Leftists being obsessed with the French Revolution and the Soviet Union is the same kind of red flag as straight white boys being obsessed with the Roman Empire and WW2

Simon: I really don't think I'm ready for a relationship. I'm very obviously not over my ex yet.

Marcus 🚩: cool cool. we'll be chill about this. no pressure. I'll just keep texting you constantly to hang out until you feel bad for me and say 'yes''.

Simon: okay but really I'm not ready for this. You're nice and I think we should -

Marcus 🚩: hey, no I totally get that. I'm so chill here. But let me bring up all your traumas to show you how broken you are: the video (which I didn’t watch 😉😉😉👀), your addict toxic father, how hurt your mother was. I hope that helps you see that you're the problem here, not me. I'm perfect and I love you, and we have the most beautiful relationship ever. Trust me and do what I say. I know what you need better than you do. Because remember I reminded you that you’re broken.

Simon: Okay, dude, like seriously, I'm done. I tried, and you're nice and all, but I don't want to be in a relationship with you.

Marcus 🚩: WHERE DID THIS COME FROM?! HOW DARE YOU NOT BE OVER HAVING YOUR MOST INTIMATE MOMENT SHARED WITH THE WHOLE WORLD. IT'S YOU, NOT ME. I'M THE PERFECT ONE HERE AND YOU WILL REGRET THIS.

there's this really funny thing cishet women used to do to me when i was a bi man where, upon learning I'm bi, suddenly pull out their phone to start looking up all their favorite men to see how i feel about them.

and like. I'm bi. i have all the choices in the world and there's all these beautiful queers with cool genders and ways of expressing themselves, and even some cishet ppl who are really just having fun with themselves - and you choose to show me the most boring chiselled men in suits??

by the time we hit somewhere from the 6th to 10th man feelings get HURT before I'm finally asked “well who do YOU think is cute!!?” and I blow their mind with my choices every time because i have good taste.

I'm sorry.. I don't know how to tell you you're picking from the bottom of the barrel here.. have you seen queer people?? the average woman??

I think if all ppl can say about allura is that she's an obstacle to kl or that she's dead to be kl angst or that ppl shipping her w Lance suck then maybe just don't talk about her ever LMAO

at this point I consider being in a fandom a personality defect

sorry 4 vagueposting i'll do it again. i shouldve unfollowed when they started being super duper gatekeepy about their fave tbh

i mentioned in the tags of my last post that I watched bride of frankenstein (1935) for my horror film class this past week, and i’ve been thinking a lot about it, specifically through a queer reading lens, as preparation for when we talk about it in class… and this morning, it led me to notice something neat on a kind of meta level that the movie does. spoilers ahead if you care.

the basic plot is that henry frankenstein’s old disgraced college professor, dr. pretorius, wants to partner up with him to create a mate for the monster. henry keeps turning him down, so Dr. P starts working on it on his own, planning to eventually force henry’s hand. meanwhile, the monster is trying to just live in the world and find a place in it, but everyone only sees him as, well, a monster, something evil to be destroyed (except for a blind man whom he forms a cute friendship with before having to leave him behind).

but then, when the monster goes to hide in a crypt, he finds Dr. P, chilling there having a meal after doing some grave-robbing, as ya do. and Dr. P’s like, “ah hey, it’s you! come eat with me, friend :) you know, you seem lonely. you know what you need? a partner, made from the same stuff as you. let’s see what we can do about that.”

so, the thing happening here that caught my eye is that Dr. P is actively doubling himself with the monster. Dr. P enters this film seeking a partner who will understand him and work with him, someone who’s gone down the same road, someone (metaphorically) made of the same stuff. now, in this meeting with the monster, he uses the monster’s loneliness for his own ends by projecting that same desire for an equal partner onto the monster. (and the fact that it’s specifically a romantic relationship bolsters the queer reading but that’s for another discussion)

and this in itself is interesting, that Dr. P does this doubling himself (kind of like when the villain says “we’re not so different, you and i”, but not as directly stated, at least in this instance, and to different ends). but it’s especially interesting in the context of how the film ends.

