I'm still pissed off at the fact that so many responses to that post were "um ackshually the dictionary definition☝️🤓" and now that i'm actually a linguistics student i have the vocabulary necessary to explain why it pissed me off so i want a round two.

obligatory and inevitable family christmas letter photos as my dad requested. so at least we have that!!!!

realisation that lenú and lila l’amica geniale are the equal and opposite reaction to tenoch and Julio y tu mamá también

when deirdre maguire said ‘punk is the only religion worth fighting for’

Another piano cover Ves did for Periphery's Jetpacks Was Yes. More info under the break.

Again, same as last week's Periphery post, the music link is incomplete and wasn't saved properly. Still 95% positive it's something I've already posted or will post later on. Also, I got the screenshot below from another source (since I checked through all the Periphery cover links I had and didn't see this comment on any of the archived videos). Not sure which video it was under so I'll stick it here 🥹🖤🙏

He's a fanboy just like all of us, for real.

You could not pay me money to watch a video like this

like not to be crazy but life yesterday for me was just wake up 9am class sit edit (see film friends briefly so yippee yay) oh my god thank god the little bit of time i sat outside in the sun but then class till 5pm walk to store w sam for their shit to be way too pricey to be worth it lmao um not even get on bus till 5:45 call parents around 6:45 dont get off phone with dad till after 8:30. um. watch tv with lydia for a little bit smoke make a shitty little dinner bed. idk typing it out it's like oh thats not So bad i had at least a few chill moments. kind of. it still feels bleak though anyone else

I've been feeling this overwhelming grief and sadness for the past few weeks. I know I should talk to people about it but it feels like I've been in an endless cycle of bad things happening to me/my family since 2020 that I can't help but feel like my life is nothing more than a spectacle for others to witness.

"how are you?"

from left to right: post-it note stack with the top one reading "schizoaffective" that's been on my desk for 3 weeks, cigarette case with Marilyn Monroe containing vogues, nausea medication, probiotic medication

I either need to tear someone’s head off or collapse in a pile sobbing….

I've experienced racisms before. but it has always been from people who didn't know me. people who hear my accent or see the color of my skin and just make a judgment in the first instance. never did i have to deal with it from someone i worked with. so this is new to me. and it makes me feel lonely. it is not even something big, just small little things but it's exhausting. feeling like i don't even exist as a person, just a representation of my culture and people. i'm just me. i don't claim to represent my race or culture. sometimes i hate how they even look at me or talk to me. it makes me want to crawl out of my skin. the way i'm not a person but a concept.

Mumbo rounds the corner of the Southlands wall. He flinches back as he smacks into another person, stumbling against the cobblestone. 

"Woah there!" A strong grip steadys him. Mumbo jerks his head up to see who he's almost bowled over. His breath catches.

Martyn. 

He can't say he's known the man long, but this is definitely the closest up he's been to him. 

Martyn is surprisingly pale skin for all he seems the outdoorsy type. Though nothing like the printer paper worthy skin of his own, it's a much warmer shade like a soft cream and covered in faint freckles. Few and far between they are, they fleck his face in dark brown with the rare bright green.

The patches of fur by his ears cover more area than he realized. It has layers in it, speckled and looking like a nice moss.

Mumbo can feel the warmth mingling from both of them standing so close to each other, too. It's slightly humid out today but the open area in the dark oak trees lets the sun beam down on both of them. It shines through Martyn's golden hair like it was made of the stuff. And then Mumbo looks at his eyes. Oh, his eyes.

His eyes are a striking green, vibrant and intense in the way he's only seen on fresh bloomed leaves in the spring. They make his stomach flip the way they begin to crinkle slightly in interested amusement.

Oh. Oh he's been staring hasn't he. Oh dear. Mumbo sucks in a sharp breath and coughs as his body remembers that breathing is a required function.

"Oh no. Didn't knock anything loose there, did you?" Martyn asks, rubbing his back. 

Mumbo is sure his face has gone a shocking shade of red. He hopes the other thinks it's from coughing and not the casual touch that for some reason is giving him goosebumps.

He splutters waving his hands around as if to fling away the thoughts and straightens back up. His head seems to be running a mile a minute.

"Ah! Uh, um! No not at all! Everythings good! All of me is here and accounted for! Nothing loose!" Mumbo fidgets with his suit sleeves and laughs nervously, hoping he doesn't look like a complete spoon right now. "Er-"

Martyn only smile and chuckles. Patting him on the shoulder more gently than he'd expected. "I'm glad! We've only had you around for a few days, wouldn't want to break anything already. I think Grian would be proper annoyed."

