Okay. It’s time to talk about the darkest period of my life and open up.

MASSIVE TW: Suicide, workplace abuse, abandonment trauma, self-harm, hospital mention, Abusive parents, grooming mention

I just want to disclose that I do not support sending hate or death threats to people. I do not wish for anybody to be hurt. Please keep that in mind when reading this. I realize It’s been a while, but I want a platform to properly defend myself. I have set this back enough out of fear that people wouldn’t believe me. But now I don’t care. 

The rumors being spread about me being a groomer are false. I know myself. I’m an abuse victim with CPTSD who was violently abused by my parents/other people. I would never even begin to think of a child in that matter. Not to mention I was groomed, myself.

I was put into that project because I wanted to be the main story writer. I was excited to work with them. I hadn’t had any larger friend groups until then. I had no self esteem, was controlled by my abusive mother, and so I was dependent on other people’s validation and ideas rather than my own. I was a very naïve 18 year old kid who gave everybody the benefit of the doubt, regardless if they gave me red flags or not. I strongly believed everybody had good in them. I now strongly regret trusting them. Working on SM64BA was one of the darkest periods of my life.

 Everything was fine at first, but shit hit the fan really quickly. The lead was very toxic towards her server members. The other members were seemingly not any better, they’d take sarcasm a little too seriously. People began leaving pretty quickly due to the sheer number of people that were picked up for the project. It was unstructured and rushed. Many people dropped their ideas and I was overwhelmed and mentally overworked with so much stuff being piled onto me. I couldn’t do world building with all these videos being pumped out so fast. I was given instructions and biases on how to write a proper ARG based off of how much the server members just randomly hated on another person’s project. They were toxic, they nitpicked each other’s work, they spoke behind each others’ backs, and I was too used to this behavior at home to suspect this wasn’t normal. They hated everything. Every little UV seam, every little easy mistake, and every little thing that would hint to a “Bad outcome.”

With these strange new thoughts in my mind, I struggled to fully finalize the story they wanted from me, and more importantly what the fans of the channel wanted from me. I was so excited to finally have a bunch of eyes directed upon me. I cared deeply for each and every one of you I read in the comments, and I wrongfully followed through with my team’s constant mocking and degrading of you guys behind closed doors so I could fit in with their group. If I should be apologizing for anything, It should be that. I take full responsibility for insulting the intelligence of the fanbase. You guys are worth more than you know and I want you to know I will not be making that mistake of underestimating your human worth again. It’s devastating and embarrassing to have a creator make fun of you for absolutely no reason. Moving forward, I’ll be much more considerate when I speak of my supporters and their willingness to view my art, and make sure your feelings come first.

Now, let’s get back on track.

My emotional sensitivity from daily abuse at the hands of my parents was very easy to exploit at that age. I was a prime target of manipulation and the team knew this. They tried to confirm my suspicions that I was unlovable.

The minor who people claim I supposedly “groomed,” I wanted to be their friend because I thought they were very talented. They emotionally manipulated me throughout the duration of our friendship. They were the one who started the initial rumors because they wanted to destroy me. I never drew anything sexual of them. Only my adult oc Eric which I gave to people who were within my age range. My art has same face syndrome.

The rest of them started snowballing crazy accusations against me out of nowhere. That I had stole money, that I was lying about having CPTSD (Were ableist towards me), that I wasn’t actually the story writer to begin with, that I was a fraud, a liar, they pressured me to show my own personal court papers against my wishes so I foolishly sent them half censored because they thought I botched a court case against my abusive mother. They tried searching personal information about me online and got mad and told me I was a liar when they couldn’t find it. There is so much stuff that they accused me of, that I’m not even going go into them.

I got blocked by people I cared about, they spread rumors about me being a horrible and no-good person who you shouldn’t associate with. Basically, I got ostracized out of their friend circle. They even made slanderous posts about me online.

I’d rather be a complete pussy then lose all I have, so I begged them to understand that all of this was wrong. That they were trying to ruin my life. I had no idea how to handle this situation appropriately. I was confused, traumatized, and my mind was going everywhere in every direction. Nobody believed me. Nobody would help. I asked several people for help but they all responded with some variation of “Sorry, can’t help.” Only a few select friends seemed to have believed me.

Finally they pushed me to my mental breaking point, I attempted suicide by overdosing. It was a failed attempt. I was too hesitant. I was very content my life was over. I was preparing myself and my body to die. I even thought about jumping over an overpass. Throughout the next few days I would bite my own arm violently to the point of bruising and slam my head up against my bedroom wall. Because I felt like their words defined me. I felt hopeless, and caged. I couldn’t even speak out publicly about what I was going through because I was thoroughly convinced they had more power over me. That they’d send a hate band-wagon my way if I even dared speak out about my experience. 

