in the dark (with the stars)

this fic deals with disordered eating, depression, anxiety, food issues, mentions of nausea and vomiting. if those are triggers for you, please be careful and/or don't read this fic!

Pairing: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz

Rating: M

Chapter: 1/1

Word Count: 13,002 words

Snippet:

The first time he notices how physically wrong he looks comes a couple days after the dinner with Buck, when he sees the shoulders of his shirts droop where they used to sit perfectly, and the arms feel looser. His uniform hangs off his shoulders, held only in place by strategic folds and a belt that he’s had to poke a new hole in. The bags under his eyes have only gotten darker, his cheeks more gaunt as if he’s masquerading as a ghost, and as Eddie turns his face this way and that in the mirror, he decides he hates looking at his reflection. It’s just because he doesn’t work out like he used to, he tells himself, and moves on with his day.

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