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i-am-just-a-kiddo · 3 years

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ten favorite characters from ten different things

i was tagged by @vishcount, thank you dear 💖

i’m listing characters from shows i’ve watched in 2021 so far, otherwise this tag game would be impossible to finish. there is no specific order. am also following your example and putting some song for them? it’s usually just smth i associate with them.

tagging @intyalote, @sassyassassy, @the-cloud-whisperer, @cortue and @isabellaofparma - as always, no pressure! just thought you might wanna scream abt your faves

excuse my rambling:

Matteo Florenzi / DRUCK

well, where do i start? choosing one character from druck is so incredibly difficult. i wanted to put david here but in the end i was torn between our mains fatou and matteo - well, here is my trash son now. i don’t know how else to put it other than he is what i was in highschool. the beauty of skam and its remakes is that they show you something so close to your own life and when i watched druck’s season 3, every episode just hit me like a damn truck. and yes, i absolutely adore david and i wish he had gotten his own season because i guess i would relate to him even more so, but matteo? is made of the same stuff as me. gosh how his struggles resonated with me, how he is so flawed but he is truly trying his best. he is such an asshole sometimes but i can’t be mad at him because i know in my worst moment’s i’ve been there too. he is so tired and so scared and in the end, he just wants to love and be accepted.

🎵 Ich geh heut nicht mehr tanzen by AnnenMayKantereit

Lee Rang / The Tale of the Nine Tailed

this list is going to include a lot of questionable characters but let’s start here, shall we? honestly, i don’t even think he is questionable, i simply adore him with all my heart. going into this show, i did not expect to be absolutely destroyed by his story and the bond he shares with his big brother. lee rang is the classic case of good person who lost their way because they were betrayed but holy shit, does it hurt? all he’s ever wanted was a family and to not be left alone and yet, life turned against him and he decided to turn against the world. i can’t think about the ending of this show without tearing up so i just want to say: when lee rang found a family, suddenly he felt like he could heal, like he could live. fuck everything. (as you see i am hurt)

🎵 Hurt by Oliver Tree

"Teh" Krittikorn Saetan / I Told Sunset About You & I Promised You the Moon

i started watching ipytm only yesterday so i can’t talk about it (except that i’ve already cried through the first two episodes goddamnit), so this is based on the perfection that is sunset. i was torn between oh and teh because both of them are so incredibly vivid and precious in their own way, but in the end i chose teh because he feels so incredibly real to me. i am completely amazed at the work the actor and the director put into his character, i think of it whenever i see him on screen. teh is a character with so many intense, overwhelming emotions and it makes him into a very multi-facetted person - in a sense that he always stays fundamentally himself, but that sometimes he just can’t control where his intense emotions will take him? sometimes i curse at him, sometimes i ache, sometimes i am so afraid for him, and in the end i smile when he smiles and i cry when he cries. he is so good, as a person and as protagonist character. i want to kiss everyone that was involved in making him real. (also i wonder if i am the only one headcanoning him as somewhere on the autism spectrum? it just screams to me and i wanna cry with love)

🎵 Mind If I Stay by KADEBOSTANY

Seo Moonjo / Strangers From Hell

here we go, my first problematic fave. my dearest bastard. my sleep paralysis demon. my mr. dentist, how i kept telling vishie while yelling about him - i’m still so sorry about that. this is the classic case of ‘god i hate that i adore this guy’ because apparently i am not immuned to sexy villains. to defend myself however, i truly think he is one of the best villains i saw in a while? he is so deeply unsettling and charming in the same breath, i adore what they have done with him. i don’t want to keep comparing this show to nbc’s hannibal but seo moonjo and hannibal just share this amazing quality of being completely, utterly deranged while sincerely loving and believing their own principles. i don’t know how to put it, but seo moonjo is not a loveless man, he is not full of hate against the whole world, instead he is convinced that the world fits into his palm and that it’s his plaything, that he simply is so much better and that no one can match him. he is an ArtistTM and who can blame the man, he just wants to do his art for god’s sake. bless. i got no excuses for myself

