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#so the bed is slightly cursed but i cant sleep anywhere else so i dont really care honnestly.
darewolfcreates · 11 months
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family FrostyFest trips <3
#dont you love family christmas trips when you all gather around the table to prossess the deer your cousin shot?#(the answer is no we dont me and my siblings all hid upstairs to avoid it)#these are a collection of drawings representing some of me and my siblings shanagins over our trip to our grandparents for christmas brake..#should i post these dureing the hollidays?.. yeah probobly... will i remeber? oh god no. so im posting these now!#last comic explained: there was some trimmings from the carcius that whould be tossed in the woods later but for now we needed it off the#gator so we chould use it to haul around rocks.#none of us wanted to carry the meat...#first comic explained: we were packing to go to the farm. i made a funny that my mom found very not funny.#drawing too was me working on a recreation of my siblings and I as we hid from the rest of the family. originally i didnt include my older#bother but after i showed it to the gang i was convinced to expand it to include him#this is a 1 for 1 of how we were all sitting.#you will see this room again later in a pokemon au i did.#i sleep on the bed on the left. it used to be my moms bed when she was a kid. funny enough both of us have had nightmares of something#comeing up the stairs becuse there is no door between the stairs and the kids room.#so the bed is slightly cursed but i cant sleep anywhere else so i dont really care honnestly.#my art#splatoon art#videogame art#splatoon#videogames#frostyfest#comic#splatoon comic#videogame comic#ALSO SHOUT OUT TO MY OLDER BROTHER WHO IS GLAZEING MY WORK FOR ME :D#he got fed up with watching me boil my laptop and offered to glaze my art on his pc with dedicated ram and a graphics card.#:]#to differentiate my brothers: younger has shorter bangs and my older longer bangs and back tenticals tucked#this is not comprhensive of all siblings#these are just the ones ive drawn
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lunaschild2016 · 5 years
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Close To You - Part 1[Eric/Devi]
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Rated: M
Title and inspiration from Close To You by Maxi Priest
Summary: Devi and Eric’s story continues, but this time we see things from Eric’s eyes. It was her belief in him that sparked them finally coming together, but where did it really start for Eric? The life of a childhood sweetheart, conspiracies, and the fate of the city all hung over his head. He didn’t need to be wondering how to get close to the tiny amity with fire in her eyes and a mouth to match. He didn’t need to worry and wonder about how he could find a way to just be close to her.
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She had an attitude I can't explain
You never know if you’re in flame
Tying me up with elastic words
I'm on a countdown till I get hurt
Her blood was hot she burned so bright
A neon sign there in the night
It's hard to say if I went too far
My heart still bares the scar
I just want to be close to you
And do all the things you want me to
I just want to be close to you (I just want to be close to you, baby)
And show you the way I feel
[Close To You; Maxi Priest]
Part 1
“What’s wrong with her?” I ask for what feels like the hundredth time since I stepped foot into the shit hole that Dauntless calls a clinic.
Once again I watch the nurses flutter around the girl on the bed, clucking like hens and completely ignoring me.
I run a hand through my hair and restrain myself from punching something or someone in frustration but I can’t completely restrain my impatience at being ignored.
That’s not something I’m willing to stand for, initiate status or not.
“Will someone tell me what the fuck is wrong with her!” I move up to stand right in front of one of the nurses that have stepped away from the bed and loom over her.
She’s wearing blue scrubs, meaning she’s from Erudite and most likely the one person in this place that’s actually fully qualified to have the title I see on her little badge clipped to her uniform.
“Eric Coulter, right?” She eyes me like a hawk and I feel irritation coursing through me. For a second, I also wonder if she’s one of Jeanine’s plants in Dauntless. That’s dismissed when she gives a strained smile. “You look a bit like your brother. I work with him from time to time. He mentioned your coming here.”
I narrow my eyes, not returning her smile and look past her to the girl still laying on the bed, motioning with my hand in her direction. “What’s her status?”
Candice, the name indicated on her badge, bristles at being ignored but answers me through thinned lips. “I have to call someone in to evaluate her, but we are drawing blood for tests and monitoring her until then.”
I look back at her and hesitate, wondering why the hell I’m getting involved and why I didn’t just leave the Amity girl in her dorm bed for someone else to deal with.
“You said you work with, Dr. Coulter?” I asked with appraising eyes, watching her closely.
