he thought was his by blood never was. He felt too much ingrained with the Congregation to ever find acceptance with the Natives anymore, and he didn't feel as if he would ever really fit in as a Naut - even if Vasco assured him he would be accepted with open arms. Yet at the same time he began to understand why he felt like an outcast growing up - because he was never truly meant to be a part of the Congregation. Vasco, Kurt and Siora really helped him get through things, and Constantin's reassurances that nothing changed between them even if they weren't cousins by blood helped. But it wasn't until he met his true aunt that Caleb found a peace in himself. While it was nice knowing that he still had a familial connection alive and well, it was one of the first pieces in a wheel that allowed him to realise that it didn't matter where he came from or where his origins stemmed from, at the end of the day he would set his own path to become the person he wanted to be. Him and Vasco had a long talk the night after returning to New Sérène over their familiar feelings.