🎵 Chlorine by Twenty One Pilots

Zhang Cha Cha / The Journey Across the Night

i used a promo picture cause i couldn’t find gifs - this show needs so much more recognition, i am sad. still want to thank vishie for introducing it to me ❤ i adore the entire main cast but gosh, cha cha ripped my heart out. i knew her actress from original sin so i had a soft spot for her from the beginning and from there it just went downhill. i think she is the best written female character i’ve seen in a c-drama (if we exclude nirvana in fire) and her story absolutely broke me. i loved the energy she brought, her bubbly and lively attitude, covering the depths she sometimes retreats to. i guess her fear of being vulnerable and open speaks to me so damn much. i felt her anger at her friends when they tried to intervene - and i am glad she opened up to them! but gosh i’ve struggled with the same and seeing it on her broke my heart. my brain is mush when it comes to her because in the end i can’t put into words why she stole my heart like this. the whole show did, and i’m so happy vish was willing to share this with me

🎵 Spiaca Krolewan - Marta Bijan

Tian Sopasitsakun / A Tale of Thousand Stars

i almost forgot about my son! i don’t know if i have much to say about him? i just enjoyed the whole journey of atots so much, i was so excited for it every week. it felt so lovely and sincere and it had so much more than just a calssic BL trope. it truly allowed to just settle into the world they built and i think tian was the perfect protagonist for that? i remember yelling about this show to vish and i’m not really sure what i said about tian but i remember i was so full of love for him and the way he was potrayed. this whole show was just so magical.

🎵 Where the sea sleeps(파도가 끝나는 곳까지) by DAY6

Zhan Junbai / Killer and Healer

i don’t fucking know mate. let’s list all the reasons i hate this guy: he is a power-hungry, manipulative, corrupt finance shark that uses all his influence to get away with everything. everything i hate in a politician, public figure, and person in power. but also i love this asshole? i guess i explain it that way: i enjoyed killer and healer a lot and i loved the other main leads and the supporting characters, but in the end this guy’s scenes captured my interest the most. doesn’t help that his tension with yu tangchun was so delicious and that he finally showed a silver of humanity when he was with him. vishie must have been tired of me constantly yelling about this shark boy while they were crying over the main couple’s angst? he is just a very interesting character and he absolutely hated that he was in love with this opera singer. secretely however, he always wished he was emperor ai and that yu tangchun was dong xian.

🎵 Bad Karma by Axel Thesleff

Nishi Yuuki / Life: Senjou no Bokura

while this entire show made me cry my heart out, i remember sobbing at this scene so much - nishi finally reaching out, allowing himself to be vulnerable, reciprocating the feelings ito is giving to him so openly. most of the characters that are on this list hold a little piece of myself but watching this character on screen exposed me in a way that felt way too real. i sort of don’t want to go into depth but if you’ve seen the show, maybe you understand what i mean. i see so much of myself in him it frightens me

🎵 Sweet Hurricane by Phum Viphurit

Wang Zhi / The Sleuth of Ming Dynasty

oh hey, my second favourite bitch. while i wish tsomd had explored their characters more in depth, what i got for wang zhi was enough to make me cry (yes i rate my affections for things by how much i cry about them). this too, was lovely to watch with vish and i remember telling them that i loved how wang zhi was the second most powerful character of this show but also the most vulnerable of them all. i love how he knows to navigate himself around, how he has this certain confidence when he faces other people, but in the end he dismisses himself in many ways. it hurts the most when he see how tang fan has this found family gathering around him and wang zhi just? knows he won’t be a part of it, even if deep down he sees how lovely and healing it is. he’s just already decided he will be alone and accepts it (not convincing tho when he refuses to leave the guy who betrays him behind, just saying. i love you)

🎵 Shahmaran by SEVDALIZA

Wen Kexing / Word Of Honor

and here he is, my favourite bitch!! i’m happy i found gifs of the scene that made me fall head over heels in love with him. it’s been months and i am still unapologetically wen kexing trash. it’s interesting how characters that live a completely different life and have a very different past than yourself feel so close, as if someone had carved them out of your chest? yeah. vishie keeps telling me i have a type and i just?? i am so confused. why does this guy make me ache so much, why do i feel so personally attacked? i could psycho-analyse myself but am not gonna do it here in front of ya’ll. other than that, who doesn’t like a sexy unhinged murderer that is a huge softie and part-time teen mom in reality. his bond with gu xiang is a specially raw spot for me. also wow, wen kexing in the novel hurts me just as much. yeah there’s no words left in my brain now, just take it.