“I do.”
“Then you won’t mind working with him again now, will you?”
I have no real power here in Dauntless. Not yet anyway. If I was making this same order to someone wearing black, I’m sure I would be sent away with a sharp reprimand no matter how intimidating I know I can be.
But Candice is Erudite and I have power there. My name is known. If Candice is a plant of Jeanine’s she’ll do as I say but report it back to her. If she isn’t, she’ll still do as I say.
Because, as much as I might despise it and have wanted to leave all that shit behind, I rank higher than her in their hierarchy. No matter if I wear black now, to them, I will always have true ‘blue blood’ running through my veins.
As expected she gives me a curt nod before moving off hurriedly. The other nurse wearing black gives me a look before following, and then it’s just me and the girl on the bed.
My fists clench to the sides of my body as I scowl down at her.
I hate that she’s made me care enough to step in and use my name for something when I promised I would get leadership on my own, no matter how much Jeanine tried to throw her weight around.
I hate that I’m thinking about anything or anyone else besides what I came here to do and who I’m doing it for.
Jules.
The thought of her has tightness in my chest that’s growing tighter the longer I look at this stupid tiny girl laying in the bed.
She’s not Jules. There’s no doubt about that.
Jules is tall and graceful with a smile that can infect even the snootiest of Erudite.
Jules who prefers dresses and ridiculous hats. I never have been able to figure out how she gets them all, and most of them are so ridiculous in order to get a rise out of me.
Jules who has always been able to make me laugh even when I’m in the worst fucking mood and even my brother can’t stand to be around me.
Jules who can sweetly cut a person to pieces and still leave them wondering if she was complimenting them or telling them to fuck off.
Jules, the best person I have ever known and the one I really want to save.
When I look at the amity girl, that’s who I see.
Jules is who I should be with. I should be there helping her and holding her hand or trying to make her laugh, but I’m not and it pisses me off.
Because coming to Dauntless was more important than the girl I love.
“You better not die,” I mutter angrily while glaring at the girl on the bed.
The whispered angry words won’t reach the real target, who I’m really saying them to. But I realize with some surprise that I also do mean them for the girl laying on the bed in front of me.
I turn on my heel and rush out of the clinic as fast as I will allow myself to be seen rushing anywhere. I make it to the training room corridor where control bursts away from me and I sprint into the room looking for something, anything, to make the tightness in my chest go away.
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My brother is not who I expected to see standing behind the door of the office I was summoned to just before dinner but I can’t say the dread I had been feeling gets any better when I do see him.
If anything, it actually gets worse.
He’s standing at the end of a long conference table, hunched over papers and a tablet as I close the door quietly behind me. His presence makes me nervous as hell and I feel slightly sick to my stomach.
All I can think is something’s happened with Jules.
Elijah looks up at the sound of the door clicking shut and his eyes narrow as they take me in. I know he’s doing a snap evaluation, trying to determine a million things in the space of seconds so I won’t get upset about him fussing over me.
Even with all the recent strain on our relationship, Elijah remains the person I know I can count on most to truly care about me and how I’m doing. Even when I do my damndest to drive him and his affection away.
“Jules?” I ask, stepping forward and forgoing all greetings.
Elijah straightens and comes forward as well. I watch him carefully.
I never fuss over him the way he always did over me, like a parent rather than a brother, but I have always tried to watch out for him too. I see the tiredness etched into the way he holds himself and his face. Eyes so similar to mine that have never been able to mask his emotions from showing the way I do.
He smiles tiredly at me and motions with his hands as he speaks. “Jules is doing fine. She told me to tell you that you better be ‘kicking ass and taking names’.” He chuckles and runs a hand through his hair. “She also says hello and that we miss you.”
I sag a little in relief and nod while clearing my throat that has become thick with emotion. “Tell her I say, same and you bet your ass I am.” He gives me a smile and nod at my response and motions to a chair to sit. I do while throwing out my next question. “So, why am I here?”
“Well, given that you broke protocol and summoned me here, I thought you might want to know what’s going on with the girl, Devanna, I believe is her name,”
“Devi,” I correct him gruffly then frown at myself for caring enough to make the correction. Eli doesn’t say anything, just lifts an eyebrow and looks at his paper before correcting his notes.
“Devi.” He says with a nod.
“So what’s wrong with her? It’s been a day since I took her to the clinic, so it isn’t her just having a cold or something simple like that.”
