Ah yes I love opening tumblr and seeing body weight discourse on a stock photo blog, very nice /s

I’ll be honest i HATE the way the QSMP fanbase is treating Gegg and Tallulah. Like Gegg literally just appears, bro hasn’t done a single thing and people start talking about how they want him to die 😭 ?? And Tallulah starts feeling insecure trough no fault of Gegg and the Gegg tag just EXPLODES with hate. I’m a big petty baby and i don’t like seeing /neg in the tags bro. It just kinda feels like tallulahs the golden child who can do no wrong and Geggs the scapegoat who’s blamed for everything, and i feel like people are already taking it too far

smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.

Never gonna be over how unutterably pathetic and in dire need of ANY kind of companionship or friendship that doesn't revolve around their band the entirety of dethklok are. I love these horrible idiots who are so devoid of any real connections outside of themselves that they will latch onto anyone unfortunate enough to get too close to any one of them! And GOD help anyone they latch onto!!

just saw someone i follow reblog a post that called bi lesbians/mspec lesbians bigots… checked the dni of the person who made the post and sure enough they’re an exclus. needless to say the exclus has been blocked and that person i was following has been unfollowed. kill the cop in your heads y’all, it doesn’t fucking matter what terms someone uses for their identity. and bi women were also considered lesbians before terfs kicked them out. so.

does lime retire from the m34th post canon?

i think he would stay for the foreseeable future.,. (i dont like to think too far ahead because the notion of them getting older makes me unbelievably sad)

i have yet to flesh out the social atmosphere after the events of the final boss battle, but i imagine the m34th would be on at least slightly better terms with the witches (maybe), but in any case they have good benefits and a pension plan and dental and he actually kinda likes it there, so he would stay!!!

you know, as a writer, i want to include minorities in my writing. i want to write a whole lot of diverse and varied characters and if i'm not directly familiar with the minority/identity in question i do my research. especially on stereotypes to avoid and stuff.

and sometimes i see a post and i'm like????? like today there was this post with a sexy lamp test for disabled characters ("if you can exchange them with a beloved pet who needs expensive surgery rewrite your character as a person") and i'm so. i mean, it's a good rule of thumb and i did immediately check over the two ocs i created recently. but i am absolutely baffled?? who the fuck writes cardboard cut-outs for the sake of forced diversity???? how does this need to be said??? like for real??? (i don't doubt it. i wish i could, but. but i am so baffled and appalled and upset like how can you call yourself a writer if this is what characters look like to you)

but also especially because like, i created my characters specifically to include (physically) disabled characters. yeah because of another post that was like "you don't need any justification to break your characters' legs" and i went hell yeah, and also i have a post about crutches saved somewhere and i can make a kickass design (i did), and i made two OCs because one was an asshole and i didn't want zir to be the only visibly disabled person. So like, I made those OCs with the intention of inclusivity. But... they're still people.

They're still characters. Okay I already have the tendency to latch onto background characters too much but of course they're people?? They have different ways to cope with their disability and different reasons for being disabled. They have very different backstories and personalities. (They're besties tho and I love them).

Just. Even if I create background OCs with the specific purpose of diversity (at first, they still need a justification within the plot of course), I create them fully. I mean, is it even worth it if you're not going to treat the group you want to include as people?

Just like. This was mostly a rant because what the fuck man. ain't no way. how. why.

People will really just slap "narcissist" on anything huh

I mean no fanbase is perfect but from my experience the TF fandom is pretty nice overall are there bad people in it oh yeah I’m sure but that applies to just about every fandom.

However that’s not to say I’m excusing bad things within it like misogyny and it’s good when it’s called out which thankfully does seem to be called out in this fandom.

Anyways yeah you’re right it’s not your responsibility to constantly bring up anything negative about something you enjoy.

It's not even about responsibility. It's just not necessary for me to do it all the time. Not every post needs a little disclaimer at the bottom abt how my post doesn't apply to x or y or z. I don't know why I've fallen into this need to do it--actually I do know why. It's because since I've started the habit the anon hate has gone down. It's like I'm shielding my back from every possible bad faith interpretation that could be made, and while effective it has made me just not want to post anything.

There are obviously many times when this effort and extra step need to be done but the amount of which I am doing it is exhausting and needless tbh

people are so mad about the new season and it's so stupid to do so like. I don't think I've died this much in a season but every single time it's in the stupidest most hilarious way like the dude whose car I stole only for them to jump in and pickaxe me to death or the MULTIPLE car explosions bc we all fucked around demolition derby style like I'm howling laughing every time I die fr why are y'all incapable of having fun !!! I wish we could keep a fight mode like this forever 😭😭

just finished silent hill 2. got the "leave" ending...

i have to stop myself from crying since i went to the hallway and listened to mary and james's conversation until the end....

THAT FUCKING LETTER BROKE MY HEART I AM SOBBING SO MUCH BRO

but... yeah that ending is such a bittersweet end, i can only hope james can move on with his life... in whatever way he'll choose. and for laura to have a better future. 🥲

also goddamnit james, eddie and angela are really victims of circumstances... i wonder how they actually are if nothing bad happened to them, but also... that's how trauma is, it doesn't make you stronger, it just ended up changing you fundamentally as a person to the point you might not even recognized the face that stare back at you in the mirror

but the only way is to live with it, while finding ways to... gain strength and not let it be the only thing that shaped your current self.

it's possible, but it's hard work.

literally going through everyone I follow on tiktok and copying down their linktree/carrds/whatever links they have in case this stupid fucking censorship ban goes through.

i know their asses are fake music fans i know wamuu has never heard a single george michael song hes never even heard wake me up before you go-go. esidisi doesnt even KNOW about highway to hell. kars is also there

didnt think id cry over a fanfiction in which eddie munson has BPD, and steve knows this, and literally outright says that he knows eddie could split over him and say or do or feel very hurtful things, but it doesn’t matter to him and he loves him anyway. fucking God damn

because as much as people have claimed to “not care” that i have BPD, they also make it clear that any symptoms are too much and they can’t handle it. and like, i get that. i do. i know. most people just can’t handle someone like me. i’m probably doomed to be mostly-alone and only have surface-level friendships, barring stitch, for the rest of my life if i don’t get better at hiding it. i’m so fucking lucky to even have stitch. like, even my own parents can’t handle me. i am so grateful for my best friend.

the idea that someone could know exactly what BPD entails, could know what splitting is, could know what it could mean, and instead of running for the hills because im toxic they would actually stay, and love me anyway, the knowledge that it’s possible, that i’m not abusive and evil in the eyes of every person ever on this earth and someone on this planet is capable of loving me anyway even if i never meet them, it’s. oh my God. so many fucking feelings. i wasnt expecting that.

Just watched the maze runner for the first time since childhood. Just as Traumatising all over again. Many questions.

me. everyday. bc people literally just be yappin at me.