🎵 The Light Pt. II by BROCKHAMPTON

my brain is mush, but this was nice? i hope any of this was coherent lol. if any of you bothered to read it i congratulate you

(honorary mentions: qingming from the yin yang master, gu xiang from word of honor, tang fan from the sleuth of ming dynasty, fatou jallow from druck, chishiya shuntaro from alice in borderland)

#WHAT IS MY TYPE VISH #TELL ME #hhhhh #my brain melted out of my head towards the end fghjkk #thanks for tagging me this took me three hours and it was amazing #tag game #personal

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shortpplfedup · 2 years

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BEST OF BL 2021 CATEGORY: FAVOURITE CHARACTERS

The top 5 lovelies who owned (and broke) my heart this year. I stuck to main characters, but there is one honourable mention I simply couldn't let go unlauded.

BEST OF THE BEST

5. Teh Krittikorn Saetan (Billkin Putthipong Assaratanakul) | I Promised You the Moon (Nadao Bangkok/LINE TV)

So maddening yet you just can't quit him. Teh's the kind of character you want to beat with a belt, but then he does something so completely breathtaking that it makes you weep and wonder why he can't just be like that all the time. Flawed beyond measure, but somehow still so beautiful to watch, I can never hate him, no matter what. I don't know HOW Billkin did that, but it makes him a singular talent in my mind.

Favourite scene: the rooftop, episode 2.

4. Tian Sopasitsakun (Mix Sahaphap Wongratch) | A Tale of Thousand Stars (GMMTV)

The brat who grew up in front of our eyes, Tian's mix of sass and sincerity earns him an easy spot on the list. Tian feels like such a REAL person, one who makes mistakes and whose actions have unintended consequences, but whose heart is ultimately in the right place.

Favourite scene: Tian and Phupha go on a date, episode 5.

3. Kang Seo Joon (Son Woo Hyun) | To My Star (H & Co/EnergeDic/Viki)

An adorable bundle of neuroses masked behind a façade of easy charm, Kang Seo Joon stole away my heart. Somehow the character manages to combine a surprisingly un-annoying manic pixie dream boy energy with real caring and consideration for the grumpy gus he's found himself living with. By the time he's sitting at the front door like a puppy waiting for Ji Woo to get home, you're totally sold.

Favourite scene: the basketball game, episode 4

2. Phat Naphat/Pran Parakul (tie) (Ohm Pawat Chittsawangdee/Nanon Korapat Kirdpan) | Bad Buddy (GMMTV)

As if I could choose between them. Pat and Pran are so entwined there's no way to separate them in my mind. They're very different people, but they're really only totally themselves with each other. Pat's big, loud, sloppy, soft heart, and Pran's shrewd, methodical front belying the quiet fire underneath don't just complement each other, they complete each other. I love them both, equally.

Favourite scene (so far): the beach, episode 6

1. Oh Aew Panwa Suramontha (PP Krit Amnuaydechkorn) | I Promised You the Moon (Nadao Bangkok/LINE TV)

The greatest character Thai BL has ever produced point blank period and I will fight you over this. Oh Aew has seen joy and pain and loved through it all, but he's no pushover. This boy knows himself like no other character I've ever seen, with an emotional intelligence off the charts, and the smarts to know when it's time to quit something. The first ever sunshine pragmatist I've ever seen in BL, and I'd love to see more.

Favourite scene: the wedding, episode 5.

HONOURABLE MENTION

Felice Ehrencrona (Nikita Uggla) | Young Royals (Nexiko AB/Netflix)

Talk about a character that simply blew me away. With Felice I felt SEEN in a way I don't think I've felt seen before in drama. The way she tries so hard at first to conform, and then says 'fuck that noise' to all the expectations of her one by one makes me wish I'd had a character like this in my view when I was a teenager. As it stands, I'm cheering her on. You're doing amazing sweetie.

