#rsd is a bitch and I’m here to tell it to fuck off
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if it’s not hurting you or anyone around you and it brings you a sense of peace or joy it’s not silly. it’s not stupid. it’s not annoying. it’s as necessary as the blood in your veins, and im grateful that you have it
#hyperfixations#neurodiverse#rejection sensitive dysphoria#rsd is a bitch and I’m here to tell it to fuck off#we should be allowed to live without feeling bad about feeling good
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Obey Me! Boys with and S/O who has ADHD
Lucifer-
Honestly, he would have a pretty hard time with this.
Lucifer is very Type A, and when his S/O is in lala land, he isn’t happy.
He mainly worries about his reputation and how his S/O would affect it. Lucifer is a busy man.
He is Lord Diavolo’s right hand man, and if you fail at your job of being a student, it reflects on him.
However, he still cares about you, and would take time to make sure you weren’t struggling in any way shape or form.
Also, if you experience RSD, he would make sure NO ONE said anything bad about you
lest they face the wrath of Lucifer
Plus, you are way less annoying in his eyes than Mammon so even if you get hyper
He’s used to it
Mom mode activated
Mammon-
Oh god
Our boy has to be the responsible one?!
I’m not gonna sugar coat this
You will probably end up as his accomplice
He knows Lucifer won’t yell at you in fear of making you cry
Totally uses that to his advantage
If you go somewhere with him and wander off
He's gonna fucking panic man
“MC?! MC WHERE DID YOU GO?!”
Cue totally confused demons around him, watching as The Great Mammon pretty much has a panic attack
When he does find you, prepare for a small earful
“Why would you wander off like that MC? Ya know how worried I was! If you got eaten, Lucifer would have my ass!”
The scolding however, would stop the instant he saw tears in your eyes
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry!” *Panicked boi*
“Here, just… Hold my hand. You should be honored I’m letting you.”
It’s chaotic but it works
Leviathan-
I don’t think Levi would even notice for a longgggg time
And even then, he only would when you kept spacing out as he explained Ruri-chan’s newest outfit to you
He’s offended
Do you not care about him?
Of course not, he’s a lowly Otaku, why would you?
When he starts to backtrack, you apologize and explain
…
Lightbulb for Levi
“THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE!”
Cue excited rambling from our favorite nerd about how cute you look zoned out
Totally down to learn about your new hyperfocus subject
You like KPOP? Good, talk to him about how your idol deserves the world.
Read a new book? Give him all the plot details, He’ll listen patiently
As long as you don’t mind him butting in on occasion
Satan-
It annoyed Satan at first
How fragile you seemed
How you teared up anytime someone said something even slightly rude
However, he slowly began to love it
It reminded him of a cat in ways
How you stared at one piece of wall for hours
He would 100% remind you about basic things you needed to do
“Did you finish your homework?”
“Have you taken your meds today?”
“You haven’t had a glass of water in a full four hours. Here’s one.”
Yup.
He is basically mom
Does TONS of research on how to help you the most
Sweet baby
Heaven forbid someone activate your RSD
He would very calmly put you in his room before pretty much destroying the poor soul with his anger
After, he would bring you your favorite snack and read to you for comfort
Asmodeus-
He loves this so much
Especially on your zone out days
He could do your makeup and hair for hours without a single complaint
Not to mention, he tries sooooo hard to be your new hyper focus subject
It works a lot.
Asmo would make sure you got enough sleep at night
While Satan takes care of everything else, He takes care of your hygiene
He would brush your hair every chance given to him
Wash your face
Brush your teeth
He even offered to shower with you a few times
You knew however, if he did join, nothing would be getting cleaned…
Anywho
This sweet baby doesn’t care
Just don’t interrupt his beauty sleep
Then he gets a little cranky
Beelzebub-
Probably won’t be able to tell either
The chillest one out of them all
“ADHD? That’s where you can’t focus, right? Okay, cool. Want some fried Newt?”
Pretty much how it went.
He would be in charge of making sure you ate, as the very thought of you being hungry and not eating makes him upset
“What do you mean you haven’t eaten? It’s 4 pm. Here, have some chips.”
He doesn’t exactly give you healthy food, but oh well.
100% the best at helping with RSD
While the others are throwing hands with the demon who decided to insult you
He is protecting and hugging you with his large as fuck body
You want cuddles cause you're sad?
Fine by him
Want to suddenly go on a run?
Sure, he’s just gotta pack some snacks first
He’s just perfection
I love him
Belphegor-
Dude finds it really annoying like Satan
For a while at least
Especially when he is still locked up
“Did you get anymore pacts?”
“No, I forgot. I did make you this dope ass friendship bracelet though.”
Cue steam from his ears
However
Once he realizes Humans aren’t evil
He finds it so cute
“Look, Beel, they haven’t blinked in four minutes.”
Pretty much uses you as his entertainment when he is awake
However, dude loves napping with you man
ADHD makes you pretty much always tired
For me anyway
And this sleepy bitch LOVES that about you
He’s surprisingly a good cuddle buddy
Will definitely pull you back down if you try and get up.