The first day she had been smiling with enerving energy that just seemed to radiate from her. I almost thought she was going to explode from it there on the train. Even when she was panting and huffing from the climb and run to get on.
As the day wore on the smile faded and she withdrew. Some of the other initiates seemed to thrive on putting her down for anything and everything. Her old faction, her height, her accent...anything really.
Mostly this was other girls. The guys just dismissed or ignored her. Like I have been trying to do.
It was clear after the first night that something was going on with her but no one knew what. I wrote her off by the time we were going to sleep that first night. I just didn’t see her making it. Here we are at the end of the week and I don’t see that changing. I’m pretty sure that’s what my brother is going to tell me, that she’s done.
Once again, I’m cursing myself for not just letting it go and risking myself as I did. Especially now that I know it had been for nothing, because she’s gone anyways.
Then I remember why I ignored all logic and reason. I remember how I felt that night and what prompted me to take her. How small she was in my arms as I carried her through halls, trying not to race along them but feeling a sense of urgency I didn’t really understand.
She was moaning, almost deliriously, but not responding to anyone that was yelling at her to shut up in the dorm that night.
I laid there not saying anything to the others. though I wanted to so badly. To tell them all to leave her the hell alone. Then she went silent and I waited for something, some other sign from her that she was going to be okay.
The others around us were going to sleep, no problem, but I couldn’t. Her silence was deafening to me. I could have left her there and had tried to talk myself into doing just that. Until something made me go check on her and before I even got close I could feel the heat coming off her.
She was whispering something, so faint I could barely hear her until I crouched down beside her. Her eyes opened and they were glazed, she winced away from me and whimpered pitifully but she kept muttering. I leaned in even further and she reached out to grip my arm, and I could finally hear the broken pleading in Spanish.
“Por favor, no ... por favor ... Tuve que irme, abuela. Tuve que ... por favor no me odies.”
I don’t know what it was about her words. Her pleading for her grandmother to not hate her. To understand she had to leave. They weren’t some big revelation, I’m sure all of us felt that to some degree. Worried we are leaving someone behind that will be hurt or hate us for the choice.
It wasn’t so much the words themselves but the way she said them. How strong two of them were, how firm and how much fire was in them as she whispered them out over and over again.
Had to.
As if her life was in jeopardy if she didn’t go. If she didn’t follow her heart.
That was something Jules would do. She followed her heart and come hell or high water she would see it through. No matter the risk.
Did Devi know how much she was putting her life at risk just by choosing Dauntless? Did she even think about how she was nothing like a Dauntless should be in all the physical ways that matter?
But I was thinking like an Erudite with those questions. A Dauntless, a true Dauntless, wouldn’t care about any of that. They would just know there was no other choice. Just like Devi did.
Something inside me broke open for her right then and she wedged herself into a spot that I have hardened to all but two people in my life. Now I don’t know how to make that go away. Tightness starts to creep up on me again, my chest itches and I reach up to rub the spot but jerk my hand back down and look at Eli.
“Some of the others are saying she has the plague or something.”
Asinine.
I know better, and from his look at me, he knows I know better. His lips quirk in amusement and he shakes his head.
“We both know better than that. She is sick but it isn’t terminal…” He pauses and winces before his eyes filled with pain and he lets out a shaky breath then continues while I eye him and carefully mask my own pain “...but it won’t be pleasant for her in the least.”
I nod slowly. “So what is it?”
“Her body is expelling poison and it’s anything but painless.”
“Poison?” I almost shout the question and interrupt him.
Eli holds a hand up to me, a calming motion. “Peace Serum, Eric. You’re aware that Amity regularly imbibes in it, but it seems that her case is extreme. We are talking about a lifetime of daily exposure at high levels. Her body doesn’t know how to function without it anymore.”
I scowl in disbelief wondering how that’s possible and who in their right minds would purposely do this to themselves. But he said a lifetime, so does that mean even when she was really young?
I wave that away mentally and with my hand as well. “So what does that mean? She can’t continue can she?”
Eli shrugs and sighs before dropping his pen and leaning back in his chair casually.
“That will be up to her ultimately, but she’s already waved away the normal method of treatment. I can’t say I blame her. That would have meant removal from training for at least a week if not more depending on how extreme the treatment needed to be. Leadership has already said if that was the case then she was out with no other options available. I was near when the nurse gave her the options and she automatically turned the treatment down, already guessing that it meant she wouldn’t be continuing treatment. She’s staying and will let it purge from her system as naturally as possible.”