Favourite scene: Felice dumps August via Instagram Stories, episode 5

#bestofbl2021 #best of bl 2021 #i promised you the moon #ipytm #oh aew #teh #bad buddy #bad buddy series #pat #pran #to my star #kang seo joon #a tale of thousand stars #atots #1000 stars #tian #young royals #felice #favourite characters

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shortpplfedup · 3 years

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Some final thoughts on our two nan zhu jue

Teh Krittikorn Saetan, the ultimate burn-to-learn character

When I grow up, I’ll be a protagonist like Yongjian.

I just know that I want to be close to you, and I don’t want you to be close to anyone else.

Why do people have to change? I don't like it.

I just feel weird. It's like I've got all of it, the life I've always dreamed of...but I don't know why...It's like...I feel empty. Like something is missing.

The one I've been looking for is always you, in the end.

How does one sum up one of the most complex, flawed, loveable, relatable, MADDENING characters ever written? Teh is an absolute study in contradictions. He is stubborn, petty, fearful, passive aggressive, headstrong, obsessive, easily confused, emotional and he somehow manages to overthink his feelings while also never thinking through to the consequences of his actions. But he can also be loving, thoughtful, kind, romantic, expressive, passionate, selfless and devoted. Loving Teh and being loved by Teh must be the wildest, most exhausting, most agitating, most irritating, most exhilarating, most beautiful, most incredible ride there is. If you can hang on and not kill him, it's probably worth every moment.

Teh's character journey through the story has always been one of two steps forward and one step back. At every turn, when you think he has learned a lesson from his latest incident of setting his life aflame in some way, he backslides because he is ruled by his emotions. Whenever he is forced to self-examine, to take a long hard look at himself and acknowledge his flaws and his mistakes (usually after Oh Aew has refused him in some way), he usually realises where he went wrong and tries to fix it. But Teh is also the king of making the same mistake multiple times. His heart, and his MOUTH, rush ahead of his brain, always.

That big beautiful soft heart is Teh's greatest asset, and sometimes his greatest enemy. He loves SO easily, SO strongly, SO deeply. Where Oh Aew is cautious yet in some ways fearless, Teh is always fearful, but will always take the leap. And once he decides to do something, he goes all the way, no half measures. It was like that with acting, and with Oh Aew. When he loves, there's nothing he won't do for that love. And in the end, I think that's how he ended up making the mistake he made with Jai. He saw his love for acting and his love for Oh Aew somehow in conflict, when before Oh Aew gave up acting they had been one and the same. He thought he had to choose, and chose acting in the moment. And he was rewarded for that choice, and also lived to regret it.

That's why I'm one of those who thinks that Teh has learned that particular lesson about which love is the most important to him, because what he lost in the end was so much more than what he gained, and he almost lost it for good. And he's not left wondering 'what if', he's already gone down that road and knows it doesn't make him happy. Teh has always needed Oh Aew more than Oh Aew needs Teh. So at the end of the story you see that he makes a different choice; by posting that photo, he chooses Oh Aew. That public coming out could destroy his entire career, he knows that. Being Teh, he probably hasn't thought that entirely through, but I doubt he'll be taking it back no matter what happens.

So we leave Teh at the end of the journey unchanged in many ways. I doubt he will ever look too hard before he leaps. He will probably always be dragged around by his emotions. He will likely always go popping off at the mouth without a filter. He will forever go for the grand gesture; he's a romantic like his mom. But if he's learned anything on this whole journey, it's what is truly important to him, and I believe he's unlikely to forget that no matter what else happens.

#translate my love with your heart #i told sunset about you #itsay #i promised you the moon #ipytm #itsay ipytm character series #teh #character study

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shortpplfedup · 3 years

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30 DAY BL DRAMA CHALLENGE DAY 17: FAVOURITE KISS

'The Aquarium' Teh Krittikorn Saetan and Oh Aew Panwa Suramontha Actors: Billkin Putthipong Assaratanakul (Teh), PP Krit Amnuaydechkorn (Oh Aew) Drama: I Promised You the Moon (Episode 1: Ice Breaking) Director: Meen Tossaphon Riantong Country of Origin: Thailand Available on: Vimeo on Demand