Just a solid wholesome baby
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#Obey me! Shall we date?#Obey me!#Obey me! X reader#Beel#Lucifer#Mammon#Levithan#Satan#Asmo#Belphie#Romance#ADHD#X reader#gender netural reader
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I'm sitting here,
completely or close to completely fixated on the dirty-ass coffee table in front of me. I keep imagining I will see a cockroach, which not only of which I am extremely afraid, but that my fucking apartment building has an infestation, so that's probably why it's a problem in the first place. I managed to do some dishes(about seven forks and a plate) only to discover that we need more soap.
It's pretty bad when you're not even sure if it's ADHD. Can ADHD be completely debilitating? For the sake of this blog, let's say it can.
I never clean my apartment, which hilariously feels like an understatement. How do you clean less than never? I suppose I clean it a little more than that, but I'm the type of person that just accumulates mess everywhere I go. Recently due to cockroach terrors, I haven't been doing dishes as much. Ofc I have to tell myself, if I don't do the fucking dishes, they will come.
So I live in a 100 year old apartment whose halls resemble the Shining. Nothing really connects. The walls don't connect to the floor, the cabinets don't fully connect to the walls, the ceilings don't fully connect to the structures. Fuck my life, right? It's the best place I can THINK of for roaches. So many crevasses, leaky/flat out busted pipes, warm, dank environments...Perfect. And this bitch that's too scared/lazy to clean her apartment...like, there's an inch of dust and grime on most of the surfaces. Deep cleaning? Never heard of her.
Do you ever have executive dysfunction so bad, you can't even function? You're lucky if you can somehow trick or force yourself into doing something. The one thing I can almost always do is be on my phone. It's low energy as hell. Idk what it is. There's just this magic of ease that usually doesn't translate to real life.
I know, I know. I have to be exaggurating, right? Probably.
So right now I am on 20 mg of Buspirone, 450 mg of Wellbutrin(recently increased,) 2 mg of Abilify(honestly, I dont even know what it does at this point.) It's about seven pills, which isn't ideal, but you know. What are you going to do? Like, do they make Wellbutrin in 450 pills?
I javee absolutely no idea what I am doing in terms of treatment, pills or otherwise. I see my therapist once a week and I KNOW I need to go more. I need therapy. I need deep help. Meds aren't just magically going to fix everything, but I keep hinging all my hopes on that, too.
I read about people starting/finding the right meds and it is just eyeopening for them. Lifechanging. That's what I want.
As of right now, I wake up in the morning, take my meds, brush my teeth, and sit with my partner until they go to work a half hour later. From then on, I usually browse my phone or sometimes I play FFXIV for a little while until I remember I'm fucking too scared to do dungeons with randos.
I'm deathly afraid of judgment. From anyone. I know no one doles it out worse than me, but RSD makes judgment like...impossible to deal with. I just try to avoid it, period.
This doesn't extend to real life. I continue to sit on my ass most of the day, maybe take a two, three hour nap. I survey my filthy apartment and think about how overwhelming it is to clean. Sometimes, on a good day, I can manage to make myself do something. Even if it's just play FFXIV.
I'm wasting my life away. I tried going to school, but Soc 101 was too overwhelming. I dropped. I dropped and I was doing well, even though I started skipping classes. My teacher even asked me not to drop because I wasnt even struggling. I sabotaged it bc I couldn't fucking imagine constantly reading chapters, taking notes, and studying as much was required for tests. I dropped bc it was an extremely interactive class and I am not an extremely interactive person.
I got off topic. I forgot to tell you that the cockroaches favor the wall behind my sink, which again, doesn't fucking connect fully to the counter, so crevasse-topia. To make matters worse, I am constantly supplying them with water whenever I do the dishes and splash under the wall. They're mainly little.
Oh, so. I know. Why don't I contact my landlord about the roach problem? It's a problem the entire building has. Save gassing every room in the building, I don't know how they can really address the problem. I may know some semblance of sanctuary if I can move into my sister's lovely 9th floor apartment with a modern structural build, a dishwasher, a sink like a basin like you see in art classes, a washer and drier, thermostat, and a giant, deep bath tub- the kind where you can sink all the way up to your neck.
Ugh, I lust for it. I can only hope everything works out to get it.
I'm an extremely lucky, privileged person. I don't deny it and I feel immense guilt for having any problems at all when others are so much less fortunate.
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I might come off as an attention whore, or always complaining, and it really, really hurts to hear this. I’m not an attention whore. Everyones aloud to complain. I’ve learned that theres some thing you can't tell people, and ye ima shut the fuck up now to some people. I complain because I truly hate what Im talking about and share it with you because I trust you and value you in my life. Or maybe we barely know each other and fuck, I overshare. I know people have been through worse than me, and yeah I know some of my friends are going through worse. I always let them know I'm here and ready to listen. But I’m not any less valid, and neither are they. Why? Because everyones going through something at some point in their life. We all have different challenges in life. Also, due to my adhd, I get excited and happy easily, because part of my brain can't handle emotions well or keep them in check. I also get very angry very easily, or hurt. Yeah, rsd bitches.
So please, try to understand? and in return I understand you better?
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