“So she’s going to go through initiation while going in withdrawal?” I mutter and look at the table while trying to deny how much that disturbs me especially knowing what I do about how withdrawal patients are treated.
There aren’t many cases where someone gets addicted to substances like I know there was pre-war and the drugs that were common are all but nonexistent for us now. But there are cases where someone gets addicted on the ones we do have and there are even cases where someone synthesizes a substance and then gets hooked on it themselves.
When this happens, the person is isolated and then their system is purged with a cleansing drug. Tests are run to determine how their body is handling the purge and if anything is still off then they are treated appropriately. It can take weeks if not months to treat some of the severe cases my brother has told me about and that’s just from a biological standpoint. Even after he gets done with them they still have much more to look forward to psychologically.
I don’t know if I can spend another night watching her suffer like she has been the last few nights. Now knowing what I do, it’s just bound to get worse and I can’t fucking handle that. “Why give her the choice at all? Why not just send her back to Amity!”
I look up at him when he makes a grunt and I realize that I spoke that out loud. My frustration is coming through loud and clear.
He leans forward with a frown of disapproval on his face. “You know very well they’re going to send her straight to the factionless, not back to Amity. I know you might not care for…”
“I don’t!” I’m breathing hard and rubbing my chest while looking around wildly. “I can’t!”
Elijah’s beside me suddenly and I didn’t even realize he moved until I feel his hands guiding me until my head is between my legs and he is coaching me through my breathing.
When I feel like I’ve gotten ahold of myself, I take the glass of water he hands me and avoid looking at him as I drink it.
I feel like a fucking kid again. Like when I used to have these same kinds of episodes after repressing feelings for so long until they boiled out and over. Elijah always tells me that trying to go through life so emotionally cut off isn’t healthy and I know he’s headed towards another lecture of that kind.
“Are you going to gloat now and say I told you so?” I ask him sourly when I look at him again.
“Have I ever done that?” I can hear the hurt in his tone but don’t respond. If I do I’m just going to end up saying something else hurtful.
I always do.
For being a so-called fucking genius, according to my old faction, I’m useless when it comes to anything resembling social graces. I learned early on that honesty is not the best policy for me. Silence is.
“Eric,” He says softly and leans forward, his arms on his knees and head bowed, “It’s okay to care about people. To open yourself to caring for someone.”
I sneer at him as I scoff, unable to remain silent, hard as I might have tried. “Sure it is. ‘Cause that’s worked out so well for me in the past, hasn’t it, brother?”
He looks up and I see the pain radiating in his eyes. I know my anger and words are opening up a wound we’re still trying to heal between us. That’s kinda hard to do when I’ve refused to talk any more about it.
“I can’t apologize for the way we both feel, Eric and I won’t. You two love each deeply other and that’s never going to change. What you two have is still there and it will always be there. It’s also different then what she and I have, and that has always been the case too, but it doesn’t make what you two share any less powerful.”
I nod and look away, gripping the glass tightly between my hands as my jaw clenches together. “But that wasn’t enough for me to stay, was it? I love her so much I left her when she needed me most. It just proves what I’ve always thought.”
I shrug and look back at him, knowing his next question but also needing him to ask it. Needing to expel it from me just like the little amity is doing right now with her own poison. He’s right I need to talk about this shit. I haven’t been able to until now.
I need to get this all out of my system so I can go back to not feeling at all. Then maybe I can get rid of this new sensation for a girl that has no chance of sticking around.
“What’s that?” Eli prods me softly.
“That I’m not capable of loving anyone but myself. I don’t care who it hurts in the end, as long as I get what I want.”
Elijah rolls his chair closer to me, his blue eyes that are normally filled with warmth are burning with intensity.
“I want to listen to me and listen well. You are not our parents and you have never even come close to them. You could never allow yourself to be like them.”
I listen but I can’t believe the words. I’ve never been able to believe the words. No matter how many times my brother has tried to reassure me of this over the years since our parents all but abandoned us.