What I love most about this kiss is what it represents in the story, and that's freedom. I Told Sunset About You was about Teh coming to terms with and accepting himself, freeing himself, letting go of long-held ideas about himself, but there was one string left to be cut, and that was Ma Sui. Now, finally, Ma Sui knows what Teh and Oh Aew are to each other and she accepts and welcomes them. There are no more secrets, they're out, they're open, they're not in their small town. Teh, ever emotional, is overcome by the moment, and Oh Aew feels its significance as well; it means something to him that Teh can let himself go like this. Three days ago in story time it took Teh an entire day to gather up the courage to peck him on the cheek in the streets of Phuket, so this is big.

As for the setting...well they may not have to hide underwater to show their feelings anymore, but our Phuket boys will always be of the sea.

#30 day bl challenge #day 17: favourite kiss #teh x oh aew #i promised you the moon #ipytm 1: ice breaking #ipytm #aquarium

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shortpplfedup · 3 years

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30 DAY BL DRAMA CHALLENGE DAY 22: FAVOURITE SCENE FROM YOUR #1 DRAMA

What are you doing here? Why aren’t you home? Well…I might meet someone here, I guess...Why do you have to think about it that much? Just let it go. Do whatever you feel like. There's no need for an answer if there’s no answer. “Secret” Do you wanna go tutoring? I thought you said one day off. Well, if you wanna study, I can help you with that. Alright, alright. No tutoring. Do you wanna go somewhere? Wherever. As long as you're with me.

'Chase on the Beach' Teh Krittikorn Saetan and Oh Aew Panwa Suramontha Actors: Billkin Putthipong Assaratanakul (Teh), PP Krit Amnuaydechkorn (Oh Aew) Drama: I Told Sunset About You (Episode 3) Director: Boss Naruebet Kuno Country of Origin: Thailand Available on: Vimeo on Demand

Once again my 'scene' is really a sequence, which starts in the hammock and ends on the beach, because it's all of a piece to me. But the chase on the beach is really the moment. Oh Aew's boldness and Teh's complete and utter inability to can culminate in this magical moment where their eyes lock and it's essentially a wrap. Teh is mesmerised and Oh Aew is provocative and neither can escape the pull they're feeling toward each other.

Teh's desire is a palpable thing in this scene. When he reaches out for Oh Aew, when he falls against him, when he locks his arms around him almost like he can't help himself, and pulls him down into the sand, this is all lizard brain functioning. Head empty, no thoughts, just vibes. Oh Aew openly flirting with him breaks the spell for a moment, but he realises almost immediately that he has to free Teh from the instinct to overthink everything. There's no need for an answer if there's no answer. I won't make you say it. I know how you feel. You can just be...for now.

It's a gorgeous, breathtaking scene in the cinematography and the physical acting, and Skyline swelling in the background just takes it over the top. Greatest scene of the entire story.

#30 day bl challenge #day 22: favourite scene from your no.1 drama #teh x oh aew #chase on the beach #i told sunset about you #itsay #itsay 3 #the sun and the moon #anatomy of a scene series #translate my love with your heart

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shortpplfedup · 3 years

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Episode 4: Inside Out

The contrast says it all.

In which Teh tells Oh Aew two lies and a truth, and the truth is the thing that ends it. Every time Teh lies to Oh Aew in this episode, Oh Aew knows that it's a lie, and he knows what the truth is. But it is only when Teh TELLS him the truth that it sets him free.

Act I: The first lie

You're home kinda late today. Oh...I...had something to consult with Jai a little bit. Consult? Well...the same scene...that I still can't play. And what did Jai say? Jai just...gave me homework to do.

Teh Krittikorn Saetan makes bad, impulsive, often selfish choices when in the grip of strong emotions, it has ever been thus. Those choices hurt the people around him, it has ever been thus. And he never sees any of that until it is too late, it has ever been thus.

I think there are multiple reads on how we ended up here, with Teh in the grip of emotions this strong for Jai, and they range from the cynical to the unrealistic, and I think the truth is somewhere in between. And I think ultimately, the story suffers a bit from the ambiguity, and that has shown in the audience responses to it. I don't see it as a failure necessarily, but a misstep; not the story choice itself, but having made the choice not ultimately doing enough to bring the general audience along with it. Some of it is where this particular time skip happens for sure. I'm not against the time skips, but the high end of year 2 to the low end of year 3 is a gap that maybe needed a montage or a few scenes instead.

