hi hi! 2, 22 & 24 for the books questions :)

hi!! 🤗😚 okay let’s see

2. Did you reread anything? What?

i did! i reread on earth we’re briefly gorgeous by ocean vuong bc it’s one of my favorites, my year of rest and relaxation by otessa moshfegh bc it was that kind of year, and fever dream by samanta schweblin immediately after finishing it the first time bc holy shit wtf wtf wtf etc.

22. What’s the longest book you read?

gotta be to paradise by hanya yanagihara at 720 pages 🥴 i didn’t even like it that much but i rarely DNF books so 💀🤷‍♀️ the longest book i Did like was the book of form and emptiness by ruth ozeki at 560 pages

24. Did you DNF anything? Why?

oh nice segue lol. but only a couple! the club by ellery lloyd bc i just Could Not get into it. and then these violent delights by micah nemerever which i just wasn’t in the mood for at the time + a hold i had placed on a different book went through so i switched to that. i might go back to it at some point but we’ll see. oh, and then i Guess gideon the ninth by tamsyn muir but ONLY BECAUSE i really didn’t like the audiobook narration + haven’t gotten my shit together to get a physical copy yet 😫 so don’t come for me i’m sure i’ll be in the locked tomb goofypool soon 🫠

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end-of-the-year book asks

Hi hi! So I've been making a lot of sprites for @howlonomy (sorry if I did actually tag you) and decided to do one for you as well because why not! So I decided to go for Lilac

Just to preface, this is the reference image I used, so if some colors seem off then that's kinda why

Anyways, now for the sprite

I used Clover as a base since I had easy access to them

Anyways, let's see if I end up doing what I did before and give them full movement range (all directions and running)

I WILL SCREAM

I love how much personality you can give each stp voice design while still making it clear that Hey! This Is Still The Same Creature!

It brings me so much joy

You like em? 🫵

Have a handful 🤲

[notice: please don’t put them in the washing machine, don’t chomp on any of them, don’t squeeze them too hard, be gentle with them and the Stubborn MIGHT consider not biting you]

happy birthday to my hyune. hyunjin who wrote a poem about stay’s eyes and how they shine brighter than any stars. hyunjin who paints old couples because he believes love should be eternal. hyunjin who needs to be chased off the stage by staff because he wants to greet stays longer. hyunjin who always reassures stays that they have a long time left together. hyunjin who reads poetry before bed. hyunjin who writes about love so beautifully as if he is the embodiment of it. hyunjin who says he wants to remain strong as to not hurt stays. hyunjin who says you need to practice with your 200% to show 100%. hyunjin who loves reading books. hyunjin who always tells stays to eat well. hyunjin who wears his heart on his sleeve. hyunjin who started a stay counseling center to listen to stay’s problems. hyunjin who wrote if love is everything, then there is nothing left for me. hyunjin who trained really hard because he refused to be just a pretty face. hyunjin who said that he loves easily, gets hurt easily, regrets easily then repeats the process because isn’t that what life is about. hyunjin who said that the wounds caused by humans are also healed by humans. hyunjin who remains hopeful and loving despite it all. hyunjin who eats with his eyes closed. hyunjin who loves going to art museums. hyunjin who said that there isnt a team that loves each other as much as skz does. hyunjin who said that there should always be a Stray kids before his name. hyunjin who loves so freely and who i love. you grew up so well my hyune 💓 please be happy forever.

mafuyu commission! 🍎

Thank you thank you thank you @babysgarage for this STUNNING holiday gift! 💙 Usually I just hoard Ana's amazing art for myself but she kindly gave me permission to share this and I simply had to because Look At Them!!!

Check out my terrible cat

what a wretched miserable beast. surely the lowest of all creatures. well i would still pet ^-^

Hello there! It's been a while since I did this so, may I offer you some

✨Muca Spam✨

oh you know kitty spam is always welcome in this house ‼‼

I love how a bunch of people (me included) collectively agreed that shishio needs more attention

omg... IT'S SO CUTE..😭😭😭 REALLY CUTE!! Thank you very much!!💕💕💕

*grabs you gently and puts you into a tortilla blanket*

Stop being so cool and a great artist /j

I have become a tortilla.

STOOOOPPP You're so kind!!! 😭 💕💖💗💖💗AAAA I appreciate this ask so much!! I love your art and I think you are a wonderful artist too!

Thanks. You have single-handedly dragged me back into dbh and added Hankcon on top of all of it. I’m so super unbelievably totally upset about this development. (/j if that wasn’t obvious)

Anyway do you know if there are any fics based on your merconnor au? I really like the concept!!!

Please keep doing what you’re doing! Your art and writing are really good!!!

I’m so sorry for the late reply (tumblr has been bugging out for me for the past few weeks lol), but I’m very sorry (extremely pleased and flattered) that you’ve been successfully dragged back into the fandom AND hankcon (hoping you will stay)

No fics based on my AU! (yet 🥺👉👈) But here are some human!Hank x mer!Connor fics that I absolutely adore:

Unread Thoughts* by ConnorRK

The Mermaid of Fox Creek by AtropaAzraelle

‘til the water rises by ghost_teeth

hidden cove* by blackeyedblonde

(Nsfw marked with *)

There’s also another ongoing human!Hank x mer!Connor comic series by @samishin that’s absolutely fantastic so far: part 1

If anyone has any other fic recs then please add them on!!!

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Drew the bug eyed goth <333

HE DREAMS OF FIGS

I love how you draw the Beast Princess! I don't think there's enough of her and the way you draw her is so adorable.

