“That’s where my heart used to be.”

Happy Halloween from Prince Kiriona Gaia the first!

jeanvic dump

The saddest girl in the whole entire world

(my cat Kiriona, when she asked me to pet her and i didn't do so immediately)

something so beautiful about a woman with clinical depression

brush pen doodles while reading harrow the ninth

weeping because way back in book 1, in chapter 1 all the way back on page 22, Gideon says that no one on the Ninth had ever loved her, not even Aiglamene, and the idea that she had been loved would be ridiculous. and then in book 3 we return to the Ninth and Aiglamene saw that Gideon was dead and she was. furious. she was furious with Harrow. everyone else was ready to kiss Harrow's feet and Aiglamene was ready to tear into the fucking Revered Daughter right there in public, until Gideon stopped her. do you think she told Harrow to bring Gideon back alive? do you think, before they left for Canaan House, Aiglamene sat Harrow down and told her whatever the fuck happens out there, that she cannot let any harm come to Gideon Nav?

baby Gideon needed the kind of tender loving care that no one on the Ninth was capable of giving her. this is a fact. but I believe Aiglamene DID, and DOES still love her. Aiglamene petitioned to give her the sword. she saw Gideon fighting against the strictures of the Ninth House and she understood that Gideon would never be a nun or a penitent. she spent hours and hours and hours with her training and teaching and giving Gideon the only kind of love she knew how to give. she wouldn't have done that if she didn't love her. fuck.

Oh, Baby's building a tower into space Space, where he's gonna find his dad

so many griddlehark doomers on this website. smh my head…….theyre doomed by fate AND the narrative to be intrinsically intertwined no matter what. i cannot conceive of a finished locked tomb series where theyre not lying dead in each other’s arms or existing together in some fugue state of unbeing. not even death can separate the lesbians that scratch each other bloody and then cry in each other’s arms. they have been fated to orbit one another literally since their conception. one flesh one end, bitch.

A rough Kiriona from yesterday inspired by a post about her Māori features.

I need to check my NTN copy to get her clothes and crown right, but I kinda like the feeling of this WIP.

Mentally, I’m tucking Gideon into bed, giving her a little kiss on the head, leaving her a little glass of water in case she gets thirsty, and turning on her little night light.

I’m obsessed with how sad Mark is, I wish I could tell him it only gets worse

My roman empire is gideon nav having a literal hole in her chest, when she grew up with an emotional one on a planet where nobody loved her, everyone feared her and all she wanted was some fucking affection.

How nona calls kiriona gaia the saddest girl in the world.

How her father sealed her in to a body that is as broken as she is emotionally, forever burning into her mind what she never got, for no fault of her own.

Gideon nav only gives and gives and never receives. She gave her life, her soul, her body and its still not fucking enough.

Force me out of art block here

The way John tells Harrow he sometimes wishes she were his daughter in htn and then later finding out he *does* in fact have a daughter but she's nothing like Harrow but he still tries to connect with her and share his culture with her and gives her what she wants (I bet she was the one who decided to go fight on the frontlines because it used to be her dream and she was still bitter and hurt over Harrow) but she's still not what he wanted and they both know it and oooouough aurgh eck