what do you mean youre technically a detransitioner cause of terf bullshit?

it's a v long story but i detransitioned for a couple of years when i was 16/17, for multiple reasons but mostly because i fell into the blaire white/kalvin garrah chamber of "you have to be This way to be trans otherwise you're not real".

i was already Deeply insecure about myself and my 'passing' and i was led to believe that i couldn't want to wear makeup or skirts, and i couldn't choose not to have bottom surgery, and i couldn't do anything but bind for 12+ hours a day to the point that my ribcage is still misshapen. basically i thought that if i wasn't suffering enough doing 'feminine' things, i couldn't really be trans, so i should just go back to being a girl and suck it up.

the terf bullshit is because i'd seen a lot of terfs/detransitioners talking about the 'dangers' of testosterone and how it would turn me into a horrible ugly evil monster and how there was nothing worse than wanting to be a man. which combined with 'you need to fully medically transition to be valid at all' creates some very dangerous and upsetting feelings to cope with.

it also came from trying really hard to put myself in a little box before i realised that my sexuality/gender are very fluid and it's FINE for me not to have a label and just do whatever i want. when i was 19 or so i went back to using they/them (and eventually he/him) and changed my name again because even though i like doing 'feminine' things, i don't want to be seen as a woman.

tldr: i was conditioned by transphobic/terf rhetorics to think that i was being trans the 'wrong' way so i couldn't be trans at all, so i believed i must actually be a girl if i still wanted to do 'feminine' things. nowadays i am a transmasc who does feminine things because i don't give two shits about what any transmed prick thinks of me anymore.

mildly, just ever so slightly, belated art fight attacks of the season!! feat. @skyistheground @smangethe @hrokkall @onlineviolence aaand @sophisticated-apple :]

If the Graves siblings ever got a Nintendo Switch, Ashley would insist on getting these so they can play 2P games and each have their own designated controller.

And then whenever one of them plays 1P they'd still be thinking about the other the entire time, whether or not they're watching them play. 💗

Part 1: The main game

[Part 2: The DLC]

Finished playing the DLC and made some comics based from some of my experience. 

So might as well post these ones from back in 2017 too lol.

james lance with the bottom buttons of his shirt undone

So, I've wanted to make a post like this for some time, but I only just got the motivation because of an ask I got recently. I want to give a piece of advice to everyone, in general, to keep in mind when using any social media platform--advice that I wish someone had given me way back when, that I feel is important to pass on:

Not every post you see is for you. Not every post is about you.

This is not meant to be a negative thing, or a put-down! It is not meant to dismiss anyone. It's really what it says on the tin: When you see a post cross your feed, and you disagree with the post or it upsets you because you disagree with the message it has, try and keep in mind that you may not be the target audience for the post. In particular, take this into account for advice and positivity posts--The OP doesn't have anything against you personally when they share words that are meant to be uplifting that you don't agree with. A post that says "Keep going! You can do it, even if you think you can't!" probably isn't meant to put down people who are in a position where they very literally cannot do it or think their way out of their situations. Like this post, it's more likely that the OP is sharing positivity or advice that they themselves would have liked to hear.

Even this post, the one I'm writing now, might not be for you or about you! If you disagree with my viewpoint, that's okay, and there's nothing wrong with that! But I, personally, am writing this post for people who might need to hear it--people like me, who are easily upset or hurt by things they see or hear in passing, whether on the internet or real life. I'm not writing it because I want to spark an argument, I promise.

Posts aren't always meant to spread outside the OP's original circle of followers and friends. But that's a hazard of posting to public social media websites--a joke originally meant to have an audience of 12 people close to you can suddenly explode, getting thousands and thousands of views and reposts and going completely out of the OP's control overnight! It's no one's fault; it's not done maliciously. Sometimes a post or joke just resonates with others. But maybe it doesn't resonate with you--that really is okay! Just try and remember, if it gets under your skin, that it isn't for you. And if it's not for you, it's okay to just ignore it and move on! It can definitely get annoying when it's something you keep seeing over and over from friends and acquaintances reposting it, and I'd never fault anyone for losing their temper over it--but sometimes, just taking a second to remind yourself that you weren't the audience for something can really help calm you down and help you feel better and move on with your day.

While this goes for advice/positivity posts, it also goes for opinion posts! And in this case, to be completely, perfectly clear: I mean harmless opinions. A ship they like that you don't; a tv show they enjoyed that you didn't; a character they really love that you absolutely cannot stand. The kind of opinion you disagree with so much that makes you feel absolutely steaming mad. (Again: This does NOT extend to these things when they go into a genuinely harmful category. No homophobia, no pedophilia, nothing like that. I am talking about harmless, mundane disagreements.)

Maybe you see a post talking positively about a manga that makes you feel ick. The OP more than likely didn't write that post with the hopes that it would reach you specifically just to make you upset! (And if they did, that's rude, and an entirely different can of worms that this post is not about! >_>;) But the post upsets you anyway, even if it wasn't MEANT to. It's understandable, it happens! But the thing is: You don't need to engage with that post if it makes you feel bad! If you have a post blocker, you can block the post or blacklist the tag; if you don't, you may just have to scroll past. It can be so, so, so tempting to try and get in a biting comment in the replies to snap at the OP and tell them, "No, you're wrong, your opinion makes me mad and I don't want to hear it!" Trust me. I know. I get it, because I've been there! But in the grand scheme of things, it's not worth it or healthy to burn yourself out over it. It wasn't for you, and it wasn't about you! And you're better off doing what you can to take care of yourself, and preserving your health and happiness where you can.