Mumbo can only laugh along as his chest fills quickly with expanding warmth and fading embarrassment as they talk. 

Just a few days indeed. And he's already in over his head. What's he getting himself into? Oh gosh.

my chemical romance 😭

that moment when: everyone's lives are restricted and constricted and these imposed consequences are attributed to anyone's continual individual failures to seek, find, and follow the Correct Path through Life, and so everyone is left on their own to only be seeking & finding these failures as well as the only answer to how their lives can be better....versus Not seeing the world as the free marketplace meritocracy of everyone's personal failures/successes, nor everything in your own life, and thus not forever having to scrutinize Where You Must Be Bringing It Upon Yourself by fucking up or at least failing to do the correct thing, and exist only in perpetual punishment for your ongoing failure and occasional temporary reprieves from it. recognizing everything that wasn't & isn't & wouldn't be [this is because you're bringing it upon yourself] and thus having more capacity & capability to look at the realm of your personal individual self, reality, experiences, life through the perpetual instances of seeking, finding, and following your own needs/wants through one's inherent personhood and exercises of autonomy and recognition of where & when & how one recognizes moments of their existing freely & in more resonant genuine alignment with themself, you know? endless examples to be found in endless fractals of [where & how are people's lives made smaller]. and that of course this doesn't preclude the ability/option at any time to question one's choices, since you'll be able to find more Actual choices available to you (and, also crucially, find more actual choices made by others that are in the pursuit of limiting Yours) to look at, and people getting to exercise their autonomy isn't the same as "everyone doing anything they want regardless of how it affects others" since that [how does it affect others?] element instead being Regarded would be able to lead to recognizing that, in fact, an effect might be the infringement on others' autonomy, hence: There's A Problem....like the ability to just go ham with [questioning???] anything in existence, certainly including oneself, b/c the "norm" is such that rather you're only supposed to be able to question yourself for your failings (or those positioned as less than, thus, beneath you) and not even have the language to express a questioning of aspects of life beyond that b/c stop calling anyone "cis" they're just Normal, Just Be Normal and it would all be fine

So I've finished Spy (2011) this weekend and I'm so sad there's no third series. I want to see Chris and Tim sharing a house, dammit.

Also can I just say that Chris is such a fascinating character? Like, at first glance he's this really chaotic genius who couldn't care less about what others think of him and always has his own personal interests in mind but underneath all that is this man who cares so, so much about his friends and would move Heaven and Earth to help them out. There's a vulnerability to Chris I wish the show had explored more because he's so clearly rattled every time Tim is angry with or disappointed in him but it never really gets addressed.

I guess what I'm trying to say is I just wish we'd seen Tim acknowledge Chris more. Like yes, Chris often makes his life more complicated but he's also always there when Tim needs him and it would have been nice to see Tim being there for him in return.

Hi! As a fellow Humanities Person (sociologist) I've been really enjoying your critical (in an academic sense!) analysis of kpop & the Korean entertainment industry! I'm curious- how do you think social media has impacted kpop? I remember you said in an answer to a previous ask that aespa's choreo seems to have been created with TikTok in mind. And I feel like social media has made it even more difficult for idols to have a private life- like NCT is posting like behind the scenes videos OF behind the scenes videos and I can't help but to think that it seems like there's hardly a moment in their lives where they're NOT being filmed.

thank you! i'm not an authority by any measure but it is fun to speculate/extrapolate and talk about these things with people!

hmm. actually i don't think social media has made it that much more difficult for idols to have a private life, at least in the way that i think you're talking about. yes absolutely it has made idols need to be more careful, bc everyone has a phone now, but for things like behind the scenes content, that's just still just work. they would have been there even if there was no cameras, because things like recording or dance rehearsals or other content filmings are all work hours, not their private life. they know full well that their job is to be a public figure, so when they show up to do work, no matter what it is or if it's being filmed, that's work. has social media made it so that they have to do more things that they didn't have to before? yes absolutely, but i don't think it's that big of an issue for a lot of them. most idols really do care about the communication they have with their fans and showing them more the parts of the process is something that is actually interesting (in my opinion at least), much more so than just getting selfies. i think accounts like the shinee managers (shinee_atoz) are a great way to give a bit more personal context to the official content that comes out (which is what key said abt it when he pitched it) and it doesn't infringe on idols' (or the managers!!) private lives at all.

in terms of aespa's choreo being made for tiktok, that's just going back to the old methods from first and second gen to get a song to go viral because of the point choreo/dance moves. and it did work, next level was probably the most recognizable choreo last year (other than rollin, which was actually old school viral). in fact the whole doing choreo challenges on tiktok is just an evolution of the whole reason point choreo exists in the first place.