“There was something about her that suited him like no woman ever had before (…) Something about her was…right.”

Julia Quinn, The Viscount Who Loved Me (Bridgertons, #2)

*chanting* Hozier is coming to Mexico and I'm gonna be there Hozier is coming to Mexico and I'm gonna be there Hozier is coming to Mexico and I'm gonna be there Hozier is coming to Mexico and I'm gonna be there Hozier is coming to Mexico and I'm gonna be there *chanting*

everything feels wrong wrong WRONG and uncomfortable and UGH I WANT OUT!!

Well, now I feel challenged /lh /j.

I think that cDream being autistic make sense quite a lot BUT I definitely think that it is not a root of all / most misunderstandings - at least at the beginning, he was being absolutely challenged by cWilbur and cTommy and I think that he did the only logical thing, trying to protect his server and friends. His friends later turning their backs on him bc he was unable/unwilling to explain his reasons and feelings adds to the autistic theory but as a toxic cDream apologist I can not help but blame them for just abandoning him without really trying to understand him - like, even if he could explain himself better, I really don't think that would change that much - the root of all problem here would be more other people being unable to understand HIM, not the other way around (although cDream definitely made some wild assumptions(or didn't understand how some people think at all) regarding certain people (*cough* Sam) that backfired spectacularly)

(again, this is meant to be completely light-hearted, I like your hot take, just wanted to challenged it. This is also my first time trying to analyse dsmp outside of my brains so sorry if it's weird 😅

Nah not weird, welcome to the fun! Glad you’ve decided to share. (Hopefully this won’t deter you from pitching in in the future. <3) Don’t worry it’s all light hearted around here, as far as I’m concerned this blog isn’t about arguing it’s about discussion. Agree, disagree, further add, I just have a good time talking about my obsession. :) Generally speaking, to me I don’t think it’s about right or wrong (though to be clear I am always right/jk lol XD) because I think there is typically a bit of both mixed in and there is always something to take away.

Anyways… yea so challenge accepted lol. (just as fyi I did write this and the essay kinda simultaneously so umm whatever I don't cover here is probably in that... somewhere....). Now, I did pick my wording very specifically and it’s ok to kinda miss exactly what I was saying. So just to clarify, I did say ‘a’ root because while I believe it is a huge factor at play I do recognize that it is by no means the only factor at play. Along the same lines, you are exactly right, it is not just about him failing to understand or communicate but also largely about them misunderstanding him. It is very much a failure on both sides and assumptions made that cause this miscommunication. When I mean misunderstanding and miscommunication I mean all around. Though I also agree. As an autistic person (and a c!Dream apologist) I do tend to see it more as a failure to understand c!Dream and a lack of willingness to try on the part of the others. Because as an autistic person I am often the one without the information to realize that something has gone wrong. I may not recognize when I’ve broken an unspoken rule or when I’ve failed to communicate properly. But even if I did the other people have to be willing to hear me out in the first place and understand my actual intention.

With that in mind, it does go back to the very beginning. I challenge you to watch the early streams (especially when c!Wilbur gets involved) and see c!Dream struggle to be heard and get his viewpoint across. The founding of L’manberg? Make no mistake it was in large part due to declaring c!Dream the unfair tyrant and villain. And it was easy for them to do so because a) c!Dream is at a disadvantage to communicate the latter. - And it’s not for a lack of trying. Because he does try, he pulls out dictionaries, he pulls out former events, he tries so hard to get them to hear him, but time and time again they miss it. And make no mistake that is on them, as you said they are to blame here. -

And, b) because c!Dream is different that spurs people to think he is wrong, often more subconsciously. (I’m not going to get into too much more detail on this point as this is already so long and I meant for it to be shorter…. oops. So I am aware this is overly simplified and likely poorly worded, but I'll try and cover it more in the essay.) But yes not only is miscommunication and the misunderstanding at play but also misunderstanding in relation to their perception of each other. Both their misconceptions about c!Dream - taking c!Tommy and c!Wilbur’s words at face value, making poor assumptions about him, and fearing/hating what they don’t quite understand - and his poor assumptions about them (don’t even get me started on c!Sam…), often stemming from their brains being literally different.

i miss him and his little cow head so much :(

searching for a new apartment is driving me fucking insane. like i have a job now. i have an income. i'm doin it all. for the love of god just rent to me. you do NOT understand, the current place has mold

Uh oh, it’s happening again.

(My brain is telling me to rewatch Leverage again).

(I am already rewatching The Librarians and NCIS and watching The Mentalist for the first time).

(Help).

Scourge🙀🙀🙀 I cant draw with green I simply don’t understand it😭

Ive started matching jeanette's outfits with mine, thoughts?

no joke i know Sentido is my nice lil drabble project rn but i am going thru so much psychological torture just reading trimax i am GOING to have to cope by coming up with an au to Make It All Okay

after i read trimax. im still in the middle of it all. but GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD tristamp only fans just do not KNOWWWWWWWWWWW

I cannot believe that I just lost trust in Nintendo and madmod, over some very personal history and feelings. I am...not understanding why my personal life is still causing me so much pain, the “things are going wrong because actions are being made entirely out of my control’ kind of pain, and still leaving me so...carved out and dead inside. But with a migrane too, of course, so I can’t just shut off can I? Oh no, it’s never that easy or kind...

But for as hard as these hit, it does seem like I have a way to finally make peace with it. Can block the people who have bad takes. Can stop giving money to brands that aren’t repaying me back. Although what’s been going on with nint has been much harder, and there’s so much more there to grieve. I may make a post sometime about what I mean, if anyone is interested to know. I have been a Nintendo gamer for a really long time, so I’ve got some good stories to tell, and I’d love to finally have an audience for that.

Tw for venting under the cut and in tags about abusive/codependent relationships and trauma bonding.

I already knew but I don't think I acknowledge enough that my relationship with my ex was codependent and I trauma bonded with him.

He's a 10 but he's actually not a 10 more like a solid 5, maybe a 6 on his good days also he's autistic and so mentally ill that he still can't get over someone he talked to for barely 2 months, and it's been almost 3 months

current conundrum is that i need content of sampo koski to make me happy but i cannot make content of sampo koski because finals are approaching and i have papers to write. this will have to suffice. save me mspaint koski. save me. koski mspaint save me. pleasge