His features soften and he smiles at me. “Yeah, you have the habit of pushing all your feelings aside and acting like they don’t exist, but you can never get rid of them. Which is why things like earlier happen. Because, it’s never been that you don’t and can’t care or love, Eric. It’s that when you do, it’s all or nothing for you. Bone deep love is what Jules has always called it. You left, not because you don’t love Jules but because you know that nothing will ever take that love away from you. Not even being in another faction. You said those same words to me when you came to me that night and gave us your blessing. It was something I already knew, but it was also something you had to realize for yourself and one day you’re going to find someone that you love just as deeply but in the it’s meant to be.”
I jerk my head in a semblance of a nod, not bothering to reply how I’m feeling.
I’ve forgiven Eli for taking Jules from me, well, mostly forgiven him anyway. What he says is true, I did come to see that how I love her and how Eli does, they aren’t the same. It’s just that in my mind that doesn’t really matter.
It still hurt and that wasn’t something I cared to open myself to again. I loved her but it hadn’t been enough. End of story.
He pulls back and I breathe a little easier when I realize he’s dropping the subject. Eli leans back in his chair and clears his throat.
“How’s training going?”
“Fairly good, although there was a surprise when it came to finding out how many fears we all have.”
Eli frowns at me. “Did your amount change?”
I shake my head with a scowl and look off. “No, it’s still nine. Which should have been the lowest fucking number among the group.”
“I take it someone is lower?.”
“Yeah. Four of them. The asshole even changed his name to the number of his fears.” My scowl gets deeper when I think of the scrawny Abnegation that’s causing me more uncertainty than he should be. “He’s a concern. I’ve heard some leaders and trainers saying they’re impressed by him. Rankings haven’t been posted since training just got in full swing, but I think we’re neck and neck for first. I’m pretty sure I got him beat in physical, and I don’t foresee fights being a problem, but the scoring percentage for the other stages is a serious concern with his number of fears.”
Eli taps his chin thoughtfully. “That’s an extremely low number. What faction is he from?”
I know where my brother’s train of thought has gone and I can’t say I didn’t immediately think the same when I found out Tobias Eaton’s number of fears. In fact, I’ve been giving a lot of thought to it and what I can do to remove the threat it poses to me.
“Abnegation,” I remark dryly and see him wince.
“It’s the Eaton kid?”
“Yes.”
“Shit.” Eli curses with a grimace then looks at me worriedly. “I know what you’re thinking, Eric, but don’t do anything you’re going to have to live with the rest of your life. You know what they will do to him.”
I shoot up out of my chair and pace around the room. “It’s not like I have a choice here, Elijah. You know what’s expected of me. At some point, I’m going to be expected to have results for them.”
“That’s what they expect. But when have you ever done what those pricks in our faction expect of you?” Eli demands from me fiercely.
“You know why I even bothered to give their offer a second chance. Jules needs this, Elijah. This is how I save her. What does it matter if I turn over some fucking stiff that means nothing to me? Especially if it gets them off my back and me first?”
“Is that really how you want to get your position here? By taking out someone that might be stronger than you?”
I grit my teeth as out the cursed denial, and glare icily at him, giving him exactly the reaction he wants even though I know exactly what the hell he’s doing by throwing that out there.
I call it manipulation and he would say he’s being my own Jiminy fucking Cricket
“How do you think this is making Jules feel, knowing what they want in exchange for her life? Jules knows you as well as I do and I know in your mind you’re already justifying it, telling yourself that any exchange for her would be worth it but how far do you go down that road, Eric?”
The tightness starts again and I let out a growl, spinning away from him and towards a wall. I feel like punching someone and Eli is the only one in sight. “Don’t bring her name into this like some kind of weapon against me.”
I want to punch walls but know we’re already shouting and that will draw attention we can’t afford. We are risking so much already. I stop in the middle of carrying out my need to hit something in anger and just lean my hands against the wall and hang my head.
“I don’t have a lot of options here,” I whisper tiredly.
“No, not a lot, but you do have a few. Eric, we know they’re afraid of you taking the power they covet so much. There was a reason for this and maybe what we need to do is to show them why they were right in fearing you.”
I slowly turn towards him, my mind working double time as my eyes narrow. He waits patiently as I process this, his arms crossed over his chest.
“I’ll need help. Contacts that I know we can trust or that we can get leverage on to make sure they stay in line.”
“I’ve already started working on that. Jules too.”
I want to protest that, not wanting her involved but I know it would be pointless. They made me promise there would be no secrets and that I had to let them help in any way they could if I made this deal.