For me, it comes down to this: why does Teh want to be an actor? He wants his mother's pride and attention, he thinks it's something he's good at, it's something he enjoys, he wants to be on posters and receive accolades, these are all the reasons he has articulated throughout the story, but is that it? In a way, Teh is driven by fear I think. He's been fixated on this dream for roughly half his life, it's too late to turn back now. If he doesn't act, does he even HAVE anything else? Khim brought forward the idea of having multiple dreams, and we see how that allows her to pivot when the dream of acting is simply not working out, the same for Oh Aew. But Teh has no other dreams, because he has never thought about it. Most actors, most good actors, are driven by the need to tell stories, and that's a reason Teh has never articulated, and I have to believe that's because it's something he's never felt (I think because ultimately, as shown here by his conversation with Mek, he's not particularly interested in other people's stories)...until Jai grabbed hold of his fear of failure and replaced it with the story of James and Jai/Fang and Akin.

When I realised HOW MUCH Teh put in that logbook, and that Jai was writing back to him, I felt sick. That logbook was both violation and manipulation. Teh doesn't possess the personal emotional boundaries to work in that way, and Jai knows it. But also and ultimately, Teh is an adult who makes choices. And the fact that he keeps the logbook secret, never says any of these things he is saying to Jai to Oh Aew is a choice, one that hurts Oh Aew tremendously. There are two major inflexion points here: first when Oh Aew reads the logbook and realises what is going on, and second when Jai uses what he knows from the logbook as ammunition to gaslight Oh Aew and throw the problems in Teh and Oh Aew's relationship in Oh Aew's face to distract from his own shit. Teh gave him that ammunition, without thinking any of it through at all. And the consequence of that is this devastating slow motion car wreck of a breakup.

Act II: The second lie

I read your logbook. And you and Jai kissing, I saw that too. It was only an exercise

There's an awful thing that can happen when you know that your partner is lying to you, not always, but far more often than you would think. It's when you know you should break up, but you try to save it all anyway, and maybe you think you have, until there's a moment you realise you can't, and whenever, wherever, however that moment happens is the end. Oh Aew tried, he REALLY tried. He tried to rationalise, and then he tried to not see. But then Teh put it right in his face, and there was no more rationalising or turning a blind eye possible, not without destroying the self he's built. And he values that self, so much, which I am SO PROUD OF HIM FOR. No more burying his feelings to keep Teh around, he's simply done.

I have gone over and over this in my head and I simply can't agree that anything that happens between Teh and Jai in this episode is out of character. Because Teh has fallen for somebody when he was 'with' somebody else before. Yes he and Tarn were never official, but they had a clear understanding that Teh violated because he was confused and questioning, just like now. And he has absolutely blown up his entire life without thinking it through because he was in the grip of strong emotions before. When he is in the grip of an emotion, when has Teh EVER thought beyond that emotion in that moment to the consequences, practical outcomes and impacts on others? If Jai had reciprocated Teh's feelings, what would have come next? Panic, meltdown and spiral, because he never thought about the next step. When he says to Oh Aew in the breakup scene that he doesn't want to break up and he never thought of breaking up, that's absolutely true, because he never thought ANY of this through to a conclusion at any point. Teh is neither rational nor calculating, he is a maelstrom of contradictory emotions, barely understood desires and wild thoughts, held together, barely, by the world's most awesome collection of shirts.

As for Jai...well Jai taught Teh a valuable lesson here, and it's up to Teh whether he's going to learn it or not. He was right that Teh is an actor and therefore needs to manage himself and his emotions to ever be able to do that successfully. As for what Jai thinks of Teh...Jai remains inscrutable to the end. My read from my experience is that the worst thing for a Jai type is somebody hanging around in his life expecting things from him when he got what he wanted and doesn't need them anymore. Too many awkward questions. Groupies and devotees are fine, they only want crumbs and they provide continued adoration, but Teh is neither a groupie nor a devotee, since he got too close he can no longer be a useful puppet, and he's not a muse either. So when Teh starts spilling all these feelings out, Jai realises he has to get rid of him, and he'll never get rid of him without the unvarnished truth. There are definitely other reads on the situation, and I think we'll just never know for sure.