in short, the attempt to create a bride for frankenstein(‘s monster) who will love and understand him fails, arguably framed as an inevitability. this convinces the monster that there is no place in the world for him, so he pulls the switch in the lab that blows the whole place up (because of course they have that).

he lets henry, his creator, leave with his fiancé elizabeth. but he makes Dr. P stay. he says, “we belong dead.”

in other words, the monster sees himself in Dr. P, just as Dr. P primed him to for the sake of bonding with and using him. and therefore, when the monster decides “i must die”, by the same logic, he declares Dr. P must too.

in other other words, Dr P. doubling himself with the monster tied their fates together. when the monster became marked as doomed, he was marked as well, indirectly by his own hand.

and i think that’s a fascinating concept. and i feel like there have to be other examples - character a goes “hey, character b, you’re like me :)” only for character b to later decide “i have to die - and you, you who share my flaw(s), you have to die as well”; or for some third party to come to that conclusion about character b and then apply the same logic to character a who, if not for the connection they declared and fostered, otherwise would have been spared… but i’m struggling to come up with examples right now, so if other people have any, please share!

ik this is a dumb ask to send on christmas eve no less but my family is annoying and im tired and need an escape so im just gonna be a bitch for a little while: i hate how much the stddie fandom feminizes steve while simultaneously equating femininity to being small and soft and submissive both sexually and in general. like its rlly telling that none of these people want to explore what steve could find interesting and comfortable in being femme (even though he's pretty consistently traditionally masc throughout the show in how he chooses to dress and what his general interests are etc) they just want him to be The Girl in the relationship. its the same with how like 90% of the fandom decided out of nowhere that he's a bottom and must also be a sub bc steve, the most sexually confident and experienced main character outside of the actual adults, would absolutely be a stereotypical blushing virgin bottom and wouldn't want to be in charge of his own pleasure regardless of how he's physically getting it

no for sure i actually have seen this a lot with other charas but it's particularly off with steve specifically because of the way people go about it is just concerning 😭. i've actually said before in passing that ppl almost tend to treat steve somehow misogynistically which is CRAZY but it makes sense because like one of the roots of homophobia is misogyny and at the end of the day it's just homophobia!! i think people want to indulge in the idea of him being feminine and simply get carried away and it's clear that their idea of femininity is tied in pretty transparently with soft submissiveness. and while it's true that men don't typically GET to indulge in these aspects of their own masculinity and getting to take this typically very masc character who has shown aspects of nontoxic masculinity can be a thing that invites nuance scrubbing him down until he's this like pathetic little waif of a thing who creams his pants the second the big strong man (in this case eddie but i know this is 99% of what h*rringr*vers do too) comes along to tell him what to do is concerning at the very best.

being gender nonconforming in any particular way is a complex thing and i would ENCOURAGE!! people to want to explore it with kindness and NOT as a way to at the end of the day sexualise and bastardise it to the point of no return. steve IS pretty and he is my babygirl and i do like saying he's a mean girl and he giggles and tucks his hair behind his ear and even wears the tinted chapstick and put him in pink outfits and perfume honestly like 99% of what people do with this i tend to ENTHUSIASTICALLY agree with but it's pretty clear when they're doing it to genuinely explore these things and celebrating the dissection of gender nonconformity and sexuality which has traditionally and continues to be dismissed/a marginalised aspect of being outwardly, clockably lgbt and when they're doing it ingeniously because they think it's like hot. and like yeah totally it's literally so hot but omg have some tact.. the hottest thing in the world is a gnc bisexual/gay man so it's understandable that ppl let their brains melt a little but let's give nuance the floor here for a SECOND please...

I'm trying not to care about YouTubers sniping at each other anymore, but iilluminaughtii trying to accuse one of LegalEagle's editors of "plagiarizing her style" (not a thing) because he tried to ask what plugin was used for some super basic effects (a plugin HER editors didn't even create themselves), and then getting smacked down by hbomberguy with exact, uncredited quotes one of HER videos ripped from a documentary ... man, that's just camp.