I gave a stiff nod and then looked at my watch. “I need to get going if I am going to get some dinner before lights out.”
He gives me a strained smile and nods but I see the hesitation. His internal debate and wondering if I will reject his show of affection or not. I step forward and put out a hand which he takes and grips tightly, his hand around my forearm while mine is around his. This is the form of a hug he came up with when I stopped wanting them years ago.
He smiles at me while we still hold firmly. Eli promises to make it for visiting day and that he should have contacts for me soon. We also share words of parting, mostly jokes that have been thrown around between the three of us of what I planned to do once I finally made it to Dauntless. They aren’t as carefree as they once were before our recent falling out, but it does hint that we can get there again given time.
When I go to leave he calls my name one last time and stands there looking serious and worried. “About the girl,”
“What about her?” I ask with a frown.
“I know it goes against what I was saying earlier about opening up and all,” He runs a hand through his hair with one hand and shoves the other in his pocket with the other. “But you need to stay away from her, for now.”
I let all expression fall away from my face and tilt my head. “Not that I see it being a problem for me at all, especially considering she isn’t going to last the week, but why? Does Jeanine know I called you in?”
He shakes his head while I can tell he is warring with wanting to admonish me about my callousness and wanting me to heed his warning for whatever reason. “No. Candice isn’t in Jeanine’s circle and wouldn’t want to be anyways. Something about a friend of hers that went missing or something. So Jeanine doesn’t know I was called in from her, but that doesn’t mean she might not find out from some other source. This girl, she might not actually mean anything to you, but Jeanine is crazy enough to grasp for anything that she can use to sink her claws in you even deeper.”
I feel bile rising up my throat at that but maintain my dead tone and a blank expression. “Like I said, it won’t be an issue.”
He responds with a resigned nod and I’m out of the door quickly after that making for the mess hall. Most of the other initiates had already grabbed food and headed for the dorm which was a relief since I didn’t want to have to deal with them. I ate quickly even though I wasn’t in a rush to get back to the dorm myself. Something about the activity around me and watching everyone go about their lives helped calm me.
Gave me the headspace to think and plan.
Elijah was right about handing the stiff over, it wasn’t something I wanted to do. I didn’t want to win my place here that way just like I didn’t want to have a bit of influence from Jeanine on the leaders to sway them either. In fact, I bluntly told her that was one of the conditions of my acceptance to work with her.
I also know without a shadow of a doubt that if turning number boy over saved Jules, even by way of securing my position, then I would do it and not even blink. If I had to carry that stain on me for the rest of my life I would for her.
The decisions, resolutions really, make me feel lighter. It eases some of the anxiousness I was feeling that I have a solid plan and course of action.
I even find myself talking to a few of the members at the table of the mess hall. I pick at the slice of cake one of the guys shoved at me and listen to them all bullshit with each other, but mostly I just observe things.
I see the stiff slipping from the mess hall, pulling in on himself to try and go unseen like he’s done from the first.
I watch the leaders as they look down at their noses from up on the balcony. Talking among themselves and hardly ever interacting with anyone else. But they’re watching, always watching, to make sure their bidding is being done even if it will lead the faction straight into war.
Max seems to be the one that I’ll have to be the most careful about. I can feel his eyes on zeroed in on me, watching and judging me. Even here when I’m eating dinner like everyone else.
I shift my focus and try to casually look to see if my suspicions are right when I see something out of the corner of my eye.
A small figure hunched over her plate at an empty table far in the back and cast in shadows it’s so out of the way. The tightness in my chest starts to creep back in and I jerk my eyes away, remembering my conversation with my brother.
I know I shouldn’t feel anything but seeing her is a relief. ‘Cause at least I know she’s alright.
So I’ll keep away, but I already know I won’t be able to stop myself from watching.
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Rescue mission (Hogwarts Mystery Imagine - Reader x Merula Snyde)
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Request: I don’t know if you take request for fanfic stories but if you do, when ever you get the time (don’t rush yourself:) ) can you do a Merula X reader fanfic and either Merula or reader get save by Merula or the reader like how Ron Fred and George saved Harry from the flying car in the 2nd HP movie? Thank you!!!!
A/N: I hope this what you have had in your mind :) I’m not sure who Merula lived with, so in this imagine Merula lives with her grandfather.