Act III: The truth

Do you love me? I do. How about Jai? I've stopped seeing him. You can be assured of that. I can never be assured of anything.

Why is it always that when the writing's on the wall, when you know in your heart the relationship is over, why then do you suddenly want to fight like a wild animal, clawing, scratching, kicking, biting to save it? What are you even trying to save anymore? Does Teh even know? What does Teh understand about what he feels and why and what he should do about it?

I think it was telling that Teh could say that he loved Oh Aew but couldn't say that he didn't feel anything for Jai, only that he wouldn't see him again. That tells me that despite his confusion he told the truth there, he does feel love for Oh Aew. But what kind of love is he capable of at this stage? Clearly not the kind Oh Aew needs or deserves. Could he become that person? Maybe. But right now he's not. Because Teh only ever does the thinking AFTER he has already done the thing. All of Teh's grand gestures, every single one from tutoring to running to sunset, have been gestures of apology. He hurts Oh Aew, and then his guilt eats him alive. That's one of their dynamics I noticed when I was analysing ITSAY episode 4:

we return to a dynamic that was briefly broken by their reunion: Oh Aew’s hurt and Teh’s guilt. This is another one of the background runners in their relationship, and it plays out across this entire episode.

And that dynamic, because it was never addressed in a healthy way, ends up in Teh taking Oh Aew completely for granted, and Oh Aew resenting Teh completely. It has got to be broken, for both their sakes. Oh Aew has to stop forgiving, and Teh has to start thinking BEFORE he does things.

The breakup scene is interesting from a costuming perspective. I did note that Teh is wearing his 'Oh Aew dumps me' shirt, also from ITSAY episode 4, which also did work there as an 'I'm sorry' shirt, and an 'I love you' shirt. He and Oh Aew, in Q's striped blue and red rugby shirt, are having a conversation in colour, but neither in pattern nor time. They do still love each other, as hurt as Oh Aew is and as guilty as Teh is. But Teh subconsciously is trying to bring back his self from Phuket. Oh Aew is firmly in the self he found in Bangkok except for one very notable exception: the hair. @brieans is the one who clocked this and IMO nailed it:

I think this moment must be another confrontation for Teh. In some way, each time he hurt Oh because of Jai, he has been seeing the new Oh-Aew: the red hair, the clothes, etc. This, for him, represents all the ways Oh has become "the person he never knew before". Yes, he realized how much he f*cked up in the kareoke scene, but I think this is the moment he finally realized the one he is hurting is his Oh-Aew - the brunette dressed in red, the boy from Phuket he loved.

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Mek Da Gawd, saying what we all feel.

Teh having nobody to turn to for support in the end except the roommate he made a snap judgement about on day 1 and proceeded to freeze out for 3 years is just...oh god I HOPE he learns something from all of this. Mek is so much nicer to him in this situation than I would ever be. And the fact that he never even notices Mek's own heartbreak because he's too wrapped up in his own shit...SO Teh. Tunnel vision, one track mind.

The Support Squad sleepover is the first time we've ever seen anybody in that apartment except Teh and Oh Aew. Their relationship has always been so insular and in its own world, it was jarring to see others in 'their' space, but good. Oh Aew's healing starts by discovering a world without Teh.

That Instagram couple avi has been the gun on the mantelpiece all series and I wondered if they were going to do anything with it. I couldn't see any talent manager considering that to be a good idea. I wonder how much it played, if at all, in Teh not booking any jobs until now. And I wonder if he will actually delete those photos.

This is definitely Teh's story, and Oh Aew is a second lead. I do find myself a little disappointed that the writers don't find him as fascinating as we all seem to.

I was originally going to wait until seeing the docu to post this analysis, but in the end I prefer to let the docu add to my thoughts rather than influence them.

#translate my love with your heart #i promised you the moon #ipytm #ipytm 4: inside out #bl meta series

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