At one point I almost admitted myself to a psych ward but I heard enough horrible stories to know that was a fate worse than death. I was running out of options to relieve myself of this pain. It was too much but somehow I persisted. It took me months of therapy to recover, months of trying to love myself properly.

Sometimes I wonder how I’m still here. But most importantly I wonder “Why me?” Everyday. All the time.

Things get better though. I left my abusers’ house to go live with other family. I have an amazing boyfriend I'm planning on marrying, I have new understanding friends, and I'm trying my best to move on from the past. I just want to leave it all behind me. I want to feel confident in myself, in my own humbleness and ability to form new relationships because I deserve it. Because I’m a kind person. Because i’m human.

I hold absolutely no grudge against the people who hurt me. I wish them a great life, because absolutely nobody is free of flaws. Although, I do hope they come to terms with what they’ve done to me and others and take responsibility. I ask of them to please stay away from me though, and not contact me ever again. We can’t be friends again. 

But given their behavior. I’m not hopeful they won’t play victim again. I am no longer afraid of them. I know how to defend myself now. I’m an adult and a stronger person ever since that day. I can recognize now that I’m here and I'm important. I don’t need to prove this to anyone.

I no longer want to be associated with SM64BA. I will not be making anything related to it. I do not want anything from it. I do not want to be interviewed. I will say my peace:

All they’re doing is making real victims of grooming a complete fucking joke. They’re overshadowing them and making a mockery out of them. They don’t deserve this. They are already going through enough pain. SA deserve proper respect, and to be taken seriously. Words cannot describe how angry I am that you fucking people even dared to make this vile shit up. This is an evil that I cannot comprehend and I could’ve wrote something much more angrier to you, so you should feel lucky I’m being as merciful as I am in this text post. Peoples’ lives have been ruined by false accusations like these. Please better yourselves, because I know you can. Other people love you regardless and nothing destroys your human worth. Someone else feels differently than me. Don’t hurt them.

Goodbye. It’s time for me to let this all go. This is the first and last post I make about this. I will not allow this trauma to destroy my pride and determine my self worth. Nobody can dictate my path. Only I can. I am far more than what they claim I am.

just thought of remaking something from beta archive lol

Model by the talented @andratva

Hiya♥️I.am Pero the Cat (Super Mario Beta Archives) A Youtuber Inspired by Greenio (Annie) and Super Mario 64 Beta Archives

Here I will show some projects of Videos for the Channel on YouTube

This'll probably be a challenge, but here goes.

super mario 64 mario sitting near cliff, sunset in the background

text: i miss the beta archive but understand why it stopped

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The Strangest Day (2895 words) by MiaQc Chapters: 5/5 Fandom: Dead Plate (RachelDrawsThis Video Game), The Girl From Tomorrow (TV), Super Mario & Related Fandoms, Super Mario 64, The Super Mario Bros. Movie (2023), Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon | Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon, Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon | Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon (Anime & Manga), MARDEK (Video Game), Mortal Kombat - All Media Types, Mortal Kombat (Video Games) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Vincent "Vince" Charbonneau & Rody Lamoree, Alana (The Girl From Tomorrow) & Rody Lamoree, Rody Lamoree & Princess Peach (Nintendo), Rody Lamoree & Marianne "Manon" Vacher, Rody Lamoree & Tsukino Usagi, Rody Lamoree & Rohoph (MARDEK), Rody Lamoree & Syzoth | Reptile Characters: Rody Lamoree, Vincent "Vince" Charbonneau, Alana (The Girl From Tomorrow), Princess Peach (Nintendo), Tsukino Usagi, Rohoph (MARDEK), Syzoth | Reptile, Marianne "Manon" Vacher Additional Tags: Crossover, Crossovers & Fandom Fusions, Customers - Freeform, Restaurants, Waiters & Waitresses, Money, POV First Person, Wordcount: Over 1.000, Princes & Princesses, Time traveler, Time Capsule (The Girl From Tomorrow), Footnotes, France (Country), 1960s, Magical Girls, Aliens, Healers, Blood and Injury, Help, Green Eyes, Stitching wounds, Shapeshifting, Out of Character, Manon is Alive, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Mean Marianne "Manon" Vacher, Wordcount: 1.000-5.000, Bittersweet Ending, Ambiguous/Open Ending, POV Rody Lamoree, Dead Plate Need More Crossovers, Death Threats, Game 12: Mortal Kombat 1 (2023), Rare Fandoms, author is autistic, Not Beta Read, Alive Marianne "Manon" Vacher Summary: I'm living the strangest day as I receive colorful customers at La Gueule de Saturne. Human or not, I still have to be a good waiter for them.