I keep forgetting Blaire is still around, because I fell off of her content when she was harassing some smaller channel years ago for perceived copying. Good to know that running her own content farm hasn't changed her.

mental health just straight up plummeting

oh I am super stuck now. just a bunch of checks I don't have the XP to retry. tbh while the writing is still banging the amount of uhhhh Thinking About Game Mechanics is really taking me out of it a bit. which is I guess a natural consequence of getting deeper into the game and exhausting options and leads but it's starting to feel frustrating in a way it didn't before.

finding a new fic in my current hyperfixation's tag on AO3 (y'all know what it is) that is an interesting AU, and hoping all the while as I read that the author isn't fucking nasty like the last person I ran into was (and somehow saw me posting about it even tho I didn't tag it or even mention the fandom in the post itself, and bitched at me for it). They have a twitter handle on their profile, but it's not one I recognize (tho since I go there so infrequently, and have been actively avoiding the place for months now, that doesn't really say anything); idk if they're on tumblr too or not. hh.

i've been thinking a lot recently abt how different my current job is to my first job and how much more i like it and why, and it really just comes down to like. basic humanity. at the hardware store, it was a really intense "time to lean time to clean" mentality, we weren't allowed to chat with the other cashiers even during slow days, we couldn't get caught reading/drawing/goofing off while on cash, we weren't even allowed to leave the corral. at the supermarket, we're expected to take our time w the customers and talk to them. the managers and other departments come out when they're bored to come chat w us! i read the local paper during slow hours and draw in between customers, and its great! everyone is also just really nice and friendly which is fantastic, i can't name one person over there i don't get along with

and i happened to remember the first meeting i had to go to for the hardware store lmfao. i showed up in uniform bc there was no indication that it was a meeting instead of a regular shift, we were basically told to go stock the shelves/face items for an hour (? still not sure why. they did this to all of us and it did Not need to be done) and while we were paid for that time i was NOT trained for it, so when customers came up and asked like "hey wheres the plumbing section" i had to go "um. i don't know :) let's go find someone else" and had no way to deal with it when they inevitably got really fucking mad w me for not being able to help them

and then when the meeting finally actually started, it opened w the manager going "ok i heard some of you had some things you wanted to discuss!" and a couple of the other cashiers reading off a list of issues they wanted to address. none of which were actually addressed. it was shit like "when you guys come down to customer service and immediately disregard the policies we've just explained, it makes us look like the bad guys and gets us treated very poorly by future customers" "ok well are we supposed do about that :)"/"you need to give us our breaks on time. if managers have to be in charge of telling us when we're allowed to go on break, they need to make sure they're not hours late when doing that" "well we're really busy so sometimes we forget but i guess we'll try :)"

... yeah. if i had been a little bit smarter at the time, i would have realized 2wks in that this was a baby union, we were being exploited and i was abt to have the shittiest fucking summer lmao

Cancelled the in person interview for today after discussing phone interview with Mum and Housemate last night (and the numerous red flags and cost of the lyft there and back for a job that ultimately the place wouldn't be able to convince me to take if offered, bc the general consensus was 'this is literally likely to be as bad as the current job BUT with the added cost of lyfts back and forth that they wouldn't be paying enough to offset, why on earth would you (me) take this job lmaooooo')

Which works out good bc the ongoing Mum trauma stuff is hitting hard as soon as I've woken and maybe I can get the Big Cry out today. Or write down any of the memories that have been playing on repeat in my mind

(with all this said, yes, I still asked and do legitimately care abt my mum's opinion and experience with jobs despite this; yes it feels weird; no I don't know how healthy that is or not lmao but I'm gonna lean towards Not Healthy bc im discovering that the work my previous doc did certainly uncovered this codependency and trauma which absolutely was a great help but like...we didn't actually really untangle any of it so I could try and untangle myself from my mum, even from 1600+ miles from one another. So. probably not healthy.)

i’m kind of sorry to say this,  but bianca is a walking red flag when it comes to love

'Kris being an outcast who likes freaking people out means they must be a Bad Person™️ and thus taking their free will and piloting them like a puppet is actually Good™️ morally speaking'

How about I eat your skin how bout that