I feel like I'm writing this with sort of childish language, and it might feel like I'm talking down to others. But really, I think I'm just writing it in a way that a younger me would have understood and taken to heart if she'd seen it. I hope that, if you read this, you can see it that way too! There's a part of me that feels scared that this post in itself could explode with notes that will be very upset with me for my thoughts on this, whatever their reasons may be, but I wouldn't be making it if I weren't prepared for that possibility. If the message I intend to get out can reach even one person who it can help, then I think that's worth writing it for. Because, I want to reiterate it one more time, because it can be so easy to forget it and get yourself furious in a self-destructive way, sometimes you have to remember:

Not every post you see is for you! Not every post is about you!

horizon forbidden west | marshal ivvira 1/?

🥺💐 may i please ask for a favor...

im gonna go see the fall guy again when i get off work today, and i'm still having some trouble feeling good w/ this F/O ;-; could anyone send me a quick inbox message like "colt misses you and he's so excited to see you" or something of the sort ;-;

i know that sounds silly but it always helps when other people give me that kind of reassurance/validation. i would appreciate it a lot ;u; !!

much like jesus christ did yesterday i have risen from the dead ✝️ and am on tumblr for the first time in....months. working in the US healthcare system robs me of almost all of my spoons by 6pm so not much writing (or anything creative at all 😔) has been happening lately but i am still here and queer 🌈

here are some pics of my cats

in return for kitty serotonin i'm requesting you comment or send me an ask telling me your favorite book you read lately

ok bye

have some less know chuuya's from the bsd x loveheaven colab

i'm in love with you.

Why I revoiced Kaidan for Cary Interactions

  So, I didn't really want to bring this up as I feel almost, foolish, I guess, I'm not sure of the right word. This isn't something I wanted to bring up, but I've been hearing confusions at to why I hired a new VA to voice Kaidan in the Caryalind interactions and people talking about me because I would revoice Dan. I will place a TLDR at the end of this post for those that don't want to read the whole thing. But I do hope to make this mostly quick as the whole situation makes me icky and don't want to type about it for too long.

   Originally, I made the Caryalind interactions through spliced dialogue. However, after some thought, decided that there's a chance it could be like AI voice acting and didn't seem fair keeping it up unless I got Dan's blessing. Seeing as this dialogue was made with old dialogue, I didn't see a reason to email the EE team and just Dan for a simple "Can I use this since it's your voice?" (I also know the EE team doesn't like me and I feared I wouldn't get a response from them.)

   After a few days with no response from Dan, I got the lines revoiced. It wasn't until after talks of an entire revoice came up that I got an email back from Dan stating that he owns Kaidan's IP and dialogue and that I was infringing on his copyright by revocing the spliced dialogue. After receiving the email I asked him if he could clarify which lines are his so that I could make sure I wasn't using any, in which he clarified that he is "the voice of Kaidan in a literal and legal sense."

   This threat hung around for a week until someone was able to talk to Dan about the situation. While I never heard back from Dan, I did get confirmation that my interactions were in the clear.

   In all honesty, this situation really has ruined Kaidan alot for me. But since the character was such a big part of how I experienced Skyrim, I don't want to give up on the character.

   Due to all this, and that he isn't open to being hired outside of the EE team, I rather not work with Dan as he's made me super uncomfortable with this situation and the legal threat.

   I'm sorry about posting this, I really didn't want to. But I've been told my name is being dragged about for not messaging the EE team and not wanting to work with Dan. I feel icky, and stupid, and... I'm not sure. This situation did leave me scared for a bit as I'm just a college student. I'm 23. I don't know about all this legal stuff. But I'm thankful I had friends to help me get through it and give advice. If I didn't, I don't what I would have done about Dan intimidating me with this...

   Sorry once again... I hope this clears some things up.

   TLDR; I didn't message EE team because the email I sent was about old lines and none of their work, and I don't feel comfortable working with Dan because he sent me a legal threat.

the entire joy of gif making sucked out by one person with no brain

ezgjhfgf i'm SO so busy waa crossing my fingers hoping i can finish at least one drawing this month SOBS<333

"Sketchy... What would you do if you were me?"

"If I had done everything you've done?"

"..."

"Sleep till' I'm forty :P"

"Eheh..."

"No. I mean, what should I do with my life..?"

"..."

"Maybe start living it...?"

I'm sure other people have done this already but I wanted to make my own

(The photo for "everybody lives" isn't the exact frame it's said, but I couldn't get his grin at that frame to look flattering, so I took 1 from right before he says it)

I don't know if this has already been done (sorry if so!), but I've been trying to figure out who to draw for this meme, and woke up in a cold sweat with this image in my mind this morning and needed to try to draw it 😅