Aww you made her blush ❤️💕💓

First of all, I just wanted to say I love your art op! :D Yet there's been a question that's been plaguing my mind recently regarding the Welcome Home Corpse Bride AU:

Would Home be the equivalent of the Maggot / Black Widow companions for Wally in this AU?

AH FUCK I FORGOT ABOUT HOME

I see your tags on the Wocky and Alita art, I would love to hear your thoughts on Alita actually!

I only need one person to show interest in what I have to say for me to talk forever and ever, thank you. HAHA Okay, in seriousness, this won't be as thorough/long as the Klavier post because... there really isn't much to her, but I find it extremely interesting how Alita falls into the same category of witnesses as April May and Dahlia without being — and I mean no offence to her when I say this — stunning? Like, with April and Dahlia, there's a very clear mass appeal to them which most people point out. Contrariwise, Alita's appearance is really only commented on by Trucy, and just glancing at her portrait, you can see that, without her slightly outlandish fashion, she's frankly nothing to write home about.

So why am I discussing this? Surely it's a little reductive to analyse female characters beginning with their appearances? Usually, yes, but that's the thing about this category of witnesses: their pretty faces aren't just pretty faces.

For April and Dahlia, their beauty is part of their arsenal. It functions as both their defence and their weapon of choice; they know how to wield it to bring people under their heel. Alita being ordinarily pretty instead of drop-dead gorgeous deprives her of that weapon and leads you to wonder how she became a mafia heiress to begin with. It also parallels her to Mimi Miney in a way that goes beyond the 'murderous nurse who worked for and killed her awful boss' comparison you get on the surface. Presumably, Alita, like Mimi, only got to where she was because she managed to fool the people around her into believing she was less dangerous than she actually is. Mimi did this by feigning stupidity and inviting people to underestimate her. Alita seems to do this by showing them what they want to see.

When she first meets Apollo and Trucy, Alita stays quiet and spends more time listening to them than she does talking. Once she has a hold on who they are, then she slips into her persona, and I find it interesting how she doesn't even attempt to come across as particularly delicate or lovelorn? Instead she goes for the relatively typical role of a distressed, indulgent loved one earnestly entreating Apollo for help. I'm inclined to say she does this because her read on Apollo makes her realise that he'd likely be exasperated or annoyed by such a person; but it's also almost as if she knows she doesn't have the disposition to pull off that frail, damsel-in-distress archetype and has resigned herself to being ordinary. Like how she looks. The next time she has to reapply her persona, Alita's appearing in court, and again she makes subtle adjustments that best suit her situation. The judge is old, so she takes a chance on expressing her dedication as a wife while balancing her dedication as a righteous citizen, which works. But oddly enough, despite her successes, I don't think Alita is actually good? At donning disguises? Everyone I've seen discuss this case has been able to guess almost immediately that she's the culprit, and maybe we're just prepped by past characters like her that have appeared, but I don't think she's even that convincing in the game.

Both the identities she assumes are risky manoeuvres that happen to fall in her favour, and she's not particularly dedicated to maintaining the front. When she asks Apollo to be Wocky's defence, she admits that marrying him is largely a chance at a more exciting life than some great love story; Plum Kitaki straight up says that there's a darkness in Alita she doesn't like, despite how docile Alita behaves in front of her; and Wocky has moments where he slips up and calls her things like, "imposter" and "fallen angel", implying that at least subconsciously, he knows she's not what she makes herself out to be. Even her general mannerisms don't greatly differ between her actual self and the mask who's blunt her claws — nothing is ever overtly coy or cutesy — and when Apollo brings up the fact she was Wocky's nurse, she drops the facade almost immediately. There's no waffling, no, "Whatever do you mean?"s or, "You're scaring me"s, just the statement, "I don't know what you mean by 'meaning', Mr. Justice!" delivered in a sudden cool, frosted steeliness.

And I think that steel is what really makes her different.

See, the other women are all driven to crime by some defining trait in themselves caused by their circumstances. For Dahlia, it's her desperate need to be free of the Fey clan; for Mimi, it's grief over her sister's unjust death; and for April, it's her fear of Redd White. You don't really get that with Alita. Instead of there being something dark in her life that leads her down this path, she just seems... tired. Tired of being "pretty enough" but not "gorgeous", tired of being the obedient nurse to the corrupt doctor, tired of being ordinary. There's no predatory external force pushing her into a corner, there's no abusive family beliefs pinning her down. There's just an ordinary life, lived dull and ordinarily, and she had had enough. So what does this girl, who's tired and ordinary in every way except the steel that lines her spine, do to get out of this?

She gambles.

Marrying into the mafia was a gamble, seeking Apollo as council was a gamble, shooting Dr. Meraktis was a gamble. Every decision she's made since she met Wocky has been a series of high-stakes gambles that leave her life on the line all so she won't be second-best anymore. This time, she was going to be the one on top. No matter what.

... And I'm sorry for loving evil women, but girlboss?? Girlboss???

I've heard people say they're disappointed that her "breakdown" is just an extension of her usual damage sprite, but it's honestly one of my favourite "breakdowns" in the series ever? Just because it isn't really one? Everything Alita has done up till now has been reckless, calculated risk, of course being convicted for murder is no different than losing in any other aspect of her life. Of course you're not going to get more than her damaged sprite, because this doesn't warrant a more dramatic reaction. She's lived this whole time knowing it could all come crashing down around her, and it finally did.

She made a bad bet. You caught her. Oh well.

The frosted girl of steel, standing tall to the very end. It's kind of sad that, even after all that, she's still seen as only second-best, incomparable to mimi, dahlia or any of the other women who've stood in her place.