Words: 1850
Pairing: Reader x Merula Snyde
Summary: Living with your relatives during the summer would always be terrible. Your uncle was a squib, who lived together with his muggle wife. They hated magic. Your aunt thought it was odd and your uncle didn’t want to anything with magic anymore. After having a vision they locked you up in your room, not sure if they would let you return to Hogwarts at all. Will you be able to get away from there?
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After another year of Hogwarts, you would have to go home to your uncle, who is a Squib, and his muggle wife. Since your uncle was a Squib he couldn’t do anything magical and his wife hated magic. Your uncle hated magic, because he wasn’t able to do it like your mother and your grandparents. Besides, you reminded him to much of your mother which made him want to hate you even more. You didn’t have anyone else to go to, so you were stuck in that madhouse for the rest of the summer. Things only seemed to be worse after Jacob’s disappearance. Jacob was the only thing that made the summer bearable at that house. If something bad happened he would take the blame, even though you didn’t want him to be punished for anything he didn’t do. He was just trying to protect you from harm. Now, Jacob wasn’t there anymore and you were alone. You would just have to be quiet or be useful around the house. You weren’t even allowed to write back your friends. The owls would get too much unwanted attention.
You were fifteen years old, ready to start your fifth year at Hogwarts. Staying in the house was harder than expected and you couldn’t wait to turn seventeen. Two more years to go… You would leave the house immediately and live in your parents’ old house they left for you and Jacob. It was always the idea to live there when Jacob turned seventeen, but that became just a dream because he wasn’t there anymore. You just have to wait, hoping things wouldn’t get worse. Perhaps things would have been better if you didn’t get those visions when you stayed in the house. Your uncle and aunt were just having visitors over when you got one of those visions. Another vision about the Cursed Vaults and Jacob. You had dropped a pan and mumbled things. “I’m so sorry about my niece. She can’t help it you see…” Your uncle began. You knew he told the visitors you had some kind of mental illness. The look your aunt gave you let you know you were in trouble. You just had ruined something for them, because you made them look less than perfect.
 You didn’t expect them to fully lock you up in your room afterwards. They would still give you food, but you needed to eat everything in your room. You weren’t allowed to leave your room until they unlocked the door for you. They would do anything to keep you from doing anything freaky. They didn’t even want you to return to Hogwarts. Perhaps they thought if they kept you away from the Magical world you would forget all about magic. You just thought it was ignorant of them, but you didn’t speak to them anymore. Your words would be just against you anyways. You always hoped your uncle would turn around, thinking he would understand it more than his wife, but he had definitely sworn off magic in his life. You wouldn’t be able to change that, no matter what. Jacob wasn’t able to do it, so why would you be able to?
 You held the letters your friends had sent you, frowning slightly. Before you would have been able to write back in secret, but your aunt had caught you doing that last year. They wouldn’t let you get away with it now. Your friends were probably wondering why you aren’t writing them back. Even Merula would wonder why you aren’t writing back. You became friends with her during your fourth year. You had promised to write her back in the summer. She would probably be angry with you, because you didn’t keep your promise. You hoped she wouldn’t hold that against you, after all your friendship with her might be fragile compared to some of your other friendships. She was your school enemy after all. You just hoped your friends would forgive you once you would be able to get back to Hogwarts… If you were able to attend Hogwarts at all. There was no way your aunt and uncle would bring you to London to catch the train.
 It was late and you decided to sleep. Maybe could convince your aunt and uncle to bring you to the station if you behaved yourself for the rest of the week. Maybe they would be reasonable for once. They don’t want you to stay in their house for the rest of the year, right? You just hoped that could convince them. You lied down on your bed and closed your eyes, hoping things would be a little better the next day. Probably not though….
 You sat up straight in your bed when you heard something from your window. You slowly made your way up to your window and opened the curtains. You blinked when you saw a familiar face. You opened the window and raised an eyebrow. “Merula?” You said softly, seeing she was on a broom. “Well, hello Y/N. Lovely to see you behind these bars.” She said with a grin before she turned more seriously. “But really, why are you locked up like this?” She asked. “My visions had a very bad timing.” You said. “What are you doing here anyways?” You asked. “You didn’t write back and decided to check out why you didn’t. I guess being stuck in prison is a good reason not to write back.” She said. “Look, pack your stuff and shrink the trunk. I will try to get those bars from the window.” She told you. You nodded, understanding she was trying to get you out of here. You would take that chance for sure.