>thinks about super mario 64 beta archives

>man.

do you have a link to watch that creepypasta or whatever ? im interested now :3

theres not rlly a specific one, its actually more of a website wide creepypasta meme??? bc everyones making content for it! my FAV content creator fr this creepypasta meme thing would have 2 be Super Mario 64 Beta Archive, which is a fake archive youtube channel with 'unseen footage' regarding the game. its not in your face scary (to the poiny that its silly) like some of the videos are, and it tries to be grounded Somewhat in reality, but theres something slightly Wrong and it gives u this creeping feeling that something is off.

its just all rlly neat stuff!!!

Cada copia de Mario 64 es personalizada.

Super Mario 64 es un videojuego lanzado en 1996 en Japón y en América y en 1997 para Europa, siendo el primer juego en 3D de la saga de Super Mario desarrollado por Nintendo.

Este juego a sido tan relevante para la gente de esa época marcando la era del 3d en los videojuegos como el inicio de los 64bits.La relevancia de este juego trasciende hasta nuestros días gracias a las varias series videos dedicatorias a este maravilloso juego,como a los speedrunners que explotan cada error del juego para poder completarlo en tiempo récord (siendo hoy los 6 minutos el tiempo record)

Pero ha inicios de 2020 algo cambio...

El 27 de mayo de 2020 en el foro /x(foro creado para historias paranormales) de 4chan un usuario anónimo publico una teoría relacionada con el popular videojuego de nintendo 64, esta apuntaba el hecho de que cada copia del videojuego comercializada estaba de alguna forma personalizada, y que el videojuego es capaz de adaptar y crear entornos modificados de manera sutil específicamente hechos para cada jugador y ver sus reacciones para que nintendo indirectamente los estudie.

También muchos usuarios han relacionado este teoría con otro mito de este juego, el cual dice que Wario, el némesis de Mario se aparece en el juego, persiguiendo al jugador, muchos usuarios han apuntado al hecho de su aparición al que el juego de alguna manera aparece a wario para ver la reacción del jugador. y se decía que era capaz de causar que el juego se congelara cuando aparece debido a que su aparición consume un montón de recursos del juego, y que muchos personas advierten que cuando aparezca que se apague la consola lo mas rápido posible debido a que es posible que entre a la realidad. se dice también que la aparición de wario solo se da con algunas copias del juego.

Esto ha llevado a muchas personas hacer vídeos mostrando gameplays o imágenes modificadas de Super mario 64 con el fin de perturbar o a sentir incómodo a la gente que los ve, y gran parte de estos vídeos muestran cosas como imágenes y vídeos preliminares del juego mostrados en revistas y en programas de televisión. también muchos de ellos suelen advertir no buscar información sobre esta beta del juego ya se ha en la descripción de los vídeos o en el titulo, muchos de estos con el título de 1995/07/29 (Los números son una referencia al SpaceWorld de 1995 donde se mostraría por primera vez a Super Mario 64 al público), muchos detractores de esta teoría apuntan al simple hecho de que el juego fue lanzado en 1996 y la tecnología no es lo suficientemente avanzada y que hasta día de hoy hacer lo que apunta que puede hacer el videojuego es muy complicado de programar incluso para hoy en día aunque los que apoyan la teoría justifican el hecho de que si te pones a pensar, Super Mario 64 es un juego misterioso, ya que casi todo el transcurso del juego te encuentras solo en el juego. y como escasea los npc dentro del juego que hace el ambiente más misterioso.

Esta teoria,aunque desmentida, es realmente buena y entretenida,ya que no solo juega con el famoso efecto mandela que suele confundir a la gente. Tambien ha inspirado una de las mejores series ARG que he visto en internet(serie que lamentablemente fue cancelada,pero que de igual manera sigue sirviendo)

Super Mario 64 Built Archive

Una serie en la que nos ponemos en los zapatos de uno de los desarrolladores del juego que intenta terminar el proyecto en un tiempo muy apretado y aguanta a su abusivo jefe.

En esta serie lo sobrenatural y lo realista se juntan creando una experiencia genial y realmente disfrutable.

Mientras que Eric(el desarrollador) prueba el juego el se da cuenta de algo...el juego de alguna manera logra analizar su "alma" aprendiendo más sobre sus patrones a la hora del juego y sobre su vida privada.

Información sacada de aqui.

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Here I will post my Video projects about Super Mario 64 With a hint of Sm64 Classified and horror footprint

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