 You quickly began packing your stuff, while Merula began trying to get those bars of with a potion she carried with her. Once she got the bars off you had packed your trunk and used Reducio. Your uncle heard the noise and slowly got up, ready to come and get you. “Hurry up, Y/N!” Merula said. You grabbed the shrunken version of your trunk and then you climbed up your window. The door of your room opened once you were on the broom behind Merula. “Hold on tight.” She said with a smirk. You both flew off, just faintly hearing your uncle screaming. You were finally getting out of there. You never knew Merula would be the one to save you. If someone told you this a few years ago you would have laughed at that person.
 “You know, I never understood why the Ministry of Magic thought it was a good idea to place wizards and witches without parents to Squibs and Muggles who hate magic.” Merula said. “My grandfather might not be the best person to stay with, but he is definitely a much better option than that uncle and aunt of yours.” She said. “It sounded like you were very free, living with your grandfather.” You said. “Well, I’m allowed to do a lot, but it’s definitely not the same as living with your parents.” She said. “I can understand that part.” You said. “It’s like something is just missing, right?” You said. “Indeed.” She said.
 The way to the Merula’s home was long, but you were okay with everything as long as you were gone from your aunt and uncle. “Well, this is my place. Let’s hope grandpa is still sleeping though.” Merula said, slowly opening the door. It seemed to be quiet and you slowly followed Merula. It wasn’t until someone cleared their throat. Merula froze, grinning awkwardly. “Merula Snyde, where have you been?” A man’s voice said. You slowly turned towards the voice. The old man’s eyes seemed to be similar to Merula’s eyes. You could definitely tell they were family. “And who is this?” He asked. “This is Y/N Y/L/N.” Merula said. “The younger sibling of Jacob Y/L/N?” He asked. Merula nodded. “And what is Y/N Y/L/N doing here, Merula?” He asked her, raising an eyebrow. “I brought Y/N here, I flew a broom to their house. They locked up Y/N like some kind of prisoner!” Merula said seriously. “That doesn’t sound very pleasant, but I don’t want to see you doing anything reckless like that again young lady. What if muggles saw you flying a broom? That would cause you trouble.” He told her. “I’m sorry…” She grumbled, knowing he was right. “Now, why don’t you lead Y/N to the guestroom. I’m sure you both could use some sleep.” He said.
 Merula signed you to follow her, so you began walking behind her. She led you up to a room. “Look, it’s not much, but I’m sure it is a lot better than-” “It’s great, thank you Merula.” You told her with a sweet smile. You could swear you saw her blushing a little. “It’s just a room though.” She muttered, shaking her head a little. You put your trunk down and grabbed your wand. “Engorgio.” You said, waving your wand. “Let’s hope you have grabbed everything you needed from there. I don’t think I would like you to go back there.” Merula said, grimacing at the idea of you going back there. “I still have to go back next year.” You told her, shrugging a bit. “But last year is the last time I need to stay there. Once I’m seventeen I move into my parental home.” You told her with a smile. “Seriously, can’t you just ask if you could stay here next summer? Or at Rowan’s tree farm? Anywhere but there would be great.” She said, frowning a little. “I would love to, but I don’t think it is allowed.” You said honestly. “Bloody hell… I wish that Ministry would be sensible for once.” She muttered.
 You moved over to Merula and then you kissed her cheek. She began blushing and gave you a weird look. “Thank you for caring so much about my home situation, but it has been like that as long as I remember. Although, things were more pleasant with Jacob around.” You said. “Things have been like that as long as you remember? You are mad if you think you could stay there!” She said, sounding furious. “I am a little mad, well maybe I’m just bonkers, but you know what I mean.” You said with a grin. “As long as you don’t get yourself killed somewhere I don’t care about how mad you are.” Merula said. “Aw, you so sweet Merula.” You said, giving her a hug. “And you are weird, Y/N.” She muttered, blushing again. “That means you love me, right?” You asked with a smirk, slowly letting go.
 “Go to bed, crazy.” She told you. “Yes ma’am.” You said amused. Merula was about to walk away before she turned around with a smirk. “Good night, my favorite cursed student.” She said before she walked out of the room. Oh, you were sure this year was going to be the best. You couldn’t wait to spend more time with Merula this year. This girl was driving you crazy in good way.
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